Shame - Part 2 - Living this as A Gateway to our Best Self - Day 595

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Continuation of Day 594 -
Shame - Part 1 - Living this as a statement of self correction through self forgiveness - Day 594

Through the experience of shame, this shame is when one do something in one's life that creates an outflow in one's behavior that cause harm and abuse in some way, and is in one's face, eventually when we do not in fact take self responsibility for our actions, these points of self compromise and regrettable actions will be lived out. We don't often consider or become aware of our shameful acts, I know before I was walking the desteni i process, I would not very much take note of the times where I did something to cause harm to another. And when I did, all i wanted to do was escape the event or the people and move onto something that made me feel good inside myself, though the shameful occurrence is a truth now and did in fact happen, this fact can't be denied forever. 

So it's not going to go away, it can be suppressed and buried within, but doesn't ever go away and thus will in turn happen again through time because I did not learn from the last event and I didn't do anything to change the outcome to be something different. Thus in this terrible game I play with myself, i not only weaken and harm my own self integrity and self core as a Living being among all other life and life forms that reside among me, I harm and weaken others around, which creates rippled outflows from beings they will touch and integrate with, and thus exponential abuse is created by my one single action to abdicate responsibility and live out my self irresponsibility to change who I am to be able to stand the outflow of what is best for all, thus why not just face the shame and change myself to be a better human being here now, what better opportunity then the one's life gifts to us as our self experiences day in and day out, breathe by breathe. 

At last, until I finally realized the power of self forgiveness and self will in the corrections of myself that is best for all in my self commitments statements, I did not realize the full and total impact my actions not only have on my mental, spiritual, and physical well being, but every other living thing I touch, which in fact is everything, cause self is one and equal to the physical and thus life itself within to the without. Shame I have found to see my false face and find the grace I was equally given by life itself, to give it another chance to see a better way and for me to take that opportunity and create something more and better for myself and so every being I will touch from that moment forward. So we have extraordinary impact in this life, for better or worse, this always defined and refined by self, and I highly suggest the desteni i process tools to work through who we are as shame and the outflows this creates. 

This the kind of commitment I found was required to walk through my shameful acts and really self investigate who I am within myself to in fact give myself the ability to change in the next moments it could occur again. A never giving up on self's ability to learn and change and a point of self willingness to push into unknown territory and suffering in ways, this when one finally face the shame of self and build up the self empowerment of proven living change to do better for oneself and others, you become a being who is not moved, can move self and direct self into eternal life by living and creating for oneself life to others as how you would want it best for yourself.

Also, a willingness to push oneself always beyond what one thought possible, this I found doesn't have to be an extreme type experience, but to in the moments that open up in your day to day life when you face a challenge, to walk through the fear and face the challenge....and build on this each and every day, to each and every moment it opens up in your world. I am not saying this is all you do all day long, no, just be aware of yourself in your day to day moments and start learning how you operate, the mechanics of self. So working with the moments that bring me shame and I started to become aware of these moments by actively taking self responsibility, I found the point of building oneself up over time, slow but sure, with consistency is the most efficient and effective way to just get it done. It's a slow process, but highly interactive and fascinating, and this i found the gift in living the word shame. 

Shame I have redefined as being ashamed - a- sham (false) - e (expression), so it's a false face I am putting on within myself to mask the real evil (= live in reverse) of who I am being and how I am living in moments with myself and so into moments with others in my actual physical everyday moments. Most of the abuse is in specific personality types I have accepted and allowed to live out, such as self inferiority, self righteousness, ego patterns, and much more, though it was patterned and over time I learned my self abusive patterns through the tools and practice daily of listening to eqafe.com, applying self forgiveness in writing and out loud, and commitment statements for myself through learning from writing each forgiveness statements I made. This so the next time I face this shame and stopping the compounding of abuse, I had a directive in my awareness that I spoke or wrote and was able to redirect my living into a way forward that is best for myself and so best for all I meet. So the shift happens in awareness from the mind disturbances to what and how can I change my physical living to be more efficient in my living mechanics of myself, the way I operate, and how my thoughts, words, and actions has a rippled exponential effect for better or worse. 

