Day 189 – The Result of Irresponsible Living – Self Commitment Statements

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Day 188 – Result of Irresponsible Living – Self Forgiveness

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of desiring to stop working or doing what is necessary to be done, I stop and breath, and walk immediately into the physical point that I desire not to do, so I am not enslaved into a point were I believe that I can’t or do not want to do it. I obviously make a common sense assessment to make sure it is relevant within my process, but I stop all backdoors of not walking my physical process of stopping desires for instance by physically walking through it and complete that which I didn’t desire to do realize that I have the opportunity to do so and many don’t.

I commit myself to when and as I go into points of greed within not wanting to share what I have in fear of being taken advantage of or being at a lost, I stop and breath, and make a common sense assessment in the physical with all physical considerations in self honest, and not allow points of self interest to direct me as I realize this will not allow me to effectively give if I am in want. I realize and commit myself to stop all points of want and desire and share with all what I have so we can create an equality within this living world as I see if a I am not willing to share then how can I ask others to do so.

I commit myself to when and as I see I am going into a point of greed to not give money or share what I have due to fear of not being fulfilled in my life and satisfied, I stop and breath, and thus within realizing that I am the other, I give to all what I have as I would want them to share with me. I commit to stop all thoughts and desires to be satisfied in my life, and walk the simplistic and basic points I need to live and thus establishing and give what I can to the development of an equal money system so we can establish a real system that supports all and all life can live satisfied and without fear.

I commit myself to when and as I feel the need to give to a charity to make myself feel good about helping, I stop and breath, and do not accept myself to fall into the trap of feeling good as I realize that charities are not asolution and should not be supported as they are perpetuating and keeping this current system of inequality in place, and thus I commit myself to walk and give to the establishment of an equal money system, so charities will cease to exist and all life will be supported in all areas within this world through a system that is lived and structured always on what is best for all in the realization that we are all one and equal.

I commit myself to stop all points of self interest and greed to have my own personal self interest and happiness while allowing and accepting others t live and suffer each day to lack of resources and money. I commit myself to do what it takes to walk an equal moneys system which will in fact support all life in this world and end the suffering and abuse to life forevermore by giving everyone what they need to live andeducating everyone on who to stand within self stability in self honesty and integrity as a co-equal with all on this planet.

I commit myself to stop all judgments and assessments on who deserves life and equal rights and who does not deserve equal rights as I realize I can not make that call as I don’t know in fact how that being has lived and where they come from, and what the being has been through, so I give as I would want to receive andjudge not lest I be judged, so I can and will walk in fact as equal to others in support and assistance to all walking this equality within themselves as I have learned for myself, so we can in fact walk as equals in this world. I commit myself to walk my process to equalize myself with the physical until it’s done.

I commit myself to let go of all attachments as definitions that I have placed on myself and what I do or who I am, and thus live within and as a point of humbleness realizing that all deserve the right to a decent and self fulfilling life, and thus I don’t stop until this is able to be lived for all through the only way this is possible by treating all equally and making this equality with and as all life as we are one life into a world system that will in fact support all in this way.

I commit myself to walk as my physical body by pushing myself in breath and practicing being here in breath, to realize myself as the physical so I can practically consider all the physical life that is here assisting and supporting my life while I breath and thus equally support with my life to help this world function and co exist as equals.

I commit myself to stop relying and living from intellect as self interest in seeing myself more superior to others, and thus walk as an equal with all life considering them and thus living the intellect I learn and apply it in my living that always supports life and does what is best for all.



