Thursday, March 14, 2024

-the mighty discipline- Day 10


i strive for excellence, when the flow is for negligence, why do i allow such hardship and danger

the breath is here for all to grasp and live, but self kick back and just relax like who cares! 

relax we can, but duty call, this life is for all, come one and come all 

discipline is the name of this life practice self walk

a lonely road though it's got it's costs 

cost far greater then any could imagine 

cause it's real and its grander then what the books call 'climbing the ladder' 

no need to climb or tussle and bussle 

but step by step action is all you need to stay out of trouble 

life is here to guide as the beacon it is 

self can forgive and be silent, for sure, i am here 

it's not for the faint of heart but strong in one's valor 

discipline oh discipline a mighty friend indeed 

give it one's all and answer that call, the discipline of self is waiting 

Tuesday, March 12, 2024

A Hope - Day 9



a hope -



 a hope is a dream that will never manifest 

don't' hope but live as this is one's resonance 

the resonance is the core of self in a sound environment 

life is the breathe that give one value here 

don't waste this breathe as it's the key to eternal bestowment 

i stand as one among many who are all that's meant 

meant for life living, but we're(Self) not there yet

don't give up, don't give in, persevere young student, you can sit when you stand!

Tuesday, March 5, 2024

what is the point - day 8

 what is the point



what is the point to anything that's done


why do the things done have to have a point


is the point to make a whole lot of money


is the point to win big and show off your honey


is the point to become star and reap the rewards of the rich and famous


or is it to be 


here free


where self is the start and the end


where there is life from the center rippling out to the eternal


i know this is who i am, time to live it to become it again

Monday, March 4, 2024

Standing in the dawn - day 7

standing in the dawn




 i stand in the dawn of my actions of the day 

i have not filled my keep, no i have given it all away 

to a blindness that seeps and seeps until it drowns out 

this blindness it comes no shadow no doubt 

it test the self that is the truth of the breath that gives life 

I squander so easily this breath as life shows full out 

as i hear screams, and crys, and wales, and horrors, is the life of the human - we have come and we've conquored 

not the correct conquering i have realized in disgrace, as life is me and i will see the squander i've allowed to the end 

it's sad as a life that did not give it's hand, the hand of another as it grasp in a care, a caring hand is what is needed especially in the end. 

the end of the lies and dishonesties of self, the truth to stand throughout as this is all that we have by word and by mouth

the gift of life is true and self face this grace, amazing grace it'll be when the child care is seen without.

Wednesday, July 26, 2023

Day 6 - drugs




I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that drugs are a solution in any way of the self honest person (based on one’s self honesty) and use drugs to hide the actual desire and rancidness that exist as me to fuck around and not live the point of self support necessary to stop the addiction to energy as high, and make a place and reality that supports all life through the principles of equality and what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind where I believe it is helping me and transforming my body internally to a way where I am helping this process to become more aligned and best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am in control and directing myself when on drugs, when I could clearly see that I was running chaotically and addicted to the experience I was getting from it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do drugs and weed when I understood it was a tool for the mind programs and to enhance the minds ability to possess me in my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire drugs to fill a void within that I am doing something of value for life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself in to believing that I am doing something of worth on drugs instead of stopping and realizing I am harming my physical body and the abusive outflows such as outburst that occur when I am off them. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to direct myself within chats and principled living talk while in my secret mind on drugs and using drugs to help me to be better and more then.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compete with my peers in group and believe that drugs are helping me with an edge to get over on the other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as unworthy and use drugs as a way to fill the void and experience myself as able to compete with my reality.

I commit myself to stop any and all drugs where I am behind the scenes competing and in delusional states of chaos.

I commit myself to stop weed forevermore.

I commit myself to educate others on the brutal nature that comes out through drug use and that the purpose of life is not to get high but bring about a world that is best for all life as best for oneself.

I commit myself to educate others on the consequences I face where my life is forever damaged from this and will have to face and live with consequences that I didn’t see or expect, but are here and not best for all life.
 

Monday, July 10, 2023

Day 4 - love and desire




 
 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be loved by another and create a belief that this makes a happy/good life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  desire someone to give me the compliments and loving embrace and within this fall and love into points that cause self consequences that create the opposite as the polarity balances it self out to hate, and within that go back into the desire to be loved.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to love others and in this seek a return on my investment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give as I’d like to receive, and in this create a lack I myself where I fill it with energy as the love experience instead of walking and living in common sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to live for the love energy and become misguided and confused when it stops or no longer is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not redefine love and in this find a definition that creates an outcome that is best for all and in this will be best for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in hate when the love energy is taken away as I see, realize, and understand that I am fooling myself as the outplay is the same lack and consequences as I did not stand in the common sense of giving all this as a living experience and not stop until that outcome is the result, but seek self glorification and self interest in gaining energy as it feels good for some moments.
 

Day 5 - Abomination as a human




I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become a human that has disrespected and made degusting the life i was given as a gift from life itself, which i see, realize, and understand resides within all here as the physical.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my physical body and living substance in a way to help defile and deform the gift of life as the physical within the equality equation of common sense one plus one equals two. 1+1+2.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to seek pleasure and glorification of who i believe myself to be in my mind based on the feelings i am generating from thinking about who i think i am as a portal/god type being, instead of breathing in these moments and finding the will to stop my desires, and get into the common sense of the matter that if life is still not being cared for on all levels, as starvation, war, poverty, and my own self insecurities are still rampant.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be two faced as the split i have accepted and allowed myself to become, one in my mind in desires/fears, and one in the physical as my physical body in a way in chaos not realize through abdication of responsibility what is real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not stick to the equality equation as accumulated living steps to the commitments and agreements i set out to live, but instead desired self glorification and pleasure where i am the king/queen, regardless of the state of myself as this world and my life, which is not what is best.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not hold the entire ecosystem of life within me, but the mind's desires, wants, and ideas which when measured with the ecosystem of the natural/physical world i live in, doesn't equate to be balanced.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire the fruits of this life, without standing in the principle of the physics of the living flesh, which is one plus one equals two, and thus create an abomination of a human being, as life is not able to stand within what is best as the best is tainted with evil, equal live backwards, not balanced.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to follow others due to lack of effort in walking the equality equation of one plus one equals two, but instead desire others to walk for me, and me follow which causes a lack of accountability and responsibility to the direction my life will go as it's now in chaotic flow, rather then what i can do to the best of my ability and will, which is to walk within directive principle as my living word/action and forgive myself when i am seeing this is necessary as well as live the corrective action to stop the evil and abnodation of human being i have become to one that births life from the physical and gives back to myself the breathe of life as me here balanced as my thought, word, and living action.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a belief that i am a good person or i am an evil person, and within that polarity separate myself from the mechnaism which is my physical breathe by breathe living in a way that will support others as has supported me.

I commit myself to stop the experiences of lostness and shame to direct in each moment I am given to support others and myself to see that life is able to be free within the principles lived that is best for all.

I commit myself to stand in the shame of what has happened to show and let others see that not standing in one’s self honesty and self responsibility to be a human being with integrity through the equality equation, you lose a great sense of self understanding and self awareness, and it’s not worth it. 

I commit myself to help myself out of the shame and holes of doubt and fear I have created for myself to again stand and do my best to live in a way that is best for all.