Day 26 - Living with myself

 

 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to dislike myself. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become angry at myself for falling.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become pissed off at myself for falling.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to go into a point of self pity and self hate when i don't achieve the process of self perfection in a way that works for all as in the time frame i believe i should get this process done.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into petrification within the understanding of the consequences i create when i do fall and go into the realization that i didn't not stand for life, i did not support solutions/life/self, and thus i caused abuse and suffering to myself and all life as myself. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be seen within a point of being special, being important and feeling like i matter in this process, seeking the praise and honor of a being that walks through and stands within challenges and thus is seen as strong and powerful.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be seen as strong so i can survive in this world and reap the benefits of a life with money and prestige, people who want to be around and support me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to impress people when i walk my process, seeing me as getting it, and smart/intelligent as i move through the information and will be able to stand and support with world change.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into blaming the beings involved in my action of falling, making it about the others and what they did to me, and in this believe i am not responsible for the fall and the outcome of myself within it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility within a point of self responsibility within the fall where i indeed had the opportunity to stand my word and thus live the solutions, but chose to walk into and as the mind as greed, desire, self interest, and thinking patterns that i followed.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to within the thoughts of wanting what i did in the moment to fall, i did not care of the consequences of what i would face and could not see the reality that was playing out before my eyes, and thus become ignorantly blissful and blind to the hard and disciplined walk i was indeed required to face and stand within and thus in this  did not stand the point.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become ignorant to the crys and screams of the suffering in this world, who are taken the brunt of the harm that all life as myself is doing when i/all live in separation with self and what is best for all.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear i will not make process and go into pain and anger when i realize and see that i fucked myself within falling and giving into my desires and mind thinking. 

 I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of self anger and judge myself for falling as i see, realize, and understand i am still here and still walking my process to life, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as weak and not capable of standing 100 percent through the challenges of the mind, and thus allowed the beliefs to supersede breathing and walking what is best for all in the moments.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of self belief that i am inferior because of my thoughts that 'i am not sure' 'i am confused' 'i can't figure it out'.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought of i am not sure, i am confused, and i can't figure it out' as a negative experience, when i see i can redefine these words to show the practical steps to dig deeper in understanding and walk solutions through testing to see what works best. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought that i am inferior, when i see, realize and understand i can redefine this word to stand as a point where i am in a new stage of understanding something or i am in need of more practice to get established in the point/weakness, and in this gain strength and stamina as i walk the process of integration and living to a point of proven reality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word and feeling of inferior when i go heavy and depressed in my body, believing the physical energetic experience of being less then, not worthy, or not able to cope, when i see, realize and understand the correction is to move into more education and practicing the point to a degree where i am able to live it more and more and become one with the point and so become strong. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hate myself for falling and failing cause i believe thoughts that i am the cause of the mind empowering itself, i harmed all beings by falling, i will never live this down, i will never be able to forgive myself, when i see, realize, and understand this is thoughts and not who i am as the mind is a preprogrammed system, i am life and able to live and determine my movement here through practical and physcial effort to build words and living applications for the words as direct definitions to support me to live as an example for others if they may need support as this is what life does.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel unworthy of life rather then realizing i am one and equal with life, and thus i am here.

 I commit myself to stand within the living word of breathing and releasing thoughts so i do not align and cycle into thought patterns and thus i stop the outflow of the fall.

I commit myself to live the word of inferior to be a point i am weak in practically, and work at that point until i am able to stand in it and feel stable.

I commit myself to stop self judgement of a fall, and realize it is part of life/process and will happen time and time again until i physically stop the point and be life which does not fall/fail.

I commit myself to stop all beliefs, and work with silence/breathe and living words i can actually prove as who i am. 

I commit myself to stop all blame forever and take self responsibility for myself and change to stand as the living example in humbleness. 

