Day 268 – Redefining the Word Loser

Loser

Please reference these blogs for further perspective on this post:
Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words
Day 266 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Forgiveness
Day 267 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Corrections to Live


This word, loser, will have to be purified within yourself, the memories, the definitions, the beliefs, the fears you hold within it through the self forgiveness and self correction process that I have walked in the last few blogs I have referenced above. I am not completely done purifying this word loser as I still have memories and beliefs coming up within me, so I will continue my writing on this word in writings to come. But for the sake of this blog series, I will redefine it here within a point of how I see it could be walked for all in a universal purpose, what the word actually could be used for to describe and help encapsulate an action within reality.

So for Loser, we can see it as a derivative of the word lost, lost in the context of a competition, and no not the competition of ego in feeling superior over others, but the competition of here in reality to see what is best within the standards we live, and thus can be seen in what we will be walking within the equal money system for instance.

We will through test, trials, and errors walk through many different ways and means, products and services as we recreate this world into the best it could possible be. So within the different testings and trials of these different functions in life that we will use, we will have that which have proven in physical real time living to be best for all, such as a car design that is the most efficient, creative, long lasting, ect., and thus within this testing there will also be the cars that have lost. So within this context one could say ‘this car was the ‘loser’ of the testing arena, and thus car x is the best (or winner)’.

This establishing the practical use of the word ‘loser’ and thus also the word ‘winner’ as it’s not from a point of ego in making one better then the other in one’s mind reality any longer, but the word is the best in a testable, evidentiary, and practical physical reality way, it is what it is actually, there is nothing behind it or nothing anyone can interpret within it's meaning, but in it's realness of the word use it will be the 'loser' as it (place x here) lost in testing and it (place y here) is the winner because it won in testing.

We, within for instance the equal money system processing, will walk from the physical and thus live from the physical only as this is the only reality that is in fact real and able to be tested for real, so thus this is why we are in the process of stopping ourminds and re-birthing ourselves into and as the physical reality, so we are in fact real and can thus live from reality and be in reality. We are now in our minds and thus create all sorts of meanings and definitions in this word loser if you have a look, which create separation and confusion really within society. So living into and as us as physical beings here in physical reality in our presences, words, deeds, and understandings, we all will be equal and one in understanding of what the physical is and what words are in their universal meanings because in essence they will be what they are in it’s actual purpose, the universal meaning to be further discussed, but eventually this will become self evidentiary to a self realized being in the physical.

Another point within redefining the word loser is also as you can see we will redefine the use of competition as well, so within the equal money system for instance we will only create that which is best within life, and this will be agreed upon by all and self evident within all. So creating a number of the same things in different minute or small changes for making artificial competition to make money and profit, will be seen as wasteful and not necessary as it’s not best for all, so thus will be eliminated within the equal money system. Competition as we know it will be gone in our minds in self interest, and the real purpose of competition will emerge, to find what is in fact best for all in all that we do. And thus only that which is best will be created in all we do, which is the highest form of living possible and will create unimaginable results. The practical form of the word ‘loser’ will be necessary and functional as it will be for it’s real purpose, what it does in the physical word reason, create understanding for life in this word, and help life move through the living of words into living it for real within oneself in the best and most efficient way possible, lived for all.

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Day 267 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Corrections to Live

Please reference these blogs for further perspective on this post:

Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words
Day 266 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Forgiveness

When and as I see myself give my power away to my ideas of the word loser and thus see myself at a lose, I stop and breath, realizing that I can only lose power or am at a lost within myself if I give my power away by defining myself by this world through the mind as seeing me subject to it and taking my ideas of me being a loser or inadequate as a real definition of me. I realize I am the one who directs myself and words into meaning and understand, and thus I define who I am alone.

I commit myself to walk the point of not accepting myself to be moved by hearing the sound of the word loser being directed at me or another, through breathing, and realizing that I am not defined by this word as my beliefs and so I walk the commit to let go of the beliefs that I am inadequate within myself when I am called this or another is.

I commit to walk the practical point of directing the word into an understanding for all, stopping the point ofpolarity with it that it creates with worthy/unworthy, but redefine it to be a universal meaning of the word that will fit it’s practical purpose of the word and define nothing but reality here.

When and as I go into a point of feeling inferior or inadequate within myself based on being called this word loser, I stop and breath, and realize that I am the one creating this feeling and belief of inadequacy and inferiority, and thus I realize I have the power to stop this belief and feelings and redirect myself through my living into letting it go and honoring myself and others as equals and live this.

I commit myself to let go of the fear and judgment of myself of seeing myself less then others.

I commit myself to walk as an equal in seeing that life here is equal, and thus I see that learning and growing is what is being walked within all walks of life, we all are in process of learning and growing, and thus I allow myself to walk this for myself, learn, grow, correct, and live and allow all life to walk this unconditional as well in this process of walking into self perfection.

