Some Words on Valentine’s Day – Day 448

Valentines Day, a day to celebrate love in our life, for me I would like to have love everyday so I have reacted to this day in judgment based on blaming it and those that participate within it as not realizing that there is more to love then a holiday. And so within my mind I get angry at the fact that I can’t have this love everyday. I can't have this love because for this to take place people will have to see that a day to celebrate out of the year is not how love is meant to be lived. This anger I feel is a blame for others not seeing that this is the case and how they are just being ignorant to the fact that we can be different, we can live love, we can be love, but as I am starting to realize more and more through walking my process to life is that I have to create the love as myself for myself to in fact actually make it real. It is my responsibility because as I have said many times in the past that ‘if I can’t walk it, how can I ask another to?’ And the answer is I can not and love made real by living it will not actually exist for me because I am not creating it for myself.

So this day brought out the fact that life is not limited to the designated holidays we have assigned a few times a year were we have a day of ‘fun’, but we can within ourselves be in a state of stability which creates comfort for self and so expand it out from within us to create it in our world. So I realize, see, and understand that I have to create the love and live love and exist as loving my neighbor as myself, actually live this love if I want to see it come alive.

 This is where I am currently at within my process, taking my desires and wants and actually creating them for myself by redefing what love means and living this by creating it in my life. So here with this holiday as the love holiday, I will walk self forgiveness and self commitments to clear any reactions I have to this day and find solutions that will support to walk a creation process to live love in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that within the action of judging a person or an event in this world, I am only fueling and continuing the actual existence of the mind pattern or event that I see is not supporting what is best within this world because I myself am doing the exact same as what the other is doing seperating myself from what is really going on here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate who I am with others and believe I have the right to judge people and point fingers because I have walked this process for sometime and I know better, when in fact it is not about knowing better or thinking a specific way about myself, but who I am within what I live everyday in every breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have a right to judge other people because I have understood something about what is going on in this world like the manipulation within consumerism as holidays and have a belief that others are just being ignorant, when in reality there is many factors to why what is here is happening and that by judging and creating beliefs about what is here is separating myself from what is here and making it so I can’t see and come to common ground with others because I am in reaction which is resistance toward this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge valentines day and holidays in general as a scam and that they are pointless to participate in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry at others for participating in holidays as I judge them as just following the system and willingly being enslaved by the elite who benefit off what is created as holidays.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a anger towards the elite of this world for creating it in the way of parasite and host and be in fear that it’ll never change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the elite for this experience of fearing the world not changing witin myself onto the elite of this world, when I see, realize, and understand that I am really in fear of myself not changing to live in all moments in self honesty and what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that I don’t need to change for this world to change that it should just change because I see that it’s necessary and others are being lazy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others as lazy when it’s really myself who is being lazy by not pushing myself beyond my limits and ensuring I create my life rather then sit and blame others for not changing theirs.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for what is here as my mind and my emotions and my reactions and blame other people and society for me not changing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use blame as an escape for myself not pushing myself and changing my life into a self creation of what is best and living as an example for what is best as I actually live it and not just speak about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the world system and the elite for what is here as this life on earth currently, when I see, realize, and understand that it is in fact who I am within each moment that really exist and that I can not blame anyone for anything because that would mean I am not taking responsibility and actually living the words I speak and instead just speaking into and as death as I am not creating but diminishing.

When and as I see I am going into a point of wanting to blame the holidays, elite, or this world system for how this life and earth is existing here on this planet, I stop and breath, and realize that this is not a solution and that these groups or events are equal and one to me and are starting within the same starting point I am as pointing fingers but not living my talk.

I commit myself to let go of any judgment and/or blame towards any being outside myself and so I commit to walk the process of living what I speak by speaking what it is I am going to create and so creating it.

I commit myself to walk the process of creation by standing within my words and taking responsibility for my thoughts and reactions and walking the process of stopping them and changing them to stand as a support for life.

I commit myself to walk my talk and stand as life one and equal with what is here as self as life.

So love is redefined into an actual walking my talk were I show love to another by giving to them what I have given to myself and seen that it is of the benefit for self and so for all other life. Love is living my words and then being able to walk with others within what I am saying as I will be able to show them self honestly and so share who I am within this stand as life in what is best. And so holiday as well will be here to walk, continue to correct any reactions, and walk the process of changing what is here to what is best for all from within myself and so to the without.