Intimacy - The Foundation for An Empowered Being Part 1 - Day 500

Intimacy is a form of self depth where there is more substantial understanding and investigating of self done, letting go of fears and judgments in a way of deeper understanding and so deeper satisfaction through connecting to the real self, the one who is yearning for substance that will be best within what I am living and how I am treating others as well as myself.

Intimacy also I am seeing it as brutal self honesty were I am not hiding or ignoring any part of myself, but looking at me in a reality sense, direct, and for the purposes of learning and growing to become better. There is a gentleness factor like a mothers touch with a child that I am also seeing is needed based on the nature of what I may find within the depths of self, that it is not to judge self or become emotional in any way, but to realize these were miss takes or actions that were done in ignorance or denying self's participation of the full outflows that may potentially play out. What one can commit to within living the word intimacy is a realization to become open and vulnerable with oneself and so with say a partner whom you are in a relationship with. This can bear rewarding fruit that will birth a more intimate connection with who one is and the other and so a more fulfilling existence with oneself and together. This is because it becomes more then surface knowledge of who each one is which is much more mind based, meaning interpretations, assumptions, perceptions of the other. Through a more intimate connection it becomes more real and direct because you are letting yourself into see you as well as letting another in to see the real you as well, so real life is being lived not a facade we are so use to playing into.

So the way I am seeing it is that becoming intimate is scary in a sense because it feels like you are open to attack, though through becoming caring with yourself and with another, you will support the relationship to become something extra ordinary as the beingness of the beings start to connect, the life within, which starts to supersede the fear and competition layers which is based on survival, and the real selves come through, that which wants to create, grow, and expand into one's world and reality.

Being truthful with yourself and so another is a gift that is able to be given because once you see the truth of self, take hold of it and ownership of it, then you can start the process of change and correction. This builds self trust and trust in relationship with another, like a partner, which creates the platform for lasting honor and respect. This is something for me that I can see I would like for myself and another, living the word intimate and connecting on a more deep level then the usual connections of human beings is something I am committed to live and give to others in my world.

Intimacy –

In to me I see

Enter my sea

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming intimate with myself for fear that I will be embarrassed with what I find.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become embarrassed based on what I find in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my mind personally instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that the information coming up is programs and systems that I have created unconsciously and subconsciously and that they are able to be transformed and changed into something that supports me in the best way possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a fear of becoming intimate with myself and then not being able to handle what I find.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that becoming intimate with myself I will not know how to create that which I desire within this point of intimacy which is a connection to myself in a deep and meaningful way and so to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire a certain feeling of closeness and peacefulness when I connect with myself or another in living the word intimate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have expectations in what living the word intimate will be like where it’s based on a feeling I will get that makes me feel warm and comfortable inside instead of living this word in my reality where I create intimacy with myself and my partner by what I do and what I say/share rather then getting it through a feeling by someone else’s words/actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be given intimacy by others rather than give it to myself because I believe I am not feminine enough and not gentle enough to have this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not feminine enough to be intimate with myself or another and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate feminine with intimacy when I see, realize, and understand that it’s not a matter of being a specific way but living and acting in specific ways through my self expressing and living words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear seeing all of me and so fear being intimate with myself in all levels.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as harsh and not gentle, and so from here believe that I can’t be intimate with myself or another.

I commit myself to let go of all judgments of what intimacy should be or look like within me and live this word in my world where I remain in self honesty and stop the fear of being open with who I am on all levels.

I commit myself to live the word care, understanding, unconditional listening, and self trust within exploring and becoming intimate with myself.

I commit myself to share myself with out condition to myself and so my partner to build the depth and trust of myself and another to become connected as beings on a level of real value which is our real selves and be open to give as I would like to receive.

So to live the word intimacy is to with a soft touch see me and another for real in a direct and self honest way.

So living the word intimacy practically would look like:

-take care of my physical body through slowing down, having fun/play time, and being outdoors.

-setting a comfortable space where I am relaxed, the room is dim and there is soothing lighting like a candle or soft lights to write.

-in the writing use a topic that I am busy investigating about myself and open it up in detail and within that create ways to live it in my world.

