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Year 2012

June 2012

Day 55- I'll Kill to be Skinny
Day 56- There's not Enough Time in the Day
Day 57- Resisting Life
Day 58- Do you Desire to be a Dominant/Submissive?
Day 59 - Valuing Money Equal to Life
Day 60- Being Shocked
Day 61- Spinning Out of Control
Day 62- I Don't Want to Face Myself
Day 63- There is Not Enough Time for Me
Day 64- Taking a Different Approach
Day 65- Death by Competition
Day 66- Walking the Physical: The Face
Day 67- Walking the Physical: Hair
Day 68- Walking the Physical: The Body
Day 69- The Inner Torture of Self Doubt
Day 70- The Inner Torture of Self Doubt- Accepting myself as Weak
Day 71- The Inner Torture of Self Doubt- Ego Rises
Day 72- 'Why don't you Love me?'
Day 73- What Does it mean to be a Female? Is it different from a Male?

July 2012

Day 74- Being a Women
Day 75- "Sexy Flirt" Character
Day 76- "I Don't Care' Character
Day 77 - The People Pleaser Character
Day 78- Compromising My Body for Others
Day 79-Men are Strong, Women are Weak Part 1
Day 80- Lost and Found
Day 81- Lost and Found - Self Commitment Statements
Day 82- Men are Strong, Women are Weak Part 1- Self Commitment Statements
Day 83- 'I am a Tough Female" Character - Part 1
Day 84- F'ck off Character
Day 85- 'I am the Victim' Character
Day 86- 'Why did I do that' Character
Day 87- 'Why did I do that' Character - Self Commitment Statements
Day 88 - 'Postponement' Character
Day 89 - 'I Can't do This' Character
Day 90 - 'Not Enough' Character
Day 91 - ‘I am Helpless’ character
Day 92- 'Worthless' Character
Day 93 - The 'Perfect Picture' Character -Ideal
Day 94- Give Up Character
Day 95- 'I need to look good' Character

August 2012

Day 96- Anxiety
Day 97 - I am a Loner
Day 98- Judgment is Stupid
Day 99 – It’s Always About ME
Day 100 – Fear of Abuse
Day 101 - Fear of Abuse - Part 2 - Submission
Day 102 - Desire for the Goods and Want for More
Day 103 - Fear of the End as Emptiness
Day 104 – Making Father Proud
Day 105- The Mind as the Enemy
Day 106 – Jealousy Character
Day 107 – Missing the Details in Life
Day 108 – Anger at Myself
Day 109 – Angry Character as Self Manipulation
Day 110 – Jealousy Character – Self Commitment Statements
Day 111 – Hopeless Character
Day 112 – Never Forget
Day 113- Never Forget Self Corrective Statements
Day 114 – Self Sabotage Character: Judging My Backchat
Day 115- Self Sabotage Character: Judging My Backchat – Self Corrective Statements
Day 116- What is True Courage?

September 2012

Day 117- Blame Character
Day 118- Blame Character Self Commitment Statements
Day 119- Disappointment Character – Sexual Prowess
Day 120- Disappointment Character Breakdown- Part 1 – I AM A Failure
Day 121- Disappointment Character- Not Enough Femininity
Day 122- Disappointment Character- Not Enough Femininity- Self Corrective Statements
Day 123- “What are they thinking?”
Day 124- What are they thinking? Part 2
Day 125- “I Am A Fuck Up” Character
Day 126- Letting Go of the Past
Day 127- Letting the Past Go – Self Commitment Statements
Day 128- Justification Character – as Self Manipulation
Day 129- Justification Character – Self Forgiveness
Day 130 – Justification Character – Self Commitment Statements
Day 131- Appearance Character – Intro
Day 132 – Appearance Character – Fear Dimension
Day 133 – Appearance Character – Thought Dimension
Day 134 – Appearance Character – Fear Dimension Self Correction
Day 135- Appearance Character - Thought Dimension Self Forgiveness
Day 136- Appearance Dimension Self Correction
Day 137- “I Need You”
Day 138- “I need you” Self forgiveness and Correction
Day 139- Dependency on Parents for Money
Day 140- Desiring Approval from Family- Self Forgiveness
Day 141- Desiring Approval from Family- Self Commitment

