Living Self Courage – Forgiving the Fear of My Mind – Day 428

Artist: Andrew Gable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become afraid of my own thoughts I am thinking and react in shame based on the context of the thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others will judge me for the thoughts that I think.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my own mind and the thoughts that I think, realize, seeing, and understanding that the thoughts are not who I really am and I have the power to stop them, but I can not deny them as I am the one participating in them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see my mind as demented and become ashamed at how I have been existing within my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to become shameful for what goes on in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am alone within how I am experiencing my mind and that I am bad for thinking in such ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that there is something wrong with me for the way in which I think about my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mind determines and defines who I am and that within my belief about myself, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to believe that I am less then others because of the way in which I have judged my own mind as bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within my own mind in a way where I fear certain parts of it and believe that I can’t move beyond these fears and mind points.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can’t move beyond my limitations I have believed to be true as me having something wrong with me and that I can’t move beyond this belief of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive this relationship of having something wrong with me based on the way in which my external body looks and memories I have held onto of me as real to define who I am in this moment here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my self when I say in my mind that I am less then others and that looks matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am is based on the belief that I am a less then capable being and that I am not good enough to make it out of my mind and into physical living here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist looking and facing my mind because I knew I would have to face instances that would make me uncomfortable and question myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing myself in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am is based on the beliefs I hold about myself in my mind rather then questioning these beliefs and seeing who I in fact am within my physical living in this moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking about my judgments I have about myself for fear of being weakened in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can become weakened in the physical based on sharing myself in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others and so create the belief that some are weak and some are strong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mind is more powerful then me and I can’t walk and let go of my fears when I realize it takes only my self will, I can decide in each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being misunderstood and so judged harshly for this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged in anyway by others.

I forgive myself that I haven’t yet accepted and allowed myself to see that I am the only one judging myself and so holding myself in these judgments until I release myself and stop judging myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto these judgments so I don’t have to face these fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto judgments so I can continue to get happy energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to have energy to feel good.

When and as I see I am going into a point of judging my mind and going into resistances to look at a point or points within what is coming up in moments within my mind, I stop and breath, and realize that going into resistance is only disempowering me to do anything about the thoughts and or my mind patterns coming up, and so I realize I have to accept myself as my mind, look at it in common sense and self honesty, and stop taking it personal.

I commit myself to stop fear and see directly what is here through breathing and slowing down in the moment to expand myself within what is here.

I commit myself to breath and let go of all resistances to look and investigate my mind and what is coming up within it.

I commit myself to breath and let go any point of judgment or comparison I have towards my mind or my world as I realize this is disempowering me to change.

I commit myself to face my mind in every moment it comes up and move myself to walk the change that is necessary to align with life and live what is best for all.

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The Mind is to Blame - Day 359

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the mind is the problem and the reason why I am the way I am with my experiences of myself being misaligned and extreme at times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the mind for the way my life is and the way I experience myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that I am not in fact doing the potential I am capable of within my living expression in terms day to day living and blame the mind for this, when I realize the mind is simply a part of me that I have created and that I have to take responsibility for and direct it into what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for myself and what I have created within and as my living day to day over the course of my life and blame it on the mind as a point of not having to face what I indeed have created for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the mind within a point of an evildoer and an enemy and see that I have to battle against it and look at it within a polarity of weak and strong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within relation to my mind as seeing myself weak to it and so ignoring the fact that I am in fact creating it each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push myself to slow down and stop the reactions because I justify within myself that it’s too hard and the mind is too much when in fact I am not willing myself enough based on desiring to go into the energy and release it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate who I am in my reality as an abuser and hurting others and myself within the belief that the mind is too strong and overwhelming when in reality it is me who is not willing to stop and not willing to let go of the beliefs and thoughts that I believe are right/justified to continue my compromised living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be right in my world and so will hold onto this desire and blame the mind for being too strong to let go of and stop, when I realize I am the one continuing to participate in it even when I see where it will lead and that I indeed have the decision to stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the mind is telling me and creating me to be the way I experience myself as inferior and less then others, when in reality I am thinking and participating and accepting these thoughts and so create this experience of myself as such, the mind is not directing this within and as me, I am, by participating within it and believing it is true.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what is coming up in my mind is the truth of the situation and abdicate my stand within the mind because I desire to be in energy and have the easy way out rather then walk the process of the physical in slowing down, walking step by step, and stopping until it is done no matter how long it takes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the mind has control over me and I am powerless to do anything about it, when in reality I realize it is just a matter of me making a decision, breathing in each moment to slow myself down, and walking the process of disengaging/letting go and stopping until I have transcended the point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire the easy way out and give up in the face of the mind experiences and energy, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to stop my participation in the mind in abuse and separation in each moment that I live the belief that I am not able to, when in reality I am able to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the thought and so living of myself of ‘I am not able to’.

