Day 165 - Vulnerability - Is a Weakness Self Correction Statements

I commit myself to disengage and let go of all memories of tv shows and movies that come up within my head as pictures of people who are weak, such as those with physical or mental ailments, and thus see them as vulnerable as was implied in these media outlets, and thus go into separation towards these people based on seeing them as this picture of weakness as vulnerability.

So I commit to stop allowing myself to follow thoughts as pictures and memories, as they don’t support life or others as life.

I commit myself to stop and breath when the desire comes up to exploit someone’s weakness and/or vulnerability point for my own gain.

I commit myself to stop seeing vulnerability as a weakness and thus see it as a point of gentleness within the other and thus accept myself to walk equally within that vulnerability so thus an intimacy can open up and comfortability can emerge.

I commit myself to stop defining life by weak or strong due to the correlation of their physical or mental abilities, and thus push myself to walk the physical living with others as equals in breath and don’t accept myself to act in separation by stopping the thoughts of polarity from fueling this to continue.

I commit myself to stop and breath from defining myself as weak or strong and thus go into a fear or superiority within seeing abuse as the outcome, where I stop and commit myself to not follow these thoughts of polarity and stop myself from going into abuse towards others and thus stop the fear of being abused, by pushing myself to stop.

I commit myself to walk and push in breath living here stopping my thoughts and emotions and feelings as reactions towards others, and thus practice being physical and finding solutions as equals or in correlation in what is best for all. 

being weak, desteni, eqafe, equality, fear, fear of abuse, how to be strong, i believe in love, i desire power, influential people, my beliefs, powerful people, stop abuse, stopping bullying, vulnerable, weakness, self correction, being better, self change

Day 164 – Vulnerability – Is a Weakness - Part 3

Why do I fear this being open and vulnerable because of holding onto memories that cause me to feel fearful, but in a way to become self intimate and get help from those that can support me, I must become open and thus vulnerable in a sense. I see I have been made to believe through childhood that being open and vulnerable is a sign of weakness, those that are seen as vulnerable are easier to abuse and thus if you don’t want to be abused you have to become strong and hard within who you are because no one is going to take care of me, and will exploit that fact that one have a weakness because in this world all are trying to survive and be at the top for the ‘system’ rewards you gain there and that takes a sense of inhuman ruthlessness because there is only a few who can gain such rewards.

This is a continuation of Day 162 – Vulnerability – Part 1 and 

Day 163- Vulnerability – Part 2 – Fear and Belief Patterns for your reference.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories as a kid of seeing life being weak and thus less then due to the movies and tv shows depicting the ones who were inferior as vulnerable in some way and thus the weak ones, be it a physical ailment or mental ailment, there was always a point where it was obvious they had a vulnerable point and thus the others who were stronger usually exploited it for their own gain due to existing within the mentality of some are born weak and some are born strong, and the strong will survive and it’s too bad for the weak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to view life within a polarity of some are weak and some are strong due to the physical make up and features of the other as well as intellect to determine within myself if I will be vulnerable among them for abuse, and so I will create my reality in a reactive state of fear rather then here equal and one with life and thus within stability. I realize that this reactive state is where I loss my power as I am allowing my emotionsand desires direct me in feeling a certain way and wanting a certain outcome, so thus sabotaging myself because I believe what defines a human is their physical appearance and intellect rather then the truth of what is here as equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, see, and understand, that when I go into emotions as inferiority or dread when I see myself within a vulnerability due to seeing myself as less then others within my look or intellect, I will immediately go into a resistance and then be vulnerable for attack as I will not be here grounded, but will be in my mind in constant fear that will be seen as weak by others and thus create this point of attack by believing that I am weak and I can’t defend myself due to this belief of not being equal with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand where this will take me within believing that vulnerability is a weakness by continuously allowing my definitions of vulnerability in separation to myself and in judgment of what is good as a self manipulation to sabotage myself and never allow myself to be intimate with me or another being, because I can’t trust them as I can’t even trust myself. I realize that to be for real within vulnerability with another human being in self honesty is an awesome thing as the guards are down and real truth is able to be expressed through where people can see each other and relate to each other rather then always being in fear of each other and see as a means to an end or in fear of being abused. I realize that I am the one creating this by separating myself from my own self vulnerability by believing that vulnerability is only defined by external reality rather then self within self in opening up and allowing self to see who I am and thus be open and vulnerable to see everything for real and thus be able to change it through a willingness to see in self honesty and accept whatever comes.