October 2012

Day 142- “Stupid” Character- Part 1 - Intro
Day 143- Stupid Character – Fear Dimension Self Forgiveness – Part 2
Day 144- Stupid Character – Survival and Competition Self Forgiveness – Part 3
Day 145- Stupid Character- Outcasted and Taking Things Personally Self Forgiveness – Part 4
Day 146- Stupid Character- Memory Dimension
Day 147- Stupid Character – Memory Dimension – Self Commitment Statements
Day 148 – Stupid Character –Emotions and Thought Self Forgiveness – Part 7
Day 149- ‘I am a good person’ Character Self forgiveness - Intro
Day 150 – ‘I am a good person’ Fear Dimension
Day 152- “Good Person” Character – Physical Reactions – Self Forgiveness
Day 153- Good Person Character – Self Corrective Statements
Day 154- What is in a name? Part 1 - Self Forgiveness
Day 155- What's in a name? Part 1 – Self Commitment Statements
Day 156 – What is in a Name? Part 2 – ‘Garb’ age
Day 157 – What is in a Name? 'Garb' age Part 2 Self Corrective Statements
Day 158- Impatiences
Day 159 – Impatience’s – Part 2 - Fear of Looking Stupid
Day 160 – Waste – Within and Without
Day 161 – Self Comfortability
Day 162 – Vulnerability – Part 1
Day 163- Vulnerability – Part 2 – Fear and Belief Patterns
Day 164 – Vulnerability – Is a Weakness - Part 3
Day 165 - Vulnerability - Is a Weakness Self Correction Statements

November 2012

Day 166 - Spitefulness is Nasty
Day 167 – Spitefulness is Nasty – Self Forgiveness
Day 168 – Spitefulness is Nasty – Self Correction
Day 169- Resistances to Change - Part 1
Day 170 – Resistance to Change – Part 2 – Fear of No Money – Self Forgiveness
Day 171 - Resistance to Change – Part 2 – Fear of No Money – Self Commitment Statements
Day 172 - Resistance to Change - Fear of Being Alone
Day 173 – The Denied Demonic Within
Day 174- The Denied Demonic Within - The "Pointless" Excuse
Day 175- The Denied Demonic Within - Mirror, Who am I?
Day 176 – The Demonic Within – Quick Analysis Entering a Room – First Time Scan - Part 1
Day 177 – Why Me? Excuse
Day 178 - Not Getting a Laugh
Day 179 – Introduction to My Anxiety – Part 1.1 - Fear of Being Exposed
Day 180 – Introduction to My Anxiety - Fear of Exposure Part 1.2
Day 181 - Introduction to My Anxiety - Fear of Being Seen in a Bad Light - Part 2.1
Day 182 – Introduction to My Anxiety - Fear of Being Seen in a Bad Light Part 2.2

December 2012

Day 183 - Introduction to My Anxiety - Fear of Not Making It - Part 3.1
Day 184 – Introduction to My Anxiety – Fear of Not Making It – Part 3.2
Day 185 - 'Your Sucha Brat!' Dealing with Irritation
Day 186 – How to Stop the Fear of Failure
Day 187 - Fear of Dying
Day 188 – Result of Irresponsible Living – Self Forgiveness
Day 189 – The Result of Irresponsible Living – Self Commitment Statements
Day 190 – Opening up an Event of Attack within The “Taking Things Personally” Personality
Day 191 – 'Taking things Personal' Personality – Thought Dimension - “She is Wrong”
Day 192 – ‘Taking Things Personal’ Personality– Fear Dimension – No Conflict!
Day 193 – “Taking Things Personal’ Personality – Fear Dimension Self Forgiveness in facing conflict
Day 194 - "Taking Things Personally" - Backchat Dimensions - It's Her Fault!
Day 195 –"Taking Things Personally" - Backchat Dimensions - Self Responsbility
Day 196- “Taking it Personal” Personality – Reaction Dimension – “Rudeness Demon”

