Wednesday, September 4, 2019

Courage - A Guide to Self Creation - Day 590

One of the important points I have found within the reforming of who I have been into who I am creating myself as is the point of courage. I have recently started to recognize and understand myself as this living word, how I shape myself within and as the confines of the word structure of being courageous in my living and what does that mean for me? What I found innate within the word courage is the words core gauge.

Core Gauge is a point of self-honesty self here check-in, especially when i am in a point of no return, such as making a decision on a point of great consequence, how courage has supported me through was referencing and understanding myself within my core gauge. This core is the point of reference within and as me as the 'inner voice' of my self-honesty life beingness point, this is the point of self that I have found supports with living your highest potential to become and align with the life principle of doing what is best for all in oneness and equality.

There is always a decision to make in life, they come in waves or they could come like a thief in the night, out of the blue and unexpected, regardless of the circumstance one finds themselves in, the self of who one is has to make a decision on how to live and exist as one move in this world.

What I realized within walking the desteni i process through my mind designs and patterns in self-interest into a being who is able to walk self-correction, is that the keys of self creation are here, they are within and as everything that exists yet the self within it all has to find the keys and unlock the puzzle existing within self. And yes in a way it is like a puzzle finding the different pieces lying around the floor and having to specifically find the spot through many trial and errors that will eventually fit. Until one day the puzzle is done within and you are a complete being, whole and able to direct oneself soundly within the principles of life. The keys are already laid out and gifted within the process with desteni and eqafe, self forgiveness, self investigation, self honesty, self commitment writing, and living the change that is best on repeat until it is done and you remain.

Courage by redefining and living it within who I am as my core gauge, gauging within me on what decision I will make is of utmost importance that I always align it to the best of my ability to be of life in what is best for all. So for me there is no reason not to make it this life, to create a world that is best for all because I am walking this within myself until it's done, this point of determination and understanding of who I am in my core gauge, that I am life, I am worthy of life, and I will create this life I see I would like into my physical everyday life is indeed how I function. I push myself to walk the core gauge of myself, checking in with my being, my self honesty, my life point within me, and getting the necessary understanding to make changes for myself that will result in a world that is best for all. It's very simple in its understanding and mechanics, what I have found is that the mind within me as the self-interest and ego, can get the better of me and I go into compromise. This too also part of the process of learning who you are this life and growth will surely be forthcoming.

So courage has been a guide for me in a way, not to be afraid of having to stand in courage which has been my past beliefs, but to embrace it as myself and find the solutions within me to live as who I am for the betterment of all life as in principle that'll always support self, common sense reasoning and living.

Grateful for this journey of self-expression within living this word courage.

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Sunday, July 21, 2019

Understanding Myself as the Physical – Day 589

When I look at the word physical and my experience within it, I see that for most of my life I have never considered the actual point of being a physical being, who we are as life here as the physical, it’s been something that has never been in my awareness. Yes, I realized that we are on earth and the physical world is what we live in and with to make us be alive, but since walking with desteni and understanding more of the scope and depth of what the physical actually is, it has been an eye-opening experience to say the least. And what has really been interesting is the realization that the physical world is simple, it is direct, here, in the moment, as everything is all ways in the principle of oneness and equality in what is best for all. Here direct as the moment alive, working with our own physical capabilities, our own physical mind and mental systems we have created as consciousness programs, we are in fact the living creation, yet we have never realized we are this or more specifically forgotten that we have done this.

We have forgotten ourselves as the life principle lived, it is mathematical, specific in it’s application, but within that there is freedom, acceptance, understanding, integrity, and much more. You can’t I have found put a definition on this creation principle, it is ever-flowing and ever moving, and when aligned to life here in what is best, it is the stuff of dreams, really interesting living experiences have been opening up for me. Things that I have always desired and wanted for myself are starting to manifest, and I have attested it to my living application for the past 10 years of self-forgiveness and living change in these very simple principles, being self honest as best possible, never giving up, holding the life principle of self as what is best within self, cherish yourself as life, and then expanding that out to the world you touch. It’s been extraordinary, yet difficult at the same time.

