Saturday, January 31, 2015

Business Fears: Fear of Not Showing Up - Day 446




Previous Business Fear Blogs I have done in this Series:
Business Fears – Fear of Not Making the Sale – Day 444
Business Fears- Fear of Failure – Day 443

So today I had a buddy chat and what opened up is quite timely to the next fear I am going to take on in my series of walking business fears, this fear is the fear of not showing up. This fear can mean not showing up to the presentation, but also I want to go deeper and it’s this inherent fear of not showing up to birth myself as life, this is done in every moment, every breath. This is missing out on the opportunity to create my life, so here I realize in the business world and in life in general you have to prepare yourself properly because preventing a problem before it occurs is the best cure, and preparation is key to this. We are here I realize to live life and so showing up to everything that is to be done within each step or breath I take in my business and in my life is crucial if I want to make a success of it.

If I have not prepared for a project at work or say in school, and when it comes time to pay the consequences like flubbing up in a meeting or not knowing what to do on a test, these consequences are obviously not enjoyable and don’t promote success within myself. I am here to be successful in whatever I endeavor on, and with the business I am currently walking, I plan to do the best I am able to. So I have committed myself to prepare myself and ensure I am ready and able to do whatever it’ll take to ensure I am prepared to show up and make the best of the opportunities that open up.

Showing up has been a point that has fears attached to it though as I look at it here, mainly of rejection and humiliation. I realize I still have a lot to learn, a lot to take in, and a lot of correction and testing to be walked, and holding onto fear only limits this potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknowns of showing up in life because there is a certain amount of risk involved and so self trust is needed and success is not guaranteed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not making it to a satisfactory point of not having self trust enough to walk the sales process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that self trust is developed through living it, it’s not based on the external but based on the internal of myself and who I am in each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself away to the external picture that I react to, I realize, see, and understand that I have not developed this trust within myself as of yet, so I have to embrace myself and the environment in these moments and realize I will be able to stand and direct myself through whatever is here to be faced.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see life within the pictures that exist in my mind being projected onto reality, I see, realize, and understand that this mind pictures are based on movement within self as thoughts, energies, feelings, emotions, and that within this it is in a self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear life here in the external when i see, realize, and understand all that exist here is self, we are all equal and one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to stand.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take full self responsibility for myself and my actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the only point that exist and it’s simple is to live best for all in each breath and let go of the system as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in fear of this point of unknown within what is to come in the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear other people and their multiple reactions toward me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing what to say or what to do in moments of the presentation or speaking to others if and when they should react.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that a correction process is needed within all life, each being in all it’s forms have a process to walk to self perfection until one is here. So as can be seen with the state of our world, we have to walk this self perfection process each and everyone and it’ll take time.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the ridicule and cruelty in others, when I see, realize, and understand I have done this myself and still do it within my mind, so if I ask of another person to stop being cruel and mean I must end it within myself first.

Will continue the self correction process in the next blog. Thanks for reading. 

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Reoccurring Nightmare: Being Chased – Day 445



So over my years of being on this planet and especially into my adulthood years I have had a reoccurring themed nightmare of being chased by people, usually like a movie seen, guys with guns or some sort of vengeance out to hurt me, well that is what it feels like anyway. And tonight, I also finished the transcription to the Future of Consciousness recording done on eqafe about Nightmares, and I suggest anyone who wants in in-depth understanding of where nightmares come from and why we have them, to check this one out. So for me, I want to investigate this reoccurring nightmare I have been having, within the dream, I am scared, I am afraid of being caught by these people chasing me and being harmed. So the energy existing within me in the dream is fear and anxiety fueled by people trying to harm me, and me always in a constant state of tension and stress to get away from them. Obviously, these people in my dream want something from me and they'll stop at nothing to get it, and so I have to run and become exhausted to get to a point of safety, though this safety is never permanent because I am always on the look out for these people and always in a state of being ready to run if I need to.

So the energy I am working with is – anxiety, fear, and stress based on being chased and not knowing what will happen in the future. Stress due to the fact of possibly being caught and being harmed, and having beliefs about the people that they will harm me, I am in great danger, and I can not relax in my own space, I am always needing to be on guard and looking out for threats against my life by people out there, the bad people in this world.

