Day 24 - The Common Sense Dilemma, a new system that is best for all life

Equal Money System Book link - Vol 1

In this day and age, we are currently facing the extreme suffering of so many beings on this planet, we as human beings have not realized the understanding of the equality and oneness of all life, the equal right of all to live in dignity to the resources that is here equally given by earth for all, and in this we claim that we have common sense, we are good, and we know what we are doing. But there has to be some common sense applied, I myself am seeing the dilemma within myself that the obviousness of the suffering and terrible conditions for so many in this world is extreme, we see it every day, is it that we ourselves, each being have to touch it to finally stop, I myself unfortunately at times see it sometimes has to ge to this point. Due to aloofness, laziness, or arrogance. It also can be points of greed and desire that actually self don't really care about what is happening to our neighbors, to nature and the animal kingdoms. We have believed that it always has existed like this? It'll always be here, Really? 

We live on a finite planet where the resources are not able to sustain the greed we are consuming within ourselves and the human race. We don't realize that we are in fact equal and one, and are creating ourselves within the way we act, think, and speak, the creation of consuming as we see in our world is because we are actually consuming our physical bodies. (for more check out eqafe.com - reptilians 32) But we do have the capacity for common sense and correcting our lives to live one and equal, that is why desteni.org was created to support the human as the one who is not yet aligned to life here one and equal with getting here through breathe awareness, self forgiveness and living words. 

Picture source - Gaza: Hundreds of thousands are starving as famine arrives at ‘incredible speed,’ UN aid chief warns | CNN

There is some who do in fact want to keep things separate cause they profit and its easier, though in the long run consequence is here to be faced and growing, these beings (such as some elite) are in a delusion based on their dishonesties, we all have these alignments within us though make no mistake, so no one being or any being can be blamed. I myself am responsible for myself and all my dishonesties, and one can only forgive oneself and stand as the solution. But I am seeing and expressing here that we don't have to create mass amounts of suffering in this world to see that we can in deed change the world through changing ourselves, we can as a group come together - the equal money system is the solution for this money system we are currently facing and enslaved by, capitalism. 

Capitalism is based on competition and winner take all, this is actually a barbaric way of existing, we do not have to live in such a way, the majority needs to realize these points of all is one and equal and agree to a new system that'll support all life, this is why equal money system was created, to fulfill this need. Where all are taken care of from birth to death and real freedom is realized through individual and collective responsibility to ensure love thy neighbor as thyself is lived and create in the world we all live in, given to us as the support unconditionally through this earth, nature, the animal kingdom as examples of life realized here. 

The mind creates complexity but common sense is not complex, it is simple, just like who we are we are not complex, but breathe living beings in what is best for all, it is the facts of the reality of what is here, such as:

-there is 8 billion people on the planet, that require housing, money, electricity, sustainable resources to live within, an income to buy goods, a way to create and support the community/self, and a way to express themselves in their passions and joy.

-so this requires mathematics, say a family unit is 4 people as a reference example, so that is 2 billion houses are required, a basic income of dignity, say 8 thousand a month per person, the wealth accumulated through the labor system we implement where each one work specific alignments to their skill to support the community for 4-6 years. Similar to the military setup, except it is for the upkeep and best alignment for all in the community and all communities around the world never for harm. This is fundamental and is seen within and throughout the principles of the equal money system and the desteni i process, the inner and outer correction of life alignment here as human nature. This is seen within the foundational principles of Life as well that we are all equal and one as life and we in this understanding live what is best for all allways as who we are. Those that fall, require self responsibility, self honesty, and immediate correction within and as the self process of correction to align back to life and stop any and all harm.  

- This is all aligned in the equal money system layout by Desteni.org and Bernard Poolman from which I share links below for further research for the you the reader, so the layout in common sense has been walked in this material. Though it is also suggested to support with community connection and your own expression to help be a plus one and support those who are interested and want to see a better world for all. This self can practically apply in our day to day life, working with the power of 10, where each being support 10 beings at least in your sphere of influence getting them on their path of self forgiveness and living words that are one and equal as life in what is best for all. 