And I repeated this over and over until I was satisfied with my self honesty within myself in the process point I was practicing changing. I followed my gut and now recognize this as my self core, self honesty, inner voice, sanctuary that I have created within myself. This inner guide and self honesty support with how to move in my reality, what is best to do, how best can I support live, and where can i make a difference to be a better me, more efficient, more impactful is key to self creation i have found in a way that benefit all. 

The sky of life is the limit as far as I am concerned, and within the limits of life principle in what is best for all, certainly heaven on earth can be created by correcting the inner mechanics of self into the outer by common sense self sustainability in taking self responsibility for one's actions. Being ashamed is difficult yes, but I see it as a gift to my highest potential as motivation to move from what I know to be not who I really am into the being that I know i can be, the best of myself as I give myself to others the best I am able to and living this until its proven in the physical. 

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More on Living the Word PEACE - Day 546

Living the word Peace, which I have defined as a reference to be peace - p = patiences, e= emerging, ace = grace. So here it’s peace = patiences emerging as grace. Patiences I have redefined to be paying attention to the essence of life that always exist here in equality and oneness, and grace i have redefined to be grateful pace, which is complimentary to both the words patiences and peace as this grateful pace as grace is a slow, awareness of self, where i become aware of my breath, my movements in my body, and the movements of my world and within this live in an appreciation of the intricacy and majestic nature that is life itself living. Here i have also found that patiences is key because to become aware of what is here and get a point of understanding others and self within it all it takes a patiences of self. I have been practicing this because there is a lot to learn in a way, a lot to practice, a lot to substantiate within self, though this all can be done with a grace and a peace. So this balance of these practices in living words has been a supportive platform to live in more self awareness and awareness of my enviroment becoming integrated in realizing everything that is here is self.

Here it has been fascinating because I am starting to open myself up more to my enviroment, what can i learn about myself and what can i create and live to support others equally as how i would want to be supported, where I am taking notice more of the small, the simple, yet complex and always learning and growing within it as my self. And these principles are also foundational for me in my living, I always have these principles of equality and oneness and what is best for all at the forefront of everything I do as a reminder and a stamp so to speak of how I will live, how I will create, and who I will be as i move myself in my reality. This as a reminder until I am naturally living it as myself, and over time as I practice, these principles and living start to imprint and I start to live it more and more naturally. Though, my mind as the separation that I have accepted and allowed of myself is always here in a sense where I am still walking my process of self honesty, self forgiveness, and self change. I am seeing that within myself that specific words are also supportive to stand through challenge times or overwhelming times where i want to give into emotions or an experience and live out my separation. So in living the word peace i have found in a way I have more and more started to live in this state within myself as I understand myself and more importantly as i correct myself in my living.

But the moments my mind does come in with thoughts where i could be energized by say anger energy and impatiences, living the words peace where it is a solution point of what I want to create for myself instead of the anger, I also am seeing as I transition to this state of being as peace as my solution, I am having to in this moment of the trigger and my decision to either live a word of support or go into the energy and potential for abuse, I have to stand within living words such as integrity, commitment, and honor of life, so these are like reminder words or words I focus on in that moment of decision where I am triggered, am I going to go into it or can i live these words I have put in place to remind me of who I am, where I stand within myself, and what I want to create for myself and this is what i live.

I have also redefined these specific words as well, integrity being my internal grit, where when I live this word I check my inner core and I pull all my muscles tight and I stand up within this core of myself, like a directive decision to stand up straighter inside myself, and I make the decision to let go of the thoughts, state within myself who I am as life, as honor, as integrity, as my commitment to what is best for all life, and I decide to live the word peace, which is where I become patient with myself and others in my world and release the energy hold with a breath. When i release, I see what can i do to support the others and myself to find solutions in this moment and there is solutions that’ll come up automatically as there is always solutions for problems/issues if you are looking for them or you in fact just create them in that moment with using common sense and practical problem solving skills we all have.