I commit msyelf to stop the polarity of love/hate, like/dislike, and redefine to align with life, as love is only real when all are able to be treated with dignity as a world solution/equal money system, like/dislike as a point of bringing this back to myself and seeing where i am indulging or resisting and live it in a way that honors all life, and support myself here with practical solutions and breathing here with no mind/thoughts, self forgiveness, and self change. 

 

More support at - 

lwww.lite.desteniiprocess.com 

wiki.desteni.org 

equal money system- a system to bring heaven here through oneness and equality - link here - https://web.archive.org/web/201102110...
Self Perfected - Destonian network support on fb

www.techno-tutor.com - word as living support, check out this tool! 

 

Day 25 - to give is to ensure all get, and then one receive - life here = who we really are

 

I was listening to 'Revenge of the Ego' by Bernard Poolman today, he is discussing on the many ways were ego as the personification of self within self interest is actually an awareness as consciousness, an entity derived from the mind consciousness system which humanity is interdimensionally controlled and enslaved by, this is seen without as the current war and abuse happening all over our planet. These things do not just manifest out of the blue and it is not 'god's will, as any being that is omnipresent and omni potent such as 'god' which i see as life would never accept and allow war/abuse. Though within ego as self interest personified by self, where only self in one's bubble world is considered can this 'will' of self be lived out where self in one's thoughts think 'ah, i wish they would just go and die' or 'i hate that person, they are so annoying' believing that those thoughts have no consequence, when in fact these thoughts are creating self and intensifying and giving life to the ego of self and the enslavement of all beings through the mind consciousness system. 

The desteni process at lite.desteniiprocess.com ( free beginner course) to start one on this process of self honesty and self forgiveness, as the method and means to let go of the mind and reconnect with self here, the part of life that is and always has been one and equal with all things. Self is able to walk self forgiveness giving back to self the ability to respond differently to these looping patterns of mind thinking/memories that will cycle, self can correct the living to be of ego, of separation, back to life, in the self directive will that self have the capability and empowerment to bring self to walk this process and change. I am currently walking this process, its a process where self will fall, and fall, and fall, but the point is not about judgment of self or anyone for that matter, but to forgive oneself and get back up, always get back up and continue the process until self is here, breathing, and always in all ways walking self responsibility as self forgiveness lived doing and receiving what is best for all always. These are through living words, where technotutor is a supportive tool to purify words and rebuild self in one's natural learning ability to become empowered through understanding the words one speak and in this being able to direct one's world extremely effective as one is living what one is learning, embodying.

The process of aligning oneself to self forgiveness, we dismantle the ego, understand and forgive self for participating in harm to self and others, and recreate self in a way that is best for all in the principles of life, of creation, which is oneness and equality of all beings/all life here. This is the directive of life, and in this this is where the giving of everything until everyone gets is fact, within equality and oneness, it is not fulfilled until all are getting/being supported by what is here in the best way possible for all as self would like. Its a paradigm shift from the mind but what in fact is actually real, the ego has run rampant in our world and reality, though it is not the only way of life, it's actually a very limited form of life, the mind consciousness as we see how limited the human being has become, but we are capable of much much more. Life shares that self will only have access to life through amalgamating with and living these principles as living words, and this is awesome as this is the solution to our world hardships and current fears. There is solutions always, one must not ever give up on what is here, life, and self as life, please join the links below and ask for support if needed. 

Also, the equal money system is a system brought through by desteni and is a solution for the current money system of capitalism which is a limited and destructive system as many die and suffer due to the limited availability to have and keep money as it's controlled at the top. Though this will fall and so will our way of life as the mind fall, equal money system is a system worth researching and sharing about as we see the struggle and nature of the way in which the ego as self creates, war, famine, poverty, suffering, equal money will solve all of these and make each being a millionaire. This is a fact and this is fulfilling the proverb and age old truth, one Bernard shared many times in his talks and words, to give so all get and then self receive, being humble and patient until life is one and equal and all life is cared for. The more who stand for solutions that is best for all, the stronger we will be and the critical mass will be reached to tip the scales, it's up to self, there is always solutions and never give up even when it's tough, the tools will support so suggest practice them through self study and application. Enjoy.