I commit myself to stop the energy movement of fear and dread when I hear this word loser based on seeing that I am defining myself in this way because of the past, I stop the past from being here as the here is what is real, the past is gone.

I commit to walk what is here in breath and stop the past from controlling me, stop living from the past, and move my awareness to breath as life here in the physical.

When and as I see myself being in fear of my environment and people calling me names such as loser, I stop and breath, and realize that these people who call names are only showing their own true natures, this is not defining me nor do I have to take these sayings personal. I realize who I am and that I am not the words or phrases others speak of me, I am who I direct and thus define my own self to be, I am the creator of myself, I empower myself alone.

I commit to let go of this fear of being name called or ridiculed by others.

I commit to breath through this fear and allow people to say what they may, but also I stand within the principles of myself as an equal and support where I see I can and walk direct without taking it personal. It is not personal as life is all that is here and thus I realize what is being walked and what must be walked to see this for real is a process, and so I support life unconditionally.

I commit myself to stop taking all external words, gestures, behaviors personal as I realize I am walking process, life is not yet for real as life, and thus all that is here is in process, this is all me and I realize and commit to take responsibility of and for what is here as myself through my own process of self realization and self perfection and thus as the greater.

When and as I see that I am existing within my own mind as the losers and the winners within my world and reality in judgment and self interest, I stop and breath, realizing that I am not only perpetuating but creating this whole fear within me and thus within others that I desire to stop because I am living from fear. I realize I have to completely let go of the polarities within the mind as some and others or this and that, and walk into direct reality, what is here for real, and what will be the best outcome for all in humbleness in consideration of all that is here as me.

I commit myself to walk the point of letting go of all polarities within me, by embracing the other polarity I am trying to ignore, and thus seeing myself within it, what I am not accepting within myself, and accept it, write about it, self forgive the separation, and correct it into living it as myself in self responsible direction and correction.

I commit to stop using words for my own self interest and walk what is here within the practical purpose of words within a universal understanding of all to live and benefit from words in the best way possible.

I commit to end the abuse of others through changing my living behavior through writing self-forgiveness and self commitment statements of the patterns that need change, and living the change necessary to see this through by actually living it and stopping it in my day to day living. I commit to end abuse as myself in this world.

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Day 266 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Forgiveness

Please reference this blog for further perspective on this post:

Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being called or associated with the word loser due to my ideas of the word defining me as less then others and thus fearing a part of myself being lost where another will gain over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give the word loser more power then my own self direction realizing that I can only be defined by a word if I allow my ideas of it control me into fear and self compromise.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate lose of myself with the word loser due to fear and my idea of myself seen and thus defined as inadequate if I am called this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be inadequate and thus vulnerable to others calling me a loser and thus suppress myself and fear being associated with this word because I believe this to be real meaning, that I am inadequate and others can see this, thus showing that I am not standing within my own self, but in fear of others harm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others harming me and thus suppress myself due to fear of becoming vulnerable especially when hearing or being associated with the word loser as I believe that the labeling of a loser is the lose of my dignity within my environment and surrounding associates.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the idea and belief of this being true of being less then others if I am called a loser and become known as this by others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept ideas within my head and be directed by these ideas within me of polarities and comparisons and thus be lost within this play out with words and ideas in my mind of the idea of me being called a loser and how I am branded now and at a lose, instead of living from the physical and creating universal definitions for words that is it’s actual purpose and thus having directseeing in and as what is real as the physical and direct from here in reality rather then the mind which is illusionary and multi-faceted and not clear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually desire to use the word loser within myself and thus I hold onto it’s definition as real to make others inferior to me and me superior to gain more prestige and influence over others and in my surroundings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm others within the ideas I hold of loser and make them feel less then me and when it comes to me in this position, I desire mercy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live the message and words of life of give unto others as you would want done unto you, and thus create abuse and harm to others and equally create that for myself based on creating ideas and beliefs of words and live them out to be true rather then living from the physical in universal understanding of what words mean and thus live this in consideration of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the word loser and the ideas of inferiority to suit my needs and desire not to be lived within these same standards when I am the one who is now inferior and have now have been labeled in the same vain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself into a split of superiority and inferiority when I realize that all life is one and equal with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distort the word loser to suit me and thus at the same time fear it when I am in the negative polarity idea I have created of it and been labeled as this, and thus I see and realize I must redefine the word loser and live it within it’s actual purpose to be here and thus direct it in common understanding in all’s equal consideration.

Self Commitments and Redefinition to follow, thanks for reading.



