Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Living the Word Patience - Part 1


Redefinition of the word Patience:

Pa- t - essence

Pay attention to essences –

What is the definition of essences?
A property or group of properties of something without which it would not exist or be what it is.


So the essences of ourselves that makes us exist is life, we are life on an intrinsic level and exist because we have been given through our physical bodies the existence of who we are now as human beings able to live on this earth. So this essence that has come up within my re-definition of the word patience is what I would refer to as the essence of who each one is as life. Without this essence of life, then we would not exist and we would not be here living. No life is thus not here, which then is not existing.

So within patience I for myself see within not adhering to this action it is based on myself rushing in energy, moving within an energy on a level where I miss life and separate myself from all the life that is here in my environment. Within separating myself from this essence that is here as the life essence that exist within all, I can easily go into reaction, following thoughts, getting overtaken by emotions as energies, not being aware of my breath, and creating consequences that have an effect that is harmful and creates abuse. This is so because as was describe in the word redefinition I posted, I am not giving attention to the other as life equal to myself, but becoming emotional and my behavior in reaction is not withstanding, but fleeting and inconsistent when I access impatience and deliberate abuse is the result which is not of life and not being aware of the essence of myself or another as life. Also, what is missed as the consequence of giving into the experience of impatience is the essence of creating with others, moving with others that in ways will benefit and support both, and miscommunication, conflict, and deadlocks are usually the outcomes. This expression no one can deny is what life is about, to express oneself in ways that supports one’s creativity and living with others in mutual beneficial ways through creation. Life sustains life and within expression as patience’s, when one pay’s attention to the essence of what is here as life, creation is made and what is life but creation and who we are in our utmost potential is creators.

I always find when I push myself and stand within patience’s within these moments of energy rushes that come up of wanting to become impatient with another, the outcome is so much more beneficial. This is so because mutual understanding is able to be reached through moving slower within oneself and grounding oneself into reality where what is happening directly is more easily accessed. This moving slower takes a process of stopping oneself in the moment of energy rushes, and using breath and commitment statements made to ground oneself into a focus of who one is within these moments as an example of life. So redefining the word patience as I did will more support me with a reminder of who I am within these moments of wanting to become impatience and using the tools discussed above to ground myself and so recognize myself again within the other and see what is here which is life.

Conflict is not enjoyable and gets old really fast, it also creates lots of consequence within the mind of self as well as others and physical consequences can occur to the body and the body of others if impatience’s is continued to be participated in, as this accumulates and evolves within oneself and one's world that results in anger, hatred, and then can turn into violence. So this is not to be judged if one has or is participating in such instances, though one should heed these words and start pushing ourselves into living as patience because I am amazed at how much I am overcome by the desire to live out my impatience experience onto others in my life, and equally amazed at the results when I stand in these moments and live the word patiences. Now that I have re-defined this word as paying attention to the essence of life in others, I will more and more stop, take a breath, and live this redefinition into my world because it is clear. This creating a more sustainable self and sustainable environment for all life which is the essence of what the word Patience exist as.


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Saturday, February 14, 2015

Some Words on Valentine’s Day – Day 448




Valentines Day, a day to celebrate love in our life, for me I would like to have love everyday so I have reacted to this day in judgment based on blaming it and those that participate within it as not realizing that there is more to love then a holiday. And so within my mind I get angry at the fact that I can’t have this love everyday. I can't have this love because for this to take place people will have to see that a day to celebrate out of the year is not how love is meant to be lived. This anger I feel is a blame for others not seeing that this is the case and how they are just being ignorant to the fact that we can be different, we can live love, we can be love, but as I am starting to realize more and more through walking my process to life is that I have to create the love as myself for myself to in fact actually make it real. It is my responsibility because as I have said many times in the past that ‘if I can’t walk it, how can I ask another to?’ And the answer is I can not and love made real by living it will not actually exist for me because I am not creating it for myself.

So this day brought out the fact that life is not limited to the designated holidays we have assigned a few times a year were we have a day of ‘fun’, but we can within ourselves be in a state of stability which creates comfort for self and so expand it out from within us to create it in our world. So I realize, see, and understand that I have to create the love and live love and exist as loving my neighbor as myself, actually live this love if I want to see it come alive.

