Discipline – Re-Defining and Living Words – Day 522

 (I chose the fly as a picture of discipline because most see a pest and something that is to be killed as it's dirty, though if you study the actions of the bugs/animal kingdom you will see that they are extremely disciplined and live with integrity, yes even a fly observe life around you, you will see them as examples of how to live, I will write more on what I've learned from animals/bugs. There is much more to consider in this reality then meets the eye of the mind, life lives beyond the mind reality. For more on the animal kingdom and their purpose, please check out the link here.)

This is a continuation of this Blog:

My Process So Far of Living Words – Day 518

Living Words – Discipline – Morning Routine – Self Forgiveness and Self Change - Day 521

For me discipline is something I can relate to, this based on project I enjoy doing or activities that I am good at. For instance, sports, I was able to be disciplined in sports because I thrived off of it, becoming better in my skills, and competing to be the best among my peers. I find that with things such as reading or focusing on doing a report or writing for my job or responsibilities, I am less enthused and inclined to push myself to move into the decision to be disciplined. This based on the idea I have created within the work environment as not as fun and not able to physically express like how I am able to in a sport.

So points I am seeing that I can align myself within to live this word discipline more wholesomely throughout my day and life is through redefining the way in which I see work and play so to speak and also how I can expand myself in these two areas within the word discipline to indeed succeed in creating myself in more and more areas as well as to become proficient within all activities I encounter to live this word discipline across the board. Make this word an application I can live in many different scenarios.

What is the purpose for me to be disciplined?

The purpose for me to become disciplined is to expand myself eventually with ease, where I use the word discipline as a bridge to move through the transition phase or learning phase of something I take on that is new or I am rusty in, and move into an extension of myself within what I take on to be able to perform in an efficient way as well as to reach my highest potential.

So words that I see also can be applied within living the word discipline in my life would be focus, precision, responsible, purpose, and within this, I can apply myself until the task at hand is no longer something I need to discipline myself within, but comes with a natural expression of wanting to create within it through pushing limitations and expanding myself the best I am able to.

My purpose then would be self expansion within the principle of doing what is best for all in self honest living application, I am always moving myself toward pushing the limit of myself and my environments to bring in the functioning of living in our best abilities and doing what is best for all within this. And here some more words that are coming up is patience because as I walk this process of perfecting my discipline application in many areas, this will take a lot of patience as I go through the ups and downs and find my way within it. As well as the extension of myself into my environment as I support others to become more disciplined as I have learned, I too have to live patience in these scenarios as they walk their process of discipline as well. So I would always want to be supportive for not only myself, but any others I may touch and are interested in expanding themselves in living words as well such as with the word discipline.

Dictionary Definition:

Discipline –

1.      Noun – a system of rules or method of practice.

2.      Noun – a branch of knowledge.

3.      Noun – training to improve strength or self control.

4.      Noun – the trait of being well behaved.

5.      Noun – the act of punishing.

6.      Verb – develop behavior by instruction and practice; especially to teach self – control.

Word Play:

Discipline –

Distinguishing a plan -

Disc – I – planned

Here I am seeing that the redefined word is a way for me to have a plan in place for each scenario I arrive in where I am looking to change a habit or put in more self control to change my behavior to be that which does what is best. So I will make a list of points I want to practice discipline in and within this continue this practice as more points come up.

For the morning routine:

I have been testing this point for about a month now, and found that I am tripping up on waking up super early, what I am going to change within this point is wake up within the 4-6 hour range where I am getting enough rest for my body, but not allowing the mind to infiltrate and permeate more of mind and physical body as it was programmed to due. This to support my physical body and stop the mind from continuing. So this is a step one where I can start to implement discipline in my morning routine, wake up between 4-6 hours of sleep. Once I have walked this for a week, I will expand myself within this, because as I start to reprogram myself to a new behavior, I will then start to naturally become it and will not need as much discipline in place or self will because now it’ll be an extension of me as I live it. From there I can continue to use the application of living the word discipline as having a distinguished plan to expand myself within the waking up routine in a form of self creation, so we will see what is to come.

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Day 222 – Sports and Me Self Commitments to Live

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of competition in where I see that I am more skilled within what I am doing with others I stop and breath, and do not participate until I am stable and just physically moving, doing the activity, in being aware of my movements and stopping all points of going into my ego in trying to be better or see myself as better.

