What is Evil? Re-Defining the Word to be Self Supportive – Day 458

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Gentleness has been a point that has come up recently for me to look at and integrate into my life because I realized through support that I have not allowed this expression to come through in myself and so in my living. I have recently started to open up the side of myself that I have always resisted to face and that is the more evil side of who I have become in this life. Now there is a movement within me when I see that I am evil in my ways and obviously this is not what the mind as ego wants to look at as it shows our true nature, who we are underneath the shell of the persona we have created for the outside world. The secret mind of ourselves is what I am currently looking at and the implications of the evilness that I have participated in in my mind and so then lived out in my life which causes outflows of abuse that can not be really understood of their reach. What I mean by this is that when I say something in reaction to a co-worker for instance, I don’t know how that person will internalize it and then through their own mind live it out, it could be they get up and live the job for instance or they go home and yell at their kids and then their kids are effected by one instance of outburst I lived out because I was not self aware and self disciplined enough to stop myself. The effects of our words and actions ripple’s throughout time and through life so it’s important that we understand this and walk the process of self correction.

So with the support of others, my buddy specifically through the desteni I process I am currently walking, she shared the insight that I have not yet allowed myself to be gentle with myself and so I then can not live this out in my world because it is not an expression of me as of yet. I have not yet given to myself the tools to support to understand what this means to be gentle, how I am not being this way, why I should live in this way, and so the solution as the realizations as foundation to live this within myself and so in my life.

So first I want to clear the word evil to let go of the negative attachment I have toward it and then walk the point of investigating and supporting myself to practically live gentleness for myself and so for everyone in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the word evil in fear as I see this as something that can not be undone or be corrected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the word evil is an absolute definition about someone or something and within being labeled or seen as evil then you are damned to this label forevermore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow the belief that the word evil means absolute when in reality I see, realize, and understand that evil is a point of misalignment and so within that there is a correction process that is required to become back in alignment with life as one lives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the process of correction as something that is so far in the future that I fear that I will fall and not be able to give up my evil ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the belief that I will fall and give up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to engage in the thoughts that I will fall and give up and continue with what is not best for all as the evil that exists within what I do in this way of living, and so manifest this and perpetuate in in my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the breath of life as this process being walked where life is here and so am I, and then in each moment is the opportunity for life and through applying what is here as tools of support and solutions that are common sense and best for all, this process of self correction and self perfection is inevitable as I walk breath by breath here where I am always at and so can create from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a bad person because of the way in which I behaved and acted based on not being disciplined and self determined to stop my thoughts and energies to thus prevent the abuse from occurring as I see the outflows it will create before hand.

I forgive myself that I have not as of yet accepted and allowed myself to live the act of prevention is the best cure by staying principled within my living and stopping my mind from directing me through counterbalancing it with my own self directive will in the moment to moment application of day to day living where I see, realize, and understand that change is able to be lived by don’t live it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall within self honesty where I give my mind more of myself by giving into resistances and so face the consequences of abuse and mis-takes as I am not able to be here and be fully aware because I have allowed myself to go into my mind and live it out through accepting it to overwhelm and live it out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to the personality play outs I have existed as in my living and so become addicted to the programmable reactions where I allow that to play out as it’s easier rather then asserting myself and changing myself to become my own self directive will by actually willing myself to stop and so change in real time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for this as a bad/evil person and so want to punish myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to punish myself and so create the breeding ground for the mind to overwhelm and live out the abuse in my life.

When and as I see I am going into a point of seeing myself as evil and moving in the direction of giving into resistances in my living, I stop and breath, and realize this is a recipe for self abuse and so abuse out in my world.

I commit myself to let go of the belief that evil is bad or unchangeable through realizing that it’s a mis-alignment in life that needs understanding and correction through a self process.

I commit myself to investigate all ways and mind patterns in which I describe as evil so I can understand myself as it and correct myself.

I commit myself to let go of the addictions to resistances and energy movements and push myself beyond my limitationseach and every time I see it is able to be done until I do not have to push anymore but it is lived as me.

I commit to redefine words that will support me in this venture to ensure I give myself care equal to how I would like to give it to others.

I commit myself to redefine evil and live this word as actions of misalignment in my living followed by thought patterns andenergy reactions that are in need of understanding and correction asap.

The next blog, I will walk the process of redefining gentleness for myself and laying a foundation for how I will walk in practically in my life and why I am doing so. Thanks for reading.