Also, tools such as technotutor will be a foundational support to help speed up the learning process by purifying words and correcting misplaced words in the physical body, the natural learning ability is engage and supports the child/adult with direct memory access to reprogram the physical body to be more purified and direct with understanding ones world through the words one learns and integrates.  

-We don't require leaders and governments to dictate these things to us, where we align our lives to what people say to us as presidents as a master/slave dynamic, based on the way the current capitalistic money is set up, some win and many loss, and that is seen as normal and ok as a byproduct of the world we live in. This is how it is? really, it does not have to be, we can change it, though understand its not a easy or quick process as the desteni material exemplifies, but it is doable and structured to support all who dare to care and walk their process. 

-We can come together as self leaders as equals and realize that through all as standing in self responsibility and self-forgiveness, as a one group as the human race, we can change the world. We do it with products such as the apple iphone, we can indeed do it with the way our world is currently existing, it takes an understanding and realization that its not an overnight quick fix, but it is a individual and collective journey of agreement to get this done. To eventually as we change, bring through a world and money system that supports all life equally. We will eventually be forced to it by life through hardship and struggle if we don't actively start changing and making this world a place where all can live. I found its from realizing that we can in fact expand, grow, and be a being that supports a new way of living, equal money system is the structure and guideline to support this change throughout time and into the new world order of equality and oneness and what is best for all. 

It is all here, the earth provides for us unconditionally - as i have realized through the throws of the process of self forgiveness and facing my demons as we all will, it is worth it, we as a humanity and life here are worth it, it is possible, we must stand together and find the will of self forgive and create a new system that is best for all. Mistakes and falls will happen, though that is what self forgiveness is for, only self can forgive self, and the material at desteni specifically supports with understanding the mind consciousness system, a interdimensional system within our physical controlling and surviving off of us like a parasite, this has actually become self. So self is rebirthing to and as life, who we have always been in our essence, life is always here, it's in our breath in the physical. 

 

Some numbers of what it'll take to support all, not much, as an example the USA military budget is 1 trillion per year as budgetted in 2025, we can support all life with that for sure in one year, and that is just one countries military budget.Its not about the money or enough resources, its about who is self, we create here, we decide as self decide. 

Self Forgiveness on the need for more/self interest to support myself in self honesty and self responsibility: 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe i am not able to see common sense. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am not able to calculate what is simple and basic within the one plus one equation to ensure all are supported in this world and reality in the best way possible as i would like to be supported, the one plus one equation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that each man on this planet is equal and one in the way of life, who i am within myself, we require the same substance and come from the same substance, we are equals and i as self am everything that exist, the others are simply different forms.  

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to want to become better, more, stronger, to gain more money, more fame, more prestige, and in this have more status over others as ego, as the mind that seeks the self interest of me going into indulgence rather then keeping it simple, keeping it balanced, and best for all life which is what is real and what is actually creating this reality. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking self responsibility for all of what is here, the good, bad and ugly of the suffering of this world as i fear the pain i have inflicted and caused in my ignorance. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become weak and fearful in the face of my own creations and indulgences as i have desired to be the best and be the winner, get my needs and desires fulfilled as being at the top, instead of realizing that what is best is not me alone, but a world system where all life is cared for and in this all life is safe, secure, and in real joy as life is free from suffering and consequences and this is what i want for myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my brothers and sisters, not seeing, realizing, and understanding i require not to blame and become emotional, but forgive myself and take self responsibility to correct myself in this that i point fingers at, as i realize i am equally existing in the same system of abuse, and so i correct and stand as the solution as forgiveness and self responsibility to ensure an equal money system is created. I see, realize, and understand that it will require patience and steadfast as myself as we support myself and others to stand and get this living system that is best for all created and so they can support themselves and their plus one as the solution grows and expands as life in what is best for all as the equality of all life lived. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to put my self interest over the interest of all as i see this make no sense and only harms myself and all in the end, and thus i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create and perpetuate harm and abuse instead of forgiving it, standing the correction as myself, and create a system as i create who i am in what is best for all life, equal and one. 

