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Sunday, April 7, 2013

Day 274 – Winning – “I am Better then You” – Self Commitments to Live – Part 2

When and as I see I am using memories to fuel my backchat and actions within the physical of revenge through competition and trying to win, I stop and breath, as I realize that this fueling of the backchat and my actions within this allowing the backchat to direct me will cause abuse to others and cause a point of conflict because I am not considering the other in equality and looking for the most harmonious direction to take for myself and the other in equal consideration where both will benefit, but only within my mind as me blaming them for me losing in the past as these memories of them beating me and thus seek to gain my power back through beating them. Within this I realize it is just self-interest only seeking to boost my ego because I want attention and fear being seen in a bad light by others when I am already here as life no need to seek it from others to let me know, but live it within and as my own self expression as I am already life here.

I commit myself to let go of the energy of these memories of lose through releasing myself within the hold of revenge as I see that we are equal and there is no reason to fight back, I am here and alive and thus I have no reason for conflict, I live, I need nothing else but to live this, so thus I commit to support myself and life as best I can to let go of emotions as revenge and become humble within myself and my world as what is best for all is only a living realization that must be lived and thus conflict will end.

I commit myself to investigate why these memories are being triggered within the moment and thus stop this trigger point from directing me and reacting through self forgiveness and self commitments and thus live the point of love thy neighbor as thyself even until it is here among us for real.

I commit to breath and release revenge and emotional anger when another is not supporting what is best for al and harm me, through letting it go, and support the other in peaceful means to see what they are doing, and if they can not hear let it be and walk my process as interacting will cause more harm then good.

I commit myself to let go of my ego and walk the path of peace which is self acceptance, accepting myself and everyone here in breath as life, I walk this by moving slower becoming aware of my breath, and walk the principles in my day to day interaction with others through stopping competition through stopping my memories and thoughts of competition, and practice walking support and assistance of others to a harmonious environment for all.

When and as I see I am going into abuse in my mind or in the physical, I stop and breath, and immediately come to realization that this is unacceptable, I am not taking responsibility for myself and practicing the equality equation, I realize this will end in self compromise and abuse to the other and thus myself.

I commit myself to stop the thought patterns of anger and revenge through stopping my participation in conflict situations with others, where I see that I can let go of my wants, needs, and desires, and walk in a way that support the best outcome for all through communication with others and practical common sense to come up with ways that will support all to understanding universally.

I commit to stop my self interest in only looking at my own wants, needs, outcomes, and thus allow all to benefit and do what is necessary to support others the way I would like to be supported.

I commit myself to let go of my attachments to things, and walk in simplicity what I need practically to live and walk my process and that’s it let go of the desires for more when in self honesty I see it is wasteful and not necessary.

I commit to let go of my self interest to be seen by others as more by letting go of the desire to have power over others through putting myself in the shoes of the other and asking myself, “is this how I would want to be treated?”

I commit to walk humbleness in finding it within myself and living it within my living in all that I do through acceptance of life here as myself and all, and unconditionally support myself through not accepting separation through thoughts of my perception of reality through the eyes of memories and the mind, but what is here in the physical in the understanding that I am all that is here in fact and how can I live to support all to live this as well.

When and as I see myself go into the mind to find out who I am through energy as winning and losing, and thus live in reality within a positive or negative experience of myself based on what idea as memories and thoughts have showed to me that I am, I stop and breath, and I realize that this is not who I am, I am not defined and based by energy in my mind as emotions and feelings of good and bad feelings attached to pictures, words, ideas, beliefs, or thought patterns, but am able to direct myself here in the physical in stability in the principle of equality and oneness, and through this realization of who I am as the physical as life in all that is powerful and magnificent within this living in oneness and equality with all that live as self, live this in fact in the statement of my expression through actually living here breath by breath in taking into full consideration who I am and all that is here and walking the best I am able to by correcting myself when I see I go into energy, breathing, and supporting myself as all in unconditional support to realign this life to what is best for all.

I commit myself to let go of feelings and emotions as reactions in energy to pictures and words and thoughts streams in my head, letting go of ideas, beliefs, and opinions I have of myself and others, and remain here in my breath, practicing each and every day to become stable in my breath, aware of the life that is here as me and in everything that I see and live with in the phsyical, and walk the support that is necessary for me and life to live one and equal by slowly but surely producing this as my expression and thus the expression of this world through self correction and self sustenance.

I commit to continue to investigate and correct all points I see activate competition and the desire to be superior, and walk the correction by stopping the energy and living the correction of supporting life, step by step until I move me in my own self will and direct all points as a expression of myself.