So living the word peace has been in a way a stand within myself that I am directing myself to live and move as me as I face challenging moments in my life where i have that decision to decide who I am. I find speaking within myself that I do not accept and allow this thought to direct me, I live integrity here and I live peace, and this will create the movement of being at peace and moving in integrity because I have indeed lived with integrity walking what is best for all rather then giving into my mind and creating abuse in moments and the gift with living in such a way is a state of living in peace cause I created it for myself in real time.


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More on Where I stand with Self Trust? Day 527

When looking at my relationship with the words self trust, I have for a long time been doubting myself, this creating a feeling or an experience within me that I am not doing enough, and this belief of not doing enough is causing unneeded stress in my already busy lifestyle. One point that I see here that I can look at is this experience of not doing enough, because in many ways I do do a lot, I work full time and have many extra responsibilities that I am working on. Though within this, I still feel like I could be giving my time to more things, more activities, more projects to push ahead and spearhead my future creation of what my ideals are. In this spearheading, I see I am missing two very important dimensions and this is the time dimension, meaning what it takes to walk something into creation and also the understanding dimension, where I at this stage do not have enough information or still require to walk a process of self creation/living to specify and define who and what I indeed would like to create and so understand how to actually create this within and as myself. So pushing for something in my mind such as doing more, I see is counterproductive to the actual self creation process I could be and have to walk to create that which I would like to live in my highest potential.

So some points I need to consider is why I am not moving on these points that I want to change, and many of the shortcomings are addictions I have in my day to day living. Addictions that I am afraid to let go of, and within this afraid of change. So here I require to make a plan and move within this plan, so I can indeed create. Because if I don't start changing what is created is a resonance or presence of self compromise as I am not moving myself where I know and understand I indeed can. So if one is not creating self, then one will then actually be creating self compromise and thus self diminishment as I are actually accepting and allowing it, I have created all of it through thoughts, reactions, and living in separation as these beliefs, ideas, reactions, ect.

What I have learned over the years of walking the desteni I process is not to judge myself for these types of process points I have to walk, it is not to create any reaction toward self, but to understand the point, why it occurred, and then simple walk the correction path to change it. This is the most efficient way I have found as there is nothing gained by judging self for failing or becoming harsh with self, as this literally only causes diminishment within self, so really it doesn’t make sense. Though if you see you are judging yourself, walk the tools of self forgiveness, self correction, and change self within this to then stabilize, so the tools are incredible, simplistic, and specific to move self in this process in whatever point or process of the mind or self compromise one face. Again, process is a process of self understanding and self creation through self correction, so it will take time, patiences, and lots of mistakes, but overtime and as one persevere change will start to occur.

Here I will write self forgiveness on doubt:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a doubt about who I am and how I am living based on an energetic experience coming up of anxiety through thoughts that I am not doing enough.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into an energetic possession of fear based on a belief of if i don’t do enough and I lack and lag behind I will not be able to catch up thus squandering my chances to become life here in the physical and so fearing annihilation in the afterlife.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought that I am going to be annihilated if I stop pushing myself so hard and believe that i within this I will not be able to catch up.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to keep score of who is who within this process and how far i have walked and within this create a polarity of best and worst causing separation and comparison with my environment.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create a separation with my environment due to the belief that I am not going to be able to keep up with others thus comparing myself to others creating this race experience in the first place which I see, realize, and understand is not real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create the experience that I am in a race and I must finish and do the best because of a fear of survival where I see, realize, and understand this is stemming from childhood where I would compete with my siblings to be seen, heard, and validated by my parents and so always strive to be the best.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to my siblings and believe I am only safe if I am seen as the best and validated by what i have done and could do by my parents in praise or admiration, and within this define who I am based on these words and praises.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief that I have to win and be the best to be able to survive and become somebody in this reality that’ll be safe and survive, and so within this create a belief that this is the only way it is and I only know who I am based on what my environment is saying to me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to the external world I was living in believing that that is who defines me, when i see, realize, and understand that I miss the fact that who i am is based on my own self creation and within this I am limitless to the potentials that I can create within and through my own self will and self awareness.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become stuck within the words and energies of others in my environment as something or someone that defines me, when I see, realize, and understanding I am giving permission for it to define me as I am accepting and allowing it to define who I am as I am believing it is true.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within not enough based on comparison and beliefs of self diminishment or self validation based on the instability of the outside world and the corruptness of the inner self creation process that this has on who I am actually creating myself into, someone who is separated and not stable within who I am as self here in self honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take on others beliefs, emotions, energies, and words as who I am instead of investigating these words for myself, and redefining them in words that I understand for me and thus can live for me.

