Understanding Myself as the Physical – Day 589

When I look at the word physical and my experience within it, I see that for most of my life I have never considered the actual point of being a physical being, who we are as life here as the physical, it’s been something that has never been in my awareness. Yes, I realized that we are on earth and the physical world is what we live in and with to make us be alive, but since walking with desteni and understanding more of the scope and depth of what the physical actually is, it has been an eye-opening experience to say the least. And what has really been interesting is the realization that the physical world is simple, it is direct, here, in the moment, as everything is all ways in the principle of oneness and equality in what is best for all. Here direct as the moment alive, working with our own physical capabilities, our own physical mind and mental systems we have created as consciousness programs, we are in fact the living creation, yet we have never realized we are this or more specifically forgotten that we have done this.

We have forgotten ourselves as the life principle lived, it is mathematical, specific in it’s application, but within that there is freedom, acceptance, understanding, integrity, and much more. You can’t I have found put a definition on this creation principle, it is ever-flowing and ever moving, and when aligned to life here in what is best, it is the stuff of dreams, really interesting living experiences have been opening up for me. Things that I have always desired and wanted for myself are starting to manifest, and I have attested it to my living application for the past 10 years of self-forgiveness and living change in these very simple principles, being self honest as best possible, never giving up, holding the life principle of self as what is best within self, cherish yourself as life, and then expanding that out to the world you touch. It’s been extraordinary, yet difficult at the same time.

Difficult in the sense that it’s been a process of challenges, I have faced many demons of mine and still to this day have the threat of facing these points, yet, what I have held dear to myself and to what is here and has shown true in my own living experience is life is merciful if one act in this way to others as self. Who you are within your living within yourself and within the without, voices volumes of information to the universe and those supporting in the process of life in what's best on all levels big and small. This is a process of existence that is being walked and we are here together within it all, to support and show ourselves and each other how to live in harmony and peace. and this is through living principled within self as who you are as your best self through self-forgiveness and living change, and through this one will see life emerge within and without. It’s extraordinary because life can not be pinned down, it cannot be tamed, it can not be touched within the honor that resides within what is here as this point of self emergence as life.

So I am starting to explore for myself this physical reality, who I am as a physical being, how the self is as life as who I am as principled living in what is best, through living self-forgiveness and change. These simple points of support have changed my life in the most extraordinary of ways it’s hard to put into words. So I have been honored in this process tenfold and as I have been given so you will be given as well as you stand as life and do what is best. You change your living in your highest self, you align to what is best for all in your life. There is challenges I still face, but stability and self-trust become self and within this, no one can touch. So it’s a self-creation process unknown to not even the universe, all options are open, all possibilities, all opportunities, and do not fear because you are everything, use integrity and stand in your highest potential and you will be good.

This is what I have found as a point of support for me to face the unknown, it helps me to keep moving and forging forward. I also see it as an adventure and fun, playing as life as the child I am of this universe and discovering myself, seeing it for what it is within a child’s point of view, they definitely have something to share and have been diminished for far to long. It is time we stand as life for the children to come, stand up once and for all, and live what is best for all within and without. It’s time to stand in the physical as your directive will, let’s carry on and stand together as a support

It's So Easy to React, Isn't It? But to Give is to Receive, no? - Day 588

Today I had a moment where I realized how much I have been allowing myself to react to my reality, react to the people in it, react to the noises, the hiccups, the interruptions, the pace, there is reactions everywhere, this is because it has become so easy to just react, release the built-up energy, and give into the experience of what it is I am facing in a way of self compromise and self insecurity. There is the motion of it, there is no effort, it comes, I live into the reaction, boom I am the reaction, and then I start creating myself into that reaction. The havoc that is lived out from the moment I decided to live into the reaction is unpredictable in it's scope and measure, once the energy has died out and I have 'calmed' down from the events playing out, I go into guilt, shame, and regret for what I had just participated in.

And then the cycle repeats, and one creates another round of emotional havoc on the body and in one's environment, potentially causing irreversible damage and consequence, which creates the spiraling into guilt, shame, and regret once again. The only point that I have found that has led me to ignore or forget the inevitable pattern of abuse I live out when I live into reactions is space and time, it moves slower and we have allowed the forgetfulness of our past to become part of who we are, who we have become, but how can we actually forgot something we have created in this reality? We must know deep down that this never goes away, who we are is recorded in our flesh and so we will face who have become in this life and if necessary the next. Though we are the creators so we can 'pretend' and so live as the 'I have forgotten my own abusive behavior' pattern, which will cycle the repeated pattern of abuse I continually accept and allow as my creation here in this life/reality and our home, it repeat and repeat until we stop, until we say no more, and we actually live the change to be a better version as self. Understand this is a self process, no one else, but self, so get in tune with who you are, your inner voice, the voice of life that is you, cherish that as that will be your guide in self-honesty, your beingness essentially is what I see it as for now.

