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Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Redefining the Word Precision to Live – Day 478

Please Reference my last blogs for more context to this blog:
Precision of Self – Day 474
Looking at the Word Precision – Day 475

Precision is within past blogs as how I looked at it, the movement of creating perfection. To exist in precision means you are existing within the action of moving into a perfection within your living. Though I would say this is not tangible enough to create a platform of living it in my world and so I will continue to look at this word and redefine it so I can live it in my day to day life. First I will allocate where I stand within the word.

Precision for me is something that I believed I could not reach or attain due to the effort that it would take to do this. I also believed that you have to be highly intelligent to live in such a way as precise because of the factors and calculations that you have to make to live in such a way. Though I realize precision does not have to be so out there, but I can in fact make it my own. I will first do some self forgiveness on this word to clear it and redefine it to live it in a way that is real for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the word precision has to be lived in a way that is done with full attention, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not focused enough nor disciplined enough to live in a way of precision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into resistances within living the word of precision and/or perfection due to the physical effort it requires and attention and specificity it’ll require to maintain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the idea that I have to be perfect in all moments of my living within walking precision and that I can not make a mistake.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that precision is something that has to be done perfectly all of the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the idea that I am too clumsy and distracted to be able to hold my attention for long periods of time to live the word precision and exist within a detailed specificity within who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to be highly intelligent to be able to live precise and specific.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that precision is a function of movement and so within my expression of this I will expand and grow as my expression expands and grows within my living of this word.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up and giving into resistances.

I commit myself to walk the process of living the word precision by standing within a movement of self discipline and self movement in the face of resistance and distraction.

I commit myself to push myself beyond my perceived limits of doing in moments where I see I want to give up.

I commit myself to push my limits of specificity through investigating what I am doing in writing and researching and live knowledge that supports my growth and expansion in moving into self perfection through applying the living of precision in all that I do.

I commit myself to walk precision in each moment through daily movements of my physical body and what I move in my world through breath awareness and body awareness.

Precision through word play –

Pre – decision

Precise – incision

Pre - see – dawn

Pre – see – shun

So interesting word play here, I see some of the main points within this word is the specific nature that is lived within it due to the words of ‘precise – incision’ this showing that like within a doctors incision for surgery, how precise they have to cut due to the fragile nature of the human organs and skin they a are cutting through that could cause serious injury or even death. So to live precision one have to be as specific and detailed as one would be within making an incision into the flesh of the body, the care and unwavering understanding of the moment of decision to cut has to be true and stable within self. One has to be specific on how exactly one will move from one point to the next, one has to take care where the actions will lead as a cause and effect one’s movement will have on self as well as the environment one will be creating within, and one also has to use self awareness and calculations of the physical environment to create an accurate and efficient movement forward to give the least amount of harm to all and so in turn will be living what is best for all. This goes along with most of the other word play words I wrote out, where one has to live within a way of pre-deciding in each moment who one is going to be before the incision is made, you have to decide in the moment who one is and within the act of precision one has to be certain and stable in this decision or risk harm to the environment and one’s own creation as such.

My mentor Bernard Poolman once told me that the simplest way to live and also the best way is to live what is best for all, this way one is always consider and so everyone and everything else is consider equally as well. This aligns perfectly with the walking of precision as if I pre decide each time to walk what is best then the perfection in the moment is the outflow. I realize that this will take a process to walk, but the mathematical calculation of this starting point living the word precision to do what is best for all will support in fulfilling the living of this word that I discussed in an earlier blog is creating movement into perfection, and this is what I decide in my live, living what is best for all in this world and life.

So to redefine the word precision to live, I see it within living it in a starting point of what is best for all so the outcome of perfection is certain. And also living it within a care of self movement as well as self awareness to ensure one is moving in a calculated way that is planned out and specific so to ensure the highest potential of the moment is reached. I see this from a personal stand point walking the word precision is to push myself beyond my resistances in moments where I want to give up or give in, but don’t. This I find will be lived within breath awareness as living in breath is living in the moment here, and only here in the moment can one consider what is best with the information that is here and so live it in the precise action it’ll take to fulfill. This is an ongoing process and will through time show the results as I continue to specify myself, learn, grow, and expand within my application of precision leading to perfection by always ensuring my starting point is what is best for all as this mathematical equation always equals perfection. This is what is being walked in this journey to life, self perfection in living, precision is a word to live that’ll supports with this so I am grateful.