When and as I see I am going into a point of blaming the mind for the way I am experiencing myself or the way of my external reality is, I stop and breath, and realize that this is not in fact real as I am the one participating and creating my mind and the way I am existing within and without based on what I am participating in, and so I realize I have the opportunity to change in each moment, it is in fact my decision and my decision alone who I am in each moment.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to blame the mind and move me into physical reality in making decisions in common sense assessment of what will be best in the moment for all involved.

I commit myself to when and if I do go into a point of blame, investigate it and walk a correction process so I can see what is the correct way and so I live it.

I commit myself to stop participating in the thoughts that create the blame scenario when it is triggered through reaction.

And so I commit to stop the reactions by becoming self aware in each moment and the trigger points that create the reactions, to take my self directive back and make a decision to live differently and so live the change necessary to align to the physical in equality.

When and as I see I am going into a point of self disempowerment, I stop and breath, and realize that this is a decision I am making and it is based on a point where I do not want to walk the point I will have to walk to change myself to do what is best and makes sense.

I commit myself to breath and move through the points where I see I want to give up or give in to the mind, through walking a step by step process of my decision in each moment to correct it and push through the point until I am stable and move self directed naturally.

I commit myself to in each moment become aware if a point of change is needed and walk the decision to change and stand in my own self direction and so build self trust.

I commit myself to stop giving up to the mind in thoughts and beliefs by stopping participation in these thoughts and beliefs through breathing.

I commit myself to speak self commitment statements in real time through also speaking self forgiveness in real time to move within the moment in breath and make the decision to change myself and face what is here and walk it to a solution.

I commit myself to face myself in each moment I become aware of an opportunity to walk self forgiveness and self change, I move myself and commit myself to walk the change needed to do what is best and change myself to stand in my own directive principle.

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What Have I learned so Far about the Mind? Day 358

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For a long time I was seeing the mind as the problem, the enemy, the evil doer within the creation and consequence we have become within this world and reality as the human being and so myself. I wanted within this process to put the blame onto the mind, it is the one creating all this consequence that we are seeing day in and day out as the mental state and processes that create the way in which we live in this world, come on, ‘I am the victim within all of this because I didn’t know any of this was happening, I didn’t personally do any of this, I wasn’t a part of creating this mess’. Really? I realize and see though now that I have walked through this point and applied self honesty within it, that this world, the abuses, my life, and the mind is my creation, I indirectly or directly accepted and allowed it to be and continue the way it has. And in my personal experience, I alone have created and accepted the current way I am experiencing my physical body and my self experience.

The mind is not to blame just like no being is to blame for the way I am living and experiencing myself, so this realization is a great tool I have been given and gifting to myself to bring the point through that I am responsible for everything, starting with my life and eventually moving to the greater of life here on earth. If I continue to blame the mind and be spiteful, I will miss myself within it and so miss my opportunity to change myself to really be able to direct the mind to a way in which I created through self awareness and directing myself to this outcome because the mind in and of itself is a guide for us humans who dare walk to the physical, to life, to birth ourselves as life as the physical, the mind is a gift of immense support and assistances in walking this process to be life in equality and oneness with everything that exist.