I can see this pattern of running from people aligning with the self judgment pattern I have been walking, I have this fear of people that I need to be on the look out, I am always in a state of tension because I believe people are out to harm me, and they will do so at anytime. I am afraid of being harmed by people and so the fear is perpetuated in my external reality because I fear people, I don’t understand them, I don’t really get to know them, I just straight out follow my reaction of fearing them and believing they will harm me. This causes me never really to be able to relax in my own skin because I am always tense and stressed about what others will do to me and this is based on my own self judgments I have created against myself, that I am inferior and people will harm me and take advantage of me due to me not being 100 percent perfect within myself where I judge myself as not as attractive as others and not as intelligent.

This also has developed into many forms of reactions within myself towards others in my day to day living, so the feeling of being chased is the experience I am doing to myself of not facing myself in my own reality. Allowing these fears and beliefs about who I am chase me around day in and day out, allowing projections to direct me, allowing energy to overtake me, and not standing within these moments and saying no to here no further, and walking the process to face myself and stop. So I have just been allowing myself to torture myself into this cat and mouse game of waiting for the next judgment, waiting for the next energy burst of emotion, and waiting for the next bout of depression because I believe I am being harmed by others and people are out to get me. When all the while I have been harming myself and chasing myself into a circle of self compromise through judging myself. Time to stop this once and for all, and forgive myself and release myself from this nightmare scenario. 

More to come in my next blog, thanks for reading.

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Business Fears – Fear of Not Making the Sale – Day 444



So here I am looking at a fear of not making a sale due to the fact that I have yet to make a sale in my business venture that I am walking. This fear is more due to a future projection because when I look at this fear it’s based on the fact that I am uncertain of what making a sale will look like or be like. I have yet to do a presentation for people, so I am new and fresh at becoming a sales women. I within myself want to go into judgment and strife about what I haven’t done yet and what others are doing that I am not, and go into the fear of never making the sale.

Though this is, if I look at it realistically and within reason, not supportive and not measuring the facts of what is here, that I am new to this business and will have to walk the steps to accumulate the creation of selling my product through testing points and adjusting myself as I progress. So I have to walk the talk so to speak and this is where I find lies the true nature of this fear, fearing that I will not walk the steps necessary to ensure I give my business and myself every potential opportunity I am able to to in fact make the sale and become successful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not making a sale within the business that I am walking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a future projection of making a sale or not within walking the business plan that I have committed myself to walk and execute.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the potential of facing new people and new faces and being rejected within them in harsh or deliberate ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing rejection when I am putting myself out in front of others to make a decision of acceptance or rejection. I realize, see, and understand that within this decision rejection is an option that will likely come up often and that I am not defined by this decision, but by who I am within the action each and every moment I walk my business regardless of what I face or who I face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined by rejection as if this defines who I am as a being and see, realize, and understand that it is a fact of the business and life based on the practical consideration of other beings and if it is necessary or not to have this product in their life (though it is lol necessary for all to have this product in their lives).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear rejection instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that it holds a gift and opportunity to grow within understanding myself in the product I am selling and understanding from other’s perspective information that otherwise I would not have been privy to about myself within selling the product to them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see rejection within not making a sale as a negative point within myself such as I failed instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding it is a key to understanding how to become successful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become emotionally driven based on rejection instead of seeing and understanding and realizing that it really is as a point of reference to where the product or myself require consideration within an adjustment or correction within what is being lived at that time and how I am selling myself as the product.

When and as I see I am going into a point of fearing rejection and fearing not making a sale, I stop and breath, and realize that I am going into emotion instead of breathing and grounding myself into reality in the facts that there is something within myself that is needing to be looked at and considered more close for adjustment or correction if this point of rejection is coming up in this moment. I realize rejection is not personal nor defining who I am and so I commit myself to use it as a gift to understand myself better and so become a better saleswomen.

I commit myself to let go of the attachment of failure as negative emotional energy to being rejected through breathing and standing by myself through moving forward.

I commit myself to find the gift within the rejection by understanding what needs to be consider to make myself better.

