Living Self Courage – Forgiving the Fear of My Mind – Day 428

Artist: Andrew Gable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become afraid of my own thoughts I am thinking and react in shame based on the context of the thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others will judge me for the thoughts that I think.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my own mind and the thoughts that I think, realize, seeing, and understanding that the thoughts are not who I really am and I have the power to stop them, but I can not deny them as I am the one participating in them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see my mind as demented and become ashamed at how I have been existing within my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to become shameful for what goes on in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am alone within how I am experiencing my mind and that I am bad for thinking in such ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that there is something wrong with me for the way in which I think about my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mind determines and defines who I am and that within my belief about myself, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to believe that I am less then others because of the way in which I have judged my own mind as bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within my own mind in a way where I fear certain parts of it and believe that I can’t move beyond these fears and mind points.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can’t move beyond my limitations I have believed to be true as me having something wrong with me and that I can’t move beyond this belief of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive this relationship of having something wrong with me based on the way in which my external body looks and memories I have held onto of me as real to define who I am in this moment here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my self when I say in my mind that I am less then others and that looks matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am is based on the belief that I am a less then capable being and that I am not good enough to make it out of my mind and into physical living here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist looking and facing my mind because I knew I would have to face instances that would make me uncomfortable and question myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing myself in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am is based on the beliefs I hold about myself in my mind rather then questioning these beliefs and seeing who I in fact am within my physical living in this moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking about my judgments I have about myself for fear of being weakened in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can become weakened in the physical based on sharing myself in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others and so create the belief that some are weak and some are strong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my mind is more powerful then me and I can’t walk and let go of my fears when I realize it takes only my self will, I can decide in each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being misunderstood and so judged harshly for this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged in anyway by others.

I forgive myself that I haven’t yet accepted and allowed myself to see that I am the only one judging myself and so holding myself in these judgments until I release myself and stop judging myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto these judgments so I don’t have to face these fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto judgments so I can continue to get happy energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to have energy to feel good.

When and as I see I am going into a point of judging my mind and going into resistances to look at a point or points within what is coming up in moments within my mind, I stop and breath, and realize that going into resistance is only disempowering me to do anything about the thoughts and or my mind patterns coming up, and so I realize I have to accept myself as my mind, look at it in common sense and self honesty, and stop taking it personal.

I commit myself to stop fear and see directly what is here through breathing and slowing down in the moment to expand myself within what is here.

I commit myself to breath and let go of all resistances to look and investigate my mind and what is coming up within it.

I commit myself to breath and let go any point of judgment or comparison I have towards my mind or my world as I realize this is disempowering me to change.

I commit myself to face my mind in every moment it comes up and move myself to walk the change that is necessary to align with life and live what is best for all.

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How to Stop the Too-Muchness Delay - Day 340

Here I am looking at a point that came up when my feet started to feel swelled, like there was air in them and a lot of pressure. I looked at them and they were not swelled in terms of physically, but had the feeling that they were inflated. So I looked at this point within my life, and I saw this point of swelling and specifically the feet as a point of trying to walk too much stuff at once and thus become spread out committing to too many things and so not being as effective as I could if I was doing less and had more focus and time to dedicated to less amounts of commitments. Stopping the point of spreading myself to thin and trying to walk too many things at one time, hence the inflated feet feeling.

Within this obviously I have to look at priorities, I have to make money and live in this world, so my jobs and remaining stable within this is the first commitment priority I must continue to walk. The other commitments I am walking I are becoming more and more as I commit to more and more, but I find that I am not becoming very effective within the one's I have already committed to and currently walking. I will as a solution drop some lower priority things I do like leisure time things as well as stop committing to things altogether until I am satisfied with walking effective in everything I am committing to currently. 

Another point I will walk self forgiveness on is wasting time and not staying focused during the times I set to do the responsibilities like writing or studying I have allotted for myself to do, and so get distracted with other stuff, entertainment stuff, and not push myself through the resistance to just do nothing. This has come up often in my process, and I am finding staying consistent day by day, each and every day is the challenge I am facing and need to transcend. Walking through points I really do not want to do, but must do to stay on track of things and do the best I am able to, and really I am able to do these things, I have time and ability, it's just I go into desire and want to rest or relax. And now my rest/relax ration is unbalanced and I am lagging in my responsibilities and my effectiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stay committed to the process of consistency and commitment of my decision to walk this process as myself in self change and taking responsibility for myself to it's fullest, and so becoming ineffective to the best of my ability in the tasks I am doing because I am not putting my best effort in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I put a little effort in that no one will notice and see, and so it's fine to just do it once in a while, when I know within myself I am being dishonest and can do more, be more, and have more of an effect to support the message of oneness and equality and doing what is best for all life in all the mediums.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into and feed resistances with thoughts such as 'i will do it later' and 'i am so tired, i can just do it some other time' and 'i really don't feel like doing it now, let me just watch/do/go here first' and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as my mind to direct me into self compromise willingly and with my understanding, and so give into self interest and compromise to be just a robot operating on impulse rather then my directive action in what I will as a life being for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to thoughts such as 'i will do it later' and 'i am so tired, i can just do it some other time' and 'i really don't feel like doing it now, let me just watch/do/go here first', and allow these thoughts which I realize are not real in terms of what I direct as my own self will in what is best direct me into living in resistances and not getting what i realize I can get done done, and so compromise my self effectiveness and the effect that I can have to help create change within myself and so within this world, as within so without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into resistance so I can have my self interests met, and not have to push myself and do the work that I resist doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist moving physically in what needs to be done as my part, and so become a hindrance in my own self application when I realize I can do more and be more by not accepting myself to fall and feed resistances when they come up as they are not real but the mind feeding me to stay as a controlled source rather then I walk my own self control and directive principle.

