Day 307 – The Innocence of the Womb – Does the Fetus See it this Way?

So recently there has been a set of blogs coming up from the Creation’s Journey to Life blogs written by Bernard Poolman from the Desteni Group regarding the developing fetus in the mother’s womb. This is a natural and common practice we as humans either witness or go through ourselves as parents when a child is conceived and developing within the women, but within these blogs there is a hidden existence that has never been realized, understood, or discovered due to the unattained access that never existed until recently with the portal opening. This being the physical access of direct communication with the life awareness of the fetus itself, this possible again through the portal at Desteni. This access is the access to see beyond all and any normal human view and perception, the portal is able to access all dimensions of existence and speak to all walks of life as well as those from the non-living dimensions (from Death and beyond). So the portal has access to all forms of existence and all forms of existence's has awareness to access and communicate through the portal to the life that is here and who can hear on this planet through a girl's physical body (click links to read more on the portal).

The baby who is now being developed has been interviewed through the portal at 13-14 weeks, and is one of the most absolutely fascinating learning and realizations I have come across yet. He/she speaks about not the development of the physical body as you would have probably presumed, no he/she speaks about the development of the mind system as what we know as consciousness within and throughout the developing physical body that the baby and the mother are busy growing and manifesting. And how the mind integrates and encapsulates quite unnatural and conclusively the natural physical substance as the physical body of the fetus, it’s quite shocking to read because you instinctively want the baby as the innocence of ourselves to be in absolute comfort and protection, but within reading these conversations, you see the limiting and predatory nature the mind system really exists and integrates within us as the physical body to be birthed and lived as part of what we call life here as the human being.

Here is an excerpt from the blog titled:

Day 385: Fetal Development Stages – Consciousness Research –Week 14 (Part One)  - Creations Journey to Life

Discussion between Bernard and the Baby-to-Be (Through the Portal at Desteni)

Fetus: Let me put it to you this way: in the Mind of the Mother-to-Be, there will be a Dominant Relationship to a Parent. That Relationship is then imprinting unto the Mother (that’s Pregnant) - from her Mother or her Father (whichever parent / parental figure the mother has a dominant relationship with in their Minds), and from there that Information is then within the Child already Imprinting. Meaning – the Child is already going to Know ‘What to Expect’ in terms of the Type of Relationship that their Mother is going to have with them.

So for example, what I now see within Leila, in her mind, it’s like centralized there – is her Mother. All of that information is then imprinting into you (Leila), and the Relationship that you had with your mother, for example what parent-child relationship you had with her, how you behaved, her relationship/behavior towards you and it’s already Resonating down to me – for example. In this, what is already being programmed is how I will be in behavior/relationship to you (Leila); our parent-child relationship is already being defined based on your parent-child relationship with your Mother.

Bernard: So that would then be the Knees, because that is the Ego, Survival – ‘How am I Going to Survive All of this?’ So, then that’s why the arms are sore, because they are increasing in discomfort – because it is linked to ‘How am I going to Handle this?’, ‘How am I going to Direct this?’, ‘Who Am I Going to Be within the History of my Forbearers?’ But, that is not seen on a Personal Level that is seen on a Survival Level – Purely as Pattern; which means that even Choices that will be made later on in Life, is already being Formed.

Fetus: The Life Pattern, yes.

Bernard: These Choices will be based-on Survival and will be Based on ‘Gaining Position’, that means Competition – to Establish the Position within the Hierarchy of Beings. That then already Determines What the Being will be in terms of Capacity, because the Capacity will be Governed by the Position in the Hierarchy. “This is All I Am Able to Be” –is the Decision that is already taking shape and also “I cannot be More than This”. That is very much influenced by the Lineage of the Parents and the Parents Before and what they’ve Been in Life in general.

Fetus: The energy of that (the statements of “This is All I Am Able to Be” / “I cannot be More than This”) is experienced as like a ‘Dullness’, as if you’re in a room and you’re contained and you can’t breathe properly or effectively. (This is what the Fetus is already experiencing/becoming aware of as the Limitation that manifested into and as its Beingness with regards to the preprogramming of who/how they’re going to develop into/as based on Survival)

Bernard: Constriction – which is actually Position, because Position is Constriction, a Space-Time Relationship to All Possible Relationships within the Context of the Self-Design, which is based on What has Been Before. Breaking out of that, is in most cases Unlikely, because the Environment is going to be the Parents and the Grandparents and the Family – which Determines Space-Time Position and ‘Who I Am’, ‘Who I Will Be’, ‘Who I Can Be’, ‘What is Possible’ and ‘What is Not Possible’, ‘What is Probable’ and ‘What is the Best Approach to Survive from Birth to Death’. So Death is already Placed as the Position Outcome within the Context of the Past and how to Best Reach the Optimum Death Point through Surviving.