-share the information I found about this investigating with my partner so he is also understanding where I am at and how he can support me to live the words I am practicing to live.

-in my mental realm, stopping and doing forgiveness on any self abusive back chat thoughts that cause me to go into a inferior stand in my reality.

-speak within me words that are supportive for my self development as a life being and practice day by day living these words to empower myself and so those around me.

-express myself with my partner in deep and meaningful ways where I share myself in a stable/calm way that is deep and opening up myself to him.

-express care and appreciation for myself through giving me time to enjoy the pleasures of life such as a bath, a nature walk, a tea and book, a massage, or time to breathe and become self aware.

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Weakening of the Physical through the Mind - Self Commitments to Live - Day 337

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Weakening the Physical through the MInd - Day 335

When and as I see myself go into a inflexibility and suppressing my expression, I stop myself and breath, and realize that in this moment that I am going into suppression, I am allowing the mind to take over my directive will and direct me into the polarity of inferior/superior play out through the cycle of happy/sad, and thus accept and allowing my external to influence who I am on the internal, realizing that i no longer have to live in this way because I realize who I am, I am life and am the directive principle of myself and realize that I can direct myself into all life ibeing equal and one in what is best for all. 

I commit myself to not accept myself to go into the mind when I see a fear come up of others and thus I commit to breath and continue to express myself and accept myself as equals within and as each moment as what is happening as I see within the moment to be expressed, pushing to see reality direct in what is actually happening.

I commit myself to move my physical to bring me back to the physical through breathing and looking around the room, become here within myself and aware ofmy body and not allow thoughts of suppression and compromise to accumulate.

I commit to stop my mind from directing me into self judgment and judgment of others by not allowing these thoughts to continue, and stopping them as soon as I see them come up.

When and as I see myself go into a fear of another or what others are thinking of me, I stop and breath, and realize that this is all in my head I am making these thoughts and fears up within me where I don't know what others are thinking and thus there is no need to fear, as I can direct myself within and as who I am, I don't need others to tell me who I am, I have to stand within myself and direct myself to be able to direct as the directive principle to create this who I am, self create me as life, I must walk my own self stability and stop being directed by the external world of who I am. 

I commit myself to breath and not accept myself to go into thoughts of what others are thinking as I realize it's completely illusionary and not relevant.

I commit myself to breath and stop fear as there is no need to fear, I face my fears and walk that which I fear walking to show I can walk it and that it is in fact all in my head, using common sense of course in terms of physical fear, (like not stepping in front of a car or moving bus).

When and as I see I am becoming inflexible within my movement and self direction, i stop and breath, and check what is gong on within me that i am suppressing and not expressing myself freely here as breath.

I commit to move myself through this inflexibility and remain steadfast to walk through all the points where i m still showing inflexibility and correct the patterns through writing the tools and living it and practice expressing freely here as breath in consideration of all as equals.

I commit myself to accept myself and accept my expression, and stop the judgment, and remain walking the perfection process of who I am and so be able to stand here alone and as all as one and equal.

I commit to walk the process of letting go of me as my personality, me as fear, me as the mind definition of limitation, me as a name, I commit myself to walk to the self that is here as a whole and individualized to ensure what is best is life and this is in fact so within self until it is done. 

When and as I see myself less then others and that I am weakened, I stop and breath, and realize this is my mind in self defeatism and self sabotage to not have to walk what I have to face, I realize that this is not who I accept myself to be and I must continue to persevere and face myself through accepting who I am and continuing on the path of correcting myself until I live equal and one to the physical as breath. 

I commit to stop compromising myself through judgments. 

I commit to stop competition with others as this is not real as I am competing with myself as we are equals here as the physical and thus all one.

I commit to stop comparing myself to others as its useless and irrelevant cause self is all that exist.

I commit to not accept the mind in separation as who I am, and walk the correction to stop the mind in seperation and align myself with life and direct myself in this way here as the breath in physical reality.

