Day 26 - Living with myself

 

 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to dislike myself. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become angry at myself for falling.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become pissed off at myself for falling.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to go into a point of self pity and self hate when i don't achieve the process of self perfection in a way that works for all as in the time frame i believe i should get this process done.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into petrification within the understanding of the consequences i create when i do fall and go into the realization that i didn't not stand for life, i did not support solutions/life/self, and thus i caused abuse and suffering to myself and all life as myself. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be seen within a point of being special, being important and feeling like i matter in this process, seeking the praise and honor of a being that walks through and stands within challenges and thus is seen as strong and powerful.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be seen as strong so i can survive in this world and reap the benefits of a life with money and prestige, people who want to be around and support me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to impress people when i walk my process, seeing me as getting it, and smart/intelligent as i move through the information and will be able to stand and support with world change.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into blaming the beings involved in my action of falling, making it about the others and what they did to me, and in this believe i am not responsible for the fall and the outcome of myself within it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility within a point of self responsibility within the fall where i indeed had the opportunity to stand my word and thus live the solutions, but chose to walk into and as the mind as greed, desire, self interest, and thinking patterns that i followed.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to within the thoughts of wanting what i did in the moment to fall, i did not care of the consequences of what i would face and could not see the reality that was playing out before my eyes, and thus become ignorantly blissful and blind to the hard and disciplined walk i was indeed required to face and stand within and thus in this  did not stand the point.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become ignorant to the crys and screams of the suffering in this world, who are taken the brunt of the harm that all life as myself is doing when i/all live in separation with self and what is best for all.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear i will not make process and go into pain and anger when i realize and see that i fucked myself within falling and giving into my desires and mind thinking. 

 I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of self anger and judge myself for falling as i see, realize, and understand i am still here and still walking my process to life, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as weak and not capable of standing 100 percent through the challenges of the mind, and thus allowed the beliefs to supersede breathing and walking what is best for all in the moments.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of self belief that i am inferior because of my thoughts that 'i am not sure' 'i am confused' 'i can't figure it out'.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought of i am not sure, i am confused, and i can't figure it out' as a negative experience, when i see i can redefine these words to show the practical steps to dig deeper in understanding and walk solutions through testing to see what works best. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought that i am inferior, when i see, realize and understand i can redefine this word to stand as a point where i am in a new stage of understanding something or i am in need of more practice to get established in the point/weakness, and in this gain strength and stamina as i walk the process of integration and living to a point of proven reality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word and feeling of inferior when i go heavy and depressed in my body, believing the physical energetic experience of being less then, not worthy, or not able to cope, when i see, realize and understand the correction is to move into more education and practicing the point to a degree where i am able to live it more and more and become one with the point and so become strong. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hate myself for falling and failing cause i believe thoughts that i am the cause of the mind empowering itself, i harmed all beings by falling, i will never live this down, i will never be able to forgive myself, when i see, realize, and understand this is thoughts and not who i am as the mind is a preprogrammed system, i am life and able to live and determine my movement here through practical and physcial effort to build words and living applications for the words as direct definitions to support me to live as an example for others if they may need support as this is what life does.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel unworthy of life rather then realizing i am one and equal with life, and thus i am here.

 I commit myself to stand within the living word of breathing and releasing thoughts so i do not align and cycle into thought patterns and thus i stop the outflow of the fall.

I commit myself to live the word of inferior to be a point i am weak in practically, and work at that point until i am able to stand in it and feel stable.

I commit myself to stop self judgement of a fall, and realize it is part of life/process and will happen time and time again until i physically stop the point and be life which does not fall/fail.

I commit myself to stop all beliefs, and work with silence/breathe and living words i can actually prove as who i am. 

I commit myself to stop all blame forever and take self responsibility for myself and change to stand as the living example in humbleness. 

I commit msyelf to stop the polarity of love/hate, like/dislike, and redefine to align with life, as love is only real when all are able to be treated with dignity as a world solution/equal money system, like/dislike as a point of bringing this back to myself and seeing where i am indulging or resisting and live it in a way that honors all life, and support myself here with practical solutions and breathing here with no mind/thoughts, self forgiveness, and self change. 

