I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not
be satisfied with myself due to comparing myself to other children and seeing
myself as not as good because I didn’t have the proper clothes and toys and
thus based on the toys and cloths that I saw as desirable and cool and wasn’t
able to get them, I judged myself as not worthy, which I resented my parents
for as well as myself being born into a family that could not give me as a
child everything I desired.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
form a dissatisfaction towards my parents and myself due to this point of not
being able to get everything I desired as a kid, and seeing my family as not
worthy because I wasn’t able to get my desires met instantly like I saw the
other kids getting.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
go into a judgment and dissatisfaction towards my parents based on them not
being able to give me all the goods I wanted, I realize that I was just being a
rotten child In the sense of only looking at instant gratification which is
produced by the mcdonalds reality stimulated by consumerism, where we learn to
just get, get, get, get to be happy, quickly, keep moving, satisfied for a
moment, but within this one is never actually fulfilled or satisfied because
life is being missed as this feeling of more and more wants and needs keeps coming back.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
chase a feeling of satisfaction through external goods, and thus within this
create a self dissatisfaction with myself because I didn’t see myself as good
then and thus created a judgment that I am unworthy because I am not able to
get all the goods that will make me satisfied not realizing that the
dissatisfaction is not coming from a need of goods but coming from a point of dissatisfaction with myself, a point I am trying to fulfill with goods, but
it’s a point of not liking myself being not satisfied with who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
form a self hatred towards myself due to seeing myself as poor and rejecting
myself and blaming who I am as this person in this family with not enough money
to buy me everything I wanted, and thus I am unfulfilled and not worthy because
I can’t get these goods that I desire.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
form a self-hatred due to money value and what I can get, and thus allowed
anger and desires to direct me into abuse towards others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed blame and
anger towards my parents direct me into being an angry person because I
couldn’t get what I desired and thus I resented all those who I thought had
more then me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
go into resentment and jealousy towards other children who had more then me and
thus this eventually grew into a jealousy towards all those who I saw as better
then me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
create a polarity playout with others due to what one had in their external
environment and thus created an inferior/superior playout with those in my
world and reality.
I commit myself to let go these memories as a child of being
unworthy due to not having money and thus realize that the inequality of the
economic system is immense, and also, I had more then my fair share of goods,
so thus I stop the impulse for more and become equal with all by giving as I
would like to receive in all ways.
I commit myself to let go of this unworthiness within this
need to gain more and more stuff as I realize life is not about the
accumulation of stuff but creating a world where all can have stuff and all
have a life that is worthy equal and abundant for all through establishing and
implementing the equal money system where all life is supported for what is
best for all.
I commit myself to stop blame and anger towards others based
on what I am creating and thus living within myself as separation in
dishonesties as wants, needs, and desires, thus I commit myself to stop the
wants, needs, and desires for things in my world, and thus create my reality
where all is fulfilled by giving all what I would want for myself thus all is
given and we are fulfilled.
I commit myself to stop jealousy and resentment towards
others for comparisons that I am judging myself and others from thus I commit
to stop judging and comparing myself to others in all facets of my life as I
realize that to judge and compare is implying that I lack thus I will always
search and never be fulfilled, thus I realize and commit to walk the path of self fulfillment by walking into the physical as life and giving all what I
would want for me and help walk the path to create a world best for all through
equality in all ways given to each one alive.
I commit myself to stop the polarity playout of
inferior/superiority in relation to comparison and thus stop the comparison
game as it is a game with no end and no actual self realization as I am in
search for myself never actually getting anywHERE so thus I stop the comparison
and inferior/superior stance by practically walking the physical and stopping
my desires, wants, and needs as I realize all is able to be given but I must
create the system as myself first in equality and oneness with what is here to
live this living system into the external, as I realize the internal reality
create the external reality, thus I walk my process to self realization as the physical
here through walking my process of self investigation, self writing, self
forgiveness, self correction in writing and thus self correction in living,
until I am here and all is one as self.
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