What I have realized is that because of my abdication to the mind and the feeling experiences it generated for me and I desired to experience in my life, I allowed the mind to take me where it did without question as I allowed the distractions it used such as excitement or feeling good about myself to go unchecked and thus it ran amuck. When you allow the imbalance of oneself go unchecked within points that is creating unwanted consequences, you realize eventually it will end bad and will not in all probability be a outcome you will benefit from.

So I am starting to see within my process that the mind is actually a gift because it is showing me in a real life day to day walk with and as it where I am ‘weak’ and need to strengthen my resolve through showing me how I separate and abuse myself and others. And self forgiveness and self correction is the icing on the cake so to speak because these tools allow you the opportunity to change and direct yourself through taking responsibility and create an outcome of benefit and balance. The mind is a tool and is a part of each one, but it’s not without responsibility, we can no more allow the abdication of ourselves as this belief that we are ‘lesser beings’ or ‘we don’t know any better’ or ‘it’s justhuman nature to destroy and abuse’ because it’s simply not the truth, we can see and do realize what we are doing in these moments of self abuse and abuse of others, we understand that there is a decision within the split moment before we act, but we give in to the minds energies and re-act to what’s happening rather then take action and direct the situation into a solution.

So it’s all here I have realized, there is really no excuses, I am now grateful after walking the understanding and realizations that I had just wrote to give myself and so this world the opportunity as part of being life to change and stand as a principled being just like nature, the animal kingdom, and create myself to be a being that can be trusted and so help create the solution that is so needed in this world to change for the betterment of all. I suggest to listen to the animal series on eqafe to understand this principled living they are standing as as a being that is one and equal to all life in fact in the physical living of themselves and all together in this physical existence. We must use these messages as gifts and learn from them, so we can understand and so change ourselves to be able to live in harmony with each other and not only that but with ourselves, and change this world to be a place of support and living beauty where all are enjoying and we are living to our fullest potential in each of our own unique self expressions.

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Day 197 - Reaction Dimension – In the ‘Taking things personally” Personality

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Day 196- “Taking it Personal” Personality – Reaction Dimension – “Rudeness Demon”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to when being confronted within the point of being late, go into fear and thus inferiority, and within this go into competition, which activated the desire to become superior. I then went into the reaction of anger based on seeing her within a point of competition and thus seeing that I had to defeat her. I realize and understand that when I accept this point of competition and thus go into a point of desiring to win or be superior, I will activate the emotion of anger based on the belief that I have to go into battle.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of reaction of anger, I need to stop and breath, and thus do not accept myself to follow any more thoughts within polarities playouts, but remain stable and breath. Understanding that I have accessed a point of competition, and thus breathing through this desire to go in and create more conflict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in embarrassment based on this point of being confronted and being seen as doing something bad, and thus react in anger based on blaming the other for this embarrassment that was created when confronted. I realize and see that blame is not taking responsibility for my actions as becoming embarrassed, and thus no solution will be met, but only more conflict and instability within myself.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of embarrassment based on reacting to an external stimuli, I stop and breath, and say nothing until I am stable. Allow the point to settle down within, and do not accept myself to follow any points of reactions as these are what cause the conflict and instability within my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being embarrassed to being weak based on holding onto memories of being called out in school, and thus seeing myself as weak because I was called out on this by others. Accepting the embarrassment as a point of self enslavement seeing myself as weak and less then when I experienced this emotion come up as it was usually due to being picked on as a kid.

And thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto that memory of being out casted and picked on within that feeling of being embarrassed and thus immediately access anger towards whoever it is that activated that feeling. I realize and see though that it is just a memory stored within my physical of a point that happened in the past that does not define who I am, and so I am not defined nor have to direct myself based on this feeling of embarrassment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed blame towards another through the reaction of become angry towards them and thus cause abuse towards them based on me not wanting to face myself and accept the responsibility to stop participating in these emotions and beliefs as embarrassment makes me weak, and thus stop my self diminishment and self sabotage through accepting it and thus stopping particpation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as weak and thus link this to being embarrassed and so define myself as this now as if this is who I am, which I realize is not me and does not define who I am.

I commit myself to when and as I am faced with this feeling of embarrassment, let go of all the thoughts through breathing and thus become stable within myself before I do anything. I commit to stop all blame and thus all anger when this feeling come up by preventing it from going there through the breath and my self will to have it stop controlling me by stopping my participation in the thoughts and reactions of emotion through accept it as a point I have to face and thus have the ability then to stop it.

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Day 196- “Taking it Personal” Personality – Reaction Dimension – “Rudeness Demon”

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Here looking at the point of the reaction dimension within this point of the conflict situation with my co-worker in which I have been writing about all the different dimensions that opened up within this event in the latest series of blogs. I have found that when I accepted and allowed, the thought dimension and thus thebackchat dimension, and the fear dimensions, I automatically energized the physical reaction stage of my actions within this event that caused rudeness and compromised my relationship with her due to my behavior towards her. The thought dimension was the initial justifications of my reactions of rudeness towards her based on believing the thoughts that I had created in my head, but within this they were not based on reality and thus were not based on fact. So my justifications were invalid and thus only followed through on based on my self interest to be right.

This assumption of what is so and thus me following these assumptions for my own self interest of being right is causing me to be abusive and unstable within myself, and where does that lead me, it compromises my self stability based on the fact that I will create and thus accumulate more conflict based on just trying to win. And when in competition the other will have to lose, which cause instant friction and conflict, and thus cause instability within my world and thus myself

My reaction of rudeness was the outflow result of these different dimensions of fear, backchat to fuel this rudeness and haste within being with her, were I lashed on in anger and deliberately made her feel bad. I find I would have approached the situation different if I had not followed these thoughts, and thus just been here in breath. So will walk the self forgiveness and self commitments to correct this point, and thus stop myself from going into these reactions of abuse through prevention within my own self will.

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Day 195 –"Taking Things Personally" - Backchat Dimensions - Self Responsbility

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Day 194 - "Taking Things Personally" - Backchat Dimensions - It's Her Fault!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow within secret a thought about the girl who was confronting me about being late that ‘she is such a bitch’ using this judgment of her as negative to justify and validate my reactions of anger towards her through becoming aggressive within my thinking and my movements, and seeing her within competition, that I had to now prove her wrong, she is attacking me and causing me to feel bad about myself, so she must be stopped. I realize that this initial back chat thought of ‘she is a bitch’ helped fuel and activate the chain reaction of anger and aggression towards her in my behavior based on accepting myself to become the victim, and thus separating myself from the solution as her, understanding were she is coming from, understanding the reality of what is going on within the facts that are true, and thus coming to a solution within and as myself in taking responsibility for myself and my actions to do what is best for all and treat the other as myself because she is me.

I commit myself to when and as these initial backchat thoughts come of a judgment towards another as a point of competition in seeing it as a personal attack, I stop myself form going into those thoughts in secret by seeing them, not following them through using my breath and breathing through the energy of anger that was activated through the thought. I commit to walk my equality with others by pushing myself and commit to understanding the facts before I speak and make a decision, I stop rushing to judgment within assumption, by stopping these thoughts. I commit myself to stop the thoughts when they come by being physical and breathing through it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought that ‘I am only a few minutes late, it’s not my fault’, implying and thus living this point out of that is the fault of the other who is confronting me, by rushing to judgment and trying to prove her wrong within being late, actually going into a lie to make myself be right even if that means to be dishonest, if it would save my own self from having to face my fear of being in conflict, I would then lie then to get out of it.

