How to Create Real Change in Reality - Day 483

Discussing the point of what does it mean to be real, and how to in fact create real change in this reality we currently All live in.

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What does it mean to walk in anothers shoes? - Day 360

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This question I have been asking myself for some time now because within my living I have not been satisfied with the way I am treating my fellow life beings, I am still easily falling into reactions, mind patterns, and backchats of justification to ensure I slid through and escape the reality of who I have become in my day to day living.  I found a lot of the time I am participating in the thought stream of what is going on up in my head, and not doing enough questioning and investigating, but actually accepting it and living it as fact. But in my awareness, I realize and see something is amiss, I am allowing a point of dishonesty to easily to continue to direct me and I see it is based on fear. I am afraid to allow people to get in and disrupt what I am doing in my life, my work flow, my money flow, and my freedom. I don’t want to give up any of what I am doing at the moment and especially don’t want to give up my freedom and expression of independence and purpose I have created now for myself.

So I will go into my day for instance with the notion that I am on a set course and I am on the right course, I know what I am doing and I don’t require anyone’s help or getting involved in my affairs, not really ever slowing down and smelling the roses so to speak, but really moving fast from one moment to the next to the next, always busy, always moving, always going on to the next thing. I move quite quick within my day, from one point to the next, always having something planned and set to do, and from this springs new opportunities and new moments to explore and this is what I live for, I really enjoy the movement of life and how I move within it. So that I would say is a cool thing, I am able to move with life, but the point that is misaligned is how I see others and how I see myself in relation to them. I often am moving so fast and so headstrong within whatever it is I am doing, I don’t realize and see the effect I am having on others, I also don’t consider my words carefully and will at times say things that I later go what? Why did I say that? That was so inconsiderate or harsh or rude? And what I do is that I just say what first comes to mind and not consider the effect that it will have on the other, like I can’t see the other or feel them because I am not equal to them because I am not in the physical, I am in my mind which is based in self interest and illusion only, so I hurt others, and create unnecessary consequence.

So here is the point that I want to start investigating and establishing a point of change for myself especially in slowing down because one of the problems is that I am too much in my mind, in my thoughts and in my plans, and not seeing and really physically living in my body, in my movements, in my breath, in my interactions with others, and through this slowing down, see others, hear them, and apply the tools of self forgiveness and self change real time. This will support with grounding myself in what is happening in reality in interactions for instance, and so can start once I have proven I can change and give proper support in self honesty, I can start moving in the support of another through taking responsibility of myself and so the other in what I can do to support what is best for all. Meaning connect with them as how I would want to be talk to or engaged, but also expand myself to go beyond my personalities, my comfort zones, my beliefs, and my ideas of myself to create the change or start of change that I want for myself and so for others in the principles of living equality and oneness and doing what is best in each moment.

Putting myself in others shoes is a point of letting go of the positive and/or the negative outflows I am addicted to, and standing in the physical as the moment that is here, and walking the process to let go of the thoughts, and expand myself into becoming humbled and so vulnerable to really see the other and make a real connection to further the relationship into something worthwhile and can an expansion of going beyond the ordinary and living the extraordinary, bringing myself and so others to this point of expression is the greatest gift I could give and is given to me equally when walked in what is best here as life through self awareness.

Self forgiveness to follow on fear, positive/negative impulsed actions, moving quick in mind/body, desiring a reward, desiring to win, competition, freedom, being stubborn, holding onto ideas in the mind of past moments, and gossip; also desiring perfection without compensating and hiding the reality of the imperfection within....thanks for reading.

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Day 236 – Hitting a Squirrel – Blinded by the Light

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“The other day I was on my way to work, and on my way, I go down a big hill, it’s quite an enjoyable ride because I go into a foresty type area on the bottom, and the trees are cool.”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to go and drive through this portion of the street because of the feeling of calmness and tranquility that goes through me when I enter the portion of trees that covers my whole car.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be enthralled by this feeling of calmness and tranquility because I am addicted to it based on the fact that most of my day is spent in mental and physical stress due to allowing my thoughts to continual bother me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to feelings and emotions within myself, and thus miss the reality right in front of me where in in this case I end of abusing life in the ultimate sense by killing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the reality of the squirrel going by and be lost within these feelings of calmness as I went through the trees as I have attached the trees as a place of peace instead of simply seeing it for what it is a place of where more trees reside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to escape the mental stress within desiring to be under these tress on my morning drive being in my head looking forward to this pass instead of in my physical body paying attention to the road.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost within these nice feelings within my body and thus not push myself to stop them and let them go to thus be able to direct myself in the physical and be fully present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become lost within the negative emotionalfeelings in my mind and body in where I desire to escape these emotions because of the overwhelmingness I can participate within at times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by energy within a negative andpositive polarity outplay in and throughout my day where I will resist one and crave the other, causing an unbalance in my living and not really living the physical because I am in my mind causing feelings and resisting my normal mental state which is usually stressed.

