Day 110 – Jealousy Character – Self Commitment Statements

I had forgotten to finish up a blog I had done a few days back, Day 106 – Jealousy Character, this is the one I am referring to for reference. I will continue now with the self commitment statements.

I commit myself to stop this point of comparision with another, and thus live within and as the physical in what is actually happening, and thus express myself with no expectation, but only within the point that will support all equally.

I commit myself to stop the point of jealousy when I see another is ‘stronger’ within a point of expression and thus instead of going into ego as in "I am not that", and cause conflict within myself as jealousy, walk the correction in breathing through the energy, and learn from the being to see I where/how  I can improve my own self expression in a point of learning.

I commit myself to stop the point of sabotaging myself into a point of "I can’t it", when I realize that I am perfectly capable of expressing myself within myself, and thus I commit to practice this point of openly expressing without fears.

I commit myself to make it a focal point in my living to put myself in the shoes of another, and thus gauge a being based on who they are in a more wholesome assessment, and stop the comparison point to myself where in I make it a competition.

I commit myself to stop trusting feelings as I realize feelings aren’t real as they are coming from the mind which is not life but a system to control the life being within the physical, thus I stop trusting feelings and thus practice walking the physical here in my physical body with practical real time happenings and walk self honesty to assist myself and eventually others to do the same, so we can birth life here for real.

I commit myself to stop the jealousy character within and as me by committing myself to stop all points of comparison and thus polarities as better/worse realizing that I am one with all life, and thus all here is a reflection of myself, and walk my own point of self living as I walk the self perfection point to honor all life.

I commit myself to walk the memories of the past within where I become jealousy towards others, so thus I can walk through the necessary self forgiveness and walk the correction as I see it within the writing and to my living, as jealousy is not who I am and is not life.

I commit myself to stop all points of backchat through using the writing tools and self correction in living, as well as letting it go unconditionally when it comes up in all instances that I am mean or degrade another based on my own insecurities and trying to diminish another for me to feel more then, so thus I am here and able to direct myself completely and be able to be trusted with life.

I commit myself to stop the ego from directing me within a polarity game of better/worse, where in my mind I degrade the other and thus diminish them, so thus I commit myself to stop the mind within the backchat in degrading and diminishing another to make myself look/feel better, and walk the correction which is letting it go and accepting all life as I would like to be accepted unconditionally as equals to how I would like to be treated. 

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Day 109 – Angry Character as Self Manipulation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger towards myself when I react to another in sadness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger towards myself when I react to another in sadness as I dislike the feeling of being vulnerable in front of another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger towards myself when my face gets red if I become embarrassed in front of another as I am showing that I am being effected by the other and thus I am becoming vulnerable to them as I am perceiving myself to be weaker for becoming embarrassed. I realize within this point that it is only my idea that I am being vulnerable and weak as I am creating all the reactions within me as an idea that I have to be strong to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a sub character to the inferiority character as the anger character when I see that I am becoming vulnerable, thus I use this point of perceived weakness as vulnerability to sabotage myself with as becoming angry at myself for points that are happening anyway as there is no self direction until desteni to stop them from direct me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into anger to suppress myself more as yelling at myself essentially for feeling vulnerable within myself and seeing this as unacceptable and thus never giving myself the tools to walk out of this, but eternally mind fucking myself to essentially eventually annihilate myself because I am accepting fear over life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being open and vulnerable with others due to fear of rejection and thus within myself use this anger character which I have accepted as I allow it to direct me into self sabotage because this is easier to sabotage myself and diminish myself then have to face myself with others and become open.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the anger character as a self-manipulation point to not actually have face myself and who I am with others and who I am within myself as I see this point as too difficult and in fact fearing it as I fear being open and freely expressing with others. I realize and see that this point of manipulation must be walk through by stopping myself from reacting in anger at myself for living within and as the points I do towards others during the day, and thus instead breath through it, and see the point so it can be directed within practical tools and I can stop sabotaging myself to finally be free.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear this point of being open and free with others as I have judge others within myself and their expression so thus I assume they are doing it to me, and within myself I want ot be seen as the best, so thus I fear this point of others seeing that I am not the best. I see and realize that again I am sabotaging myself within this point of judging others and the fearing the judgment back, but not realizing that I am creating all this within myself, by living into this judgment cycle where I create myself from a polarity as memories instead here as physical reality in breath as I live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within this point of self  judgment and thus judging others expressions, and simply walk the process to stop the judgment and live here as the physical equal to others who are simply living as well.