I also recommend these blogs as a continuation of this discussion above:

Day 383: Child Development in the Womb Research

Day 386: Fetal Development Stages – Consciousness Research – Week 14 (Part Two)

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Day 157 – What is in a Name? 'Garb' age Part 2 Self Corrective Statements

This is a continuation to the blog Day 156 – What is in a Name? Part 2 – ‘Garb’ age

I commit myself to stop the pictures of digust within my mind when the word garbage is spoken as I realize it is what it is within the physical consequences of our partipcation in physical life.

I commit myself to stop the judgment of the word garbage as gross and disusting and stop the point of correlation to me as my name as garb within it and thus I assosicate myself and judge myself as gross and disgusting because of this point when I realize it has no relevance to myself, the only point of similarity is the letters within a sequence that is the same to the beginning of my name.

I commit myself to stop the negative charge to the word garbage by stopping the pictures in my head of rotting groos waste, and thus breath through this reaction and stabilize myself by focusing on the common sense understanding that it is the consequence of how living process here as life and the physical process of the food process and life process.

I commit myself to stop the judgment of myself in seeing myself as negative when called the word garbage, as I stop and breath, and let go of the judgment I hold of this word as disgusting and gross, and thus see it within the context of a joke or an ignorant person, and thus direct the point within understanding that I am not defined by a word but who I am within what is here or said to me, I define me, I decide.

I commit myself to let go of the judgment of self based on the word garbage, and thus stop the inner conflict when someone calls me this by stopping and breathing when I go into any judgment realizing that I am not defined by this word through stopping my negative association with it and living it for what it is here in the physical meaning of it.

I commit myself to stop the feelings of being attacked based on taking the word garbage personally by stopping the reactions through breathing.

I commit myself to direct myself within a stability point when this word is spoken towards me by stop taking it personally as I realize it is just a word and has no relevance to me but only if I allow it to, so I stop this point from bothering me.

I commit myself to stop the point of giving up and reclusion when I am called this word as I stop taking the word personally by breathing and remaining in in the breath until the emotions/feelings stop, and realize that it is just a word.

I commit myself to stop going into a suppression point when I hear this word spoken and directed towards me and stand stable in the understanding of how I am as equal to others and that I am not directed by words, but I direct myself as
words.

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Day 156 – What is in a Name? Part 2 – ‘Garb’ age

Now my name is Garbrielle, and within my friends and what name stuck was this name of Garb, I didn't ever really consider this name being anything then just a nickname until it was used in a not so pleasant way. When I first heard my nickname used in a diminishing way or what I found to be diminishing way is when I was called ‘Garbage’ as obviously garbage is rotten, old foul leftovers of human waste, and thus is generally resisted and frowned upon due to the unpleasant smells and appearance of what this look like. So I did not take to kindly in hearing others call me this name, either in a friendly joking way or in a way to diminish me. So everytime I hear the word garbage I recluse into myself as I know that within this point I am vulnerable to attack and abuse, and being attacked and abused was not a point I desired due to me wanting the ‘good’ life of basic self interest.

But within this, is this who I am and how I define myself, someone defined by a word and thus only thinking about myself and my own happineness in life. For a long time, yes, this was me, but this never brought me any form of happiness or satisfaction within a wholeness of myself, but constant inner conflict and swayed by the tides of others. I have learned throughout the years thought that this way of living I don’t want to continue living in this way. I realize that within the word ‘garbage’ I hold a negative charge as I described above and thus within being called this reacted in negativity towards myself and thus created an instability within me based on this judgment. But within the word garbage it is just a word, there is no chain coming out of the word latching me by my feet and enslaving me to it, I am the one doing it to myself by allowing this word to have power over me by judging the word as negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word garbage within a picture in my head as gross rotting waste and thus within this point take it personally when another called me this because my name has the likes of this word within it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge this word as negative and thus define myself in a negative way as a worthless person based on others calling me this because of the deliberate nature of the word to be seen as something that is not wanted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus define myself by being called this name in a way that created an inner conflict based on seeing that people where calling me this on purpose because I am this way worthless and unwanted, but not considering the point of it being a joke or just done in a similarity type of way not personally, and thus just see the dark and negative connotations to the word and the correlation of me within this as being this word as the idea I have placed on it as worthless and unwanted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word garbage as a disgrace and an attack and thus within this saw myself less then others and so went into self diminishment based on defining myself by the idea I had placed on the word ‘garbage’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take being called garbage as a personal attack and thus go into a reclusion within myself towards the other in a giving up way to show that I have defined myself by this word as negative and thus see myself as less then that who called me in such a way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a give up character when I am called garbage as if I am defined and determined by my idea of this word as worthless and unwanted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself in my world as worthless and unwanted and thus take this word as garbage personally as I am already defining myself in such a way and thus further manipulating myself into self sabotage by using this word to define me as what I think about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish myself based on holding onto the idea of a word as being who I am based on being called it in a way that I deemed demeaning, and thus live into this as self suppression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by how others treated me and thus go into self suppression within my physical interaction with others in a suppression and tightness within the body when this word is spoken.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow my physical to restrict based on defining myself by this word as garbage, I realize that the word is a word and it doesn’t define me as it simple describing a point of physical processing and has no relevance to me or my name.