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Day 267 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Corrections to Live

Please reference these blogs for further perspective on this post:

Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words
Day 266 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Forgiveness

When and as I see myself give my power away to my ideas of the word loser and thus see myself at a lose, I stop and breath, realizing that I can only lose power or am at a lost within myself if I give my power away by defining myself by this world through the mind as seeing me subject to it and taking my ideas of me being a loser or inadequate as a real definition of me. I realize I am the one who directs myself and words into meaning and understand, and thus I define who I am alone.

I commit myself to walk the point of not accepting myself to be moved by hearing the sound of the word loser being directed at me or another, through breathing, and realizing that I am not defined by this word as my beliefs and so I walk the commit to let go of the beliefs that I am inadequate within myself when I am called this or another is.

I commit to walk the practical point of directing the word into an understanding for all, stopping the point ofpolarity with it that it creates with worthy/unworthy, but redefine it to be a universal meaning of the word that will fit it’s practical purpose of the word and define nothing but reality here.

When and as I go into a point of feeling inferior or inadequate within myself based on being called this word loser, I stop and breath, and realize that I am the one creating this feeling and belief of inadequacy and inferiority, and thus I realize I have the power to stop this belief and feelings and redirect myself through my living into letting it go and honoring myself and others as equals and live this.

I commit myself to let go of the fear and judgment of myself of seeing myself less then others.

I commit myself to walk as an equal in seeing that life here is equal, and thus I see that learning and growing is what is being walked within all walks of life, we all are in process of learning and growing, and thus I allow myself to walk this for myself, learn, grow, correct, and live and allow all life to walk this unconditional as well in this process of walking into self perfection.

I commit myself to stop the energy movement of fear and dread when I hear this word loser based on seeing that I am defining myself in this way because of the past, I stop the past from being here as the here is what is real, the past is gone.

I commit to walk what is here in breath and stop the past from controlling me, stop living from the past, and move my awareness to breath as life here in the physical.

When and as I see myself being in fear of my environment and people calling me names such as loser, I stop and breath, and realize that these people who call names are only showing their own true natures, this is not defining me nor do I have to take these sayings personal. I realize who I am and that I am not the words or phrases others speak of me, I am who I direct and thus define my own self to be, I am the creator of myself, I empower myself alone.

I commit to let go of this fear of being name called or ridiculed by others.

I commit to breath through this fear and allow people to say what they may, but also I stand within the principles of myself as an equal and support where I see I can and walk direct without taking it personal. It is not personal as life is all that is here and thus I realize what is being walked and what must be walked to see this for real is a process, and so I support life unconditionally.

I commit myself to stop taking all external words, gestures, behaviors personal as I realize I am walking process, life is not yet for real as life, and thus all that is here is in process, this is all me and I realize and commit to take responsibility of and for what is here as myself through my own process of self realization and self perfection and thus as the greater.

When and as I see that I am existing within my own mind as the losers and the winners within my world and reality in judgment and self interest, I stop and breath, realizing that I am not only perpetuating but creating this whole fear within me and thus within others that I desire to stop because I am living from fear. I realize I have to completely let go of the polarities within the mind as some and others or this and that, and walk into direct reality, what is here for real, and what will be the best outcome for all in humbleness in consideration of all that is here as me.

I commit myself to walk the point of letting go of all polarities within me, by embracing the other polarity I am trying to ignore, and thus seeing myself within it, what I am not accepting within myself, and accept it, write about it, self forgive the separation, and correct it into living it as myself in self responsible direction and correction.

I commit to stop using words for my own self interest and walk what is here within the practical purpose of words within a universal understanding of all to live and benefit from words in the best way possible.

I commit to end the abuse of others through changing my living behavior through writing self-forgiveness and self commitment statements of the patterns that need change, and living the change necessary to see this through by actually living it and stopping it in my day to day living. I commit to end abuse as myself in this world.

