Monday, July 25, 2016

21 Day Self Forgiveness Challenge – The Bully – Day 514


Day 1 -

I have had this pain in my head in the back, I looked at it within myself and I saw that it was based on fear, I asked another for some more specific support who is skilled in muscle communication, and she shared that it was in relation to fear of being laughed at or mocked. I have had experience with this in my past and so I know of what this feels like and within me I understand why this fear exists cause I have not as of yet forgiven myself for these moments and forgiven others.

So here I walk the necessary forgiveness to release myself from this fear and thus be able to walk with all walks of life equal and one to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being mocked or laughed at because within myself I have related that to have a fatal flaw and thus my survival is at stack in this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself based on my external reality and thus be moved by either a positive drive or negative one such as fear if and when someone acts in a specific way toward me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the external world such as people because I have accepted and allowed myself to make them more powerful then me and thus allow and accept myself to live and be defined by how I am spoken to, what gestures and movements are made, and how I am treated in any given moment to understand who I am in these moments and thus move myself depending on what is done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value judgments on others in my reality as positive such as that person is ‘nice’ ‘good’ ‘I like’ ‘I love’ ‘they are awesome’ ‘they are so sweet’ if the person sends my way words filled with a message that gives me feelings that are warm and comforting within my body, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be moved and defined by energy movements within me based on what happens around me instead of me directing myself within and as myself and thus within my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value judgments on negative actions happening in my reality such as I am called names or told within what I do is not good or belittling me and thus become reactive and defensively in blame toward the other for making me feel less then when I see, realize, and understand that this is what I have done to myself by accepting and allowing others to define me within my own self living and my own physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put my trust of who I am out there onto my reality instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that this is not how I have to live, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for my own thoughts, words, and deeds within myself and move myself into my own awareness of what is here within what I have lived, what I have understood, what I have proven to myself, and how I live in principles in support and assistance to a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed trigger words and energy as fear attached to these trigger words make me fall and react when faced with them instead of realizing and understanding that these words do not define me and thus I do not have to accept them as so.

When and as I see I am reacting to another’s words based on fear of being mocked or laughed at, I stop and breath, and realize I am the one who directs and defines myself, I realize I am here, I have changed and lived change for myself, I have transcended myself into a person I am proud of at this moment, and I am continuing to move myself into my highest potential.

I commit myself to trust that I am able to stand and move into responsibility in the moment the energy comes by a decision and breath.

I commit myself to stand through the storm until the calm and support always with solutions forward.

I commit myself to understand the other throwing words of abuse and realize I am not what is being said as I define myself.

I commit myself to stop abusing myself in my own mind by walking and living the words self acceptance as I stand in stability in my physical body in the principles of what is best for all.

I commit myself to live examples of support and stop all abuse and fighting til here no further.

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Sunday, July 17, 2016

Eqafe Hangout: The Pace of Breath - What does this mean? - Day 513





In this hangout we are going to discuss the Kryon series - The Pace of Breath interview:

We will be discussing how we often go into emotional overwhelming experiences, and where do these come from sometimes seemingly out of nowhere?

Also what parts of the mind are involved with emotional overwhelmingness experience?

What are the relationship dynamics going on within the body and mind interactions that cause such experiences of emotional overwhelmingness to occur and with such intensity?

What support is available within the interview and the hangout guests experiences of walking the desten-i-process to move themselves from a point of mind emotional overwhelmingness to self awareness in self empowerment?

What tools are available to support one to get out of the mind emotions and empower oneself to have self control?


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Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Automatic Behavior - How to Stop it from Limiting You - Day 512





What is behind the responses that become automatic, where it feels like we don't even think about what we are doing never mind actually consider if it is practical or best for us? What causes such a response and how can each one practice ways to become more responsive to one's environment in a way where we give direction that will support us to be better or best. Check out more in the audio recording. Thanks


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Monday, June 20, 2016

The Outsider - Day 511




What has been overwhelming for most of my life is the feeling and experience of myself as someone who was different and didn't belong. Here my story as the outsider answering questions like:

How have i experienced being an outsider most of my life? Is it something I desired? What were the pros and cons of such an experience? How did I find ways to make it work and what was the benefit of this? These questions and more are discussed in this interesting story about a girl and her life as an outsider. Enjoy.

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Thursday, June 9, 2016

Acceptance and Work: Dissecting the “I don’t want to” Character - Day 510



I have taken on a new position in my job where it wasn’t a direct decision by myself where I had time to consider all the points and find what best suited me, I was more thrown into the position by unforeseen and unfortunate events. With that being said, I am now in a position of leadership and responsibility where I have to sharpen my skills and face fears and illusions I have created for myself. One of the points that has been coming up lately and has been effecting my work flow and environment is this nagging backchat that ‘I don’t want all this responsibility, I don’t want to be in charge of all this, I don’t want to be stressed about money and problems that arise day in and day out, I want to be free and do what I want’, then my mind will go into pictures of how others are getting to have an easier time, get to have fun and be worry free, I want that life again, I don’t want all this responsibility.