Self commitments to follow.

Day 163- Vulnerability – Part 2 – Fear and Belief Patterns

Looking at the point of being vulnerable, within my life I have never enjoyed feeling this way as obviously being vulnerable means you are more able to be abused or harmed, within me I never wanted to be in such a state. There is an inherent fear within this of being let down and thus abused within opening myself up and allowing vulnerability, and so I am very seldom given into being vulnerable with others and allowing myself to open up. I see how I have created many parts in my world where I perceive that I am vulnerable and open for attack based on being hyper-reactive within perceiving what others are thinking of me, so this created many imaginations of being perceived as others thinking me as weak, but I realized I am the one creating this within my own head.

This is a continuation of Day 162 – Vulnerability – Part 1 for your reference.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not become open and vulnerable with people in my world who have shown support and care towards me and still I will not allow myself to trust them based on fearing that I will get hurt and/or abused. I realize that within this fear I am not allowing myself to ever become intimate with another or intimate with myself because I’m accepting thoughts of what others think of me direct who I am and thus never actually in realityhearing or really seeing what others are saying and/or living within my world but always in a perception of defense, like I will be attacked or abused if I let my guard down thus never really realizing myself as self as the other as who we are as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming intimate with another based on holding onto my past of abuse and allowing that to direct me here with others, in a constant pattern of self sabotage due to this belief that I am not worthy of others care and support because there is something wrong with me. I realize that this fear of being intimate with others is based on holding onto this belief that I am not worthy of care and support based on me fueling it and keeping it alive through continually participating in it, accepting this belief and fear to be real for me as I am creating it within myself, there is no outside force that is making me live in such a way, I am creating this on my own, and thus I realize that it is not in fact real as its coming from my mind it is not physical, and thus I can stop it, all I have to do is stop participating in the thoughts, stop fueling the thoughts, and thus stop living the thoughts as past, present, future, and live here in breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe these thoughts are true that I have something wrong with me and I am not worthy of care and support from others, and thus believe the thoughts that others see me as not worthy as well creating my own hell within myself as I can never get close to anyone because I am in constant fear that I will be abused as I have been in the past, so thus living the past in my present and thus into the future, enslaving myself to the past and thus into the present to thus repeat in the future, when I realize this is not necessary, I am only enslaved to my past if I allow it and it’s really rather stupid to allow this because the past is not real, it’s not physical so how can it be real, but I can believe it to be real by making it up in my mind and thus living from thought.

So, I commit myself to stop and breath when and as I see I am going into any form of self diminishment based on selfjudgments or projections of how others are seeing me, and within myself I speak the words ‘stop’ and do not accept myself to go into this pattern. It’s as simple as making this decision to stop when a thought comes or an emotion comes, and thus breath through it, and continue to walk my day, participate with people, speak to people, play with the animals, enjoy myself living, become self disciplined, and continuing this walk until I am clear and I am here and I am effective for what is best for all, where no more thoughts of self diminishment directs me as I realize I am one and equal with all life and all life is one and equal to me, no separation exists, this I have to prove in my living for myself to live this for real, this is my commitment to myself as life as all, so we can stop the illusion of underestimation of ourselves, and walk our real potential as what life is, limitless in essence within the principles of oneness and equality as the directive will of self.

I commit myself to stop the fear of abuse from others and thus build my own self-trust through building my own self-integrity by living my words and taking responsibility for who I am, by strengthening my resolve in growing my understanding and application of self honesty and common sense living, and living within the principles of equality for real, never taking anything from others personally or for granted as I realize that we are all walking process and everyone is at different stages within this process of equalizing self as the phsyical, and thus I give others the space to grow and give support if it is relevant unconditionally as I was given myself. I give what I have received and I commit to this so thus we as beings of life can become whole again within who we are as it’s a sure process to walk to correct our faults with real application and so I commit to walk this walk until it is complete for all so we can be free.