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Day 266 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Forgiveness

Please reference this blog for further perspective on this post:

Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being called or associated with the word loser due to my ideas of the word defining me as less then others and thus fearing a part of myself being lost where another will gain over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give the word loser more power then my own self direction realizing that I can only be defined by a word if I allow my ideas of it control me into fear and self compromise.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate lose of myself with the word loser due to fear and my idea of myself seen and thus defined as inadequate if I am called this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be inadequate and thus vulnerable to others calling me a loser and thus suppress myself and fear being associated with this word because I believe this to be real meaning, that I am inadequate and others can see this, thus showing that I am not standing within my own self, but in fear of others harm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others harming me and thus suppress myself due to fear of becoming vulnerable especially when hearing or being associated with the word loser as I believe that the labeling of a loser is the lose of my dignity within my environment and surrounding associates.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the idea and belief of this being true of being less then others if I am called a loser and become known as this by others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept ideas within my head and be directed by these ideas within me of polarities and comparisons and thus be lost within this play out with words and ideas in my mind of the idea of me being called a loser and how I am branded now and at a lose, instead of living from the physical and creating universal definitions for words that is it’s actual purpose and thus having directseeing in and as what is real as the physical and direct from here in reality rather then the mind which is illusionary and multi-faceted and not clear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually desire to use the word loser within myself and thus I hold onto it’s definition as real to make others inferior to me and me superior to gain more prestige and influence over others and in my surroundings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harm others within the ideas I hold of loser and make them feel less then me and when it comes to me in this position, I desire mercy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live the message and words of life of give unto others as you would want done unto you, and thus create abuse and harm to others and equally create that for myself based on creating ideas and beliefs of words and live them out to be true rather then living from the physical in universal understanding of what words mean and thus live this in consideration of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the word loser and the ideas of inferiority to suit my needs and desire not to be lived within these same standards when I am the one who is now inferior and have now have been labeled in the same vain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself into a split of superiority and inferiority when I realize that all life is one and equal with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distort the word loser to suit me and thus at the same time fear it when I am in the negative polarity idea I have created of it and been labeled as this, and thus I see and realize I must redefine the word loser and live it within it’s actual purpose to be here and thus direct it in common understanding in all’s equal consideration.

Self Commitments and Redefinition to follow, thanks for reading.



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Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words

I listened to Anu’s interview today, and he was discussing on family rivalry and competition, and how within this play out with siblings we easily go into the point of ‘winning’ and ‘losing’ based on the inherent desirewithin us to be strong and thus be the ‘winner’, and so obviously not be ‘weak’ and be the ‘loser’.

So the first step he suggested within looking at this whole point of sibling rivalry, is too re-define the words winning and losing, starting with lose, lost, and/or loser, so I will start with the word – loser. I have a reaction to this word within a resistances and tension, like I don’t want to be associated with this word, it’s like a real negative, horrible experience within myself when I see the word loser. This based on seeing it as I am losing something of myself and will not be able to get that part of me back, such as losing my face for instance with others, my fake face as strength and being a loser means I am not strong and thus will not be able to be a fake face with others because they will see me for who I am, my name associate with me in the peer group, thus branded and a bad brand is not something one want to be associated with as that mean you are outcasted.

Why I want to be a fake face though one may say, and this is based on survival, it’s a learned behavior only done by humans to put on a fake face to impress others one’s abilities and capabilities even if it is false or unfounded, if you can fake it you can make it mentality. This based on humans living within judgment, separation, and abuse towards each other for greed and power. So being a loser is a huge point of fear as I see myself within being associated with this word at a lose, outcasted, abused, and thus not being able to survive with others and get what I desire.

Also, within being called a loser, it’s a point of being degraded and made to feel less then others, and so being called this brings a lot of fear, and so when I see that I may or could be perceived as a loser, I will go into suppression within my expression in fear of being seen as less then others or being called this name. I didn’t want to be seen as different and not part of the group because within being a loser and out casted, you are no one, you are not liked, and thus life because much more difficult and strained, you become the target of abuse because you are now weak. Interesting how I and we as humans, so easily will put another into this position as a loser, claiming it’s not a big deal, it’s just a little poking fun, it’s the way nature is. But it’s not, it’s most certainly is deliberate, a point of putting another in their place, and showing others who you are in relation to them/that other, that I am superior and you are a loser. Human nature does not have to be this way, in abuse and separation towards others; we can be as equals and live ni harmony with others through stopping this behavior. Though within being the one who is being out casted, I know that its not fun and games and jokes, when I am the one being called it’s a real big deal, it’s hurtful, and it cause a lot of stress and anxiety within me.

I will walk self forgiveness in the next blog and redefine this word.