Will continue in the next blog.


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Day 155- What's in a name? Part 1 – Self Commitment Statements

I suggest if you are interested in walking the self forgiveness, reference Day 154: What is in a name? Part 1 - Self Forgiveness blog. 

I commit myself to when I hear my name being said not correctly and I find the backchat becomes activated within me, I stop and breath, and state ‘no, I don’t accept myself to go into this backchat’ and not participate. I walk the correction after stabilizing myself to tell them my correct name if it’s relevant and move on.

I commit myself to walk the correction of stopping existing in memories of seeing myself superior to others and seeing them as annoyances because I had to stop and correct them with my name, so thus stop the point of annoyance as I realize this is just showing that I am in self interest and not considering the other as myself, so consider the other as me and treat them as equals.

I commit myself to stop the point of desire to get a high feeling and thus I commit myself to stop desire for energy as feelings.

I commit myself to stop the point of superiority and thus stop the thoughts as seeing others as stupid and assuming that they are not hearing me deliberately in spitefulness because I was accepting impatience and not breathing, so thus I correct this by considering that others might not have heard it correctly or simply couldn’t say it properly, stopping assumption and impatiences, and thus I breath, and say to them my name correctly without any energy movement.

I commit myself to stop judging others in anyway and understand from a perspective of give as I would like to receive, to treat others as equal as no one is more then any other being thus i correct myself by living this through stopping the thoughts and emotions as impatience in superiority to others.

I commit myself to stop the point of justification within me based on accepting this point of superiority that they should know and listen more carefully to my name and they won't mess it up, so stopping the point of taking it personally and going into blame, and thus take responsibility for who I am by stopping the reactions when my name is mis-spoke through breathing and walking the physical correction of speaking my name again with no inner movement.

I commit myself to stop the point of blame as it being their fault and simply if my name is not said right, breath, and tell them the correction if it is relevant stopping any movements within me to go into blame.

I commit myself to breath when resistances come up to work or speak with others when I find someone continuing to speak my name incorrectly, and continue to interact when I am stable to stop this point of separation as it’s simply energy and thus I realize it will run out, so walk until I am clear and can speak in equilibrium with all to continue to correct my name or let it be as it is irrelevant.

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Day 154- What is in a name? Part 1 - Self Forgiveness

Here looking at the existence within my name, my name I was given at birth was Garbrielle, but when anyone first meets me and a few times after that they miss the first r and say Gabrielle. So I began to grow a resistance to my name and saying my name to others, because I know I was going to have to repeat myself and correct them, and they still were not going to get it right. I find that within this of meeting new people and finding that I was going to have to say my name again, and this ended up happening, I would say within myself ‘Can’t you just hear what I am saying to you, it’s not Gabrielle, it’s Garbrielle!” And react in annoyance based on this idea that people should know how to say my name. But realizing that the way my name is spelled is not easy to here the r so it’s to stop the reaction of others saying my name wrong and correct it if it’s relevant.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed backchat thoughts of ‘why can’t people say my name right’ when I hear another person say my name without the r in it as I have imprinted within me from memory moments where I would have to correct my name spelling more times then not, and thus allowed the emotion of annoyance to direct me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live from memories of me within separation of others where I would create this superiority to them, where I was too busy to stop and say my name to them again correctly, so I could continue on my search to find a positive experience and thus treat the people in my world as a nuisance because I wasn’t getting that high as feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the point of believing myself to be superior to others based on not getting the result I wanted and thus seeing them as stupid and not listening, where I had to inconvenience my life to tell them the correct spelling of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as stupid and not listening to me based on me being impatient and believing my time and activities are more important then others, and so act annoyed with them based on this belief of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that within this belief that I am more important then others I am deliberately allowing spitefulness and nastiness towards others based on this imposed position I have created for myself with those who in this case, say my name wrong and then use this as a justification to be spiteful and nasty to them because I was put out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed justification within my world of being more important then others and thus react within points of someone not understanding what I am saying or seeing something differently then what I intended, in spitefulness and annoyance and thus be quick and unfriendly with them based on this point of separation I am accepting within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see those that say my name incorrectly within a point of superiority and thus justify my acts within this separation, and treat others less then who I believe myself to be as more important and that they are burdening me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into superiority with others that don’t say my name right and thus immediately go into irritation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in irritation when my name is spoken wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto this belief that I am more important then others and thus they are holding me back with not hearing my name and how to say it properly and making me repeat myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to my name being said wrong in a resistance and thus blame the person who said my name wrong as the cause of this resistance I am feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus allow blame onto another person for the emotions as resistance and irritation I am accepting within myself based on judging someone and holding onto judgment of someone for saying my name wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge another person in any way what so ever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for my own reactions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto resistances towards others for points that I am accepting and thus causing the resistance to occur.

More to follow in next blog.