Interview Support:

Reptilians - The Key to Life Through Evil (Part 1) - Part 111

Reptilians - The Key to Life Through Evil (Part 2) - Part 112


For Further Support, Please check out Links:

Journey to Life Group
Creation's Journey to Life
Earth's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to LIfe
Eqafe Life Products - Self Help
Desteni Site
Desteni Wiki




being weak, desteni, eqafe, equality, how to be strong, i desire power, influential people, powerful people, stop abuse, stopping bullying, vulnerable, fear, my beliefs, i believe in love

Day 162 – Vulnerability – Part 1

Looking at the point of being vulnerable, within my life I have never enjoyed feeling this way as obviously being vulnerable means you are more able to be abused or harmed, within me I never wanted to be in such a state. There is an inherent fear within this of being let down and thus abused within opening myself up and allowing vulnerability, and so I am very seldom given into being vulnerable with others and allowing myself to open up. I see how I have created many parts in my world where I perceive that I am vulnerable and open for attack based on being hyper-reactive within perceiving what others are thinking of me, so this created many imaginations of being perceived as others thinking me as weak, but I realized I am the one creating this within my own head.

Why do I fear this being open and vulnerable because of holding onto memories that cause me to feel fearful, but in a way to become self intimate and get help from those that can support me, I must become open and thus vulnerable in a sense. I see I have been made to believe through childhood that being open and vulnerable is a sign of weakness, those that are seen as vulnerable are easier to abuse and thus if you don’t want to be abused you have to become strong and hard within who you are because no one is going to take care of me, and will exploit that fact that one have a weakness because in this world all are trying to survive and be at the top for the ‘system’ rewards you gain there and that takes a sense of inhuman ruthlessness because there is only a few who can gain such rewards.

I found that this was a cycle of the abuser and abused, where I became an abuser and thus within this their was a lust for power within having power over others and exploiting their weakness and vulnerability. But this is quite an evil way to be because within the point of become vulnerable with another, it’s a trust that is given, and if that trust is broken, the other can easily fall and thus never trust again. You as the person that broke the trust is responsible for that other who had fell, and now you are to be seen as untrustworthy. This started in childhood, where I was learning from adults who I would see would exploit those who were seen as more vulnerable and degrade those who appeared weaker, and so I learned that to be successful in life and not be harmed is to not be vulnerable and to not be seen as weak, thus trust was secondary and deception was what I grew on me to survive.

I grew a huge resistance to being weak and thus being vulnerable, and so I grew a desire to be strong, to be seen by others as strong, and to prove this strength in my living for others to see so I am not someone who can be abused and I wouldn’t be seen as weak or vulnerable. I found that I would thus gear towards being more into sports and proving myself in sports to other guys as I saw the majority of this vulnerability was linked to being female and being unable to compete.

So as long as I was able to compete and keep up with the men in sports, I was seeing myself as strong and thus within this I got an added bonus, I started to feel powerful where I would lead the neighborhood kids within activities we would play, and based on me being the stronger one as well as one of the older kids, I easly fit into the leader of the group and I liked it, this was the first time I was feeling this lust to have power over others. I learned that strength in what I do and not showing weakness was the best way to survive, but I found also that this was a miserable way to live because as is known, that through survival you have to become ruthless, this was my weakness because I could only be so deceptive, until my 'conscious' got to me, and I started to feel very shitty about myself and how I was living. So within this gain for power and control over others, I become subject to this game of others trying to take this position, interesting this was only childhood play, but it is as much alive in children as it is in the world system. Who do the children learn from - the adults, so what does that say about adults in this world? Not a lot about integrity and unity that is for sure.

More to come in next blog.

For Further Support, Please check out Links:
Journey to Life Group
Creation's Journey to Life
Earth's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to LIfe
Eqafe Life Products - Self Help
Desteni Site
Desteni Wiki