Though I realize that I have to change this pattern because I have decided to walk this path and ensure I do my best at it. So I will walk some forgiveness and create some ways forward for myself to find solutions for the points that I am facing within this character.

Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character of the ‘I don’t want to’ do what I have in front of me to do because of beliefs that it’s too hard and too much, not seeing that I am creating an experience of it as too much and too hard because of the personality I am going in of not wanting to do something with the energy of resistance and tiredness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the character of ‘I don’t want to’ based on the belief that I am not able to when I see, realize, and understand I am able to that its more a lack of effort to do what has to be done because I have created a polarized reality of what is good and what is based through comparison with other people in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have my life be smooth and comfortable at all times where I don’t have stress or points that are challenging because within that I have created the perception that this is what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blind me from the realization within the actually facing challenges and pushing myself within them to find solutions and ways forward, I grow and expand and this is when I am most empowered as I am able to be more purposeful within what I do and create more of who I am through the challenges I face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed pictures and thoughts of how good it is over there in the easy life where I see comfort and fun, when I see, realize, and understand each one is equally facing challenges within there lives and that life is not about what you do or where you are, but more who you are within it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the face that I am where I am and I have the responsibilities I have, though I can accept this and walk within the realization that these challenges will support with my growth and expansion, and empower me to be more and more the person I really am as my potential in this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create blame and reaction to others in  my reality for frustrations I am having toward myself for not moving into the challenges in acceptance and walking who I am within them as a creation process and opportunity to live my utmost potential within it.

When and as I am seeing myself go into the ‘I don’t want to’ character and start blaming and going into daydreams about how great life is over there, I stop and breathe, and realize that I am responsible for who I am within my life circumstances and I can change myself to accept this and live these opportunities to the best of my ability and make them something worthwhile that is best for me and all.

I commit myself to live the word acceptance when I see I am going into blame or reactive thoughts as I see I decide to walk this point and that I am responsible for who I create myself.

I commit myself to walk solutions that are substantial to support myself and all involved in a way that supports all to be there best by walking with them, understanding them, and finding ways to support there strengths and strengthen their weaknesses as I walk for myself.

I commit myself to live the word accept – stand where I accept what is here as it is and move into directing myself to live my highest potential and bring the best out of what I am walking within myself and within others.


I commit myself to push myself in challenges where I move into solutions and let go of the desire to resist and give up.

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Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Acceptance: Giving Self Back to Self - Day 509



In honor of my friend and fellow process walker, as she 
journeys on to a new beginning, I will continue to hold her here within
me as how she stood and lived as an example of strength, perseverance, steadfastness, kindness, and gentleness to continue on in my journey until it is done. 

Thank you Cathy Kraft for all you have done to support me, you are loved and will be missed. 
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Acceptance for me has been quite a process of mental strain, I have been figuring out how to accept myself, after all the points I have faced, all the mistakes, all the judgments, and all that is not my best, how can I possible accept myself and actually mean it. What I realized is that it’s got nothing to do with the words or phrases swirling around the word of acceptance such as ‘how can I’ or ‘am I able to’, but simply living the word acceptance, accepting who I am in this moment period.

So I want to redefine and open up the word acceptance because it’s a powerful word and has supported me within my process of accepting myself as I have for many years been insecure and doubtful of who I could become and accepting myself in a way that is satisfying. I didn’t understand that what my mind was bringing up about me was more in relation to ideas, beliefs, projections, illusions in fact that I have created through thinking, and I was misinterpreting living this word as acceptance based on what was coming up in my mind, trying to live up to that to be accepted rather then being here and actually physically living the word in what is here as me in each breath. For example, I can’t deny who I am in this moment, that which I am weak in and that which I am strong in. What the mind wants to do is make the weak something to be resisted and suppressed and only focus on the strengths, though doing this I deny the actual reality of who I am and so shut me out or limit me from actually understanding what those weakness are and creating ways to strengthen them.

So living the word acceptance is merely an action of accepting all of who I am in this moment here, not denying any part of myself, so I can stand equal to all the information and understand who I am within it. This also one has to take the personal out of it, take the positive and negative charges out of the information that one is seeing, such as a destructive thinking pattern of seeing myself as ‘not good enough to succeed’ for instance. Accepting that this thinking pattern is actually happening within me, not making it as if it is true and thus absolute, but that it is a part of me at the moment, but I can always change. I am not limited nor stuck in absolutes of what I am existing as in any given moment, if I don’t resist myself within it, but accept it for what it is.

Resisting is a cool flag point as well for this point of moving through what is here as self that one is not seeing supportive, cause if you resist it, you will tend to shove it away, not wanting to look at it, and thus again deny that which is actually in reality existing within you, a unsupportive pattern. Though if resistence happens then one will loop in the pattern over and over again because one is not actually facing it, accepting the responsibility that it is self as it is existing within self and self is living it out, and the pattern will continue to persist because it is a part of who one is and how one has created themselves. We can not ever run away from who we are, this is impossible as we have actually physically created it over time, we walked the steps to have the unsupportive pattern exist within self as it is, and so with living the word acceptance, one can embrace the pattern that is unsupportive, and walk the correction process to change.