Self forgiveness on my ego:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to stay in the mind as ego because it feels good when i win and get to be on top.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of self praise where i only see my wants, needs and desires as i have separated myself from life through believing that there is some who are more and some who are less as a judgment of beliefs and ideas that only is formed and exist in the ego of self as the mind consciousness system creates, as i see, realize, and understand equality and oneness of all life includes all that is here and leaves no one out standing on the physical of what makes all exist, life is what is here, the mind as ego is a parasite that requires the physical as the physical body to exist as it sucks the physical dry through thinking and the subsequent processes of mind layers as emotions, feelings and energy generation through and as substance as the source. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to choice the mind as ego as my own self interest as wants, needs, and desires over the life that is here in all forms ensure in this that all life is treated and sustained in equality and oneness as the principles of give as i'd like to receive as the law of the universe as life, and thus become greedy, selfish and a destroyer of life wasting the gift i was given as my physical self and body to create here in this wonder as this world as earth.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become ungrateful and full of emotions and feelings as i cycle in the endless trap of beliefs, justifications, desires, ideas, and thoughts as memories of what is real, when i see i am not ever in reality as what is here as self in the physical as the breathe, as i see, realize, and understand that the past doesn't exist nor the future, but only as an illusion as i live within and suck my resources away as my physical body substance as the mind sucks out the substance of life in my physical as i think and so equal and one without as i suck out the resources of the earth to survive. I see, realize, and understand i do not have to think, i can remain here in breath, and receive as i'd like to have if i was any being here as i give this as the principles i live and that live here one and equal for and as all life as i give and all get, i will then receive.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that some beings deserve more then others, as i exist in my imagination in my mind thinking in the past and in the future about things when i see, realize, and understand this is not reality, this is not real as i am not here, i am not existing in the physical and thus my assessment of others can not be trusted.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself ot base my entire existence on the idea that some are more then others and in this try and win, be more, compete, when i see, realize, and understand this is not the way of life, but of ego as the mind consciousness system a parasite to life which suck life from the host as the physical substance which is here unconditionally as life in what is best for all equal and one. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fall into the trap of judgments of myself and others believing my opposite polarities of this and not that or that and not this, when in fact i see, realize, and understand i am everything, i have not yet taken responsibility of myself as everything, and this i see, realize, and understand in gratefulness i can receive this life as self within self forgiveness and self correction where i can give back to myself in all forms that what i once took for myself and in this harmed.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to harm life in any way what so ever with the desire/want/need of separation in any form or manifestation as thought, emotions, feelings, and memories, where i let go of this separation through gratefulness and live the correcting by ensuring all get and when all are given fully and equally as one as life as myself, then i can receive in kind and be in kind as the human kind as a race that give freely what the earth as life here manifest gives freely for all to enjoy equal and one as self would like to enjoy, its here though self have to live it i realize. 

I commit myself to become humble letting go of any and all separation of myself into dimensions of the mind and in this i bring myself back here to my breathing, direct myself in living words that support what is best for all.

I commit myself to not give up or give in to the ego ever and thus give until all get and life is one and equal.

I commit myself to share and communicate these solutions as life here in the principles of oneness nad equality until life remains and self is here as breathe as an equal money system. 

I commit myself to release myself through self forgiveness and walking the living correction as my self through living my words that manifest equality and oneness of all life as what is here as what is real, the physical and ensuring all life live in dignity. 

I commit myself to not give up until all life is here one and equal.

I commit myself to stop my mind through writing and speaking self forgiveness and living this as i align myself back to life.

I commit myself to remain humble and face my ego when it arises and i see it activate as i see it is no way to live and is not best for all.

I commit myself to share the tools of life that will birth life from the physical always pushing my mind limits and challenge the minds of humanity as this is what i'd want if i was in the other shoes. 