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Day 188 – Result of Irresponsible Living – Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within desires to not want to work or do anything any longer based on being sick of having to live and make money and survive everyday. I realize I am fortunate compared to others in this world, and realize many are struggling even to continue living each day, real life and death scenarios.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a system where people are dying everyday and are being abused based on not having any other option in this world because everything is run on money, and money is not fairly given to all equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be greedy with money and not wanting to share my money with others in fear of being taken advantage of and being at a lost. I realize, see, and understand this fear is not is unacceptable and unnecessary as I can make an informed decision on what or who I give my money to based on the principle’s I live, and create an equal society were all are given the right to life and living in dignity as the Equal Money system is a living example for this. I realize there is no excuses or blame to the suffering in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to give my money away and be greedy with my money based on fear of not being happy and being able to be satisfied in life. Basing my whole life on whether I will be happy and satisfied while so many suffer based on allowing this current world system to exist. I realize my self interest is the result of billions suffering on this planet were resources are hoarded and consumed based on only thinking about ourselves and not considering the oneness of all of us here on this planet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give money to charities within a belief that it is going to help solve the problem, realizing that this is only for myself to feel good as well as showing that the existence of charities is already a failure, and the idea and belief that charities are a solution is self dishonest and unacceptable based on the obviousness that it doesn’t solve the root problems of this world and that is human greed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie to myself for my own self interest of desiring to feel good based on greed, so I will hoard what I have and not give to others, and allow others to go without and suffer because I don’t want to share equally with all. I realize that the solution is here within the equal money system and I am a deliberate abuser and problem to life if I don’t stop my self interest and greed, and start implementing and elevating the suffering that is due to my actions of inequality and irresponsibility to life one and equal, where money as the root of life in this current system to live, is not given to all equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe based on someone’s life experience or how someone lives, and then go and judge them as deserving or undeserving of an equal share of living rights and decency in this world is a crime against life. I realize I am only denying myself the right to life because how can I receive it if I will not give someone equal to me this right as well, so I based on my inequality and ignorance will go with out as well eventually.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my ego to engulf me and make me feel and believe that I am more worthy then others based on my money I have, the job I hold, the house I live in, the car I drive, the clothes I wear, the boyfriend/girlfriend by my side, the way I look, and believe that based on what I have I am more deserving or based on how hard I work, I am more deserving to have the right to life and a life of decency then others I judge as not as deserving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a virus to life and what is living in this natural world sucking it dry and not giving an once of care to the destruction, suffering, and death it is causing to the countless living beings in all areas of life from the great to the small on this earth. I realize I am them one and equal, I am doing this too myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that based on intellect which is the memorization of information and knowledge, and storing it as memory and then recalling it and using it to make myself look and feel good in ways of self interest, and then go and judge and degrade the life as the natural world – animals, insects, plants, rocks, soil, grass, that which cooperates one and equal to give us life as less significant and intelligent beings then the human being is insane and makes me insane and ill mentally. I realize this is the case because I have seen the destruction and annihilation the human race has caused on the natural world, and have not proven in fact the superiority of the human race we claim, while all the while we as humanity ignore and deny, all the most basic evidence of real data that is proving otherwise, case and point - viruses. I realize we have created an arrogances within us that has made us so blind to our own stupidity based on believing our minds over the facts of this world. We use information as a point of ego not as life for our own self-glorification, denying the physical world that is here and the future we all can create to be lived as a better world and life for all.

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Day 185 - 'Your Sucha Brat!' Dealing with Irritation

Looking at the point of irritation within myself, and how easily I go into this point with others based onaccepting the energy that rush through me when something triggers this irritation within a point in my day. Usually it is based on something that I feel has disrupted my time or I took personally, I find when something repeats itself, like a kid keeps coming and coming and won’t leave me alone, instead of finding a solution for the child to go and find something productive and practical to do, I go into irritation which results in anger and then lashing out towards the person/thing/animal that triggered it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into anger towards s based on becoming irritated that she wouldn’t leave my room when I was working, and thus got more irritated as I allowed it to accumulate when she came back after I told her that I could not play, and she acted as if that did not matter at all. I realize that within this point of accepting the irritation and then fueling it through allowing it to accumulate in me is creating energy rush of annoyance towards s when she wouldn't leave and so I realize in this accumulation of irritation I will create anger based on in my starting point of fueling the mind as self interest instead of being here in the physical considering her and finding solutions within the physical as breath.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of becoming irritated towards any point in my world, I stop and breath, and do not allow it to accumulate as I realize that it will only cause more consequence, I stop and move myself to a different location until I have become stable within breathing and not reacting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of taking it personally when s does things that completely is not considering me or others in her world, and within this accept myself to get fueled by anger and irritation as I see this as a personal fu to me which I become resistant as I see it as an attack. I realize that within this, one, she is a child and thus using what she knows in terms of what she has learned to cope with what she is dealing with within her own mind of desires, fears, and different energies that is directing her and thus acting these energies out, two, she is not doing this within a personal attack but to get some point of self interest fulfilled due to the addiction we have created in our world, ourselves, and ourchildren to getting our desires filled, and three, she has no point of reference for a solution to this energyunless someone shows her as she is completely linked to the system and is living it, thus I realize I have to walk with her in solutions of common sense within the practical application of self honest, self forgiveness, self correction, and physical application of correction in her living, thus walk as an example for her so she can see another way that has solutions to these energies and that can practically be applied within her own self living.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of taking what s does to me personally as a personal fu, I stop and breath, and remain here within the physical by moving my body or walking around, do notcommunicate until the energy within me has dissipated and I am not in reaction, directing her into a point of stability for both of us, so the least resistance is met, and remaining stable with her so she can realize that there is points of stability within her life to look at and learn from that will be best for all. So push myself to remain here and stable, and support s in the best way I can in physical practical solutions, realizing that she is going through the exact same points I am with no sort of understanding or direction, and thus I commit myself to walk my process to correction as physical living in equality and oneness to be an example for others as I have been given.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of self interest and attack as the ego in where I take what s did to me personally and see it as a personal attack on myself, where in within myself I will go into a defense mode as fearing I will lose my stability and standing in the group, and thus lash out on s in anger to show her that I am stronger then her and she is not going to be able to push me around. I realize that within this point of allowing anger as energy and ego to direct me, I will only cause more consequence within her and myself and create more of a separation between the physical and the mind as by accepting the anger into consequence by causing abuse in words and my actions of movement.