I commit myself to walk the steps to improve and correct myself within what I see and other’s see through rejection that is not working so to speak.

I commit myself to walk the talk and push myself to expand myself each and every time rejection occurs.

I commit myself to not take rejection personal and see it as a gift to reach success and part of the process to in fact become a success as who I am within what I do.

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Taking Your Emotions out of Your Business - The Soul of Money
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Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Business Fears- Fear of Failure – Day 443




I am currently walking as a women starting my own business, and obviously within what has been discussed and seen within the business world in this type of venture it is not something one can take half-heartedly. I have been in business working for others for many years, though working for myself and working as the responsible party with my partner for the success of the business is something that I am new to. So it was suggested to within starting on this venture to write out my fears, at least 20, and walk the self forgiveness and self correction in relation to them. So in the next blog series, I will be walking this point through to walk through my fears within walking a new business post by post.

My first fear, fearing the failure of the business, is something that when I look at it within myself is not terribly intense, though with this confidence I realize underneath there is hints of fear, hints of trepidation, and so with this realization though subtle will be the first one I will forgive as this fear will undermine and contaminate a lot of my actions to come if it is allowed to continue to drive me on a subconscious or unconscious level.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the failure of my business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the business will fail and I will be seen by others as a failure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed external influences such as other's judgments or words have an effect on who I am within myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the experience within myself of regret and guilt if I fail at the business that I set out to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to be afraid of energy as guilt and regret which I realize is too be faced and let go of based on letting go of and not participating within the fear of not succeeding.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept fear as an external force to drive me into experiencing myself as depressed and saddened when I realize, see, and understand that this fear doesn’t in fact exist within reality and that within myself I have the will and the realizations to move the business as I move myself within the business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be moved by fear and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project myself into a failure belief of my future being generated by the fear energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to become a failure at what I do instead of standing within each moment and making the best of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be then driven by success.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into my mind and desire to be successful and think about what that will look like and be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an expectation of success and so within that create the fear of this not coming into fruititoin.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live from a polarity of fear of failure and desire for success instead of staying grounded within each day and each moment to build myself day by day to accumulate myself in the way in which I see myself walking my goals to accumulate value for my life through in fact living it day by day, creating it as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be driven by energy of fear/desire instead of realizing that I am the key to my own success based on who I am in each moment and what I walk.

When and as I see myself going into fear of failure, I stop and breath, and check and see where have I participated in thoughts of desire. I stop and breath, and realize that success will come when I live it as myself. I realize I accumulate my own value and what and how I live will determine my business and it’s fruitfulness.

I commit myself to let go of the fear/desire polarity for my business and breath to stabilize self.

I commit myself to walk the steps of success through walking the practical steps this will take day by day in consistency.

I commit myself to walk the necessary steps within learning, understanding, and living my business plan and execution within all moments to walk the potential for success the best I am able to.

I commit myself to give my business and the principles I stand as within and through myself as my business the best of my ability.


I commit myself to let go and breath through the thoughts of failure/success and live the change, live the action, live the steps that I see will bring success.

I commit myself to stand as a pillar of courage as I walk and strengthen my self integrity through pushing my limits and boundaries and always seek to expand my horizon's in the consideration of what is best for all always in all ventures I take on. 

Exclusive Recording and Training to support with Building a Business Self:
Creating the Business Mind - The Soul of Money
Building Your Business - The Soul of Money
Building Your Business (Part 2) - The Soul of Money
Business Resolve - The Soul of Money
Time = Money - The Soul of Money
Taking Your Emotions out of Your Business - The Soul of Money
Moving Your Staff and Your Business Forward - The Soul of Money
Guilty Rich - The Soul of Money
Lead as an Example in Your Business - The Soul of Money
Starting a New Business - The Soul of Money
Working for a Business Vs the Business Working for You - The Soul of Money

Check Out these Awesome and Life Supporting sites:
Desteni I Process Lite - Free Course to Start your Journey to Life
Journey to Life Group - On Facebook
Desteni Wiki - For All Things Desteni Related
Desteni Forum - Share your Self with Other Destonians
Destonian Social Network

Self and Living Store
Eqafe - Self Perfection Support
Equal Life Foundation - Site