 This is where I am currently at within my process, taking my desires and wants and actually creating them for myself by redefing what love means and living this by creating it in my life. So here with this holiday as the love holiday, I will walk self forgiveness and self commitments to clear any reactions I have to this day and find solutions that will support to walk a creation process to live love in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that within the action of judging a person or an event in this world, I am only fueling and continuing the actual existence of the mind pattern or event that I see is not supporting what is best within this world because I myself am doing the exact same as what the other is doing seperating myself from what is really going on here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate who I am with others and believe I have the right to judge people and point fingers because I have walked this process for sometime and I know better, when in fact it is not about knowing better or thinking a specific way about myself, but who I am within what I live everyday in every breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have a right to judge other people because I have understood something about what is going on in this world like the manipulation within consumerism as holidays and have a belief that others are just being ignorant, when in reality there is many factors to why what is here is happening and that by judging and creating beliefs about what is here is separating myself from what is here and making it so I can’t see and come to common ground with others because I am in reaction which is resistance toward this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge valentines day and holidays in general as a scam and that they are pointless to participate in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry at others for participating in holidays as I judge them as just following the system and willingly being enslaved by the elite who benefit off what is created as holidays.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a anger towards the elite of this world for creating it in the way of parasite and host and be in fear that it’ll never change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the elite for this experience of fearing the world not changing witin myself onto the elite of this world, when I see, realize, and understand that I am really in fear of myself not changing to live in all moments in self honesty and what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that I don’t need to change for this world to change that it should just change because I see that it’s necessary and others are being lazy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others as lazy when it’s really myself who is being lazy by not pushing myself beyond my limits and ensuring I create my life rather then sit and blame others for not changing theirs.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for what is here as my mind and my emotions and my reactions and blame other people and society for me not changing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use blame as an escape for myself not pushing myself and changing my life into a self creation of what is best and living as an example for what is best as I actually live it and not just speak about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the world system and the elite for what is here as this life on earth currently, when I see, realize, and understand that it is in fact who I am within each moment that really exist and that I can not blame anyone for anything because that would mean I am not taking responsibility and actually living the words I speak and instead just speaking into and as death as I am not creating but diminishing.

When and as I see I am going into a point of wanting to blame the holidays, elite, or this world system for how this life and earth is existing here on this planet, I stop and breath, and realize that this is not a solution and that these groups or events are equal and one to me and are starting within the same starting point I am as pointing fingers but not living my talk.

I commit myself to let go of any judgment and/or blame towards any being outside myself and so I commit to walk the process of living what I speak by speaking what it is I am going to create and so creating it.

I commit myself to walk the process of creation by standing within my words and taking responsibility for my thoughts and reactions and walking the process of stopping them and changing them to stand as a support for life.

I commit myself to walk my talk and stand as life one and equal with what is here as self as life.

So love is redefined into an actual walking my talk were I show love to another by giving to them what I have given to myself and seen that it is of the benefit for self and so for all other life. Love is living my words and then being able to walk with others within what I am saying as I will be able to show them self honestly and so share who I am within this stand as life in what is best. And so holiday as well will be here to walk, continue to correct any reactions, and walk the process of changing what is here to what is best for all from within myself and so to the without.




Monday, February 9, 2015

Business Fears: Fear of Not Showing Up - Correcting Myself Day 447




Previous Business Fear Blogs I have done in this Series:
Business Fears – Fear of Not Making the Sale – Day 444
Business Fears- Fear of Failure – Day 443
Business Fears: Fear of Not Showing Up - Day 446

Correction process of the self forgiveness I did in my last blog on the fear of not showing up for my business and my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknowns of showing up in life because there is a certain amount of risk involved and so self trust is needed and success is not guaranteed.

I commit myself to face my fears of the unknown and assess myself and the direction I take in common sense and what is best and lead myself into a direction where I am responsible and stand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not making it to a satisfactory point of not having self trust enough to walk the sales process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that self trust is developed through living it, it’s not based on the external but based on the internal of myself and who I am in each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself away to the external picture that I react to, I realize, see, and understand that I have not developed this trust within myself as of yet, so I have to embrace myself and the environment in these moments and realize I will be able to stand and direct myself through whatever is here to be faced.