Year 2013

January 2013

Day 197 - Reaction Dimension – In the ‘Taking things personally” Personality
Day 198- ‘Taking things Personal’ Personality - Memory dimension
Day 199 – “Taking things Personal” Personality – Memory Dimension – Self Correction
Day 200 -Back to Basics - Giving What I Recieve
Day 201 - I'm your Master Dog
Day 202 - Im your Master Dog Part 2
Day 203 - Realizing the Change that is Necessary for Movement
Day 204 - Stopping My Copy Cat Character
Day 205 - More on Fears
Day 206 – Impatience and Laziness
Day 207 – Exploring Self-Acceptance within Me
Day 208 - Exploring Self Acceptance – Why don’t I like Myself?
Day 209 – Exploring Self-Acceptance – I Can’t Stand Alone
Day 210 - Exploring Self Acceptance - Being Cool - Childhood Memories - Part 1.1
Day 211 - Exploring Self Acceptance - Being Cool - Part 1.2 - I’m Better then You
Day 212- Exploring Self Acceptance – Life and Death
Day 213 – Exploring Self Acceptance – Life and Death – Self Correction to Live for Real

February 2013

Day 214 – Exploring Self Acceptance – Why am I Inherently Flawed?
Day 215 – Exploring Self Acceptance – The Feeling of Absolute Dread Series –Part 1
Day 216 – Feeling of Absolute Dread Series – Being Weaker then a Feeling?
Day 217- Feeling of Dread Series – Accepting Limitation
Day 218 –Accepting Limitation - “But I’m so Tired, I’ll do it Later”
Day 219 – Exploring Self Acceptance – Allowing Self Compromise to Be Accepted by Others
Day 220 – Exploring Self Acceptance – Competition and What Money Can Buy
Day 221 – Sports and Me Self Forgiveness
Day 222 – Sports and Me Self Commitments to Live
Day 223 – I am a Control Freak
Day 224 – More on Being a Control Freak
Day 225 - Control Freak - Must Stop the Feelings to Be Liked
Day 226 –I am a Control Freak – When the Fear of Being to Forceful Becomes Me
Day 227 – Control Freak Character – Not Considering the Physical
Day 228- Control Freak Character – Perfecting Things that Don’t Need Perfecting
Day 229 – Control Freak Character – Arrogance and Deception
Day 230 – Control Freak Character – I’m going to Make You Cry
Day 231- The Control Freak Character – I HAVE to Get the Last Word
Day 232 - Control Freak Character - I have to get the last Word - Self Correction to Live
Day 233 – The Control Freak Character – Inflexibility
Day 234 – Control Freak – I am Inflexible - Self Commitments to Live
Day 235 – Hitting a Squirrel
Day 236 – Hitting a Squirrel – Blinded by the Light
Day 237 – Walking with Others – Why People see me as Mean?

March 2013

Day 238 – Mean Character – Militant Biatch
Day 239 - Mean Character - Self Commitments
Day 240 – Leadership and the Mean Character
Day 241 – Leadership and the Mean Character – Self Correction to Live
Day 242 – Mean Character – Back Chat Dimension – “They are so Lazy”
Day 243 – Mean Character – Back Chat Dimension – They are so Lazy – Self Commitments to Live
Day 244 – How is Vengefulness Created within me? –Vengeful Character
Day 245- I am An Addict - Opening Up More on Vengefulness
Day 246 –The Family Unit and the Vengeful Character
Day 247 – The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Forgiveness
Day 248 – The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Commitments to Live
Day 249 – The Vengeful Character – Ownership
Day 250 – The Vengeful Character – Ownership – Self Corrections to Live
Day 251 – Why do I want to Hit Someone? – More on the Vengeful Character
Day 252 - The Vengeful Character - Resolving the Abuse Within Me with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2
Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued
Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?
Day 259 – Does Survival of the Fittest Make Me A Robot? Only If I Allow It
Day 260 – Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1
Day 261- Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1.2
Day 262 – Using Fear to My Advantage and Enslaving Another– The Problem of this World is Within Me - Part 1
Day 263 – Enslaving Another – Control and Power Self Forgiveness
Day 264 – Enslaving Another – Control and Power – Self Correction to Live
Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words
Day 266 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Forgiveness
Day 267 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Corrections to Live
Day 268 – Redefining the Word Loser

