Giving Up on Others: Clearing the Words – Day 466

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So when looking at this point of giving up, I went through some initial writing to open up the point for myself in my earlier blog you can read here, and for this blog, I want to look at some principles to help clarify what it is I am pushing myself to realize and move through within looking at this point of giving up on someone. I would have to say first that I do have a reaction of the fact of giving up on someone as a phrase in itself because within myself, I would not want someone to give up on me. I will clear this now, and redefine it so it’s clear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of fear and resistance when I speak of giving up on someone because of an energetic emotion of sadness come up in relation to the thought of being left alone and not gaining help from others if I needed it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a memory of being left behind with sadness attached to the phrase of ‘giving up on someone’ and create a dependency to others within the very fact that I desire people to save me instead of me standing as the stability point for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as less then what is here as the consequences that are in motion to be faced and so in a way want to resist this point of leaving others behind when this assessment is not clear nor based on facts, but based on emotions such as fear and sadness and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by my minds in energy and thoughts instead of practicality here in what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that within the statement of giving up on someone it’s based on the assessment of the physical reality, where another is at, and who I am within the moment of decision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I will give up on myself and so fear that I will not live to my utmost potential.

When and as I see I am going into a point of fearing that I am not going to be able to stand on a point or move myself based on clarity in self as self direction in what is best, I breath and stop, and realize that I am able to create myself in each moment here and that I am the only person holding myself back, I stand and move.

I commit myself to let go of energy of sadness and fear in relation to giving up on someone as I realize I am here and able to create myself each moment I am here to change and live what is best for all.

I commit myself to see the words giving up on someone in a way where it’s a decision based on reality assessments and that it’s based on what is best for all.

I commit myself to stand within principles of what is best for all when assessing to move on from a person in this process or continue to stand with as I am walking to create myself in my utmost potential and so support all others to do the same.

So when giving up on someone, it’s not based on emotion or feeling, but based on standards as principles I will create and move within that will support what is best for all within the other and myself in the decision I make to walk with a being in this life or let them go to walk separate processes in this life as we continue forward in creating a new system that supports everyone and so creating a new self that supports all parts of self inside and out.

Will continue with the principles I will walk step by step in the process of defining for myself who to walk with and who not in this life.

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Giving Up: Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 164
Giving Up: Introduction - Atlanteans - Part 162

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Giving Up on Others; When or Is this Ever Legit? - An Objective Look – Day 465

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Here I would like to discuss the point of walking with people in my world and when to support them and when to let them go. Within me I have a great drive to make sure everything I touch, I give my all and make it work, if I don’t make it work within my efforts and it falls, I go into an emotional experience of sadness and feeling unworthy. There is this future projection of seeing the way forward as more difficult and arduous if I accept and allow myself to fall or fail in a point of challenge and opportunity that is here. I suppose there are some ideas and beliefs I have created about the moments of falling on a task and not living to my utmost potential. There is a form of certainty in the sense that I know what I am capable of in relation to what I have accomplished in the past, but also a form of uncertainty where I don’t know what my capabilities are within meeting new challenges and opportunities that open up in my life. I don’t always know what is best and what direction to take, this is the area in which I am requiring to understand better and find a self honest direction to walk in cases where I do fall on something I have committed to walk as well as where in which I can continue to push and not give up and when is enough enough so to speak, I have always had a difficult time distinguishing this.

What I can factor in here that I hadn’t ever considered in the past is my physical body, I existed mostly in my mind in decisions of the past where I would push myself to the limits without considering anything, but what it is I was trying to achieve based on the positive energy I would receive if I did succeed. So it was more based in self interest and not in consideration of all factors that exist here. So yes, the first one is my physical body, I am currently doing a cleanse for my physical and giving it the time to detox and boost the nutrient substance through juicing. This on a physical level is cool and I know will support me as my body has been through a lot based on my mind drive when I was younger. I am learning to curtail that drive and considered what is best for my body in a best for all consideration to all the billions of cell that make me here J

The next factor is considering the people around me, and that is also including my relationship with myself, who aligns with me, who is able to be supported and who am I able to learn from and be supported by others. In truth, it would be cool to be supported and give support, walking with all people at once as I move in my world breath by breath, though I don’t see this as being realistic at this stage as I am not at this stage in my process. What I do know is that giving it my all and finding solutions to issues is a sure way to support living to a commitment with another and finding the way forward, but what is the limit? I see that depending on where the person is at within themselves that this has to be looked at and consider, who are they in their words, what can we do together, what of our selves merges and blends well, and what challenge points come up within each other. There is a lot of factors that go into who to align self with in this life, and obviously for what purposes, this purpose I would say is the key to walking what it is that is important to self and what self wants to do while on this planet.