Equal Life self support links to check out if you are interested:

http://www.desteni.org
http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com
Bernard Poolman - What the FAQ - Equal Money System « EQAFE
(5) Self-Perfected | Facebook
http://www.techno-tutor.com
Equal Money Wiki - YouTube

Day 24 - The Common Sense Dilemma, a new system that is best for all life

Equal Money System Book link - Vol 1

In this day and age, we are currently facing the extreme suffering of so many beings on this planet, we as human beings have not realized the understanding of the equality and oneness of all life, the equal right of all to live in dignity to the resources that is here equally given by earth for all, and in this we claim that we have common sense, we are good, and we know what we are doing. But there has to be some common sense applied, I myself am seeing the dilemma within myself that the obviousness of the suffering and terrible conditions for so many in this world is extreme, we see it every day, is it that we ourselves, each being have to touch it to finally stop, I myself unfortunately at times see it sometimes has to ge to this point. Due to aloofness, laziness, or arrogance. It also can be points of greed and desire that actually self don't really care about what is happening to our neighbors, to nature and the animal kingdoms. We have believed that it always has existed like this? It'll always be here, Really? 

We live on a finite planet where the resources are not able to sustain the greed we are consuming within ourselves and the human race. We don't realize that we are in fact equal and one, and are creating ourselves within the way we act, think, and speak, the creation of consuming as we see in our world is because we are actually consuming our physical bodies. (for more check out eqafe.com - reptilians 32) But we do have the capacity for common sense and correcting our lives to live one and equal, that is why desteni.org was created to support the human as the one who is not yet aligned to life here one and equal with getting here through breathe awareness, self forgiveness and living words. 

Picture source - Gaza: Hundreds of thousands are starving as famine arrives at ‘incredible speed,’ UN aid chief warns | CNN

There is some who do in fact want to keep things separate cause they profit and its easier, though in the long run consequence is here to be faced and growing, these beings (such as some elite) are in a delusion based on their dishonesties, we all have these alignments within us though make no mistake, so no one being or any being can be blamed. I myself am responsible for myself and all my dishonesties, and one can only forgive oneself and stand as the solution. But I am seeing and expressing here that we don't have to create mass amounts of suffering in this world to see that we can in deed change the world through changing ourselves, we can as a group come together - the equal money system is the solution for this money system we are currently facing and enslaved by, capitalism. 

Capitalism is based on competition and winner take all, this is actually a barbaric way of existing, we do not have to live in such a way, the majority needs to realize these points of all is one and equal and agree to a new system that'll support all life, this is why equal money system was created, to fulfill this need. Where all are taken care of from birth to death and real freedom is realized through individual and collective responsibility to ensure love thy neighbor as thyself is lived and create in the world we all live in, given to us as the support unconditionally through this earth, nature, the animal kingdom as examples of life realized here. 

The mind creates complexity but common sense is not complex, it is simple, just like who we are we are not complex, but breathe living beings in what is best for all, it is the facts of the reality of what is here, such as:

-there is 8 billion people on the planet, that require housing, money, electricity, sustainable resources to live within, an income to buy goods, a way to create and support the community/self, and a way to express themselves in their passions and joy.

-so this requires mathematics, say a family unit is 4 people as a reference example, so that is 2 billion houses are required, a basic income of dignity, say 8 thousand a month per person, the wealth accumulated through the labor system we implement where each one work specific alignments to their skill to support the community for 4-6 years. Similar to the military setup, except it is for the upkeep and best alignment for all in the community and all communities around the world never for harm. This is fundamental and is seen within and throughout the principles of the equal money system and the desteni i process, the inner and outer correction of life alignment here as human nature. This is seen within the foundational principles of Life as well that we are all equal and one as life and we in this understanding live what is best for all allways as who we are. Those that fall, require self responsibility, self honesty, and immediate correction within and as the self process of correction to align back to life and stop any and all harm.  

- This is all aligned in the equal money system layout by Desteni.org and Bernard Poolman from which I share links below for further research for the you the reader, so the layout in common sense has been walked in this material. Though it is also suggested to support with community connection and your own expression to help be a plus one and support those who are interested and want to see a better world for all. This self can practically apply in our day to day life, working with the power of 10, where each being support 10 beings at least in your sphere of influence getting them on their path of self forgiveness and living words that are one and equal as life in what is best for all. 

