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Sunday, December 8, 2013

The Mind is to Blame - Day 359

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the mind is the problem and the reason why I am the way I am with my experiences of myself being misaligned and extreme at times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the mind for the way my life is and the way I experience myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that I am not in fact doing the potential I am capable of within my living expression in terms day to day living and blame the mind for this, when I realize the mind is simply a part of me that I have created and that I have to take responsibility for and direct it into what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for myself and what I have created within and as my living day to day over the course of my life and blame it on the mind as a point of not having to face what I indeed have created for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the mind within a point of an evildoer and an enemy and see that I have to battle against it and look at it within a polarity of weak and strong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within relation to my mind as seeing myself weak to it and so ignoring the fact that I am in fact creating it each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push myself to slow down and stop the reactions because I justify within myself that it’s too hard and the mind is too much when in fact I am not willing myself enough based on desiring to go into the energy and release it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate who I am in my reality as an abuser and hurting others and myself within the belief that the mind is too strong and overwhelming when in reality it is me who is not willing to stop and not willing to let go of the beliefs and thoughts that I believe are right/justified to continue my compromised living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be right in my world and so will hold onto this desire and blame the mind for being too strong to let go of and stop, when I realize I am the one continuing to participate in it even when I see where it will lead and that I indeed have the decision to stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the mind is telling me and creating me to be the way I experience myself as inferior and less then others, when in reality I am thinking and participating and accepting these thoughts and so create this experience of myself as such, the mind is not directing this within and as me, I am, by participating within it and believing it is true.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what is coming up in my mind is the truth of the situation and abdicate my stand within the mind because I desire to be in energy and have the easy way out rather then walk the process of the physical in slowing down, walking step by step, and stopping until it is done no matter how long it takes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the mind has control over me and I am powerless to do anything about it, when in reality I realize it is just a matter of me making a decision, breathing in each moment to slow myself down, and walking the process of disengaging/letting go and stopping until I have transcended the point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire the easy way out and give up in the face of the mind experiences and energy, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to stop my participation in the mind in abuse and separation in each moment that I live the belief that I am not able to, when in reality I am able to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the thought and so living of myself of ‘I am not able to’.

When and as I see I am going into a point of blaming the mind for the way I am experiencing myself or the way of my external reality is, I stop and breath, and realize that this is not in fact real as I am the one participating and creating my mind and the way I am existing within and without based on what I am participating in, and so I realize I have the opportunity to change in each moment, it is in fact my decision and my decision alone who I am in each moment.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to blame the mind and move me into physical reality in making decisions in common sense assessment of what will be best in the moment for all involved.

I commit myself to when and if I do go into a point of blame, investigate it and walk a correction process so I can see what is the correct way and so I live it.

I commit myself to stop participating in the thoughts that create the blame scenario when it is triggered through reaction.

And so I commit to stop the reactions by becoming self aware in each moment and the trigger points that create the reactions, to take my self directive back and make a decision to live differently and so live the change necessary to align to the physical in equality.

When and as I see I am going into a point of self disempowerment, I stop and breath, and realize that this is a decision I am making and it is based on a point where I do not want to walk the point I will have to walk to change myself to do what is best and makes sense.

I commit myself to breath and move through the points where I see I want to give up or give in to the mind, through walking a step by step process of my decision in each moment to correct it and push through the point until I am stable and move self directed naturally.

I commit myself to in each moment become aware if a point of change is needed and walk the decision to change and stand in my own self direction and so build self trust.

I commit myself to stop giving up to the mind in thoughts and beliefs by stopping participation in these thoughts and beliefs through breathing.

I commit myself to speak self commitment statements in real time through also speaking self forgiveness in real time to move within the moment in breath and make the decision to change myself and face what is here and walk it to a solution.

I commit myself to face myself in each moment I become aware of an opportunity to walk self forgiveness and self change, I move myself and commit myself to walk the change needed to do what is best and change myself to stand in my own directive principle.

