Looking
at this character play out that I often go into of ‘I need to look good’,
where I will go into pictures in my mind of how I need to look within this it
will be pictures of myself that I like or moments from the past that I remember
where I look good when looking in the mirror, and then will go into the desire
to look like that. The emotions that come up are like an excitement as I now
know that I have direction in what I have to do to make myself be acceptable
and thus fit into the picture in my mind that I am desiring so I can look good
for others. Obviously within this pattern, this is a fuckup, so thus I will
sort it out through self forgiveness and self corrective statements.
I forgive
myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into a point of excitement when
I see that I have a point of reference as a picture in my mind so thus I can
use to determine who I am and who I have to be to look good for others. I
realize and see that this is not who I really want to be as it’s a fuck up
where I am living for others, sabotaging my self stand as life, and causing
abuse through separating myself and comparing myself to looks rather then
living our truth that all here is me.
I forgive
myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into a point of desire that ‘I
need to look good’ thus defining myself by my picture where then I have to live
up to this point to fulfill what I want to be as ‘looking good’ so separating
myself from life and from others through living for myself as a need to look
good and disregarding other if it don’t fit into my self interest want of
‘looking good’. I realize and understand that within this desire and need to
look good for others I am not in acceptance of myself and thus only living from
ego as I want to impress others and thus not standing equal with them thus not
living to my full potential and thus not living the best for life.
I forgive
myself for allowing and accepting myself to change who I am within this case
the way I look so I can gain friends or impress others. I realize and see that
this is not even real as this is only happening within my mind and I don’t even
ask for direct feedback from others as I am too afraid for the real answer, so
thus I am completely accessing my own mind to make myself feel good as I can
determine the way I look and this always based on the picture I hold of myself,
which will be in a polarity of pretty/ugly as this is all I am defining myself
by missing real life here in the physical.
I forgive
myself for allowing and accepting myself to entrap myself within my own mind
where I play off of pictures of good/bad where I determine how I am based on a
memory I hold of what I need to look like, and thus then determine if I am
presentable or not thus good or not based on my judgment of myself. I realize
and understand that within this point of judgment where I determine myself
based on a picture in my mind, I will be continuously separate myself from
myself as life and never be able to be stable here to thus be able to
understand and know others from a real perspective from real life because I am
in my mind looking at these pictures of me as what I desire to look like never
being real only pictures in my mind.
I forgive
myself for allowing and accepting myself to use pictures in my mind to
determine who I am in life and limit me to images in my mind that are a
snapshot in time that I am holding onto because within myself I am not
accepting who I am. I realize and understand that I must accept myself through
the continuous stopping of these pictures from having power over me by stating
who I am within it and not accepting myself to give them power by giving them
my attention.
I forgive
myself for allowing and accepting myself to determine who I am as life within a
need as a desire to look good based on the fact that I am holding memories of
my past where I determined that I was not good looking, thus I realize and see
based on this memory of me seeing myself as not good looking that then I will
immediately go into the pattern of seeing a need to be good looking, so I must
let go of the memory as this point that I am not good looking and stand within
the physical by not participating in the memory nor the polarity play-out of
seeing myself within a need to achieve good looks.
I forgive
myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold on to this point of looks
within defining myself and others by this point of ‘needing to look good’, and
thus going into a desire as need to look good because I have become a character
in a play where I have to show everyone my best so thus I can be accepted and
not have to face the fear that I have of not being accepted. I realize and see
that living into this point of desire and need because I am accepting fear to
direct me I will not live but be subject and enslaved to these points within
myself because I am believing that this is who I am when I realize this is not
who I am and that I don’t have to live into fears and desires through stopping
them from directing me, and become a being who is stable and walking the path
to life.
I forgive
myself for allowing and accepting myself to limit myself within a point of
comparison with myself and others that there is a need to look a certain way
and thus limit myself by only looking and being pictures, when I in essence am
all that life is. I realize and see that it’s quite limiting as well as abusive
within only looking at pictures and determining life by pictures as this is not
who we are, we are much more then pictures thus I stop determining myself with
such a point and live equal with all here in physical reality where we are.
I commit
myself to stop separating myself through emotional feelings of feeling good
where I am actually limiting myself to only be a picture by stopping the
separation of myself through stopping feelings of feeling good, instead of
being stable and here equal with all the real stability of life.
I commit
myself to stop this point of acceptance from others where I go into a desire to
change myself to impress others to be liked.
I commit
myself to stop the pictured memories in my mind of what I looked like in the
past and thus use physical reality as my stable movement point, where I stop
the picture, and immediately go into my physical participation of what I am
doing to thus stop defining myself from my mind and live here as the physical
in what I am living.
I commit
myself to let go of the pictures of definition of myself in my mind and live
from the physical reality meaning living within and as my physical human body
where I am here now.
I commit
myself to stop the polarity play-out of seeing me as not good looking and thus
go into the point of seeing myself within a need to become good looking.
I commit
myself to walk the path to life by not allowing and accepting myself to go into
the point of desire where I am a certain way to have others like me, but live
here for me in my physical in what is best for all through acceptance where
what determine who I am is what is equal and one and will be best for the
situation I am in, always stopping my mind from going into desires, wants, needs, and pictures by me stopping comparison and participation in these
pictures.
I commit
myself to stop defining life by pictures by stopping the judgment and
comparison of others through the way the look is, and thus decide in each
moment this point come up and live and breath my decision which is stop participating
in my mind as energy and stop my self interest to be seen.
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