Also, tools such as technotutor will be a foundational support to help speed up the learning process by purifying words and correcting misplaced words in the physical body, the natural learning ability is engage and supports the child/adult with direct memory access to reprogram the physical body to be more purified and direct with understanding ones world through the words one learns and integrates.  

-We don't require leaders and governments to dictate these things to us, where we align our lives to what people say to us as presidents as a master/slave dynamic, based on the way the current capitalistic money is set up, some win and many loss, and that is seen as normal and ok as a byproduct of the world we live in. This is how it is? really, it does not have to be, we can change it, though understand its not a easy or quick process as the desteni material exemplifies, but it is doable and structured to support all who dare to care and walk their process. 

-We can come together as self leaders as equals and realize that through all as standing in self responsibility and self-forgiveness, as a one group as the human race, we can change the world. We do it with products such as the apple iphone, we can indeed do it with the way our world is currently existing, it takes an understanding and realization that its not an overnight quick fix, but it is a individual and collective journey of agreement to get this done. To eventually as we change, bring through a world and money system that supports all life equally. We will eventually be forced to it by life through hardship and struggle if we don't actively start changing and making this world a place where all can live. I found its from realizing that we can in fact expand, grow, and be a being that supports a new way of living, equal money system is the structure and guideline to support this change throughout time and into the new world order of equality and oneness and what is best for all. 

It is all here, the earth provides for us unconditionally - as i have realized through the throws of the process of self forgiveness and facing my demons as we all will, it is worth it, we as a humanity and life here are worth it, it is possible, we must stand together and find the will of self forgive and create a new system that is best for all. Mistakes and falls will happen, though that is what self forgiveness is for, only self can forgive self, and the material at desteni specifically supports with understanding the mind consciousness system, a interdimensional system within our physical controlling and surviving off of us like a parasite, this has actually become self. So self is rebirthing to and as life, who we have always been in our essence, life is always here, it's in our breath in the physical. 

 

Some numbers of what it'll take to support all, not much, as an example the USA military budget is 1 trillion per year as budgetted in 2025, we can support all life with that for sure in one year, and that is just one countries military budget.Its not about the money or enough resources, its about who is self, we create here, we decide as self decide. 

Self Forgiveness on the need for more/self interest to support myself in self honesty and self responsibility: 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe i am not able to see common sense. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am not able to calculate what is simple and basic within the one plus one equation to ensure all are supported in this world and reality in the best way possible as i would like to be supported, the one plus one equation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that each man on this planet is equal and one in the way of life, who i am within myself, we require the same substance and come from the same substance, we are equals and i as self am everything that exist, the others are simply different forms.  

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to want to become better, more, stronger, to gain more money, more fame, more prestige, and in this have more status over others as ego, as the mind that seeks the self interest of me going into indulgence rather then keeping it simple, keeping it balanced, and best for all life which is what is real and what is actually creating this reality. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking self responsibility for all of what is here, the good, bad and ugly of the suffering of this world as i fear the pain i have inflicted and caused in my ignorance. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become weak and fearful in the face of my own creations and indulgences as i have desired to be the best and be the winner, get my needs and desires fulfilled as being at the top, instead of realizing that what is best is not me alone, but a world system where all life is cared for and in this all life is safe, secure, and in real joy as life is free from suffering and consequences and this is what i want for myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my brothers and sisters, not seeing, realizing, and understanding i require not to blame and become emotional, but forgive myself and take self responsibility to correct myself in this that i point fingers at, as i realize i am equally existing in the same system of abuse, and so i correct and stand as the solution as forgiveness and self responsibility to ensure an equal money system is created. I see, realize, and understand that it will require patience and steadfast as myself as we support myself and others to stand and get this living system that is best for all created and so they can support themselves and their plus one as the solution grows and expands as life in what is best for all as the equality of all life lived. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to put my self interest over the interest of all as i see this make no sense and only harms myself and all in the end, and thus i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create and perpetuate harm and abuse instead of forgiving it, standing the correction as myself, and create a system as i create who i am in what is best for all life, equal and one. 