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Day 264 – Enslaving Another – Control and Power – Self Correction to Live

For further context within this blog, check out the following posts:
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2
Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued
Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?
Day 259 – Does Survival of the Fittest Make Me A Robot? Only If I Allow It
Day 260 – Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1Day 261- Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1.2

Also reference these blogs specific to this self correction writing:

Day 262 – Using Fear to My Advantage and Enslaving Another– The Problem of this World is Within Me - Part 1
Day 263 – Enslaving Another – Control and Power Self Forgiveness

When and as I go into a form of threatening another based on desire for them to do my will and thus desire to have power over them, I stop and breath, and realize what I am actually doing and so ask myself would I want this for myself? Why am I doing this? And realize that this is the act of separation and evil, not life here inequality as who I speak of myself as. 

I commit myself to put myself in the shoes of the other when any point of force or desire to have power over another emerge within, so to be able to see and wake myself up to what I am doing through self awareness of always focusing on the principles of life in equality and oneness, and thus putting myself in the shoes of the other and so stop my abuse.

I commit to stop having force over another and walk with them in understanding that they are my equal and I would like to be treated as an equal as well thus I must treat others in this way to thus gift it to myself, what I give I receive always and I give life as I would like to receive life.

I commit myself to stop all desires of control and force onto another through bringing myself back to the physical with breath and moving into the physical body through moving it physically around until I am here and stable and not in any point of reaction, I move and do not speak until I am clear.

I commit to write out the point of desire that I see is coming up to immediately correct it and not accept it to continue to direct me but give it direction through common sense self correction actions in that moment that is here.

When and as I see I am gaining a point of energy as superior feelings of worthiness and grandeur based onseeing the other fall to my force and abuse of threats, I stop and breath, and realize I am not here as a supportive life being, I am in my mind and causing abuse onto the other life around me. I am in ego and I realize this will cause me to miss the physical and thus not consider the physical equal to myself as I am in mymind in illusion as desire, and so I will deliberately go into superiority to gain nice feelings and abuse that which stand in my way.

I commit myself to stop and breath and move myself away from any situation where I see I desire to control and force my will on another, breath and do not participate in the mind at all and focus on the physical and move it to stay in awareness of myself here.

I commit myself to stop the desires for superiority and the feelings of worthiness through stopping them as they come up through breathing through them and saying ‘no I don’t accept these thoughts any longer, I am not thoughts, I am life and thus I can direct myself as the mind in the physical in common sense in what will be best’.

I commit to immediately see within what is real through putting my self in the others shoes and stopping immediately my path to abusing another for energy gain, stopping following my mind constructs as thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories.

I commit to breath through all energy of desire and release myself from the cycle of superior/inferior byaccepting myself and others through really seeing what others are doing and saying by understanding through communication and hearing what they have to say and coming to solutions through compromise.

When and as I go into a point of desire to enslave another for me to not have to do what is necessary to be done in the physical, I stop and breath, and as I realize that I will in term have to transcend this abusive way of life and walk responsibility of myself and what I require to do here in the physical to walk a world that is best for all and walk my process of equalizing myself with life, I have to become the physical to be real for real.

I commit to let go of the desire to enslave and not have to do work by walking it is I desire another to do each and every time, walk my own process, walk my own walk until I am here and self directed automatically.

I commit myself to walk the physical steps it will take, walking through resistances and transcending all resistances that are here, and forgiving myself for what I have done to life as an enslaver and abuser.

I commit myself to forgive myself to thus give me back to life and allow me to embrace life as myself, so we can move on in this world and correct our faulty living in abuse and self interest.

I commit to stop my desires within and as all that I do and walk practicality in common sense in what is best for all always through walking this within my self process of stopping my mind and walking myself as the physical in what is best in each situation that I live within.

When and as I find myself putting my own interest over what is best for the group, I stop and breath, and realize this will in turn cause separation with me and what is best for all because I am not in consideration with what is best but only what is best for me causing abuse to others and eventually abuse to myself.

I commit myself to stop all self interest and walk in all ways that I can see in self honesty and understand in what is best for all.

I commit to let go of desires for rewards and happiness in self interest, and walk practical solutions to do what will be best for all through walking the process of self forgiveness and self change as well as the equal moneysystem to create happiness and rewards were all enjoy and all benefit equally as one.

When and as I go into a point of jealousy because I am not accepting myself, I stop and breath, and I realize that jealousy leads to abuse and me to force my will on another due to believing I am at a lose.

I commit myself to accept me in all ways and walk the practical steps to build my self through commitment and physical effort in studies and research and practicing living my words and doing what is best in all that I do so I become that which I am not yet, I realize I am capable I have to walk it for real to live it this I understand.