When and as I see myself going into this point of desire to escape and thus find something peaceful to do that will give me good feelings to resist and escape the emotions of stress and overwhelmingness I participate within, I stop and breath, and I realize that this way of living through the mind and being directed by energywill cause me to be unstable and miss reality. I realize that this is very consequential, as I am not considering what is really in fact going on and stuck in an alternate reality in my illusions that are not real and can take me out there to far places.

I commit myself to stop my mind from directing me into desires to escape into doing peaceful things, by not participating in these thoughts, and walking the correction within saying no I stop escaping, I am here in my body, and I walk the physical in focusing on all that is here as me.

I commit myself to move myself until I am here within my physical body, and I can immediately place myself in my physical and be here, to become aware and direct myself in the best way I am able to.

I commit myself to embrace myself as breath, and push myself to become aware of it in each moment, so I have the best opportunity to avoid any accidents or abuse I may inadvertently cause.


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Day 170 – Resistance to Change – Part 2 – Fear of No Money – Self Forgiveness

Here looking at the dimension of resisting change within process where I fear not having money and not being able to pay my bills on time, this fear is also a fear of losing my good standing in credit value, which is interesting as a hold a value of myself as a ‘good and savvy’ spender, and thus I don’t want to lose this status as I will have a hard time getting loans out. So to dig deeper within this point, it’s a fear of not being able to get a home or a car, or necessities I need easily, and having to struggle to get the comforts I will need to live a comfortable life, I fear struggling and not having money to survive.

But within this there is a practical way to walk this, were I can make decisions in awareness of all the different aspects I will face and make informed decisions based on what assessments I have made in common sense to work for me and also not compromise myself within my process of standing for life. I can walk this by stopping the fear, and making sure I walk the system as it is now, so I do have that stability in the future for when I need it so I can stand within my responsibilities and not be hindered by bad decisions I made in the past, such as buying a car that is more expensive then I need, and going with a common sensical decision that saves money and is also practically suitable for what I will need it for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear of not having money and not being able to survive is not a reasonable point to allow to direct me as this is based on something that is not based on reality considerations but irrational reason fueled by energy as emotion as fear. I realize that there are practical steps I can take in common sense to assure that I am stable in the system, which require to walk steps within the system and co-operate with the system as it is now, but also can create myself in ways that support myself to stand up for a solution through the avenues of words and walking my process in visibility so others can learn and the message of equality and oneness with all life can grow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to energize the fear of struggling and not having money through thoughts and pictures of me being on the street with no place to go, and accept these thoughts and pictures to scare me into a depressive state, where I go into a hopelessness that I will never make anything of myself, I am not going to be able to get a job to support myself and be able to live in a certain comfort ability and stability. I realize that this fear is irrational and only holding me within a petrification where I can't move myself physically as I am locked within the energy as fear as a negative emotion, I understand though that this emotion is in fact not real and doesn’t have to direct and control me, but I can walk through this fear and direct myself to support myself and the direction I take to always consider what is best for all and thus what will be best for myself through common sense assessment and walking principled in what's best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow an emotion as fear create an outflow in my world in which I participated and thus made real within my living as a hopelessness in where I lived out this point by becoming depressed and walloping in this depressive state believing that I can not do anything for myself and that I am no good, when all the while I am doing nothing to support myself, wasting my time in a state that is made up in the mind, where I realize the solution is not in the mind but in my physical action within walking and moving myself physically in the direction that will support me into stability in my living day to day as well as moving in the overall process as myself in this world system, to function and become excellent within who I am as a living being in the service and honor of creating a world that will support all equal and give dignity to all by creating myself in this image and likeness through my actions and my words in practical avenues that is best for all life always.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as self interest in this desire to have a certain specific outcome in my living as comfortable and safe in which I desire this for myself over all within this world, I desire to have money so I can individually not suffer, while I participate and continue to exist and prosper off a system that allow billions to suffer daily. I realize and understand the deliberate brutality and ignorance I exist within to only look out for and desire my own special heaven within my safenet as money while there are others who go without. I then realize that this is unacceptable for me to be this way as I wouldn’t want this for myself hence the desire for survival as I understand everyone want to live, life is meant for living not suffering, and thus I see that I must walk the path to correction within each and every thought, word, deed I walk to be considerate of all the life it will effect and take into value the living consequence I will leave for myself and for all the life I am effecting, and so change myself so no one is abused or made to suffer in anyway I am able to prevent this through my own self will in awareness in my process to self perfection. So I walk the solution that is here through the self perfection process at desteni as well as the solution for the world system as the equal money system from birth.

