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Friday, October 4, 2013

Pompous Me - Money Makes Me Powerful – Day 348



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Pompous Me – The Elite Within – Part 1 – Day 347

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief of myself in relation to the clerk as being inferior to me due to the fact that I created a self belief of myself that I am more then him because I have the ability to buy things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief of myself and those who look or appear or spend money, that these people are worth more then those who don’t spend money, don’t look like they have money, or don’t appear to have any money, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge other people based on my perceptional image I have created in my mind of what someone with money looks like and what someone without money looks like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a split within myself within my interactions with others as decent and rude through changing my behavior whether someone looks and acts as if they have money and those who don't.

And from there I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become superior to those that I see appear to not have as much money as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief that those who have money are more worthy of life then those who don’t based on an inner energy of confidence when around those who don’t have or look like they don’t have money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to from this false sense of confidence from an energy feeling of feeling superior to others who don’t look or act like myself, I go into a point of rudeness or kindness if it suits me and my self interest, disregarding the other completely as I see them as not as important to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to treat another human being as kind or rudely based on the feelings I get within me and thus act on these feelings as if they are real, when in reality I am abusing others thorugh only considering myself and not considering the other equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be more important then any life form due to a false sense of security through having money, but realizing that money is not a safety net, this world is not safe, as I creating the fear through judgment of money attainability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never fully become aware and understand the person who does not have money, what there life is like, what they go through on a day to day basis having no money or having to struggle to survive, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus not consider or care about my responsibility and participation within the way the other person/animal/nature is effected based on the way the system is operating where people have to survive through attaining money when it is not given equally to all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a protection shield that is through attaining and hoarding money and from there create a feeling of being happy and being superior to others because I have blinded myself from the reality that I am not superior nor am particularly happy as how can one be happy when others suffer in this world, using ignorance as a form of bliss is an illusion and unacceptable in this world where lives are being effected in horrific and horrendous ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel nothing for the other person/animal/insect/nature/environment who has to struggle to survive because I desire to feel special and more then others where within this acceptance and allowance creates a lack within an other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be selfish and not share myself and all that is here as earth’s resources equally among all and within this I forgive myself that I have created a judgment of others who have no money or appear to have no money and not do anything to alleviate their suffering through the principles that are obvious and common sense if I put myself in the other person who has nothing and is sufferings shoes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that money is not to be given freely to all and that I should have as much as possible as this will allow me to continue my desires to be special and feel good about myself as being superior to others because I have more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider or accept that if I have more then enough of what I need, then I am taking from others there share that should be given to them so they can also live comfortably and have enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe because of my family generations and bloodlines that I am superior to others on this planet because we have been shielded from suffering by accumulating wealth as a fortress of protection but in reality what is fact is that I am an abuser and a taker of life that I have no right and no regard to take, life is equally here among all and thus I realize all have a right to equally be able to live and not have to struggle to survive or die because they don’t have enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because my family has accumulated wealth then that means that I am special, and important, more so then others who do not have this linage and money availability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hurt and abuse others in words, actions, and/or thought because I have accepted myself to be and live as if I am better then any other life form on this planet through the protection I perceive I have through having money availability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe because I have money available that I can do whatever I want and get whatever I want because I have the money to buy it and thus power through money availability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my money availability to become more powerful then others and desires this power as I can have control over others and have them do what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I have money that means I have power to do whatever I see fit not realizing and seeing that there is laws here within the physical that are to be recognized and aligned with as this is what gives me life, the laws of the physical as life, and so by denying the laws of life as equality and oneness to all that exist through taking more then my equal share, I am no longer aligned with life and thus face unnecessary consequence that will not benefit me as life as I am creating this conflict within my own decisions by not aligning with life as balance in the laws that create this balance as equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be more powerful then others and control others by using money in this manner to get what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider, see, or realize that this mentality of getting whatever I want and doing whatever I want because I have the protection of having money to do and get things with, that I have disregarded the consequences of my actions as only considering myself and my needs, I do not consider the other billions of life forms on this planet living with me who have the same needs as myself and so abuse deliberately through accepting and allowing self interest as desire over the laws that govern life as the physical equality and oneness with all that live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make money my definer of life instead of realizing I am already life and so create the solutions or be a part of creating the solutions necessary to allow all to have equal opportunity to a life that is best for all and share the gifts of life here equally for all.