Interviews to support on Real Time Application:
Neediness: Living Words & Fulfilment - Atlanteans - Part 313
Why is it so Hard to Change? - Life Review
The Consciousness of the Turtle - Part 1

Check Out these Awesome supportive sites:
Desteni I Process Lite - Free Course to Start your Journey to Life
Journey to Life Group - On Facebook
Desteni Wiki - For All Things Desteni Related
Desteni Forum - Share your Self with Other Walking This Process
Destonian Social Network
Self and Living Store
Eqafe - Self Perfection Support
Equal Life Foundation - Site

Saturday, September 12, 2015

When the Mind Says "I Can't" - Day 477

Here sharing an experience of self empowerment I realized that all can walk and live. Enjoy.

http://www.desteniiprocess.com
http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com
http://www.forum.desteni.org
http://www.eqafe.com
http://www.destonians.com

Thursday, September 10, 2015

Desteni-I-Process - Agreement Support - Day 476

My partner and I have been walking an agreement for two years now. I share here my perspective of this process and how it has effected my life and process I am walking to live my highest potential. Enjoy.

http://www.desteniiprocess.com
http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com
http://www.forum.desteni.org
http://www.eqafe.com
http://www.destonians.com

Monday, September 7, 2015

Looking at the Word Precision – Day 475

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Please Reference my last blog for more context to this blog:

Precision of Self – Day 474

My goal for this word precision is to live it in a way that it supports with being more specific and exact within my every day activities, I know that I will not perfect this word in my living in a short period of time, though I do see that with consistency and movement within my self change this word has a huge potential for accelerating my living into the sphere of my utmost potential. So with that being said, I will have a look at where I stand within this word at the moment. Well first I will look at the definition from the dictionary of what this word means:

Precision: noun - the quality, condition, or fact of being exact and accurate

“Precision is similar to perfection in that both words suggest that something could not possibly be better. However, perfection describes something that's flawless, such as a beautiful sunset. Precision, on the other hand, is more about accuracy, like computing the exact second that the perfect sunset will occur.”

So I like the distinction that is made here within the words precision and perfection as they are very similar, but are not as they are not lived within the same contexts. Precision is more a form of movement within a mathematical equation, where perfection just is, meaning there is no movement within it, it is what it is wholly. So that is a cool understanding based on the belief that I had and I am sure many had of precision being something that is within perfection, but in actuality it is more relating to movement and mathematics. My partner sees life in many ways in terms of mathematics, and I am more and more finding it very fascinating as I have never looked at life in this way, but the more I look, the more I see all life is in fact mathematical. Perfection being the final result, where as precision is the movement to get to this final result of perfection.

Precision within the way I have lived it has been something that I have always been fascinated by and enjoyed within different areas of study or activity that I have endeavored in, but there was an inherent belief within me that I did not have the ability to be precise, I was too clumsy, too impatient, too lazy to get to a point where I can express precision. Though, I have in moments expressed this specifically within my work or if I am in a physical activity such as writing up a proposal or cleaning something that is dirty, I will ensure I am precise within my movements as well as precise within the way in which I clean where I will calculate the size of the area, ensure I hit all areas calculated, and clean in a precision within the intensity as well as the veracity of my movements to ensure each layer is cleaned as precisely as the last.

This creates a point of perfection in a way where the cleanliness of the floor is satisfied for a amount of time to my liking, which also can create a precision within the efficiency of my movements within my cleaning schedule for instance and ensure my body is being used in it's most efficient capacity. Also, it creates a point of understanding that perfection is changing, meaning that when one reaches a perfection, through life there will always be a movement that will ensure that one keeps standing as this perfection as the floor will not stay perfect forever, but will have to be constantly moved into a perfection again and again as I consistently apply the actions of precision within cleaning it. So there is many factors to consider within this word of precision and there can surely be many benefits.

There is also a feeling of accomplishment within giving it my all within what I do and this is lived when I can execute a form of precision within what I do which will create the living of perfection, this not only benefiting myself but others as well. I find this action of being precise within what I do is done within a form of self determination and self satisfaction where I am not doing it for anyone else, but my own standards of living and existing for myself. So I have displayed precision within my living in ways that I am satisfied with, though my mind tends to tell me that I have not done it at all in a way that is satisfactory, and of course I realize there is always room for improvement.

I will do some self forgiveness and self correction to clear the word in my next blog and look at moving into the scenario I describe in my earlier blog of living precision as well as the support words to move through this possession point of self compromise I have been existing in for quite some time. This to ensure I change to stand in all I do with precision in the course of action I decide to walk in each moment to moment I am here. This course of living precise is for the end goal which is living what is best for all life and living in self honesty, which will create real living perfection as heaven brought to earth.

I will continue in my next blog. Thanks for reading.

Monday, August 31, 2015

Precision of Self – Day 474

I will open up the next series of blog with looking at the word precision. This word I resist within myself within just looking at it here based on my desire to want to have an err of leeway to slack off and not put my full attention into whatever it is that I must act with precision in. So obviously within the principle of what you resist will persist, I am now in my process here to face and realign my living to in fact walk precision within myself and what I live in all moments that it calls for. I am going to focus this word precision with some support words such as constant, unwavering, persistence, steadfast, breath, here, life, best for all that I will use as a support structure to walk this specific point I want to walk within this act of precision and so then the support words to live these words in all areas of my life. So all these words will have to be looked at and redefined, which I will do in blogs to come.