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Weakening the Physical through the MInd - Day 335

Within my physical I had pain on my left knee as well within my left hip, and within the pain there was like a weakness, like I could feel the knee as well as the hip area where the pain resides as weakened or compromised. Within these two areas the hip and the knee, they are indicating my self expression in the hip and flexibility, showing that as I exist within the energy of self compromise in my expression and becoming inflexible within who I am in each moment, this pain will continue and become worse if I don't change. So here going to walk some self forgiveness on inflexibility and suppressing my expression with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base through fear, fearing others thoughts and judgments towards me and so suppressing my expression and becoming inflexible within what I will do and what not through believing if i fully express myself in that moment I will be vulnerable for abuse by others not realizing that I in fact judge and have secret thoughts about others that I don't want to face and stop based on the power it gives me that I can see and say 'i am better', this just showing the separation and inferiority I am existing within myself compromising my opportunity to be life for real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear others and thus fear expressing myself openly and freely.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself within my own mind create judgments of others when they do something or say something I see I can gain from instead of realizing that when I judge another I am condemning myself into self compromise based on the fact that I am really judging myself and creating a split within myself of polarity such as good or bad, where in reality this is not so, we are all here and we all have the ability to be and do what is best through equal opportunity and the divinity of all bring life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become inflexible within what I will do and not do due to fear of exposure and I realize that not going beyond my comfort zone and pushing my expression will only keep me trapped and caged into a limited version of myself and of my capabilities. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create a judgment against life not realizing that when I judge i judge myself and so I will always be compromised in what i do because I am not seeing what is real and what is here, and thus never will be able to direct the situation into what is best because I am in competition to reality wanting to be the winner in these judgment scenarios. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within this energy where it eat's away at my physical body and thus I am eating away at my ability to be free and fully expressive by compromising my ability to move myself in expression in the expansion that is possible in each moment letting go of fear and pushing my limits in every increasing ways forward to see who I really am in each moment stopping the trap of judging self.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others think of me and fear being expressive around others as I stop these judgments against others, I stand here with the self realization and an awareness that all life is me and that I need to embrace and accept life equal to me to realize that we will only live free when we accept each other and support each other to change as we support ourselves in equality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be weakened based on my past and how others have treated me, and thus realize that the past does not define me and that it is not for real in terms of what i am picturing in my head, i realize I have to let go of the past and bring myself to where i am here in what i am doing in each moment of breath, making each moment a new moment of self expression and making it count substantially for the betterment of life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take others words towards me personal and see myself in the eyes of others rather then who I am within and as the eyes of me and my physical, perfecting my own self living realizing that everyone else is in their process and thus must walk the same process as well, I must stand as a point of support and direct as I have realized myself and stop taking things personal because it's not personal we are just mind systems existing in illusion and this is not life, what is real is me as the physical and who I am in my living with and towards others and myself to create life for real through the actual living and movement of myself.

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Day 165 - Vulnerability - Is a Weakness Self Correction Statements

I commit myself to disengage and let go of all memories of tv shows and movies that come up within my head as pictures of people who are weak, such as those with physical or mental ailments, and thus see them as vulnerable as was implied in these media outlets, and thus go into separation towards these people based on seeing them as this picture of weakness as vulnerability.

So I commit to stop allowing myself to follow thoughts as pictures and memories, as they don’t support life or others as life.

I commit myself to stop and breath when the desire comes up to exploit someone’s weakness and/or vulnerability point for my own gain.

I commit myself to stop seeing vulnerability as a weakness and thus see it as a point of gentleness within the other and thus accept myself to walk equally within that vulnerability so thus an intimacy can open up and comfortability can emerge.

I commit myself to stop defining life by weak or strong due to the correlation of their physical or mental abilities, and thus push myself to walk the physical living with others as equals in breath and don’t accept myself to act in separation by stopping the thoughts of polarity from fueling this to continue.

I commit myself to stop and breath from defining myself as weak or strong and thus go into a fear or superiority within seeing abuse as the outcome, where I stop and commit myself to not follow these thoughts of polarity and stop myself from going into abuse towards others and thus stop the fear of being abused, by pushing myself to stop.

I commit myself to walk and push in breath living here stopping my thoughts and emotions and feelings as reactions towards others, and thus practice being physical and finding solutions as equals or in correlation in what is best for all. 