When and as I see I go into a point of definition outside myself through any material possession or idea and/or belief I have created about myself in separation with others, I stop and breath, and realize that this is creating a split between myself and others and so creating conflict within myself and abuse with others. I realize that this is creating the abuse in this world and that what needs to be lived is the laws of the physical which is life within oneness and equality in what is best for all anything less then this is an illusion and is based in self interest, and should be corrected through the process of self honesty and stopped as soon as possible.

I commit myself to live the laws of the physical through correcting myself as life and aligning with all others as life in oneness and equality in what is best.

I commit myself to stop defining myself by money and others by money, and  see life here as the physical and I commit to walk the practical steps to support others in the best way possible.

I commit myself to investigate when I go into a point of definition or belief or idea of myself when I see an energy has moved me and direct it into the physical by stopping it and directing myself  in what will be best.

I commit myself to see money as a tool to have society move and work towards a solution to create a living income for all to the eventual implementation of an equality system that will facilitate the processes and systems to create life here for all worthwhile.


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Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Pompous Me – The Elite Within – Part 1 – Day 347




Recently a point has come up of reacting to another in rudeness. I want to investigate what triggered the point of going into a change within myself of being fine one moment and the next being rude and deliberate towards another. I was checking out at the counter and the store clerk recognized me, I had a broken card that he told me the last time I should get fixed and then this time I gave him the card, he looked at me and laughed. In the moment we met eyes, I was possessed with the energy of anger and irritation. I see here the trigger point was a thought as I was giving him the card that ‘he is going to say the same thing about the card’ and the energy that came with that thought was the same energy that I had the first time he spoke to me to get a new card, and it was for him to mind his own business and I will get a new card if I want to. So anger and turning into a rage because I was offended that this guy was trying to tell me how to do things, getting involved in my life when he doesn’t belong, and another belief I held within that moment is that he should just shut up and do his job, and within this belief there was an energy of superiority, like I am buying from him so he has to respect me, I have the power, I have the money.

Within this scenario, this is a pattern I have lived often times in my life, superiority through intimidation and manipulation to get what I want and to make myself feel better about myself. When I am told what to do or how to do thing I react extensively because I have prided myself in knowing and being able to do many things very well. I have this belief about myself that I am indeed superior to others in skill and so I, if I see it appropriate, can demand respect from others because I deserve it. And with this attitude of superiority with my beliefs that I am more skilled then others and so this garners me a certain respect, I treat others as if they should know this and adhere to these unknown knows about ME – Special ME. So I will then treat others rudely or not in consideration of who they as equal and one to me, and so abuse them in ways as in this case with rudeness and a pompous attitude and believe myself to be justified.

But I am fooling myself as I am really making all of this up in my mind, I am creating a whole point of justification for me to gain some good feelings about myself because I was able to make faces and become nasty towards another, intimidate them, to gain a point of self interest for myself because he has no right to say anything to me. In the moment before I handed the card to the clerk, I already decided within myself that I was going to react nasty to him if he said anything about the broken card, he was going to get it so to speak because I am better then him, I am the buyer and he is the seller, I have money and he doesn’t, and this is the elitist personality I have allowed and accepted for most of my life, defining myself by money, what I have, and so believing that who I am is defined by this and this makes me better, more skilled, smarter, and more deserving of life here then others who don’t have this. I am the money maker, the superior one and the clerk is the lower, he has to make the money and make me happy cause I am paying him to.

And so I abused and intimated this person, well I tried at least, through my face and through my body language to make it clear what I thought of him, and that he has no say in who I am and what I do because plain and simple, I am more powerful then him because in my mind I have a lot of money (which I don’t!) and he is just a store clerk, I make assumptions that he has no money and so he is a loser, and he will not tell me, the winner, the superior one, the one with the ability to buy life, what to do.

Man, I mean this mentality is what cause the slavery in this world, this elitist pompous attitude I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within is creating the way of life of death and suffering on this earth. Because I want to be special, I want to be more then another, and really I want to have power over others to make me feel worthy, in control, and have an idea of myself that I am special because I gain a sense of self worth, an energy movement of power and specialness, but none of it is real, none of it is worthwhile, and it's perpetuating the state of man as barbaric malicious beings on this planet. And so all this is showing me is my own chains, what I am tied to as beliefs, energy, emotions, and abuse, and so who I am within this life, an abuser of life not worthy to have the life that is given to me unconditionally. And so with this continuing within my living, the elitist-pompous personality, I am rejecting those showing me to myself through the belief that I don’t have to listen, I am too great, too special, and to important to have to listen to reality, to life, to my self here everywhere I look and so rejecting my opportunity to really live life, be life, and create peace through equality and oneness in this world, which is the greatest shame of self as the human race.


