Family and Competition: The Pressure that Builds - Day 487

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What causes the child to rebel against there parents as I had within my childhood? I mostly translate it to the fact that I didn’t know how to really connect with them in the way that my inner being desired. There was also this disconnect in a way that was created through words or the resonance of words that drove me to have inner conflict and anger outflowed into my world because I couldn’t articulate what it is I was wanting from my parents and what it is that I was experiencing within me, I had no idea what it was, though this inner voice was there and it was powerful. This obviously created frustration on both ends of the spectrum, myself were I would be chastised and partitioned away based on my parents not really having the time nor the real patience to hear me and get to the essence of what I was looking for. With my parents, where they didn’t have the opportunity or the know how to really connect with me on a deeper level and understand from a point of view that was necessary, they couldn’t walk this based on survival. And this is not to blame my parents or blame any point within myself or my childhood, but a real self honest understanding of what creates such a rift between parent and child growing up and into adulthood.

One of the key factors was money, there was always pressure and stress in relation to money and also there was also a pressure and stress within myself to live to a certain standard. This was impulsed from many directions in society be it schoolmates, billboards, tv, magazines, neighbors, celebrities and what I had or didn’t have was always running in the back of my mind. Everybody wants to be seen as the best/cool and no one wants to be seen other then this, so there is also this stress going on to be accepted, and within this, the parents are the only way for the child to fulfill this requirement to gain acceptance in their childhood. We had enough though there was always this feeling within me that I wanted more, there was never enough, I was always feeling inadequate in some way or another, and my parents not able to satisfy this self anger of not having enough, this rift started to form based on the idea that I had created that there must be something wrong with me or my family because I can’t get what ever one else has.

This then stemmed into my family structure where I started comparing myself to my sisters and seeing that I am not this and I don’t have that skill, I need that to feel fulfilled, but I don’t know how to get that. So there was not only the pressure of the outer world to be accepted, I was finding there was also a pressure within the family, the place were you are suppose to be most safe and comfortable, much was communicated between everyone and it was a lot of mental and physical pressure.

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Family and Competition Part 2 - What Causes Lack? Day 485

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So within my last blog I spoke about how the education system initiates children into the system within competition from the get go, showing us as adults who we are within what we are doing, does it register and do we even care that we are creating our entire society and what we do within it from a competitive starting point. I mean even at five years old, I became stressed and anxious within going to my first day of school, this is not the best environment for children nor what I would want any child to have to endure. We tend to use the excuse of “oh but it’s human nature, this is just how it is” or “they will survive, I mean I did and look at me, I am successful, I worked hard, I survived”. But again is this the best we can do? Is this how we want our children to be experiencing their worlds? Why not have a place were all are welcome, there is a place for everyone, everyone is accommodated, and we create solutions and tools to facilitate the best environment for all. 

This is most certainly possible, we are using the above excuses and one’s like those to avoid and not face the change that is inevitable within each one. We don’t want to change ourselves, we don’t want to change our minds, we don’t want to walk the talk so to speak of creating a better world because as we know this best for all society is not going to create itself, we in fact have to create it, build it, endure the trials and tribulations, the failures and miss-takes, everything this will take. And another point I have realized is that this world is not going to come about one that is best for all and considers all if each one doesn’t change within themselves to accommodate such a society, if we want to create peace and harmony, we have to do that internally in our own worlds/self.

Each (human) being is a universe, and so with great knowledge comes great responsibility, but the fruits of the labor put in is a world that will be heaven on earth, who can deny such a world and a world we can birth for our children to come who in essence is each one of us. So competition in our worlds is showing one thing currently and that is that we are not living life, but surviving, we are not finding solutions, but existing as the problem, we are not walking with others, but trying to destroy and become better then others. This I have found is due to the inherent insecurity each one of us feels about ourselves, so this point of insecurity and so superiority we all cycle within has to be investigated, corrected, and transcended to see the solutions that lie beyond that play out. This all takes a process and has already been walked by many on this earth, which is the desteni I process. It takes years of dedication and discipline to walk this journey to life, but there is no other choice for all those who stand within a self integrity and honor for life, we must get this done.