Difficult in the sense that it’s been a process of challenges, I have faced many demons of mine and still to this day have the threat of facing these points, yet, what I have held dear to myself and to what is here and has shown true in my own living experience is life is merciful if one act in this way to others as self. Who you are within your living within yourself and within the without, voices volumes of information to the universe and those supporting in the process of life in what's best on all levels big and small. This is a process of existence that is being walked and we are here together within it all, to support and show ourselves and each other how to live in harmony and peace. and this is through living principled within self as who you are as your best self through self-forgiveness and living change, and through this one will see life emerge within and without. It’s extraordinary because life can not be pinned down, it cannot be tamed, it can not be touched within the honor that resides within what is here as this point of self emergence as life.

So I am starting to explore for myself this physical reality, who I am as a physical being, how the self is as life as who I am as principled living in what is best, through living self-forgiveness and change. These simple points of support have changed my life in the most extraordinary of ways it’s hard to put into words. So I have been honored in this process tenfold and as I have been given so you will be given as well as you stand as life and do what is best. You change your living in your highest self, you align to what is best for all in your life. There is challenges I still face, but stability and self-trust become self and within this, no one can touch. So it’s a self-creation process unknown to not even the universe, all options are open, all possibilities, all opportunities, and do not fear because you are everything, use integrity and stand in your highest potential and you will be good.

This is what I have found as a point of support for me to face the unknown, it helps me to keep moving and forging forward. I also see it as an adventure and fun, playing as life as the child I am of this universe and discovering myself, seeing it for what it is within a child’s point of view, they definitely have something to share and have been diminished for far to long. It is time we stand as life for the children to come, stand up once and for all, and live what is best for all within and without. It’s time to stand in the physical as your directive will, let’s carry on and stand together as a support

Monday, June 10, 2019

It's So Easy to React, Isn't It? But to Give is to Receive, no? - Day 588

Today I had a moment where I realized how much I have been allowing myself to react to my reality, react to the people in it, react to the noises, the hiccups, the interruptions, the pace, there is reactions everywhere, this is because it has become so easy to just react, release the built-up energy, and give into the experience of what it is I am facing in a way of self compromise and self insecurity. There is the motion of it, there is no effort, it comes, I live into the reaction, boom I am the reaction, and then I start creating myself into that reaction. The havoc that is lived out from the moment I decided to live into the reaction is unpredictable in it's scope and measure, once the energy has died out and I have 'calmed' down from the events playing out, I go into guilt, shame, and regret for what I had just participated in.

And then the cycle repeats, and one creates another round of emotional havoc on the body and in one's environment, potentially causing irreversible damage and consequence, which creates the spiraling into guilt, shame, and regret once again. The only point that I have found that has led me to ignore or forget the inevitable pattern of abuse I live out when I live into reactions is space and time, it moves slower and we have allowed the forgetfulness of our past to become part of who we are, who we have become, but how can we actually forgot something we have created in this reality? We must know deep down that this never goes away, who we are is recorded in our flesh and so we will face who have become in this life and if necessary the next. Though we are the creators so we can 'pretend' and so live as the 'I have forgotten my own abusive behavior' pattern, which will cycle the repeated pattern of abuse I continually accept and allow as my creation here in this life/reality and our home, it repeat and repeat until we stop, until we say no more, and we actually live the change to be a better version as self. Understand this is a self process, no one else, but self, so get in tune with who you are, your inner voice, the voice of life that is you, cherish that as that will be your guide in self-honesty, your beingness essentially is what I see it as for now.

What is different and empowering about the Desteni process that I have yet to find in other sources is the actual understanding and living of the knowledge of how to be a better human being in this world, who supports and nurtures all life equal and one to one's own life, how to physically, actually figure this out and do it. The step by steps are laid out in this site along with the other networks associated with desteni, those who are willing and ready to walk this jounrey will do so, nothing will stand in life's way in this regard. The question always comes back to self in who am I? Who are you? That is the question indeed. So one can indeed then implement and commit to the path of life, what is best for all as oneself by practicing the principles of self honesty, self forgiveness, self introspection, and self commitment, actually apply this, live it, and not give up until you have gotten it, it is all here, as the question is asked, the anwser will appear. This has been extremely true in my process, life is a gift, an adventure, and fun along with the reality always that it is in need of immediate change into equal life for all, never losing sight of this point until it is here and self is as one and equal with all.

