The Principle of Self Perfection through Self Creation - Day 575

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"3. The Principle of Self-Perfection Through Self-Creation
Self-Perfection is the process of reflecting on and investigating myself through writing, releasing myself from the past through Self-Forgiveness, and changing myself through Self-Application and living change. These tools allow me to develop a deep intimacy with myself, enabling me to see the workings of who I am, how I came to be this way, and how to create myself into the best possible expression of myself that I can be."

From the source: Desteni Declaration of Living

This principle is like the gift that keeps giving within the hard work one puts in, you do the work, you live and become your highest potential, you will start to align to and create for yourself a perfection in self as who you are in your living. So the equation I see here is walking the process of self change in what is best, investigate and understand who self is as the pattern, live self forgiveness, walk the change necessary to do what is best for all as best for self, and so move into the quality of living that is self perfection, which gives substance in a multiple of ways unknown and I have found can not be predicted. It is a similar process of the seed of a fruit tree, it's starts out very small, very fragile, needing lots of tender, care, understanding, patience, discipline, creativity, perseverance, courage, and integrity to name some support words, to be able to grow to be a big mature tree bearing countless amounts of fruit over it's lifetime.

The fruit tree is a cool visual example of what the living of self-perfection is within oneself and in one's life, this is accomplished through walking both self frogiveness on a pattern that is of abuse to life as yourself and others, and living the corrective application to do what is best for all until it is proven through time by your own self honesty. When one lives this through and proves who you are through time, it is like another layer of substance as the tree bark and leaves and branches grow to hold the space and ability to bear the fruit for everyone to enjoy.

With walking the process to self perfection you create substantial creational abilities within yourself which empower you in your world and reality, you are also gifted with self trust and an understanding of who you are and what you are capable of in this life because you walked the talk so to speak, you created this path yourself through and through, step by step, breath by breath. This no one can take away from you here or beyond, it becomes your legacy and can be an incredible gift, you become your own fruit tree bearing sustenance for all life to enjoy and be supported with.

The journey of self perfection is an individual journey for each one as the path has to be walked for self and changed within self and in one's world by self, though there is and always will be the basis of support here in this physical world to support with this process. For example, some of the main sources I use on the daily as I walk this process is bernard poolmans videos and words, eqafe.com with the portal sharing, work environments that I am involved with every day, and all the people I interact with online and in real life, there is support within everything I have found if you open yourself up to it. As been said many of times, use your resources, they are here to support so go ahead and use them for support to be your best self!

So the self perfection of self within walking the tools of life in what is best is a gift in itself to self real-i-ze yourself and bring to fruition the seeds you sowed within yourself to gift to others in your life as you become a source of life-giving, unconditional to all for all in what is best, and your life becomes fruitful, incredible, and indeed extraordinary like a matured fruit tree standing firm, rooted in the earth, and giving itself as life support for all to have.

Check out the resources, and investigate who you are as life principles lived, self forgiveness, self honesty, self-commitment to change, and in fact living the words self perfection in who one is. Let's walk together and support each other until this life is created in the perfection that has always existed here, within and to the without. Support and educate yourself on the links shared, thanks for reading!

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EQAFE: A Place to Develop Self Perfection - Day 437

Eqafe- A place to develop self perfection.

You maybe asking yourself what is Eqafe? For those who are wondering, I will share a bit about what Eqafe is. Eqafe is a website of a great wealth of information related to life on earth, the mind, human behavior, human origin, sex, relationships, interdimensional perspective, animal insight, nature insight, out of this world discoveries, support for self creation, ability to transform self to a new way of living, ghostly insights, after death research, connection to what lies beyond, and many more topics I could list if I continue this, but I will assume for time sack you are starting to see the educational and in depth knowledge that lies within this site.

I have listened to a great amount of exclusive recordings on this site, and there are over 3000. I have even seen these recordings being recorded live on more then one visit across the sea, I changed my life, my way of living, my behavior in accordance to my application of what is being shared on this site. This I do not because I have nothing else to do or have some hidden obsession with this site or information, no I do have a life outside of this site though this site has become an integral part of myself as well as the actions I take in my day to day living. I do this because I have seen and proven within myself and to others in my world, that this information is valuable, it has value and has added value to my life, who I have become, and who I will continue to become within continuing to apply what these recordings share amid the thousands that have been released is someone who I wouldn't have imagined 2-3 years ago.