When and as I see myself going into this anger point towards myself for expressing myself, I see and stop this point as I breath, and do not accept myself fto go into anger, as I realize this is only separating me more from the point that is to be faced which is being open with others and allowing myself to freely express. So thus I stop the anger and allow myself to express myself and stop also the judgment of how I am expressing as I realize to express myself is to live and thus if I am sabotaging and fearing this point then essentially I am not real and not even here living, which is not who I am as life, so I push this point to stop the anger and the fear and really express and live and let myself just be.

I commit myself to breath through the energy to get angry at myself for expressing myself within emotions, so thus I can walk the point of the emotion that is directing me into not being open and free to live and be here.

I commit myself to stop self judgment of myself and thus judgment of others and let myself live and breath and others to just live and breath, and work with the physical in what is practically able to be done to be best for all.

I commit myself to stop the fear of vulnerability and having others see me as vulnerable as I realize this is the only path to life as life is here and it’s within accepting it as myself in all ways, and thus if I fear myself in my living I realize I will never be free.

I commit myself to stop the self manipulation with the anger character and breath through the reactions to be able to really live and be able to express myself as who I am.

I commit myself to stop suppressing myself within characters as the mind and expressing and walk myself out so I can correct myself and really live.

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Day 108 – Anger at Myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry with myself when I give into the mind as getting a quick fix within an energy rush, and compromise myself standing by giving into the mind as energy. I realize and understand that when I give into the mind, it’s a point to walk through in writing and self correction, and stop the anger as the anger is just furthering me into the mind and separating myself from the solution as myself through the writing and self forgiveness and living the change as becoming equal with myself and stopping the reactions such as anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of taking the practical point of realizing that I am going into a pattern, and thus stopping the pattern through self application, I use anger as a point of release and within this react to others in anger or blame based on what I didn’t take responsibility for myself, to stop the reactions and walk the correction in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put expectations on myself where in I am expecting an outcome, and thus when I don’t fulfill this expected desired outcome I go into anger at myself. This I realize is not being practical or self honest as I cannot expect a certain outcome to manifest as the future is not predictable and thus I am here, and I work with what is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push myself within self discipline in making sure that I do not submit to feelings and emotions as I know where this is going to lead, into self compromise and unnecessary blame towards another, so thus to correct this point I become more self disciplined and walk the correction I walk in writing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself a chance to walk through points and correct them in due time, and always expect myself to be perfect each and every time, where in this expectation is absolutely not realistic, which will always cause me to fall and accept the anger that follows at myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry at myself when I don’t reach an expectation I set for myself, and within this, not being self honest where in I realize obviously that the expectation is not able to be met ever, as I am not self perfected in my living, so I can’t expect myself to be this at the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect perfection when I have not lived self perfection yet, and thus realize it can’t be an expectation but a living in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live into expectations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry at something that is in my mind, and thus react in anger to a point that is unattainable, sabotaging myself and my process because I am in ego with trying to be perfect.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be within the ego in where I am trying to be perfect for others, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use anger as a coping mechanism to not have to face the fact that I am not taking responsibility for myself and how I am behaving to stop the unrealistic mind illusionary points as I can just be perfect, when I realize I haven’t walked perfection.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an idea that I am perfect in my mind, and thus live up to that, instead of standing here in reality and living self perfection for real in each breath, the first step I can walk is stopping the anger towards myself for not being perfect.