More to come with self application, thanks for reading. 


The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Introduction
The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Self Image and Imagination- Part 1
The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Self Image and Imagination- Practical Support - Part 2
The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Comparing Images and Imagination- Part 3
The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Comparing Images and Imagination- Practical Support - Part 4
The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Positive Self-Image Relationship - Part 5

Relationship Success Support - Connection Personality
Relationship Success Support - Introduction
Relationship Success Support - Intimacy Personality (Part 1)
Relationship Success Support - Intimacy Personality (Part 2)
Relationship Success Support - Intimacy Personality - Part 3
Relationship Success Support - Intimacy Personality - Part 4

The Spirituality of the Snail – Part 1
Psychic Animals - The Sheep - Part 1
Psychic Animals - The Sheep - Part 2


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Friday, January 11, 2013

Day 202 - Im your Master Dog Part 2




I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have this point of superiority over other lifeforms such as animals as being more entitled, more intelligent, more aware and thus use my will over them to make them do what I want and what I intend rather then working with the animal, seeing it within equality, and thus walking with the animal in stability into livable solutions or steps of compromise to work towards an equal understanding of mutual respect and benefit and thus stop my abuse of dominance over another who is me equal and one no matter the form.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of superiority towards another life form as animals, bugs, even inanimate objects believe myself to be more, I stop and breath, and do not accept myself to go into this point of ego through not moving myself or speaking until I have regained stability within myself and will speak in ways that supports life in all it’s forms in an equal way to how I would like to be treated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become dominant over other life forms such as animals, insects, even small children, where in based on this belief of my intelligence and awareness being more advanced, I will go into a point of ego based on being this feeling of power and control and becoming intoxicated by this ‘imagined benefit’ I am gaining by being able to take advantage of others ‘lacks’ when really I realize this is showing me who I am as a self interested abuser of life, if I can not consider the ‘smallest’ or the supposed ‘least aware’ as equal to myself then I become equal within this living of ignorance and lose my opportunity to be life as living equality in full awareness of what life is. Real living is treating all life equal as I realize that I am here as and within all life as life is all there is in fact.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of belief of superiority and go into a dominant stand towards others in my world who I perceive as ‘less’, I stop and breath, and do not participate in this belief of superiority as I realize I am equal, and do not accept the thoughts of judgment towards others, by pushingbreathing and speaking self forgiveness in my head through moving my body, and not allowing the thoughts to accumulate into consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry at animals, kids, and insects for instance when they do not accept and allow themselves to be dominate and thus react towards me as I then go into a point of inferior and fear losing my power position.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base myself in what standings I can create myself within towards others based on perceived beliefs of myself that I am more then other life forms and thus have gained in my own ‘right’ the power position. I realize and see that this is purely self ignorance in the face of the reality that is here and I am missing within the life of others of abusing other thorugh trying to impose my own desires onto them and not allowing them to be free. I realize I create this power position due to fear of my own lack of integrity and willingness to really live equal in fact and fear of giving up my disires to have more then others.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of perception on a situation I walk into and thus startthinking thoughts of judgment and were I can be most strong within capitalizing on my superiorities and thus forcing others to do my will without considering who they are and what they would want equally, I stop and breath, and do not accept myself to go into this perception of thought of judgments and images about my own superiority compared to others. I stop thoughts from directing me using breath and continuing to push my self will to dismantle these thought patterns of desires to have/be more and fear of lose, but walking reality in equality with others and realize if all don’t benefit, then I will never benefit as well.


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Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Day 201 - I'm your Master Dog




I often find myself going into this point of believing I know more then others, I am more gifted then others, I am smarter, more intelligent then others, and this within me gives me a sense of power and control over who I am and what I perceive myself as. As within the starting point of having to have power and control over myself and thus others in my world, is showing that I am living and existing in fear, fear of not being seen within a point of acceptance by myself or others thus I have to take it and fear of losing what I believe I can gain if I harness this power position and control the correct people to have the greatest advantage of getting what I want, but this all of course is self interest and not serving life thus not serving myself.

I find this desire for control is quite strong within me, for instance, with my dog, he will often push my authority and boundaries by continously jumping on me and try and fight with me, this is when we are out in the field and we are playing. It’s more a point of dominance as he is just showing me equal and one what I am doing to him as I have this idea within myself that I am the master and he is mine to direct. But we are equals, and thus this point of dominance is not necessary as we can co-exist within this respect. I see I go into this selfrighteous point of, please you are a dog and I am a human, you are the one who has to listen to me, I am your master and thus this is who I am to you, and this is not something that I consciously see of myself as I believe myself to be a great dog owner and friend, but within this event I see that there is more brewing under the surface.