These principles or living words that is here and taught/practiced in the desteni process and on eqafe intersect and split apart the cyclical patterns of abuse that I have accepted and allowed to playout in my life, it creates a 'remembrance' of who one is in one's action in the past because self was present in those moments, getting a grip and understanding of who one is, why one is, where one needs to go to be a better version, and the steps are walked step by step to become and emerge as the better version you saw the potential you could be, this is seen in the self forgiveness and self-commitment statements. This is the path to life, eternal life, and a world that is best for all, it's in the individual into the the collective equal and one as self.

It is easy to live into energy, live into the reactions, live into the mind, but this is only because we have made it a habit, it's become ingrained, and thus can be undone and how about we make our habits where I as self-support myself to be the best I can be as me as my every breath in my everyday life and we all do this? Where the better version of ourselves where those who seek help and support from are here, willing, able, and educated on how to be of support to stand as an example as the best possible potential one can be, and so one becomes a teacher and a leader in this regard of what one themselves have mastered in the principles of life, being an example of what is possible and what we erroneously allowed ourselves to forget, we are the gift, we are life. To be a master, one has to walk 10000 steps or do 10000 hours of a task. Are you willing to start this journey? Are you on your way? I can tell you all the steps in the world are worth more than any path of least resistance in giving into reaction, creating harm, and being the lesser version of a being you know you can be.

How about our habit is to give life and thus receive it equally so? Live the words 'give' first, and so receive without want as you are creating it within the act of giving itself, it is a beautiful thing and creates real beauty in this life. This journey I am eternally grateful for especially for all those who have come before to stand in my stead as I give to myself the ability to stand and do what is best in self honesty, self forgiveness, and living my change for all life to be one and equal until it's done and so do this for others as I have been given.

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Monday, April 29, 2019

How to Live the Word Extreme that Service All Life - My Findings - Day 587


Continuing with living this word for myself, i wrote some sf and a blog last night on this word and the programming within it, and found it was due to the extremes of energy distractions i have lived into in the positive as indulging in these feelings, being happy, being excited, being curious, being elated, ect. in a way how i physically stand within these points in my body is it's a rush to my head from my solar plexus/stomach area in many cases and warm sensations come over my body and within my head area i am following a line of thoughts, pictures, and im off somewhere in my mind in a way distracting me from the self responsibility I am to face, understand, and change within walking my desteni i process of self forgiveness, self honesty, and living change until it is done.

The polarity of these extremes has been wanting to rebel against the system and those i blame for creating it, underneath that I found deep petrification of survival and death, so still working through these memories, though the realization and change process i am seeing to walk and in a way have redefined this word extreme to be from the outer world as my behaviors through the mind as separation in positive chase for the experience of feeling good for a moment and so balancing it out with the negative experiences of most fear, instead flipping the script and working with the word from the within to the without of self.

I am redefining the word extreme to be an inner fire, passion, that point of life essence that is burning inside of me, pushing, gentle yet in the ultimate strength of never giving up, never giving up on life here in what is best, and using that will as self as my realization and understanding of who i am as life, as the source, as the solution into my expression for all to learn from, be supported by as I have been supported, and creating life here, through the worst, coming through the ashes like a phoenix, that life force that makes it possible to breath and live, that is what extreme i will live, for life, the passion and fire that burns within to use as a force for what is best as my own self will, as my own living word, as who i am in all ways until it is done.

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Thursday, April 25, 2019

Extreme: Working with the Extremes in the Mind to Life - Day 586


Art By: Andrew Gable

We had a chat on this word extreme that you can find here. We all wrote out self-forgiveness on this point and then corrections, for me I found the word was in relation to getting an ego boost in seeing it as a word I define myself by being a rebel, going against the system, and within that blaming and judging the ‘system’ for what it is. The polarity of this point is fearing the extremes of this world, and so being in fear of my everyday life and the people and experiences that I walk in to or potentially could. So there is a lot of emotion within it, not much grounded and so I am interested to clear this world and redefine it to something of life value and direct living in what is best for all.