 

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Lenient - Redefining to Live - Day 551

Lenient

Current Allocation:

I see i am lenient with my mind and thus my self based on indulgences i have allowed and become addicted to for a very long time. I find it difficult to stand within these patterns and thus i tend to accept and allow the word lenient to supersede that which would be best for me based on the level of addiction I have participated in over time, though i find that with commitment and patience this point can be walked to a satisfactory point. What i have realized is that with the deep addiction patterns, i have laced it with fear. So I have a fear that i will not be able to get out of the pattern cause i am too far gone or the mind energy is too much, and so this will inevitably get me and i will fall. This is where i find i have become lenient or accept and allow leniency, when i have fallen and slowly getting back up. As i am getting up, i will indulge in the addiction. So leniency has been a crux in a way, which I allow as indulgence of the mind and I do not stop, I allow myself to stay in the feeling of energy, get drunk in it in a way as i wallow in the giving up point until i stand again. It’s self manipulation and overall unacceptable as it’s not necessary to indulge in such a way, and the living of this word is done to not face myself and thus allow self indulgence, self interest, and giving into my mind addictions. I am not in judgment of myself, though i see this is a flag point because it’s consequential in a way of me taking longer then necessary to move through points that inevitably have to be walked to become more effective and trustworthy within myself, which is my commitment to me as life.




Dictionary Definition:

adjective

1. agreeably tolerant; permissive; indulgent:

He tended to be lenient toward the children. More lenient laws encouraged greater freedom of expression.

2. Archaic. softening, soothing, or alleviative.

Etymology:

lenient (adj.) Look up lenient at Dictionary.com

1650s, "relaxing, soothing" (a sense now archaic), from Middle French lenient, from Latin lenientem (nominative leniens), present participle of lenire "to soften, alleviate, allay; calm, soothe, pacify," from lenis "mild, gentle, calm," which probably is from PIE root *le- (2) "to let go, slacken" (source also of Lithuanian lenas "quiet, tranquil, tame, slow," Old Church Slavonic lena "lazy," Latin lassus "faint, weary," Old English læt "sluggish, slow," lætan "to leave behind").

The usual modern sense of "mild, merciful" (of persons or actions) is first recorded 1787. In earlier use was lenitive, attested from early 15c. of medicines, 1610s of persons. Related: Leniently.


Lenient Word Play:

Lean i shunt, I lend a bend, learn i can’t, learn i ain’t, lean i went,

Negative Polarity:

I see this word as a point of self diminishment and lack of will, i in a way fear I will exist in this state for too long, yet i will indulge it once and a while which makes me anxious over time cause i know i am not doing my best.


Postitive Polarity:

I see this word as a way of relaxing, getting support from another, when i good effort is put in - getting a hand from another and allowing them to support for a moment, so giving myself a moment to rest and kick back to relax and have a breather for self when I see if have given a best amount of effort in a agreeable timeframe.


Creative Writing:

Lenient is a place where you have to be self directed within, for a moment, to support with becoming balanced in one’s living if you put too much effort in and need to have a moment of relaxation, to create an equilibrium back to self stability. I have found mostly that it is allowed to be used as a crux to not become discipline in a moment and where I keep allowing a lean on my mind programming to bend around the self honesty of doing what has to be done in the physical and supporting myself to stand straight as self’s will and support and direct in a grounded matter.


Self Forgiveness:
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become lenient within myself to not have to face myself within the mirror of who i am existing as in my living world and so face self here, but allow a point of giving myself a lean to bend around that which has to be faced as i avoid the actual stand necessary to see who i am fully and walk the path of discipline to change what it is i am not willing as of yet to fully face head on and change.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become lenient in my own mind where i seek out the self satisfaction of mind addiction such as self abuse and thus allowing abuse with others via quantum movements of emotion through my presence or out right displaying anger or dislike within my words or behavior.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become to lenient within myself where i have allowed my mind to go unchecked because i am hiding and avoiding from myself the actual process of change necessary to walk which is a more direct and breath by breath process which i have judged as difficult.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to find walking this process to life and being here as breath to difficult to face and change and thus here accept and allow the word lenient to step in where i give up on myself allowing and accepting the thoughts that it’s too difficult and i can’t get it done.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate and live into the belief that this process to life is too hard and i can’t do it through accepting and allowing the experience of giving up in these moments of energy veils that come over me of a heaviness and a depression, where i believe that it’s too much and it won’t be done.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not in these moments question who i am and how i am accepting and allowing myself to be as depressed and in a state of giving up through allowing thoughts that it’s too hard and i can’t do it, and thus accept and allow the outflow of giving in to the experience of giving myself tolerance to indulge more into the addiction and the self interest when i see, realize, and understand that it’s time to stop and change.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use this experience of leniency in a way as self manipulation where i use it as a guise as to why i don’t have to stand in that moment, but can give up and give in to my addictions which is giving into the energy temptation and experience that i have become addicted to of living out the experience of the sensations of giving in and indulging to self interest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not stand and walk breath and physical living in the simplicity of what is here as life living in the obvious and common sense equations that will support myself and others in the best way possible regardless what it takes as effort and movement, i walk cause it’s best not based on a feeling or experience.