I commit myself to use the common sense equation of one plus one to ensure each one that is here is cared for with all the needs that are required as a dignity life equal and one to how self would like and require in a world that is best for all, through the principles of what is best for all and equality and oneness as self live and prove it real as it then will become physical as an equality system for all. 

I commit myself to push and persevere as i forgive the evil of myself and correct myself as the system i live within as i support myself and others to see the equal and one principles of all life and see this through until it is a living system we all can enjoy and stand within.

I commit myself to forgive myself and stand in the shoes of others and find solutions that is best for all.

I commit myself to support implementing an equal money system so life can stop being abused and harmed and we can all flourish as earth and life give freely and unconditionally as our true nature allows self fulfillment through the fulfillment of what is best for all in purity and real innocence as the sense/source of the beingness of all is understood in equality and oneness and lived and proven in the physical world as the implementation and realization of an equal money system which is one and equal and what is best for all life lived, this a gift of self forgiveness as the human transcend self's mind and become life here as breathe always in what is best for all the true free choice. 

Equal Life self support links to check out if you are interested:

http://www.desteni.org
http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com
Bernard Poolman - What the FAQ - Equal Money System « EQAFE
(5) Self-Perfected | Facebook
http://www.techno-tutor.com
Equal Money Wiki - YouTube

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Day 23 - Equal Money System & Desteni I Process - Solutions for a world that is best for all - 1 of 30

 Equal Money System and Desteni I Process - New World Best for All 1 of 30

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Starting a new series to support myself to stay consistent and disciplined, as well as supporting with sharing and giving to others insight that have I have realized over my many years of walking self honesty, self forgiveness, and the ups and downs with this. This always to bring it back to the support of what is best for all beings. I want to spread awareness in support of everyone to understand solutions are here, it takes self honesty and common sense, enjoy.

http://www.desteni.org

http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

Bernard Poolman - What the FAQ - Equal Money System « EQAFE

(5) Self-Perfected | Facebook

http://www.techno-tutor.com

Equal Money Wiki - YouTube

Day 22 - Sleeping for rest or for mind upgardes - i always decide

 

I have been sleeping more and more lately where i been getting up right when i need to leave, which i would like to get some things done before i leave, i see that when i first wake up, my mind is the most active, making it's way to my awareness and pulling me into itself as my self as i start participating in fears of what if. The discipline and self movement in the morning first waking up will set the day up either in more suppression and struggle or self directive will as an expression of creating myself in what is best for me and so all. Its an act of being productive through self movement, a physical get up and go and moving forward, considering my body and all my cells as myself, and in this the understanding that life is not limited in the expression of what self can do and live, there is many potentials of expression each moment. So start with the small as practically there is a limitation of what i can physically do so common sense is needed every moment, and so i practice and live this as what i can do in my day to day and in this it strengthens and builds over time. 

So after sleeping when i open my eyes, i am seeing that there is these fears of dreading the day, what i will face, and if anything uncertain will happen. I find the fears of worst case scenarios will flood my mind and in this i will become weakened in my breathing and in my letting go, i will fall into emotions and start going into self judgments and points that i myself have no control over and do not have full context. Also i have too many things i want to get done so i become unmotivated to do anything because again the belief that its too much or i don't know where to start, all just distractions really and keep me stuck in the past and in thoughts and literally in myself/my bed/physical reality. 

