Day 159 – Impatience’s – Part 2 - Fear of Looking Stupid

So here continuing from yesterday’s blog, Day 158- Impatiences about impatience’s, where I rush through my responsibilities due to not being patient and only looking for a good time, so here walking through one of the consequential outflow that came up yesterday during a chat, and that was fear of looking stupid. I would write out the post to be sent through and would not take the time to read it through, but just hit send. Then once sent I will quickly read through what I just sent and realize there were many little mistakes made just by rushing that I should have caught and corrected, but due to me just wanting to go quick, I send without confirmation of it being accurate, and then face the point of fearing being seen as stupid. I fear this because the mistakes are easy words, and done numerous times, so this continual point of spelling wrong, I go into fear and anxiousness that I will be seen by the other as being a stupid person realizing this is how I am judging myself, that it’s not about the other’s thinking, but who I am within my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a fear of looking stupid based on the belief that I am being seen as this by the other because I am judging this within myself. I realize that I am the one condemning myself and thus should not participate within assumptions of what others are thinking of me as this will enslave me throughout my life to outside sources that I can’t control and are undetermined, so realistically speaking I see and understand I have to stop my participation in assuming what others are thinking of me and stop judging myself.

I commit myself to when and as I go into the belief that others are thinking bad of me, I stop and breath, and check within myself where is it that I am judging myself, in so I can identify the point such as this point of seeing myself as stupid, and so I commit to find the point that I am judging about myself and assume another is judging of me as well, so I can write it out and direct it within self forgiveness and self correction so I can stop the enslavement of this point from directing me, so to give myself direction to correct this point in my living, stopping the enslavement of assumptions of the external world and judgments of self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and understand that when I do not consider each and every word I type and send to another, I should expect myself to have spelling mistakes and misalignments within writing as I have created this consequence for myself by rushing through the writing and not taking the time to check and see if it is correct. I realize that within this I show lack of consideration for the other reading it and a lack of self discipline as I don’t take the time which is necessary for the best understanding of the other reading, to correct the points that are misaligned so it is legible for the receiver.

I commit myself to each and every time I walk through a chat or writing that I walk through the words written to check to see that everything is in alignment before I send it off to the receiver, this to ensure that all is clear and legible for the other and I gain stability within trusting myself to recheck who I am as cross-reference so I can perfect my application so to live best for all within myself and the other to create an equal opportunity for growth and understanding through words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self discipline is crucial for the process of re-birthing life to be best for all, and so I have to walk absolute within this point to be a part of this process, and so within each and every point within my life, I have to walk self discipline and self will in doing what has to be done, even and especially checking to make sure all my words are aligned and understood for all who read it, as the message of equality and oneness in what is best for all is shared and understood through words and living words.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am walking into laziness and resistance, stop and breath, and walk my self discipline by doing what it is that is set in front of me that I am resisting and desiring to do later, I stop and breath, and complete the task in front of me, and don’t allow resistance to direct me in anyway by resolving my self discipline and living it absolute, until I am here absolute I will not stop pushing this point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as stupid based on making mistakes and thus judge myself for making spelling mistakes as if this is a sign of someone who is not smart, I realize and see that making mistakes even in spelling is a way to learn from, and in this case to show that I have to slow down and stop the point of resistance, so I can create myself in a way were I can trust to walk through whatever is here, and correct myself in complete self support and self honesty to create greater clarity and stability within who I am as my words and thus live them as me as the example of what I speak.

I commit myself to when and as I go into to judgment of seeing myself stupid, I stop and breath, and realize that the consequential outflow of this is guilt and thus self victimization, which I realize is not necessary, thus I stop my self judgment of myself when I make a mistake realizing it is part of the process of expansion and self growth, and so walk what has to be walked in all it’s facets, and perfect my living in the process, to check myself before I move to make sure I am clear and here in what is best for all and thus write words or speak words in awareness and stability.

Interview Support:

Reptilians - Patience, and how to Live it - Part 43

Life Review - My Life of Impatience


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Day 158- Impatiences

Here looking at a pattern that I have been excusing and participating in for most of my life and tonight while talking on a chat, I continued this pattern outright, but here I face this and stop. I participate much in impatience, for example, I will press enter in a chat without even reading what I wrote, because I did not want to take the time to check it and see if it needed to be corrected. I have written about this point in the past and done self-forgiveness on it, but obviously I have not gone in deep enough. 