So I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to lie about not knowing what time it was within myself even when I realize and knew that I was late, I still went and walked the steps to try and prove that she was wrong by checking the clock, and thus had to be proven within reality, the physical, to show me the truth. I realize and see that it doesn’t have to get to the point of the physical having to show me my consequence, but I can be the directive principle of myself and in the moment of being confronted, stop the fear, and thus take responsibility for my actions, and create a solution that will work best for both.

I commit myself to when and as I find myself desiring to lie for the sake of my own self interest, I stop and breath and do not accept myself to go into the point of self compromise and thus live it out in the physical where the physical had to show me what is true. I commit myself to walk the physical as an equal participant in the physical in what is best for all as I realize that is best for me, and so walk and face my consequences in my own self direction, and come to solutions within the conflict situations that occur to thus resolve them and stop the continuation of my abuse within allowing the backchats to direct me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to from the backchat thoughts allow and accept myself to go into anger and thus go into an attack mode towards the co worker in blaming her for the way I was feeling, and really hiding the fact that I was blaming her for making me face myself and my fear of being confronted and in conflict. I realize and understand that this fear is unnecessary as I realize that it is not a personal attack against me and really it’s just a point or an opportunity for a correction to be made. So I realize that it is to be grateful for this other to give myself the opportunity to face myself and realize that I am in dishonesty, and thus I require correction.

I commit myself to not allow the back chat thoughts to have power over me, and thus stop the point of activation of anger by breathing through all desires to go into them until they have stopped directing me. I commit myself to let go of the fear of conflict and facing people, and thus let go of the fear of being humiliated in a conflict. I stop making it about me and my own insecurities and push myself to accept myself here within how I am and walk a correction process of self understanding and self realization in self honesty, no judgment. I commit to stop judgment of others and myself and walk self acceptance by appreciating others, being grateful for who they are and what they show me of myself, and commit to treat others as my equal focusing on putting myself in the others shoe as it is me. I commit to always bring the point back to myself and stop allowing abuse, and become humble within myself in the appreciation that I am here.

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Day 194 - "Taking Things Personally" - Backchat Dimensions - It's Her Fault!

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Day 193 – “Taking Things Personal’ Personality – Fear Dimension Self Forgiveness in facing conflict

Looking at the next dimension of this 'talking things personal' personality and it is the Backchat dimensions, this within the previous post point of an event that opened up last week during work. I was confronted by a co worker about being late and thus making her late, and immediately I took it personally due to believing that I was being attacked, looking at it from within self interest rather then equality and oneness. Within taking this point personally, this is also indicating that I was in fear, which I previouslyspoke of, where I go into an attack mode, which I found it first starts in my thoughts. The back chat thoughts is the secret thoughts in the mind that come and are quite deceptive and nasty in nature usually being directed at another, and thus these thoughts are used to generate energy for the mind, which we eventually will act out in our worlds as abuse.

So within this initial point of being confronted about being late, my backchat was 'she is such a bitch, I am only a few minutes late, it's not my fault' and within this backchat, it is more a blame and self justification for my own self interest of not wanting to get yelled at by her and giving myself the most advantageous position as I will within these thoughts, will live out this blame and judgment of this lady through my physical behavior and actions eventually as being rude and unpleasant and thus not actually have to face myself and see that I am the one who is actually in the 'wrong'.

So it's for me to look at this point of accepting this backchat, which was based on my own self interest to make myself not have to face who I really am because I have this belief I am holding onto that 'I am better then others, thus I am right always'. These backchat thoughts were used by myself to generate the picture and energy to justify my position of self interest and make it 'seem' legitimate but in fact it was self dishonest. These thoughts being created to support my self interest and my dishonesty such as, 'she is not nice', 'she is so not easy going' 'she doesn't know how to tell time' 'it's her fault for not reading the clock right'. These being additional back chats that I continued to participate in while the initial backchat above was accepted within me and followed through my own participation. Allowing this continual thinking, it started to activate my emotional body which is how the mind was designed, and I started getting angry and thus I became the monster I had want to create as the other in my world, mirroring myself in the thoughts I am thinking about towards other, becoming unpleasant, very strict and stubburn in my thoughts of what was so, nasty in my assumptions, and mean in my physical behavior.