I commit myself to use the common sense equation of one plus one to ensure each one that is here is cared for with all the needs that are required as a dignity life equal and one to how self would like and require in a world that is best for all, through the principles of what is best for all and equality and oneness as self live and prove it real as it then will become physical as an equality system for all. 

I commit myself to push and persevere as i forgive the evil of myself and correct myself as the system i live within as i support myself and others to see the equal and one principles of all life and see this through until it is a living system we all can enjoy and stand within.

I commit myself to forgive myself and stand in the shoes of others and find solutions that is best for all.

I commit myself to support implementing an equal money system so life can stop being abused and harmed and we can all flourish as earth and life give freely and unconditionally as our true nature allows self fulfillment through the fulfillment of what is best for all in purity and real innocence as the sense/source of the beingness of all is understood in equality and oneness and lived and proven in the physical world as the implementation and realization of an equal money system which is one and equal and what is best for all life lived, this a gift of self forgiveness as the human transcend self's mind and become life here as breathe always in what is best for all the true free choice. 

Equal Life self support links to check out if you are interested:

http://www.desteni.org
http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com
Bernard Poolman - What the FAQ - Equal Money System « EQAFE
(5) Self-Perfected | Facebook
http://www.techno-tutor.com
Equal Money Wiki - YouTube

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The Sorrow of the Human Being: Who is I - Part 2 - Day 549

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Within this point of looking at the current state of the human being, I will bring this point back to myself, back to the personal, back to who I am as the state of myself as a human being, and through this share my self and my experiences and realizations of how I have understood and so came to be who I am here today.

For many years, most of my life, I have been in a way feeling as if i am a shell of a person, the experience of myself internally was sort of like a self contained prison in a way, and this prison was constantly moving and changing, though always existing in the same way, like patterns that would repeat. I would get some pleasure once and a while, but this pleasure was distorted and confusing as I learned that pleasuring myself and pleasure in general was not the norm, and there was certain types of pleasures that were bad and not to be openly discussed and enjoyed, such as the pleasure of exploring my physical body or enjoying a piece of cake, it was always filled with a threat of some sort of harm being done on to me either with a stigma attached to self or a consequence that was unpleasant and looked down upon by others.

So I never actually truly enjoyed myself as pleasure, but was in sort of like a fog and constant fear of having these memories I had in my mind of the worst case scenarios keep popping up, haunting me in a way while investigating and exploring this part of myself as i was growing up. This also then formed into the imaginations and fantasies of creating pleasure in my mind, what i could do or where i could go and how i could live all in the confines of my own mind, but again this was never actually materialized thus it was a constant loop system with no tangible value created in the physical, that when i did get a chance to experience something pleasurable in reality it becomes an extreme, something i desired, something i craved, and then an addiction would be formed. An addiction is another prison as a point of self propulsion to something that i wasn't in control of because i didn't know why i was creating it and thus it became very difficult to stop it, seemingly impossible actually.

And here is where the consequences of such interaction with myself, my enviroment, and my internal world as my mind became prison like, this was due to the emotional experiences that i let infiltrate my being and take me on a ride that all who can relate, would really like to get off of. Yet, we can not, it’s a ride that continues, and continues, and continues, and every where we go and every one we meet are all on this same ride though we do not have any clue how to get off because we have no clue what we are in fact doing and we do not have the full capacity to know as it was designed to be this way. We are caged to our own internal selves, some cope well with this in society as society has been designed in such a way to cater to the enslavement of the beings that accept and allow it.