I commit myself to when and as I go into a point of reacting in anger, I stop and breath, and become focused on my breathing and the equality and oneness between life as myself, to remind myself that this point of attack is not real, it’s the ego at work, and thus I breath and do not allow my ego to direct me. Waking solutions with s in patience’s and stability to show her an example that she can always look to for support and never be in fear or in defense because I am here and stable to handle and direct all points within practical common sense solutions, I stop my self interest to win, and push to remain one and equal with all in my physical environment until I am here and can support unconditionally life as myself.


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Day 172 - Resistance to Change - Fear of Being Alone

I fear being alone based on this inherent belief that I can not make it on my own, and thus using this as a dependency and reliance on others to help me, so I don’t have to take full responsibility for myself and really commit to the absolute change that I am walking for life. If i am not able to take full responsibility for myself, how can I expect myself to really change and how can I ask others to do the same, if I am not willing or am to afraid to take that leap and push myself to really change absolutely. I will not be able to be taking for real, and will be seen by others as untrustworthy, which is not a position I want for myself. To stop this self diminishment point of being a hypocrite, and to transcend the fear of being alone, I have to prove to myself that I am able to do anything that I put myself into. I have proven this within things I enjoy and am ‘good’ at, but now it’s to prove with things that I ‘fear’ and see myself as ‘inadequate’ at. It will take time to get to this stability point, but I realize every step and every decision I make that will create the outcome of what is best for all, is walking one step closer to transcending this fear and letting go of the power the fear has on me. Here will walk self forgiveness and self correction on this fear of being alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the fear of being alone in where I am suppressing the fact that I actually have to push myself in what I see that I am not ‘good’ at to stand up on my own and make my own way to self stability without the help or dependence on others, and to also prove to myself that I can do it or gave myself the chance to try. I realize that when I exist within this idea that l am not good enough and thus accept the fear that I will not be able to succeed at something, I will go into a self suppression and not express myself fully.

I commit myself to when and as I go into this idea of myself of a negative outlook on myself where I will hesitate or stop participating fully in what it is I am doing, I stop and breath, and push myself to not be directed by those thoughts, doing the action that i feared doing so I can prove that I can direct myself and stop the illusion that I am am not able to do it without the physical action of trying to prove that I can or can't.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone based on believing that I don’t have what it takes to exist on my own and be able to become stable on my own as all I have ever known is the support and assistance of others helping me along. I realize that within this I am really taking advantage of others help as I know that I don’t really have to go for it and put myself out there because I will have always a support within others.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself go into this fear and thus use others supports as a means to get out of my own self responsibility to move myself, I stop and breath, and push myself to walk the necessary steps I realize I have to take in the physical to be self supportive. Using common sense assessment, and not allowing myself to use others support to halt my own self movement as I stop the fear from directing me and push myself in the phsyical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into the pattern of believing that I need support from others or I will not be able to get where I want to be without the support from others, and to a degree this is true, but realizing and being self honest within the line of where I need to stand up and support myself, stopping my fear of speaking out and being out there alone, so pushing myself in my physical movement to being here stable in who I am and being able to stand up and behind what I find to be true by living this in my own self living through means of my own doing to self supportive clarity within the principles I live as.