We really are what we think and so quickly we can become these demonic monsters by allowing these thoughts to accumulate by following them and then charging them up through becoming emotional about what we are thinking about and thus act this emotional state of illusion out in our environments Self honesty is key because this has become now, an automated systematic response produced by the mind through our participation as accepting, allowing, and continual participation in these back chat secret thoughts in our head. So here walking the disengagement of this systematic responses within and through my mind through self forgiveness, self investigation, self correction through and as my self honesty and thus stop all participation within each component of the mind, the thoughts, the reactions and the physical behaviors to really become equal as the physical and so be able to conduct always within the consideration of all that is here equal and one to myself.

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Day 193 – “Taking Things Personal’ Personality – Fear Dimension Self Forgiveness in facing conflict

For Further Perspective, you can check out relevant blogs:

Day 190 – Opening up an Event of Attack within The “Taking Things Personally” Personality
Day 191 – 'Taking things Personal' Personality – Thought Dimension - “She is Wrong”
Day 192 – ‘Taking Things Personal’ Personality– Fear Dimension – No Conflict!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself within myself due to fear of saying or doing the wrong thing and thus believing if I say or do the wrong thing, I will be vulnerable and thus be open for abuse. I realize and see within this suppression and thus fear of being vulnerable within going into a conflict situation, I am already making it a personal attack on myself and perceiving myself as inferior to the one I am in this conflict situation with, and thus will live this out within suppressing myself and go into conflict within myself and blame the other. So making it about winning and losing and not being direct and resolving what it is the conflict been triggered by.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of fear within a conflict situation, I stop and breath, and let go of this fear, let go of the desire to suppress myself, focus on what is being said to me and thus I commit myself to stop all points of personal feelings and emotions, and become direct within what has to be done to resolve the problem. Thus I commit myself to when and as a conflict arises to take responsibility for my actions, breath through all points of emotion and feeling, and come to a solution that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I am confronted by another in a conflict situation and fear being exposed within the belief that I will not be able to face the other within a good come back, this is moving my into self compromise and competition, and thus I will become anxious within myself due to believing I have to impress this being as I am now seeing it within a polarity of good/bad. I realize and see that when I go into this fear of being exposed as not intelligent, I will then go into a suppression and into blame due to the starting point of competition and I will try within myself to create myself back into the power position, and so go and diminish the other in my mind dimensions. This I realize is suppressing myself and my directive power in the physical to stop my self compromise and thus stop this abuse of others within separation within my mind dimensions and thus live it into the physical as rudeness.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of fear in being exposed as not intelligent I stop the fear within not giving any attention to it when it come up, focus on myself and the other as equals in the physical and stop the point of taking it as a personal attack by going into competition. I commit to walk the practical solutions of points that is best for all, and walk out of the point of judgment of myself by stopping thesethoughts that come up of unworthiness immediately through breath awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I am confronted by another, immediately take it personal and believe that I am in the wrong as I am always going to be inferior to these beings, and thus compromise myself direction by allowing myself to suppress my expression due to this belief that I must be wrong because I am not as worthy as these beings who are confronting me. I realize here though that it’s not about the point of worthy or unworthy as it’s not about me, but what it is that needs correction within the way I am living to be best for all.

I commit myself to stop taking things personally and peoples approaches towards me in a belief that I am and must be unworthy, so I commit to focus on the solutions, what I can do to create a more equal physical environment within where I am, who I am with, so we can have a balance and peace within society by working together and correcting what is not working. I commit to stop my emotions and feelings and live in the physical and do what is best for all in common sense physical practical living.


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