Thursday, December 5, 2013

What Have I learned so Far about the Mind? Day 358

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For a long time I was seeing the mind as the problem, the enemy, the evil doer within the creation and consequence we have become within this world and reality as the human being and so myself. I wanted within this process to put the blame onto the mind, it is the one creating all this consequence that we are seeing day in and day out as the mental state and processes that create the way in which we live in this world, come on, ‘I am the victim within all of this because I didn’t know any of this was happening, I didn’t personally do any of this, I wasn’t a part of creating this mess’. Really? I realize and see though now that I have walked through this point and applied self honesty within it, that this world, the abuses, my life, and the mind is my creation, I indirectly or directly accepted and allowed it to be and continue the way it has. And in my personal experience, I alone have created and accepted the current way I am experiencing my physical body and my self experience.

The mind is not to blame just like no being is to blame for the way I am living and experiencing myself, so this realization is a great tool I have been given and gifting to myself to bring the point through that I am responsible for everything, starting with my life and eventually moving to the greater of life here on earth. If I continue to blame the mind and be spiteful, I will miss myself within it and so miss my opportunity to change myself to really be able to direct the mind to a way in which I created through self awareness and directing myself to this outcome because the mind in and of itself is a guide for us humans who dare walk to the physical, to life, to birth ourselves as life as the physical, the mind is a gift of immense support and assistances in walking this process to be life in equality and oneness with everything that exist.

What I have realized is that because of my abdication to the mind and the feeling experiences it generated for me and I desired to experience in my life, I allowed the mind to take me where it did without question as I allowed the distractions it used such as excitement or feeling good about myself to go unchecked and thus it ran amuck. When you allow the imbalance of oneself go unchecked within points that is creating unwanted consequences, you realize eventually it will end bad and will not in all probability be a outcome you will benefit from.

So I am starting to see within my process that the mind is actually a gift because it is showing me in a real life day to day walk with and as it where I am ‘weak’ and need to strengthen my resolve through showing me how I separate and abuse myself and others. And self forgiveness and self correction is the icing on the cake so to speak because these tools allow you the opportunity to change and direct yourself through taking responsibility and create an outcome of benefit and balance. The mind is a tool and is a part of each one, but it’s not without responsibility, we can no more allow the abdication of ourselves as this belief that we are ‘lesser beings’ or ‘we don’t know any better’ or ‘it’s justhuman nature to destroy and abuse’ because it’s simply not the truth, we can see and do realize what we are doing in these moments of self abuse and abuse of others, we understand that there is a decision within the split moment before we act, but we give in to the minds energies and re-act to what’s happening rather then take action and direct the situation into a solution.

So it’s all here I have realized, there is really no excuses, I am now grateful after walking the understanding and realizations that I had just wrote to give myself and so this world the opportunity as part of being life to change and stand as a principled being just like nature, the animal kingdom, and create myself to be a being that can be trusted and so help create the solution that is so needed in this world to change for the betterment of all. I suggest to listen to the animal series on eqafe to understand this principled living they are standing as as a being that is one and equal to all life in fact in the physical living of themselves and all together in this physical existence. We must use these messages as gifts and learn from them, so we can understand and so change ourselves to be able to live in harmony with each other and not only that but with ourselves, and change this world to be a place of support and living beauty where all are enjoying and we are living to our fullest potential in each of our own unique self expressions.

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Constant States of Belief is Not Life - Day 352

Please read this blog for context:
Existing within a Constant Belief – Why? – Day 351

Living in a constant belief about myself that I am inferior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a belief which is something not based on facts determine who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to engage in my mind as creating who I am through imaginations that are based in polarities of 'if this then that' scenarios, where in fact what is relevant is the reality in how and from which I am living in and supporting myself and what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus through these beliefs I hold of myself as less then others will create an energy of fear as it get's activated through the mind and effects the body in which I will react through anxiety and tension when I am in the presences of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear and anxiety to others based on believing that the energy I am feeling that is creating tension in my body is real and who I am, when I realize that it is being activated through the mind as thoughts that I am participating within such as 'I am so ugly today' or 'man, I am such an idiot for saying that', thus giving the permission or instruction of the mind which has pre-programmed these thoughts to come through and because I have accepted these thoughts as myself by participating in them, I have made them real and thus made the energy activation that is triggered like a machine mechanism through the thought in the system that is the mind, it activates the fear and anxiety energy which I believe is who I am, but it's not who I am, it's actually just different frequencies of energy and energy is not life as it dies or ends.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that energy as fear and anxiety and thoughts such as 'i am so ugly' and 'i am such an idiot for saying that' is who I am, as I realize that I am not defined in a moment of a spoken word or an image in the mirror or the frequency of energy, but am always here within my physical body always existing and thus can not be defined nor limited within these conditions as this is not what life is and because the physical is life as it is where I exist, I realize the physical is the trustworthy point and the mind is the illusion as thoughts, emotions, feelings, and imaginations and so is not trustworthy as it's not fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question these beliefs about myself or thoughts or ideas about myself that come up in my mind, when in reality this is not the case in many cases, that I am not limited to just one definition, but I am everything that exists, and so I realize what determines who I am is how I live my life not what I think in my mind or believe to be true, it is what in fact is true, what in fact I do in my life breath by breath, day after day, what will matter is my accumulation of my living word and action.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within beliefs, ideas, imaginations, and thoughts about myself or about others in this world based on the feelings I get for a moment of rushes and highs and ego boosts, but realizing that these are just a moment and they end, and if I really have a look at what these energies are doing to my physical body, it is quite painful and achy and feeling quite unnatural.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within my mind and not consider my physical body and what it is going through as energies that I am existing within and what these energies are actually doing to the physical body as pains and discomforts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe beliefs, ideas, thoughts, and emotions/feelings within my mind and thus activate it as permission given into my physical body and physical reality and have not stood up and said stop, no more for most of my existence.