Day 161 – Self Comfortability

Looking at this point as it has come up today, and that is being comfortable within my own skin. If I have a look at the point I am now experiencing within my physical, I am very much not comfortable with myself and find I am most of the time in a survival mode, as I am I am in constant fear of being judged as within myself I am judging myself constantly. So it’s like what do I expect, my body is very painful and tense all over, and this is an indication and a physical validation of where I am at in my process, trying to survive because I’m constantly tense due to allowing the backchat of self judgment to direct me. Missing the physical breath by breath, and in my mind judging my face, judging my clothes, judging my body, and perceiving that all others are doing this as well. I realized today while looking at this point that when I stop for amount existing within this pattern of self judgment, I see that in fact there is no one judging me, I am the one who creates this tension and anxiety feeling within myself towards others because I am creating the judgment within myself, it is all me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself by how others move themselves when around me as I project my own self judgments on to them and go into fear and suppression due to seeing myself as inferior. I realize that when I go into judgment of myself and project onto others, I will become possessed by this point and thus go into suppression within my physical and start the process of slowing removing myself from the environment. This I see is a copout and based on the fact that I don’t want to face my reality and change myself to stop this pattern of fear.

When and as I see myself go into fear and sef judgment when I precieve others as judging me, but it’s me simply judging others movements and then projecting my own self judgment of myself on to them, I stop and breath, and speak ‘no, I don’t accept this pattern of fear to control me, I am equal’ and thus move myself to interact with the person and push myself to express myself in comfortably, meaning sink into the physical more and slow my movements down to become more in-sync with this flow of my physical movement and do not allow myself to follow the thoughts and fears.

I commit myself to not accept myself to go into suppression when I find that I am going into judgment of myself by stopping the thoughts and participation in the energy as the emotion of inferiority and push myself to ineract with others until I have reached a comfortability.

I commit myself to use breath to become here and stop participating in my mind continuously.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into self suppression when I accept the thoughts of ‘see everyone thinks your awkward and out of place, look how they look at you, they can’t even look you in the eye” and then I will find points where I can validate this thought because within myself I believe this point to be true. I realize that this is a point of self manipulation based on not being satisfied with how I look now because I am comparing myself to otherwomen and thus see myself as less then these women and thus go into suppression because I believe I can never be what I desire to be and that is an ultimate women with the look, the composure, the integrity, and the sensuality that I see other women around me have and I believe that I can’t have this because I judge myself as this awkward out of place women.

When and as I see I go into this thought of blame towards others because I had the thought that “see everyone thinks your awkward and out of place, look how they look at you, they can’t even look you in the eye” but within myself abdicate my own responsibility of producing this thought and then following it by going into suppression and inferiority, I stop and breath, and move myself to interact with those who I am seeing I am blaming, realizing that I am not defined by these thoughts, I can direct myself to let go of these thoughts, and thus commit myself to interact with others in breath as equals. I realize that when I stop these thoughts within myself I will stop the reactions of suppression and inferiority because I am the one who decides who I am in every moment, I direct myself, if others react I direct the point in stability as equals, I decide who I am in each moment, make it simple, be equal and thus this creates self comfortability and calmness because I am here.

I commit myself to let go of the thoughts of self diminishment and I commit to stop comparing myself with other women, and thus walk the steps to build my own self integrity and self comfroatbility by becoming comfortable within my own body. Massaging my body and slowing down in my body, not pushing it to extremes within emotion and movements by using my breath and walking in the rhythm of my breathing.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to be this person other then who I am and accept me as the physical, accept me as ok, accept me as life which is the best gift I can give myself as I will need nothing else but myself as all, and thus support myself as all to live this into the physical, the acceptance of self and naturally through this acceptance of self, life will be birthed and life will be comfortable because I am in truth, I am in self honesty, and I am in full openness to life as me and thus I correct myself and change always to that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste precious time within points of looks and comparing myself with others as I realize that within comparison I am deliberately separating myself for my own self interest desires to have the perfect man and thus be seen as the perfect women. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by perfection within a polarity of some are perfect and some are noy, so thus I can be the winner and be seen as more then other humans.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be more then other humans so I can be happy and be content for a minute, but this happiness and content will never last because it was never real it was based on illusion of the mind as a pretty picture in time, and because this is based on the mind as a picture in the past, it will not stand within eternal principles of oneness and equality, where I as life accept all here as self because I as life realize all here is self and thus living of these principle in reality will bring the only true self perfection that is real as this will be evident in our living reality because we are in fact living.

When and as I see I am going into comparison and desire to be seen as more then other humans to be seen as special and to win, I stop and breath, and let go of all the thoughts that drive this point of comparison with other humans and desire to be better. I realize the consequential outflow of this is self-compromise and thus I will fall into separation and self instability as I am doing this to myself. I am only here equal if I live this in fact as self equality with myself and thus with all others in respect and acceptance of who we are as life.