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Day 164 – Vulnerability – Is a Weakness - Part 3

Why do I fear this being open and vulnerable because of holding onto memories that cause me to feel fearful, but in a way to become self intimate and get help from those that can support me, I must become open and thus vulnerable in a sense. I see I have been made to believe through childhood that being open and vulnerable is a sign of weakness, those that are seen as vulnerable are easier to abuse and thus if you don’t want to be abused you have to become strong and hard within who you are because no one is going to take care of me, and will exploit that fact that one have a weakness because in this world all are trying to survive and be at the top for the ‘system’ rewards you gain there and that takes a sense of inhuman ruthlessness because there is only a few who can gain such rewards.

This is a continuation of Day 162 – Vulnerability – Part 1 and 

Day 163- Vulnerability – Part 2 – Fear and Belief Patterns for your reference.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories as a kid of seeing life being weak and thus less then due to the movies and tv shows depicting the ones who were inferior as vulnerable in some way and thus the weak ones, be it a physical ailment or mental ailment, there was always a point where it was obvious they had a vulnerable point and thus the others who were stronger usually exploited it for their own gain due to existing within the mentality of some are born weak and some are born strong, and the strong will survive and it’s too bad for the weak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to view life within a polarity of some are weak and some are strong due to the physical make up and features of the other as well as intellect to determine within myself if I will be vulnerable among them for abuse, and so I will create my reality in a reactive state of fear rather then here equal and one with life and thus within stability. I realize that this reactive state is where I loss my power as I am allowing my emotionsand desires direct me in feeling a certain way and wanting a certain outcome, so thus sabotaging myself because I believe what defines a human is their physical appearance and intellect rather then the truth of what is here as equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, see, and understand, that when I go into emotions as inferiority or dread when I see myself within a vulnerability due to seeing myself as less then others within my look or intellect, I will immediately go into a resistance and then be vulnerable for attack as I will not be here grounded, but will be in my mind in constant fear that will be seen as weak by others and thus create this point of attack by believing that I am weak and I can’t defend myself due to this belief of not being equal with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand where this will take me within believing that vulnerability is a weakness by continuously allowing my definitions of vulnerability in separation to myself and in judgment of what is good as a self manipulation to sabotage myself and never allow myself to be intimate with me or another being, because I can’t trust them as I can’t even trust myself. I realize that to be for real within vulnerability with another human being in self honesty is an awesome thing as the guards are down and real truth is able to be expressed through where people can see each other and relate to each other rather then always being in fear of each other and see as a means to an end or in fear of being abused. I realize that I am the one creating this by separating myself from my own self vulnerability by believing that vulnerability is only defined by external reality rather then self within self in opening up and allowing self to see who I am and thus be open and vulnerable to see everything for real and thus be able to change it through a willingness to see in self honesty and accept whatever comes.

Self commitments to follow.

Day 163- Vulnerability – Part 2 – Fear and Belief Patterns

Looking at the point of being vulnerable, within my life I have never enjoyed feeling this way as obviously being vulnerable means you are more able to be abused or harmed, within me I never wanted to be in such a state. There is an inherent fear within this of being let down and thus abused within opening myself up and allowing vulnerability, and so I am very seldom given into being vulnerable with others and allowing myself to open up. I see how I have created many parts in my world where I perceive that I am vulnerable and open for attack based on being hyper-reactive within perceiving what others are thinking of me, so this created many imaginations of being perceived as others thinking me as weak, but I realized I am the one creating this within my own head.