When and as I go into a point of belief or idea or imagination about what is here, I stop and breath, and realize that this is the mind taking over and me allowing it, and so I realize I become powerless within this action as my living because I have given my power away to the mind by believing what it is telling me is real, when what is real is reality, life here as my physical body and through my physical word and action, and how I live my life in support of what is best for all.

I commit myself to slow down and get into the physical body through breathing and self awareness and support it in the best way as I would want for myself in common sense.

I commit myself to let go of all beliefs of myself and walk facts, reality, and what is best for all.

I commit myself to identify my self beliefs, and walk the correction through self forgiveness and living the correction.

I commit myself to let go of the desire for energy to feel good as it also creates the opposite and so I am not here but in energy games through the mind.

I commit to accept myself and accept all that is here as me and correct that which is not aligned with reality as facts and living for what is best for all.

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Friday, October 11, 2013

Existing within a Constant Belief – Why? – Day 351

Here, I would like to open up the point of being possessed about a belief that I have had within myself of being inferior to others due to the way I look for many, many years now. This belief being validated over and over again by my continuing it in my thoughts, words, and actions, but in reality this belief is not real because all life is in it's essence equal. Why is all life equal in fact, in it's essence, because we are all physical and the physical reality is what gives us life. Now, this belief, that I am inferior, really started to effect me during middle school where I started to desire to be 'pretty' because I saw how now I like boys, and my friends where talking about boys, so there was this awareness and competition starting to develop among the girls towards the guys in my grade.

Before middle school, in elementary and even younger, there was a form of freedom within my expression, I was not aware or considered the point beauty or wanting to look a certain way, I never really considered myself through others peoples eyes either in terms of being beautiful or ugly as the polarity play’s out within this pattern of the beauty system. I was quite wild actually as a child, often wanting to be like the boys in my neighborhood with my shirt off, short hair, climbing trees, playing in the dirt, and just wanting to enjoy myself.

But once I become more aware of myself and others in relation to the relationship between money, popularity, looks, skills, and the underlying competition brewing within me towards other females, I can see now how the human being starts to devolve from this innocence’s as a child, care-free, self accepting, and open to an adult who judges, fears, and becomes quite ruthless through competitive behaviors to survive. So I would say was more of an easy target for the stronger kids around me because I was more shy and reserved, and when I was picked on, I didn't fight back. I found that once you allow someone to abuse you and you don’t take responsibility to stand up and defend yourself, and say ‘No, I don’t allow you to abuse me' and thus stop the abuse through common sense, you are in a way accepting and thus allowing the abuse, and so it’s like an invite for those prone to abuse, to thus abuse.

The abusers as well, they are also being ‘abused’ in a way because they are having no resistance to realizing what they are doing and the effect they are having on others, and so they are just doing what they ‘where taught’ or ‘know how to do’ or 'observed' and so following their minds completely, being lost within ego or superiority, not seeing the harm in reality that they are in fact doing. If you have a look at how your mind thinks, it's based on imaginations, future or past events, and so when in reality, we are never really here, but in our minds in someplace existing within whatever preferenced way of living the person is believing themselves to exist as, and for me it was a belief that I am just not as good as some people.