I commit myself to when i see i am going into the experience of being lenient with myself, flag it and identify what pattern or addiction i am not facing and moving into a solution with.

I commit myself to walk a process within a day to identify this pattern and then start the process of solution point by point as this comes through.

I commit myself to support myself in the process by living the words discipline, care, life, steadfast, physical effort to do what has to be done to move through the addiction and create a new way of living that is self directed.

Lenient - Redefined:

Lenient is when i allow for a moment rest/support to rebalance myself into my physical living process and in the next moments move back into a stable walk. I also use this word as a flag to render the fact that i am indulging in this rest i give to myself to rebalance and thus manipulating myself to not have to stand and walk the walk that is necessary for correction in self creation. This to use as a support to realize that i am not standing in my best potential and change is required using the living words above and expand as i go.

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Real Love And Desteni i Process - Day 531

Here I share my process that I have been walking in desteni of redefining this word love so it's livable and substantial in my life. We can live love in a way where it lasts and becomes a part of everything self does and so becomes a living part of our world. This process is being walked for the purposes of becoming a steward of the earth and giving all life what is best.

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Redefining and Living the Word - Work - Day 409

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So I would like to redefine the word work for myself because a point of overworking or overdoing it at work has emerged in my world creating the experiences of being drained or burned out. Also, I am seeing that when I am at work or doing work, I am doing it from a starting point of obligation and within this I have an experience of heaviness and low. So work for me is a negatively charged word where I see that it’s a time where i will be doing things that I don’t enjoy necessarily doing and pushing myself to a point of imbalance where a polarity is created of wanting to have an experience of joy all the time or a positive feeling, and so experience work as a drag and negative, I find myself in a loop and cycling through life in a way that is not supportive and can be and has become exhausting. So I will walk some self forgiveness on the word work and what attachment’s I have to working, and so be able to more clearly see a living redefinition of the word where I can start to live and create my world with it in a new way that is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word work within an energetic experience of heaviness and burden, where I see I have defined this specific time of doing things outside my desired experience when I have ‘free’ time and am at ease and relaxing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an experience of desire achievement attached to who I am within what I do and so when this desire achievement is not met through the experience of positive feelings, I resist doing it and go into a form of low experience much like the experience I go into a lot when I do Work related responsibilities.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that energy within a positive or negative experience is the same cycle and will create either experiences in varying degrees within my world, creating the consequence of becoming stressed and feeling overworked and balancing it out with burst of positive fun, never here, always in desire for good feelings which I realize never last.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define work within a specific experience as heaviness and burden based on holding onto memories of repetitive actions I have to continue to do over and over in a way to ensure my job is done properly not realizing, seeing, or understanding the greater effect I am having on the bigger picture where I am supporting and assisting the expansion of the goal I and the groups I am working with have set out to accomplish in a way I have found to be within integrity and will support an outcome that is best for all eventually, and so the acts I am walking in the day to day living is supporting the outcome that is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge some of my work as more worthwhile than other parts of my work and so create an imbalance in perception of what I am doing, where I have created a reaction and resistance to who I am in my living when something I am doing is perceived as not worthy which is creating an experience of stress when I see, realize, and understand that each task is and can be lived within breath and done within its ultimate potential that I can live it. I realize and see that what I am doing within the physical can not be judged or compared if done within a point of self honesty and consideration of the whole of what is being walked, all work is equal within the practical living of it in the day to day living activities that I will face while i am on this planet, it is all here to be done, priority is one point to consider, but the judgment of some as less important than others causing unnecessary consequences in myself and others I am engaging with in my world. I commit to stop judging what I am doing and so walk what makes sense and is practical in the moment to achieve the best outcome possible for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and compare some work as not as worthy as other work and so create a polarity within what I am doing and a resistance to the living of this work to the fullest potential I can then live it if I was here and directly moving as the task/work I was assigned and/or took responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word work within a way where I see it is eating up my life not realizing, seeing, or understanding that this is what is accumulating my life and who I am in each moment, so who I am here no matter what it is that I am doing is equally as important as any other moment that is here because it is creating the "I" that will stand as who I have become.