More to come in the next blogs, thanks for reading.

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Giving Up: Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 164

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Why Try When I Can Live - Day 336

So a lot of times I speak of 'oh, I will try to do this' or oh 'I will try to do that' and my partner pointed out to me one day that what are you trying to do, why not just do it? And I hadn't really ever considered that point before because I would say 'try' so automatically, just like how it is, I will 'try' and thus that's all I can do, like a point of self defeatism before I even walk whatever it is I am 'trying' to walk. 

I found that within this statement that I make, it gives room in the back of my mind to escape, to not actually live the words, to not have to give it my all, but I can say 'oh I tried, so that is good enough' never living extra-ordinarily, never giving everything of me, never giving it 100%, and it's like why have I never considered this, why am I not giving it everything of myself, why am I not living 100%, and this goes for all of us humans, what is it that cause us to be a weakened version of ourselves when in reality we can be exceptional, the capabilities we each have in our own individual ways each and everyone that breaths on this planet is beyond the mind's comprehension, and can make for a world that is nothing as it is now, something that is truly extra-ordinary.

I mean why do we not live in such a way, I have found for myself that it's a belief system, a thought or a pattern of thoughts in my mind that I can't do it, saying things such as 'it's too tough', 'I am not smart enough', 'I am not good enough', 'I just can't', but what I have learned and what is shared through the desteni research is that the mind in how we think about things and believe in is not real, it's not physical meaning it's not who we really are.

We are in fact physical beings, we exist here in reality in our physical bodies, that is why we as destonians are walking a 'process', we are walking back into the physical, merging again with our physical bodies, point by point deconstructing it, understanding it through writing and introspection, forgiving ourselves to release us from the mind attachments and illusions, and changing our living in the physical to what is real, being here as the physical and with the physical through our physical bodies in each moment here, considering all others equal to ourselves, and doing what is best for al. Because have a look these are all real things, we are equals as the physical and so we all have a right to life, we all require what is best to live a life of worth, and so once we live this as who we are we will create the foundation for the extraordinary life that we all want to live and create, right? I mean come on we all have had enough of the strife, the struggle, the suffering, the destruction of the home we live on, we can all live in this world and create a systems of equality for all, we are equals and this is the truth and reality of what is here beyond the mind, beyond the illusions, beyond the self interest, beyond the desires, beyond the fears, life is here and it has always been here. 

So it's interesting because I never before really considered how self compromising and self limiting I lived my life as well as how often in this specific case of self limitation I used the word 'try' to manipulate myself into not having to actually move myself for real and give it everything I have. This, to get out of my responsibilities and not face the person I had created myself to be, in fear, inferior, less then who I really am as life, and so I stand and walk the process to correction. This is what I learned from Berarnd Poolman, he taught me and all others he met to not accept and allow a limited version of ourselves, we are in fact life, we have the potential of life within and as who we are, this life is what allows us breath, is what gives us breath, is the self empowerment that exist here within principled living, but we are not yet here as life because we are in our minds seeking energy in self interest.

If you look at the physical, we are all just flesh and bones, made up of the same organic matter, everything else that is not physical organic matter here in reality is made up in our minds, is not real, the beliefs, the ideas, the religions, the self definitions, the fantasies and imaginations, and so we have to question and understand why we pretend, why we create illusion, why we limit ourselves to a life of hell as beliefs and self definitions, these answers and more are found in the Desteni Research involving the mind. So I will stop trying to live, but actually live for real through physical movement and action as myself, this is my commitment to life, I will live here and bring life within and through me until it is in fact all that exists, life here one and equal. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the desire to escape my responsibilities and use words half haphazardly to pretend I am doing what I say I will do when in reality I am just escaping having to face my fears and face myself, and really change my living to be something that is of worth and will stand within and as this physical reality as truth. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use words as a point of hiding my true intentions of not wanting to face myself and thus accept fear to direct me by continuing in my trap of self sabotage and existing as the mind in energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can lie to myself in believing that if I say I will 'try' then that is good enough, that I put in some effort and that my intention was good, but never actually committing to giving it everything of myself, living fully with all of me in each moment I breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live from fear only and exist within fear of living instead of giving myself the chance and opportunity to break free from this fear and live within the commitment of really doing it and use breath to walk the points through.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide from myself due to fear of others and fearing what will come of this if I face myself in the physical. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing feelings that will come up and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within who I am to fears, emotions, and feelings when I realize and see that these are illusions created in my mind, what is real is the physical and what is to be lived to create equality and do what is best for all through self honesty is within and through the physical as me as my physical body as breath.