I am an advocate for this site and the people who are involved within the desteni group because they are living a message within each one’s own individual life of changing ourselves to be beings that are able to support the coming a of new world. We are changing ourselves in such a way that we as a group will be able to have the capability to direct what is here into a new way of living, a new humanity that is not based on self interest, but doing what is best for all. We, who listen and apply the Eqafe recording message are walking a process of self purification that takes self will and determination to see it through. And this message is to all those that can hear, all those willing to move themselves and change themselves through the support that is given, and there is support beyond these recordings. There are forums and courses and articles and videos a bound from many different perspectives of people who have endeavored on this process that is being explained and walked through within the eqafe site.

The Eqafe recordings are a source for those who are on the path of becoming self perfected in their living and their world, as those who understand this phrase where the old must go for the new to emerge, we must let go of who we have become as ourselves and create ourselves in a new way to see a new world where we have peace and harmony and actual indeed live in perfection as self inside and out. There are principles that are applied and used as a foundation within all the Eqafe recordings that are placed and these are based on the equality of all life, life is all one as the life source within all, and doing what is best for all. These principles are applied to all that exist in this reality as when you start your journey with the Eqafe site, you will soon become aware of what this means and then can be part of the solution that we all can see is desperately needed.

There is great emphasis and understanding on the mind, consciousness, and how our living reality at this time and in our past has been designed and programmed in such a way to benefit only some, and so leave others to suffer. This suffering and harm and abuse we see in this world is equally within oneself if you dare yourself to see how you think, see how you chat in your secret mind about others, and behave in ways that can be debilitating and regrettable, though this is who we are, and as been realized it will take time, many steps, many up and downs for self to change this behavior into something that is balanced, harmonious, and considers others equally as oneself and does then what is best for all. These changes within humanity are overdue, they have seemed like an impossible feat based on the way in which our world has evolved and existed. Though I can stand here and say these recordings as well as the sites associated with the Eqafe site stand to support everybody willing to have access and the ability to change oneself to do the extraordinary, change ourselves to be free and self directive in ways that will benefit all.

Obviously, when one look at this process from the outskirts or just starting out it seems like a daunting path, treating others as your equal, doing what is best for all, looking within myself and changing, stopping my behavior, it seems very difficult and at times it is difficult. Though the reward is something that when I first started on this process to change myself, I couldn’t have conceived where I stand in this moment, I have had many opportunities and experiences open up to me that I couldn’t have imagined four years ago. So I want to emphasize that this is not a stop and go type of site, it can be, though for the serious student it becomes one’s source of understanding and continues to source oneself in the journey to life that is waiting for each one.

So I suggest to check out the site and the sites associated with Eqafe, open yourself up to a new way of looking at the world and ourselves, do not judge what you will hear, understand it, investigate, and persevere forward to see life, the universe, existence, reality, self in a new way and so open the way to see this world and humanity as a whole, in a new way. Life is what really exist here, life is here and very much aware, life is speaking through this site in many different forms and voices, have a listen and see for yourself. Enjoy and I am here to assist if needed in anyway.

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Day 288 – What Does it Mean to Be Gentle With Myself?

So for a moment I am going to look at this point of what it means to be gentle with myself. I was listening to an interview The Metaphysical of Imagination- Transforming Self Judgment into Self Awareness– Part 17 from eqafe today on self judgment and they discussed this point of gentleness with self. And how within self judgment, you are not this way with yourself, but more like a bully and cause harm to yourself. So I was looking at this because being gentle is something I can not relate much at all too. I was looking to see where in my life am I gentle, I came up with being gentle when I pet Henri on the head right over his ears like very gently and slowly, and I take the time to feel and sense the hairs in that area as the hair there are very short and soft. The ears make me consider to be gentle in that spot because of the sensitivity, and I really enjoy doing it because of the awareness that it brings me to because I actually have to stop and consider the pressure, movement, and direction my hand is going in to make sure I don’t hurt his ears or him. And it’s cool to do that, go slow, be aware of my movements, and feel for real the movement of the hair in this case under my hand.