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Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words

I listened to Anu’s interview today, and he was discussing on family rivalry and competition, and how within this play out with siblings we easily go into the point of ‘winning’ and ‘losing’ based on the inherent desirewithin us to be strong and thus be the ‘winner’, and so obviously not be ‘weak’ and be the ‘loser’.

So the first step he suggested within looking at this whole point of sibling rivalry, is too re-define the words winning and losing, starting with lose, lost, and/or loser, so I will start with the word – loser. I have a reaction to this word within a resistances and tension, like I don’t want to be associated with this word, it’s like a real negative, horrible experience within myself when I see the word loser. This based on seeing it as I am losing something of myself and will not be able to get that part of me back, such as losing my face for instance with others, my fake face as strength and being a loser means I am not strong and thus will not be able to be a fake face with others because they will see me for who I am, my name associate with me in the peer group, thus branded and a bad brand is not something one want to be associated with as that mean you are outcasted.

Why I want to be a fake face though one may say, and this is based on survival, it’s a learned behavior only done by humans to put on a fake face to impress others one’s abilities and capabilities even if it is false or unfounded, if you can fake it you can make it mentality. This based on humans living within judgment, separation, and abuse towards each other for greed and power. So being a loser is a huge point of fear as I see myself within being associated with this word at a lose, outcasted, abused, and thus not being able to survive with others and get what I desire.

Also, within being called a loser, it’s a point of being degraded and made to feel less then others, and so being called this brings a lot of fear, and so when I see that I may or could be perceived as a loser, I will go into suppression within my expression in fear of being seen as less then others or being called this name. I didn’t want to be seen as different and not part of the group because within being a loser and out casted, you are no one, you are not liked, and thus life because much more difficult and strained, you become the target of abuse because you are now weak. Interesting how I and we as humans, so easily will put another into this position as a loser, claiming it’s not a big deal, it’s just a little poking fun, it’s the way nature is. But it’s not, it’s most certainly is deliberate, a point of putting another in their place, and showing others who you are in relation to them/that other, that I am superior and you are a loser. Human nature does not have to be this way, in abuse and separation towards others; we can be as equals and live ni harmony with others through stopping this behavior. Though within being the one who is being out casted, I know that its not fun and games and jokes, when I am the one being called it’s a real big deal, it’s hurtful, and it cause a lot of stress and anxiety within me.

I will walk self forgiveness in the next blog and redefine this word.

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Day 264 – Enslaving Another – Control and Power – Self Correction to Live

For further context within this blog, check out the following posts:
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2
Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued
Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?
Day 259 – Does Survival of the Fittest Make Me A Robot? Only If I Allow It
Day 260 – Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1Day 261- Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1.2

Also reference these blogs specific to this self correction writing:

Day 262 – Using Fear to My Advantage and Enslaving Another– The Problem of this World is Within Me - Part 1
Day 263 – Enslaving Another – Control and Power Self Forgiveness

When and as I go into a form of threatening another based on desire for them to do my will and thus desire to have power over them, I stop and breath, and realize what I am actually doing and so ask myself would I want this for myself? Why am I doing this? And realize that this is the act of separation and evil, not life here inequality as who I speak of myself as. 

I commit myself to put myself in the shoes of the other when any point of force or desire to have power over another emerge within, so to be able to see and wake myself up to what I am doing through self awareness of always focusing on the principles of life in equality and oneness, and thus putting myself in the shoes of the other and so stop my abuse.

I commit to stop having force over another and walk with them in understanding that they are my equal and I would like to be treated as an equal as well thus I must treat others in this way to thus gift it to myself, what I give I receive always and I give life as I would like to receive life.

I commit myself to stop all desires of control and force onto another through bringing myself back to the physical with breath and moving into the physical body through moving it physically around until I am here and stable and not in any point of reaction, I move and do not speak until I am clear.

I commit to write out the point of desire that I see is coming up to immediately correct it and not accept it to continue to direct me but give it direction through common sense self correction actions in that moment that is here.

When and as I see I am gaining a point of energy as superior feelings of worthiness and grandeur based onseeing the other fall to my force and abuse of threats, I stop and breath, and realize I am not here as a supportive life being, I am in my mind and causing abuse onto the other life around me. I am in ego and I realize this will cause me to miss the physical and thus not consider the physical equal to myself as I am in mymind in illusion as desire, and so I will deliberately go into superiority to gain nice feelings and abuse that which stand in my way.

I commit myself to stop and breath and move myself away from any situation where I see I desire to control and force my will on another, breath and do not participate in the mind at all and focus on the physical and move it to stay in awareness of myself here.

I commit myself to stop the desires for superiority and the feelings of worthiness through stopping them as they come up through breathing through them and saying ‘no I don’t accept these thoughts any longer, I am not thoughts, I am life and thus I can direct myself as the mind in the physical in common sense in what will be best’.