I commit to say ‘no, I do not have to be directed by this energy’, when I see I am going into energy possession, and thus get up and move myself physically to stop the activation of this energy possession through also stopping the thoughts that fuel the energy.

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Saturday, April 6, 2013

Day 273 – Winning – “I am Better then You” – Self Corrections to Live – Part 1

When and as I see myself experiencing energies of self righteousness and superiority towards another based on accepting a memory stream to flow through my mind of me beating them in the past in some competition and go into a superiority stance towards them, I stop and breath, and realize that living within this mode of living from memories and thus living from these memories alone, is accepting and allowing myself to compromise my ability to live in the physical in the best I am able to as well as abuse others because I have created the experience within my mind that I am more then this person because I am accepting memories as real and justifying my experiences of superiority based in these memories I have selected as me as the winner. I realize though within this that these memories are not real, they are in my mind and thus are illusions as what is in my mind is not physical, can not be tested, cross-referenced, and verified as true, and thus I am not being self honest within the moment, but only in self interest feeding my ego in feeling better about myself by making another feel less important.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing memories to direct me within sustaining my living here, reacting to these memories as if they are real and define the physical, and thus live from the physical here in every breath, treating others how I would want to be treated.

I commit myself to stop my ego in superiority by seeing what I am doing in the moment of trying to be more and stop in that moment, finding ways and solutions where there is a common ground and that all are able to benefit equally and thus treated equally as well.

I commit myself to walk from the physical what is in reality through testing points and seeing if they are conducive for all and make sense over time, walking self honesty within my reality and stopping the mind as memories to direct me.

When and as I see that I am going into a point of superiority with another and demanding competition from them where they must prove they are better then me and when I am not satisfied I will lash out in irritation and anger, I stop and breath, as I realize that this behavior is showing the complete lack of respect for myself and integrity within myself where I have to abuse and push others to be as I am as an abusive person, to prove my ego is the strongest, and thus cause uncomfortableness with others and conflict because I want attention and the energy of feeling more important and thus go as far as pushing others and myself to prove it by creating more and more competition and thus I can gain more and more energy, which is I realize abusing life for my self interest, unacceptable as I would not want to be treated in this abusive and degrading way.

I commit myself to stop and breath and do not accept myself to go into points of competition and proving to be more, this through letting go of the energy, breathing through it and saying no I will not accept this competition any longer.

I commit to see all in this world and in my world in there shoes, communicating with them and coming to common ground, and so stop the point of being more by accepting me, getting to know and understand how my mind works, and continue to walk the correction process in self honesty to correct my living to always consider others as equal and do what is best for all.

I commit to accept myself each and every time I see I am going into comparison and competition, by saying no I don’t accept me in competition, and embrace that part of me I am trying to beat. Open it up in writing and see why I am not aligned with it, what am I not accepting of myself, and so direct it into alignment with what is best for all through self forgiveness and self commitment statements.

Day 272 – Winning – “I am Better then You” – Self Forgiveness

Please reference these blogs for further perspective on this post:
Day 265 – What Does Being A Loser Imply? Behind Words
Day 266 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Forgiveness
Day 267 – What Does the Word Loser Imply? – Self Corrections to Live
Day 268 – Redefining the Word Loser

In relation to this specific Post, please reference these blogs:
Day 269 – What Does Being a ‘Winner’ imply in this World for the Human Being?
Day 270 – Winning- Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction - Self Forgiveness
Day 271 – Winning – Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction – Self Corrections to Live