This pattern of allowing abuse and so being abused, created this belief and so it was actually over and over again within my mind and within the way I lived was being validated that I am weak, I am inferior, I am less then others, I am these things that these kids are saying to me, but in reality none of these things are actually true. I am just ‘BELIEVING’ them to be true, and have a look, a belief is not in fact true because it’s not based on actual facts, it’s based on the perception of your interpretation of the facts that you are viewing and computing through your mind because you are not directing each and every thought in full awareness, but allowing things that pop up into the mind such as a picture or a memory or an thought as real when it's the mind actually creating it in that moment, and if we are not actually creating these mind components in awareness, how can we trust what is going through our mind and follow it so absolutely?

So an important thing that I have noticed is to work with reality and reality can be assessed through seeing things physically, direct, and practically, you can look at words, and find the direct purposes of individual words, and so we can come to universal agreements on the meaning of words that is clear, understood, and practically direct to the physical purpose of what the word represents in reality. So this is a cool and interesting process to start to walk, seeing directly physically, what words actually mean in direct reality through practical assessment bypassing the mind interpretation, and the tools to support with this is found at DIP Lite.

Existing in this constant belief that I am less then others has created me to compromise my effectiveness in reality to be direct, to live practical, and to live in common sense because I am more in my mind then actually here in physical reality, and it's kind of strange to see it this way because we are in fact here. But if you start to become more aware of your thoughts, your emotions, the images in your mind, and how we follow them without question even in the face of abuse or suffering to another in reality, we still will follow it. I have started my process to live direct, to live physical as this blog shows, and you can to by investigate the links below to see how you really are and the potential that exist with human beings living in reality, direct, and in common sense.

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Thursday, October 10, 2013

Lingering Thoughts that Create Abuse – Day 350

Please reference this blog for context:

The Linger Trouble that Won’t Quit – What does this Imply? – Day 349

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to believe that within myself I need a particular outcome to move me rather then moving myself in the direction that is necessary to create a solution in
my reality to create the best outcome possible that will support all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to instead of taking responsibility for myself and changing the pattern that is required to become a person who is self directive, I instead go into a blame pattern towards another and so create a justification for my abuse in reality towards another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate energy within me in my mind of another in blame and allow myself to continue participating within this blame throughout the day by continuing in the thought patterns.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue to loop within a thought pattern of blame and anger energy towards another person because it release pressure within myself and so am
able to release this pressure on another in the anger outburst that I realize will become more of a consequence then necessary and thus I realize I am actually addicted to it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to be addicted to the energy of anger and fighting with others and getting my way, instead of releasing this point through stopping my participation in
these lingering thoughts, moving myself in the physical, and directing myself to solutions in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify staying in these lingering patterns of abuse through the belief that I have a right to be angry, when this right is not in fact valid or real as I am not looking at the truth of the matter, but only my self interest to be right and to at the end of the day get my way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to get my own way met instead of realizing this creates friction in my world cycling through the same conflict over and over again, and me accepting this because I gain energy through my ego desire to be right and win.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse another based on the fact of me desiring to be right and get my way, and so create energy as anger within me through accepting these lingering thoughts, and cause more of an abusive consequences through my actions and my words that will have ripple effects that I can not conceive in this moment, but all are abusive and cause separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to only think of myself and my own desires being met to feel good, and so disregard the rest of my environment as well as the all that will be effected through suffering and abuse by me only considering how I feel and not care about the rest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ignorant and defiant within my stand of being right with another, and so not hear what is being said and just fight for my own way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the mind and not consider reality and what will be best suited to create the outcome that will benefit all in this physical real existence not in my illusion made up world as my mind reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow ignorance and so the abuse of all life around me and not follow the life principles of what is real and effecting everyone and that is living one
and equal.

When and as I see that I am accepting and allowing ignorance within linger thought patterns without directing them by stopping them in breath, I stop and breath, and realize the consequence of these actions are
already known, I realize abuse through my own actions will occur and I will fight for my own self interest and thus only exist in survival and separation as this is what I am creating through my living.

I commit myself to breath through these desires to go into thinking patterns and staying in the mind where I don’t have to move.

I commit myself to walk physical reality, move myself when I see the thoughts start to come, and stop participation through becoming physical.