I see this point being that I don’t want to stop and take the time to read through what I have written and actually walk the physical process that will take and the time it will take to do what needs to be done, and ah, not get any reward equaling positive energy from it. So it’s a point of desire that I am accepting, desire to not have to push myself and walk the physical effort that is actual labor and not going to give me positive feelings, and so walk the point in all it’s facets and considerations to completion in self perfection. 

The physical point is prominent here, I don’t feel like re-reading my words when I send them off based on laziness, I just don’t want to make that extra effort. Then I walk the reaction point which is more separation of going into fear that I will be seen as stupid, and quickly make the corrections within theacceptance that I fear being thought of as stupid by the other. I will write forgiveness on being lazy, not moving myself and fear of being stupid in tomorrows blog.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be relaxed and resting, enjoying myself with activities that I find fun, and so resist the physical labor and work that I am required to do to fulfill my responsibilities and help those within the group I am working with be it at work, at my house or in other fields. I realize that when I participate and accept this point of resistance within physical work and labor I will limit myself based on being preoccupied with thoughtsof how tired I am, how bad this is, how much I want to just do something else, how much I want to do something fun, and not be here within the task that I am walking to the best of my ability, which to get to this point require full awareness obviously here I am in my mind stuck in thoughts of resistance to what I am actually busy living and sabotaging myself with.

I commit myself to stop and breath when I see that I am going into this point of desiring to go do other things that I find fun, and resist the labor and physical work that is in front of me, where in I have to do what is required to be done in the physical and put real effort in, so I commit to stop the thoughts of resistance and backchat of why I don’t want to do it, breath through the backchat, and practice practically pushing myself in each task to do it to the best of my ability each time I am faced with this backchat, find the points that I am skipping previously, such as skipping re-reading my post before I post it, and thus walk the point of self correction to eventually get to self perfection in each breath to create the best possible outcome I can and give myself the opportunity to do so through pushing through the resistance each time they arise.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I focus on perfection I will miss out on the opportunity to do something fun and enjoyable, so I rush through the point to get to the point where I can relax and enjoy, and so I see that I am only focusing on my self interest and thus my own happiness not considering the consequential outflows that not walking in self perfection or the best of my ability is creating not just in my world but in the worlds of others I am effecting or thus missing the opportunity to effect/help, so thus allowing resistance and thus laziness to direct me instead of ceasing the opportunity here to walk my process to self perfection through my process of actually living it in the physical as self correction through the self forgiveness I walk here.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am going into this point of desiring to go into self interest and get the good feelings with my own personal enjoyments, I stop, breath, and remain here in the physical pushing myself to walk in self awareness and perfect all the points I see I am able to, not accepting myself to go into resistance and skip what could look like small points to thus only get my own happiness from positive feelings, so stop the resistance and positive feelings from directing me, and walk the correction, which is walking the self perfection of me in each moment until it is done to eventually be an example for others and support as many as possible to self perfection for themselves so we can heal ourselves from the laziness and ignorance is bliss mentality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue to participate in the ignorance is bliss mentality where I know that I am slacking and not pushing myself, but go into the point of excuses such as where I pretend that I can, or I deserve it, or I am not effecting anyone, when in self honesty, I know that I am being deceitful, so I stop this point of deceit and self interest, and walk the point of correction.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of desiring to ignore my responsibilities and what has to be done, I stop these points from directing me, and walk into the physical as my responsibilities and complete a task until it’s done not allowing backchat to intervene, excuses to come through, or desires to direct me, I walk what I realize I have to do within completing my responsibilities in relevant terms, and then I relax and can have a moment of self enjoyment. I commit to walk what is best for all and stop my own desire for self-interest in a bubble world I have created that will pop eventually as it was never real, what is real is life and it is here in the physical, I decide.

Interview Support:

Reptilians - Patience, and how to Live it - Part 43

Life Review - My Life of Impatience

For Further Support, Please check out Links:

Journey to Life Group
Creation's Journey to Life
Earth's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to LIfe
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