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Day 168 – Spitefulness is Nasty – Self Correction

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am going into a spitefulness based on a perception of not being seen in a particular way, I stop and breath, and correct this point with stopping the thoughts and not participating with other until I am clear and able to stand equal to the other in consideration of the other as myself in what is best for all.

I commit myself to when I see I am going in to a perception of how others should be or are thinking or seeing me, stop and breath, and focus on the physical, also focus on myself and what I am walking within becoming aware of my actions and words and aligning that which I am aware of to be equal and one in what is best for all in the situation I am in.

I commit myself to stop spitefulness by stopping going into this point of validation through others actions towards me by focusing on my own self equality and standing stable, I commit to stand here in stability as I process myself from the mind as illusion as thoughts, stopping this from directing me, and move into my physical body in slowly but surely directing myself within the physical in what I see in common sense to help those I am with in the best way I can through walking a self equality here stable and clear.

I commit myself to stop taking things personally by walking the realization that it is not about the external world, but who I am in relation to it within myself, and so I walk and commit to walk what is best for all as this is what I would want myself - what is best, so focusing on aligning the all points I live into an equal consideration with all the life I am interacting with in relative terms.

I commit myself to stop the desire to be seen in a specific way and thus push myself to walk humbleness and challenge the point within my self programming to act and be in a certain way, so thus I develop my own self expression and stop existing within the programming of desire to be a specific design.

I commit myself to stop the action of only doing or moving within a desire to get a positive outcome and thus I commit to walk the correction of seeing the physical in what practically has to be done, and stop the drive to do something or be someone to gain a feeling.

I commit myself to stop this point of revenge within stopping the desire to be accepted by others and thus I commit to stop the blame onto others when I perceived I haven’t been accepted, by pushing the acceptance of myself within and as each moment, and walking the correction within accepting what is here as me and correcting what is not aligned to what is best for all within and as my daily living.

I commit myself to let go of feelings and walk what is here in the physical direct and in self support of who I am as life and what is best for all in the solutions and process I walk to create this best way of life for all in the physical, focusing on the facts within physical practical reality and stopping the mind as thoughts, emotions, and feelings from directing me.

I commit myself to stop this point of addiction to feelings as energy, and walk the correction as living from the physical, living from breathing, and stopping my participation in energy as emotions, feelings, thoughts, reactions, really any separation from what is here as myself as life. I commit to walk each moment in acceptance, until I am here and moved by nothing but my own awareness in directive will for what is best for all.

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Day 165 - Vulnerability - Is a Weakness Self Correction Statements

I commit myself to disengage and let go of all memories of tv shows and movies that come up within my head as pictures of people who are weak, such as those with physical or mental ailments, and thus see them as vulnerable as was implied in these media outlets, and thus go into separation towards these people based on seeing them as this picture of weakness as vulnerability.

So I commit to stop allowing myself to follow thoughts as pictures and memories, as they don’t support life or others as life.

I commit myself to stop and breath when the desire comes up to exploit someone’s weakness and/or vulnerability point for my own gain.

I commit myself to stop seeing vulnerability as a weakness and thus see it as a point of gentleness within the other and thus accept myself to walk equally within that vulnerability so thus an intimacy can open up and comfortability can emerge.

I commit myself to stop defining life by weak or strong due to the correlation of their physical or mental abilities, and thus push myself to walk the physical living with others as equals in breath and don’t accept myself to act in separation by stopping the thoughts of polarity from fueling this to continue.

I commit myself to stop and breath from defining myself as weak or strong and thus go into a fear or superiority within seeing abuse as the outcome, where I stop and commit myself to not follow these thoughts of polarity and stop myself from going into abuse towards others and thus stop the fear of being abused, by pushing myself to stop.