I commit to stop these actions through stopping the thought patterns of going into comparison and walking in equality by living in my living equal to others through my words and actions.

I commit myself to let go of this idea that I have to win to be worthy, when and as this idea comes up, I let it go and breath through the reactions to follow it, I move myself physically and speak that I do nt accept this view any longer, I am equal, life is here.

I commit myself to move in the physical as the physical in self enjoyment, letting go and breathing through the desire to compete based on trying to win, I let go of this desire to win and allow myself to just be here in my body and move as me as the physical.

I commit to stop defining myself by if I win or lose in sports, and walk the point of the physical activity, the physical movement, to circulate my body and give it exercise for it to be balanced.

I commit myself to walk the point of equalizing myself within my living through stopping these points of definition from competition, when and as I see I am going into a competitive nature towards a point in my world, I let it go and walk the common sense to equalize myself with what it is I was trying to compete with, to change my pattern and thus live the change until it’s here as me.

I commit myself to stop all ideas and definitions of me being worthy and more then others based in my participation in sports, I breath and stop this participation through not accepting myself to live out these patterns and change my living to stop competing and start living with others equally, sharing and enjoying our company together.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to show off and let others know my skill creating an inequality and separation within our interactions, so when this desire come up, I stop and breath, and move myself to let go it and stop my participation in the belief that it is real, I move myself and do physical things to realize reality in these moments of desire.

I commit myself to let go of competition and walk the physical here in reality, living equality and love of all as I would myself in helping and sharing with others, and stopping my insecurities through stopping this point of making others feel bad about themselves to make me feel better, when I see I am walking into this pattern, I stop and go to another point away from the situation and breath through the point, I commit to stop my reaction in these moments of insecurity and comparison, and walk the change.

I commit myself to accept myself so I can accept others through being gentle with myself, allowing me to make mistakes, and being humble with how I am and how I live, stopping my desire to be more, and accept me as I am in each moment already.

I commit myself to when and as I see any point of bullying or being mean spiteful to another to make myself feel more superior and empowered, I stop and breath, and immediately stop my participation not accepting myself to live this, changing when I am aware, and never looking back, but living this change of being humble and supporting others.

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Day 221 – Sports and Me Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as better then others within life because in sports I was able to compete with others and beat them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through winning in a game and thus basing others from this view of myself in my mind as a winner, tough, and worthy at something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not worthy and not as good as others if in sports I lose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my value based on sports competition and if I was able to succeed within it or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create feelings of entitlement around others whom know of me and my abiity to compete, and thus if I see that they are not able to compete with me, passively make them understand this point that I am better then them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create the need to show others i am better then them due to seeing myself within myself and reality actually less then them. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to defame who I am based on a belief within myself that inherinatly I am not good really at much, I am damaged, and thus create this need in my world to prove myself as good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bully and make those I saw as weak feel bad about themselves as within me I gained a form of empowerment, but this was not real I realize as this was based on the idea and belief that I was not empowered but needed others misery to make me feel better about me because then I wasn't alone in this misery. (more on this to come)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perpetuate and cause abuse to others within creating the misery I felt within me unto them because I was angry that I was not happy with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create points of deliberate meanness and spitefulness towards those that I perceived were happy with themselves and wanted to secretly be like them, but was mean and spiteful because I couldn’t ever achieve that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow jealousy of this point of happiness in others and not in myself, and so create abuse and hurt towards others because I realize I didn’t want to take responsibility for my own thoughts and partpication in seeing only desires to be the best and thus happy (open on later) and not the physical for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have the perfect life with me having the perfect look and having an easy time of making friends and being accepted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an idea of the perfect person in my head and then compare my living situation and what I look like to that and thus always create a point of misery within me because I couldn’t match up.

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Day 220 – Exploring Self Acceptance – Competition and What Money Can Buy

Looking at this point of competition, my life has always been about competition and proving myself to others, I have realized that from childhood this has been programmed within me due to my involvement in sports and the nature of the sports I played, these being highly competitive. With the added point of my having a strongdesire to prove myself as worthy to others, and so sports was the perfect place to do this. Within sports this was praise and adoration was forthcoming if one was able to prove themselves as the best within the sport that they played. I was driven from a young age to be the best based on the existence within me of perfection, I never really realized this until I started process, but within myself I wanted to be seen and acknowledged as someone who is driven and striving for perfection always and people to see that I am valuable, I can do great things, and this in my case was proven in sports.