When and as I see that I am using the word 'try', I stop and breath, and I realize that this is a point of self abdication to not have to face who I am and change in reality and stay in illusion as the mind. 

I commit myself to correct myself in making definitive statements of who I am and who I will be in each moment that are direct and clear.

When and as I see I go into fear and desire to escape myself and my responsibilities, I stop and breath, and realize that this is limiting my living and wasting time.

I commit myself to let go of the fear when I see it comes up as it's not reality based, and find the solution that is relevant to come to a point of stability and walking what is best for all considering and living within the physical reality. 

I commit myself to consider all before myself in seeing that I am part of a whole and it's not just me.

I commit myself to always consider my responsibility here and how life has to change, to be best for all through the living of this through me and thus live as an example for all others who can see and hear as I have seen and heard.

I commit myself to stand as an example of life here in the physical and stop the mind as illusion as thoughts, feelings/emotions, imaginations are not who I am, and thus I commit to direct the mind in my will as who I am as life one and equal to all that exist in the physical as what is real as this is life.

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Day 128- Justification Character – as Self Manipulation

Here looking at the justification character, where in I actually use self manipulation as justification to not have to stand up and face my fears that I am currently facing in terms of transcending my programming within the mind consciousness system that has been resisted through accepting this fear as myself. The fear is not in fact real as it comes from the mind, and thus is evidence that I am creating my own fear as I can only create the fear through my own mind, so thus justifying the fear and self manipulation to stay in this fear, through accepting my mind to direct me here in this physical reality through my physical body.

How do I justify myself is through accepting and allowing thoughts of self diminishment and self compromise, such as ‘you can’t do that, you’ll be seen as a fool’ or ‘your not smart enough, don’t even bother’ or ‘it’s too much, you won’t be able to handle the conflict that’ll arise’, so within the pattern of these thoughts, is justification and self diminishment, where I allow myself to fall back into the patterns and suppressions because I accept these thoughts as me, over and over again.

Within the justification character, it is self manipulation as it’s a point of giving into the mind and using a back door as points that if I look in self honesty, I realize is only holding me back and suppressing who I can be if I just stop the justification to live to my fullest potential. Why would I live in such a way, this based on fear and why do I accept and allow fear to direct me, because of the justification that apparently I can’t break through. But, having a look, I see and realize that this is just a limitation I am accepting myself as based on not fully wanting to take responsibility for who I am.

Thus justifying the abuse onto myself, where in I cycle through self sabotage as falling and becoming depressed, but creating this as I keep defining myself by the characters of inferior, not capable, and bring that through with justifying why I am this way, to thus be able to live into this point where in I fool myself believing that it is not possible to change and become who I really am as life.

But who is the one who is sabotaging who, I am the only one who is sabotaging myself with beliefs and ideas that I am not capable, and thus justifying it as so because I am not disciplining myself enough in my living, to stop the points I see that are not supporting me.

To justify who I am being as a person in the mind limiting myself to my fullest potential which is here in the physical, is an excuse to walk the easy way out, and not push myself in the forms and ways that must be pushed to stop this from continuing. It’s essentially, allowing the mind complete control and access into self and allowing the life force to be sucked out, like giving up, but within the giving up it’s an existential consequences as even if it is not faced here at death, I will face myself in the here after, just making it that much more difficult, and from what I have gathered through speaking to beings here on the farm and in desteni, it’s much more difficult in the dimensions because the physical is a point of stability that is lost at death.

So I will walk the self forgiveness in my next blog to face this point, and thus walk the correction, to stop the point of giving into justifications in self, and thus transcend the point of giving up, to only walk the point of life, in absolute dedication, and pushing to be more specific and detailed. 