Here I will walk some self forgiveness on the point I mentioned in my childhood and the competition that is driven within the education system currently. This so I/we can support the solution of what is best and creating an equality within the education field.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be in competition with other people in my world based on a standard test that is placed on humans to gauge where they stand and how to systematize there living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a system in place to limit and diminish the creative expressive ability of human life into standardized testing to put human life into categories where it’s easier to be controlled and hoarded around to facilitate the system of slave/master mentality we have made a way of life here on this earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to taint innocent life with survival and fear of survival based on the belief that some lack and some are more worthy in this physical earth, when I see, realize, and understand that there is neither lack nor fear that is necessary on this planet and that all things can be measured and walked into what is best based on the physical mathematical equations to see this through.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become greedy within myself where I desire to have more then others and create an experience for myself of more, when I see, realize, and understand that this experience is only a fleeting one and will never truly fulfill me, but only continue to diminish me as I continue this quest for more and so within that create equally create the experience of lack.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the systematic experience of survival where lack is displayed and survival needs are developed through this belief based on the greed of self interest and desire for more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of self judgment when I do these things of harming life instead of forgiving myself, moving to the correction which is walking what is best for all, and moving into solutions immediately that will facilitate the best outcome for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become enslaved within my own creation based on following experiences of energy instead of remaining balanced here in breath and realizing and so living the principles of life that is here one and equal and doing what is best for all which will always create the best life for self in all ways.

When and as I see I am going into a form of desire and greed to gain more then another, I stop and breath, and realize that this will create the experience of superiority which will then in turn cycle through the experience of insecurity causing survival to activate and lack to become manifested.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to have more and walk what is best for all in all I do and live.

I commit myself to let go of the experience of superiority where I see I am more and then take more, by standing within an integrity of myself by stopping this thought and solving the problem which will create what is best for all involved.

I commit myself to stop the experience of lack and realize all the gifts already here in my life and living reality.

I commit myself to be grateful for life and my breath and stop the experiencing of not enough.

I commit myself to change myself to be the best version of myself and walk solutions so the children to come are respected and honored as equal physical beings the same as self here.

I will continue in my next blog, thanks.


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Cat-Punching, Why does this exist? Day 460

Before walking the desteni process, I was a person who cringed and went into reaction at the sight of any animal being hurt or abused, I was not aware of this group on facebook that is promoting cat-punching, I didn't have to see it and I didn't want to watch anything about it and this shows what? The truth of the very reason that cat punching exist, I don’t want to look and thus am stating with my actions that I don’t want to take responsibility for the actions of abuse to animals as I believe myself to not be this. I don’t harm animals and thus I am justified in condemning and believing myself to be more righteous. I mean you don’t really have to look of course to know that animal abuse is happening on the daily, though the understanding of taking responsibility for such actions in this physical reality is not understood and is crucial for healing. If we just condemn people and lock them away, out of sight and out of mind, do we believe the problem just goes away? Of course this is not the case, more abuse is shown, more abuse is happening, and more extreme actions are taken because the message of what these types of actions are showing in our reality is that those who are abusing others need to be re-aligned to life. We need to walk correction processes with these people, we need to create solutions for the problems of this world that'll last, we need to start understanding and standing as supports for those who have made mistakes in life and are ready to correct themselves.

Though the key here that each one has to realize for themselves is we each have to take responsibility for our own mistakes and find the will to walk the correction process ourselves for ourselves, and those who are willing to support themselves will be given support by the very nature that they are showing they care for themselves. Give life to yourself and you are given it in turn, it’s the nature of life.  Life supports life. So we as humanity are at the stage were we are in the process of becoming aware at how fucked up we are, what we are creating within this world is the reflection of who we are within ourselves, and those who are willing will be the one’s who stand as the examples for those who come after of how to walk the correction process back to life. This is what desteni is about, realizing that the correction process is here to stop the abuse of life as we stop the abuse of ourselves, and then live this in our world. This will require patience and perseverance because this will be a real time process walking step by step, the change has to be physical and the change has to be proven through time with consistency and cross-referencing, though as more walk the path this will become easier for those who follow as mistakes will be learned from and shared with others and so avoid as this is the principle of efficiency through time.