The point I will look at here is the desire to be the best, I wanted this for myself because of my insecure nature within me as a child, when I started to realize social norms and who was considered the ‘cool’ kids within my peer group, this desire to be the best was starting to take shape. I found that I often would compare myself to the other kids within what I had and what they had, and in many instance I didn’t compare, we didn’t have a lot of money to get whatever we wanted, so I noticed this much in my childhood because many in my school had everything. So for instance, in hockey I saw that for me to be able to compete and be the best, I had to have the best equipment. I had certain particular skates, certain particular brands I liked and thought were cool, and if I didn’t have these things, then I was not able to completely be able to be the best in the sport I was playing. I not only had to be the best, but I had to look the best as well. I grew this relationship of being seen as the best was being seen as cool and to be cool in life you had to have money to get cool things, because who we are is based on what cool things we have.

So the consumerism marketing push worked quite effectively in my particular case based on how I completely defined myself by the money value of what one had rather then who one was a human being. So in hockey this was a point were I saw this point of value due to money come out, for me to feel compete within my playing, I had to have all the best equipment, I actually had like a weight lift off me once I completed this point of getting everything I wanted within my look as a hockey player, and then I was able to really go out and be comfortable in playing. I was able to compete, I was able to match up with all the other girls, and show that I am worthy, I can completely able to compete with you, and so my chances of becoming the best were much greater cause in my mind this was only achieved if I was compete within my image of what the best was, and the best always was the most expensive.

Interesting how I found myself not really playing hockey to play, but I was actually like branding myself, like my nitch growing up was sports, and my sport that I was going to brand myself with was hockey cause I did have a aspect of enjoyment and natural ability, but I used it for my own interest, I was going to use it to be seen and achieve that recognition I desired for myself as being the best in something so I could see and become ‘good enough’ at something and feel valuable, feel ok within myself, and feel like I had a place in this world, I mattered.

But realizing that none of this was real, nothing last of this as I still am facing the same points of inferiority and existing in this false picture of myself of making myself more then how I am, this that money can’t make go away, but lead me to the same end, in a point of highs and lows never stable and never fulfilled. I am not actually accepting myself and thus playing hockey because I enjoy playing, but I am playing to make myself feel better about myself and show off for others to gain acceptance to prove to myself that I am ok, I am goodenough because I am like the others who I see as also ‘the best’ and thus I can have a chance to win, I have ahope of it, this hope of course will always cost not only money but also my self. Never being actually present and self aware in what it is I was doing in physical reality, but always in my mind scheming, desiring, hoping, and planning a way to make myself more, better, and achieve this elusive title of being the best. This actually never achievable because it’s in my mind not in reality, so even if I was the best in hockey, it was never enough, I always wanted more as I was looking for myself in others, in money, and in what I was doing rather then who I was being never seeing that I was always right here living.

Will continue more tomorrow.

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Day 211 - Exploring Self Acceptance - Being Cool - Part 1.2 - I’m Better then You

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of my childhood in this idea of myself as a cool and tough kid based on holding onto to this desire of myself to be cool and have others see me cool and in these memories holding on to them and replaying because within them I am seen as cool within the group of friends I am with. I realize and see that holding onto these memories of me as a child playing sports and being good at it making me seem cool in my mind is something that is holding me into this idea that I have to be a certain way within this world to be accepted by others, someone who is cool to make myself feel good about myself.