When and as I see i am going into resistances and avoiding doing my responsibilities, I stop and breath, and realize this is the mind trap in which I allow myself to remain stuck in ineffectiveness instead of pushing myself through my resistances and expanding myself in my living and what I can do.

When and as i see I am desiring to go into my self interest and just get distracted by entertainment, I stop and breath, as I realize this is a waste of time and will lead to me being less then what I could be if I pushed through, and I realize who I want to be is a person that pushes through and lives extraordinary as how Bernard taught me, I am life and so I must live this for this to be real, and so I realize I must actually live and become equal and one with the physical as this is life and actually live as how the physical lives, consistent, constant, and in what is best for all one and equal. 

I commit myself to write out for each day my priorities to work through and give myself a list to follow as a guide to see what needs to be done, and thus I commit myself to walk this list to make sure they get done.

I commit myself to breath and move myself immediately when a point opens up to walk. 

I commit myself to move myself through resistances and do what I can do each day to the best of my ability. 

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Day 111 – Hopeless Character

Looking at the personality I go into that, “it is hopeless”, and thus within accepting this point of separation with myself and my physical reality, I diminish my ability to do anything to change the point that at the moment is causing resistance. So thus, I stop this point of going into this resistance of hopelessness when I realize that hope is just another point of self interest because thus it stop the point of direction I could be walking to a stand, and keep me stuck in a point of non self movement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of hopelessness with myself because I see that life is too hard and too much, and thus essentially used hopelessness to not have to move myself and find a way to make it work and stabilize myself so thus I can continue with my process of stopping separation with all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the hopeless character as a backdoor within myself to be able to not push myself through the resistances that is faced within many points in my process as I’ve accepted myself to be weak, and thus allowed myself to essentially give up. I realize and see that within allowing back doors I will essentially allow myself to fall when it is convenient as I am not wiling myself enough to push through all resistances that arise which I understand I must do in all cases if I am to be trusted with and as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into hopelessness when I find points in my process that are challenging and thus I face resistance within it as I realize that to walk the change of myself is to go against all the points that I am use to and always been comfortable with so thus it’s an obvious and understood knowing that these challenges will come, thus I realize I must stop the point of hopelessness and use my common sense and self will to push through the challenges and stand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the memory of me within a state of depression and heaviness where in I could not move myself because I had found that no matter what I did, I would always fail in the task I was doing, and within this give up and give in as I found that this point that was not working seemed impossible. I realize that within the task I from the beginning allowed myself to accept the point of hopelessness as I found the task too big and thus judged it as impossible, instead of realizing and walking that anything can be done in small achievable steps and thus instead of looking at the whole picture look within steps that are achievable and thus will accumulate to success.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept memories within myself of giving up and seeing something as hopeless, influence me here where in I must calculate the task at hand within achievable mathematical steps that will accumulate to a achievable outcome, thus I walk here within physical reality to see the context and parts of what I am walking, and thus take each part day by day until eventually it will be done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe a task that I am doing is impossible because it is too big, when I realize and understand to achieve any point within what is in front of me in terms of using common sense assessment and self will in manageable steps that will eventually accumulate my success.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a heaviness within my physical body when I go into this point of hopelessness and where it seems that everything is falling apart and I will never be able to get out of what I am trying to do thus I realize to stop this is to don’t accept the heaviness and when I see that I am going into this heaviness, push through it by stopping all thoughts and desires to give up to hopelessness and find small ways to help walk the process that must be walked to complete the tasks I have in front of me that are my responsibilities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear and thus fuel the hopeless character where in I go into the illusion of fear, as in that all will be in upheaval and there is no way I will be able to do what I have set out for me to do because I can’t walk through fear it’s too much, and I am too small to be able to walk through something so powerful. Realizing and seeing that fear is part of my illusion of the mind where in I make it powerful by believing that it has more power then me, but I see that all it takes is to stand up to the fear and walk through it unconditionally, allowing myself to see and know that there is no purpose to fear as it is not reality and does not determine who I can be if I will myself to be it in each moment, I decide.

I commit myself to stop all thoughts, ideas, and pictures that come up within the mind of it’s too much and it’s too hard, and thus push through all points that are resistances and essentially seem like it’s hopeless to walk through and achieve.

I commit myself to let go of this hopeless character where in I face resistances and task that are ‘big’ in scale and thus use my breath as stability to walk through the points in common sense and achievable goals working towards the end result.

I commit myself to stop all backdoors with the hopeless character of giving up on my self and thus using this character to do so with, and push through all resistance that come up as this is life and this is what must be done, to stand up no matter what is here.

I commit myself to let go of all memories that come up in relation to the hopelessness character where in I walk through the memory through writing and find the points that are still causing me to fall, and walk through them in living application to not be directed by the mind as memories.

I commit myself to walk all resistances within a step by step breath by breath accumulation effect where in I take on small achievable points and walk the process within parts instead of taking on the whole, and thus giving myself the back door to fall, as obviously that is not going to be possible to do something in one go, so point by point is what I walk and stop the point of too muchness to give into hopelessness and fall in my process, which is not necessary.

I commit myself to stop all points within the physical mind as heaviness for instance in my body when the hopelessness character is activated, thus I breath and push through, and walk the physical resistance to train myself to stop the mind and walk within the physical here in reality in physical movement and action.

I commit myself to stop the fears that are generated within the hopeless character, and thus push through the fears that arise, and focus on the physical, what can I do to help support myself and the situation I am walking and use common sense to get to solutions. 

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