Why Am I Continuing to Fall – Day 498

Recently a point came up about an addiction that I have been transcending and within it I fell. What I realized within this fall was how I up until the point of actually doing the action that caused me to fall I was in a point of ignorance, like ‘I know I shouldn’t be doing this, I know there will be consequences for doing this action, I know I will be harming others if I do this”, though I still did it, even though I realized that it is not best for all. So after this event happened I listened to the new kryon interview – Rest and the Physical - Kryon: My Existential History, where he spoke about sleep and how the body does not need rest. How we within our physical bodies could live significantly longer then we are currently living. How we are in fact devolving each decade, each year, each day, each breath, and when he finished discussing this point I reflected on myself, and saw that very day I decided to go into ignorance and fulfill my mind desire, my need, my instant gratification, rather then stopping myself in principles that I have committed to live in what is best for all.

So my blog today is about what is it within my decision to fall even though I know it’ll be self compromising, why I did it anyway. What I found initally was a spitefulness, that because of my life circumstances I am afraid to take on inevitably the horror that I as a being have particpated within. The act of not living my highest potential is a measure in reality that is created, now because of spite and ignorance, I am accepting and allowing myself to give up and give in to challanges that arise and so compromise my self standing. I have committed myself to stand always despite falls, set backs, miss-takes, and abdication of my responsibility, I will stand up again and move myself to the inevitable correction to align myself with what is best for all.

So within this fall, there are two basic options I can walk and we all can walk for that matter, in a day, in our lives, is to stay in the fall experience of self pity, self anger, resentment, and blame or we can take self responsibility, learn from the fall, and use what I learned to change myself to be better equipped for the next time to stand, to stop the self compromise, to stop the projection and blame onto the outer reality, and to realize that everything that is in fact happening in MY life is MY creation.

This is one of the realization that came up for me within this point, is that I am the creator of my life, I decide whether I fall on a point or whether I stand within it and move into the correction to live what is best for all. There is no one outside of myself that is able to walk this decision and action, there is support yes, though in this journey of birthing life from the physical I am alone in this decision. I decided for myself who I will be and so within this I am the creator of my eventual desteni that’ll play out. What I walk in this life, each and every moment will accumulate to the final point of either death or birthing into life. This is the reality of each one in this life and the more that is given the more responsibility one takes on.

So from this fall, I take it as an opportunity to learn and understand where I stand within myself. How within this learning opportunity I need to change and move into a position where I can stand through the programs of the mind that played out for me to eventually fall on my commitments. Walking moment to moment I found, this journey is more manageable, to in each moment walk what is best for all this through breath awareness, this is also a process to get to this point, though in breath, here in our physical bodies, is where this life is able to be lived/walked in what is best. So a goal set forth to focus on or live is instead of having too much to consider in many moments as I decide to act on something, bring those many moments down to the small, walking and living moment to moment walking what is best in each moment that is here. (I will also write blogs on redefining the word here, moment to moment, breath, so it’s more clear on how to live this in physical reality)

This is what I found most important is to realize that I am responsible for not only myself, but for all here, I am walking for those who are not able to, for those who are starving, for those who are hurt and abused, for those who are silenced due to oppression, for those who have no voice, and also for those who are so lost in there minds that they can not see what is best for all. We, each and everyone of us, are walking a process of living what is best for all, this process though I have realized is determined and defined by self, and as was mentioned in Kryon’s interview today, there is a time stamp, life itself is showing within the aging process that we are devolving, we are not living and aligning with life, and so we are in essence dying which is obviously life extinguished. Life never dies to be clear, though the mind does, the mind is energy and this energy is based from the physical substance of the physical body, it’s parasitic in nature and so it eats the physical body until we die and the physical substance as our body repels the mind, the mind ceases to exist and physical substance goes back to it’s source, the earth, dust to dust. There have been hundreds of interviews on the life processes of human beings and what happens at death, here is a series specifically on this, the life reviews of those who die and processes that happen at death.

