Looking here at how I have become dependent on my parents
for money and thus security in my world, and how I use this as a point of comfort
ability for myself to know that I will be taken care of, I will have a place to
go, I will be able to get some money if I need it, this falling on my parents
shoulders as they are the ones that I look to when I am in a fuck up and need
some support quick. This point of reliance on them for support also comes with
self compromise, as within the giving there is an expectation to give myself as
in time, labor, and essentially following in line with the family beliefs and
traditions.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
compromise myself based on depending on my parents for money.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
compromise myself based on depending on my parents for security through having
them support me even when I am able to support myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
depend on my mom for instance when I was younger to walk all the college points
that were necessary to get me in, in where she set up all the meetings with
coaches and administers, so I can sit on my behind and just have everything set
for me, which at that stage did occur, but I was not equipped to walk the point
on my own due to fear of others, so I depended on my mom to do this for me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
use fear as a justification to not move myself when I see a point that will
take diligent effort and perservance, and thus use my mom to support me and
basically walk it for me because I used her as the resource for me not to have
to move myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
depend on my parents for support with rent when I was paying off my debt and
thus assumed that they would be there for me because they are my parents, and
so depended on them to support me during this time instead of walking the point
in equality, setting up a compromise with them, and walking it through in
communication first before walking it in reality as an assumed approval from my
parents just because they are my parents.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
depend on my parents for everything that I find that is hard to get or needs
money because they have the ability to help me, and thus I assume that that
should always be done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
depend on my parents for my security to live instead of living the security of
myself as myself so thus I can be free to move as I want, when given by my
parents security, I am not free as I have to live under a certain point of self
compromise to keep the security coming.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
use my parents for security and safety because I was to afraid to walk on my
own and make my own way.
I commit myself to walk the point of equals with and as my
parents, not using them for dependency to have money and support, but walk my
own self support through my own career and give as I have been given in an
equal fashion.
I commit myself to stop the justifications of fear to stop
my pursuit to become independent on my own and stop the dependency on parents
to help me, so thus I can walk my path within a certain point of self freedom
and be able to support myself in this world financially.
I commit myself to stop assumptions and self diminishment by
allowing others to help me, when I can walk the path to help my self by taking
responsibility for myself and walking the necessary steps to become self sufficient.
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