More on Where I stand with Self Trust? Day 527

When looking at my relationship with the words self trust, I have for a long time been doubting myself, this creating a feeling or an experience within me that I am not doing enough, and this belief of not doing enough is causing unneeded stress in my already busy lifestyle. One point that I see here that I can look at is this experience of not doing enough, because in many ways I do do a lot, I work full time and have many extra responsibilities that I am working on. Though within this, I still feel like I could be giving my time to more things, more activities, more projects to push ahead and spearhead my future creation of what my ideals are. In this spearheading, I see I am missing two very important dimensions and this is the time dimension, meaning what it takes to walk something into creation and also the understanding dimension, where I at this stage do not have enough information or still require to walk a process of self creation/living to specify and define who and what I indeed would like to create and so understand how to actually create this within and as myself. So pushing for something in my mind such as doing more, I see is counterproductive to the actual self creation process I could be and have to walk to create that which I would like to live in my highest potential.

So some points I need to consider is why I am not moving on these points that I want to change, and many of the shortcomings are addictions I have in my day to day living. Addictions that I am afraid to let go of, and within this afraid of change. So here I require to make a plan and move within this plan, so I can indeed create. Because if I don't start changing what is created is a resonance or presence of self compromise as I am not moving myself where I know and understand I indeed can. So if one is not creating self, then one will then actually be creating self compromise and thus self diminishment as I are actually accepting and allowing it, I have created all of it through thoughts, reactions, and living in separation as these beliefs, ideas, reactions, ect.

What I have learned over the years of walking the desteni I process is not to judge myself for these types of process points I have to walk, it is not to create any reaction toward self, but to understand the point, why it occurred, and then simple walk the correction path to change it. This is the most efficient way I have found as there is nothing gained by judging self for failing or becoming harsh with self, as this literally only causes diminishment within self, so really it doesn’t make sense. Though if you see you are judging yourself, walk the tools of self forgiveness, self correction, and change self within this to then stabilize, so the tools are incredible, simplistic, and specific to move self in this process in whatever point or process of the mind or self compromise one face. Again, process is a process of self understanding and self creation through self correction, so it will take time, patiences, and lots of mistakes, but overtime and as one persevere change will start to occur.

Here I will write self forgiveness on doubt:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a doubt about who I am and how I am living based on an energetic experience coming up of anxiety through thoughts that I am not doing enough.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into an energetic possession of fear based on a belief of if i don’t do enough and I lack and lag behind I will not be able to catch up thus squandering my chances to become life here in the physical and so fearing annihilation in the afterlife.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought that I am going to be annihilated if I stop pushing myself so hard and believe that i within this I will not be able to catch up.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to keep score of who is who within this process and how far i have walked and within this create a polarity of best and worst causing separation and comparison with my environment.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create a separation with my environment due to the belief that I am not going to be able to keep up with others thus comparing myself to others creating this race experience in the first place which I see, realize, and understand is not real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create the experience that I am in a race and I must finish and do the best because of a fear of survival where I see, realize, and understand this is stemming from childhood where I would compete with my siblings to be seen, heard, and validated by my parents and so always strive to be the best.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to my siblings and believe I am only safe if I am seen as the best and validated by what i have done and could do by my parents in praise or admiration, and within this define who I am based on these words and praises.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief that I have to win and be the best to be able to survive and become somebody in this reality that’ll be safe and survive, and so within this create a belief that this is the only way it is and I only know who I am based on what my environment is saying to me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to the external world I was living in believing that that is who defines me, when i see, realize, and understand that I miss the fact that who i am is based on my own self creation and within this I am limitless to the potentials that I can create within and through my own self will and self awareness.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become stuck within the words and energies of others in my environment as something or someone that defines me, when I see, realize, and understanding I am giving permission for it to define me as I am accepting and allowing it to define who I am as I am believing it is true.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within not enough based on comparison and beliefs of self diminishment or self validation based on the instability of the outside world and the corruptness of the inner self creation process that this has on who I am actually creating myself into, someone who is separated and not stable within who I am as self here in self honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take on others beliefs, emotions, energies, and words as who I am instead of investigating these words for myself, and redefining them in words that I understand for me and thus can live for me.