I commit myself to stop all comparison with other humans in each and every moment by focusing on my breathing and letting go of each and every thought that arise that goes into this mind pattern of comparision.

I commit myself to stop all desires to be more then other humans and walk physical equality by getting to know each and every human I meet equal and one to myself as how I would want to be treated, and develop an intimacy with others as I walk this for myself.

I commit to stop all fear of interacting with others as I stop the backchat of comparison and judgment, and walk in physical reality as I breath and equalize myself with life.

Interview Support:

How Thoughts Create Physical Reality

Life Review - How the Personalities shape the Physical

Photograph By: Leila Zamora Moreno

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/leila.zm?fref=ts

Blog: http://ylaww.blogspot.com/

For Further Support, Please check out Links:

Journey to Life Group
Creation's Journey to Life
Earth's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to LIfe
Eqafe Life Products - Self Help
Desteni Site
Desteni Wiki

self comfortable, how to like self again, i am not happy, self judgements make me miserable, misery, mind games, head case, self acceptance, desteni, eqafe, #teamlife, #TFB #changetheworld

Day 160 – Waste – Within and Without

Looking at the point of waste, how much we as a society waste stuff, time, life within and as our world as the without externalization of self, and within myself how much I waste in stuff, time, and my life that if I was to push my self discipline and self will, I could be much more efficient and effective in my living. Why do we waste stuff on this planet and why do I waste things in my life? This I see is based on ignorance, living in this illusion that our actions won’t ever catch up with us, when in fact if we open our eyes and see the truth, the destruction is ever where. What is protecting us from seeing is our dishonesties within our living and in our actions, but in the end, this will cause the death of us all, so is not the suggested way to proceed. There is another way and that is the implementation of the equal money system, a system that guarantees all life being equal and creating the best life for all.

I mean it’s like an instant gratification addiction we have allowed and accepted within the inner of ourselves as our self interest drives us and the outer where we take from the earth and never give back, it's like we are wearing bubble suits only being concerned for our own survival, while we annihilate and kill those around us and that which gives us life, our planet in the outer and our bodies as ourselves. We have to change the inner world of ourselves and thus this will eventually change the outer world of ourselves, as the saying goes, as within so without, our external world is a mirror of who we are within our inner worlds, and as we can see we are sick, we need to heal ourselves, here is some self forgiveness and self correction to move this process of self change through walking self honesty. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my existence to become that of waste, from the within of who I am where I waste my life on matters of abuse and separation from what is here as the best life for all and thus waste the opportunity to birth this for all by indulging in the illusions of the mind, as wants, desires, needs, and feelings, so I can be engaged within my own bubble world pretending to have joy and goods within my life as if this is the truth of the way life should be, while my body every moment suffers silently as the evidence of pain all over it that I physically am aware of every moment. I realize and see that existing in waste within my life is not only effecting me as the being within this body, but the countless other beings within my self as my physical body components and parts working together as I am able to exist and which gives me life, but I waste this life on things that do not matter to this physical existence within the matter at hand, to change the walking dead to life again through and as my own self willed living in self honesty and drastic change to a being that is able to be trusted and care for life as I would like for myself, to thus be an example for others and so the message and living action can grow and change can manifest for what is best for all.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am going into this desire within myself to waste time, waste away, waste resources, waste money, waste life, I stop and breath, and re-evaluate what I am doing within and as who I am in consideration of not just me here but all the beings within and as my self here that work together unconditionally to allow me to live in this world. I commit myself to make efficient decisions within and as my day to help create the most effective way for my body to operate within considering my body within actions I take, will I be supporting my body, and so make sure I take into account what is life in fact and thus stop my illusions of the mind as desires, wants, needs, and feelings from directing me, by writing them out when I see them, doing self forgiveness, and changing myself within commitment statements to optimize my time here and give this opportunity for a new world the best self application I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create within the external self which is the external world the reality of who I am within myself, waste, abuse, and self destruction. Where I can see the evidence within my physical reality as the death and annihilation of all life forms in this world that is rampant throughout each area of life on this planet in countless ways, I realize the destruction in nature and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to destroy that which gives me life due to the ignorance I have accepted of not caring about the outcome but only my own self indulgence. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only care for my own self indulgence instead of the best for all that is here with me, so all can live and no more suffering is allowed.