I commit myself to walk and push in breath living here stopping my thoughts and emotions and feelings as reactions towards others, and thus practice being physical and finding solutions as equals or in correlation in what is best for all. 

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Day 164 – Vulnerability – Is a Weakness - Part 3

Why do I fear this being open and vulnerable because of holding onto memories that cause me to feel fearful, but in a way to become self intimate and get help from those that can support me, I must become open and thus vulnerable in a sense. I see I have been made to believe through childhood that being open and vulnerable is a sign of weakness, those that are seen as vulnerable are easier to abuse and thus if you don’t want to be abused you have to become strong and hard within who you are because no one is going to take care of me, and will exploit that fact that one have a weakness because in this world all are trying to survive and be at the top for the ‘system’ rewards you gain there and that takes a sense of inhuman ruthlessness because there is only a few who can gain such rewards.

This is a continuation of Day 162 – Vulnerability – Part 1 and 

Day 163- Vulnerability – Part 2 – Fear and Belief Patterns for your reference.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories as a kid of seeing life being weak and thus less then due to the movies and tv shows depicting the ones who were inferior as vulnerable in some way and thus the weak ones, be it a physical ailment or mental ailment, there was always a point where it was obvious they had a vulnerable point and thus the others who were stronger usually exploited it for their own gain due to existing within the mentality of some are born weak and some are born strong, and the strong will survive and it’s too bad for the weak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to view life within a polarity of some are weak and some are strong due to the physical make up and features of the other as well as intellect to determine within myself if I will be vulnerable among them for abuse, and so I will create my reality in a reactive state of fear rather then here equal and one with life and thus within stability. I realize that this reactive state is where I loss my power as I am allowing my emotionsand desires direct me in feeling a certain way and wanting a certain outcome, so thus sabotaging myself because I believe what defines a human is their physical appearance and intellect rather then the truth of what is here as equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, see, and understand, that when I go into emotions as inferiority or dread when I see myself within a vulnerability due to seeing myself as less then others within my look or intellect, I will immediately go into a resistance and then be vulnerable for attack as I will not be here grounded, but will be in my mind in constant fear that will be seen as weak by others and thus create this point of attack by believing that I am weak and I can’t defend myself due to this belief of not being equal with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand where this will take me within believing that vulnerability is a weakness by continuously allowing my definitions of vulnerability in separation to myself and in judgment of what is good as a self manipulation to sabotage myself and never allow myself to be intimate with me or another being, because I can’t trust them as I can’t even trust myself. I realize that to be for real within vulnerability with another human being in self honesty is an awesome thing as the guards are down and real truth is able to be expressed through where people can see each other and relate to each other rather then always being in fear of each other and see as a means to an end or in fear of being abused. I realize that I am the one creating this by separating myself from my own self vulnerability by believing that vulnerability is only defined by external reality rather then self within self in opening up and allowing self to see who I am and thus be open and vulnerable to see everything for real and thus be able to change it through a willingness to see in self honesty and accept whatever comes.

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Day 163- Vulnerability – Part 2 – Fear and Belief Patterns

Looking at the point of being vulnerable, within my life I have never enjoyed feeling this way as obviously being vulnerable means you are more able to be abused or harmed, within me I never wanted to be in such a state. There is an inherent fear within this of being let down and thus abused within opening myself up and allowing vulnerability, and so I am very seldom given into being vulnerable with others and allowing myself to open up. I see how I have created many parts in my world where I perceive that I am vulnerable and open for attack based on being hyper-reactive within perceiving what others are thinking of me, so this created many imaginations of being perceived as others thinking me as weak, but I realized I am the one creating this within my own head.