When and as I see myself moving into a point of self diminishment within my self living by accepting and allowing any point outside myself to define who I am, I stop and breath, and i realize that I am able to define who I am through redefining my understanding of the word(s) and so living within this redefinition process so I create me from self understanding and self awareness.

I commit myself to stop and breath when I see I go into a movement of either positive or negative based on an outside influence and correct myself into understanding the word for myself through redefining it and living it for me.

I commit myself to let go of the beliefs that I am defined by my past where i believed i had to compete to move into the process of equality and oneness of all life, and creating myself breath by breath through my own self awareness movement.

I commit myself to stop judging and creating separation with what is here, move into understanding, and finding solutions for what is here in the highest potentials possible.

I commit myself to move from self doubt as not enough to slowing down and walking what is here in each moment to the best of my ability.

I commit myself to move from self doubt as diminishing to self creation as expansion.



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Soul - School of Ultimate Living - Create yourself through Words!
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Self Supportive Material -
http://www.Eqafe.com

Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course -
http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

Forum support:
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Desteni Wiki:
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Eqafe Facebook Page:
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7 year journey to life Facebook group:
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Discipline – Re-Defining and Living Words – Day 522

 (I chose the fly as a picture of discipline because most see a pest and something that is to be killed as it's dirty, though if you study the actions of the bugs/animal kingdom you will see that they are extremely disciplined and live with integrity, yes even a fly observe life around you, you will see them as examples of how to live, I will write more on what I've learned from animals/bugs. There is much more to consider in this reality then meets the eye of the mind, life lives beyond the mind reality. For more on the animal kingdom and their purpose, please check out the link here.)

This is a continuation of this Blog:

My Process So Far of Living Words – Day 518

Living Words – Discipline – Morning Routine – Self Forgiveness and Self Change - Day 521

For me discipline is something I can relate to, this based on project I enjoy doing or activities that I am good at. For instance, sports, I was able to be disciplined in sports because I thrived off of it, becoming better in my skills, and competing to be the best among my peers. I find that with things such as reading or focusing on doing a report or writing for my job or responsibilities, I am less enthused and inclined to push myself to move into the decision to be disciplined. This based on the idea I have created within the work environment as not as fun and not able to physically express like how I am able to in a sport.

So points I am seeing that I can align myself within to live this word discipline more wholesomely throughout my day and life is through redefining the way in which I see work and play so to speak and also how I can expand myself in these two areas within the word discipline to indeed succeed in creating myself in more and more areas as well as to become proficient within all activities I encounter to live this word discipline across the board. Make this word an application I can live in many different scenarios.

What is the purpose for me to be disciplined?

The purpose for me to become disciplined is to expand myself eventually with ease, where I use the word discipline as a bridge to move through the transition phase or learning phase of something I take on that is new or I am rusty in, and move into an extension of myself within what I take on to be able to perform in an efficient way as well as to reach my highest potential.

So words that I see also can be applied within living the word discipline in my life would be focus, precision, responsible, purpose, and within this, I can apply myself until the task at hand is no longer something I need to discipline myself within, but comes with a natural expression of wanting to create within it through pushing limitations and expanding myself the best I am able to.

My purpose then would be self expansion within the principle of doing what is best for all in self honest living application, I am always moving myself toward pushing the limit of myself and my environments to bring in the functioning of living in our best abilities and doing what is best for all within this. And here some more words that are coming up is patience because as I walk this process of perfecting my discipline application in many areas, this will take a lot of patience as I go through the ups and downs and find my way within it. As well as the extension of myself into my environment as I support others to become more disciplined as I have learned, I too have to live patience in these scenarios as they walk their process of discipline as well. So I would always want to be supportive for not only myself, but any others I may touch and are interested in expanding themselves in living words as well such as with the word discipline.