The understanding is to get out of the mind through breathing and letting go of the thoughts, literally let them go, if they continue without the ability to direct, going to writing is suggested to sort out what ever is repeating in ones thoughts/memories, through self investigation and self forgiveness self can flesh it out and figure out how to correct it. It takes a lot of practice, so don't give up as the mind will push this on self often, its desire is energy and not what is best for all life, so self has to take the directive pricniple back and see how to live it for self. That is the beauty of the writing and speaking self forgiveness to understand how to correct self and where, usually self knows cause it's common sense but it will be worked through as one sticks with these tools. I have not yet applied myself satisfactory in this point of letting go and walking as breath, in and out, feeling the breath feed my physical body as i as my physical embrace it and release it back to myself as the earth to them take it in and give it back for me to take in, but i see the point and i am committed to live this as myself until it is done. In essence i am seeing that it's a giving to myself as all here as i do for me i do for others and vise versa as all is one and equal. I am finding to not hold onto to anything, let it go, purify with self forgiveness and recreate self here alwasy in living principles until they are natural, they are self, who you really are, i have separated myself from life for a bit and now i am walking back to life fully, i never was fully lost, but i am actually a whole being as life, no need for separation, we are all one as the same yet equal as beings in living expression. A fascinating real-i-zation indeed and in sound. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to in the morning wake up with the belief that i am doomed for the rest of the day/my life and i have no control over the destruction of what is going to happen based on the thoughts that are coming up as in the world is scary, people are not trustworthy, the world is going to end, we are going to not make it. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for the state of the badness of the world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for the state of this world and go into anger in myself when i wake up about how messed up everything is.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into worst case scenarios within and as me where i am seeing the bad only and not the expression and potentials that exist in each moment as we are here and living in this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the what ifs of this reality where life could be this way or could be that way, instead of working with what is here as myself and my self honesty where i stand within a point of self introspection and self forgiveness and let go and move forward. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the past recreating preprogrammed moments of memory that exist here in the present moment that is here and so recreate myself as mind as memory instead of living here and creating myself as life in what is best for all as common sense.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to try and figure things out with my mind instead of letting it go and seeing how life plays out and in this direct in the moment in the principles of life in what is best and doing unto another as how i'd like done onto me and in this live this as myself in the physical not in the mind as thought automation. 

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the memories and the past because it feels comfortable and safe as i know what to expect and don't need to really push myself beyond my boundaries.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to push myself beyond my boundaries and not stand within a point of life giving and standing within what is best to the best of my ability.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to sleep past my commitment time and not wake up due to the belief of being tired when i see i have gotten rest and i am only participating in my mind as thoughts and memories and thus allowing the mind as emotions/thoughts and feelings take over instead of self directing me here.

I commit myself to let go of the judgment and blame of myself and others, i forgive myself and live in a way of breathing and creating my day.

I commit myself to create my morning with walking up at 6am doing some writing and drinking coffee, along with exercise and prepping for the day.

I commit myself to walk up on my alarm and not stay in bed to rest. 

I commit myself to let go of the thoughts of i am tired as i see i am life and life is not tired and doesn't require to sleep but the body as the physical as me requires rest.

I commit myself to let go of fear and take responsibility for myself and share myself to support others as how i'd like to be supported.

When and as i see i want to go into thoughts and become lazy as automation, i stop and breath, i remain in breath and create myself in a way that is best for all in this moment, i will write when i am not clear and do self forgiveness until i am clear. 

I commit myself to live and do my best and bring and give this to others as a gift i can give and would like to receive as the best living potential for us all. 

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Process Support - Lost in automation in day to day life - Day 21

Some support on how i am walking my desteni i process after living some consequential outflows of dishonesty and the importance of not only taking the knowledge in but applying the tools, to not end in a too late ness that i have found myself in the last few years. Realizing this process is serious, not a point to take as a half measure as its relating to everything that exist including self and self is responsible. Hope this helps and prevents moments of potential compromise. Any feedback please share. Thanks for listening. 