April 2013

Day 269 – What Does Being a ‘Winner’ imply in this World for the Human Being?
Day 270 – Winning- Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction - Self Forgiveness
Day 271 – Winning – Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction – Self Corrections to Live
Day 272 – Winning – “I am Better then You” – Self Forgiveness
Day 273 – Winning – “I am Better then You” – Self Corrections to Live – Part 1
Day 274 – Winning – “I am Better then You” – Self Commitments to Live – Part 2
Day 275 – Redefining the Word Winner to be Lived By All
Day 276 – Intro to the 'F*ck Authority' Character
Day 277 – “F*ck Authority” Character – Being Yelled At
Day 278 – “F*ck Authority” Character – Yelling at Me -The Shock of a Voice
Day 279 – “F*ck Authority” Character – Being Yelled At - Suppression
Day 280 – “F*ck Authority” Character – Being Yelled At – Suppression Self Correction to Live
Day 281 – Self Judgment – The Point I don’t Want to Face
Day 282 – Self Judgment – Fueling the Imprisonment of Self as the Mind
Day 283 – Self Judgment – Judging My Physical – The ‘Flawed’ Eye
Day 284 – Self Judgment – Judging My Physical – The ‘Flawed’ Eye – Self Commitments to Live – Part 1
Day 285 – Self Judgment – The ‘Flawed’ Eye – Self Corrections to Live Part 2
Day 286 – Self Judgment – The ‘Flawed’ Eye – Backchat Dimension
Day 287 – Simple Commitments
Day 288 – What Does it Mean to Be Gentle With Myself?

May 2013

Day 289 – Self Judgment – “I Deserve to Suffer?”
Day 290 – Self Judgment – “I Deserve to Suffer” – Self Commitment Statements to Live
Day 291 – Self Judgment – The Voice of Unreason
Day 292- Self Judgment – Back Chat Breakdown – Thought #1
Day 293 – Self Judgment – Backchat Breakdown – Thought 2
Day 294- Self Judgment – Backchat Breakdown – Thought #3 - Lack in Self Confidence
Day 295 – Self Judgment – Rejection is Not for Me
Day 296 – Self Judgment – Rejection and Blame
Day 297 – Self Judgment – Rejection and Blame – Self Corrections to Live
Day 298 – Self Judgment – Is Comparison the root of all Evil?
Day 299 – Self Judgment – Comparisons – Money Memories
Day 300 – Self Judgment – Comparison Memory Breakdown - Money – ‘Rich Friend’
Day 301 – Self Judgment – Comparison Memory Breakdown – ‘nice cars’
Day 302 – Self Judgment – Comparison Memory Breakdown – Money – “I am more rich then you’
Day 303 – Self Judgment – Comparison Memory Breakdown – Money – ‘We are NOT shopping there’
Day 304 – Self Judgment – Comparison Memory Breakdown – Money – “My money is better then your money”
Day 305 – Why is it so hard to keep to Commitments?
Day 306 - Application of Knowledge, is it being Fostered in ourEducational Systems? - Education Research Part 1
Day 307 – The Innocence of the Womb – Does the Fetus See it this Way?
Day 308 - Are you in Control of your Mind or are you Mind Controlled?
Day 309 – I am only Human
Day 310 – Feeling Off

June 2013

Day 311 – Feeling Off – Not Doing Enough
Day 312 – Relationship Paranoia – Part 1
Day 313 - What the Hell am I doing?
Day 314 – Equal Opportunity to a Life Best for All is a Human Right
Superficial – What’s in a Word – Day 315
Superficial – Self Forgiveness and Self Correction to Live – Day 316
The Happy Human and Our Superficial Escape – Day 317
Relationship Paranoia – Part 2 – The Origin of Relationship Desires - Day 318
Day 319 – Why Do I Care So Much What Others Think of Me?
Cultural Dissection - TV, Internet, Movies - Our Poisonous Past Time? - Day 320
Why BIG? – Implementing the Basic Income Guarantee in to Capitalism - Day 321