This is a continuation of Day 162 – Vulnerability – Part 1 for your reference.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not become open and vulnerable with people in my world who have shown support and care towards me and still I will not allow myself to trust them based on fearing that I will get hurt and/or abused. I realize that within this fear I am not allowing myself to ever become intimate with another or intimate with myself because I’m accepting thoughts of what others think of me direct who I am and thus never actually in realityhearing or really seeing what others are saying and/or living within my world but always in a perception of defense, like I will be attacked or abused if I let my guard down thus never really realizing myself as self as the other as who we are as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming intimate with another based on holding onto my past of abuse and allowing that to direct me here with others, in a constant pattern of self sabotage due to this belief that I am not worthy of others care and support because there is something wrong with me. I realize that this fear of being intimate with others is based on holding onto this belief that I am not worthy of care and support based on me fueling it and keeping it alive through continually participating in it, accepting this belief and fear to be real for me as I am creating it within myself, there is no outside force that is making me live in such a way, I am creating this on my own, and thus I realize that it is not in fact real as its coming from my mind it is not physical, and thus I can stop it, all I have to do is stop participating in the thoughts, stop fueling the thoughts, and thus stop living the thoughts as past, present, future, and live here in breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe these thoughts are true that I have something wrong with me and I am not worthy of care and support from others, and thus believe the thoughts that others see me as not worthy as well creating my own hell within myself as I can never get close to anyone because I am in constant fear that I will be abused as I have been in the past, so thus living the past in my present and thus into the future, enslaving myself to the past and thus into the present to thus repeat in the future, when I realize this is not necessary, I am only enslaved to my past if I allow it and it’s really rather stupid to allow this because the past is not real, it’s not physical so how can it be real, but I can believe it to be real by making it up in my mind and thus living from thought.

So, I commit myself to stop and breath when and as I see I am going into any form of self diminishment based on selfjudgments or projections of how others are seeing me, and within myself I speak the words ‘stop’ and do not accept myself to go into this pattern. It’s as simple as making this decision to stop when a thought comes or an emotion comes, and thus breath through it, and continue to walk my day, participate with people, speak to people, play with the animals, enjoy myself living, become self disciplined, and continuing this walk until I am clear and I am here and I am effective for what is best for all, where no more thoughts of self diminishment directs me as I realize I am one and equal with all life and all life is one and equal to me, no separation exists, this I have to prove in my living for myself to live this for real, this is my commitment to myself as life as all, so we can stop the illusion of underestimation of ourselves, and walk our real potential as what life is, limitless in essence within the principles of oneness and equality as the directive will of self.

I commit myself to stop the fear of abuse from others and thus build my own self-trust through building my own self-integrity by living my words and taking responsibility for who I am, by strengthening my resolve in growing my understanding and application of self honesty and common sense living, and living within the principles of equality for real, never taking anything from others personally or for granted as I realize that we are all walking process and everyone is at different stages within this process of equalizing self as the phsyical, and thus I give others the space to grow and give support if it is relevant unconditionally as I was given myself. I give what I have received and I commit to this so thus we as beings of life can become whole again within who we are as it’s a sure process to walk to correct our faults with real application and so I commit to walk this walk until it is complete for all so we can be free.

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Day 162 – Vulnerability – Part 1

Looking at the point of being vulnerable, within my life I have never enjoyed feeling this way as obviously being vulnerable means you are more able to be abused or harmed, within me I never wanted to be in such a state. There is an inherent fear within this of being let down and thus abused within opening myself up and allowing vulnerability, and so I am very seldom given into being vulnerable with others and allowing myself to open up. I see how I have created many parts in my world where I perceive that I am vulnerable and open for attack based on being hyper-reactive within perceiving what others are thinking of me, so this created many imaginations of being perceived as others thinking me as weak, but I realized I am the one creating this within my own head.

Why do I fear this being open and vulnerable because of holding onto memories that cause me to feel fearful, but in a way to become self intimate and get help from those that can support me, I must become open and thus vulnerable in a sense. I see I have been made to believe through childhood that being open and vulnerable is a sign of weakness, those that are seen as vulnerable are easier to abuse and thus if you don’t want to be abused you have to become strong and hard within who you are because no one is going to take care of me, and will exploit that fact that one have a weakness because in this world all are trying to survive and be at the top for the ‘system’ rewards you gain there and that takes a sense of inhuman ruthlessness because there is only a few who can gain such rewards.

I found that this was a cycle of the abuser and abused, where I became an abuser and thus within this their was a lust for power within having power over others and exploiting their weakness and vulnerability. But this is quite an evil way to be because within the point of become vulnerable with another, it’s a trust that is given, and if that trust is broken, the other can easily fall and thus never trust again. You as the person that broke the trust is responsible for that other who had fell, and now you are to be seen as untrustworthy. This started in childhood, where I was learning from adults who I would see would exploit those who were seen as more vulnerable and degrade those who appeared weaker, and so I learned that to be successful in life and not be harmed is to not be vulnerable and to not be seen as weak, thus trust was secondary and deception was what I grew on me to survive.