So as we give to ourselves and start the correction process of who have become as abuse through self forgiveness and self correction in writing and living, we then become capable of helping those who can not as of yet help themselves. There is a specific alignment that is occurring and will resonant throughout yourself, your life and the lives of those you touch, it may not be seen at first, but through time the evidence will start to show as the physical integration starts to take place. Obviously, we as humanity realize that the physical abuse of any living being is unacceptable and we all require to forgive ourselves for our own abuses and correct into a new way of living that is best for all. So it will be a process, one that is not linear nor clear at times, though it will be able to be understood and walked if one is willing. So it comes down to who I am within this life and what I will accept and allow, and so that will determine everything, self honesty is the path to freedom as this is the birthing of self truth in what is real, as self walks the path of self honesty, the road becomes clearer and clearer and the abuse starts to transform into support, this is the process we all will face and have to make a decision, no one will be judged, we can only judge ourselves, who are we humans? How will we stand? 

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"What Comes Next?": The Next System - LIG – Day 454

I read an article tonight that was found on one of my feeds on facebook I am subscribed to and it was in relation to people discussing what will be next as a new system that will step forth once this broken system falls. And yes of course this system currently existing is going to fall because it’s made from abuse and devaluing the very principles that creates our life, life itself, which is equally valued within all things that exist thus we are actually destroying ourselves. This principle is an absolute point and I found it was a necessary point to realize and start to understand for myself because this will require a process of re-birth not only to be ready to walk a new system but also to walk a new self.

We as human beings see the destruction we have created on this planet, and we all, each and everyone of us has participated within the destruction of this world, we can see it in our actions in everyday life and most importantly in the way in which we think about life as our day to day existence. There is nothing fantastic or beautiful within what goes on in our thinking day to day, I can only speak for myself of course, though even walking this process for years, I can see how much my mind is influencing and creating myself as destructive and abusive. Now within this, I realize also that this part of who I am as the mind is in need of a complete and utter re-structuring of who I am as a being of life. Re-defining, word by word, step by step, with all the ups and downs this will take, what this is for myself and who I am within it.

Time for practical purposes is a cool form of measure to have a gauge for ourselves in what is needed to be done and at what intensity/focus/speed.  I mean for instance, like the article I recently read where 6000 acres of old growth forest was going to be sold and decimated for profit of a few, this would be an area were immediate action is needing to be taken, now there is groups and activists that’ll protest and push back which is a band-aid solution and obviously not enough. This because the very fact that we want to destroy the very physical living existence that is allowing us to breath is really the insane part as it makes completely no sense. We kill the trees, we kill our breath of life. We kill ourselves in both instances equal and one, so see this makes no sense. And so what is needed along with these priority points that are occurring in physical reality, there is many critical ones at the moment, but along with this physical point of solutions we need to walk as a new system, we also have to create a new system to operate within ourselves. A new self system that is re-programmed to be that all actions be what is best for all and this is walked through tools that many at this time are walking and have been walking for years.

 

There is a free course designed to support with anyone ready to embark in taking this venture into re-programming self’s operating system to be best for all, and it’s all done in a very wholesome and self determined way. Each one has to decide for themselves and walk this, though there is a network of support within this group walking this as well that will be able and willing to support as we have been supported as well.