So this is what comes up when I look at the point of myself and gentleness, but it’s in relation to another and not myself, I have never been gentle really with myself, considerate, and slowing down enough to really be in this with myself. The interview supported because I couldn’t even really see how to even do this, like slow down and be gentle, because I am constantly moving in my mind, in my day, and in my actions, so slowing down and allowing me the time to be slow and become aware of myself is like not even an option I would consider, like it’s just not realistic. But I did heed there suggestion, and walked some practical support points to practice slowing down and becoming gentle with myself, it’s not only very cool support to bring awareness to myself and the equality that I deserve as well, but is very relaxing and a point of letting go through a decision to do so through breath, it’s very nice.

So I will continue to apply these tools and see where it is that I can implement this more and more in my living because as a final point I will be much better suited to be gentle and kind with myself rather then harsh and bullying myself which I see I exist more in now as I continue to walk through this particular point with self judgment I have been in earlier blogs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can not be gentle with myself and care for me in awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see it as too hard to be aware within breath and focusing on being gentle and taking care of each moment I make to caress me rather then force me, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is impossible to slow down and become aware of myself to become gentle and caring with me for real in self awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don’t know how to become gentle with myself and what that even means.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don’t deserve gentleness because I am too much in my mind and not focused on what is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for myself that I have never been or even know how to be gentle with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to put the effort in to focus and sit with myself and push through the resistances to give up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the gentleness of life as the innocence and fragility of it within what it consists and exsist as, but really the stability and self empowerment that is given to self when self embrace gentleness in its expression of self acceptance.

When and as I see myself go into a point of resisting gentleness and slowing down with myself, I stop and breath, and realize that this is key in becoming stable within myself and finding the self within the mind as awareness.

I commit to slow breathing for a half hour a night and push the awareness of my breath and the touch of my skin to realize and begin to give me the opportunity to let go and become gentle with myself as self-acceptance as this gentleness action I am walking.

I commit to stop the judgment of who I am as gentleness and embrace it as a point of action I can take to bring myself into awareness and stability as the action of gentleness require to see it through to expression brings this to self.

I commit to not give up and walk this through as a gift to myself to stop abuse and embrace me as the equal part of life I am and thus respect this of myself as I give it to myself through being gentle with and for me and thus will have the ability to give to others as I have given it to self.


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Day 275 – Redefining the Word Winner to be Lived By All

Winner

So I, a few blogs back, redefined the word loser in relation to the polarity of the different energies we can exist within our minds as a negative as a loser and a positive as a winner for instance, but what has been clear through my own self investigation and should be clear within the obviousness of how we experience ourselves within these energies, is that they never last. We are always searching for more positive energy as winning in life and less negative energy as losing in life, but there is a way to live in stability, grounding ourselves to what is here in reality, what is really being lived, and living our words in their real purpose, which means to create words in what is best for all, universal meanings and to what their practical purpose is. Again, the word winner will have to be purified within self as all words will have to as each word carries attachments with them, different meanings, memories, pictures, definitions to thus be able to really live the word for what it's purpose is, and not be directed by our self interest within the word in what purpose we want it to have.

I will now redefine this word and walk this with the word winner as I did with the word loser. Now, to ground this word I will walk it in the same context as we did with the word loser, using it as a point of defining what is the best that will be used within our society within an equal money system through a competition of many things, and thus within that competition of many different products, services, policies, ect, finding what will be best for all through what in it's purpose is the actual best for it's reason for being. The winner being the best in what it will do and how it will function in consideration of all the life that it will touch, so in all areas we are able to consider, this product will live the best of it's ability in consideration of all in equal value and honor in the oneness of life that all have within it's very existence as it's beingness.

No more will the word winner signify or represent an ego definition for self or another as more then or better then as there is no relevance in this and no need to do that, because all things in life that exist in the physical will be valued equally and thus respected as such. So what will change will be the value we place on words being equal to life, all being respected as life, and all living within this protection so to speak to exist, and thus deserve a life of dignity and reverence   Then real world order can come of that because there is no more bubble worlds all gaming to make 'me' be the winner and not consider the consequences of one's actions on the rest, but we all win as one world in order as we all live as one life, individually expressing creating always what is best for all and thus this always being best for self, a win - win for all, which is optimum.