What is different and empowering about the Desteni process that I have yet to find in other sources is the actual understanding and living of the knowledge of how to be a better human being in this world, who supports and nurtures all life equal and one to one's own life, how to physically, actually figure this out and do it. The step by steps are laid out in this site along with the other networks associated with desteni, those who are willing and ready to walk this jounrey will do so, nothing will stand in life's way in this regard. The question always comes back to self in who am I? Who are you? That is the question indeed. So one can indeed then implement and commit to the path of life, what is best for all as oneself by practicing the principles of self honesty, self forgiveness, self introspection, and self commitment, actually apply this, live it, and not give up until you have gotten it, it is all here, as the question is asked, the anwser will appear. This has been extremely true in my process, life is a gift, an adventure, and fun along with the reality always that it is in need of immediate change into equal life for all, never losing sight of this point until it is here and self is as one and equal with all.

These principles or living words that is here and taught/practiced in the desteni process and on eqafe intersect and split apart the cyclical patterns of abuse that I have accepted and allowed to playout in my life, it creates a 'remembrance' of who one is in one's action in the past because self was present in those moments, getting a grip and understanding of who one is, why one is, where one needs to go to be a better version, and the steps are walked step by step to become and emerge as the better version you saw the potential you could be, this is seen in the self forgiveness and self-commitment statements. This is the path to life, eternal life, and a world that is best for all, it's in the individual into the the collective equal and one as self.

It is easy to live into energy, live into the reactions, live into the mind, but this is only because we have made it a habit, it's become ingrained, and thus can be undone and how about we make our habits where I as self-support myself to be the best I can be as me as my every breath in my everyday life and we all do this? Where the better version of ourselves where those who seek help and support from are here, willing, able, and educated on how to be of support to stand as an example as the best possible potential one can be, and so one becomes a teacher and a leader in this regard of what one themselves have mastered in the principles of life, being an example of what is possible and what we erroneously allowed ourselves to forget, we are the gift, we are life. To be a master, one has to walk 10000 steps or do 10000 hours of a task. Are you willing to start this journey? Are you on your way? I can tell you all the steps in the world are worth more than any path of least resistance in giving into reaction, creating harm, and being the lesser version of a being you know you can be.

How about our habit is to give life and thus receive it equally so? Live the words 'give' first, and so receive without want as you are creating it within the act of giving itself, it is a beautiful thing and creates real beauty in this life. This journey I am eternally grateful for especially for all those who have come before to stand in my stead as I give to myself the ability to stand and do what is best in self honesty, self forgiveness, and living my change for all life to be one and equal until it's done and so do this for others as I have been given.

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Pompous Me - Money Makes Me Powerful – Day 348

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Pompous Me – The Elite Within – Part 1 – Day 347

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief of myself in relation to the clerk as being inferior to me due to the fact that I created a self belief of myself that I am more then him because I have the ability to buy things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief of myself and those who look or appear or spend money, that these people are worth more then those who don’t spend money, don’t look like they have money, or don’t appear to have any money, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge other people based on my perceptional image I have created in my mind of what someone with money looks like and what someone without money looks like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a split within myself within my interactions with others as decent and rude through changing my behavior whether someone looks and acts as if they have money and those who don't.