What I have realized within this fall for myself is that within my every day life, I have to live the words assertive, self trust, self honesty, and self creation to be able to in the moments I want to give into the justification, excuses, breaks, and really bullshit to live these words and push through my resistances and that I have to in real time move myself physically in these moments. These little moments of thoughts such as ‘it’s ok if I just indulge for one day’, ‘it’s ok if I take a break for one hour’, ‘it’s ok if I judge and ridicule in my mind for this one time cause it’s not that big of a deal, they can’t see, no one can see but me’, though these little moments eventually accumulate into physical action where I go into a decision in the physical to compromise myself, my commitments that I have made, and so compromise the whole process of birthing life from the physical. If I did act in a way that is best for all in that moment, I would not have wasted this time now of two days where I could be walking in ways that is best.

So there is purpose to falls they are neither good nor bad, but a opportunity to show you to you and how you have created yourself, what within this fall I have just lived, where I need to stand more, where I need to assert my directive will more, what I need to change and push within my skill set to be able to counteract my desire to resist, it is a learning experience if I walk it into a completion. Falls in process require self honesty, this is an act of self will and who one is within this process of a fall. This is all up to me, though the seriousness of what I am walking I am realizing more and more, we are not just walking this for ourselves, we are walking the process of birthing life from the physical for all beings that are here living, this is the desteni of this earth, I decide who I am and this effects the all cause we are all interconnected, everything is one and equal here in this physical reality.

I will continue with self forgiveness and self commitments in my next blog to further move into the correction process that is needed to stand within moments of self compromise.

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When No Means No - Day 492

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When I currently say no there is a lack of full trust within this because I have fallen in the past and not stuck with my no. There is a point of learning and correcting one’s mistakes within the process of coming to a final 'no, I stop', so this realization of the point of falling and getting back up again is actually part of process. The self trust redefinition I have made of living in a self trust that I will change myself in self honesty to do what is best for all until it is done, this I trust in my self.  This can come into play here realizing that I will make the effort to change myself when I see I am not acting in a way that is best for all and in self honesty, I will not give up on myself as the change.

Though here in this blog, I am speaking to the 'no' beyond the falling and getting back up process, it’s a 'No' where it states enough is enough, no I am not going to accept this anymore.

Here I see the focus on the tangible problems in the world like animals dying, children dying, war as a supportive focus point to imprint the push that will be necessary to move into that stand of No, I stop, I can do this, I stop here now.

So the two points I am focusing on to practice this 'No- I stop stand' is the self judgment of my face – where whenever I go into a form of judging myself or my face in any way whatsoever, I say inside myself or out loud “NO! I am not allowing this compromise any longer’ I stop!” I move into the play/fun expression to move me through the energy, become physical. I can use whistling to move in the physical to support to walk through this point or some other fun point that comes up.

The second point is when I see my mood changes with my partner – I go ‘no, I stop now, I am not going to compromise our relationship’ and within that find the correction/solution and live it immediately. This so I start moving beyond the current playout patterns that are occurring and get access to more opportunities of change to live my words and do what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself back doors in the saying of no where I will not actually live the correction of no but fall into it because it is easy and comfortable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into no based on the desire of seeing myself as less then rather then seeing myself as capable to move myself in the physical step by step in what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a fear of actually moving into my potential because then I will be forced to live there by principle to stand within what is best and life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an idea of what my potential will look like and so fear that which I have in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create my highest potential to be something that is too out there and hard to reach that I have believed it to be impossible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of apathy due to the belief that living my highest potetniaal is too hard when in reality I see, realize, and understand it is in each here moment that this can be lived, it’s not a end goal but it is here in each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make no another point of the ‘no but I its ok this time because I will eventually stop this someday’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall deliberately into the compromise of myself in my actions by not living to my highest potential in each moment but rather thoughts and energy overwhelm me and fall into them as I am addicted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a addictive mentality within the the word ‘no’ where I have placed a belief that it is not actually going to be done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone my life potential based on giving into the addictive thoughts of my mind when I say no to a pattern that is compromising and continue it.

I commit myself to stop the postponing of my change into my potential in each moment by living my words and standing within the integrity of doing what I say I will.

I commit myself to live the word ‘no’ as a final statement of what I will allow and what I will not and so say ‘no’ in these instance when I am ready to completely stop a point and stand as the solution for myself and then for others.