This we have all done and all participated in over eons of time, though on this planet it has become physical, we are here within a prison in our own selves, our own making, and we can even see the physical manifestations we have created to show to ourselves who we are as actual physical prisons we send ourselves to. And I can attest to this as i have lived it as i am sure we all can relate to this, and this anguish is energy in motion, it’s this ride, it’s the ups and downs, the explosions and the regrets, the fear and the remorse, the beliefs and the bullied, and so much more, we are seeking the good, the positive and avoiding, resisting, and running away from the negative. I am running away from myself, this inner turmoil, this cage, this prison, and within this running I am running straight towards it. What a vicious game you may say? It depends what your starting point is and always realize there is solutions, we are always capable of living and creating solutions that is a fact, though by the will of self it will be done.

What i haven’t understood for most of my life and the principles that govern life, and this life I speak of is the eternal life that has always existed, the life that resides within all, the life that is our physical world and the breath of life of each one. What i haven't understood was who i am, i never actually looked at this question, and within that i never believed that i could do anything to change my life. Though what i did know and could understand within me was there was a fire, be it small, yet it was here and it was burning in side of me. It was like an inner calling of my insides, something deep inside me, and this is the quest i have been seeking solutions for and so i started asking questions - the QUEST to Solutions. And this is when i found my saving grace, I found myself, and my self's ability to stand up within myself and change for the better. This has changed everything for me and everything about me, I am humbled by the understanding and also passionate about the change that is taking place internally and thus externally in my world because as within self so without. This is a principle of life.

As is said in the above eqafe interview quotation, ‘equality and oneness and what is best for all can become the saving grace of humanity’, so the solution is here, life is here, and self is here, the human being though has a process to walk to align back to life as we have de-manned ourselves through abdication of ourselves as a responsible being to ourselves and so to all life.  We must face our consequences, each and every one yet all equally and build again, stand before all life in humbleness and humility, and walk again in a structure and flow that never again allows what has been lived and existed in this earth as the horror and abuse. It is the time to stand for life within self and so within all that we are honorable and we honor ourselves and so prove this within our lives, our living, and in our world. The time is here and living solutions is at our fingertips, we just have to take action and this we is me.

For more on how to walk the process of becoming physical and doing what is best, check out the links below.

Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course -
www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

Self Supportive Material -
www.Eqafe.com

Forum support:
www.forum.desteni.org

Desteni Wiki:
wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page

Eqafe Facebook Page:
www.facebook.com/Eqafe-359136...

7 year journey to life Facebook group:
www.facebook.com/groups/journ...

Earth Haven - Sustainable Living Environments -
Built on the Principles of What is best for all Life
https://www.patreon.com/user?u=4404004

The Sorrow of the Human Being: Who is I - Part 1 - Day 548

Here i am looking at a dimension of vulnerability that I have noticed and has more and more been opening up for me, and this dimension is the absolute sorrow of being a human being in this world. I am noticing throughout my living day to day through different movies, shows, people i meet, people walking around, and most especially myself because i am with myself all the time, there is this sorrow within me and i can see this sorrow in the depths of myself and also in people walking around and it’s like a horror in a way. We have become so lost in our everyday lives because of the state and condition we have participated in and created in this world. This sorrow within me that i have sensed and noticed within all humans, is deep, it feels like its coming from the depths of our souls so to speak, where i just want to scream, shout, and stop everything that is going on around me and within me to just have it all stop. Though it never does, this world continues, the abuse continues, this sorrow within me continues, and it just continues on. There is also deep regret as well and i have found this leads also to extreme amounts of rage and destruction due to the fact that it feels like there is nothing we can do about this energy, about our living experience, and about this world of horror that we are seeing play out everywhere. Some may deny this, some may brush it off, some may call me a downer or negative, but every single human being knows exactly what i speak of. It is unnamed, it is gripping, and it is fierce this force that i speak of.

What i have realized is that one of the core reasons and originating points of this rage, sorrow, and destruction we have exhibited in our living world is based on the response and experiences of our childhood. Where we are born into this world and as a child that is vulnerable, innocent, and helpless in many ways, we in a way ‘hope’ that we will be treated with care, real naturing care and understanding by the adults of this world. We though receive waves of powerful energies that make our bodies churn and twist and restrict in the most horrific and uncomfortable ways imaginable, some of us are physically abused, some of us are mentally abuse, some of us are sexually abused, and some are all of the abuses in this world. We have all been abused since childhood and then we grow up and do exactly as the adults in this world we learned from, become destructive, abusive, and horrific in our behavior toward each other. You may not do this directly, though if someone is abused it is equal and one to you as the abused and the abuser, we are both as we are accepting and allowing it to exist in our world, we are this world.