Acceptance is the act of starting the process of self responsibility for who one is and if one moves self into the understanding phase of the change needed, and then living the corrective change, then the pattern that one was once resisting is now becoming a point of transcendence. So the point of this first blog on this word is that acceptance is required of self in all actions to walk the process of self change, and the key to self change is when one take responsibility for self within what one is accepting and change to be the best one can be to live in their highest potential.

I am not promoting nor saying that acceptance is just a point of accept what one is and then just living into it and not changing, no that is self dishonesty, change is required in this process either of strengthen one’s weakness or supporting others to do the same. Living this word acceptance in such a way is supportive to stop emotionally reacting to who self is in the good and bad of self, and walk what is necessary in full openness and humbleness to be able to see what is necessary and understand how to walk the self change to what is best for all.


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Friday, May 13, 2016

What I have Learned - Day 508



I have learned a lot about myself and about what I am capable of through walking this process of living in a way that is best for all, not that I am always living in this way, but that I am creating myself and that I am a plus one always to find solutions for myself to be best and for this world to be best. Why am i capable of this because i have proven to myself that I can live this through changing addictions, thought patterns, releasing energy holds, find solutions to problems, expanding my world beyond my limits, challenging myself beyond my fears, and getting through once impossibility to becoming proficient and stable within the action. I do like walking this process, I like the challenge of it, and I like to realize my own perseverance within what it takes to walk this, through the mind layers and the worst of myself. I have never in a million years thought I would ever be where I am today, yet I am not yet even close to the true potential that exist within me, and furthermore where I am now within myself seems much more real and substantial then I have ever been.

What I have realized through walking self forgiveness, self investigation, self commitment to change, and integrating through practicing the living change in is that this is a process that will take everything one has to birth as life, and in the end of it, it will have been worth every drop of suffering, I can’t hardly speak to the unfathomable untapped potential that exist within and as human beings on this earth today. We are living a minuscule percent of who we really are, and what we are capable of as equal and one to the life source that has created all of this physical existence, we are the creators equal and one in fact. We are it, equal and one, we are life forever. I heard this saying shared by bob marley the other day where, he was discussing money and was asked how much riches he had? He said what is rich? I am life forever. And I mean in fact this is for real, though one can only access life here in the physical and only can become equal and one here in this physical existence to be an individualized life being, so that is why it’s imperative to start walking process now. It seems like ‘come on, what, we are living life, we are cool, life is great’, but if you really look inside yourself you know we are not living life. You will see misery, fear, anxiety, worry, desires to be more, rich, free, and never able to really truly feel comfortable and safe. Yes, some have all the riches materially, but they are not free, they are bound equal and one to the outcome of this existence and if one is enslaved we all are enslaved. Having these emotions and ups and downs of life within our very selves is not stability, is not grounded, is not what is best.

Self responsibility is a process to understand and realize the best of ourselves, it is the furthest thing one wants to look at when waking up and realizing what one has done in this life, causing massive amounts of harm and abuse – if one looks at your thoughts, they are of abuse, twisted, and sick, this is not to judged because it’s programmed, we have been programmed by external sources as we have abdicated ourselves to others as god, as the government, as leaders, as celebrity, the list goes on, though we eqaully have the capability to re-program or create ourselves into the best versions of ourselves. This is all a direct ability within each one, and desteni supports with this creation of self and the tools to see it through. We are equal and one responsible for who each one has created themselves to be here, this is a fect. Meaning in the afterlife you will face all of yourself, so there is no escape. So it’s to understand self within one’s mind, walk the process of self change at desteni.org that many are walking, and stand up for solutions that are best for all.

One of the greatest tools I can part with you here and has supported me throughout my process thus far has been perseverance, I have made it my duty, challenge, and joy to walk and understand myself as my mind and so change myself into life and do what is best for all. I see the potential in myself and the life that is here as all, and the beauty and magnificence that this vision holds of a life of all living their utmost potential has been motivating and supporting me throughout my journey to life by living this word perseverance.

How I lived this word was first I committed myself to never give up, even if I fall, even if I am ready or on the brink of giving up, I breath and move through the storm because there is always a calm, and I continue on. I find ways of understanding, I ask questions, I do research, I observe myself and others, I test points and see what I find, I make mistakes and learn a lot, I become humble and realize I must change, I bear the grit of the pain, I breath through the emotions, and I appreciate the position I am in as a life walker, someone who has the potential to birth as life and be a solution for the world that is to come heaven on earth. I never ever ever give up on myself and I am learning now how to never ever give up on others who are me in fact. So this never giving up is expanding into more and more of my world as I expand more and more into the world.


We all have this potential within us, to be our best in our potential, each one realizes this point and must make the decision to walk this for themselves – no one can make this decision but self. Though realize, there is always support, always solution, and a community of life here that is waiting, willing, and able to assist and support you as I have been assisted and supported and how I have assisted and supported myself. So everything is here to be able to walk this process, one just has to simply start and realize if you never give up, you will make it, that is key that we never give up on ourselves and so life here in what is best for all. Perseverance is the engine that moves you through it all, it’s quite a process, but can be an enjoyable one based on perspective. Enjoy and thanks for reading.

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