Dictionary Definition:

Discipline –

1.      Noun – a system of rules or method of practice.

2.      Noun – a branch of knowledge.

3.      Noun – training to improve strength or self control.

4.      Noun – the trait of being well behaved.

5.      Noun – the act of punishing.

6.      Verb – develop behavior by instruction and practice; especially to teach self – control.

Word Play:

Discipline –

Distinguishing a plan -

Disc – I – planned

Here I am seeing that the redefined word is a way for me to have a plan in place for each scenario I arrive in where I am looking to change a habit or put in more self control to change my behavior to be that which does what is best. So I will make a list of points I want to practice discipline in and within this continue this practice as more points come up.

For the morning routine:

I have been testing this point for about a month now, and found that I am tripping up on waking up super early, what I am going to change within this point is wake up within the 4-6 hour range where I am getting enough rest for my body, but not allowing the mind to infiltrate and permeate more of mind and physical body as it was programmed to due. This to support my physical body and stop the mind from continuing. So this is a step one where I can start to implement discipline in my morning routine, wake up between 4-6 hours of sleep. Once I have walked this for a week, I will expand myself within this, because as I start to reprogram myself to a new behavior, I will then start to naturally become it and will not need as much discipline in place or self will because now it’ll be an extension of me as I live it. From there I can continue to use the application of living the word discipline as having a distinguished plan to expand myself within the waking up routine in a form of self creation, so we will see what is to come.

Thanks for reading!

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Soul - School of Ultimate Living - Create yourself through Words!
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Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course -
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Forum support:
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Desteni Wiki:
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Automatic Behavior - How to Stop it from Limiting You - Day 512

What is behind the responses that become automatic, where it feels like we don't even think about what we are doing never mind actually consider if it is practical or best for us? What causes such a response and how can each one practice ways to become more responsive to one's environment in a way where we give direction that will support us to be better or best. Check out more in the audio recording. Thanks

Self Supportive Material - 
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Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course - 
http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com 

Forum support: 
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Desteni Wiki: 
http://wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page 

Eqafe Facebook Page: 
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7 year journey to life Facebook group: 
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DIP Lite on Facebook: 
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Soul - School of Ultimate Living - Create yourself through Words!
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Acceptance and Work: Dissecting the “I don’t want to” Character - Day 510

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I have taken on a new position in my job where it wasn’t a direct decision by myself where I had time to consider all the points and find what best suited me, I was more thrown into the position by unforeseen and unfortunate events. With that being said, I am now in a position of leadership and responsibility where I have to sharpen my skills and face fears and illusions I have created for myself. One of the points that has been coming up lately and has been effecting my work flow and environment is this nagging backchat that ‘I don’t want all this responsibility, I don’t want to be in charge of all this, I don’t want to be stressed about money and problems that arise day in and day out, I want to be free and do what I want’, then my mind will go into pictures of how others are getting to have an easier time, get to have fun and be worry free, I want that life again, I don’t want all this responsibility.

Though I realize that I have to change this pattern because I have decided to walk this path and ensure I do my best at it. So I will walk some forgiveness and create some ways forward for myself to find solutions for the points that I am facing within this character.

Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character of the ‘I don’t want to’ do what I have in front of me to do because of beliefs that it’s too hard and too much, not seeing that I am creating an experience of it as too much and too hard because of the personality I am going in of not wanting to do something with the energy of resistance and tiredness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the character of ‘I don’t want to’ based on the belief that I am not able to when I see, realize, and understand I am able to that its more a lack of effort to do what has to be done because I have created a polarized reality of what is good and what is based through comparison with other people in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have my life be smooth and comfortable at all times where I don’t have stress or points that are challenging because within that I have created the perception that this is what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blind me from the realization within the actually facing challenges and pushing myself within them to find solutions and ways forward, I grow and expand and this is when I am most empowered as I am able to be more purposeful within what I do and create more of who I am through the challenges I face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed pictures and thoughts of how good it is over there in the easy life where I see comfort and fun, when I see, realize, and understand each one is equally facing challenges within there lives and that life is not about what you do or where you are, but more who you are within it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the face that I am where I am and I have the responsibilities I have, though I can accept this and walk within the realization that these challenges will support with my growth and expansion, and empower me to be more and more the person I really am as my potential in this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create blame and reaction to others in  my reality for frustrations I am having toward myself for not moving into the challenges in acceptance and walking who I am within them as a creation process and opportunity to live my utmost potential within it.