We as adults have become so accustomed to the abuse of children, not even realizing as adults that it is abuse because we as adults have become so brainwashed and programmed to believe that abuse, reactions, and destruction is a natural pattern of life in this world, we forget about the innocence we once were as babies, as children, and so we put it out of our minds, become distracted with survival, and so we repeat the same mistakes and abuses we hope would just stop as children. We as adults become numb, hard, and ruthless in the face of a ruthless and heartless world. And this we see everywhere, the absolute horror and disregard for life as the innocence even unto the most vulnerable among us in all species and forms. We are a race that has programmed ourselves through forgetfulness to abuse, ignore, distract, and destroy ourselves as our world and we pretend that we don’t know any better. We pretend that we are good, we pretend that we are righteous, and we pretend that we are not responsible. Though this is real life, this is our reality, this is actually happening to all on deep levels as we are all interconnected and equal in this reality. Nothing of mind illusion is real, no one is better then another, that simply does not exist….you hurt another being it hurts just the same as if you did it to yourself.

This i found is within myself what has caused such rage, such sorrow, such anger, and it is from the depths of myself, the abdication I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as and to allow such a world to exist as, abuse and destruction. The torment and destructive nature that we have gotten to within our world and the amount of abuse we see accumulating, this is a point of madness we are experiencing within ourselves because we all realize and understand that it could be completely different, something of a place like heaven on earth. And even to those words, we scoff and say ‘no, that is impossible’. Though we miss the obvious most often because we are not living the obvious, but the complicated as the multi-dimensional reality of illusion we have created as our mind consciousness system. As we see even in the word impossible, what does it read? I am possible. We are possible.

So words i have found have been a key saving grace for humanity as we have indeed forgotten ourselves, who we are, where we came from, and what we have within us as our own directive principle - a life force that connects all and is equal within all. Thankfully to those who came before and are here still, walking what is best for all life, walking the principles of who we are as oneness and equality, standing in full responsibility of self to stand as the solution and create it, I honor life, I honor those who walk with and as life, and so this honor is mine within who i am as my words, how i live within and without, and what i am sharing is that there is a way to forgive self, correct self, and so correct this world. We are much more then the beliefs that we/i have created for ourselves, there is great potential, though each one has to find, develop and live this within self. And this is where desteni has come in, not only shaping and shifting my life for ever, but many others who are equally as committed, dedicated, and steadfast in changing self to stand in full responsibility, correct that which is not best, and forgive self for the mistakes and blame perpetuated. This desteni of the universe as the process of birthing self as life is here for all and all are welcome. It’s a journey of self purification and in a way self discovery and life is here to support, though self must always walk through the door. We are the solution and i am in deed possible, so investigate, understand, realize self responsibility to the whole, and thus see that the physical is the solution, we are here on the earth as the physical, thus we are the solution - each and everyone.

Thanks for reading, part two to continue my understandings and realizations as I walk my journey to life.

This supported me today in understanding who we are as life and the power we do have in self responsibility through self change:

"Totality - Tow-tally-ty - tallying up and towing the load, the practical process of taking responsibility for ALL of /as self, where self through writing and self forgiveness walk through one's entire mind consciousness system and this physical existence in detail - walking self-introspection within, finding (tallying) all the parts of self of self-separation as consciousness/mind, transforming self's relationship with self to an agreement with all in equality and oneness, and within doing this 'towing the load' as walking one's physical-consequence as the physical-world creation that self created as consciousness/mind and within facing consequence: simultaneously develop/find/implement solutions to the future of self of all, to not again recreate the same process of humpty-dumpty's great fall, having to pick up your own pieces and put yourself back together again which is quite a lengthy process, but to be able to eternally stand firmly rooted/grounded into/as this existence that FALL will never again exist in this existence, as we STAND eternally." - Bernard Poolman

For more on how to walk the process of becoming physical and doing what is best, check out the links below.

Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course -
www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

Self Supportive Material -
www.Eqafe.com

Forum support:
www.forum.desteni.org

Desteni Wiki:
wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page

Eqafe Facebook Page:
www.facebook.com/Eqafe-359136...

7 year journey to life Facebook group:
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Earth Haven - Sustainable Living Environments -
Built on the Principles of What is best for all Life
https://www.patreon.com/user?u=4404004

Not Wanting to Compromise - Day 540

Here i am seeing a pattern I have walked with people in my life that has been consequential where for myself, I have become less adapt at moving in my enviroment. I am seeing this restriction in lets say the flow of who I am is based on not wanting to compromise or more cooperate with what is here, the physical reality. The principles are clear in what makes for a harmonious reality, which is live in what is best for all, considered all things and keep what is good, stand in the shoes of another as the other is equal to self, and do onto another as how you would want to be treated, though I have to live these principles to in fact stand as them.

For myself not compromising or not cooperating with reality where i do not live these principles above, I am essentially defying reality, not moving in a way that is supportive of this physical reality and so everything in it, which in a logical way doesn’t make sense. Now if I pull this out in lets say a global context, where I walk a self interested path of not cooperating and so not standing within the principles I shared above of what is best for all, I could be responsible for the harm of many. For example, say my job was to add filters to all the water pipes in the world, that will filter out the deadly bacteria that resides in this water, once it goes through these filters, the water is pure and all who drink are well. I have to change these filters three times a year to keep everyone in the world getting access to clean water.

Now this is a lot of responsibility, and this work is routine and boring to me, I am having these emotions come up, I want to quit, I am so bored, though I know if I miss a filter change, I am going to cause many to die due to the bacteria leaking in to the pure water. What do I do?

Here what would the common sense dictate, I have redefined the word sense to be the physical and common to be what is best for all, so here common sense is what is best for all in this physical reality. And obviously what is best is keep everyone healthy and harm free as this is what I would want for myself, fulfilling the principles of life, which is who we all are. Life being the physical as the physical is what is real, real is the reality we live in in each moment, what is actually happening direct, realtime, here, in the physical of ourselves and all around. So it’s simplistic in a way to understand all of this, though to live it is a different story.

Understand that each one is walking this process of realizing that our actions in reality have an effect on not only ourselves, but in fact on everyone we touch and beyond as those whom you touch go and touch others and so forth and so on. So for me to go into self interest and not stand in the shoes of another and do what is best for all, it’s like I am poisoning and killing myself as I infect my enviroment equally so with this self interest before the common good of all. We believe when we move in our enviroment, we do not have an effect on it, though observe children, they copy our every move and who do children grow up to be, the adults of this world, the world has never changed, why is this so, because we have never taught ourselves and so our children how to live in the physical, how to live within and as reality harmoniously, and how to live in life principles. We are living from a reality that is not real, which is from thinking and our minds, emotional states and reactions of self interest, trying to dominate reality, but common sense, this is impossible. We are in a day and age, where this is changing, we are now being asked by life as we ask ourselves, who are we as we see the death of billions every year because of not having access to basic human rights, this is our creation, it is time to take SELF Responsibility.

So it’s an understanding that when I do not want to compromise or cooperate with the physical reality I live in and support what is best for all, I will create equal to this, and the reality I live in will start to show this to me as I have realized many times already. Life is aware and everything existent within it, so we humans are not alone, we are PART of this reality not the dominator of it, it’s time to consider what we are creating and decide who self is within this and live. This is each one’s walk and path, who I am will determine my future, so I make it count. This is the path I am walking and I stand for and as life and nothing less then what is best. It is time, no more waiting. So let’s walk together, create together with the principles of life and so honor who we are as beings in what is our highest potentials.