Winner(s) in the equal money system will be for the purposes of allowing life to see what is best within what we create because what is created will be within it’s purpose alone and will be valued equal to everything else, so it will no more be abused for profit or self interest, and thus all suffering will end once and for all. There will be no need for brands or any kind of consumer competition, all will be made to last and be the best of it's kind it can possibly be made as to thus reduce waste and make the most creative product/service we can. It will be quite fascinating and interesting to walk this into reality, grounding ourselves to real life, the physical, living words, and walk the process of creating ourselves, our society, our living systems, our policies, our products, our services in the best way possible through living this simple truth as princple of doing what is best for all in all we do.

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Day 274 – Winning – “I am Better then You” – Self Commitments to Live – Part 2

Please reference these blogs for further perspective on this post:
Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words
Day 266 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Forgiveness
Day 267 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Corrections to Live
Day 268 – Redefining the Word Loser
Day 269 – What Does Being a ‘Winner’ imply in this World for the Human Being?
Day 270 – Winning- Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction - Self Forgiveness
Day 271 – Winning – Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction – Self Corrections to Live

In relation to this specific Post, please reference this blog:
Day 272 – Winning – “I am Better then You” – Self Forgiveness
Day 273 – Winning– “I am Better then You” – Self Corrections to Live – Part 1

When and as I see I am using memories to fuel my backchat and actions within the physical of revenge through competition and trying to win, I stop and breath, as I realize that this fueling of the backchat and my actions within this allowing the backchat to direct me will cause abuse to others and cause a point of conflict because I am not considering the other in equality and looking for the most harmonious direction to take for myself and the other in equal consideration where both will benefit, but only within my mind as me blaming them for me losing in the past as these memories of them beating me and thus seek to gain my power back through beating them. Within this I realize it is just self-interest only seeking to boost my ego because I want attention and fear being seen in a bad light by others when I am already here as life no need to seek it from others to let me know, but live it within and as my own self expression as I am already life here.

I commit myself to let go of the energy of these memories of lose through releasing myself within the hold of revenge as I see that we are equal and there is no reason to fight back, I am here and alive and thus I have no reason for conflict, I live, I need nothing else but to live this, so thus I commit to support myself and life as best I can to let go of emotions as revenge and become humble within myself and my world as what is best for all is only a living realization that must be lived and thus conflict will end.

I commit myself to investigate why these memories are being triggered within the moment and thus stop this trigger point from directing me and reacting through self forgiveness and self commitments and thus live the point of love thy neighbor as thyself even until it is here among us for real.

I commit to breath and release revenge and emotional anger when another is not supporting what is best for al and harm me, through letting it go, and support the other in peaceful means to see what they are doing, and if they can not hear let it be and walk my process as interacting will cause more harm then good.

I commit myself to let go of my ego and walk the path of peace which is self acceptance, accepting myself and everyone here in breath as life, I walk this by moving slower becoming aware of my breath, and walk the principles in my day to day interaction with others through stopping competition through stopping my memories and thoughts of competition, and practice walking support and assistance of others to a harmonious environment for all.

When and as I see I am going into abuse in my mind or in the physical, I stop and breath, and immediately come to realization that this is unacceptable, I am not taking responsibility for myself and practicing the equality equation, I realize this will end in self compromise and abuse to the other and thus myself.

I commit myself to stop the thought patterns of anger and revenge through stopping my participation in conflict situations with others, where I see that I can let go of my wants, needs, and desires, and walk in a way that support the best outcome for all through communication with others and practical common sense to come up with ways that will support all to understanding universally.

I commit to stop my self interest in only looking at my own wants, needs, outcomes, and thus allow all to benefit and do what is necessary to support others the way I would like to be supported.

I commit myself to let go of my attachments to things, and walk in simplicity what I need practically to live and walk my process and that’s it let go of the desires for more when in self honesty I see it is wasteful and not necessary.