Self-forgiveness on the points:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a belief system that I am only able to fight the system and get some sort of experience of feeling good is through going to the extremes of rebelling against it, spiting it, hating it with my emotional force, yelling, screaming, blaming, fighting essentially everything and anything that is part of the ‘control’ as the system set in place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a rebellion extreme of energy in relation to the system set up and how I feel isolated, restricted, and enslaved based on how I judge and learn about the leaders of this world in the past and what has been created with what is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am is someone that dislikes and needs to go into the extremes of emotional anger and spite to get my release of built up thoughts and accumulated energy as I have participated in the build of the emotions by thinking about and indulging more in the system conspires and shit that was done, instead of in those moments bringing the points back to myself and realizing where I am doing the exact same thing in myself, how I am participating and creating the same outflows within me and so without, and how what I am going to do to take responsibility to stop what is here. As I see, realize, and understand this is the only way to self freedom and so freedom for all because if I can’t stand equal and one with all as the correction process that must be walked within and without and become the solution, then I am equal and one to what is here as the system abuse and the abuse of life as I am equally doing it within myself, self honestly understanding and seeing this, and not changing it for the better and what is best as I always have the capacity to do this because I am alive and able.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed me to play into the imaginations of destroying the system, taking down the people I judge as evil and using my words in a way to manipulate the message to blame and defame others who are living a specific way, when I myself have never spoken to them, do not have any direct understanding of what path they walk, and so have no factual truth to be able to make any such judgment or go into blame.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself with these imaginations of blame and how has done what, instead of working with the reality of myself as the evil and am judging others for as I equally am participating in the same evil.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare and so compete with others in this world and put people in boxes as more or less, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be more and fear being less. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play into this polarity and not take responsibility for my actions and stand as the solution in all ways until the point is cleared and I remain.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live into the the extreme petrification of the way in which this system is designed and the human being in it living from a distorted view of life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live in extreme fear of dying, being murdered, being tortured, being in a fire, being harmed in any way and so within this create the desire, need, and want to have happy feelings, happy moments, where i can suppress this fear and deny the reality of this happening to many beings in this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to decide to seek out good feelings and happy times to the more and more extremes of these feelings as each time i become more and more needy as the energy dissipates and i have to face the reality of my life, the fears, and the extremes of despair i have myself in due to only seeking out blame, rebelling, and revenge on those i believe are at fault, when all the while, i am doing the exact same thing within myself toward others and so this point continues of the extremes of emotions and experiences in my world never being stable and life at peace because i myself am creating it as such - war like, extreme, imbalanced, and so separate from life here in what is best.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of self-delusion within energy extremes, making it about me and my own self-interest experience rather then standing within this reality, what i have created, starting with self change up into a physical level and doing what is needed and takes to change myself so i can stand self-responsibility and be a part of the solution in this world in what makes sense, walking this process of self-purification through common sense living in self-honesty and self-forgiveness until i am stable, clear, breathing, and living what is best each breath and so creating this as my within and so equally will be created in the without and the solution thus will be created as self-responsible being here.

Self Commitments to Live:

I commit myself to let go of the point of needing to bring this extreme of living in emotions and feelings through fighting the system and I commit myself to stand within myself, breath, and bring each extreme force as the energy pull of the mind to walk into the extremes of energy indulgences, I live the word self-responsibility and work on the extreme of my own self process of living change into a being that has respect and honor for the life here and does whatever is necessary to bring through this life as myself in my thoughts, words, and deeds.

So redefining this word extreme, I am using it as a point of motivation and movement to when I want to go into indulgences into the extremes of emotion through the pull of the imaginations and desires that come up especially in relation to blaming others, I stop, breath, and move into that force within the physical, using it to move me to do a point of self-investigation, find a point to forgive, and live the commitment in real time. I commit to living the word extreme for the self-movement of who I am to do what is best and honor this word as life rather than the mind taking it and my allowing and accepting self-interest as an indulgence to reign.

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Wednesday, April 17, 2019

Self Forgiveness (Day 7): Irrational Fears - Fear of Microwave, Cellphones, Machines, Lightning - Day 585

Art By: Andrew Gable

I am going to do a few blogs on things that seem irrational, but in my mind have a lot of subtle and sometimes overt power over me in day to day life, it stems a lot of the time from childhood memories, so I am also pushing self forgiveness on these childhood memories that I still am triggered by in my day to day life. This one is about machines and mechanics we use in everyday life like lights, microwave, and lights for instance.

