Inferiority in the Mind and Intellect – Part 4 – Day 373

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I was watching a speech of Norm Chomsky discussing the history of Haiti and the imperial powers it has been strangled by over a century of time from there liberation of French power in the late 1800s. It was quite fascinating to learn about the history of our country as the US, and the importance of understanding it to the extent where we cansee the consequence and be able to implement solutions to create a better world for all. I will continue this discussion on this particular case with Haiti in later blogs, but for now I would like to continue with the inferiority point I have opened up, where when hearing people ask questions, I had a thought come that ‘I would screw that up, I would be so nervous I couldn’t speak’, and this thought is based on an inferiority belief about myself that I am not as articulate and intelligent then Norm Chomsky and he will judge me in a bad way. And this is not in fact the case, the real point behind this is that I judge myself extensively and this is due to thinking that I am stupid and not articulate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my own insecurities and judgments that I lack onto others within my world within an undertone notion that they are the cause of the feelings of inadequacy within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for the inadequacy that I feel within myself and blames others for making me feel this way due to the experience I am having within myself in there presence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief of lack within myself in comparison to another within my mind, where I realize in reality this will not live up to it’s absolute conclusion I have made because these absolute conclusions of what my mind is believing and I am so thinking and following is not real as it’s not based on fact but based on ‘created illusions’ within my mind I have projected onto reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my beliefs within my mind onto reality and thenreact to it in inferiority when in reality I created all of it and am limiting myself through my own fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge me based on a point of belief rather then live in reality and build myself each step through the common sense solutions I see I will have to walk to grow and become better in my living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the mind reality to direct me of feel good in energy rather then walk the necessary steps to build myself and stand stable not matter what I face through the tools shared of self forgivenessand self correction.

When and as I see I am going into a form of judgment and then blame onto my reality based on a fear within myself, I stop and breath, realizing that I am only limiting me and I am creating this all within myself.

I commit to let go of the beliefs in my mind and walk reality based living.

I commit to slow down myself through breathing until I am stable and so do not react when I see a form of blame or judgment experience within myself is coming up.

I commit to stop judging myself and walk the correction of accepting myself in reality and participating in reality equal and one.

I commit to face myself in writing and in the physical to move beyond inferiority and see myself equal to life and solive life to the fullest potential I can.

Eqafe Interview Support that I Recommend:

Insecurity: Introduction - Atlanteans - Part 148
Insecurity: Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 149
Insecurity: Insecurity-Confidence Polarity - Atlanteans - Part 150
Confidence: Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 151
Confidence: Practical Support - Atlanteans - Part 152
Confidence: The End - Atlanteans - Part 153

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Opening Up Inferiority in the Mind – Knowing When to Stay or Go – Part 3 – Day 372

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So a point opened up yesterday regarding a party I got invited to and based on being sick, I could not go, but the struggle was within myself of should I go or should I stay home. Some points that come up of why I would do one over the other is based on a point of fearing either the situation I am about to go to so I would not go in an attempt of avoiding facing the situation or a point where I would push myself to go when in reality I did not need to go such as being sick, and so being comfortable with staying home. I see within both scenarios there is the starting point of inferiority through not looking at reality for what it is and holding judgments about myself that I have projected on the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing others in reality based on a judgment I have made about myself that I will be inadequate and make myself lesser appealing then I was to them before I came to the party.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing others due to a judgment I hold that I am being seen by others as a lesser person due to my interruptation over the years of how people associated themselves with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted adna llowed myself to fear people seeing me in a bad way or not being liked.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as inferior to others who I assess as better in look or skill or intelligence and so fear facing these people in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing people in reality based on an assessment that I am less then them.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that reality is not based upon the imprint of what I am thinking in a moment to moment basis, but it is based on the actuality of the reality as truth of what is being lived and so aligning with this and assessing reality directly to so be able to live and direct in my ultimate expression as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain the mind within fear and accept my mind to direct me in reality based on pictures, imaginations, beliefs, and ideas of what others ‘might’ be thinking about me or even if they are that I accept and allow that to effect and direct me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my mind personal and project it onto others to not face the mind and change myself in relationship to it because I fear it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my mind and facing who I am as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to change and face all that will come with that in reality.

When and as I see I am going into fearing facing reality and the mind as myself, I stop and breath, and realize that I must walk in such a way to realize who I have become and so change myself to live in a different way that is aligned with the physical and common sense through my own physical process of actually living it, testing it, and finding the solution.

I commit myself to stop fearing my reality as my mind.

I commit to face the process of the mind as myself in my self will and action daily as I walk the journey to life.

I commit to support myself to change, stand up within myself when I fall, and change myself in the patterns that don’t support life to the patterns of living that due support life and do what is best for all.

I commit to stop projecting myself onto others as fears, note them, walk them in writing and move to the correction in my living.

