A Lady's Journey to Life: Weakening the Physical through the MInd

Within my physical I had pain on my left knee as well within my left hip, and within the pain there was like a weakness, like I could feel the knee as well as the hip area where the pain resides as weakened or compromised. Within these two areas the hip and the knee, they are indicating my self expression in the hip and flexibility, showing that as I exist within the energy of self compromise in my expression and becoming inflexible within who I am in each moment, this pain will continue and become worse if I don't change. So here going to walk some self forgiveness on inflexibility and suppressing my expression with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base through fear, fearing others thoughts and judgments towards me and so suppressing my expression and becoming inflexible within what I will do and what not through believing if i fully express myself in that moment I will be vulnerable for abuse by others not realizing that I in fact judge and have secret thoughts about others that I don't want to face and stop based on the power it gives me that I can see and say 'i am better', this just showing the separation and inferiority I am existing within myself compromising my opportunity to be life for real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear others and thus fear expressing myself openly and freely.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself within my own mind create judgments of others when they do something or say something I see I can gain from instead of realizing that when I judge another I am condemning myself into self compromise based on the fact that I am really judging myself and creating a split within myself of polarity such as good or bad, where in reality this is not so, we are all here and we all have the ability to be and do what is best through equal opportunity and the divinity of all bring life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become inflexible within what I will do and not do due to fear of exposure and I realize that not going beyond my comfort zone and pushing my expression will only keep me trapped and caged into a limited version of myself and of my capabilities.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create a judgment against life not realizing that when I judge i judge myself and so I will always be compromised in what i do because I am not seeing what is real and what is here, and thus never will be able to direct the situation into what is best because I am in competition to reality wanting to be the winner in these judgment scenarios.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within this energy where it eat's away at my physical body and thus I am eating away at my ability to be free and fully expressive by compromising my ability to move myself in expression in the expansion that is possible in each moment letting go of fear and pushing my limits in every increasing ways forward to see who I really am in each moment stopping the trap of judging self.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others think of me and fear being expressive around others as I stop these judgments against others, I stand here with the self realization and an awareness that all life is me and that I need to embrace and accept life equal to me to realize that we will only live free when we accept each other and support each other to change as we support ourselves in equality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be weakened based on my past and how others have treated me, and thus realize that the past does not define me and that it is not for real in terms of what i am picturing in my head, i realize I have to let go of the past and bring myself to where i am here in what i am doing in each moment of breath, making each moment a new moment of self expression and making it count substantially for the betterment of life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take others words towards me personal and see myself in the eyes of others rather then who I am within and as the eyes of me and my physical, perfecting my own self living realizing that everyone else is in their process and thus must walk the same process as well, I must stand as a point of support and direct as I have realized myself and stop taking things personal because it's not personal we are just mind systems existing in illusion and this is not life, what is real is me as the physical and who I am in my living with and towards others and myself to create life for real through the actual living and movement of myself.

Self commitments to follow.