I commit myself to stop and breath, and push myself to correct myself within the process underway as self change within self forgiveness, and thus be able to stand as a group with others to bring about a new world for all that will end all abuse and suffering in this world by creating equality and oneness as life for real in reality. I commit myself to work on all points I am able to to help push this into living actualization through becoming a being who is self motivated and thus is able to generate and create my own ways to help the group by learning and researching all the ways to will help process this new system into being that will work and generate the movement to be effective. I commit myself to change all systems within the equal money system to guarantee the safety and best life for all in all facets and all walks of life, so their will never again be the abuse and hell that has been created here due to the ignorance of man as the mind system of illusion and self interest we have created and become.


Interview Support:

Soul of Money Series - Part 1 - Free Download

Equal Money Book - The Future of Money - Volume 1


For Further Support, Please check out Links:

Journey to Life Group
Creation's Journey to Life
Earth's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to LIfe
Eqafe Life Products - Self Help
Desteni Site
Desteni Wiki

waste, the earth destruction, zeitgeist,climate change, plastic world, recycling options, equal money, equal money system, ems, wasting resources, desteni, equal living, #changetheworld, eqafe

Day 159 – Impatience’s – Part 2 - Fear of Looking Stupid

So here continuing from yesterday’s blog, Day 158- Impatiences about impatience’s, where I rush through my responsibilities due to not being patient and only looking for a good time, so here walking through one of the consequential outflow that came up yesterday during a chat, and that was fear of looking stupid. I would write out the post to be sent through and would not take the time to read it through, but just hit send. Then once sent I will quickly read through what I just sent and realize there were many little mistakes made just by rushing that I should have caught and corrected, but due to me just wanting to go quick, I send without confirmation of it being accurate, and then face the point of fearing being seen as stupid. I fear this because the mistakes are easy words, and done numerous times, so this continual point of spelling wrong, I go into fear and anxiousness that I will be seen by the other as being a stupid person realizing this is how I am judging myself, that it’s not about the other’s thinking, but who I am within my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a fear of looking stupid based on the belief that I am being seen as this by the other because I am judging this within myself. I realize that I am the one condemning myself and thus should not participate within assumptions of what others are thinking of me as this will enslave me throughout my life to outside sources that I can’t control and are undetermined, so realistically speaking I see and understand I have to stop my participation in assuming what others are thinking of me and stop judging myself.

I commit myself to when and as I go into the belief that others are thinking bad of me, I stop and breath, and check within myself where is it that I am judging myself, in so I can identify the point such as this point of seeing myself as stupid, and so I commit to find the point that I am judging about myself and assume another is judging of me as well, so I can write it out and direct it within self forgiveness and self correction so I can stop the enslavement of this point from directing me, so to give myself direction to correct this point in my living, stopping the enslavement of assumptions of the external world and judgments of self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and understand that when I do not consider each and every word I type and send to another, I should expect myself to have spelling mistakes and misalignments within writing as I have created this consequence for myself by rushing through the writing and not taking the time to check and see if it is correct. I realize that within this I show lack of consideration for the other reading it and a lack of self discipline as I don’t take the time which is necessary for the best understanding of the other reading, to correct the points that are misaligned so it is legible for the receiver.

I commit myself to each and every time I walk through a chat or writing that I walk through the words written to check to see that everything is in alignment before I send it off to the receiver, this to ensure that all is clear and legible for the other and I gain stability within trusting myself to recheck who I am as cross-reference so I can perfect my application so to live best for all within myself and the other to create an equal opportunity for growth and understanding through words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self discipline is crucial for the process of re-birthing life to be best for all, and so I have to walk absolute within this point to be a part of this process, and so within each and every point within my life, I have to walk self discipline and self will in doing what has to be done, even and especially checking to make sure all my words are aligned and understood for all who read it, as the message of equality and oneness in what is best for all is shared and understood through words and living words.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am walking into laziness and resistance, stop and breath, and walk my self discipline by doing what it is that is set in front of me that I am resisting and desiring to do later, I stop and breath, and complete the task in front of me, and don’t allow resistance to direct me in anyway by resolving my self discipline and living it absolute, until I am here absolute I will not stop pushing this point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as stupid based on making mistakes and thus judge myself for making spelling mistakes as if this is a sign of someone who is not smart, I realize and see that making mistakes even in spelling is a way to learn from, and in this case to show that I have to slow down and stop the point of resistance, so I can create myself in a way were I can trust to walk through whatever is here, and correct myself in complete self support and self honesty to create greater clarity and stability within who I am as my words and thus live them as me as the example of what I speak.