I commit to let go of jealousy by letting go of my idea of myself, letting my idea of who I desire to be die, andrebirth as life here in the physical as the physical equal and one with all as I am here as self through the process of self correction through self honesty and self forgiveness.

I commit to embrace others as me and support all to walk self realization and support what is best for all as best I am able to in all times.

I commit to stop taking things personal by embracing others as myself in the moment of this jealousy by seeing what it is I am reacting to and walk a correction to either practice this point of communicate with the other to see how they walked it and physically walk it myself and see where it leads.

When and as I go into an abuse of life and take advantage of others dependency on me, I stop and breath, and realize this is causing the death of myself as the lose of life as I will not give to another but in fact abuse that which has been gifted to me in the expression that lives here within and as all because I only see my mind as my self and what I desire and fear.

I commit to let go of fear as this encapsulates me into the belief and the mind and so I am defined only by that which I fear, I embrace that which I fear and do what is best within this situation and not allow fear to control me through always facing the fear.


I commit to stop abusing life’s gifts as all that live here and walk my correction process into self responsibility within all that I do and all that is here that I am in encounter.

I commit to breath through all energy reactions as I see this is the mind desiring to control, and walk the correction I see is here in what is best, walking into a self integrity that I can only stand within and become stable as this is me.

I commit to walk self integrity through honoring the life within myself and the life within all by stopping fear and stopping all abuse, and changing to help solve these issues through changing myself to be the solution always in what is best for all.

I commit to stop revenge and walk humbleness through letting go of my mind desires, and become nothing within myself and thus walk as a physical being in what ever is necessary to support the honor and equality of all life as I realize this is the perfect honor of myself as life as life itself.

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Day 263 – Enslaving Another – Control and Power Self Forgiveness

For further context within this blog, check out the following posts:
Day 253 – Yelling/Beating Someone Up in My Mind
Day 254 - "Being Taken Advantage of" to Justify My Abuse
Day 255 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You - Part 1
Day 256 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You – Part 1.2
Day 257 – Being Angry Because I am Offended By You 1.2 Continued
Day 258 – Does Survival of the Fittest make me a Robot?
Day 259 – Does Survival of the Fittest Make Me A Robot? Only If I Allow It
Day 260 – Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1Day 261- Using the Mind in Place of the Physical – Part 1.2
Day 262 – Using Fear to My Advantage and Enslaving Another– The Problem of this World is Within Me - Part 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel emboldened by taking someone’s power away from them and making them do what I want through threats and fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire this point of power over others based on seeing myself better, more enlightened, more intelligent then others because I have the power to make another do what I want, but in reality feel threatened and desire to control this other person so I am not abused, though I will do it with no problem to another for my own self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse another through controlling them against their will due to threats of harm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use threats of abuse and harm and fear to have another do what I say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use fear and abuse for my own self interest and not considered the other if it was me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that I am more worthy then others and that my desires are more important then others and so disregard the other completely because of the greed to get what I want fulfilled through my control over them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use greed as a justification to harm and abuse another into disempowering them through fear and abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse another due to my desire to have someone do everything that I didn’t want to do myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use another for my own personal use and gain while taking the others dignity away and not allowing them the freedom of their own will by using fear to disempower them and make them under my control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enslave another for my own personal satisfaction and desire to be lazy and slothful while forcing another to do something that I wouldn’t do myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse life like a commodity and degrade others while I had the audacity to believe that I was more worthy and that I could do this with no consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not care of another’s well being but only care about fulfilling my own satisfaction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am better then others who show a point of perceived ‘weakness’ not realizing or recognizing who they are in their natural expression as gentleness because I was actually jealous of this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide the jealous I felt towards the other within myself from seeing it and thus get a release by taking my anger out on this person due to desiring to be gentle as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to commit an evil act that cause the absolute separation and degradation of myself as life by enslaving another in my care and taking advantage of their nature and vulnerability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take advantage of another’s vulnerability and dependency on me and use it to my own benefit to make myself feel important and better then them because within I felt inferior and was only seeking self interest as my own happiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use fear and threat of abuse to have power and control over another who depended on me for safety as they were in my care.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be not this gentleness and thus take out my anger for lacking this out on the other who had this and I was jealous of, and so I seek revenge and abused them in the physical because I wanted what I didn’t have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed jealousy to direct me into abusing another and taking advantage of who they are in their beingness as gentle.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see myself as not gentle and thus blame this person who expressed it naturally for this through abusing them and controlling them through fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek revenge on another who I am jealous of because I don’t want to face the fact that I have to change and practice change which takes effort that I don’t care to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek revenge on another because within myself I feel inferior to others so making others feel inferior makes me feel better about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize nor learn and integrate the reality I see within myself as treating others as I would want to be treated, as I realize when I am abused by another it’s not enjoyable and not what I would want, so the obvious common sense is that it then is not enjoyable for the other and thus obviously unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to integrate and live this common sense of treating others as I would want to be treated and finally ending this cycle of abuse within the apparent polarity of inferior/superior, trying to make myself more but always within this balance making me equally inferior.