We as the desteni group have already started to look at solution oriented ways to support the change necessary for a new system as well as a new way of life. This is being walked in the Living Income Guarantee proposals set forth by the Equal Life foundation, it’s a setting off point with specific policies in place to help understand and become aware of what a new system that will be based on what is best for all look like. We propose a living income for all those in need of it to allow all access to decency in life and a stable environment to live with family and community through funding allocated to support this. We propose ways and means for job creation that will support with building the infrastructure and details that’ll be needed to create a symmetric and well functioning society that allows ease of movement as well as freedom to express oneself. There will be so much to create, design, and re-form, though there is already plenty of ideas and concepts and creations out there that will support and facilitate the growth of a new system that is more designed for the betterment of all. This is lived within principles that are visibly seen day in and day out through and by we as humans living them equal and one to life here. We are the solutions we wish to see in this world, we must be educated, grounded, practically oriented, and solution

oriented in what is best for all through self honest self direction if we want to see a new system in fact emerge. And as the saying goes the old must go for the new to emerge.

This will be a process though it takes but a step to move things forward, let’s stay consistent, self disciplined, and self lived to live, breath, and remain what is best for all life always.

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Starting to Investigate My Relationship with People – Day 420

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My relationship with people over the years has been shaky at best, I have always had a feeling of separation with others, I always felt that I had to get into a certain state within myself to be around people, like it took energy and effort to be with others, it was not easy and only enjoyable once I found my place. I always was looking for my place, I was always in fear of where to find it, how to get there, if I was going to be accepted, and would it last. So there was a lot of factors I was creating to even approach people and figure out how to continue to stay with them and how in fact was I able to do that. Because there was no manual on how to be friends with or exist with other humans, it was all kind of just there when I came of age and realized that being with other humans was not a walk in the park, it was going to take dedication and effort to make it work.

So the issue I was having over the years of not wanting to be with others was when I was bullied in school, and found out that not everyone likes me, not everyone is friendly, and this world isn’t so nice and great as I believed it was as a child being rather innocent to the harshness that is existent here. I started to develop fears about my body image and what I had and didn’t have compared to other kids. I started to realize that money was important and that buying the things to keep up with the other people I knew was needed to be able to continue to play in the social games of making it with groups. So once I started being bullied, I suppressed myself quite a lot, I would not do or say anything to instigate those that were calling me names as the emotional feelings within this were extreme. I can see and will be opening up the construct of being a bully and being bullied as a play out of the way in which we have designed our world and designed our relationships with each other based on the belief that this is what it takes to survive and this is how human nature is and this is how it’s always been. How existing within starting points such as these is in a way giving up on oneself and life to live in a way that is more abusive and existing within self interest alone that has been consequential as we see with the world and our relationships within it from children up into the world system., nothing really changes, just the dynamics and contexts do, we are still bullying each other and creating conflict with no real effort and dedication to find solutions.

So I was starting to develop my mind through what I valued within others based on things such as beauty, wealth, and personality and I myself started to based who I was on comparing and competing with others through these ideas of value I had created. This then created more and more separation with people in my world, being this way where I am basing who I am on very superficial ideas was not very fulfilling, I started to more and more dislike being around people and having to keep up these appearances and ideas of myself that in reality did not match. Over time my paranoia increased on how others thought, judged, and/or perceived me, I started to more and more alienate myself from meeting new people and pushing myself more and more in the belief that all people are fuck ups and I can not trust anyone.

I realized though overtime and through the desteni process that I engaged in some years ago that I have created the state in which I am existing within in this moment, I thought the thoughts, I created the beliefs, I judge myself and others, I abused and created competition with others, I am responsible for the way I have designed and created myself in this moment. I can not point fingers at any other person, place, or thing because in the end this is disempowering myself to ever create the change that I am capable of to become a human being that is trustworthy and self directed. Not living off of needs or wants, but through principles that support life and so will always support me by implementing and solidifying them through my living over time proven through time in the physical. Each one has to find the will and forgive themselves for who we have become and what we have done in the past, and again embrace each other and support each other as we have done for ourselves. Humbleness is key for such an endeavor of self purification and supporting life in this way.

So for the next blogs to come I want to investigate and understand more of who I am in communication and relationship with others, and how I can live the words humbleness and friendliness in a way that supports myself and others to become the best we can be.

More to come in my next blogs, thanks for reading.

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