I commit myself to challenge my self to continue to push myself into uncomfortable situations within my process as a saleswomen and in life to push my boundaries and thus push my expansion within who I am as self trust.

I commit myself develop who I am within myself in expanding my skills and capabilities to be able to take on new dimensions of my sales process as well as new experiences within my living and be able to walk it and grow within it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see life within the pictures that exist in my mind being projected onto reality, I see, realize, and understand that these mind pictures are based on movement within self as thoughts, energies, feelings, emotions, and that within this it is in a self interest.

I commit myself to move myself to let go of my mind as thoughts, feelings, and emotions within letting go of my self interest to have it my way or get what I want and so I commit myself to stand within the principle of doing what is best for all and so creating this in my physical living.

I commit myself to redefine the words I use to be structured within the direct living of myself in my environment where I have walked a process of purification and standing within a direct understanding of who I am one and equal with my creation as myself in my living and so one and equal with what is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear life here in the external when i see, realize, and understand all that exist here is self, we are all equal and one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to stand.

I commit myself to let go of fear through understanding it in writing and seeing within myself what I am hiding from and denying within myself and so giving this to myself.

I commit myself to walk the process of facing and transcending my fears once I have walked a process of understanding the fears.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take full self responsibility for myself and my actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the only point that exist and it’s simple is to live best for all in each breath and let go of the system as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in fear of this point of unknown within what is to come in the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear other people and their multiple reactions toward me.

I commit myself to take responsibility for who I am within my living and stand within a point of self investigation and self change to ensure I am prepared to walk what is needed to be walked to live what is best for all and have developed the self honesty to in fact do this.

I commit myself to stop taking the external personal and start to stand within using it as a mirror to see who I am within myself and what it is that this reaction within me is showing me about myself.

I commit to walk the process of change within the reactions I have to transcend them through understanding and changing my living to a point of embracing what is here through acceptance, understanding, and solution oriented living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing what to say or what to do in moments of the presentation or speaking to others if and when they should react.

I commit myself to let go of fear and express myself here within who I am in each moment and trust I will be able to direct myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that a correction process is needed within all life, each being in all it’s forms have a process to walk to self perfection until one is here. So as can be seen with the state of our world, we have to walk this self perfection process each and everyone and it’ll take time.

I commit myself to stop judging myself for fearing who I am or who I will be and fearing others, and so I commit myself to embrace all of me here, accept myself, and correct that which is not best for all and so best for myself in all I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the ridicule and cruelty in others, when I see, realize, and understand I have done this myself and still do it within my mind, so if I ask of another person to stop being cruel and mean I must end it within myself first.


I commit myself to stop being cruel within my mind by stopping my backchat and reactions through walking the process of correction and disciplining myself to let go and be here in acceptance and self honesty.


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Saturday, January 31, 2015

Business Fears: Fear of Not Showing Up - Day 446




Previous Business Fear Blogs I have done in this Series:
Business Fears – Fear of Not Making the Sale – Day 444
Business Fears- Fear of Failure – Day 443

So today I had a buddy chat and what opened up is quite timely to the next fear I am going to take on in my series of walking business fears, this fear is the fear of not showing up. This fear can mean not showing up to the presentation, but also I want to go deeper and it’s this inherent fear of not showing up to birth myself as life, this is done in every moment, every breath. This is missing out on the opportunity to create my life, so here I realize in the business world and in life in general you have to prepare yourself properly because preventing a problem before it occurs is the best cure, and preparation is key to this. We are here I realize to live life and so showing up to everything that is to be done within each step or breath I take in my business and in my life is crucial if I want to make a success of it.

If I have not prepared for a project at work or say in school, and when it comes time to pay the consequences like flubbing up in a meeting or not knowing what to do on a test, these consequences are obviously not enjoyable and don’t promote success within myself. I am here to be successful in whatever I endeavor on, and with the business I am currently walking, I plan to do the best I am able to. So I have committed myself to prepare myself and ensure I am ready and able to do whatever it’ll take to ensure I am prepared to show up and make the best of the opportunities that open up.