I commit myself to when and as I go into to judgment of seeing myself stupid, I stop and breath, and realize that the consequential outflow of this is guilt and thus self victimization, which I realize is not necessary, thus I stop my self judgment of myself when I make a mistake realizing it is part of the process of expansion and self growth, and so walk what has to be walked in all it’s facets, and perfect my living in the process, to check myself before I move to make sure I am clear and here in what is best for all and thus write words or speak words in awareness and stability.

Interview Support:

Reptilians - Patience, and how to Live it - Part 43

Life Review - My Life of Impatience


For Further Support, Please check out Links:

Journey to Life Group
Creation's Journey to Life
Earth's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to LIfe
Eqafe Life Products - Self Help
Desteni Site
Desteni Wiki



no patience, impatience, i am so impatient, how to stop impatience, can't do anything, can't sit still, ADD. ADHD, adderall, desteni, eqafe, psychological issues, #teamlife

Day 158- Impatiences

Here looking at a pattern that I have been excusing and participating in for most of my life and tonight while talking on a chat, I continued this pattern outright, but here I face this and stop. I participate much in impatience, for example, I will press enter in a chat without even reading what I wrote, because I did not want to take the time to check it and see if it needed to be corrected. I have written about this point in the past and done self-forgiveness on it, but obviously I have not gone in deep enough. 

I see this point being that I don’t want to stop and take the time to read through what I have written and actually walk the physical process that will take and the time it will take to do what needs to be done, and ah, not get any reward equaling positive energy from it. So it’s a point of desire that I am accepting, desire to not have to push myself and walk the physical effort that is actual labor and not going to give me positive feelings, and so walk the point in all it’s facets and considerations to completion in self perfection. 

The physical point is prominent here, I don’t feel like re-reading my words when I send them off based on laziness, I just don’t want to make that extra effort. Then I walk the reaction point which is more separation of going into fear that I will be seen as stupid, and quickly make the corrections within theacceptance that I fear being thought of as stupid by the other. I will write forgiveness on being lazy, not moving myself and fear of being stupid in tomorrows blog.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be relaxed and resting, enjoying myself with activities that I find fun, and so resist the physical labor and work that I am required to do to fulfill my responsibilities and help those within the group I am working with be it at work, at my house or in other fields. I realize that when I participate and accept this point of resistance within physical work and labor I will limit myself based on being preoccupied with thoughtsof how tired I am, how bad this is, how much I want to just do something else, how much I want to do something fun, and not be here within the task that I am walking to the best of my ability, which to get to this point require full awareness obviously here I am in my mind stuck in thoughts of resistance to what I am actually busy living and sabotaging myself with.