I commit myself to when and as I go into this memory of thinking about me playing sports and that I was a cool kid among my friends because I could play sports well, I stop and breath, and do not accept myself to continue in this pattern of thoughts of seeing myself playing and doing well and getting a nice feeling because of this perception that this makes me cool by moving myself within the physical and breathing through the thoughts and feelings when they arise not participating in them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a feeling of elation when I think about these memories among my friends in the neighborhood where I was seen as cool and had respect from the others based on my skill, and thus got a high as I saw myself in my mind in these pictures as the coolest by being praised by the other kids and being a winner among them, feeling good about myself because I saw myself as more skilled and able to win. I realize and see that within this point of feeling good and elated based on these memories I am holding of being among my friends in the neighborhood and being seen as good and a winner, I thus defined myself by this feeling of feeling good when my friends praised me and seeing myself as better then others based on this feeling I get within myself that I am a winner and thus I am better then those who lose.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of feelings of goodness about myself based on looking at myself as more then another because being a winner in these memories I am holding of myself, I stop and breath, and do not accept myself to continue in this feeling as it’s not real and it’s causing self compromise and separation. I commit to breath through the desire to see myself as more then others by not participating in the thoughts and becoming focused on my breathing , my movement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself based on the skills i have within seeing myself as more or better then others and then generating a feeling of goodness within me because I am better then another at something. I realize and see that this is complete self interest based on the belief that I am not good enough or not as capable then others in things, and thus when i have to compensate when I am more skilled and so this in my mind will make me feel better. I realize and see that existing in this comparison of seeing myself less worthy and then going into comparison and separation in seeing myself as more then others when I appear to be more skilled is complete self interest and inferiority as am not seeing myself as equals to others and not considering all the points within the life that is being lived by the others, but only where I can shine as being seen as better then them.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of defining myself as more then another and getting a good feeling from this, I stop and breath, and do not accept myself to go through within the thoughts patterns of this competition as I realize this is separation and I am only doing it based on self interest and inferiority. I commit myself to walk and breath and accept myself as equals to others in the value of life and so push my living into the physical, focusing on what can be done to help all life be equal within our living and support solutions that will support all in this world to be the best we can be in whatever it is we enjoy and are passionate in doing.

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Day 210 - Exploring Self Acceptance - Being Cool - Childhood Memories - Part 1.1

Here looking at this point of how I developed my external perception of who I wanted to be and what influences within my childhood helped mold and foster this way of seeing myself that in it's conception and accumulation was not real nor physical, but completely within thoughts, beliefs, and ideas. I will bring it back to childhood memories that I am holding onto where I was young and around others my age, my friends and neighborhood kids I played with often, I thought of myself as cool, and so within this idea of myself as being cool, I expected others to think this way of me as well.

At that time, I was very much a tomboy and into sports playing everyday, we were a group of neighborhood kids and we played outside from dusk til dawn almost everyday in the summers and as much as possible in the school year, all different types of activities, but our main love was athletics, soccer, football, street hockey, baseball, basketball, we really did it all, and within this point of athletics, I excelled. Most of the kids I played with were boys, and so I defined myself according to this male perspective, seeing females as less then the males based on myself having really no interest within what they were into, and thus saw what they did was weak and not fun. So with the males in my group that were my 'competitors' throughout my childhood, I developed this idea that I am a special kind of girl as I am strong and able to compete with these boys, which gave me confidence within myself and respect among the others in the group I was in as a kid. Using the strnegth I developed and saw I possessed within being able to compete with the all the boys I was friends with as a gauge for who I am, a strong female, and thus superior to the other female whom I saw as weak because they were not able to compete with me at that stage in my small group among my neighborhood friends. So this is interesting as it developed my understanding among the dynamic within society of males being 'stronger' and more 'powerful' then the females as I easily saw it within what I was participating in, and fully lived into this seeing myself more superior and dominant to females especially because I was more like the boys, I was strong, I was a strong competitor.

Within this time, I did not have a real judgment towards myself within my physical look, because within myself I was thinking that I am very cool as I was respected and seen within all my friends as a girl who you couldn't mess with because I could compete with all the top boys in the area, and I often could beat them. I saw this point of winning as a defining point of who I was, I was able to win and thus was strong, and thus within my mind those who played sports were better and cooler people then those who didn't because sports was the best thing one could do and be good at because this is what I was the best at and the most good at, so it was a point of self interest to survive among my peers and have the best chance to be popular, get attention, and gain power among them. I had to find something I could compete with them to show I am worthy, I am strong, and this I got within my excelling in athletics for the moment.