I commit myself to breath and immediately correct myself when I see that I am starting to go in the mind in lingering in imagination and thoughts, by saying no I move here, and get up and move myself.

I commit myself to the four count breath to stop the desire to get my way and fall into the mind as an energy addiction.

Saturday, October 5, 2013

The Linger Trouble that Won’t Quit – What does this Imply? – Day 349

Digging deeper within the point of my relationship to myself of stopping myself from going into compromising actions or compromising words that will cause an unnecessary abusive consequence is something I am slowly, but surely realizing I must do and have been accumulating my resolve to live in this way throughout the years that I have been walking this process at desteni. I am finding now that I have to find the origin points of these consistent patterns that keep emerging, and it’s like a cyclical point of going into an energy experience, one day being ok, normal, and fine, and then next day or two or three going into a possession of something that has been milling about in my mind over and over again, like lingering not going away. One of the main points recently of this lingering thought pattern has been towards a specific person and though after self forgiveness and self commitments where put in place by myself and I start to integrate the self correction in my living, I still react to this person when I see them. To put it in other words the self correction action was just not working and it's like a lingering experience I am feeling within myself that just will not go away towards this specific person.

The point that this has currently happened was based on a point of someone owing me money, and this money was overdue. So I have in the past done self forgiveness on this person as well as did self forgiveness on this pattern of thinking and the points that I could see that where relevant as well as I applied myself in stopping the patterns, but again the energies would not go away and the thoughts just kept coming. So this energy through allowing the thoughts to continue without any resolution, the energy got to a point where when I saw the person in real life, I would react to her and cause an outburst to get my energy that had now accumulated of anger and irritation towards her released as it was quite built up.

This is the cycle of the mind happening here, where the mind will keep thoughts cycling like a lingering sensation, it’s not particularly strong, but the thoughts are there in the background, hovering, floating through, and every once and a while a few thoughts will pop through to the forefront and I react to them, and then as this same pattern keeps happening throughout my day, I eventually will have an outburst towards her because I had been being annoyed all day with these thoughts about how she owes me this and she is so irresponsible and she is so selfish. The mind is good at using our own weaknesses against us as here where I accepted myself to go into this accumulation of thought patterns about this person that was not in fact real by allowing them to continue. So the point I had missed through help of another I have found is the point of not looking behind the lingering thoughts, behind the hovering energy experiences, and seeing what was the original reaction point that is causing these thoughts and energies to be here, and did I forgive them yet? And the answer is no, I haven’t yet, and I did indeed see an original reaction point before to the point I am looking at here.

So the original point was a phone agreement that I had with this specific person, and I didn’t want her to join it because of this specific person is notoriously known for not paying people on time, but I felt bad for her because it would be cheaper for her, and so I allowed her to come on to the plan. But within this allowance, I reacted extensively in blame towards her and did not go into the agreement unconditionally allowing it to be what it was. I already in my mind went into anger towards her and created a resistance towards her for not in the future going to pay me back on time. This accumulating to this point now where the mind just took this and create all sorts of thoughts, ideas, emotions, and I allowed it to direct me, and so now when I see her I have extensive resistance towards her because I am not here clear with her in the physical, but reacting in my mind to points that have not been sorted within myself from the past that are replaying without proper self direction.

So I am finding it’s important to not only look at the moment of reaction when it happens, but to look beyond that moment, and find the origin point of when in fact this whole reaction of this person took place. When did these reactions start because I not only have to forgive what is coming up in this moment that I am reacting to, but all of the points within the timeline of events that I reacted to. This to clear the energy that I have created in such moments and obviously not directing this energy, it will go it's own way in what it was programmed to do through and by the mind as consciousness.

So the point I missed that would have avoided this whole play out of reaction and abuse towards this person is if I in the moment of the agreement of the phone plan was to stick to what the common sense of the moment was showing me, and that was to not allow her on the plan due to her record of not paying her bills on time. This is the point that I have been reacting to the whole time, and if the reality shows that it's not a practical point to pursue, then it's best to heed the reality of the situation rather then allow your mind to tell you how to go about it because the mind is made from illusion as thoughts, ideas, and beliefs, and you can't trust that. Trusting the reality of things is the best course of action I have found, and living self honest and in common sense is the best direction I can give myself to support me and others in the best way possible.

More to follow with self forgiveness and self correction on these points, thanks.