I commit to immediately see within what is real through putting my self in the others shoes and stopping immediately my path to abusing another for energy gain, stopping following my mind constructs as thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories.

I commit to breath through all energy of desire and release myself from the cycle of superior/inferior byaccepting myself and others through really seeing what others are doing and saying by understanding through communication and hearing what they have to say and coming to solutions through compromise.

When and as I go into a point of desire to enslave another for me to not have to do what is necessary to be done in the physical, I stop and breath, and as I realize that I will in term have to transcend this abusive way of life and walk responsibility of myself and what I require to do here in the physical to walk a world that is best for all and walk my process of equalizing myself with life, I have to become the physical to be real for real.

I commit to let go of the desire to enslave and not have to do work by walking it is I desire another to do each and every time, walk my own process, walk my own walk until I am here and self directed automatically.

I commit myself to walk the physical steps it will take, walking through resistances and transcending all resistances that are here, and forgiving myself for what I have done to life as an enslaver and abuser.

I commit myself to forgive myself to thus give me back to life and allow me to embrace life as myself, so we can move on in this world and correct our faulty living in abuse and self interest.

I commit to stop my desires within and as all that I do and walk practicality in common sense in what is best for all always through walking this within my self process of stopping my mind and walking myself as the physical in what is best in each situation that I live within.

When and as I find myself putting my own interest over what is best for the group, I stop and breath, and realize this will in turn cause separation with me and what is best for all because I am not in consideration with what is best but only what is best for me causing abuse to others and eventually abuse to myself.

I commit myself to stop all self interest and walk in all ways that I can see in self honesty and understand in what is best for all.

I commit to let go of desires for rewards and happiness in self interest, and walk practical solutions to do what will be best for all through walking the process of self forgiveness and self change as well as the equal moneysystem to create happiness and rewards were all enjoy and all benefit equally as one.

When and as I go into a point of jealousy because I am not accepting myself, I stop and breath, and I realize that jealousy leads to abuse and me to force my will on another due to believing I am at a lose.

I commit myself to accept me in all ways and walk the practical steps to build my self through commitment and physical effort in studies and research and practicing living my words and doing what is best in all that I do so I become that which I am not yet, I realize I am capable I have to walk it for real to live it this I understand.

I commit to let go of jealousy by letting go of my idea of myself, letting my idea of who I desire to be die, andrebirth as life here in the physical as the physical equal and one with all as I am here as self through the process of self correction through self honesty and self forgiveness.

I commit to embrace others as me and support all to walk self realization and support what is best for all as best I am able to in all times.

I commit to stop taking things personal by embracing others as myself in the moment of this jealousy by seeing what it is I am reacting to and walk a correction to either practice this point of communicate with the other to see how they walked it and physically walk it myself and see where it leads.

When and as I go into an abuse of life and take advantage of others dependency on me, I stop and breath, and realize this is causing the death of myself as the lose of life as I will not give to another but in fact abuse that which has been gifted to me in the expression that lives here within and as all because I only see my mind as my self and what I desire and fear.

I commit to let go of fear as this encapsulates me into the belief and the mind and so I am defined only by that which I fear, I embrace that which I fear and do what is best within this situation and not allow fear to control me through always facing the fear.


I commit to stop abusing life’s gifts as all that live here and walk my correction process into self responsibility within all that I do and all that is here that I am in encounter.

I commit to breath through all energy reactions as I see this is the mind desiring to control, and walk the correction I see is here in what is best, walking into a self integrity that I can only stand within and become stable as this is me.

I commit to walk self integrity through honoring the life within myself and the life within all by stopping fear and stopping all abuse, and changing to help solve these issues through changing myself to be the solution always in what is best for all.

I commit to stop revenge and walk humbleness through letting go of my mind desires, and become nothing within myself and thus walk as a physical being in what ever is necessary to support the honor and equality of all life as I realize this is the perfect honor of myself as life as life itself.

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Day 263 – Enslaving Another – Control and Power Self Forgiveness