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the thought within my mind as memories of times when I beat a specific person in competition and thus hold onto these memories as a justifiable stream of evidence that I indeed am better then this other and thus within this justification through memories, create myself in relationship with this other in superiority, where I will create a point of arrogance towards them expecting them to live up to me and my memories of competition or continue to be seen as less then me because I am creating this experience within me of being more because I hold onto memories of me apparently winning, which is not real because it’s in my mind and thus easily can be distorted from what in reality actually happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue existing within memories as I bring them here within talking to another I know I have beat in competition in the past and thus treat them in my speak and mannerisms in superiority, seeing within myself that they deserve this treatment because I won, I am better, and thus I deserve to live as the superior one because I beat them and they lost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept memories as real when I realize they are not real as it is not here in the physical and use the memories in self interest where I will gain feelings of superiority based on defining myself through the actions that took place as winning in a competition, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an arrogance and self righteousness towards the other based on believing myself to be better then this person because I have defined myself more to them based on beating them and that I am referencing to validate this definition of myself through the memories I have brought up of me winning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by what has happened in the past and hold onto it and use the memories as a validation of who I am as more then others when in reality I am showing how self interested I am and abusive by treating another life being as less then me when me in the physical is equal and one to the other and thus competition in the seeking of gaining definition of importance and superiority to another is not acceptable and cause abuse as separation and conflict as I use these memories only for energy for myself to feel more, superior, and better then this other which makes me feel important.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the energy as superior and better to others in beating them in defining who I am as more because I desire to feel important and be seen as this by others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live out this superiority in my world by treating others less then me through yelling at them and not allowing them to walk any process with me in their own self expression, but I demand them to prove that they are the winner and thus always exist within competition as comparison and polarity as better/worse when we interact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the opposite polarity where I will suppress the memories of me losing to not have to face that within myself as I have now only defined my self importance or self worth through winning, and so when I do allow memories of losing I accumulate the energy of anger because I see I am not good enough and thus this fuels the competition I participate in and so become extremely competitive with others in becoming physical at times and abusive verbally and mentally at times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame those I compete against for me becoming a loser and feeling bad and stifled within myself, and thus use this blame to get even through competition and when I win rub it in the others face to make sure I gain attention and recognition for this win, and I see as more then others which makes me feel important within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for my own participation in competition and self righteousness allowing and accepting myself to abuse others mentally, verbally, and physically based on holding onto memories of lose and not dealing with them in self honesty, but suppress them until I bring the anger here that is involved within this memory of lose to fuel me to be aggressive and win in my competition towards them always resulting in abuse as I am existing within separation as you vs me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become aggressive and in the point of you vs me and so doing whatever I can to win, where I will name call or abuse in my mind and at times physically when I was younger to win and so I can be seen as more and better then the others and thus gain that self importance which makes me feel worthy again within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others and only exist within competition based on defining myself by what others see of me and how I live in the physical compared to others instead of accepting myself and living in unison with others in equality and what is best for everyone where all ultimately can benefit equally as one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept abuse within words, thought, and deed towards others within myself in the belief that I am better but realizing this is only ego and hiding the fact that I don’t actually accept myself and see myself as worthy, but live from the mind as ego to make myself feel better because within myself I feel inferior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for me not standing up for myself and living within principles of what is best and equality to stop the cycle of polarity living in energy of inferior/superior or better/worse, and thus create separation with others because I am searching for myself, my expression through the external as competition but will always be unstable and unequal with others because I am only seeing myself in energy as highs and lows through win and lose and thus I will never be stable because energy will exist in this way to balance itself and never last as an expression of me because it’s not real it’s based in the mind as thoughts that construct this idea of myself as the ‘winner’ when in reality, I am not accepting myself and thus in separation with life as who I really am.

Friday, April 5, 2013

Day 271 – Winning – Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction – Self Corrections to Live

When and as I see myself going into an experience of self satisfaction when I have participated in competition and won, I stop and breath, and realize that this is not real self satisfaction, but self compromise as I am separating myself from the others within the environment I am living in and thus seeing myself more based on the action of beating someone, when this is showing my ignorance to who I am as life as one and equal with all the other life forms that live with me as I am only in my mind in my self interest to feel better about myself through generating energy through my mind as feeling important because I am the winner.

I commit myself to stop and do not participate within the action of competition if I see what I am doing is to gain energy and define myself by this energy as I see when I am not within the starting point of equality, I will separate myself into this point of desire alone and not consider the others I am effecting within my actions as competing and trying to be the best.

I commit myself to not participate in the energy of desire when I see that the opportunity has arise to win, and thus not go into the action of attempting to win as I see that it is only due to gaining this energy as good feelings if I possibly win and thus cause separation and conflict with others based on the separation I am causing in only looking out for my self interest and trying to be better.

I commit myself to stop the projection in my mind of what it will be like to win and gain the good feelings and attention if I do win.

I commit myself to stop the desire to win by participating in sports within the physical, being aware of my body, and moving it as the sport actions stopping my participation and thus interest in winning alone as it’s irrelevant when it’s only for my own gain.

When and as I see that I am going into a self judgment of lack and thus seek to fulfill this through winning in something to gain good feelings to make myself feel better, I stop and breath, and I realize that this polarity of lack/fulfillment through feelings within competing and winning over others is self sabotage as this will never give me real fulfillment as it’s based on energy and energy always run out thus my self fulfillment is not real as it will end which is the reverse of the standing as self fulfillment for real I realize.

I commit myself to stop existing within myself as self judgment through accepting these parts of myself that I see I lack in through writing and coming to a decision in living that will help support this living for real as self acceptance as a commitment to live the best I can for myself and all that I effect.

I commit myself to stop separating myself from life here through existing through self judgment and thus comparison by saying ‘no, I don’t accept this judgment of myself or comparison of others any longer’ and speaking ‘ I accept my hair, I accept my face, I accept the other as me, ect’ to sound who I am within my living and stop continuing in the thought pattern in my mind.