When and as I go into a point of anger towards myself for a point of giving in to desire or a point of desiring perfection and not meeting this point, I stop and breath, and realize that I can only live self perfection within actually living it and walking the perfection in each moment I am here by pushing self discipline and self honesty, when and as I do fall, I pick myself back up, continue to walk, and re-walk the point through writing and self application. Also, I stop the anger towards myself as this is not beneficial and only cause separation within me, I realize I have to walk through the points within stability and self acceptance as I am in a process and it will take time to walk through points that have taken equally as long to be created. So I realize it will take time to walk the self perfection of myself in my living, and that anger is not necessary and actually self abusive, so I stop.

I commit myself to stop the point of anger towards myself when I give in to a point of temptation, realizing that I have to walk the point again with more diligence and self investigation to see what it is I am still enslaved by, and push myself to not let myself fall by simply walking through it in stability and self discipline.

I commit myself to stop using anger as a point of release, and also to stop the blame onto others, when I fall or give into temptation, but breath and remain stable.

I commit myself to stop giving into temptations and walk the points through until they are done, and I stand.

I commit myself to stop the expectation of me to be perfect, and thus stop the point of anger when I don’t match my expectation. Thus I commit to stop expectation.

I commit myself to stop the ego as desires of being perfect as an idea in my head, and thus walk with the process here to self perfection in living to be the best being I can be and thus we create a world in the best way we can live by actually practically living it as ourselves. 

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Day 107 – Missing the Details in Life

What I have done for allot of my life is instead of becoming specific, detailed, and meticulous about what it is I am doing physically, I go into a mind generalization where I will see a point and assess within a moment how I can move forward, within generalizing the steps to get to the outcome. Within this missing the life that is in the details of what it is I am doing, and what this cause is half-assed and incomplete living, where I am not being the most effective being I can be. This rush and cruising through life is due to the fear of missing something better that I could be doing, basically entertainment type activities, that keep me occupied and feeling good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within a moment assess the easiest course of action to take, so thus I don’t have to spend too much time on a task or what I am doing, for fear that I will miss out on something that is more fun to participate in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a rush and thus seek out the easiest course of action which always comes to a missing of the detail and specificity of the life or task I have in front of me, thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of living within specificity and detail to the life and environment around me giving myself the best and most optimum opportunity to excel in what I am doing, I go into a rush and miss points by moving too fast, and thus not live to my fullest potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss myself within the living here where in I am in my mind looking for a good feeling, thus I will rush through the seemingly ‘menial’ task during my day to get to the points where I can have a good feeling through entertaining myself or doing something fun. I realize within this that I am only seeking out feelings when in reality life is suffering and I could be a point of support to help facilitate a better life for all by becoming an effective being by considering all the points in specificity and detail, but instead I go into the mind and trust the mind to give me what I want, if I just submit and generalize and rush through the life that I am walking breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind within a point of desiring to have good feelings so thus I will submit to the mind as it scans and generalize life to thus be able to categorize and move through all the information to thus be able to process what it needs to do to survive, and thus I am just processing what I have to to survive and thus gain that bit of mind heaven as the good feelings when I finally reach my goal of entertainment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the mind is actually within its process absolute in it’s specificity and detail in relation to how it works and thus me as the mind need to be equally as efficient and specific in walking through the mind layers if I want to birth myself as life, I must walk as the mind equal and one in its specificity and detail to transcend it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss walking in specificity and detail in the life that I am living noticing more of what is here as in the insects, the plants, the birds, nature, people, life experiences, and thus walk as a mind in illusion searching only for good feelings as entertainment, being preoccupied in my mind, and thus missing the opportunity to live one and equal with life and explore and expand myself as myself as all life.

When and as I see that I am moving into this mind state of generalization and cruising into a path that is not specific and aware of the life that is here as me, I stop, breath, and slow myself down and start becoming aware of my body physically, moving my toes and fingers, and thus push myself to focus on the specificity and detail in what I am doing even if it is not necessary in that moment, so thus I can train myself to expand my awareness and practice noticing all the life that I have been missing by being in my mind.