July 2013

There is Always a Price to Pay, Basic Income Guarantee is a Step Forward– Day 322
Basic Income Guaranteed and Child Care – Day 323
Clean Room High - Day 324
Militarized State the Way of the Future? War Paranoia and Basic IncomeGuaranteed– Day 325
What are the Benefits to Living Practically? – Day 326
Why are Words Important and What Do they Imply?– Day 327
Why is Desteni Cool? – Day 328
“What If I was More” – Day 329
The Decision – Day 330

August 2013

Porn and Sex – Why do we allow the degradation of Man? – Day 331
Bernard Poolman– A Man of Life – Day 332
What Does it Mean to Walk Process and Never Give Up? - Day 333
Pills over Berries, are We Blind and Dumb? - Day 334
Weakening the Physical through the MInd - Day 335
Why Try When I Can Live - Day 336
Weakening of the Physical through the Mind - Self Commitments to Live - Day 337
How to Live Patience - Day 338
Irritation and Impatience Self Support - Day 339
How to Stop the Too-Muchness Delay - Day 340
Living Equality - Self Acceptance Support - Day 341

September 2013

Communication - Why do I Suck at it? - Part 1 - Day 342
What does the act of war say about us as a human civilization? - Day 343
"Mind Give Me Joy" - Day 344
Seeing life as Boring - Day 345
'Testing Things' to Hide from Myself - Day 346

October 2013

Pompous Me – The Elite Within – Part 1 – Day 347
Pompous Me - Money Makes Me Powerful – Day 348
The Linger Trouble that Won’t Quit – What does this Imply? – Day 349
Lingering Thoughts that Create Abuse – Day 350
Existing within a Constant Belief – Why? – Day 351
Constant States of Belief is Not Life - Day 352
What will it take to Co-Exist in this World? – Day 353
Why have we created a scenario in this world where there is not enough? - Day 354
The Energy Within Creates the Actions Without – Day 355

November 2013

Correcting Embarrassing Actions and Living - Part 1 - Day 356

December 2013

Walking from Desires to Agreements - Day 357
What Have I learned so Far about the Mind? Day 358
The Mind is to Blame - Day 359
What does it mean to walk in anothers shoes? - Day 360
My Experience Before and After Beginning Process with Animals and Nature – Part 1- Day 361
Horses and People– Before/After Starting Process with Animals and Nature Part 2 – Day 362
Horses and People – Before/After Starting Process with Animals and Nature – Part 3 - Day 363
Opening Up Confidence In the Mind – Before/After Starting to Walk Process – Part 4 – Day 364
My Experience with Confidence In Appearance - Part 5 - Day 365
Opening Up Confidence within the Mind – Money – Part 6 – Day 366
Confidence in the Mind – In a Group/Alone – Part 7.1 – Day 367

Year 2014

January 2014

Confidence in Group Dynamics – Part 7.2 – Day 368
Confidence in the Mind when Alone – Part 7.3 – Day 369
Opening Up Inferiority in the Mind – Part 1 – Day 370
Opening Up Inferiority in the Mind – What does it mean in the Mind tobe Embarrassed? – Part 2- Day 371
Opening Up Inferiority in the Mind – Knowing When to Stay or Go – Part 3 – Day 372
Inferiority in the Mind and Intellect – Part 4 – Day 373
Freezing Cold and Freezing Bodies – Day 374
Confidence to Self Confidence – A Self Creation Process – Day 375
In and Out of Reality - Day 376
Hearing ‘Bad’ News – Day 377
Will We Change Our Ways Before Our Ways Change Us? - Day 378
Stepping Beyond the Corruption - Day 379
Am I a Caring Person? – Day 380
Am I a Caring Person? Sf and Scs – Day 381
Becoming Equal with the Greater and the Smaller of Self – Day 382
Am I Less Responsible then the ‘Elite’ of this World? – Day 383
A Man Living Closely with Lions - Is this Possible? - Day 384
Perfect Others While I Stand Imperfect Within - Day 385
The Importance of Communication with Others – Day 386
The Starting Point of My Day Will Be the Starting Point of My Way – Day 387
Is Self Pity Ever Relevant? - Day 388
Fraudulent Behavior – Where Do I Apply? – Day 389
Am I a Fraud and can I correct this? - Day 390
Survival Instinct Programming - Day 391
Survival Programming Correction - Part 1 - Day 392
Survival Programming Unpacked - Part 3 - Day 393
Survival Instinct Programming - Fear of the Unknown - Part 4 - Day 394
Survival Programming - Why Such the Long Face? – Part 5 – Day 395
Survival Programming - Sadness and Walking the Correction - Day 396