I commit myself to stop looking for others to tell me who I am and thus push my own self expression, writing, being with me, and exploring who I am within moments and accept what I see and change that which is not best to the best I can be, I commit to live these principles in all I do.

When and as I go into a point of self compromise through existing in desire to be a perfect picture and thus use competition to see it to fruition through winning, but always existing within polarity of win/lose, high/low, never stable, I stop and breath, and I realize that this desire to be perfect has got to be let go of as it’s not real only in my mind, I realize I have to exist in the physical here in breath and move according to physical considerations and realities, which can not be a picture in my mind as perfection because I realize perfection has to be lived as me to be real as me.

I commit myself to walk through this desire of stopping perfection within myself and move myself in the physical in physically perfecting skills or studies I am working with and continue this in all I do, perfecting my self expression as free, my discipline, my acceptance of all and me, ect by working with the small and moving, as I go, to the bigger points until I am here and walking the best I am able to as a physical being in my living.

I commit to walk in the physical breath by breath and continue to let go of thoughts of desire to be better and compete, and I commit to not participate in competition if the starting point is this desire to prove I am better and to be a winner over others as feelings of self satisfaction within self as ego in self interest.

I commit to stop my desire to win to show off for others and walk with others in endeavors that will benefit all and all will win.

I commit to stop my self interest and realign to be in the interest of all in what is best for all.

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Free Desteni I Process Lite Course for All Ages
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Thursday, April 4, 2013

Day 270 – Winning- Fulfilling a Desire for Self Satisfaction - Self Forgiveness

In relation to this specific Post, please reference this blog:
Day 269 – What Does Being a ‘Winner’ imply in this World for the Human Being?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to win within competition against others to make myself feel better about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to win because within myself I see that I have a belief that I lack something and thus have formed the idea that to feel satisfied and accomplished, I have to compete and show that I am strong and better then others through winning and being the winner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue to believe this idea that I lack something based on the judgments I hold of myself that I am not good enough, that I am not strong enough, and thus use competition and the result as winning to prove to myself that this is not so. I realize though that this never solv es anything, but just continues me in the same cycle loop of lack/fulfillment through competition and winning/losing, never stable, never here, never free in my expression, but always driven by this play-out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate thoughts about myself of self judgment within seeing myself as lacking in intelligence, beauty, presence, and thus comparing myself to others in where I allow myself to use the moment of possible winning through competing against these people as enough of a push to continue in this cycle of polarities of lack/fulfillment in the pursuit of being the winner and getting nice feelings, and never actually solve the issue within me, which is the lack of self acceptance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by what others think of me and how I perceive myself according to what others think, and only be satisfied, if only for a few moments, within the winning in a sport or competition, but still be left with this mental train of thought that I am having to be something or someone for others to accept me, not realizing that what I am missing is the acceptance of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the easy way out within this life in pushing my insecurities and judgments aside and thus escaping my self in having to face me as these insecurities and judgments, but use the quick shot of energy I gain when I become the winner in competition and allow that to sustain me for the low I will go into once the energy wears off, and I am back having to face myself as the truth of me as insecurities and judgments of lack.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use winning and competition as an escape and distraction as a quick fix rather then having to face and change myself within the beliefs of who I am within this physical body, and walk the process of self acceptance, accepting myself through physically changing who I am within my living, not accepting judgments or lack, and change my behavior to walk for real this self acceptance as a reality in my life and my living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my mind to direct me into believing that I am less then others based on my own self ignorance and judgments of desire to be perfect and thus try and live up to a picture in my mind that is impossible to fulfill, and then judge and torture myself with this self hate and self sabotage living of myself because I can't live up to the illusion in my head as a perfect picture, instead of accepting myself for who I am as a living being and living one and equal with all of life that is here and is equal in the physical, which is what is real and what matters, equality, lack is the mind and does not exist in reality as it's an illusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in my mind in desires of perfection and thus in reality live in self compromise using polarities as winning/lose by torturing myself with this play-out within trying to satisfy myself through energy highs, and dealing and coping with the energy lows, instead of taking responsibility for myself and life as me one and equal, and changing my living to be in self acceptance and accepting all as me in equality, stopping the energy as high/low thus stop competing against others as I realize as is equal and all here is self as life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live and express freely through accepting all here as myself equal and one as what is real in this physical reality and thus chose to play the mental games of addiction and escapism through competition as winning and lose.

For Further Support, Please check out Links:
Free Desteni I Process Lite Course for All Ages
Journey to Life Group
Creation's Journey to Life
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