For further context within this blog, check out the following posts:
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2
Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued
Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?
Day 259 – Does Survival of the Fittest Make Me A Robot? Only If I Allow It
Day 260 – Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1Day 261- Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1.2
Day 262 – Using Fear to My Advantage and Enslaving Another– The Problem of this World is Within Me - Part 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel emboldened by taking someone’s power away from them and making them do what I want through threats and fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire this point of power over others based on seeing myself better, more enlightened, more intelligent then others because I have the power to make another do what I want, but in reality feel threatened and desire to control this other person so I am not abused, though I will do it with no problem to another for my own self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse another through controlling them against their will due to threats of harm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use threats of abuse and harm and fear to have another do what I say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use fear and abuse for my own self interest and not considered the other if it was me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that I am more worthy then others and that my desires are more important then others and so disregard the other completely because of the greed to get what I want fulfilled through my control over them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use greed as a justification to harm and abuse another into disempowering them through fear and abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse another due to my desire to have someone do everything that I didn’t want to do myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use another for my own personal use and gain while taking the others dignity away and not allowing them the freedom of their own will by using fear to disempower them and make them under my control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enslave another for my own personal satisfaction and desire to be lazy and slothful while forcing another to do something that I wouldn’t do myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse life like a commodity and degrade others while I had the audacity to believe that I was more worthy and that I could do this with no consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not care of another’s well being but only care about fulfilling my own satisfaction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am better then others who show a point of perceived ‘weakness’ not realizing or recognizing who they are in their natural expression as gentleness because I was actually jealous of this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide the jealous I felt towards the other within myself from seeing it and thus get a release by taking my anger out on this person due to desiring to be gentle as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to commit an evil act that cause the absolute separation and degradation of myself as life by enslaving another in my care and taking advantage of their nature and vulnerability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take advantage of another’s vulnerability and dependency on me and use it to my own benefit to make myself feel important and better then them because within I felt inferior and was only seeking self interest as my own happiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use fear and threat of abuse to have power and control over another who depended on me for safety as they were in my care.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be not this gentleness and thus take out my anger for lacking this out on the other who had this and I was jealous of, and so I seek revenge and abused them in the physical because I wanted what I didn’t have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed jealousy to direct me into abusing another and taking advantage of who they are in their beingness as gentle.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see myself as not gentle and thus blame this person who expressed it naturally for this through abusing them and controlling them through fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek revenge on another who I am jealous of because I don’t want to face the fact that I have to change and practice change which takes effort that I don’t care to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek revenge on another because within myself I feel inferior to others so making others feel inferior makes me feel better about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize nor learn and integrate the reality I see within myself as treating others as I would want to be treated, as I realize when I am abused by another it’s not enjoyable and not what I would want, so the obvious common sense is that it then is not enjoyable for the other and thus obviously unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to integrate and live this common sense of treating others as I would want to be treated and finally ending this cycle of abuse within the apparent polarity of inferior/superior, trying to make myself more but always within this balance making me equally inferior.

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Day 262 – Using Fear to My Advantage and Enslaving Another– The Problem of this World is Within Me - Part 1

For further context within this blog, check out the following posts:
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2
Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued
Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?

Day 259 – Does Survival of the Fittest Make Me A Robot? Only If I Allow It

Day 260 – Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1

Day 261- Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1.2

I have come to see growing up how we as humans tend to exploit others weaknesses for our own gains, this in the pursuit of survival because if I don’t survive, I’m dead, so my acts are justified because I am just doing it to survive right? But looking really at this statement and thus this way of life, do we really in the way life is on this earth require survival? Is survival the only way of living on this planet? Why has this world come to this way of life where we require surviving on a planet we were born in to? And why do we exploit the lest protected and vulnerable among us? (I will walk these questions in later blogs).

In my experience survival has caused me to be nasty towards others due to the root cause of fear, fear can direct people to not consider what they are doing and what they are treating others, but use fear to justify the atrocious actions and acts we as humanity and thus me as the human do onto our fellow human beings and life forms that reside with us on this planet.

So the problem is fear, and fear that is not investigated and stopped due to rational consideration and applying common sense within it, it will create self interested beings only looking to survive and enjoy as much of the pie as they can to ensure they stay alive and indulged. So thus brings me to the other propagator of what we see today as the human being and our acts of atrocities we commit onto others and ourselves on a daily basis and that is greed.

Greed is indulged within through desire and desire is like a virus within self, like a nagging temptation always there so long as you continue in the desirous thoughts within your mind over and over again until finally you will burst into the living out of these desires in instances where you will take more then your fair share, and within taking more then your fair share leaving others to not have enough, thus you have become greedy. Desire breed greed and greed is lived out through the human will to fulfill their desire. This greediness being fueled by your desire to manifest your fulfillment over the actual life that will be affected by these cravings, and thus not alone causing abuse, but cause an act of enslavement over others to bend to ones will over the equal consideration of all involved.

One really sick and inhumane act that I did and will do self forgiveness on and correction in posts to come was when I was younger, I was in third grade, I was responsible every day to pick up my younger sister who was in kindergarten at her door at the end of the school day and then we would walk out to the car together, I don’t think she knew where to go, so this was an establish routine developed for her to feel ok where she depended on me to make her safe and get her to the car to go home.