And from there I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become superior to those that I see appear to not have as much money as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief that those who have money are more worthy of life then those who don’t based on an inner energy of confidence when around those who don’t have or look like they don’t have money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to from this false sense of confidence from an energy feeling of feeling superior to others who don’t look or act like myself, I go into a point of rudeness or kindness if it suits me and my self interest, disregarding the other completely as I see them as not as important to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to treat another human being as kind or rudely based on the feelings I get within me and thus act on these feelings as if they are real, when in reality I am abusing others thorugh only considering myself and not considering the other equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be more important then any life form due to a false sense of security through having money, but realizing that money is not a safety net, this world is not safe, as I creating the fear through judgment of money attainability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never fully become aware and understand the person who does not have money, what there life is like, what they go through on a day to day basis having no money or having to struggle to survive, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus not consider or care about my responsibility and participation within the way the other person/animal/nature is effected based on the way the system is operating where people have to survive through attaining money when it is not given equally to all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a protection shield that is through attaining and hoarding money and from there create a feeling of being happy and being superior to others because I have blinded myself from the reality that I am not superior nor am particularly happy as how can one be happy when others suffer in this world, using ignorance as a form of bliss is an illusion and unacceptable in this world where lives are being effected in horrific and horrendous ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel nothing for the other person/animal/insect/nature/environment who has to struggle to survive because I desire to feel special and more then others where within this acceptance and allowance creates a lack within an other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be selfish and not share myself and all that is here as earth’s resources equally among all and within this I forgive myself that I have created a judgment of others who have no money or appear to have no money and not do anything to alleviate their suffering through the principles that are obvious and common sense if I put myself in the other person who has nothing and is sufferings shoes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that money is not to be given freely to all and that I should have as much as possible as this will allow me to continue my desires to be special and feel good about myself as being superior to others because I have more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider or accept that if I have more then enough of what I need, then I am taking from others there share that should be given to them so they can also live comfortably and have enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe because of my family generations and bloodlines that I am superior to others on this planet because we have been shielded from suffering by accumulating wealth as a fortress of protection but in reality what is fact is that I am an abuser and a taker of life that I have no right and no regard to take, life is equally here among all and thus I realize all have a right to equally be able to live and not have to struggle to survive or die because they don’t have enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because my family has accumulated wealth then that means that I am special, and important, more so then others who do not have this linage and money availability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hurt and abuse others in words, actions, and/or thought because I have accepted myself to be and live as if I am better then any other life form on this planet through the protection I perceive I have through having money availability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe because I have money available that I can do whatever I want and get whatever I want because I have the money to buy it and thus power through money availability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my money availability to become more powerful then others and desires this power as I can have control over others and have them do what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I have money that means I have power to do whatever I see fit not realizing and seeing that there is laws here within the physical that are to be recognized and aligned with as this is what gives me life, the laws of the physical as life, and so by denying the laws of life as equality and oneness to all that exist through taking more then my equal share, I am no longer aligned with life and thus face unnecessary consequence that will not benefit me as life as I am creating this conflict within my own decisions by not aligning with life as balance in the laws that create this balance as equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be more powerful then others and control others by using money in this manner to get what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider, see, or realize that this mentality of getting whatever I want and doing whatever I want because I have the protection of having money to do and get things with, that I have disregarded the consequences of my actions as only considering myself and my needs, I do not consider the other billions of life forms on this planet living with me who have the same needs as myself and so abuse deliberately through accepting and allowing self interest as desire over the laws that govern life as the physical equality and oneness with all that live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make money my definer of life instead of realizing I am already life and so create the solutions or be a part of creating the solutions necessary to allow all to have equal opportunity to a life that is best for all and share the gifts of life here equally for all.

When and as I see I go into a point of definition outside myself through any material possession or idea and/or belief I have created about myself in separation with others, I stop and breath, and realize that this is creating a split between myself and others and so creating conflict within myself and abuse with others. I realize that this is creating the abuse in this world and that what needs to be lived is the laws of the physical which is life within oneness and equality in what is best for all anything less then this is an illusion and is based in self interest, and should be corrected through the process of self honesty and stopped as soon as possible.

I commit myself to live the laws of the physical through correcting myself as life and aligning with all others as life in oneness and equality in what is best.

I commit myself to stop defining myself by money and others by money, and  see life here as the physical and I commit to walk the practical steps to support others in the best way possible.

I commit myself to investigate when I go into a point of definition or belief or idea of myself when I see an energy has moved me and direct it into the physical by stopping it and directing myself  in what will be best.

I commit myself to see money as a tool to have society move and work towards a solution to create a living income for all to the eventual implementation of an equality system that will facilitate the processes and systems to create life here for all worthwhile.

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Pompous Me – The Elite Within – Part 1 – Day 347

Recently a point has come up of reacting to another in rudeness. I want to investigate what triggered the point of going into a change within myself of being fine one moment and the next being rude and deliberate towards another. I was checking out at the counter and the store clerk recognized me, I had a broken card that he told me the last time I should get fixed and then this time I gave him the card, he looked at me and laughed. In the moment we met eyes, I was possessed with the energy of anger and irritation. I see here the trigger point was a thought as I was giving him the card that ‘he is going to say the same thing about the card’ and the energy that came with that thought was the same energy that I had the first time he spoke to me to get a new card, and it was for him to mind his own business and I will get a new card if I want to. So anger and turning into a rage because I was offended that this guy was trying to tell me how to do things, getting involved in my life when he doesn’t belong, and another belief I held within that moment is that he should just shut up and do his job, and within this belief there was an energy of superiority, like I am buying from him so he has to respect me, I have the power, I have the money.