This is a continuation of Day 162 – Vulnerability – Part 1 for your reference.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not become open and vulnerable with people in my world who have shown support and care towards me and still I will not allow myself to trust them based on fearing that I will get hurt and/or abused. I realize that within this fear I am not allowing myself to ever become intimate with another or intimate with myself because I’m accepting thoughts of what others think of me direct who I am and thus never actually in realityhearing or really seeing what others are saying and/or living within my world but always in a perception of defense, like I will be attacked or abused if I let my guard down thus never really realizing myself as self as the other as who we are as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming intimate with another based on holding onto my past of abuse and allowing that to direct me here with others, in a constant pattern of self sabotage due to this belief that I am not worthy of others care and support because there is something wrong with me. I realize that this fear of being intimate with others is based on holding onto this belief that I am not worthy of care and support based on me fueling it and keeping it alive through continually participating in it, accepting this belief and fear to be real for me as I am creating it within myself, there is no outside force that is making me live in such a way, I am creating this on my own, and thus I realize that it is not in fact real as its coming from my mind it is not physical, and thus I can stop it, all I have to do is stop participating in the thoughts, stop fueling the thoughts, and thus stop living the thoughts as past, present, future, and live here in breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe these thoughts are true that I have something wrong with me and I am not worthy of care and support from others, and thus believe the thoughts that others see me as not worthy as well creating my own hell within myself as I can never get close to anyone because I am in constant fear that I will be abused as I have been in the past, so thus living the past in my present and thus into the future, enslaving myself to the past and thus into the present to thus repeat in the future, when I realize this is not necessary, I am only enslaved to my past if I allow it and it’s really rather stupid to allow this because the past is not real, it’s not physical so how can it be real, but I can believe it to be real by making it up in my mind and thus living from thought.

So, I commit myself to stop and breath when and as I see I am going into any form of self diminishment based on selfjudgments or projections of how others are seeing me, and within myself I speak the words ‘stop’ and do not accept myself to go into this pattern. It’s as simple as making this decision to stop when a thought comes or an emotion comes, and thus breath through it, and continue to walk my day, participate with people, speak to people, play with the animals, enjoy myself living, become self disciplined, and continuing this walk until I am clear and I am here and I am effective for what is best for all, where no more thoughts of self diminishment directs me as I realize I am one and equal with all life and all life is one and equal to me, no separation exists, this I have to prove in my living for myself to live this for real, this is my commitment to myself as life as all, so we can stop the illusion of underestimation of ourselves, and walk our real potential as what life is, limitless in essence within the principles of oneness and equality as the directive will of self.

I commit myself to stop the fear of abuse from others and thus build my own self-trust through building my own self-integrity by living my words and taking responsibility for who I am, by strengthening my resolve in growing my understanding and application of self honesty and common sense living, and living within the principles of equality for real, never taking anything from others personally or for granted as I realize that we are all walking process and everyone is at different stages within this process of equalizing self as the phsyical, and thus I give others the space to grow and give support if it is relevant unconditionally as I was given myself. I give what I have received and I commit to this so thus we as beings of life can become whole again within who we are as it’s a sure process to walk to correct our faults with real application and so I commit to walk this walk until it is complete for all so we can be free.

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Day 162 – Vulnerability – Part 1

Looking at the point of being vulnerable, within my life I have never enjoyed feeling this way as obviously being vulnerable means you are more able to be abused or harmed, within me I never wanted to be in such a state. There is an inherent fear within this of being let down and thus abused within opening myself up and allowing vulnerability, and so I am very seldom given into being vulnerable with others and allowing myself to open up. I see how I have created many parts in my world where I perceive that I am vulnerable and open for attack based on being hyper-reactive within perceiving what others are thinking of me, so this created many imaginations of being perceived as others thinking me as weak, but I realized I am the one creating this within my own head.

Why do I fear this being open and vulnerable because of holding onto memories that cause me to feel fearful, but in a way to become self intimate and get help from those that can support me, I must become open and thus vulnerable in a sense. I see I have been made to believe through childhood that being open and vulnerable is a sign of weakness, those that are seen as vulnerable are easier to abuse and thus if you don’t want to be abused you have to become strong and hard within who you are because no one is going to take care of me, and will exploit that fact that one have a weakness because in this world all are trying to survive and be at the top for the ‘system’ rewards you gain there and that takes a sense of inhuman ruthlessness because there is only a few who can gain such rewards.

I found that this was a cycle of the abuser and abused, where I became an abuser and thus within this their was a lust for power within having power over others and exploiting their weakness and vulnerability. But this is quite an evil way to be because within the point of become vulnerable with another, it’s a trust that is given, and if that trust is broken, the other can easily fall and thus never trust again. You as the person that broke the trust is responsible for that other who had fell, and now you are to be seen as untrustworthy. This started in childhood, where I was learning from adults who I would see would exploit those who were seen as more vulnerable and degrade those who appeared weaker, and so I learned that to be successful in life and not be harmed is to not be vulnerable and to not be seen as weak, thus trust was secondary and deception was what I grew on me to survive.