So within this dependency on me of my sister, I immediately calculated it as a weakness within her that I could exploit, and in so seeing this, I did exploit it. I would say to her that ‘if you don’t do this for me, I will not pick you up at your door tomorrow’, and within these words I had enslaved her to me because she was very afraid of not being picked up and thus she would then go and do what I said. This going on for months, where I would use fear and threats of harm of her safety (being left alone) and exploit that fear to get what I desired, which was a personal slave to do whatever I wanted. My greed of actually having this power over her and desire to not have to do the things I didn’t want to, created the perfect justification in my mind to do such a thing as enslave my own sister because she was letting me, she is weak and thus why not. She finally couldn’t stand it anymore and told my parents, to which I got in trouble and that was that. I didn’t think twice about it at the time, I for a long time just saw it as I was sorry to get caught not realizing or really caring of the impact and anguish that I put on my sister through each day with threats and fears of abuse of not picking her up as she expected and having her feeling trapped within this.

I see here how I developed this desire based on my greediness to get things quick and free, and enslaving another human being as my means to get my desires met. I mean I was a child, and already at this young age, I had the desire to enslave another and use her for my own greed/self interest. And I not only had this desire, but I lived it out with no remorse or consideration for her and the experience she was going through. I had no care for her well being, but only for my self interest, my own happiness, and my feeling of success through fulfilling my desire of a personal slave to do what I wanted. Does this sound familiar? I am the micro of the macro of this global system, where we abuse and exploit others weakness every day, those who can't stand and voice themselves, those who by a dignity standard should be the most protected and considered in this world, but are used and abused for those who are the supposedly the strong and powerful in this world to benefit, we those who live a life of comfort benefitting off the most weak and vulnerable among us. And it's not that they are inherently weak or vunlnerable, but we have specifically designed such a system to create this, so us as the greedy can get the most for the cheapest and quickest benefit possible, even if it mean the eternal abuse of life on this earth in all it's forms and in all ways imaginable.

Our current money system is the systematic enslavement of the global living of all, and the human is the creator as the enslaver of life onto each other for greed and fear. But we are equal in life, we are able to be free for real in this principle of equality of all and all being life as one, we are able to walk a process of self forgiveness and correction to again be able to honor life and be worthy of this gift we have been given. I am a living proof as many others are to the ability to walk this journey really every breath I take til I redeem myself and life here as myself until this is done and we are free for real in our directive will.

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Day 261- Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1.2

Please reference this blog for further context:

Day 260 – Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1

As Well as the following:
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2
Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued
Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?Day 259 – Does Survival of the Fittest Make Me A Robot? Only If I Allow It

When and as I see I am going into a point of suppressing myself when I am in a conflict with another, I stop and breath, and realize that what is going to be the outflow of this is abuse in my mind as well as accumulating the suppressed emotions of anger which will turn into rage which eventually I will live out into my reality as an anger outburst to whomever or whatever triggers it, which is abusing and separating myself based on me not willing to change this pattern.

I commit myself to stop this point of suppressing my expression into myself when I am angered by another through letting it go through breathing, and direct the point with the other in what it is that caused me to react, so it can be discussed and a solution can be walked by both me and the other in reality.

I commit myself to release the anger through speaking in the moment that I am one with the other, I am responsible for this anger not the other. And so I commit to stop my reactions in anger through breathing and letting it go within realizing that it is only energy and it will end at some point, and only speak when I am clear and stable.

When and as I resort to myself within myself in suppression due to fear of the other or facing a conflict with the other, I stop and breath, and realize this point of fear is disempowering me within compromising who I amwithin the physical as an equal being to only existing in the mind in illusion lost in thoughts and emotions of inadequacies based on past memories that are not real, and so do not define me here and thus do not define who I am.

I commit myself to not move based on a reaction to fear, but breath through the fear, and thus face the point that I am resisting such as speaking to the other in a point of conflict and stopping going into myself in suppression not facing reality but hiding in illusion as the mind.

I commit to face my fear of others by stopping defining myself by memoires and my judgments, by notaccepting theses inadequacies as me and accept me as an equally valued person and live from the physical in what will solve the issue and allow myself to live the solution through what it will take to become resolved.

When and as I go into my mind to fight the other in words or actions as imaginations, I stop and breath, and realize the consequences of this is that my mind becomes layered as these conflicts are not being directed nor resolved within me and my world, but are just accumulating this energy of anger and fear to face the other and thus creating more and more points of reaction and abuse that will continue to accumulate as I am not directing it, but suppressing it to an eventual outburst as moments of rage in the physical.

I commit myself to when I see I go into my mind to fight another, say, no, I will not participate in these image playouts of abuse any longer, breath, and move myself physically to break up and end the participation pattern of suppressing myself and fighting others in my mind reality.

I commit myself to not accept anger to accumulate through suppression, by directing the anger through breath and stopping my participation in it through writing out the moment that occurred causing the anger in the first place and correcting it to be lived in my life.