Eqafe Interview Support that I Recommend:

Insecurity: Introduction - Atlanteans - Part 148
Insecurity: Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 149
Insecurity: Insecurity-Confidence Polarity - Atlanteans - Part 150
Confidence: Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 151
Confidence: Practical Support - Atlanteans - Part 152
Confidence: The End - Atlanteans - Part 153

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Opening Up Inferiority in the Mind – What does it mean in the Mind tobe Embarrassed? – Part 2- Day 371

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Being embarrassed I find is a reaction that is activated due to a starting point within myself of feeling inferior to the people/person I am interacting with that witnessed or was part of the point of me reacting in embarrassment within myself. So embarrassment is an outflow of a construct within my mind of existing within desires of being superior to others and so within this desire create the balancing out effect, which is becoming inferior. If I pursue superiority and the belief of myself that I am this, inferiority will also be created as a belief, neither are true in fact, but I certainly can create it to be real and thus true for me. Hence the way I am experincing myself at the moment, split and in conflict with reality and myself.

So with an embarrassing moment I had, there are already existing beliefs that I am trying to live up to or create in my reality based on them being created in my mind, so for example, a belief that I must never slip on ice and if I slip on ice especially in front of others, I will be seen as an idiot and so become embarrassed. This happen today and this is the thought I had, ‘of course, the mailman had to see that’, and so what creates this point of reaction to something that happen in reality that I had no control to stop in the moment, is the belief that I am inferior to others if I am not at all times living as my mind desires myself to live in - picture perfection. That's not real though and so the conflict in life and fighting this experience of embarrassment is being created, which is counterproductive and creating abuse within and as my physical body as stress and without in the world that I am separating myself from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a starting point in my world of desiring to be able to survive, to be better, to win, to get money, to stay stable, and so create the balancing point of inferiority to exist within me as I see, realize, and understand that when you create an imbalance within living such as desiring one and avoiding another living reality, you will create what you resist because of the mere fact that you are trying to avoid it and it in fact being a part of you to be faced and corrected thus it's impossible to avoid it because its a part of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am trying to avoid myself and not have to face the points within myself that I see as inferior and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for these points within myself that I desire to abdicate to the chance of living in polarity and so create an endless cycle of abuse towards myself and others through projecting reactions such as embarrassment onto others when all the while I see, realize, and understand it’s a point of anger within myself that I am not accepting myself and changing myself to embrace all of who I am here in this reality, change that which is not best for all, and walk through all the points needed to ensure this change in what is best for all is lived into reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate myself from the responsibility within who I am here as a being of life to correct my relationship to myself and to this world within separation that I have been living as inferior/superior and live what in fact is real and will then create the physical alignment that is required to start moving myself as well as all the life that is here that I will effect/touch in my living to move to the alignment of life as oneness and equality to balance this world into equilibrium and stop the way of life that is destroying who we are here as seperation of Self as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist and embrace energy as the mind to direct me and give me instant satisfaction where I don’t have to move in fact in the physical to create self change, but can live in the mind in illusion and be ignorant in bliss to the fact that I am not considering life and how I am effecting it and still 'feeling' something, and so in this relationship of ignorance, abusing and destroying life in many ways that I would not in anyway want for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse life and destroy life by allowing ignorance as bliss to overcome me and follow it completely where I don’t push myself to move beyond the mind in the energies of reaction but stay in it and participate in it and so continue to abuse others as I have in my reality and not change in self interest of having my 'own' experience.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to move beyond the reactions, energies, and beliefs of the mind and move into physical living completely as breath by breath decisions to ensure I am in self awareness and moving according to common sense and consideration of the environment I am in one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consumed with inferiority due to not accepting myself as is, and so I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to align to the physical body and live in the physical, breathing, changing my living in self honesty and self forgiveness, and walking the path of life here out of the illusion of polarity, this where I am whole and complete and able to direct myself in self determination and self creation.

When and as I see I am going into survival and going into the polarity of desiring the superior stances in my world such as beauty attention, status, praise, prestige, reward, pleasure as my experience, I stop and breath, and realize that I am separating myself from reality and so will create separation in my world such as inferiority and embarrassment with the outflow consequence being abuse to others and myself. I realize these outflows of separation are not in fact real livinv as who we really are as life beings in awareness, but it’s the mind working as it does in it’s design creating energy to control self and so to have complete control of the physical reality.

I commit myself to move beyond the polarity of superior/inferior and direct myself in the moment in alignment with the physical necessary step to take, take a breath and assess the physical, and move within the assessment made in consideration of the physical environment I am in equal and one, and live.

I commit myself to let go of anger and the outflow of embarrassment within myself and towards my world.

I commit to embrace myself and accept myself in moments where I see I want to go into judgment, I breath, and bring myself back to the physical as who I am as life and step beyond the moment to a new moment that is here, fresh and stable.

I commit to let go of the past and walk breath by breath in each moment new here.

Eqafe Interview Support that I Recommend:

Insecurity: Introduction - Atlanteans - Part 148
Insecurity: Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 149
Insecurity: Insecurity-Confidence Polarity - Atlanteans - Part 150
Confidence: Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 151
Confidence: Practical Support - Atlanteans - Part 152
Confidence: The End - Atlanteans - Part 153

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