I commit myself to stop this point of generalizing tasks and life, and start to practice and push walking the detail and specificity in the tasks I am doing.

I commit myself to slow myself down in living and thus walk as breath in each moment, this to practice becoming more aware of me as my physical and the life around me, noticing all things with more of a magnify glass and thus this will expand my understanding as well.

I commit myself to stop trusting feelings as I realize they are the mind, and thus walk here in my physical body as breath as I live.

I commit myself to walk the path to birthing myself as life, become equal to and one with my mind as my mind is me, and thus expanding and becoming more aware of me as the mind, thus to be able to walk the correction within self honest application as self forgiveness and sort through what I have walked faulty and bring back a world as myself that is best in all ways possible.

I commit myself to walk life within the detail and specificity in it’s wonder and awesomeness as well as within the absolute dedication to walk the correction so life become whole again where all the parts come back to the whole as self. 

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Day 106 – Jealousy Character

When looking at the relationships I have towards others, one I tend to go into is the jealousy character, where in a go into a point of spitefulness towards another due to this belief that I can’t have or am not as good as another. Using the Jealousy character to diminish the other beings in my mind, but within reality being nice and pleasant to their face. Obviously, this is a dishonorable way of living, and thus I apply myself within self-forgiveness to stop this character from directing me, and be able to walk as equals with all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the jealousy character within a point of reaction towards my feelings I had towards another where in I made a decision that I can not be as expressive as this being, and thus feeling less then, so thus I feel uncomfortable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of inferiority towards another being based on defining myself by another’s expression in a moment, and thus seeing myself lacking, where in I am not taking in the full context nor considering the whole being as the other and myself within the decision I made that I am inferior, and thus decide based on a single momentary assessment of another that I am inferior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make decisions and thus trust feelings within myself as uncomfortableness and feeling less then instead of investigating the starting point to why I am reacting to a being expressing themselves in life in such a way as I realize feelings as reactions are not real as they come form the dimension of the mind which is illusion, and thus base myself and others on the feelings I have towards them and myself which are not real rather not practical nor conducive to create a decision about myself or another on these illusionary feelings such as feeling uncomfortable and less then, but rather investigate the origin and sort it out through writing out and living the corrections.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as inferior to this being who I created a jealousy towards based on seeing that I am not a being who can freely express and thus using the jealousy CHARACTER to justify myself to go into my mind and create a point of diminishing her because I believe that I can not be this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can’t be expressive and free within who I am based on holding onto the past, and thus through understanding this origin point as my past, I realize and see that I must walk through the memories that created such a belief of can’t be expressive and openly free.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character in my head as jealousy and thus use this character to abuse the other whom I superiorized to me, and diminish with such words as ‘they are ugly’ ‘they have family issues’ ‘they can’t get a boyfriend’ points where I find what their ‘weaknesses’ are and use that as ammo for my myself as my mind to make me superior again within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in my mind to make myself superior to others I have judged myself less then by using nasty and degrading thoughts within my mind to make myself feel better because within myself I have created myself as a weak person and thus I can not be helped.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use separation and abuse of others to make myself feel better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse of others in my mind and thus am to cowardly to say these points to their face as I would fear losing them as a friend, but is this real friendship, no as this is a lie, a lie that I only can see and know about, but a lie none the less that is creating separation within myself towards all life, and unnecessary conflict within myself towards other beings just being and walking their own processes, while I gain nice feelings because I became superior again within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach memories to others where in I see someone who is more expressive then me, then I immediately think back in school of how I was not able to express myself with others freely due to being shy and fearful of ridicule, and thus when I see a being who is openly expressive I attach this memory to them and thus allow the jealousy of me not being able to do that direct me to abuse and degrade in the mind towards the expression I would like to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed an emotion as unworthiness as depression when I see a being that is more expressive then me and thus immediately go into a heavy feeling where in I slump and have a hard time just being here, and thus blame this depression point on the being whom I am seeing and thus judging as being more then me because they are able to express more openly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use emotions and memories to create a judgment of a being simply expressing in the physical as the physical in what way they are, and thus go into self judgment because I have not let go of this depression of being shy and not able to express myself in class and fear facing this and taking responsibility for myself as this jealousy character and stopping it and changing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame any being based on my own irresponsibility and desires, and thus go into my mind and degrade them for points that I don’t face as myself this fear of expressing and being open with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this memory of me at school not being able to express myself with others due to fear of ridicule or screwing up direct me and still have power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame any being for the way I am creating myself and thus not taking responsibility for my own actions and decisions and thoughts as memories within my own mind and thus become degrading and abusive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the jealousy of another direct me when I realize this is a point that I don’t want to walk through and face as I am accepting and allowing fear of others ridicule to direct me and thus abusing others because I am being in fear thus causing deliberate abuse which is unacceptable.