This position I held within my group of friends and neighbors, created a point of ego within me, a point were I saw myself better then others and superior because I had gained this respect and thus had all the attention on me based on the skills I possessed that was not usual for girls, especially with the girls in my neighborhood. Allot of the other girls around my neighborhood were just not into sports like I was, but this I didn't consider because of the fact that I thought that sports was the 'top' point in this world to be good at and within being good, you were cool. Being girly and doing girly things like play with dolls and dress up was boring and seen by myself as weak, like there was no point of proving yourself within it and showing who you are, and so these activities with no competition, I saw as useless.

This point of being cool is something I desired, I saw that being cool is something that makes you get these points I desired within my group of friends, power, respect, leadership, and attention, and I saw how this played out within my older sisters, how they developed themselves and molded themselves within their social circles to be 'cool', what clothes they wore, what music they listened to, what kind of people they hung out with, what they did, what words they used, and so I used my sisters, most were older, as a point of reference for myself to know what is cool and what is not cool within the life I was living. So I was in a sense like a sponge soaking up my surroundings around me, specifying and defining myself on my definition of what cool was based on what I was seeing and interpreting in my everyday life.

And thus being a dork or someone who was not skilled or popular was the complete opposite of anything I wanted to be associated with, it's like being a complete 'loser' within everything I had ever known and grown up with, so it's like a loss in life, and not being able to get my 'wants' met within the desire I had within me to live out and fulfill which were many. And so seeing myself as a complete inferior being to those that were the 'cool' ones was absolutely unacceptable and out of the question, as I know compared myself to my sisters and had to hold my position not only within my social group as friends, but in my family unit as being part of a 'cool' 'well known' family in my town. I had the reputation to live up to now in my mind within my family, as I saw us as cool, so I had created myself into a person that had to become this, in my mind this is who I am, where I come from, everyone around me is 'cool' and so I must and have to be this as well. I lived for this and I expected it at a very young age to be seen as someone who is cool and liked. Obviously life is not what one expects, and so I will write more on this too come of the next stage in entering the years leading up to and going into being a teenager.


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Day 121- Disappointment Character- Not Enough Femininity

Within this, I see myself as someone who is not good enough within my look and thus within going into any point of potential relationship, I will within the starting point always diminish myself based on this belief I have that I am not good enough compared to others that are out there, and that I will never be able to match up to other females.

This above, is a portion of the blog Day 119-Disappointment Character – Sexual Prowess, where I will be taken each paragraph and writing out self forgiveness on a multi-blog/day platform, enjoy and thanks for reading.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my physical body and features to another females physical body and features, and go into a judgment of not being good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my physical body and features to another females physical body and features, and go into a judgment that I am better then the other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from females within a constant polarity playout of being more or less, and thus missing the reality here of a group of females together here, and thus instead of judgment, walk equal, and so I can really be here to enjoy the physical with and as the other beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link my physical features and body to my sexuality and thus define myself based on how I have defined my physical in comparison to the other potential partners, and thus see myself able to walk with or not able to walk with based on if I have defined my physical body and features in a equal comparison with the other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be disappointed within myself if I don't match up to the potential partner I desire, and thus go into depression state based on not getting what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a desire within me to get an ideal partner, where in I will automatically create the depression and disappointed state, as ideals within myself are not able to be lived, as life is here, not in the mind in which ideals are held as ideas created by self based on comparisons and judgments of self as life in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create ideals within life and thus go into a judgment towards self in comparison within this ideal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept my mind as ideals instead of living here in fact in who and how the other being lives and thus how I am living one and equal with the other, in terms of potential partners.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my expression with another potential partner based on fear that I will be rejected because I don’t compare to the other in physical body or features, and thus will define myself as not as good based on comparing myself to other females body and features and seeing myself less then.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being rejected by another being based on defining myself and who I am based on the being accepting me or not, and thus within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself based on the acceptance of another instead of realizing and walking the realization that I will only truly be free when I walk and live the acceptance of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I accept myself and thus who I am within all, I can then walk the process as an equal agreement with another without expectation based on the fact that I am here and I walk what is here, so thus no matter what is here, I am here as myself in acceptance and walk what will be best for all in all ways, and thus I decide what path I walk.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my physical body as not good enough and thus go into a point of diminishment towards other females based on this self judgment that I am using to go into ego and make another female less then me to feel better about myself. Here, I realize that life is not defined by more or less feminine, but that female is just female in terms of the gender one is, and thus I stop defining females by degrees of more or less.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compete with other females in trying to match up and thus be better then, where in, I believe I will be able to get the guy I desire because I have defined myself as more then other females, thus I win.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compete with other females in terms of a self judgment I have of not being enough, and thus defined life by something that is not real as beliefs and ideas on how someone should look instead of focusing on what really matters the physical equal and one in all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make being a female a competition, in where I try and win, but realizing that there always has to be a loser in such competitions, thus I always will cycle within the polarity of win/loss, where instead I can just be here, and live equal with others as life, walk an effective agreement with a being assessed by living principles and integrity and stop the illusions of desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live into desires in where I desire to have the perfect male in my life, and thus miss the point of who one is as self, where in I am blinded by desire and walk into an agreement based on illusion instead of physical practical considerations for what’s best for myself and life as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base myself on the mind as illusion instead of here as life as what is best for all in the physical. 