I commit myself to stop abusing people in my head in words and pictures, and find ways that will practically support a change into a solution with the other through communication and compromise in considering what is best for all and thus will support us both and what is best in the situation.

I commit myself to stop my self interest in getting what I want through winning and being able to competewith the other by not participating in this ego game through stopping this self interest when it arises and writing out the solution that will be best for both and practicing this until I can stand and direct myself to the best outcome within a direct of will as automatic.

When and as I go into a point of self compromise within thoughts and ideas of myself as inadequate, I stop and breath, and realize that I am not this in reality, I am equal in our physical bodies and living, and thus I respect this as myself by standing up for myself and who I am, and direct the situation into a point of equality and honoring life in equality within all in all ways.

I commit myself to breath through these thoughts of feelings of inadequacies by not being directed by them realizing they are not who I am, they don’t define me, and thus move myself to live in honor of myself in equal regard as all other life here.

I commit myself to investigate and write out all the inadequacies that come up in the moment of these moments where I want to suppress myself with another, to release it from having a hold on me through writing and thus living the correction of this in my life, so to be able to walk stable with the other without fear or self compromise.

I commit myself to let go of my self judgments that suppressing and compromising my living until I am here and nothing moves me but my self in the realization and consideration of life equal to me and doing what is best for all in all that I do.

When and as I go into my mind to become powerful because within myself I feel powerless, I stop and breath, as I realize that this is due to me giving my power away in the physical to fear and self judgment and believing what the mind is telling me is who I am when I realize I am not my mind as thoughts, memories, pictures, ideas, but am here as life in the process of self perfection and the ability to direct myself into self correction.

I commit myself to stop giving my power away in the physical by stop believing the mind as thoughts, emotions, ideas, memories of my past in feeling inadequate is who I am, by focusing on myself here as the physical equal to all, and walking myself into stability through educating myself in what is real, what is relevant, and walking this knowledge as living words to live this in reality in what is best for all solutions.

I commit to accept myself and all others as physical beings and see us as the physical life here, the bodies, the buildings, the nature, the movements, what we are physically doing/communicating, and use my breath to stay grounded and here and push myself to stop participating in the mind realities of illusion.

I commit to stop all participation in the mind of fighting others and becoming the victor in my head in seeingmyself as powerful by stopping this imaginations at it’s core through seeing the other as my equal and finding solutions in the physical.

I commit myself to stop my reactions of fear and anger and so direct myself in the physical with the other to empower both through compromised agreements through communication in finding solutions for the issues/problems that arise always taking into consideration the physical reality and ending the mind reality from directing me.

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Day 260 – Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1

If not, then I will go into my mind imagination and win, by yelling, screaming and even at points physically harming them through my thoughts and imaginations. 

Please reference these blogs for further context:
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2
Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued
Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?

Day 259 – Does Survival of the Fittest Make Me A Robot? Only If I Allow It

Here looking and doing self forgiveness on how I go into my mind and take out my anger in different ways of thought/reaction and creating scenarios of causing abuse on others, but in reality suppress myself and what I am feeling, and allow it to accumulate until it explodes into an outburst where I can become out of control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within my reality suppress what I am feeling of another person in anger for instance, and go into my mind and create imagination fantasies of yelling and screaming at them without directing the anger into the physical and communicating what is wrong and coming to a solution that is understood by all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate anger within me through suppressing myself with others due to fear of creating a conflict that I can not win nor compete with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see life within fear in where I feel inadequate with others and thus will use my mind to make myself feel more empowered through fighting and beating them up in my mind where I always turn out the victor and the villian.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed fear to direct me into my mind where in I will go into suppression around people in physical reality, but in my mind create a whole scene where I really yell and beat them up if I am angered by them and take what they do to me personal.

I forgive myself to take others personal and not direct the situation in the physical but suppress it into my mind where i take it out in imagination illusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that I can not define myself with others and thus never confront them due to fear of being humiliated and ridiculed by them because I believed that I was not worthy and they would have ample ways to make me lose and feel humiliated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as not able to defend myself against others because I believed myself to have something wrong with me and that I am flawed and others would always have a easy way to come back at me and humiliate me based on believing I had no defense because I was this weakened person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe something was wrong with me because in the past others said this to me and thus I believed that it was true.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe what others say about me and not live my own life and who I am within what I live within myself, and stop being influenced by what others say to me due to there own perceptions and beliefs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind as a platform to gain power in my world because within the physical I felt powerless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerless because I believed myself to be useless and not worthy and that I had a flaw that was unrepairable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was unrepairable and thus take this out on others through my mind due to the anger I felt within myself that others were ok and I had this flawed perception of myself and thus wanted to take this revenge out on others because I was jealous that they were ok and I was flawed and not normal, so used my mind in place of the physical to get my power back even if it was not real.