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Day 234 – Control Freak – I am Inflexible - Self Commitments to Live

When and as I see that I am going into a militant mode with others in becoming inflexible to who and how they are living in a project or point we are living together within, I stop and breath, and realize that this militant mode will only create more of the separation and resistance I am facing within this situation due to me not accepting myself to hear or see another’s view and perspective in equality, but rather want me to be right and the other wrong. I realize I can’t be equal because I am in self-interest to have it my way or the highway which will cause conflict always.

I commit myself to give myself the opportunity to breath and move myself through this desire to control and thus allow myself to open up to others words and actually hear what is being said through slowing down mymind by not allowing myself to participate within the thoughts to get my way through focusing on the others words to me.

I commit myself to move myself from the mind in these thoughts of what others should do in these moments of desire to get my way, and thus embrace the other as myself in seeing them within their shoes, how they are walking and seeing a point, and come to a solution that will work for each of us equally.

When and as I see I go into a point of desire to control and thus not allow flexibility within what it is I am doing with others, I stop and breath, and realize I am not the only one in the group others are here and are to be considered equally as I would want for myself all should get equal respect and equal opportunity to work and share themselves to find what the solution is in a point of expressing our beingnesses as life.

I commit myself to allow others to share and express themselves in what it is they are seeing and walking, and put myself in their shoes and see from how/where they are seeing, and from this equal consideration and assessment, walk what is necessary to help and support the other as well as myself in that moment in what it is we are doing.

When and as I see I am going into a point of ego where I believe I am smarter and better then another or the group, I stop and breath, and realize this is due to a desire to be seen more and given more attention to me because I am not giving this attention to myself, I am not seeing myself, and thus desire this from others.

I commit myself to stop this belief of myself that I need others to validate me as each time it come up I assess if it is ego and walk the correction by speaking the point of equality within it such as ‘no garb, I am equal with all and we all have equal ideas/perspectives in who we are, I have equal value to all’ and I can walk my own self direction in self trust through practicing this in my living.
I commit myself to see reality for what it is with others and walk the correction of remaining with the physical conditions of what problem, issue, situation we are walking in the physical, and thus stopping myself form going into a point of energy to have more then what is here as the physical.

I commit myself to walk as and with the group in doing what is best for all as I see this will be what is best for me, I commit to stop my personal interest to be seen or heard by giving this to myself through self praise and adoration of points I see I follow through on and walk in equality with others, recognize myself in what it is I committed and walked through with.

When and as I see that I am going into this point of not seeing reality but only what I want to see as ideas in my mind, I stop and breath, and realize this is heading into dangerous territory as this is accepting and allowing the mind to direct me and I realize this is not life nor real as the mind is from illusion in the head as thoughts and energies that cease in moments, thus I realize I have to walk the physical in grounding myself in what is real and slowly walk out of the mind by stopping my participation in energy and stopping the thinkingprocess ending the minds dependency.

I commit myself to remain in the physical in moments of desire to control and not see what is real by being aware of this pattern and pushing myself to not allow these desires to direct me from the mind, but move myself into my body and walk the common sense I am seeing in that moment in the physical, and then I can walk what the physical is showing me as a group assessment rather then just my own assessment to prove that is in fact real.

When and as I go into a point of not trusting others and what the physical is showing me, I stop and breath, and realize that this is my ego as the mind in wanting to get more or have attention, I realize and see within this that the ego is being activated due to the nature of the energy to have more and be more then others as like a jealous or self righteousness desire within me that moves as an energy movement of anxiety or irritation.