I grew a huge resistance to being weak and thus being vulnerable, and so I grew a desire to be strong, to be seen by others as strong, and to prove this strength in my living for others to see so I am not someone who can be abused and I wouldn’t be seen as weak or vulnerable. I found that I would thus gear towards being more into sports and proving myself in sports to other guys as I saw the majority of this vulnerability was linked to being female and being unable to compete.

So as long as I was able to compete and keep up with the men in sports, I was seeing myself as strong and thus within this I got an added bonus, I started to feel powerful where I would lead the neighborhood kids within activities we would play, and based on me being the stronger one as well as one of the older kids, I easly fit into the leader of the group and I liked it, this was the first time I was feeling this lust to have power over others. I learned that strength in what I do and not showing weakness was the best way to survive, but I found also that this was a miserable way to live because as is known, that through survival you have to become ruthless, this was my weakness because I could only be so deceptive, until my 'conscious' got to me, and I started to feel very shitty about myself and how I was living. So within this gain for power and control over others, I become subject to this game of others trying to take this position, interesting this was only childhood play, but it is as much alive in children as it is in the world system. Who do the children learn from - the adults, so what does that say about adults in this world? Not a lot about integrity and unity that is for sure.

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Day 100 – Fear of Abuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear abuse, which I allow to direct me into points of submission where I will give up and give in based on this fear that exists within me towards others and allow abuse towards me without standing up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow a fear that does not exist within this physical reality, but only exist within the corridors of my mind where in I accept the fear completely as a point that takes over and thus I go into submission to this fear due to an emotion that is generated as a nausea feeling that physically generate where in I will submit as I don’t believe I can walk and stand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use a point of fear of abuse to not go into situations that I find cusp on the edge of this fear where in I don’t know the outcome and thus am out of control within what will happen to me and how I will be effected thus I will submit to the fear and accept myself to go into hiding or escapism where in I will not stand up for myself, but allow abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the physical indications of this fear that have been generated due to the acceptance of this fear within my mind and thus created the feeling of nausea that I believe is me and that this feeling and fear has more power then me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live into this fear as who I am by accepting and allowing myself to search and look for love in my world, as I realize that if love exist then the opposite of fear exist thus I am not in fact walking the path as courage where in I take on the fear and walk through it, but seek to replace it with another feeling of love which is just recycling the same pattern and thus the fear will continue.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use fear as a means to not have to face myself in what it will take as actual physical self movement, because I am accepting and allowing resistances as it’s too much and I don’t want to do this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not within each breath do what is necessary to be done as a breath and thus stop the point of overwhelmingness that in turn will turn into fear of I am going to fail.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse of overwhelmingness to not have to move myself and stay within this fear of abuse by allowing myself to give into the fear through manipulatingmyself with these thoughts that ‘it’s too much’ and ‘I don’t want to do face this fear of abuse’, to thus sabotage my opportunity to create change and live change for myself and stop the fear by walking the point out through facing the fear and walking what needs to be walked always.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my opportunity to live here in the physical by accepting the thoughts of ‘it’s too much’ and ‘I don’t want to do face this fear of abuse’ and thus create the sabotage of myself by following the thoughts and not facing the fear with others, and thus allow the fear to have power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have fear direct me within my standing here and thus allow the diminishment of me through not facing myself with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have thoughts of ‘It’s too much’ and ‘I don’t want to face this fear’ direct me into submission and self diminishment.

I commit to stop my submission to fear realizing that it is me who is creating the fear and thus I walk the memories through mind constructs to walk the path of deleting the memories that direct me within this fear.

I commit myself to let go of the fear and walk the physical by practicing daily my awareness of my breathing and stopping my thoughts that generate the fear.

I commit myself to accept myself within who I am as this moment, and release myself from this fear of abuse as I realize I can only be abused if I allow it thus I stand up and walk the point of self trust to stop allowing fear to take control.

I commit myself to stop the thoughts of manipulation within thoughts of diminishment as I realize this is me sabotaging myself and thus I can complete anything as long as I stay here and commit to do it, thus I walk this correction within walking to the solution.

I commit myself to walk the change and stop sabotaging myself through fears and realize they are not in fact real, I realize the physical is what is real, thus I walk through practice and patience’s of learning the physical as directive will until I am here and I stand.

I commit myself to stand here within and as my breath and allow the energy to flow through me and be earth back to the earth through my breathing as I am here.

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