When and as I am seeing myself go into the ‘I don’t want to’ character and start blaming and going into daydreams about how great life is over there, I stop and breathe, and realize that I am responsible for who I am within my life circumstances and I can change myself to accept this and live these opportunities to the best of my ability and make them something worthwhile that is best for me and all.

I commit myself to live the word acceptance when I see I am going into blame or reactive thoughts as I see I decide to walk this point and that I am responsible for who I create myself.

I commit myself to walk solutions that are substantial to support myself and all involved in a way that supports all to be there best by walking with them, understanding them, and finding ways to support there strengths and strengthen their weaknesses as I walk for myself.

I commit myself to live the word accept – stand where I accept what is here as it is and move into directing myself to live my highest potential and bring the best out of what I am walking within myself and within others.

I commit myself to push myself in challenges where I move into solutions and let go of the desire to resist and give up.

Really cool Support Hangout on the Word Work and what that means:

Redefining Work 

Self Supportive Material -
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Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course -
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Food Waste: How to Stop this from Perpetuating - Day 481

This video sheds light on the problem of food waste and what it says about our society as a whole as well as solutions that can be walked by each person to stand for the greater solution that we all are looking for which is to support a world that creates the best outcomes for all here.

Investigate these sites for more on what I shared:
http://www.desteni.org
http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com
http://www.eqafe.com/free
http://www.equallife.org
http://www.liviingincome.me

"What Comes Next?": The Next System - LIG – Day 454

I read an article tonight that was found on one of my feeds on facebook I am subscribed to and it was in relation to people discussing what will be next as a new system that will step forth once this broken system falls. And yes of course this system currently existing is going to fall because it’s made from abuse and devaluing the very principles that creates our life, life itself, which is equally valued within all things that exist thus we are actually destroying ourselves. This principle is an absolute point and I found it was a necessary point to realize and start to understand for myself because this will require a process of re-birth not only to be ready to walk a new system but also to walk a new self.

We as human beings see the destruction we have created on this planet, and we all, each and everyone of us has participated within the destruction of this world, we can see it in our actions in everyday life and most importantly in the way in which we think about life as our day to day existence. There is nothing fantastic or beautiful within what goes on in our thinking day to day, I can only speak for myself of course, though even walking this process for years, I can see how much my mind is influencing and creating myself as destructive and abusive. Now within this, I realize also that this part of who I am as the mind is in need of a complete and utter re-structuring of who I am as a being of life. Re-defining, word by word, step by step, with all the ups and downs this will take, what this is for myself and who I am within it.

Time for practical purposes is a cool form of measure to have a gauge for ourselves in what is needed to be done and at what intensity/focus/speed.  I mean for instance, like the article I recently read where 6000 acres of old growth forest was going to be sold and decimated for profit of a few, this would be an area were immediate action is needing to be taken, now there is groups and activists that’ll protest and push back which is a band-aid solution and obviously not enough. This because the very fact that we want to destroy the very physical living existence that is allowing us to breath is really the insane part as it makes completely no sense. We kill the trees, we kill our breath of life. We kill ourselves in both instances equal and one, so see this makes no sense. And so what is needed along with these priority points that are occurring in physical reality, there is many critical ones at the moment, but along with this physical point of solutions we need to walk as a new system, we also have to create a new system to operate within ourselves. A new self system that is re-programmed to be that all actions be what is best for all and this is walked through tools that many at this time are walking and have been walking for years.

 

There is a free course designed to support with anyone ready to embark in taking this venture into re-programming self’s operating system to be best for all, and it’s all done in a very wholesome and self determined way. Each one has to decide for themselves and walk this, though there is a network of support within this group walking this as well that will be able and willing to support as we have been supported as well.