I commit myself to stop the fear of self change through taking it moment to moment and moving in breath awareness to get into the rhythm of living here and doing what is best in each breath.

I commit to practice this point of absolute no with the two examples I have shared and continue with other patterns once I have lived this in the physical.

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The Desteni of Living - My Declaration of Principle - Day 415

I hereby stand with these principles and commit myself to live them in my life through a process of self honesty, self introspection, and self forgiveness to create the path before me to walk these commitments as me as I live in each breath. I will in blogs to come expand on each commitment principle and give examples of how I have integrated and lived this into my own life.

1. Realising and living my utmost potential

2. Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

3. Living by the principle of self honesty – to ensure I am pure in thought, word and deed: that my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa

4. Self Purification through Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Application – the action of realising I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others

5. Living the principle of Self Responsibility – realising only I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others

6. Realising that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself – but others as well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed – I take responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment and live in such a way that is best for me and so others as well

7. Living the Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so for others

8. With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself – take responsibility and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and supporting myself – to give as you would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own

9. Living the principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honour and stand by what is best for all and so best for me

10. Making Love Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what it means to LIVE

11. No one can save you, save yourself – the realisation that the tools and principles of Desteni is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and what it means to live – but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone

12. Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world – but that I realise I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realisation that we as a collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today

13. Honouring the life in each person, animal – everything from the great to the small of earth, that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for everyone and everything and so ourselves

14. Relationships as Agreements: individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to one-on-one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one

15. Sex as Self Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honour, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.

16. Realising that by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come

17. I must in my thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my living actions, become a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people can realise how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth

18. I am the change I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living world.

19. Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds – my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realising it is not enough to ‘see the change / be the change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath

20. Realising that my physical body is my temple – my physical body is the living flesh through which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honour, respect and regard – nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me

21. We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realise this, as nothing will change if we don’t change in all that we are, within and without

22. The realisation that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

23. The realisation that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world – I have to get to ‘know thyself’ as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth

Irritation and Impatience Self Support - Day 339

Here I have been walking irritation and impatience for most of my process, and I have realized that within participating in such outflows of my behavior towards others, it's based on an accumulated amount of backchat thoughts or thought patterns that are in the form of blame and self victimization to stand as an artillery type defense to in the end justify the behavior I lived out in becoming irritated and impatient towards another. Usually this comes in the form of speaking loudly, yelling, and being battle like in my words, trying to win and defeat the other, but this I have found only defeats myself as I lose self trust and self integrity within who I really am as life one and equal with all others here and thus my opportunity to change the life of another as well as myself in a growth and expansion that will be beneficial and support a better outcome. 

Now, I had a chat with a fellow destonian and she suggested to use the point of irritation as a point to cross-reference where I am at in terms of my walking this point of stopping it and becoming the directive principle in these moments to do what is best for all. So I have been looking at this and practicing it, and I am seeing that I have made progress, but I still go into irritation often. I find the backchat is usually based on an accumulation of pictures in my mind where I blame the other from past moments I judged them for, and made me right. So it's a point of self interest, desiring to be able to get my own way and have others bend at my whim so I can have the desired experience I was going for using the mind as assuming and only certain moments considered to thus be only advantageous to me being right and me getting my way. 

A dimension of self forgiveness and self correction I will walk is this point of going into the past and making past moments part of my decision making in the here moment, and thus replaying the past over and over again in this here moment causing conflict, separation, and more conflict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bring the past in moments of memory as pictures I have stored in my mind where I judge another as wrong and me as right, and held this assumption/particular moments only as absolute truth and then bring it here to be used by myself in self interest to justify my action of irritation and impatiences toward this other, and so accentuate conflict and separation rather then seeing the other as my equal, letting go of the past as it's not here and thus not reality, and walking as a point of solution in directive will in what is best for all as I would want to have done for me, and so be a living example to all that I touch throughout my day and life as this is all that really matters.

When and as I see that I am going into a point of justification through memories and pictures from my past of another in only certain moments or considerations to make me right and the other wrong, I stop and breath, and realize that this will only cause more conflict with the other and thus create more conflict within me and my living, and so more abuse and separation to be sorted which is not necessary and unacceptable.