I commit to let go of my self interest to be seen by others as more by letting go of the desire to have power over others through putting myself in the shoes of the other and asking myself, “is this how I would want to be treated?”

I commit to walk humbleness in finding it within myself and living it within my living in all that I do through acceptance of life here as myself and all, and unconditionally support myself through not accepting separation through thoughts of my perception of reality through the eyes of memories and the mind, but what is here in the physical in the understanding that I am all that is here in fact and how can I live to support all to live this as well.

When and as I see myself go into the mind to find out who I am through energy as winning and losing, and thus live in reality within a positive or negative experience of myself based on what idea as memories and thoughts have showed to me that I am, I stop and breath, and I realize that this is not who I am, I am not defined and based by energy in my mind as emotions and feelings of good and bad feelings attached to pictures, words, ideas, beliefs, or thought patterns, but am able to direct myself here in the physical in stability in the principle of equality and oneness, and through this realization of who I am as the physical as life in all that is powerful and magnificent within this living in oneness and equality with all that live as self, live this in fact in the statement of my expression through actually living here breath by breath in taking into full consideration who I am and all that is here and walking the best I am able to by correcting myself when I see I go into energy, breathing, and supporting myself as all in unconditional support to realign this life to what is best for all.

I commit myself to let go of feelings and emotions as reactions in energy to pictures and words and thoughts streams in my head, letting go of ideas, beliefs, and opinions I have of myself and others, and remain here in my breath, practicing each and every day to become stable in my breath, aware of the life that is here as me and in everything that I see and live with in the phsyical, and walk the support that is necessary for me and life to live one and equal by slowly but surely producing this as my expression and thus the expression of this world through self correction and self sustenance.

I commit to continue to investigate and correct all points I see activate competition and the desire to be superior, and walk the correction by stopping the energy and living the correction of supporting life, step by step until I move me in my own self will and direct all points as a expression of myself.

I commit to say ‘no, I do not have to be directed by this energy’, when I see I am going into energy possession, and thus get up and move myself physically to stop the activation of this energy possession through also stopping the thoughts that fuel the energy.

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Day 273 – Winning – “I am Better then You” – Self Corrections to Live – Part 1

Please reference these blogs for further perspective on this post:
Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words
Day 266 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Forgiveness
Day 267 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Corrections to Live
Day 268 – Redefining the Word Loser
Day 269 – What Does Being a ‘Winner’ imply in this World for the Human Being?
Day 270 – Winning- Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction - Self Forgiveness
Day 271 – Winning – Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction – Self Corrections to Live

In relation to this specific Post, please reference this blog:
Day 272 – Winning – “I am Better then You” – Self Forgiveness

When and as I see myself experiencing energies of self righteousness and superiority towards another based on accepting a memory stream to flow through my mind of me beating them in the past in some competition and go into a superiority stance towards them, I stop and breath, and realize that living within this mode of living from memories and thus living from these memories alone, is accepting and allowing myself to compromise my ability to live in the physical in the best I am able to as well as abuse others because I have created the experience within my mind that I am more then this person because I am accepting memories as real and justifying my experiences of superiority based in these memories I have selected as me as the winner. I realize though within this that these memories are not real, they are in my mind and thus are illusions as what is in my mind is not physical, can not be tested, cross-referenced, and verified as true, and thus I am not being self honest within the moment, but only in self interest feeding my ego in feeling better about myself by making another feel less important.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing memories to direct me within sustaining my living here, reacting to these memories as if they are real and define the physical, and thus live from the physical here in every breath, treating others how I would want to be treated.

I commit myself to stop my ego in superiority by seeing what I am doing in the moment of trying to be more and stop in that moment, finding ways and solutions where there is a common ground and that all are able to benefit equally and thus treated equally as well.

I commit myself to walk from the physical what is in reality through testing points and seeing if they are conducive for all and make sense over time, walking self honesty within my reality and stopping the mind as memories to direct me.

When and as I see that I am going into a point of superiority with another and demanding competition from them where they must prove they are better then me and when I am not satisfied I will lash out in irritation and anger, I stop and breath, as I realize that this behavior is showing the complete lack of respect for myself and integrity within myself where I have to abuse and push others to be as I am as an abusive person, to prove my ego is the strongest, and thus cause uncomfortableness with others and conflict because I want attention and the energy of feeling more important and thus go as far as pushing others and myself to prove it by creating more and more competition and thus I can gain more and more energy, which is I realize abusing life for my self interest, unacceptable as I would not want to be treated in this abusive and degrading way.