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Day 93 - The 'Perfect Picture' Character -Ideal

Looking at the point here of the 'picture perfect' character where I have created a polarity play-out with myself and this picture. This picture ideal as the perfection I can be is just that a picture, is a picture in my mind life? no it is not, as it is not stable, not substantial, and not able to be tangibly touched or moved, so thus I am basing my whole self on this picture of perfection which is the positive play-out that I am cycling in and as within my idea of myself here living day to day is the negative play-out of not perfect, not ideal, not the best. So thus I am cycling within this play-out of myself of seeing myself as less then this picture in my mind, but here realizing that it's not real and thus can not be something I define myself by so thus I will use self forgiveness to let go of this value I am placing on a picture in my mind and just be self here one and equal with all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to place a positive charge on this picture of perfection that I have within my mind where I am giving more value to this picture and creating a negative charge to self here as I am living day to day where I am existing within myself as less then this perfect picture ideal that is placed in my mind. I realize and see that life is more then pictures as the picture indicate only the physical expression and thus do not define the being but only is what it is and thus within this I realize that life is all that exists so thus what is here is life nothing more and nothing less, all equal and one. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to place more value on a picture in my mind and thus create the polarity play-out of less then as myself here living in the physical reality as I can never live up to this ideal and thus continually sabotage myself as I allow comparison, competition, judgments, and jealousy to direct me within my world as I am not stable but in constant conflict because I see myself bad and thus chasing this ideal as the good of what I can be through having in place this perfect picture ideal in my mind to define myself from. I realize and see that to hold onto an ideal as a value judgment of perfection within what it mean to be a human, I will constantly and continuously sabotage myself and separate myself from others and as I am constantly existing within a point of definition and comparison based on this value judgment I am holding onto as perfection being the 'positive' = best and anything less is the 'negative' = bad so thus I realize to stop the picture in my mind I have to stop the polarity playout as good/bad within judging life in such a way. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to place more value on this picture and thus desire to live up to this picture so thus I use the picture to compete and compare myself with others in my world and all i look at are the pictures thus missing life here within self. I realize and see that there is no value but life in equality and oneness here with all and living as all so thus I only live within what is best for all as this honor and lives out the principle of what life is one and equal among all. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to miss myself here as life by only looking and valuing the pictures I see and thus judging and comparing and competing with myself here because I have created a value judgment of 'good' pictures and 'bad pictures held in place by my 'picture perfect' ideal that is in my mind being continually charged as I am allowing the judgments of myself as life. I realize and understand that the pictures are just an expression of the physical within the dna makeup of the human body and thus I stop the value judgments I am placing onto these pictures by thus stopping the 'perfect picture' ideal in my mind. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting an ideal picture in my mind as perfection that is constantly being upgraded and redefined to keep me locked in this cycle of self sabotage as I am sabotaging myself by existing as this perfect picture when it can be lived out because it is not real. I realize and see that this ideal picture in my mind that I have created is not real and thus I must stop giving it power by stopping the participation in the thoughts, judgments, comparisons, and competition point within and throughout my world.

More to follow on this point.

I commit myself to let go of the pictures within my mind as perfection by releasing the positive charge as well as releasing the negative charge as myself here in this idea I hold of me within self judgments, and become what life is here in the physical in breath one and equal with everything and everyone by practically stopping my participation in the comparisons, competition, and judgments point that are keeping this separation going.