Showing up has been a point that has fears attached to it though as I look at it here, mainly of rejection and humiliation. I realize I still have a lot to learn, a lot to take in, and a lot of correction and testing to be walked, and holding onto fear only limits this potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknowns of showing up in life because there is a certain amount of risk involved and so self trust is needed and success is not guaranteed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not making it to a satisfactory point of not having self trust enough to walk the sales process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that self trust is developed through living it, it’s not based on the external but based on the internal of myself and who I am in each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself away to the external picture that I react to, I realize, see, and understand that I have not developed this trust within myself as of yet, so I have to embrace myself and the environment in these moments and realize I will be able to stand and direct myself through whatever is here to be faced.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see life within the pictures that exist in my mind being projected onto reality, I see, realize, and understand that this mind pictures are based on movement within self as thoughts, energies, feelings, emotions, and that within this it is in a self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear life here in the external when i see, realize, and understand all that exist here is self, we are all equal and one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to stand.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take full self responsibility for myself and my actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the only point that exist and it’s simple is to live best for all in each breath and let go of the system as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in fear of this point of unknown within what is to come in the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear other people and their multiple reactions toward me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing what to say or what to do in moments of the presentation or speaking to others if and when they should react.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that a correction process is needed within all life, each being in all it’s forms have a process to walk to self perfection until one is here. So as can be seen with the state of our world, we have to walk this self perfection process each and everyone and it’ll take time.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the ridicule and cruelty in others, when I see, realize, and understand I have done this myself and still do it within my mind, so if I ask of another person to stop being cruel and mean I must end it within myself first.

Will continue the self correction process in the next blog. Thanks for reading. 

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Reoccurring Nightmare: Being Chased – Day 445



So over my years of being on this planet and especially into my adulthood years I have had a reoccurring themed nightmare of being chased by people, usually like a movie seen, guys with guns or some sort of vengeance out to hurt me, well that is what it feels like anyway. And tonight, I also finished the transcription to the Future of Consciousness recording done on eqafe about Nightmares, and I suggest anyone who wants in in-depth understanding of where nightmares come from and why we have them, to check this one out. So for me, I want to investigate this reoccurring nightmare I have been having, within the dream, I am scared, I am afraid of being caught by these people chasing me and being harmed. So the energy existing within me in the dream is fear and anxiety fueled by people trying to harm me, and me always in a constant state of tension and stress to get away from them. Obviously, these people in my dream want something from me and they'll stop at nothing to get it, and so I have to run and become exhausted to get to a point of safety, though this safety is never permanent because I am always on the look out for these people and always in a state of being ready to run if I need to.

So the energy I am working with is – anxiety, fear, and stress based on being chased and not knowing what will happen in the future. Stress due to the fact of possibly being caught and being harmed, and having beliefs about the people that they will harm me, I am in great danger, and I can not relax in my own space, I am always needing to be on guard and looking out for threats against my life by people out there, the bad people in this world.

I can see this pattern of running from people aligning with the self judgment pattern I have been walking, I have this fear of people that I need to be on the look out, I am always in a state of tension because I believe people are out to harm me, and they will do so at anytime. I am afraid of being harmed by people and so the fear is perpetuated in my external reality because I fear people, I don’t understand them, I don’t really get to know them, I just straight out follow my reaction of fearing them and believing they will harm me. This causes me never really to be able to relax in my own skin because I am always tense and stressed about what others will do to me and this is based on my own self judgments I have created against myself, that I am inferior and people will harm me and take advantage of me due to me not being 100 percent perfect within myself where I judge myself as not as attractive as others and not as intelligent.

This also has developed into many forms of reactions within myself towards others in my day to day living, so the feeling of being chased is the experience I am doing to myself of not facing myself in my own reality. Allowing these fears and beliefs about who I am chase me around day in and day out, allowing projections to direct me, allowing energy to overtake me, and not standing within these moments and saying no to here no further, and walking the process to face myself and stop. So I have just been allowing myself to torture myself into this cat and mouse game of waiting for the next judgment, waiting for the next energy burst of emotion, and waiting for the next bout of depression because I believe I am being harmed by others and people are out to get me. When all the while I have been harming myself and chasing myself into a circle of self compromise through judging myself. Time to stop this once and for all, and forgive myself and release myself from this nightmare scenario. 

More to come in my next blog, thanks for reading.