I commit myself to walk the point of breathing through the reaction to go into my mind and bring up the past the moment I see the energy activating as irritation and the mind go to view the artillery I will need to justify my abuse, and do not participate within these pictures as I bring myself back here in the physical body as breath and release this energy through breathing and earthing it back to it's source through my feet into the earth. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am is more 'right' then other people, and so live from this starting point in separation with the physical reality and the physical facts of the matter in the realization that we are all here and we are all equal as life, and so I forgive myself that I haven't yet accepted and allowed myself to direct myself in self will as the directive principle of equality and oneness of all life as self to walk solutions with others in moments where I am seeing that there is a point of potential conflict, through my own words and living actions and support the other as I would myself to come to solutions in what ever would be best to resolve the situation and so stop conflict from manifesting and thus stopping encouraging it.

When and as I see that I am going into a point of self righteousness and not considering the other in equality and oneness, I stop and breath, and realize that I am compromising the opportunity for self growth and expansion with another that could/may develop within sharing myself in integrity and support and supporting the situation to come to a solution that will be best through me becoming stable and not reacting, and so bringing forth life and not separation in the moment that opened up to bring this forth.

I commit myself to when I see that I am going into a point of self righteousness, realize and immediately stop and see what it is I am doing so I can stop the line of thought that will trigger the desire to win and direct myself in the outcome that will be best through self honest practical considerations. 

I commit myself to walk the point of bringing myself back to my physical through breathing and dedicating myself to my decision and commitment to walk with others in equality, finding solutions, and supporting others in the best way I am able to as I would want for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become more interested in my own self desires/wants/needs then that of considering the other I am in the moment living with, who they are or where they are in their life, but only desire to have my interests met and me win and me be right, and thus create an immediate conflict with the other due to not living the equality principle and disregarding them through become reactive as impatient and irritated and thus creating abuse as my starting point and living out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in such a way where I deliberately abuse others for my own self interest and to have my desires met, and so not consider the other equal to myself but make my considerations, desires, wants, and needs more important when I realize that they are not in fact real what is real is the life I am here with and considering them as how I would want to be consider always.

When and as I go into a point of desire, want, need, and not consider the other as my equal, I stop and breath, and realize this will lead to abuse and self compromise, which I no longer accept and allow of myself. I realize that these desires, wants, and needs come from my mind as made up scenarios not based on facts, but based on pictures and memories and judgments I have made and accumulated within me to use to get what I want and make the other less then me to get this want or desire met for myself. I also realize that I must stop these mind illusions and bring myself back to what is real, my physical body, my breath, and what is physically happening in fact in my world always considering all parts equal and one to how I would consider myself.

I commit myself to walk the point of bring myself back to the physical through breath whenever I see a movement within me to react to another in self interest and not in consideration of the other equal to myself.

I commit myself to stop my point of self interest wants, needs, and desires and walk the equality equation finding the solution that will benefit both or all involved respecting and honoring all parts of this reality equal and one to how I would like to be treated myself.

I commit myself to stop all mind reactions through letting them go through self forgiveness and self corrective living and use the living of patience as myself through walking what is best for all no matter how long it takes and what I have to give to receive this outcome because I realize that what is best for all is best for me and so it's common sense to do so.

I commit myself to live common sense and live words as me in the directive purpose of what the words mean in physical reality through walking the process of redefining each and every word I would like to live with myself and with others until I am here and live direct with myself as this physical reality, aligned to life one and equal in what is best in all ways through the words I speak equal and one to how I live them, so it's clear and always understood by all.

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Day 290 – Self Judgment – “I Deserve to Suffer” – Self Commitment Statements to Live

Please reference the blog - Day 289 – Self Judgment – “I Deserve to Suffer?”, to see the self forgiveness in correlation with these self commitments. 