I commit myself to stop and breath and do not accept myself to go into points of competition and proving to be more, this through letting go of the energy, breathing through it and saying no I will not accept this competition any longer.

I commit to see all in this world and in my world in there shoes, communicating with them and coming to common ground, and so stop the point of being more by accepting me, getting to know and understand how my mind works, and continue to walk the correction process in self honesty to correct my living to always consider others as equal and do what is best for all.

I commit to accept myself each and every time I see I am going into comparison and competition, by saying no I don’t accept me in competition, and embrace that part of me I am trying to beat. Open it up in writing and see why I am not aligned with it, what am I not accepting of myself, and so direct it into alignment with what is best for all through self forgiveness and self commitment statements.

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Day 272 – Winning – “I am Better then You” – Self Forgiveness

Please reference these blogs for further perspective on this post:
Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words
Day 266 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Forgiveness
Day 267 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Corrections to Live
Day 268 – Redefining the Word Loser

In relation to this specific Post, please reference these blogs:
Day 269 – What Does Being a ‘Winner’ imply in this World for the Human Being?
Day 270 – Winning- Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction - Self Forgiveness
Day 271 – Winning – Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction – Self Corrections to Live

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the thought within my mind as memories of times when I beat a specific person in competition and thus hold onto these memories as a justifiable stream of evidence that I indeed am better then this other and thus within this justification through memories, create myself in relationship with this other in superiority, where I will create a point of arrogance towards them expecting them to live up to me and my memories of competition or continue to be seen as less then me because I am creating this experience within me of being more because I hold onto memories of me apparently winning, which is not real because it’s in my mind and thus easily can be distorted from what in reality actually happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue existing within memories as I bring them here within talking to another I know I have beat in competition in the past and thus treat them in my speak and mannerisms in superiority, seeing within myself that they deserve this treatment because I won, I am better, and thus I deserve to live as the superior one because I beat them and they lost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept memories as real when I realize they are not real as it is not here in the physical and use the memories in self interest where I will gain feelings of superiority based on defining myself through the actions that took place as winning in a competition, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an arrogance and self righteousness towards the other based on believing myself to be better then this person because I have defined myself more to them based on beating them and that I am referencing to validate this definition of myself through the memories I have brought up of me winning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by what has happened in the past and hold onto it and use the memories as a validation of who I am as more then others when in reality I am showing how self interested I am and abusive by treating another life being as less then me when me in the physical is equal and one to the other and thus competition in the seeking of gaining definition of importance and superiority to another is not acceptable and cause abuse as separation and conflict as I use these memories only for energy for myself to feel more, superior, and better then this other which makes me feel important.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the energy as superior and better to others in beating them in defining who I am as more because I desire to feel important and be seen as this by others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live out this superiority in my world by treating others less then me through yelling at them and not allowing them to walk any process with me in their own self expression, but I demand them to prove that they are the winner and thus always exist within competition as comparison and polarity as better/worse when we interact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the opposite polarity where I will suppress the memories of me losing to not have to face that within myself as I have now only defined my self importance or self worth through winning, and so when I do allow memories of losing I accumulate the energy of anger because I see I am not good enough and thus this fuels the competition I participate in and so become extremely competitive with others in becoming physical at times and abusive verbally and mentally at times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame those I compete against for me becoming a loser and feeling bad and stifled within myself, and thus use this blame to get even through competition and when I win rub it in the others face to make sure I gain attention and recognition for this win, and I see as more then others which makes me feel important within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for my own participation in competition and self righteousness allowing and accepting myself to abuse others mentally, verbally, and physically based on holding onto memories of lose and not dealing with them in self honesty, but suppress them until I bring the anger here that is involved within this memory of lose to fuel me to be aggressive and win in my competition towards them always resulting in abuse as I am existing within separation as you vs me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become aggressive and in the point of you vs me and so doing whatever I can to win, where I will name call or abuse in my mind and at times physically when I was younger to win and so I can be seen as more and better then the others and thus gain that self importance which makes me feel worthy again within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others and only exist within competition based on defining myself by what others see of me and how I live in the physical compared to others instead of accepting myself and living in unison with others in equality and what is best for everyone where all ultimately can benefit equally as one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept abuse within words, thought, and deed towards others within myself in the belief that I am better but realizing this is only ego and hiding the fact that I don’t actually accept myself and see myself as worthy, but live from the mind as ego to make myself feel better because within myself I feel inferior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for me not standing up for myself and living within principles of what is best and equality to stop the cycle of polarity living in energy of inferior/superior or better/worse, and thus create separation with others because I am searching for myself, my expression through the external as competition but will always be unstable and unequal with others because I am only seeing myself in energy as highs and lows through win and lose and thus I will never be stable because energy will exist in this way to balance itself and never last as an expression of me because it’s not real it’s based in the mind as thoughts that construct this idea of myself as the ‘winner’ when in reality, I am not accepting myself and thus in separation with life as who I really am.