Within this scenario, this is a pattern I have lived often times in my life, superiority through intimidation and manipulation to get what I want and to make myself feel better about myself. When I am told what to do or how to do thing I react extensively because I have prided myself in knowing and being able to do many things very well. I have this belief about myself that I am indeed superior to others in skill and so I, if I see it appropriate, can demand respect from others because I deserve it. And with this attitude of superiority with my beliefs that I am more skilled then others and so this garners me a certain respect, I treat others as if they should know this and adhere to these unknown knows about ME – Special ME. So I will then treat others rudely or not in consideration of who they as equal and one to me, and so abuse them in ways as in this case with rudeness and a pompous attitude and believe myself to be justified.

But I am fooling myself as I am really making all of this up in my mind, I am creating a whole point of justification for me to gain some good feelings about myself because I was able to make faces and become nasty towards another, intimidate them, to gain a point of self interest for myself because he has no right to say anything to me. In the moment before I handed the card to the clerk, I already decided within myself that I was going to react nasty to him if he said anything about the broken card, he was going to get it so to speak because I am better then him, I am the buyer and he is the seller, I have money and he doesn’t, and this is the elitist personality I have allowed and accepted for most of my life, defining myself by money, what I have, and so believing that who I am is defined by this and this makes me better, more skilled, smarter, and more deserving of life here then others who don’t have this. I am the money maker, the superior one and the clerk is the lower, he has to make the money and make me happy cause I am paying him to.

And so I abused and intimated this person, well I tried at least, through my face and through my body language to make it clear what I thought of him, and that he has no say in who I am and what I do because plain and simple, I am more powerful then him because in my mind I have a lot of money (which I don’t!) and he is just a store clerk, I make assumptions that he has no money and so he is a loser, and he will not tell me, the winner, the superior one, the one with the ability to buy life, what to do.

Man, I mean this mentality is what cause the slavery in this world, this elitist pompous attitude I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within is creating the way of life of death and suffering on this earth. Because I want to be special, I want to be more then another, and really I want to have power over others to make me feel worthy, in control, and have an idea of myself that I am special because I gain a sense of self worth, an energy movement of power and specialness, but none of it is real, none of it is worthwhile, and it's perpetuating the state of man as barbaric malicious beings on this planet. And so all this is showing me is my own chains, what I am tied to as beliefs, energy, emotions, and abuse, and so who I am within this life, an abuser of life not worthy to have the life that is given to me unconditionally. And so with this continuing within my living, the elitist-pompous personality, I am rejecting those showing me to myself through the belief that I don’t have to listen, I am too great, too special, and to important to have to listen to reality, to life, to my self here everywhere I look and so rejecting my opportunity to really live life, be life, and create peace through equality and oneness in this world, which is the greatest shame of self as the human race.