When and as I see myself go into the thought that ‘I am flawed, and I deserve to suffer’, I stop and breath, and realize this is a point of self manipulation to gain attention from others and not face the reality of myself as being a bully to me. I realize that I have to walk the process of letting go these self judgments within and as me so I can see myself from the physical within and as what is real as the physical and let go of the mind definitions as I realize they are not real, they are illusion, and I can and have to will this point of self definition and direction in who I am in each moment of breath.

I commit myself to let go of all the thoughts that are of a self judgment and immediately apply myself in breath to not allow the energy as depression take over and walk through the point of low that comes with self judgment.

I commit myself to remain in the physical by moving through within and as the physical body as a stable support through focusing my movements, my breath, and focusing on the fact that this is what gives me my life to live, my physical body and my breath.

I commit myself to embrace myself within all considerations and appreciate myself within the things that I walk through within a point of self-discipline and self-dedication, giving me self-praise and self-love.

I commit myself to let of the desire for perfection and focus on my physical perfection in my living, moving in the direction of this physical reality as perfection through my blogs, vlogs, and living action with self and with the group that walks this into being.

When and as I see that I go into the point of seeing it is time to abuse my physical by mentally beating on it, I stop and breath, and immediately realize and focus on the fact that this is not real, it’s coming up as thought, which is not physical and the nature of it is self harm, harming myself and physical which is unacceptable as this is what is supporting me to live.

I commit to accept all forms of the physical and thus walk the process of correcting that which is harmful to the physical and self as the physical within self honesty and self correction through self forgiveness.

I commit myself to stop all forms of judgment onto the physical and embrace that point by speaking the purpose of it here as it giving me life. For example, the eye gives sight, the heart gives flow, the breath gives life, and connecting the physical with the physical purpose of it in reality to see for real and sound for real who I am for real as the physical and that it is all support.

When and as I see I go into a point of self interest in not caring about what I do to myself or others and thus cause harm due to ignorance, I stop and breath, and realize that every action I take has an equal reaction, and thus I realize I am interconnected to everything and everyone and my actions have consequence.

I commit myself to stop and breath before I go into a point of action, becoming physically here and assessing my next step within the basis of how I would want to be treated and what will be best.

I commit to continue to walk this point of stopping my actions and breathing before I act through accessing my next action in equality and oneness until I am remain here and can direct myself in full consideration of others as myself in what is best.

I commit myself to write out all points that come up that don’t align with equality and oneness and find what the practical solution is to implement this alignment of equality with others in my world.

I commit to become humble within all my interactions with others and reap what I sow eventually which will be a humble self through and through living and pushing physical realizations in self living to all as equals as one life here.

Day 259 – Does Survival of the Fittest Make Me A Robot? Only If I Allow It

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Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?

When and as I go into a point of competition in where I will go into a quick scan and comparison with another where I will see if I am able to compete within them, I stop and breath, and realize that within this I am limiting my expression based on thinking rather then living in the moment in what is best for both.

I commit myself to stop the scan and comparison until I am no longer moved by it and I am clear here in what direction I will take.

I commit myself to always consider the other as an equal to me in fact as life and stop competing.

I commit myself to breath and release the desire to win and be the best through committing myself to accept myself and let myself live in each moment without judgment.

I commit myself to stop self judgment and thus end polarity playouts within separation with life and find common ground to come to compromise or agreements.

When and as I go into fear of my survival based on the thought that I will lose and thus suppress who I am, I stop and breath, and realize that living from fear will always create more fear in my world, so I realize I must face this fear, accept it as myself, and thus then walk the correction to face the fear and change it into a living for myself. I stop the fear of others and walk with those that stand for a solution that is best for all.

I commit myself to embrace the other as myself seeing them in their shoes and walking a point of humbleness stopping all points of being more.

I commit myself to stop fear and thus stand within my self trust and acceptance, and use my standing and ability within common sense to walk solutions with others and face what is here as consequence.

When and as I go into a point of comparison with another and judge the way they look or speak, I stop and breath, and realize that this will separate me into the mind as ego seeing myself more or less based on the pictures we present, living as suppressed expression within myself in where I can gain the point of knowing another and learning about someone new instead of sabotaging the meet up due to fear.

I commit myself to not accept this comparison to direct me, where I stop paying attention to it, and do not follow it within self compromise.