This blog was inspired by these recordings:

Raising a Destonian Family - Desteni Farm Discussions
Raising a Destonian Family Part 2 - Desteni Farm Discussions

For more on how to walk the process of becoming physical and doing what is best, check out the links below.

Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course -
www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

Soul - School of Ultimate Living - Create yourself through Words!
www.schoolofultimateliving.com/

Self Supportive Material -
www.Eqafe.com

Forum support:
www.forum.desteni.org

Desteni Wiki:
wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page

Eqafe Facebook Page:
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7 year journey to life Facebook group:
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DIP Lite on Facebook:
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Self Forgiveness Challenge – Competition – Day 517

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I have found one of the roots to the abuse and turmoil in my life can be flowed from this one point of participation, and that is competition. Competition comes up in relation to many different scenarios and context, but it stems from experience of lack within self. This lack is seeking to be fulfilled through a source outside, and so the competition of oneself and another ensues causing many outflow consequences that are not best for all. To understand competition on a more in depth level it is where within self there is a point one is not wanting to take responsibility for, and through that point of not wanting to take responsibility, competition is created in a race to fulfill a craving to win and be better. Competition can also be seen as a form of distraction, one that is destructive in most cases, to suppress the actual real issue that driving this desire to be better and that is not wanting to face the real issue which is self needs to change in a way that is best for all.

Self forgiveness on this point:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to compete with another person in a way were it’s not causing harm, when I see, realize, and understand the internal energies that is fueling this behavior is one of superiority, ruthlessness, and desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a desire to become more then another and so within that have apparently more power in the relationship, when I see, realize, and understand I am only compromising myself due to the desire to gain something that I don’t believe I can give to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of self abdication to the responsibility of changing myself and becoming the solution that is here to support what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to seek my own self gratification over others, where I will deliberately seek out my own self interest and advancement within the understanding that others will not receive and so loss.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek over others, and so take another’s share in this world, where I have more than needed and another ends up with less.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live the equality equation within all movements in my life, where I assess and direct my outflows to be that which is best for all rather than only supporting myself to move forward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an idea that I am more advanced then another person if I am winning in a competition with them either directly or indirectly in my mind, and create an idea of myself that I am inherently better than the other, looking down upon them and creating a feeling of superiority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become ruthless within who I am in competition where I will seek my own self gratification in a moment of instant gratification where another will lose out as I gain more, and so exist within a form of abuse where I take and another loses.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately know that I am taking from another and continue to do so due to the addiction of believing I am better and more and so safe from abuse from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the abuser and so create abuse in an escape from my own fear of abuse from others who compete with me, and so perpetuate the competition playout of win and loss over many scenarios and beings in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of self abuse where I believe I have to compete to survive and so do it out of fear of death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed energy as fear as a driving force within me to compete and so create consequences that are not best for all, when I see, realize, and understand that this equation can be lived out and considered in each breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live in breath here and consider each movement I make in what is best for all, where I take responsibility for myself and actions, and support solutions that will support all.

When and as I see myself go into the desire to win, I stop and breath, and realize this will outflow into a form of abuse either to myself or another.

I commit myself to move into the equality equation of what is best.

I commit myself to take responsibility for my fear and move into a calmness where I can live the word physical here as all are here equal to myself.

I commit myself to find solutions that are best for all and stop the desire to win.

I commit myself to live the word competition in a way of understanding what is best through trail and error, and determining through groups and test what is best for all if not apparently understood, and that which is supportive for all in all moments.

