Day 32 - Getting up from Rock Bottom

I’ve been looking at the point of hitting rock bottom, I have been there for my self relatively recently and standing back up from it to stability. There is a point within it, where I experienced myself of losing everything, my goals, my mental health, my physical health, my support system, friends, family, and work/process. at this point when I thought all was lost, I literally lost all stability, I saw everything as lost and in that state I really pushed the limits of others support and my own sanity at times. The mind at this time I realized when all feels lost, all efforts feel futile, and the world seems like it’s going the opposite of best for self and all, that the mind as well as life is giving self an opportunity to yes go through the shit, but for self to realize that which is shit is actually the fertilizer for self to change. To change that which is in the process of breaking down and becoming destroyed, it’s painful yes and can feel ruined. But in such moments there is grace and life always re-emerges in its own way, self emerges through it, as long as self doesn’t give up or give in at the times when one feels like your in a thousand pieces and not stable.

Getting through that hard phase and standing up again takes time and patience of self and those who are in your world to support, I now realize much more about myself, others, and life as well as the mind, to not only support myself but be here to support others who may or will go through similar or the same type of experiences. I am grateful that I am getting stable again and have pushed myself to live the words of consistency, strength, humbleness, patience, self care, and self healing as I gracefully to the best of my ability start again, ask for forgiveness from myself and those I hurt, let go of the past, and start again and keep creating me. My goal & principles has always been clear with oneness & equality and I am seeing how awesome it is a foundation for myself and humans to live by.

They, the life principles, do stand the test of time and I am still in awe of life itself, the stable yet flow of its creation and magnificence and the ability of forgiveness as a grace to start again, even for the toughest times we all face, there is another day, another chance, the sun will rise as breathe is constant, i am grateful and do not take it for granted any longer. This quite a process to walk and learn, but always worth it.