I commit myself to stop and see reality for what it is, stop going into my mind to define, but see life where it is here in this life in a wholeness.

I commit myself to let go of the thoughts in the mind that we are different, and communicate and go with those I resist and face this fear.

I commit myself to push my resistances and stop limiting myself due to fear, when I go into self compromise, I breath and do not accept it by doing that which I fear in common sense assessment of course.

I commit myself to stop scanning others and see the whole of the room, all that is there rather then focusing and going into my mind.

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Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?

“I will then calculate in my head within a quick scan of the other to see where i stand, and will then assess if i am able to win against them or not.”

Please reference these blogs for further context:
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2
Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how much I limit my self expression due to fear, fear of what others will do, say, and/or think of me, and thus I will exist within this fear in my living where I am on the defensive at all times, restricted and guarded around others due to this belief that life is a struggle and I have to compete to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within competition in my world in havingthoughts of sizing up others where in I assess within a moment whether or not I will be able to handle myself with another within a point of coming out on top with the other or feeling inferior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within a fear of not having anything in life, not having any support from others, and thus being alone to fend for myself where I fear not making it and dying, and thus I will limit who I am here and what I will do around others due to this potential of lose and fear that I will be at a lose if I don’t go in prepared to compete and stay on top.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an in house or inner maintenance systemwhere I keep myself in check and also be on alter through scanning and access myself and myself within and around my environment and the people in my environment, where I will only move and express myself if I have assessed that I am more strong or more capable then others due to a calculation of the others look and the way they speak and thus go into a self definition and limitation of either being stronger or weaker according to how I have assessed myself according to the others comparison, and thus live into the role complete of what I assessed creating a separation between us based on assessing and living myself and who I am from a mindreality rather then the real reality of us being equal in fact as life here in this physical existence, here in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my self expression and the expression of my life in this world as my full potential to fear because I and accepting myself only to live form feelings andenergy as these feeling experiences I have created within me rather then letting them go as they are not real, they are not who I am, and thus they do not define me, and walking into reality, real common sense assessment in equal consideration of the other, and finding solutions to what is here that will work and suit both/all that live.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have my living expression be from a starting point of fear through comparison and thus create a limitation within the potential that can be here in every moment, and thus miss the opportunity for real full expression and creating with another something unique and original.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within my mind reality only seeingwhat my mind is telling me and what I am believing to be true rather then live from physical life, what is common between both, and what makes sense to create a solution that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition myself to others through a scan and an assessment based on picture and their mannerism in a few seconds rather then be open and here in my breathin the physical, getting to know the other, who they are within their living, and walking as an equal to understand the other through the realization that we are the same, we are both life and thus live from this starting point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed comparison and self judgment direct me into a fear reaction with others in believing I have to defend myself to live here, when I realize that this is not the way life has to be, I can stop my fear and thus stop separating myself by living from reality, what is real and what is common, our equal value within all and making sure this world honor real life and I as myself and all life stop living from the mind in our own little bubble worlds, only thinking about our own survival and thus our own self interest, and abusing life the whole time rather then supporting it and enjoying it as equals.

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Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued

Please reference these blogs for further context:
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2

When and as I go into a point of desire to indulge in my anger reaction in energy and go into an outburst onto another, I stop and breath, and realize the consequences of my actions of causing conflict within the relationship as this will cause friction immediately within the other as going into outbursts in anger toward the other will only create conflict as I am not considering the other in trying to be more rather then being equal.

I commit myself to breath through the emotional rush of energy as anger when I believe I have been offended by another, do not react or move myself until I am clear realizing that I will only cause conflict and more reaction within the other into a greater issue.

I commit myself to stabilize myself within this point to a point where I move myself in my own direction and am able to breath through and be stable within anger emotion.

I commit myself to only speak to the other when I am not in reaction and thus speak in a directiveness by my own reason and will, and treat the other as myself.

When and as I go into a point of seeking revenge due to taking another’s actions/words towards me personal and use anger as a tool to justify my revenge desires out on them, I stop and breath, and realize that this is a point that I need to bring back to myself as I am going into blame and not taking responsibility for how I am acting and creating abusive consequences within my living and thus require correction.