I grew a huge resistance to being weak and thus being vulnerable, and so I grew a desire to be strong, to be seen by others as strong, and to prove this strength in my living for others to see so I am not someone who can be abused and I wouldn’t be seen as weak or vulnerable. I found that I would thus gear towards being more into sports and proving myself in sports to other guys as I saw the majority of this vulnerability was linked to being female and being unable to compete.

So as long as I was able to compete and keep up with the men in sports, I was seeing myself as strong and thus within this I got an added bonus, I started to feel powerful where I would lead the neighborhood kids within activities we would play, and based on me being the stronger one as well as one of the older kids, I easly fit into the leader of the group and I liked it, this was the first time I was feeling this lust to have power over others. I learned that strength in what I do and not showing weakness was the best way to survive, but I found also that this was a miserable way to live because as is known, that through survival you have to become ruthless, this was my weakness because I could only be so deceptive, until my 'conscious' got to me, and I started to feel very shitty about myself and how I was living. So within this gain for power and control over others, I become subject to this game of others trying to take this position, interesting this was only childhood play, but it is as much alive in children as it is in the world system. Who do the children learn from - the adults, so what does that say about adults in this world? Not a lot about integrity and unity that is for sure.

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Day 97 - I am a Loner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live into this character of being a loner where I avoid becoming intimate with others due to fear of vulnerability as I have formed a mistrust with all others in my world where I do not accept them to be close to me nor me be close to them because of fear of abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being abused by others because I am locked within the memories of being abused by others within and as my world and thus will not accept myself to become vulnerable as I have formed a mistrust within all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by the abuse in my past and thus form a mistrust within all life here showing and revealing that I don’t trust myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be an abuser where I abuse life in thought and make it so I am the top in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be on top due to seeing myself on the bottom and thus creating the polarity of top and bottom to exist for me instead of living who I am as equal with all from and as physical life that is here as we breath and live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to be on top based on this fear of survival as I have defined myself by survival because I am living as memory and thus missing me here, missing life, missing myself in the physical because of fear of abuse.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear living and becoming a being who can face all points within who I am because I have not made the decision to stand no matter what and become absolute within my self discipline in where I walk the physical in each breath.

When and as I find myself going to the thoughts of self sabotage as fear, I stop and breath, and thus move me physically within the physical actions I am doing meaning become aware of how I am moving within my physical, and make a decision each and every breath to stop the thoughts, I am not thoughts, thoughts are mind thus not real, I am the physical here so thus to be this I must create myself as this by becoming absolute in my stand and walking self discipline till it is me and I breath here.

I commit myself to walk the point of facing my fears of others where in I do not accept myself to go into this loner character where I avoid the conversation or sharing myself within and as breath and thus I go into the point in self honesty to thus catch all the points that I see that do not allow me to express here and create separation/mistrust.

I commit myself to walk self trust within applying myself within self forgiveness, self honesty, and self correction in action and thus will be able to trust myself with all others and not be defined by reactions or internal conversations as I have the points able to be walked through the application of the tools to self freedom.

I commit myself to walk self trust by getting to know myself, who I am within myself, and thus stopping the thoughts and reactions with others and breathing to become stable within my living.

I commit myself to stop polarities within equalizing myself within my day to day living by stopping the thoughts and reactions to thus be able to live here in physical reality and walk as stability.

I commit to walk through my memories and apply self forgiveness to thus be able to walk through all points within what come up in my life so thus I always have a point of stability in which I can move and equalize myself with what is here.

I commit myself to walk within all points until I am here stable able to stand within all points that I will face by creating myself here new in a character that breath and live as physical only living what is best for all in absolute dedication to self here one and equal in self honesty and self corrective measures I realize is me.

For Further Support, Please check out Links:

Journey to Life Group
Creation's Journey to Life
Earth's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to LIfe
Eqafe Life Products - Self Help
Desteni Site
Desteni Wiki



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