When and as I see myself moving into a point of self diminishment within my self living by accepting and allowing any point outside myself to define who I am, I stop and breath, and i realize that I am able to define who I am through redefining my understanding of the word(s) and so living within this redefinition process so I create me from self understanding and self awareness.

I commit myself to stop and breath when I see I go into a movement of either positive or negative based on an outside influence and correct myself into understanding the word for myself through redefining it and living it for me.

I commit myself to let go of the beliefs that I am defined by my past where i believed i had to compete to move into the process of equality and oneness of all life, and creating myself breath by breath through my own self awareness movement.

I commit myself to stop judging and creating separation with what is here, move into understanding, and finding solutions for what is here in the highest potentials possible.

I commit myself to move from self doubt as not enough to slowing down and walking what is here in each moment to the best of my ability.

I commit myself to move from self doubt as diminishing to self creation as expansion.



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How Seeing Self Here Has Supported Me in Change – Day 403

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Here I am looking at the point of considering what I am doing before actually going ahead and doing it, and this is I have found something that one would not have to think about or analyze in the mind, but is a single moment of being here and looking at what it is that is the ‘subject’ you are considering within yourself. What I have found within doing this is it is a decision I make within myself to look within a moment and see what is here as me. This I usually do before writing or before opening a point up with another, such as my partner, and seeing where it is that I am within the situation/topic we are discussing. This has been a cool tool to use because it supports with awareness in the physical and also directly seeing a situation without any mind interferences as it’s in a moment, it is here within self just seeing in self honesty.

Self honesty is a component one want to consider when looking at this moment of seeing a ‘subject’ here because you have more access and understanding within the here moment of seeing as you are not being clouded by the mind. The mind can’t interfere because you are not thinking about anything, but simply looking inside yourself and seeing what comes up. Whatever it is that comes up, I work with and look at, this another component of seeing here in self honesty is working with what is here, what comes up within you, and not to judge whatever it is that does come up. I have realized that judging what comes up within you is something to take note of because it means that that moment is not a direct here seeing, but is being influenced by your mind. So you want to see the point of judgment and write about it, self investigate, self forgive, and make commitments to walk the correction when you have a look at the here moment again. Once it comes up again, you can see the correction of stopping the judgment, and then you will have more access into the within of yourself beyond what you had judge as you are now seeing it more direct and more clear.

It’s fascinating and supportive as it creates a space within me where I can start to see and as I walk the process of opening up and correcting the points that are coming up, I am gaining more understanding of myself and how I operate within my own mind processes and behaviors, moving myself more within my reality as a directness rather then being distracted through thinking. I am expanding myself each time I walk this process of seeing who I am here and correcting that which is not aligned to what I would like to live as best for all and living the correction, which is self empowering. This because when I take a moment and see here, I then have a moment to access myself, who I am being, and so align any reactions or energy experiences into understanding and correction through becoming aware of it in this seeing, then writing about it, and bringing through to correction in my living. So I expand within myself and into my world, where before I would not have ever had access to it or even consider to do such a thing because I was always in my mind participating in the alternate reality the mind creates, and so not stepping outside of this illusionary reality to see what it is in fact that I am doing, the direct seeing I access when I stop and look within here.