So a fear I have had for a long time and react to still subtle within myself is the fear that I am going to get sick from cell phones cause I have memories of being told that things mechanical are harmful, such as when my mom told me not to stand in front of the microwave or how aspartame will cause cancer. I have always been afraid of this world and the life within it irrationally due to just reacting to the picture or the sounds of the machine on a resonate physical level than actually understanding how the machine works. I will start walking self forgiveness on my childhood memories that are coming up with this pattern.

I was standing in front of the microwave in our old kitchen, I was looking into the microwave on my knees on the counter, and my mom came around the corner and yelled ‘Garbrielle! Get off the counter, the microwave can cause cancer!’ So I Jumped off and thought to myself ‘holy shit, I don’t want that’, so there was a belief that was created in that moment that I needed to be fearful of the microwave, reacting in like a shock experience when one starts to run.

So I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a huge intense fright when my mom walked in while I was intently focused on the food going around in the microwave, how it spun, and just focused on learning from it, and went into a shock when she yelled at me, allowing me to lose focus and imprint the fear of cancer is caused by machines, tools we use, things that exist in the outer world.

Self Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose focus in that moment due to hearing a loud noise and going into a shock experience where I reacted in anger and blame toward my mom for scaring me like that, and so went into anger and blame emotion in that moment rather than breathing and moving into my physical body as breath to slow down and find what makes sense to live next that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in that moment of yelling at my mom in my backchat, I lost focus and so awareness of my reality, where I allowed a belief of my mothers be passed on to me as I accepted and allowed it and so didn’t follow up in any real time investigation and so solutions that I could live to support me to understand my reality and how it works with more clarity and common sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be shown the answers in life, to not want to have to do the actual physical labor it takes to understand how something works in all ways, and so within that walk the necessary correction processes it’ll take to perfect the point within me and so within reality eventually.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire answers from my reality, showing me who I am and what works best for me because underneath that desire was a fear of dying and things being over and done with, so gaining knowledge as a way to combat death when in reality this is a belief and non sensical due to the fact that it’s not about death but how this reality works that I must learn and fear is not needed in these living applications.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the death of myself because I have not yet realized and lived the fact that life can not die, that it is eternal, and that when I am in fear it is my own self limitations I am currently accepting and allowing in my world and so the world at large.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear death and so waste my time on memories and reacting to that in repetition every time I see a microwave or eat food or hear machines running, I as see realize and understand, I can understand what these machines due with more specificity and find solutions to the points I am uncertain about such as the actual facts of harm on microwave pulses and what radiation is for instance, how is it created, and what causes its effect, what are there as solutions if any are required, and be open to creating the reality in equality and oneness with what I am interacting with rather then fear and separation and thus blame/self dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to fight for my self-limitations because I fear without those comforts in my life I will not find comfort on the other side of that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe within myself that I am not able to handle taking full self-responsibility of myself in this life, and so then create a fear of regret at the end of my life because I didn’t push harder. Instead of myself, working with the day to day life and taking my responsibility to work with what is here breath by breath, making it simple and direct, and so doing my best to handle what is here with self honesty and self responsibility when it comes up such as facing fears and being patient to find the solution through understanding.

Self Commitments to Live Change that is Best for all:

I commit myself to learn about where I react on physical levels within or subtle levels or even conscious levels within me to machines, microwaves, cell phones, fluorescent lights, unnatural lights in buildings, food additives, and within this take each one, learning about the physical facts of these points, also get the extra perspective from eqafe and open myself up to solutions that is best for all and so will be best for me to diffuse the fear and live with it in the best way possible or find ways to transmute it so it can be something of value for all here.

I commit myself to stand in self-responsibility in my day to day, breath to breath moments where I see I am able to walk a point of change within myself, and so stand within courage to face self, change, and stand within the responsibility I see I can stand as and do what is best for all life in common sense.

I commit myself to honor myself in this venture by recognizing specifically my triumphs when I do succeed building the self empire of life as who and how I would like to live and so be able to substantiate myself in reality with ‘memories’ of direct living and change that I myself walked, took responsibility for, and lived for myself in honor of all as self.

I commit myself as life to walk the process of learning from my mistakes, being open to all possible outcomes and understandings first before I stand and direct myself to what is best for all within a moment of decision, so working with living the word purposeful patience’s as I walk a process of changing myself in understanding and realizing the resolve to stand as it as I created it within and as myself.

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