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What is Evil? Re-Defining the Word to be Self Supportive – Day 458

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Gentleness has been a point that has come up recently for me to look at and integrate into my life because I realized through support that I have not allowed this expression to come through in myself and so in my living. I have recently started to open up the side of myself that I have always resisted to face and that is the more evil side of who I have become in this life. Now there is a movement within me when I see that I am evil in my ways and obviously this is not what the mind as ego wants to look at as it shows our true nature, who we are underneath the shell of the persona we have created for the outside world. The secret mind of ourselves is what I am currently looking at and the implications of the evilness that I have participated in in my mind and so then lived out in my life which causes outflows of abuse that can not be really understood of their reach. What I mean by this is that when I say something in reaction to a co-worker for instance, I don’t know how that person will internalize it and then through their own mind live it out, it could be they get up and live the job for instance or they go home and yell at their kids and then their kids are effected by one instance of outburst I lived out because I was not self aware and self disciplined enough to stop myself. The effects of our words and actions ripple’s throughout time and through life so it’s important that we understand this and walk the process of self correction.

So with the support of others, my buddy specifically through the desteni I process I am currently walking, she shared the insight that I have not yet allowed myself to be gentle with myself and so I then can not live this out in my world because it is not an expression of me as of yet. I have not yet given to myself the tools to support to understand what this means to be gentle, how I am not being this way, why I should live in this way, and so the solution as the realizations as foundation to live this within myself and so in my life.

So first I want to clear the word evil to let go of the negative attachment I have toward it and then walk the point of investigating and supporting myself to practically live gentleness for myself and so for everyone in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the word evil in fear as I see this as something that can not be undone or be corrected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the word evil is an absolute definition about someone or something and within being labeled or seen as evil then you are damned to this label forevermore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow the belief that the word evil means absolute when in reality I see, realize, and understand that evil is a point of misalignment and so within that there is a correction process that is required to become back in alignment with life as one lives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the process of correction as something that is so far in the future that I fear that I will fall and not be able to give up my evil ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the belief that I will fall and give up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to engage in the thoughts that I will fall and give up and continue with what is not best for all as the evil that exists within what I do in this way of living, and so manifest this and perpetuate in in my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the breath of life as this process being walked where life is here and so am I, and then in each moment is the opportunity for life and through applying what is here as tools of support and solutions that are common sense and best for all, this process of self correction and self perfection is inevitable as I walk breath by breath here where I am always at and so can create from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a bad person because of the way in which I behaved and acted based on not being disciplined and self determined to stop my thoughts and energies to thus prevent the abuse from occurring as I see the outflows it will create before hand.

I forgive myself that I have not as of yet accepted and allowed myself to live the act of prevention is the best cure by staying principled within my living and stopping my mind from directing me through counterbalancing it with my own self directive will in the moment to moment application of day to day living where I see, realize, and understand that change is able to be lived by don’t live it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall within self honesty where I give my mind more of myself by giving into resistances and so face the consequences of abuse and mis-takes as I am not able to be here and be fully aware because I have allowed myself to go into my mind and live it out through accepting it to overwhelm and live it out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to the personality play outs I have existed as in my living and so become addicted to the programmable reactions where I allow that to play out as it’s easier rather then asserting myself and changing myself to become my own self directive will by actually willing myself to stop and so change in real time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for this as a bad/evil person and so want to punish myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to punish myself and so create the breeding ground for the mind to overwhelm and live out the abuse in my life.

When and as I see I am going into a point of seeing myself as evil and moving in the direction of giving into resistances in my living, I stop and breath, and realize this is a recipe for self abuse and so abuse out in my world.

I commit myself to let go of the belief that evil is bad or unchangeable through realizing that it’s a mis-alignment in life that needs understanding and correction through a self process.

I commit myself to investigate all ways and mind patterns in which I describe as evil so I can understand myself as it and correct myself.

I commit myself to let go of the addictions to resistances and energy movements and push myself beyond my limitationseach and every time I see it is able to be done until I do not have to push anymore but it is lived as me.

I commit to redefine words that will support me in this venture to ensure I give myself care equal to how I would like to give it to others.

I commit myself to redefine evil and live this word as actions of misalignment in my living followed by thought patterns andenergy reactions that are in need of understanding and correction asap.

The next blog, I will walk the process of redefining gentleness for myself and laying a foundation for how I will walk in practically in my life and why I am doing so. Thanks for reading.

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