I commit myself to stop my desire to take revenge on another by seeing what it is that I took personal and walking self forgiveness and self correction to no more have this point have power over me but see it for what it is within me and correct into being stable within it.

I commit myself to breath and stop myself from taking others actions/words/gestures towards me personal as I understand where I can relate to the other and that the correction is to remain stable, standing on my own, and being humble in letting go points that need to be let go of because I am here and understand who I am as one ad equal with life.

I commit myself to breath through the reaction of desire to take revenge by not allowing the thoughts to accumulate of blame on another and letting go of these reactions of offense.

I commit myself to push myself to support others when I see I was offended and thus find the point of equality and support to become stable within these situations where I move myself and stop the desire to go into energy and release for a moment satisfaction.

When and as I go into a point of seeing I was rejected and others don’t like me, I stop and breath, and realize that this shows a sign of somewhere where I am not accepting myself, and so I investigate and find where I am not supporting myself and accepting myself and change this so I accept this and stabilize myself into a point of equality within the physical where I am equal with how I am and not moved by others minds/reactions.

I commit myself to stop the fear of rejection and thus walk the acceptance of myself in who I am and become stable within my correction of how I live.

I commit to stop taking offense by others and start to stand as an example in stability and understanding and humility.

When and as I go into memories of past scenarios where I was offended, I stop and breath, and realize that these physical happenings occurred and thus this is what is here as my life, I though realize I can stop my reaction within them realizing that I am stable, I understand who I was at that time and how I now realize and understand have changed myself to a person that is able to be stable with others and not moved through reactions of external forces empowering myself to be my own directive force in the solutions that I see will be best and thus always best for all.

I commit myself to stop the reactions to memories by investigating when this occur and stopping my participation in the energy of it through writing and correcting the point to see how I created the reaction and letting go of the ideas/beliefs/thoughts I held of myself that are not real and thus make myself real by living in reality and directing myself as my own self will.

I commit myself to stop blaming others for these reactions and memories by taking responsibility for myself and stopping my own reactions, stopping the blame, and living from the physical here seeing the memories for what they are and that they do not define me.

I commit myself to stop all points of definitions from the mind and walk in each breath here until I am stable through the writing and stability of walking the correction to breath here for real.


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Day 243 – Mean Character – Back Chat Dimension – They are so Lazy – Self Commitments to Live

Please reference this blog for further perspective:
Day 242 – Mean Character – Back Chat Dimension – “They are so Lazy”

When and as I see I am going into an irritation based on allowing backchat to direct me in my living, I stop and breath, and realize that this emotion of irritation is based on me not taking responsibility for my ownthoughts as backchat and blaming others for things that I myself are doing as well. I realize that I need to perfect my own living and thus become an example for others, blame and irritation just reflecting the opposite and a point of denial and dishonesty within myself of me doing it as well.

I commit myself to not allow a point of backchat to direct me by becoming aware of it in the moment and using my breath and physical body to move myself to not participate.

I commit to each time the backchat comes up of another is lazy, I stop and breath, and bring it back to myself and see where it is that I am being lazy.

I commit myself to walk the correction in my living within seeing were I am being lazy in my day and changethat so I am effective and productive and can become someone who can be trusted to do what is necessary and can help out.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to blame by becoming observant within why I am going into this blame, what am I not facing within myself, and how can I change this to be supportive of myself and others around me.

When and as I see I am going into a point of judgment towards others as lazy and become angry because I perceive myself to be doing more, I stop and breath, and realize that this is not an accurate portrayal of reality but based on my self interest to feel superior and get pity form others for nice feelings within me.

I commit myself to investigate all the judgments that come up within me and bring it back to myself and see where it is that I am actually judging myself and thus want to make others this way as well.

I commit myself to stop the thoughts as pictures in my mind that others are doing less, and see where it is that I can do more, where I can contribute more in self honesty and stop this blame of others as it’s not in fact real or accurate to what is real in reality.

I commit myself to breath through the emotions to go into anger towards others and make a ruckus and investigate why I am looking to create conflict, what is it that I want, and stop this self interest through writing and living the correction.