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Back chat of winning, spite, and reflection of self dishonesty through Annoyance - Day 20

 Hi, I am working through my mind after a significant 'fall' where i had to face some reality consequences that made me realize the requirement of movement that is needed in the process from birthing from the energy of the mind reality as illusion into and as the living reality as self creation through living/action in words as self forgiveness and self correction - for more on some insight into this point and where it came through check out this chat - 1. Saturday 19th May 2012 - Desteni Forum 

When I am annoyed I see that i have some memories in me, mainly toward my sister whom i work with and spend a lot of time with, we are in a setting that is fast paced and i am her manager, so in this environment there are certain common sense expectations that are required. But for me i see my memories are of backchat of becoming angry that she is not listening to my 'direction' and not following the 'rules'. I have justified this anger/annoyance within a point of self righteousness and believing i am stronger and better at my job then her, which in turn in my mind as backchat make me think that i am thus able to bully her to a point where it makes her move quicker, do what i want, so this point of belief 'i am better at my job, she is so slow', creates in me my self justification to push her outside of proper guidelines and limitations and make it emotional where one is wrong/bad and the other is right/better. 

This cause in her an imbalance in the work day without a clear direction of her environment directives, but she is more on guard and thus more in her mind, self compromise, based on the bi-polar nature of myself becoming annoyed/emotional when a mistake is made or point not understood in its best potential. This stems from my ego, believing that cause i am at this skill of being on task and timely to a degree of efficiency for the office setting, i am thus able to diminish another who can't keep up.

This does not say anything about either one in terms of self definition and self creation, but it does say within me that i am being spiteful and evil in my interactions with another in my environment who is my equal, is me in another life, and thus is what should be valued before anything else, the equality and oneness of each one. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see person x as a being that i can bully and push around cause i am stronger and thus able to as the capabilities are at my advantage and i am more able to stay stable, and thus i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the backchat that this being is weak and thus able to be pushed to extremes due to my desire to be right/get my creation in place thus control the outcome and creating a way where i get what i want.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of self righteousness where i allow and accept thoughts as 'i am so much stronger and smarter then her' 'she is so dump' 'she is so slow' 'she is losing us money' 'she doesn't listen to me' 'she is trying to ruin my leadership abilities and direction' and 'i can't stand her, she doesn't obey'. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become annoyed at another for there life and living reality in this moment equal and one to me as this moment.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the other where in i see the other as my enemy/competition, instead of seeing it as me and that i require to walk in the others shoes to find out where and how can i support them equal to how i would want to be supported and live in a way that is best for all. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am within and as a point of self defeat when another in my reality doesn't walk my expectation and so i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to control and force another into my will and direction in a way of force and degrading.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be better/stronger cause within my backchat i am speaking things that are not real, and are harmful which is evil, which is not best for all life my commitment and principle of living this life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to instead of standing as an equal to the other and supporting them to be the best they can be, i stand as a point of harm and degrading where i am gaining superiority over her and feeling more powerful and in control through the feeling of success and victory when in reality i am destroying and diminishing something i would not do to myself and not want done unto me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not embrace the other as myself and understand within the interaction what can we do to support each other within a point of self care and self support where both the environments are made to bring through the best for each other and what make practical common sense to allow both the opportunity to become stable and get the work done that needs done in a timely way.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the backchat of judgment thoughts toward other and self glorifying thoughts toward myself for being strong. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed my ego as self interest be my driving force in the work place towards others instead of sitting in there shoes and finding solutions that will ensure all are cared for and all have the ability to be the best the can for the position they are in where things are clear and understood to the best of my ability to get it lived out into completion.

I commit myself to live the words self discipline within stopping my back chat about winning and being better, breathing, and not allowing thoughts of judgment or any thoughts of harm. 

I commit myself to flag point annoyance when or if it comes up showing to myself that i have fallen in self interest and trying to win.

I commit myself to recognize that i am going into ego as a point of self righteousness self glorification, because i am not in control of myself and feel inferior.

I commit myself to embrace the other as myself with love, care, gentleness, and clear direction of common sense as i would myself. I commit myself to use breathing and releasing the energy through physical activity and breathing to no longer direct myself with energy as mind in thoughts and shooting/harm/self glorification, but real living that is an equal and one support for all as i'd like for myself. 

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