We as the desteni group have already started to look at solution oriented ways to support the change necessary for a new system as well as a new way of life. This is being walked in the Living Income Guarantee proposals set forth by the Equal Life foundation, it’s a setting off point with specific policies in place to help understand and become aware of what a new system that will be based on what is best for all look like. We propose a living income for all those in need of it to allow all access to decency in life and a stable environment to live with family and community through funding allocated to support this. We propose ways and means for job creation that will support with building the infrastructure and details that’ll be needed to create a symmetric and well functioning society that allows ease of movement as well as freedom to express oneself. There will be so much to create, design, and re-form, though there is already plenty of ideas and concepts and creations out there that will support and facilitate the growth of a new system that is more designed for the betterment of all. This is lived within principles that are visibly seen day in and day out through and by we as humans living them equal and one to life here. We are the solutions we wish to see in this world, we must be educated, grounded, practically oriented, and solution

oriented in what is best for all through self honest self direction if we want to see a new system in fact emerge. And as the saying goes the old must go for the new to emerge.

This will be a process though it takes but a step to move things forward, let’s stay consistent, self disciplined, and self lived to live, breath, and remain what is best for all life always.

Links from the Article:

Living Income Guarantee Proposal

Desteni I Process Lite Course

Desteni I Process Pro Courses

It's Time to Talk About the Next System – By  Cecilia Gingerrich | Op-Ed

6,000 Acres of Old Growth Forests Slated for Logging, theLargest Sale in Decades - Published: March 31, 2015 | Authors: EarthJustice News Report

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My Experience with Confidence In Appearance - Part 5 - Day 365

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Featured Artist: Matti Freeman

This is a Series, here are the others for reference:
My Experience Before and After Beginning Process with Animals and Nature – Part 1- Day 361
Horses and People– Before/After Starting Process with Animals and Nature Part 2 – Day 362
Horses and People – Before/After Starting Process with Animals and Nature – Part 3 - Day 363
Opening Up Confidence In the Mind – Before/After Starting to Walk Process – Part 4 – Day 364

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to define myself within the experience of myself as confident when I see when looking in the mirror I get a positive energy kick as I see that within my idea of the picture in my mind has been satisfied and I am feeling confident to go out in public and face others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my feeling of who I am through an experience of positive feelings when I see myself in the mirror and am satisfied with what I see and that have the thought that ‘now I can go and feel confident in myself’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a picture in my mind that I have to fufill and satisfy before I will go out with others and if I don’t satisfy this picture the feeling of confidence ends and I become insecure proving that this confidence is not in fact real because it depends on other factors rather then a living of it within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my confidence level based on the picture I see in the mirror and feel anxiety and fear when in public if I don’t have a picture that I am satisfied with when I look in the mirror.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself worth and confidence within myself based on my picture in the mirror rather then the who I am as a person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow the mind when I have the thought ‘now I can go and feel confident in myself’ and so go into public and feel better about myself due to this conclusion that I look my best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow the energy of positive feelings as excitement and a comfortableness if I am satisfied with the picture I see in the mirror and then become more comfortable in public situations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when looking in the mirror and I am not satisfied with the way I look and accept the thought of ‘man, I look ugly  right now’ and so go into public feeling less comfortable and more anxious around other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to backchat and judge others based on what they look like and compare there look with mine, and so feel confident or not based on the way I compare to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to feel better about myself through accepting the positive energy as excitement or comfortableness when I see myself as more then others and so get a sense of confidence within myself and become more comfortable with being in public with people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel better about myself within myself if I am more then others within my mind through judgment of others around me and base my experience of myself on this judgment I have made in feeling more or less then others.

When and as I see I am going into my mind and comparing myself to a mirror image of myself or with another and judging it as good/bad, I stop and breath, and realize this is being enslaved within a polarity of positive and negative that will continue as I separate myself from others and my own living through judgment. I realize I will only be able to live in equality and so true self confidence if I build it through my actions and words based on the actual reality of what is here including and accepting all as myself.

I commit to stop judging and sizing myself up and others in my mind.

I commit to let go of the energy of feeling good or bad about myself and accepting myself in that moment absolutely.

I commit to stop the backchat thoughts of polarity of ugly/beautiful.

I commit myself to build confidence in myself through the way I build myself over time through self responsibility and living in a principled way and following through.

I commit myself to stop judging others.

I commit myself to stop judging myself.

I commit myself to accept myself and push with all people by become comfortable with myself.