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Day 105- The Mind as the Enemy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the mind consciousness system as the enemy, and thus that I have to defeat it some how to have it stop it’s control. I realize and see that the mind is not the enemy as this point will continue the separation of myself with the mind as I realize the mind is me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to face and take responsibility for the mind as me and thus use blame and this point of separation to not have to walk and face who I have become as the mind, but I realize that this effort is futile and thus will continue the separation of myself and thus give direct power to the mind.

I forgi_­ve myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to push the mind in to the back of my head and suppress it because of the extensiveness that I have accepted and allowed the mind to control and have directive will over me as life.  I realize and see that the mind is a system and thus operate within codes and instructions. I also realize I am the instructor thus giving the direction to take over and control as I have accepted and allowed myself to go into separation to the mind and all the life that is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and see that the mind is within and throughout everything that is here as my human physical body so thus I can not blame the mind as I am actually just blaming myself. I realize this point of blame is useless and only cause self diminishment, so thus I stop the point of blame and walk through the layers to understand myself as the mind and walk the self forgiveness and self correction to stop the mind from having the directive will.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my mind the directive will to control and dictate who I am as I have not within myself stood one and equal to the mind, thus within this passive action of not standing up and becoming equal and one to my mind, my mind took the lead and walked the directive will into it’s own survival. I realize and understand that to take directive will as the mind, I must stand equal to the mind, which is standing equal and one to who I am as the mind in separation, and thus correct the patterns that are not aligned with life and thus walk the correction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give the word ‘mind’ a negative charge as I see it as the enemy and thus see it within a conflict situation, this conflicting with who I have become and thus missing the opportunity to change myself as the mind and thus stand equal to the mind as it is me, so thus I can change the relationship to be from a polarity to equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word mind and thus go into a restriction when I hear it in sound, and thus cause a point of conflict that is not necessary as I realize that the mind is here as I am here and thus the only point that is to be focused on is how to become equal and one with the mind so thus I can stand here in equality and oneness and thus direct myself to and as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist me as the mind as I see the task in front of me as big, and thus I resist this task as I believe I lack the capacity to walk the mind through and transcend to walk as an equal physical participant here as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt myself within who I am as the life force within me and what I am capable of doing, I realize to have an expectation of who I should be is to go into separation, as this is not able to be lived up to, so thus I realize I must walk breath by breath and take each point as mind as it come. I stop the self-doubt as this is only is a point of self-sabotage.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself to not have to push myself and walk the layers and complexities of my mind consciousness system, and thus go into a diminishment when I look at the big picture. Thus I realize I must take it piece by piece and not look at it in as a whole as I am not walking the system in one go, but it will be walked piece by piece.

I commit myself to stop the polarity play out of the seeing the mind as the enemy, and thus walk the mind as I realize and see it is me and thus give myself the opportunity to be free and take control back as equal and one to what is here as the physical through walking through the layers of the mind to get here.