I commit myself to stop and breath when I see that I am going into this point of desiring to go do other things that I find fun, and resist the labor and physical work that is in front of me, where in I have to do what is required to be done in the physical and put real effort in, so I commit to stop the thoughts of resistance and backchat of why I don’t want to do it, breath through the backchat, and practice practically pushing myself in each task to do it to the best of my ability each time I am faced with this backchat, find the points that I am skipping previously, such as skipping re-reading my post before I post it, and thus walk the point of self correction to eventually get to self perfection in each breath to create the best possible outcome I can and give myself the opportunity to do so through pushing through the resistance each time they arise.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I focus on perfection I will miss out on the opportunity to do something fun and enjoyable, so I rush through the point to get to the point where I can relax and enjoy, and so I see that I am only focusing on my self interest and thus my own happiness not considering the consequential outflows that not walking in self perfection or the best of my ability is creating not just in my world but in the worlds of others I am effecting or thus missing the opportunity to effect/help, so thus allowing resistance and thus laziness to direct me instead of ceasing the opportunity here to walk my process to self perfection through my process of actually living it in the physical as self correction through the self forgiveness I walk here.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am going into this point of desiring to go into self interest and get the good feelings with my own personal enjoyments, I stop, breath, and remain here in the physical pushing myself to walk in self awareness and perfect all the points I see I am able to, not accepting myself to go into resistance and skip what could look like small points to thus only get my own happiness from positive feelings, so stop the resistance and positive feelings from directing me, and walk the correction, which is walking the self perfection of me in each moment until it is done to eventually be an example for others and support as many as possible to self perfection for themselves so we can heal ourselves from the laziness and ignorance is bliss mentality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue to participate in the ignorance is bliss mentality where I know that I am slacking and not pushing myself, but go into the point of excuses such as where I pretend that I can, or I deserve it, or I am not effecting anyone, when in self honesty, I know that I am being deceitful, so I stop this point of deceit and self interest, and walk the point of correction.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of desiring to ignore my responsibilities and what has to be done, I stop these points from directing me, and walk into the physical as my responsibilities and complete a task until it’s done not allowing backchat to intervene, excuses to come through, or desires to direct me, I walk what I realize I have to do within completing my responsibilities in relevant terms, and then I relax and can have a moment of self enjoyment. I commit to walk what is best for all and stop my own desire for self-interest in a bubble world I have created that will pop eventually as it was never real, what is real is life and it is here in the physical, I decide.

Interview Support:

Reptilians - Patience, and how to Live it - Part 43

Life Review - My Life of Impatience

For Further Support, Please check out Links:

Journey to Life Group
Creation's Journey to Life
Earth's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to LIfe
Eqafe Life Products - Self Help
Desteni Site
Desteni Wiki



no patience, impatience, i am so impatient, how to stop impatience, can't do anything, can't sit still, ADD. ADHD, adderall, desteni, eqafe, psychological issues, #teamlife

Day 157 – What is in a Name? 'Garb' age Part 2 Self Corrective Statements

This is a continuation to the blog Day 156 – What is in a Name? Part 2 – ‘Garb’ age

I commit myself to stop the pictures of digust within my mind when the word garbage is spoken as I realize it is what it is within the physical consequences of our partipcation in physical life.

I commit myself to stop the judgment of the word garbage as gross and disusting and stop the point of correlation to me as my name as garb within it and thus I assosicate myself and judge myself as gross and disgusting because of this point when I realize it has no relevance to myself, the only point of similarity is the letters within a sequence that is the same to the beginning of my name.

I commit myself to stop the negative charge to the word garbage by stopping the pictures in my head of rotting groos waste, and thus breath through this reaction and stabilize myself by focusing on the common sense understanding that it is the consequence of how living process here as life and the physical process of the food process and life process.

I commit myself to stop the judgment of myself in seeing myself as negative when called the word garbage, as I stop and breath, and let go of the judgment I hold of this word as disgusting and gross, and thus see it within the context of a joke or an ignorant person, and thus direct the point within understanding that I am not defined by a word but who I am within what is here or said to me, I define me, I decide.

I commit myself to let go of the judgment of self based on the word garbage, and thus stop the inner conflict when someone calls me this by stopping and breathing when I go into any judgment realizing that I am not defined by this word through stopping my negative association with it and living it for what it is here in the physical meaning of it.

I commit myself to stop the feelings of being attacked based on taking the word garbage personally by stopping the reactions through breathing.

I commit myself to direct myself within a stability point when this word is spoken towards me by stop taking it personally as I realize it is just a word and has no relevance to me but only if I allow it to, so I stop this point from bothering me.

I commit myself to stop the point of giving up and reclusion when I am called this word as I stop taking the word personally by breathing and remaining in in the breath until the emotions/feelings stop, and realize that it is just a word.

I commit myself to stop going into a suppression point when I hear this word spoken and directed towards me and stand stable in the understanding of how I am as equal to others and that I am not directed by words, but I direct myself as
words.

For Further Support, Please check out Links:

Journey to Life Group
Creation's Journey to Life
Earth's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to LIfe
Eqafe Life Products - Self Help
Desteni Site
Desteni Wiki

best names, birth, bullies, bullying, desteni, eqafe, equality, name, naming, parents,say my name, self forgiveness, garbage, being picked on, name called,