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Day 94- Give Up Character

Looking here at the character of giving up, and how this character has dominated most of my life within myself and who I have become a person who gives up on myself in terms of facing my fears and building relationships with others. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing others within holding back and suppressing myself when I feel this uncomfortable feeling within where I just want to go do something else, and not face the fear thus essentially giving up on the opportunity to face myself and stop the fear from directing me. I realize and understand that within going into this fear and allowing myself to give up on the opportunity to move myself I will stay stuck within this fear and constantly compromise myself standing. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into emotions as uncomfortableness and thus use this to stop and not push myself allowing this to sabotage my standing as I’ve accepted it to direct me. I realize and see that within this point accepting the emotions I will submit and thus give in to the give up character. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give in to the fear of expressing myself with others and thus give up on myself with the picture of myself in my mind as doing a task or something else to just not have to go into the situation, and thus I go into it and 'pretend' that I have to do another task thus to get myself out. I realize and see that when I accept the picture and thus live into the action by escaping I will continuously do this as I am allowing it to direct me thus always being a slave to fear and this escapism give up route and thus I will sabotage myself each and every time never moving never expanding never being life. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use the give up character because I am accepting myself as weak and thus allowing myself to escape the fears that I am facing thus allowing fears to have power over me rather then me be the directive principle in my world. I realize and see that it is my responsibility to face my fear with others and continue to practice and push myself to not escape through the mind by living in to the pictures and moving to escape the fear I am facing, but walk through my fear and communicate and push myself to do what I am resisting so thus I can build trust in myself and realize I am still here and that I am not what is in my mind. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have created the idea in my head that I am weak and thus others are stronger then me instead of standing in the physical and living direct with others so thus I can be an effective human being and walk what is necessary to be walked to support what is best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to accept the give up character as myself as a scape goat because I am to afraid to face myself and face others as I fear the point being seen as ‘dumb’ ‘stupid’ or ‘not responded back to’ thus I realize and see that within this point I must investigate the memories attached and why that I am stuck within this fear of seeing others in this way and thus defining myself as ‘dumb’ ‘stupid’ and ‘not important enough to be responded back to’ and apply self forgiveness on this (next blogs to come). 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow fear to direct me within and as my interaction and moments with others because I am accepting the back chat that I am ‘stupid’ ‘dumb’ and thus ‘not worthy’ so thus this is manifesting in myself as the give up character that I live into and as through giving up and escaping the fear thus allowing fear to have power over me. I realize and see that accepting these back chat thoughts and thus living them out by giving in to the escape as the give up character I will be powerless and have no effect within my world or reality to make a difference in this world and stand up for what is best for life. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting the back chat thoughts that I am ‘dumb’ ‘stupid’ and ‘not worthy to be spoken to’ to direct me within fear of facing others and thus accepting these thoughts to direct me. I realize that I must stop these backchat thoughts through deciding each and every time that they come up that I stop and thus breath and move into the fear and direct myself without fear. This until I am stable and hear. 

I commit myself to stop the emotions from directing me by immediately stopping the emotion identifying the fear and thus walking into the fear, expressing myself and letting go of these points that I want ot give up by physically moving myself.

I commit myself to stop the picture in my mind of doing another task and thus confront my fear as I am trying to avoid within the picture and walk into the fear so thus I can see for myself that I am not the fear and thus breath and stabilize myself in the physical. 

 I commit myself to stop this polarity play-out of weak/strong within my mind by breathing, and speaking ‘I decide’ within myself and thus direct myself within physical movement to thus ground myself and stop the energy as the polarity play-out until it remains no more. 

I commit myself to walk through my fear of facing others within speaking or being with them, and thus when I see a point to direct or express myself, I do it here as a breath, and not accept any longer the fear to direct me.

I commit myself to write out each memory as the timeline of this pattern of seeing myself ‘dumb’ ‘stupid’ and ‘not important enough to be responded to’ and apply the self forgiveness and self correction so thus I am able to live this in my world and reality and stopped being controlled this pattern of giving up. 

I commit myself to stand up within this back chat by stopping it from directing me and thus not going into the give up character as an escape this through standing up for myself and not accepting the fears, but stopping them and moving myself in common sense to direct what is necessary.

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