I commit myself to assess what all say in common sense and use others assessment and perspectives as reference for me as well as what I see in the physical to determine what in fact is real and use the principle of equality and oneness in what is best for all to walk what is need to be walked.

I commit myself to stop the belief that I know better and I am stronger then others and walk the correction through hearing what others have to offer and becoming humble by accepting others as me in seeing that they are me and walking with them as them to solutions that will work for all.

I commit myself to stop the judgment of others if they fall and support them rather then put them down as I see I fall and require this same support from others.


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Day 233 – The Control Freak Character – Inflexibility

So often I have this pain in my ankles that cause an ache within them, I asked Sunette one time what mindrelationship does this consist of and she told me inflexibility. This making sense because obviously with the ankles soar and not able to work in full capacity, I am inflexible to move my feet as normal, inflexible meaning I am limited.

I see this inflexibility often when I go into a desire to control my situation and what is going on around me, this inflexibility is usually based on a desire or an expectation I hold, and will do little to deter from what it is that I have set in my mind to do. This causing my actions to be inflexible with others not really hearing them, not considering them and who they are in the living in their lives, not considering where they come from and so only look at the points of were I will benefit and get my desires fulfilled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become inflexible within what I am doing or who I am being with others when what I expect does not come to fruition and so I go into like a militant mode where I will not see nor allow any points of consideration outside of the expectation that I had created in my mind to live out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see life within a point of self interest where I limit myself with others due to a desire to control the conditions of what I think should happen rather then allowingthe life to live and be considered equally to how I consider myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a desire within me to control others based on believing that I know better and that I am smarter then others, justifying my actions towards them in notseeing reality for what it is and causing abuse as been done within the previous post of me making someone cry.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a person who only looks at how I will benefit and how I can meet my desires and not take into consideration the others that are also to be considered into the equation because they are in the environment with me and are equally as important as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become inflexible within what I will do or not do based on my idea of what I desire to have happen within different scenerios and will not budge even if reality is showing me otherwise.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not listen to others or hear what they have to say until I myself have proven what they say is true or not, because I desire for myself to always be the last word and the person I trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust others in my life an always look at others in this idea in my head that they wil fail and will not be able to do it as I will be able to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an idea in my head of others always going to fail and live this out within my living where I will not allow others to do things or move within projects where I see that there is potential or they have failed in the past, and thus deem them and define them in this way without allowing others to correct themselves, when I see and realize I make the same mistakes but give me the luxury to redeem myself within my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be intolerant to others If they fail and not give them a fair estimation to try again and correct themselves.

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Day 232 - Control Freak Character - I have to get the last Word - Self Correction to Live

When and as I go into a point of desire to go and have the last word with another, I stop and breath, and come to realization that it will on fuel the ego and thus cause abuse as I have witnessed many times because it is done by force and competition, not to a solid understanding between equals to come to a solution.

I commit myself to stop the desire to get the last word in by not allowing myself to continue with the train of thought, but training myself to breath through this desire, and work on something else, come to a solution orcompromise with the other, and do something else until I am stable and really can commit to walk in equality with the other without reacting.

I commit myself to stop looking at others in a point of competition in where it is always about how I can get ahead, but start to walk the point of self appreciation and self acceptance in considering who I am and what I do, and thus stop the desire to prove myself to others, as I push the point of self sufficiency within myself and correcting that which I see is able/needed to be corrected in what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop the desire to be seen by others as special in this point of having the last word, where in I go into a point of competition, I stop and commit to stop the desire to be noticed, and push the point of acceptance within me and thus accepting others for who they are.

I commit myself to start walking the focus of the physical, in the physical paying attention to the words spoken and gestures made, so I can align myself in equality with the other as the physical to become in support of what is best and solution to the conflict or issues we are having in that moment, walking the point of solution in the physical and stopping it go to my mind into separating and trying to win.

I commit myself to let go of this desire to be better then another and have them submit to me.

I commit myself to stop the point of being seen as the better person with others and thus I change my focus to what is best for all and push the point of treating all others with respect and how I would want to be treated.

I commit myself to stop the desire to have the last word and thus stop the idea that this person is better then the one who doesn’t get it in, by stopping myself from focusing on that and thus focus on all the words spoken in the context of coming to a solution for all in agreement and stopping my self interest.

I commit myself to stop defining myself by my mind, and thus stand as the physical in support of the physical as myself in making decisions in the physical through the writing and laying out all the options and pros and cons, to make a informed well executed and laid out solution pattern. 


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