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am going to fall into the pattern of accepting others support and assistance, I do not accept myself to fall into this within a self compromising way, I push myself to stand up and do not allow others to take advantage of me or me take advantage of others, so I can be stable and stand in the face of adversity and realize who I will be and know where I will stand to be clear and be able to support in reality in what will be best for all and let go of all self interest for my own gains.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change and fear standing alone as I fear being seen by others as not able and not good as this is how i believe others see me, so thus I realize that stopping these beliefs and thoughts of how others see me, I can thus walk the correction by standing within what I have self realized and the principles that are solid as oneness and equality of all life, and walk the correction of this world as I walk the correction within myself.

I commit myself to when and as I allow these beliefs that I will be seen and thought of by others as not good or a failure, I stop and breath, and realize this is not real as it’s only coming from within my mind, I realize I have the ability to learn and perfect myself within my living as this I know will be a step by step process. So I practice patience with myself and walk my process breathing and moving myself each day, so I accumulate a new being as myself that is able to stand within the face of this world as the mind, and be the solution, I walk until the solution as myself as this world is here through walking and living self forgiveness within self honesty to self change in perfection of living.


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Day 148 – Stupid Character –Emotions and Thought Self Forgiveness – Part 7

Here is a list of blogs I recommend looking at for further reference:

Day 142- “Stupid” Character- Part 1 - Intro
Day 143- Stupid Character – Fear Dimension Self Forgiveness – Part 2
Day 144- Stupid Character – Survival and Competition Self Forgiveness – Part 3
Day 145- Stupid Character- Outcasted and Taking Things Personally Self Forgiveness – Part 4
Day 146- Stupid Character- Memory Dimension
Day 147- Stupid Character – Memory Dimension – Self Commitment Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be stupid based on the emotions of self disappointment and sadness that came up when being called stupid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thoughts that ‘I am stupid because I was called this’ and thus live into this as seeing myself in little moments of being stupid and accentuating the moments where I did not live to my best and so created proof within myself by overanalyzing the acts that were not done to my best to prove to myself that I am this and sabotage myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to over accentuate and over analyze actions in my living that were not lived to my best ability and thus justify my thought that ‘I am stupid because I was called this’ with these actions and thus allowing and accepting the self disappointment to grow within me as I have allowed myself to define myself by this point of living as ‘stupid’ so I could stay in this character and not have to face those that called me this, and my own feelings of fearing facing who I am within myself as judging myself in this way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing who I am within myself because I see that within this facing myself I will have to change this point of self disappointment where I will have to push my living to live in a more structured and prepared way to understand and thus correct my living that is not done in the best way possible I can live, and so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe this thought that ‘I am stupid’ based on hearing it from others and so live into this point of seeing myself in this way, where I didn’t push myself in living but hide and escaped within this idea of myself that I can’t do certain things like face others I see as better then me, and thus live into this self diminishment point, wasting time and my own capabilities to make something more of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what others say about me is so and thus believe the thoughts that I am these words spoken to me, and thus live in self diminishment as I have accepted myself to be this way by defining myself by my outside world instead of realizing who I am in my own self application and understanding as life in the physical and stopping my mind from directing me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste time and my own self development and growth due to fear of facing others and thus went more into my mind and diminished myself believing the thoughts of less then and believing the energies as self disappointment and sadness are who I am within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe thoughts as if they are real and believe feelings and emotions as if they define who I am, I realize I have to breath through these energies and thoughts to walk as the physical and be here as the physical, as life is the physical and the mind is not life it is energy which is not real.

I commit myself to stop and breath when I feel any reaction come up of sadness or disappointment when being called stupid or hear the word stupid as I realize it is a word and thus I am not defined by this word, and so use words for what they are, and let go of the words that have no purpose but to separate life.

I commit myself to breath through all energy reactions as sadness and disappointment and realize that I am not defined by emotions so walk here within the physical in what I am doing, and let go of the belief that I am the emotions I am feeling as I realize I am here as the physical, so breath and remain as the physical.

I commit myself to stop following thoughts and let go of the energies as emotions when I hear the word stupid by breathing to stabilize myself and realizing I am not defined by a word, I am equal to it thus I can direct it and use it for it’s purpose as is.

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