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Day 120- Disappointment Character Breakdown- Part 1 – I AM A Failure

I have found very often I will go into disappointment within myself when I realize that I have fallen in my process or have not lived up to the expectations I put on myself to be lived out, and thus will fuel the mind through this polarity of desiring to be successful in my process and becoming disappointed when I fall.

This above, is a portion of yesterday’s blog Day 119-Disappointment Character – Sexual Prowess, where I will be taken each paragraph and writing out self forgiveness on a multi-blog/day platform, enjoy and thanks for reading.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of disappointment based on a belief that I have failed in process, and thus see myself as not good enough based on this belief that I am a failure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto a belief that when I fall in process, that I am a failure. and that I am less then who I was a moment before based on not being able to stand in all moments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within this belief of an expectation of me to be perfect within each and every moment of my process, I realize that it is unrealistic and not using common sense assessment as this idea of perfection in my mind is an illusion of in a point of ego to try and be seen by others as more, as great, as an achiever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto an expectation of being more then who I am, meaning trying to achieve the impossible of perfection, without walking the process of living to be perfect, so thus walking it from my mind where in I am not in reality, but in hope of being more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live into hope of being more then who I am in each breath and thus within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the desire of hope and thus manifest it’s opposite as disappointment based on me being within desires and wants instead of here in physical reality considering the actual steps and dicispline it will take for me to walk in real time to become a being self realized living in self perfection.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuel the mind through living in polarity of success/failure and hope/disappointment splitting myself from the solution which is myself taking responsibility for these points, and standing within a point of stability by realizing that I am my own direction and will, and so within this point of going into an expectation realizing that it will cause always a disappointment as I am not living for real, but for something outside myself as a want, and thus missing self in breath and missing my opportunity to live the solution which is here as me.

I commit myself to stop this point of focusing on succeeding in process realizing that it will take a process of all sorts of points and re-alignment within who I am, so to realize I can't expect or desire a certain outcome. Thus I commit myself to walking my process in simplicity with the point that is here, breath by breath, until the points end and I am as life here as the physical.

I commit myself to let go of all beliefs within and as me as I realize that beliefs are not fact and thus are not here as life as the physical is fact, thus I focus on the fact of the matter and stop the assumptions of the mind as beliefs as it’s not supportive of what is best for all because it doesn't consider ALL the facts, but focus on illusion.

I commit myself to stop all points of expectation in a desire to be seen as more then others to make myself feel better, thus I commit to walk through this point of ego as desire to be more so thus I can stand as an equal in fact and be trusted with and as life as I would want from others.

I commit myself to stop the desire to be perfect as it’s not real as it’s in the mind, and walk the only perfection that exist, self perfection as life in oneness and equality in what is best for all in all ways here in living breath by breath.

I commit myself to stop living into hope and thus simultaneously activating the opposite polarity of disappointment where in I live into these points, as the act of desire for hope is not real as it’s within a point of separation to do something in the future, when I realize I am here and thus I live here in every breath in what I can do for what is best for all always. There is no hope needed thus no disappointment created to live here in breath and do what is best for life.

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