The point I will be walking and practicing the integration of these words in my living is with a form of energetic reaction I go into and have noticed still has power over me in moments. It’s specifically within a group setting, meaning it’s with people, where we are talking face to face, and I am being looked at directly in the eyes. Then eventually there will be a movement or a belief that’ll come up due to some or one of the other people’s making some sort of gesture of uncomfortability, be it not holding eye contact or rubbing there face or eyes. These specific motions from the other cause triggers inside of me where in I will go into an emotional experience of diminishment coming from my solar plexus area moving into my chest area, and feeling in a way like it is clenching into my limbs which creates a tightness and constriction within my entire physical body.

So I feel it physically when I become possessed by this experience as this depressive state of tension and constriction, but this is not were it starts, this reaction starts with a little movement inside my stomach area of a sinking feeling and then the thoughts start of like a ‘damn, I am being judged again, I am the one who is being seen as awkward’ and then this will stew subconsciously while I am trying to hold face and discuss what is being talked about. Then I will depending on the stimulation from the external environment, go into a panic type experience or stop it there and not allow it. This moment of decision is usually based on if I go into the energy reaction or not, and the most highly tense time for reaction is if I go into a bathroom or mirror and look at myself. Then you may say, ‘well don’t look in the mirror’, but this is something that is addictive in nature as well as having to be transcended anyway as I can not keep away from mirrors my whole life.

And if I do fall into that addiction pattern of looking in the mirror and going into the thoughts of ‘your so ugly’, ‘you are never going to be normal and part of the group’ ‘you are inferior to others with this ugly face’ ‘you are not as cool as these people’ ‘they see you as awkward’ ‘you are not going to be able to stand with these people’, ‘you are weird and strange’ ‘they are going to judge you as weird’ ‘look how you talked, see you aren’t good enough’ ‘look how you look in the mirror, see you are so not attractive to look at’ ‘see how they rubbed their eyes, you are so disgusting looking’. Those are an example of the type of thoughts that go through my head, I will next time I see this pattern come up, use precision as a point to get the exact thought words that come up and what exactly the energy is doing to my body in these moments. But for now, this is the basics of it and I will work with this for the next blogs to come.

So with the word precision, I would like to look at and redefine it in my next blog to use it as a support structure for me to walk through this energy reaction of self compromise firstly, and then specify and use it for my living application in all I do. And so do this same process for the support words I mentioned earlier in this blog as well.

Thanks for reading.

Saturday, August 29, 2015

Not Facing Yourself In Real Time – Day 473

I have witnessed last weekend the consequences of not applying myself in real time moments within points of extreme emotion, and I almost had a panic attack. I had listened to an audio and within that audio, I took the information and my mind ran with it. I within that time remember feeling pulled into this experience of overwhelming fear and anxiety especially and it growing more and more as I allowed it. As I kept participating in the energy of the whole storm within myself and in my mind, I realized it got more and more difficult to pull myself out of it. So by the time I got support from a friend to reel me back to reality, I put my body through a massive surge of emotion and almost ended up vomiting. I did no writing throughout the days and also did no real self directed forgiveness aloud. I got a few out, but by then I was quite involved in the whole experience that I had become almost possessed.

Applying myself in this process is of utmost importance, and here as a gift the physical is showing me that this is what is needed to move through these mind patterns and transcend them in real time living. It’s quite obvious what it entails and I have been walking this process for more then six years that it’s like second nature now. Though, it is not, I have to constantly and consistently push my self direction to apply myself day to day, write out my mind constructs and daily forgivness, speak forgiveness and live the corrections to in fact move, the mind nor anything else for that matter is going to do this for me, I have to move me. This all is imperative especially now as the more deeper mind dimensions are becoming more active to be moved through and transcended. So as with my new career as a sales women, the same principles apply, I must continue to put myself in uncomfortable situations or situations that I resist to prove to myself that I am able to change myself and live what is best for all. If I don’t walk the necessary steps to live the change I want to live such as stopping myself in a moment of emotion and stopping myself to go into the thought patterns, then the mind as was demonstrated to me this weekend, will literally take over.

So it’s important for real time application and not only this, but consistency within this, every day as this will support with not allowing the energy as emotion and/or feeling to accumulate. The daily application keeps the energy surges and/or attempts of possessions at a stable level as you as the beingness within the mind stop it and also transform the mind programs into self created platforms that will support with stability. So this is the living corrective application process one speaks and/or writes after the forgiveness on a point is done within what I am walking as the desteni i process. Also what I am practicing is re-defining and living words in relation to the point I am changing within myself and transform these words to support myself to become equal with my mind in my living to live what is best for me as well as what best for all through common sense. This being done by creating the structure of how to live a word in my real time application and practice it in to create for myself a new way of facing myself in whatever comes in my world and finding solutions through the support that I have prepared before hand to stand.