February 2014

Instant Judgment and Rectification– Day 397
Insta-judgment – Is this All I Am? – Day 398
Insta- Judgment – Judging from the Past – Day 399
Anger at Another is Anger at Myself - Day 400
The Gloomy Outlook of Life - Day 401
The Great Escape - Day 402
How Seeing Self Here Has Supported Me in Change – Day 403

March 2014

Just Take Me Away..... – Day 404
Is My Love for Real? - Day 405
Motherly Care – Becoming Unconditional – Day 406
Walking the Path of No Return – Day 407

April 2014

We Are, What We Eat – Day 408
Redefining and Living the Word - Work - Day 409
Life Support through Reacting to Another's Words - Day 410

May 2014

Redefining and Living the Word - Weakness - Day 411
Knowing When To Let Go and Knowing When to Push - Day 412
What is the Physical Showing Me? Stomach Nervousness - Day 413
There is Enough! Stopping the Cycle of Ignorance with LIG- Day 414

June 2014

The Desteni of Living - My Declaration of Principle - Day 415
Realizing and Living My Utmost Potential - Day 416
What Does It Mean to Be and So Live the Word: Gentle - Day 417

July 2014

Caring for Another as Myself - Walking Gentleness - Day 418
What Will Be the Key to Create A World of Peace? - Day 419

August 2014

Starting to Investigate My Relationship with People – Day 420
My Relationship With Others- I am a Failure – Day 421
Do the Clothes I Wear Have an Effect in My Communication with Others? Day 422
Why Do I Resist Physical Movement? Day 423
What was my backchat about tonight? Day 424
Osho Card Support - Ending the Cycle of Self Abuse through Doing it - Day 425
Money Fears- Being Controlled – Day 426
Living Self Courage – Day 427

September 2014

Living Self Courage – Forgiving the Fear of My Mind – Day 428
Living Self Courage - Moving through Resistances – Day 429
Living Self Courage – Trust in Self – Day 430

October 2014

Solution Oriented Mindset and LIG – “Housing First” Project - Day 431
Moving Beyond Limitations – Talking to Strangers - Day 432
Moving Beyond Limitations – Moving through Embarrassment – Day 433
Moving Beyond Limitations – Self Forgiveness on an Embarrassing Moment – Day 434

November 2014

Moving Beyond Limitations – Self Correction on an Embarrassing Moment – Day 435
What My Job has Shown Me about Myself? – Part 1 – Day 436
EQAFE: A Place to Develop Self Perfection - Day 437
What My Job Has Shown Me About Myself - Part 2: How I Live Words - Day 438

December 2014

Stubbornness Dissected - Who am I within this? Day 439
Stubbornness: How am I creating this within myself? – Day 440
Stubbornness: What am I making more difficult then it has to be? Day 441
Update: How I Have Been Letting Go of Self Judgment - Day 442

Year 2015

January 2015

Business Fears- Fear of Failure – Day 443
Business Fears – Fear of Not Making the Sale – Day 444
Reoccurring Nightmare: Being Chased – Day 445
Business Fears: Fear of Not Showing Up - Day 446

February 2015

Business Fears: Fear of Not Showing Up - Correcting Myself Day 447
Some Words on Valentine’s Day – Day 448
Living the Word Patience - Part 1 - Day 449
Redefining Patience – Impatience: Thought Dimension - Day 450

March 2015

Self Correction and Redefining Patience in the Context of Self Interest – Day 451
Reoccurring Nightmare: Being Chased – Self Correction - Day 452
Have you Ever Felt Awkward? - Day 453
"What Comes Next?": The Next System - LIG – Day 454

April 2015

Business Fears: Fear of Approaching People - Day 455