I commit myself to take responsibility for all parts of my mind as me and thus walk what has to be walked to correct my living within who I am as myself as my mind, and change to be a being who is trusted and is here as breath directing myself in my living to what is best for all life.

I commit myself to stand as the directive will standing equal and one to the mind as life and re-instruct myself to walk what is best for all and solution that will benefit all life.

I commit myself to stop the point of blame towards my mind as I take responsibility for myself as the mind, and walk the correction into equality and oneness with and as the mind to thus walk the correction with and as the physical within and through my human physical body.

I commit myself to walk the mind within detail as myself as I take responsibility for my actions, words, thoughts, and thus all parts that is the mind, and use the tools as self forgiveness and self correction inliving to change from mind directed to self directed as the physical one and equal with self.

I commit myself to walk the layers of the mind to the physical equal and one to bring about life back to earth through and as myself as all selves as life and what should have always been a world that is best for all and all life is able to be supported and cared for as self would like to be cared for and supported.

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Day 104 – Making Father Proud

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire, from since I can remember, to want to make my father proud of me because I looked up to him for what he did within work and how he always was there for me and took care of us to the best of his ability within the matrix in terms of working and keeping us surviving.

­­I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a child to desire for my father to think I was the ‘best’ within all my sisters and thus I would find ways such as working around the house or excelling in what I was doing such as sports to give reason for my dad to like me over my other sisters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in competition with my sisters because I compared myself to them and thus saw myself within a polarity play out as positive/negative, and thus used points such as athletics which I knew my dad thought was important and thus competed with my sisters to show my dad that I am the best in any point that was brought up that I could compete.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into jealousy towards my sisters due to comparison and thus compete with them to show off to my father that I am the best daughter based on what I can do physically and which grew into intellectually as I started to go to school and such, realizing that I could use my intellect in competition with my sisters as I saw that I was able to become the best in this field as well amongst my sisters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get an energy boost of positive/good feelings when my dad would say ‘you are the smartest kid we have’ and thus become superior within my stance and behavior towards my sisters because I got this confirmation from my dad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become energized and thus go into a superior stance towards my sisters when I am told that ‘I am the smartest’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that in terms of who I am with my sisters, that we are equals, within our expressions we are different and thus I realize that to go within an energy as being superior to them is ego and thus the mind as a character to suit myself interest and make me feel more then others because within myself I feel inferior to people, so thus I can make myself feel better by making others feel less then me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the ego character as being superior to my sisters and thus make sure they know that I was found to be more intellectual then them by my dad, and thus make myself feel better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into ego towards my sisters when I was told I was the smartest, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the comment as a form of self interest for my own self to feel better, instead of correcting the point with my dad in telling him that that statement is a form of separation as we are all here as equals and thus only walk in practicality with others in what has to be done and who will be the best fit to do it and stop the ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my sisters and go into ego where in I play that I am more when in fact I am feeling less then them as I have judged and compared myself to them, and thus use this point that my dad said of ‘I am the smartest’ and thus go into superiority because I feel less then.

I commit myself to stop this point of going into this point of desiring to make my dad proud of me in a point of trying to be better then my sister, and thus I commit to create an environment where ever I am where I walk as an equal and contribute to the whole in the best ways I can in consideration and acceptance of all equal to myself.

I commit myself to stop comparison and judgment towards my sisters and thus stop the point of competition that I create with them to be the best and thus I stop the point of getting my dad to see me as perfect as well.

I commit myself to stop this point of desire to be the best with others in my world thus I realize I must stop the comparison and judgment thoughts, words, and deeds that I participate in.

I commit myself to walk the process of letting go of the ego character and thus start the process of re-walking my living with others in equality and oneness through physical practical living.

I commit myself to walk the point of humbleness by putting myself always in the shoes of another and stop the point of being a bully.

I commit myself to accept myself through equalizing myself with the physical so thus I can stand equal and accept all as myself here as who we are as life. 

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