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Day 259 – Does Survival of the Fittest Make Me A Robot? Only If I Allow It

Please reference these blogs for further context:
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2
Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued

Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?

When and as I go into a point of competition in where I will go into a quick scan and comparison with another where I will see if I am able to compete within them, I stop and breath, and realize that within this I am limiting my expression based on thinking rather then living in the moment in what is best for both.

I commit myself to stop the scan and comparison until I am no longer moved by it and I am clear here in what direction I will take.

I commit myself to always consider the other as an equal to me in fact as life and stop competing.

I commit myself to breath and release the desire to win and be the best through committing myself to accept myself and let myself live in each moment without judgment.

I commit myself to stop self judgment and thus end polarity playouts within separation with life and find common ground to come to compromise or agreements.

When and as I go into fear of my survival based on the thought that I will lose and thus suppress who I am, I stop and breath, and realize that living from fear will always create more fear in my world, so I realize I must face this fear, accept it as myself, and thus then walk the correction to face the fear and change it into a living for myself. I stop the fear of others and walk with those that stand for a solution that is best for all.

I commit myself to embrace the other as myself seeing them in their shoes and walking a point of humbleness stopping all points of being more.

I commit myself to stop fear and thus stand within my self trust and acceptance, and use my standing and ability within common sense to walk solutions with others and face what is here as consequence.

When and as I go into a point of comparison with another and judge the way they look or speak, I stop and breath, and realize that this will separate me into the mind as ego seeing myself more or less based on the pictures we present, living as suppressed expression within myself in where I can gain the point of knowing another and learning about someone new instead of sabotaging the meet up due to fear.

I commit myself to not accept this comparison to direct me, where I stop paying attention to it, and do not follow it within self compromise.

I commit myself to stop and see reality for what it is, stop going into my mind to define, but see life where it is here in this life in a wholeness.

I commit myself to let go of the thoughts in the mind that we are different, and communicate and go with those I resist and face this fear.

I commit myself to push my resistances and stop limiting myself due to fear, when I go into self compromise, I breath and do not accept it by doing that which I fear in common sense assessment of course.

I commit myself to stop scanning others and see the whole of the room, all that is there rather then focusing and going into my mind.

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Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?

“I will then calculate in my head within a quick scan of the other to see where i stand, and will then assess if i am able to win against them or not.”

Please reference these blogs for further context:
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2
Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how much I limit my self expression due to fear, fear of what others will do, say, and/or think of me, and thus I will exist within this fear in my living where I am on the defensive at all times, restricted and guarded around others due to this belief that life is a struggle and I have to compete to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within competition in my world in havingthoughts of sizing up others where in I assess within a moment whether or not I will be able to handle myself with another within a point of coming out on top with the other or feeling inferior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within a fear of not having anything in life, not having any support from others, and thus being alone to fend for myself where I fear not making it and dying, and thus I will limit who I am here and what I will do around others due to this potential of lose and fear that I will be at a lose if I don’t go in prepared to compete and stay on top.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an in house or inner maintenance systemwhere I keep myself in check and also be on alter through scanning and access myself and myself within and around my environment and the people in my environment, where I will only move and express myself if I have assessed that I am more strong or more capable then others due to a calculation of the others look and the way they speak and thus go into a self definition and limitation of either being stronger or weaker according to how I have assessed myself according to the others comparison, and thus live into the role complete of what I assessed creating a separation between us based on assessing and living myself and who I am from a mindreality rather then the real reality of us being equal in fact as life here in this physical existence, here in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my self expression and the expression of my life in this world as my full potential to fear because I and accepting myself only to live form feelings andenergy as these feeling experiences I have created within me rather then letting them go as they are not real, they are not who I am, and thus they do not define me, and walking into reality, real common sense assessment in equal consideration of the other, and finding solutions to what is here that will work and suit both/all that live.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have my living expression be from a starting point of fear through comparison and thus create a limitation within the potential that can be here in every moment, and thus miss the opportunity for real full expression and creating with another something unique and original.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within my mind reality only seeingwhat my mind is telling me and what I am believing to be true rather then live from physical life, what is common between both, and what makes sense to create a solution that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition myself to others through a scan and an assessment based on picture and their mannerism in a few seconds rather then be open and here in my breathin the physical, getting to know the other, who they are within their living, and walking as an equal to understand the other through the realization that we are the same, we are both life and thus live from this starting point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed comparison and self judgment direct me into a fear reaction with others in believing I have to defend myself to live here, when I realize that this is not the way life has to be, I can stop my fear and thus stop separating myself by living from reality, what is real and what is common, our equal value within all and making sure this world honor real life and I as myself and all life stop living from the mind in our own little bubble worlds, only thinking about our own survival and thus our own self interest, and abusing life the whole time rather then supporting it and enjoying it as equals.

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