So work I will redefine as the living of that which I have committed to or been assigned within a manner of responsibility I have accepted and decided to live, and so I realize that work as a word is a placeholder for the times when the living I am doing is focused within making a salary to continue to further myself in the pursuit of self perfection/doing what is best for all and also work is the action of walking what is necessary to be done in self honesty so I can fulfill my purpose to the best of my ability in this life in a way that is defined as more routine, repetitive, structured, and continuous. Work is defined as a job done in this way.

Living the word work as myself, I will walk it as a reminder that this word is supporting me to walk the steps I am pushing towards to be the highest potential I can be in this life, and when I find I am in the experience of feeling low, tired, or burdened while walking my day to day activities and responsibilities, I stop and breath, and look within to see if I have been over doing it to adjust and allow myself rest. I commit myself to walk a balance within work and rest to ensure longevity and the healthy consideration of what my body requires for it’s physical support in this physical reality such as food, exercise, massage, rest, sex and purpose of action in self honest consideration. I commit myself to live the word work as a reminder and a motivation of ensuring I am accumulating a plus one as who I am that will ensure a new self is created that will do what is best for all and support all life I touch to realize and live the same to ensure life prevails and what is best for all is a living expression of who we are, I realize this living starts with myself.

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Day 275 – Redefining the Word Winner to be Lived By All

Winner

So I, a few blogs back, redefined the word loser in relation to the polarity of the different energies we can exist within our minds as a negative as a loser and a positive as a winner for instance, but what has been clear through my own self investigation and should be clear within the obviousness of how we experience ourselves within these energies, is that they never last. We are always searching for more positive energy as winning in life and less negative energy as losing in life, but there is a way to live in stability, grounding ourselves to what is here in reality, what is really being lived, and living our words in their real purpose, which means to create words in what is best for all, universal meanings and to what their practical purpose is. Again, the word winner will have to be purified within self as all words will have to as each word carries attachments with them, different meanings, memories, pictures, definitions to thus be able to really live the word for what it's purpose is, and not be directed by our self interest within the word in what purpose we want it to have.

I will now redefine this word and walk this with the word winner as I did with the word loser. Now, to ground this word I will walk it in the same context as we did with the word loser, using it as a point of defining what is the best that will be used within our society within an equal money system through a competition of many things, and thus within that competition of many different products, services, policies, ect, finding what will be best for all through what in it's purpose is the actual best for it's reason for being. The winner being the best in what it will do and how it will function in consideration of all the life that it will touch, so in all areas we are able to consider, this product will live the best of it's ability in consideration of all in equal value and honor in the oneness of life that all have within it's very existence as it's beingness.

No more will the word winner signify or represent an ego definition for self or another as more then or better then as there is no relevance in this and no need to do that, because all things in life that exist in the physical will be valued equally and thus respected as such. So what will change will be the value we place on words being equal to life, all being respected as life, and all living within this protection so to speak to exist, and thus deserve a life of dignity and reverence   Then real world order can come of that because there is no more bubble worlds all gaming to make 'me' be the winner and not consider the consequences of one's actions on the rest, but we all win as one world in order as we all live as one life, individually expressing creating always what is best for all and thus this always being best for self, a win - win for all, which is optimum.

Winner(s) in the equal money system will be for the purposes of allowing life to see what is best within what we create because what is created will be within it’s purpose alone and will be valued equal to everything else, so it will no more be abused for profit or self interest, and thus all suffering will end once and for all. There will be no need for brands or any kind of consumer competition, all will be made to last and be the best of it's kind it can possibly be made as to thus reduce waste and make the most creative product/service we can. It will be quite fascinating and interesting to walk this into reality, grounding ourselves to real life, the physical, living words, and walk the process of creating ourselves, our society, our living systems, our policies, our products, our services in the best way possible through living this simple truth as princple of doing what is best for all in all we do.

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