I commit myself to breath and see all within reality, all considerations, and hear all sides of the story before I rush and judge or make a definitive decision on something or someone.

I commit myself to walk the solution and consider others as I would want to be consider and live.

When and as I see I am going into this point of spitefulness towards others due to this backchat thought of they are so lazy and following it, I stop and breath, and realize that this is not a fair assessment of someone, I am judging them based on my own agenda and desire to be more then them, and thus realize this is abuse to another and I am being an abuser to life.

I commit myself to stop spitefulness and not accept myself to become this, I immediately flag this and investigate what it is that I don’t want to see within myself and want to blame on another and go to the point of wanting to seek revenge.

I commit myself to stop the abuse in spite and revenge for another as this is outright abuse and not acceptable nor necessary to solve conflicts.

I commit to walk solutions with others in compromise and let go of the thoughts that make me vs. them type outlook.

I commit to walk as equal with others and let go of my thoughts as mind that try to sabotage myself or others.

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Day 242 – Mean Character – Back Chat Dimension – “They are so Lazy”

For further reference on the mean character, please read these following blogs:

Day 237 – Walking with Others – Why People see me ...

Day 238 – Mean Character – Militant Biatch
Day 239 - Mean Character - Self Commitments
Day 240 – Leadership and the Mean Character
Day 241 – Leadership and the Mean Character – Self Correction to Live

Here looking at my back chat in terms of when this mean character come into play within me, where I will become this person as being mean towards others in my world, and I see it’s created and thus generated through this backchat thoughts of “They are so Lazy”. This is within a point of me not having something be easy and smooth in my world, and thus I have to put extra effort in based on another person not competing there responsibilities. I realize though within this to be determined and moved based on others actions and thus allow myself to be trapped in the mind as blame when I don’t know for facts the reasons for such absentness, I will be determined and enslaved to these needs in myself of having others compare to my work effort and thus going into a immediate blame if it is not complete.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an anger within me that is exerted out in my words of harshness and abrasiveness towards others when I initially allowed and accepted the backchat thought of others that they are lazy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow and participate in the thought of they are so lazy by accepting the energy as anger and irritation to consume me into blame towards another and a superior stance towards them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry and irritated at others in my world that I have thought this thought about that they are lazy and immediately compare them to me in what I am doing, and always judge them as not as productive as me in what I am doing and contributing to others in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blaming others for the effort I put in to my day and thus create more of this anger emotion because I see myself having to work harder then others because in my mind I have defined them as lazy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in judgments towards others as lazy and not as hard working as me, and thus fuel this anger and irritation when I have made a judgment in a situation that they are indeed being lazy again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge another as lazy based on images in my mind as screenshots I memorized in where I judge these people as lazy in their day to day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create screenshots in my mind of moments in timethat are really but illusions and thus determine the physical here in what is going on as a picture in my mind from the past that is based on my perception within a judgment of superiority rather then actually seeing what was really happening in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become part of the problem and thus create moreconflict and tension within the environment I am in rather then become a support equal to how I would want to be treated, and realize that I can direct the physical into solutions with others if I let go of my judgments of what’s going on which indeed is blinding me from really seeing reality but only what I want to see to feed my self interest in being superior over others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become blinded to reality based on accepting this thought of backchat as ‘they are so lazy’ where I use it to my advantage to be seen as more capable then the other and try to prove this through a point of me vs. them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become vengeful towards others based on believing that I am justified due to the backchat thoughts in my mind that I allow to direct me and thus act on them by being spiteful towards others and mean within my way of acting with them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by my self interest in really trying to be seen as more then others and use the backchat thoughts as ‘they are so lazy’ to justify my actions of abuse and meanness towards them so I can feel empowered and special cause in my mind I have made me right and them wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a polarity within my reality and in my mind as me vs them and thus allow these back chat thoughts as ‘they are lazy’ to direct me into behaving in a way to create this scenario where I win and others lose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others and the solution to this life and living in this world of being equal and one and treating others in this way, to create a communion with others and opportunity for solutions in cooperation and support for and by all.

Self Commitment Statements to follow.