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Day 202 - Im your Master Dog Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have this point of superiority over other lifeforms such as animals as being more entitled, more intelligent, more aware and thus use my will over them to make them do what I want and what I intend rather then working with the animal, seeing it within equality, and thus walking with the animal in stability into livable solutions or steps of compromise to work towards an equal understanding of mutual respect and benefit and thus stop my abuse of dominance over another who is me equal and one no matter the form.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of superiority towards another life form as animals, bugs, even inanimate objects believe myself to be more, I stop and breath, and do not accept myself to go into this point of ego through not moving myself or speaking until I have regained stability within myself and will speak in ways that supports life in all it’s forms in an equal way to how I would like to be treated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become dominant over other life forms such as animals, insects, even small children, where in based on this belief of my intelligence and awareness being more advanced, I will go into a point of ego based on being this feeling of power and control and becoming intoxicated by this ‘imagined benefit’ I am gaining by being able to take advantage of others ‘lacks’ when really I realize this is showing me who I am as a self interested abuser of life, if I can not consider the ‘smallest’ or the supposed ‘least aware’ as equal to myself then I become equal within this living of ignorance and lose my opportunity to be life as living equality in full awareness of what life is. Real living is treating all life equal as I realize that I am here as and within all life as life is all there is in fact.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of belief of superiority and go into a dominant stand towards others in my world who I perceive as ‘less’, I stop and breath, and do not participate in this belief of superiority as I realize I am equal, and do not accept the thoughts of judgment towards others, by pushingbreathing and speaking self forgiveness in my head through moving my body, and not allowing the thoughts to accumulate into consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry at animals, kids, and insects for instance when they do not accept and allow themselves to be dominate and thus react towards me as I then go into a point of inferior and fear losing my power position.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base myself in what standings I can create myself within towards others based on perceived beliefs of myself that I am more then other life forms and thus have gained in my own ‘right’ the power position. I realize and see that this is purely self ignorance in the face of the reality that is here and I am missing within the life of others of abusing other thorugh trying to impose my own desires onto them and not allowing them to be free. I realize I create this power position due to fear of my own lack of integrity and willingness to really live equal in fact and fear of giving up my disires to have more then others.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of perception on a situation I walk into and thus startthinking thoughts of judgment and were I can be most strong within capitalizing on my superiorities and thus forcing others to do my will without considering who they are and what they would want equally, I stop and breath, and do not accept myself to go into this perception of thought of judgments and images about my own superiority compared to others. I stop thoughts from directing me using breath and continuing to push my self will to dismantle these thought patterns of desires to have/be more and fear of lose, but walking reality in equality with others and realize if all don’t benefit, then I will never benefit as well.

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Day 201 - I'm your Master Dog

I often find myself going into this point of believing I know more then others, I am more gifted then others, I am smarter, more intelligent then others, and this within me gives me a sense of power and control over who I am and what I perceive myself as. As within the starting point of having to have power and control over myself and thus others in my world, is showing that I am living and existing in fear, fear of not being seen within a point of acceptance by myself or others thus I have to take it and fear of losing what I believe I can gain if I harness this power position and control the correct people to have the greatest advantage of getting what I want, but this all of course is self interest and not serving life thus not serving myself.

I find this desire for control is quite strong within me, for instance, with my dog, he will often push my authority and boundaries by continously jumping on me and try and fight with me, this is when we are out in the field and we are playing. It’s more a point of dominance as he is just showing me equal and one what I am doing to him as I have this idea within myself that I am the master and he is mine to direct. But we are equals, and thus this point of dominance is not necessary as we can co-exist within this respect. I see I go into this selfrighteous point of, please you are a dog and I am a human, you are the one who has to listen to me, I am your master and thus this is who I am to you, and this is not something that I consciously see of myself as I believe myself to be a great dog owner and friend, but within this event I see that there is more brewing under the surface.

This sense of power comes in with control as power is something that makes me feel special and superior then others and I only receive this sense of power when I have dominated and controlled another, like a form of winning. This making me feel good like I am better then others because I came to the point of control and now they have to give their power to me, this is within the example of my dog I am using here. Like gettingsatisfaction of having the dog submit to me and sit and stay when I tell him to, and within myself havethoughts of, ‘look at me, I am so good that I have this dog just do exactly what I say.” Believing this is all me and getting good feelings as a reward from this within my mind as I believe I have power and control over of him, thus "I must be pretty special then, like I must be like an animal communicator", which has come up in my mind which I have desired to be, thus desiring fame/recognition for such a talent. This all being self interest. But who is the one in this situation with the real power is Henri as he is showing me how to be disciplined and have self control, and this point of aggression and dominance I am creating within our relationship by being this way with him at times is being directed back at myslef through Henri as he is showing me what I am doing. He doesn't force me to be or do anything, he is just here and lives.

Animals are a unconditional support for humans to show us who we are and who we can be, I am amazed at how henri can go up to any human and be friendly and enjoy their company within their expression, they don’t think about anything, they just go and be expressive with the different humans no matter who it is, where I would be in judgment and be thinking of the past, and not be expressive, but be in my mind.

I find this point of power and control is based within me living and designing myself within competition in a point of fear and inferiority, like I will have to be strong and take over others or I will be the one to be taken advantage of. As well as compensating within this point of seeing were I am weak in, use what I can within the other to exploit and take advantage of, so I have a better chance of survival and I am more secure. All to be someone in my mind that I can believe is me, this strong, powerful person, but within myself I feel really crappy, not strong, but weak as I realize the abuse I am causing and the abuse this type of mind frame causes within this world, nothing but self compromise and abuse to life.

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