This seeing in the here moment where I stop and look within myself is where I realized the potential for change occurs and can be seen, and then with this consideration of myself I can live the changes I see that are here to be walked and so change within my life and living to be this potential realized. I suggest to practice this if you have not yet and walk the change necessary to change self to live in a way that is best for all, this is a tool I would like to share that has helped me do just this in my journey to life. Thanks for reading.

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Day 87- 'Why did I do that' Character - Self Commitment Statements

Walking the self correction of the this blog - Day 86 - 'Why did I do that' Character through committing myself to change through writing self commitment statements and living the statements in my world, so I no longer accept and allow this point of self sabotage and compromise as the 'Why did I do that' Character.

I commit myself to stop the value judgments of life and defining life within my perceptions as ideas and align myself with physical practical living in what is best for all so thus I live by principles of life one and equal with all and stop the self interest of separation.

I commit myself to align with physical reality within and as myself where I walk the acceptance of me as life in oneness and equality by living this as who I am through expressing myself and stopping the judgments of myself to be a certain way, thus push myself to walk freedom in expression where I stand as self integrity and self respect to create the greatest potential of my beingness and the greatest potential of life here within what is best for all through my living and example as how I would want for myself.

I commit myself to align to physical reality in what is practically necessary to create a world best for all through creating myself in the best way possible, and thus stop the separation of myself within value judgments of I am this and not that, I realize I am one with all and thus I commit myself to align with this as and within my living as words.

I commit myself to walk the alignment of me as life in oneness and equality and stop the judgments and reactions of energy when I see I have lived 'faulty'. I commit to allow myself to move myself in a natural way to walk the correction and stop the energy movements as reactions and emotions/feelings.

I commit myself to let go of the energy as the mind illusion of thoughts, feelings, emotions, and ideas, and walk the correction to life here as the physical in oneness and equality.

I commit to stand here and correct myself when I see the 'why did I do that' character show itself as I let this go, and stop the fear and suppress and stand as the correction by facing what I have to face and living as the principle of what is best for all.

I commit to stop the desire for the approval of others and align myself with life here in whatever form in walking a new world best for all through and as my self living with all those who walk this walk as well to the oneness here as physical as life.

I commit myself to let go of this desire for approval and fear of others humiliating and outcast me, and thus stop the check character I created as self sabotage which keeps me in line to fall in with others approval instead I commit to align with life and not accept anything less then what is best for all and where all life live in equality with how I would want to live for myself.

I commit myself to stand here as me in oneness and equality as all and stop changing myself as my idea, picture, words, actions, to appease others in an attempt to like me.

I commit to walk here as self in humbleness and walk with those who stand for life and walk to align self with the process of oneness and equality to thus become peaceful here and have all life be in support and thus stand by principles as life stopping desire for self acceptance.

I commit to accept myself here among all as me.

I commit myself to let go of the memory of kids teasing me and being outcasted, and thus walk here in breath in what is here to be done in this moment letting go of the past and allowing myself to live here free.

I commit myself to stop the fear of humiliation and being outcasted and thus align with the physical not taking what is here personally realizing life is in the process of alignment to equality and oneness and thus walk my process in writing, self forgiveness, self commitment statements and living, and thus I can walk an example for others as others have done for me.

I commit myself to let go of this 'why did i do that' character and so walk the respect and integrity of myself by allowing myself to enjoy life and express here in freedom and stop the sabotage of myself to an idea that I don't deserve to live.

I commit myself to stop the idea of 'I don't deserve to live' and walk the process to equality were life is free and able to live in this freedom through ourselves living it.

I commit myself to live equal and treat all as myself within this process walk and stop the separation of thoughts, words, deeds, as some are better then others.

I commit myself to stop the desire for perfection within the idea and picture I can create through my mind and stand here within the physical process of creating myself as this world in perfection through my living and the living system I create here with all who are willing to walk one and equal as life.

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