Eqafe Interview Support that I Recommend:

Insecurity: Introduction - Atlanteans - Part 148
Insecurity: Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 149
Insecurity: Insecurity-Confidence Polarity - Atlanteans - Part 150
Confidence: Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 151
Confidence: Practical Support - Atlanteans - Part 152
Confidence: The End - Atlanteans - Part 153

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The Mind is to Blame - Day 359

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the mind is the problem and the reason why I am the way I am with my experiences of myself being misaligned and extreme at times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the mind for the way my life is and the way I experience myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that I am not in fact doing the potential I am capable of within my living expression in terms day to day living and blame the mind for this, when I realize the mind is simply a part of me that I have created and that I have to take responsibility for and direct it into what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for myself and what I have created within and as my living day to day over the course of my life and blame it on the mind as a point of not having to face what I indeed have created for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the mind within a point of an evildoer and an enemy and see that I have to battle against it and look at it within a polarity of weak and strong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within relation to my mind as seeing myself weak to it and so ignoring the fact that I am in fact creating it each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push myself to slow down and stop the reactions because I justify within myself that it’s too hard and the mind is too much when in fact I am not willing myself enough based on desiring to go into the energy and release it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate who I am in my reality as an abuser and hurting others and myself within the belief that the mind is too strong and overwhelming when in reality it is me who is not willing to stop and not willing to let go of the beliefs and thoughts that I believe are right/justified to continue my compromised living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be right in my world and so will hold onto this desire and blame the mind for being too strong to let go of and stop, when I realize I am the one continuing to participate in it even when I see where it will lead and that I indeed have the decision to stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the mind is telling me and creating me to be the way I experience myself as inferior and less then others, when in reality I am thinking and participating and accepting these thoughts and so create this experience of myself as such, the mind is not directing this within and as me, I am, by participating within it and believing it is true.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what is coming up in my mind is the truth of the situation and abdicate my stand within the mind because I desire to be in energy and have the easy way out rather then walk the process of the physical in slowing down, walking step by step, and stopping until it is done no matter how long it takes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the mind has control over me and I am powerless to do anything about it, when in reality I realize it is just a matter of me making a decision, breathing in each moment to slow myself down, and walking the process of disengaging/letting go and stopping until I have transcended the point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire the easy way out and give up in the face of the mind experiences and energy, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to stop my participation in the mind in abuse and separation in each moment that I live the belief that I am not able to, when in reality I am able to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the thought and so living of myself of ‘I am not able to’.

When and as I see I am going into a point of blaming the mind for the way I am experiencing myself or the way of my external reality is, I stop and breath, and realize that this is not in fact real as I am the one participating and creating my mind and the way I am existing within and without based on what I am participating in, and so I realize I have the opportunity to change in each moment, it is in fact my decision and my decision alone who I am in each moment.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to blame the mind and move me into physical reality in making decisions in common sense assessment of what will be best in the moment for all involved.

I commit myself to when and if I do go into a point of blame, investigate it and walk a correction process so I can see what is the correct way and so I live it.

I commit myself to stop participating in the thoughts that create the blame scenario when it is triggered through reaction.

And so I commit to stop the reactions by becoming self aware in each moment and the trigger points that create the reactions, to take my self directive back and make a decision to live differently and so live the change necessary to align to the physical in equality.

When and as I see I am going into a point of self disempowerment, I stop and breath, and realize that this is a decision I am making and it is based on a point where I do not want to walk the point I will have to walk to change myself to do what is best and makes sense.

I commit myself to breath and move through the points where I see I want to give up or give in to the mind, through walking a step by step process of my decision in each moment to correct it and push through the point until I am stable and move self directed naturally.

I commit myself to in each moment become aware if a point of change is needed and walk the decision to change and stand in my own self direction and so build self trust.

I commit myself to stop giving up to the mind in thoughts and beliefs by stopping participation in these thoughts and beliefs through breathing.

I commit myself to speak self commitment statements in real time through also speaking self forgiveness in real time to move within the moment in breath and make the decision to change myself and face what is here and walk it to a solution.

I commit myself to face myself in each moment I become aware of an opportunity to walk self forgiveness and self change, I move myself and commit myself to walk the change needed to do what is best and change myself to stand in my own directive principle.

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