This sense of power comes in with control as power is something that makes me feel special and superior then others and I only receive this sense of power when I have dominated and controlled another, like a form of winning. This making me feel good like I am better then others because I came to the point of control and now they have to give their power to me, this is within the example of my dog I am using here. Like gettingsatisfaction of having the dog submit to me and sit and stay when I tell him to, and within myself havethoughts of, ‘look at me, I am so good that I have this dog just do exactly what I say.” Believing this is all me and getting good feelings as a reward from this within my mind as I believe I have power and control over of him, thus "I must be pretty special then, like I must be like an animal communicator", which has come up in my mind which I have desired to be, thus desiring fame/recognition for such a talent. This all being self interest. But who is the one in this situation with the real power is Henri as he is showing me how to be disciplined and have self control, and this point of aggression and dominance I am creating within our relationship by being this way with him at times is being directed back at myslef through Henri as he is showing me what I am doing. He doesn't force me to be or do anything, he is just here and lives.

Animals are a unconditional support for humans to show us who we are and who we can be, I am amazed at how henri can go up to any human and be friendly and enjoy their company within their expression, they don’t think about anything, they just go and be expressive with the different humans no matter who it is, where I would be in judgment and be thinking of the past, and not be expressive, but be in my mind.

I find this point of power and control is based within me living and designing myself within competition in a point of fear and inferiority, like I will have to be strong and take over others or I will be the one to be taken advantage of. As well as compensating within this point of seeing were I am weak in, use what I can within the other to exploit and take advantage of, so I have a better chance of survival and I am more secure. All to be someone in my mind that I can believe is me, this strong, powerful person, but within myself I feel really crappy, not strong, but weak as I realize the abuse I am causing and the abuse this type of mind frame causes within this world, nothing but self compromise and abuse to life.



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Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Day 131- Appearance Character – Intro





Here looking at the appearance character that exist within and as me, directing and defining every moment that I breath as I have for a very long time, always looked to define myself and life by this unseen force as one of my characters I play as the appearance character, and in this created many dimensions of mind fucks that I will be walking through within the next coming blogs.

So I find one of the primary trigger points for the activation of this character, as the appearance character, is thinking. When I actually go and start thinking about the way I look and how others are perceiving me, then the thoughts accumulate and accumulate, and I go into suppression and self judgment based on accepting this belief that I am this character that has definitions, ideas, beliefs, and desires on how it is I should look, and what will be the perfect look to strive for. This belief is based on childhood and growing up with the media, friends, family, schooling, pushing consciously, subconsciously, or unconsciously, that we all are in competition with each other because we are in survival mode here to live, we have to be the best to have access to resources, to get what we need to eat, to get a job to make money, to get the guy/girl, it’s the inherent game of the survival of the fittest battle. So from birth we are bred to compete, to be the conquer, to be the dominant one, to be the smartest, to be the prettiest, to be the richest, so we can win, and thus be able to live another day and survive in this world. We have created this world were we aren’t free here, but slaves to the system as we have accepted ourselves to play into this fame with each other, and with ourselves as well.

So within this understanding, we as the beings in this survival mentality, walk within ourselves the separation of ourselves as life as equals, and compete and fight to get on top, cause if your on top, you are more guaranteed to survive, but is this really living. Obviously not, that is what the process at desteni is about, to stop ourselves from living in such a way. We are not slaves, we are not designed to compete and have to battle to survive, we don’t have to live into the seperations and comparisions that create such a hellish experience within us and without as this world DEMONstrates, there is another way. Walking the process of self honesty and self forgiveness, to stop the competition programming and the desires to be more, and simply live in the physical, as the physical within a breath movement, and correct ourselves into equality and oneness. This is not an easy path, but it’s the only way to stop the insanity of this system and the insanity that I see within myself.

So within my own expericing of this point of competition where in I activate my appearance character, I find that it is the primary points I use to judge my ‘compeition’ and judge myself to see if I stand up to the competition. In most cases, I do not stand up, so I have created many points of suppressions in my expression, self sabotage within my interactions with others, based on judging myself within who I am, and it’s subtle sabotage, where in I will see myself in a mirror, and instantly judge my hair not being as I desired it to and have created a picture in my mind as how it should be. So creating many points of self judgement on points I am finding are really irrelevant, but is necessary to walk through and stop as I change my living to be in equality with others in the physical, and not in separation from the mind’s view. 


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