I commit myself to let go of value judgements of life as positive/negative polarity charge and thus be here in the physical as I walk the stability point as life here by breathing and moving myself within my physical body, not accepting and allowing the thoughts of judgment direct me but directing myself by deciding to stop the participation and living it.

I commit myself to stop the value judgments of picture within a polarity of 'positive' or 'negative' and thus witin this stop the competition and comparisions and thus stand here as life as what is best for all through walking this in my practical living and changing myself to thus stand stable here.

I commit myself to let go of this picture of perfection within my mind as my ideal through letting go of the placement of value I am giving to pictures in my world and thus use breath as a point of physical stability so thus I can walk this point of not participating int the judgments, comparisons, and competition and thus stopping the picture in my mind from directing me as it is no more being fueled by the negative and positive charge I was creating through judgment, comparison, and competitions. and live it here. 

I commit myself to only value life here in what is best for all where I always honor the equality and oneness of who we are as life as self.

I commit myself to let it go and breath and live from the physical reality to thus be able to stop the mind dimension as pictures and live in the physical for real. 

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Day 65- Death by Competition

Competition

Re defining the word competition:

Dictionary Definition:

com·pe·ti·tion

 

noun

1.

the act of competing;  rivalry for supremacy,a prize, etc.: The competition between the twoteams was bitter.

2.

a contest for some prize, honor, oradvantage: Both girls entered the competition.

3.

the rivalry offered by a competitor: The smallmerchant gets powerful competition from the chainstores.

4.

a competitor or competitors: What is yourcompetition offering?

5.

Sociology . rivalry between two or morepersons or groups for an object desired incommon, usually resulting in a victor and aloser but not necessarily involving thedestruction of the latter.

Source: Dictionary.com

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compete with others for a prize of energy as good feeling only seeking and pushing my own self satisfaction while others lose and become defeated. I realize and see that to compete with another is competing with myself, diminishing myself, and creating abuse towards myself because the other is me and lives equal and one to how I would in that moment, not enjoying the competition and pain that is caused with the conflict that is played out within this 'game'.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into a form of possession to get my mind experience as an energy rush of good feelings or feelings of power when I beat another in winning the prize of gaining the most energy and seeing myself more then the 'loser'. I realize and see that all that this is showing me is that I am willing to abuse others and diminish others so I can gain a 'prize' = energy, but within this I gain nothing as I have done it in spite and lost any point of self worth as I have not given equal worth to the other who is in fact me as we are life, but caused them to suffer and causing me to become closer to ceasing to exist as energy dies and life as a competitor ends as the energy I have become will run out = eventually at death.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to spite life and those who are here within and as my self judgement of defining life in terms of competition were I fight to live and based on this acceptance of creating and causing conflict to get an experience as winning as is competing I spite myself as I am the one who will lose as I created the lose when I went into separation towards the other and accepted myself to walk life in ignorance. I realize and see that within this I am not really doing or creating anything that is of use to me as life but becoming a demon within myself as my mind direct me to only seek my own pleasure while others lay in suffering and I walk over them like trash.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be ignorant towards the suffering and abuse of others I am participating in when I participate in the action of competition. I realize and see that life is not in need of competition and abuse, but only the mind walks this as ego as myself as I accept to have my desires met over others well being in equality to me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not consider the well being of another when I go into competition but seek only for my self interest desires to win and get nice feelings within. I realize and understand that I must stop the completion and desire to win and walk equal with all if I want to live in true peace and freedom and become life in the physical as this is only walked within the stopping of abuse and separation of self and walking one and equal with all life for real. 

I commit to stop competition and desire to win, and stand here within and as life as me and walk with side by side in unconditional support and give to another what I would life given to me.

I commit myself to check the ego at the door and not accept and allow myself to go into desires to win by stopping the addiction to power.

I commit to stop all points of separation with others and walk the solution that will be best for all by walking the process to equalize myself with all who is life here. 

Re-defining Competition to live best for all:

Use a point of competition in a giving way were one realize who will be best within a task to support a world that is best for all, this also can be seen within systems that support life in finding the best possible outcome for life in equality and oneness in what is best for all life using a form of competition as measurement to see in reality who will be best suited for the position in all points of equality in all ways.