In my next blog, I will walk the start of this process with the self forgiveness and self correction process as well as the living word process with a specific point I have been walking over a long time period, this pattern has been persistent and s I will walk this to create that living structure for myself to be able to stand and direct myself in common sense.

Thanks for reading.

Interviews to support on Real Time Application:
Neediness: Living Words & Fulfilment - Atlanteans - Part 313
Why is it so Hard to Change? - Life Review
The Consciousness of the Turtle - Part 1

Check Out these Awesome supportive sites:
Desteni I Process Lite - Free Course to Start your Journey to Life
Journey to Life Group - On Facebook
Desteni Wiki - For All Things Desteni Related
Desteni Forum - Share your Self with Other Walking This Process
Destonian Social Network
Self and Living Store
Eqafe - Self Perfection Support
Equal Life Foundation - Site

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Karma - Redefining the Word to Live Best for All - Day 472

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Karma for me as a point within my life has been more a point of mystery or way to out there, meaning that because of the religion my family followed, they feared anything that was outside of the familiar. So Karma was something that I didn’t study or really understand till I was more in high school because my family didn't believe in reincarnation. And within high school, I saw Karma more as a point of revenge, where if someone harmed me I desired them to get it back with this belief that Karma will get them and then within the point of harming another, I feared that in some way that I would get it in return. So in a way this stopped me from going all out in being out of control within my actions, but also it was not done within awareness nor based on common sense. So I will do some self forgiveness to clear the point.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into an energetic experience of desire toward others within the idea that karma is real and that i wanted it to hit others in a way were i would get revenge on them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to put my own self interest of seeking revenge on another within the idea of karma instead of seeing what it directly means and living within it based on the facts of what is here.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see that within my own desires of seeking revenge on another, i am instigating karma onto myself as I am living the exact same as those whom do harm to me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that within the fact of thinking of harm onto another I am going to get harm in return as I am the other and the other is me one and equal as the physical.

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand the understanding of what i do onto another i do unto myself as I am the other as we are all here as life as this physical reality and we are one and so equal within this fact.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place energy within the act of karma where in I seek revenge based on taking what another did to me personal and believing that i am not responsible for what has happened to me and/or i believe that i can blame and then seek revenge onto them through the idea I had created of Karma as revenge.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place emotions and feelings onto the principle of karma and so create an experience of what is karma instead of living by the principle of what it in fact means in the nature law of this existence.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to harm another in any way in my world and not live what is best for all in all ways always.

When and as I see i am going into a point of desiring another to have revenge done unto them through the principle of karma, i stop and breath, and realize that within this very directive of myself of taking revenge on another I am equally doing this onto myself as I and the other are one and equal. So i see, realize, and understand that I am harming myself when i harm another equal and one.

I commit myself to let go of the emotions toward the principle of karma through redefining it to a direct fact and living it’s re-definition.

I commit myself to stop judging, blaming, and projecting responsibility onto others.

I commit myself to take responsibility for all parts of my world and balance it back into equilibrium within the principle of karma.

I commit myself to stand within what is best for all by living and so honoring the nature of who i am as life within and as all that exist here as self.

So looking at the current definition of the word Karma, it says:

(Hinduism and Buddhism) the effects of a person's actions that determine his destiny in his next incarnation

To look at the word play:

Karma
k - armor
can harm her

Not much revealed there, though i do see that within the statement ‘can harm her’ it is showing that there is a decision by self, we choose to do harm or do what’s best, it’s self decision alone. Within this self decision of how one lives, there are consequences that will outflow from self's actions. So Karma is a state of being meaning you as a physical being are a creator and so can create whatever it is that one want. Though living the realization is key of when we create from physical matter as our life and our decisions with this, there are physical effects to our actions and these effects create consequence, through this one will live within and as and so have to stand within and take responsibility for the consequences you create. This is karma, so the point of learning and understanding within this redefinition is to realize karma exist as a fact it’s neither good nor bad, but simply is an outflow of a decision we as the creator create within our living reality here in physical matter as we act. We are ultimately responsible for all that we create, and so it is suggested and makes the most sense to create in what is best for all as this is in essence best for self as all life is one and equal as all life is here as the physical reality.

Redefinition of the word Karma - the living of self within the decision one makes as a creator of who one is within the understanding of the responsibility one upholds within the act of creation and so face the consequences that will inevitably outflow from this self decision.

Interviews to support on Living Responsibility: