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Thursday, June 9, 2016

Acceptance and Work: Dissecting the “I don’t want to” Character - Day 510

I have taken on a new position in my job where it wasn’t a direct decision by myself where I had time to consider all the points and find what best suited me, I was more thrown into the position by unforeseen and unfortunate events. With that being said, I am now in a position of leadership and responsibility where I have to sharpen my skills and face fears and illusions I have created for myself. One of the points that has been coming up lately and has been effecting my work flow and environment is this nagging backchat that ‘I don’t want all this responsibility, I don’t want to be in charge of all this, I don’t want to be stressed about money and problems that arise day in and day out, I want to be free and do what I want’, then my mind will go into pictures of how others are getting to have an easier time, get to have fun and be worry free, I want that life again, I don’t want all this responsibility.

Though I realize that I have to change this pattern because I have decided to walk this path and ensure I do my best at it. So I will walk some forgiveness and create some ways forward for myself to find solutions for the points that I am facing within this character.

Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character of the ‘I don’t want to’ do what I have in front of me to do because of beliefs that it’s too hard and too much, not seeing that I am creating an experience of it as too much and too hard because of the personality I am going in of not wanting to do something with the energy of resistance and tiredness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the character of ‘I don’t want to’ based on the belief that I am not able to when I see, realize, and understand I am able to that its more a lack of effort to do what has to be done because I have created a polarized reality of what is good and what is based through comparison with other people in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have my life be smooth and comfortable at all times where I don’t have stress or points that are challenging because within that I have created the perception that this is what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blind me from the realization within the actually facing challenges and pushing myself within them to find solutions and ways forward, I grow and expand and this is when I am most empowered as I am able to be more purposeful within what I do and create more of who I am through the challenges I face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed pictures and thoughts of how good it is over there in the easy life where I see comfort and fun, when I see, realize, and understand each one is equally facing challenges within there lives and that life is not about what you do or where you are, but more who you are within it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the face that I am where I am and I have the responsibilities I have, though I can accept this and walk within the realization that these challenges will support with my growth and expansion, and empower me to be more and more the person I really am as my potential in this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create blame and reaction to others in my reality for frustrations I am having toward myself for not moving into the challenges in acceptance and walking who I am within them as a creation process and opportunity to live my utmost potential within it.

When and as I am seeing myself go into the ‘I don’t want to’ character and start blaming and going into daydreams about how great life is over there, I stop and breathe, and realize that I am responsible for who I am within my life circumstances and I can change myself to accept this and live these opportunities to the best of my ability and make them something worthwhile that is best for me and all.

I commit myself to live the word acceptance when I see I am going into blame or reactive thoughts as I see I decide to walk this point and that I am responsible for who I create myself.

I commit myself to walk solutions that are substantial to support myself and all involved in a way that supports all to be there best by walking with them, understanding them, and finding ways to support there strengths and strengthen their weaknesses as I walk for myself.

I commit myself to live the word accept – stand where I accept what is here as it is and move into directing myself to live my highest potential and bring the best out of what I am walking within myself and within others.

I commit myself to push myself in challenges where I move into solutions and let go of the desire to resist and give up.

Really cool Support Hangout on the Word Work and what that means:

Redefining Work

Self Supportive Material -
http://www.Eqafe.com

Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course -
http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

Forum support:
http://forum.desteni.org

Desteni Wiki:
http://wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page

Eqafe Facebook Page:
https://www.facebook.com/Eqafe-359136...

7 year journey to life Facebook group:
https://www.facebook.com/groups/journ...

DIP Lite on Facebook:
https://www.facebook.com/DIPLite

Soul - School of Ultimate Living - Create yourself through Words!
http://www.schoolofultimateliving.com/

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

"Don't question My Authority" Character and Solution - Day 505

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A pattern I am noticing at my work that I have been participating in and not taking responsibility for has been when I am becoming irritated at others, not outright or not even a lot of the time, but there are moments where I will become irritated and frustrated as if I allowed these back chat thoughts to accumulate and then they come out in behavior or specific energy presences I’ll be in toward these people. What I am starting to realize more and more is that even though I may seem like I am not effecting others or I am not out right reacting to others in my presence, that even small resistances or irritations that I hold in, resonately can be felt by others and their behavior will in turn change. Before I started taking more and more responsibility for my thought, word, and deed, I would blame the other person for being the problem, reacting and causing a situation in the office or where ever we are, it was them not me. Though now, I am seeing how my very behavior, even in the slightest of movements or non-movements that I make, even one word that I say where I am in a slight reaction, overtime or even in that moment will change the person receiving my behavior and reactions in a way that is not supportive, and thus I can effect and change another persons presence and so have outflows in this instance that are not best for all, which is unacceptable.

So I am learning and realizing the responsibility I do hold within walking and being aware as I am of my own mind, my own thoughts, my own reactions, and having the tools of self support and self change I have been walking for six years now, I realize I must move myself to change myself always, it is always the question of ‘who am I in this moment?;. Those in my environment are not the one’s who are responsible at this stage because they have little to no knowledge of self honesty and self forgiveness, and thus their only access to becoming this is through my example and my living presence of myself. So I am moving myself here and forward to stop all reactions within me and not move until I am clear within looking at myself first before I speak or assist another person.

I will be walking the pattern/character that is playing out here in this specific scenario with another person at work and the solutions/living words I will support myself with to not accept anything less then what is best for all and changing myself to become my highest potential.

The character I saw that was playing out within this specific scenario is where my authority was being thwarted and I was becoming competitive and fearful of another attempting to tell me what to do and how to do my job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the character of being the authority over others and placing value in this as if I am more then or superior to others, where I am believing myself to have the right and the privilege to direct and not be questioned or told what to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become superior within my work position because I hold a leadership role over others and have created the belief that I am more then others or better equipped to be in this position and blindly placed a higher value in myself then others in my working environment because of this perceived authority I have over others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive I have the right to tell people what to do and be pushy if I need to be to get people moving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need to use force to move people rather then living the words patience, gentleness, and support.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able and have the right to not be questioned due to what I have to do and deal with at work, when I see, realize, and understand that I am not considering nor standing in anyone else’s shoes, but my own and desiring sympathy and recognition from others for what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become nasty and spiteful toward others when I am not seen within an authority stand point and so within this become reactive in my backchat that this person is stepping out of line and that I should be respected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a power trip where I believe myself to be special and more then others based on what I do rather then see, realize, and understand that we are all doing work and all are equally here to be honored and respected for participating and supporting the flow of the work done and doing our best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only see the bad of another and harp on that instead of seeing, realizing and understanding it’s not about the other at all, but who am I within what I do, how do I behave, and where am I standing within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be more based on the placement I am in in the company instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that it’s about each one being equals and supporting all to be there best as I support myself to stand in my best and do what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop moving in energy as irritation and take responsibility for myself where I see I am able to change and live the word support, where I can stand as a support for another when the moment arises rather then going into reaction and conflict.

I commit myself to see all in my work place as well as my world as equals and each one playing a role/part to support the whole of the business grow and stay prosperous.

I commit myself to stand with others as equals realizing that my role is not based on what I do but who I am within what I do and how I stand as a supportive example for others to be the best they can be.

I commit myself to live the word humility and see what I can learn from others and be assisted within their presence to grow and expand.

I commit myself to live the words patience’s and gentleness with others as how I would like to be treated if I was in the same position.

I commit myself to write out the systems and directions and become more self directed, so I can become a leader that is effective and supports all to be the best they can be.

Self Supportive Material -

http://www.Eqafe.com

Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course -

http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

Forum support:

http://forum.desteni.org

Desteni Wiki:

http://wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page

Eqafe Facebook Page:

https://www.facebook.com/Eqafe-359136...

7 year journey to life Facebook group:

https://www.facebook.com/groups/journ...

DIP Lite on Facebook:

https://www.facebook.com/DIPLite

Friday, August 16, 2013

Bernard Poolman– A Man of Life – Day 332

Bernard Poolman’s passing came as a shock to me, I had to read the email a few times to get the words I was reading through my head, and finally accepting the implication of these words that Bernard is died. I admit that in that moment, I went into a constriction and fear, with thoughts such as ‘what does this mean for me?’, ‘who is going to share with me the insights I need to become life?’, ‘why did he have to go?’, ‘how is the group going to stand without him?’ you know, selfish questions only regarding myself and my own benefit. So it’s interesting that I allowed these types of thoughts to come up showing to me that I in fact am not standing because I was living for his approval, his direction, I was waiting for his say, and not actually stepping into the principle of what he was living as, being my own stand, my own directive principle, and thus his equal. And so I was dishonoring him and the principle of life he stood as through this idea and desire to ‘wait and see what Bernard has to say’. Now, he is gone and I am alone, his last words etched into my physical of ‘make it count’ and this I commit to do, to give it everything I have to ensure that I indeed make my life count and be a plus one to accumulate a world of honor and integrity. My life is about finishing the work here on earth Bernard set forth, what he prepared us for through the years that we as a group have been walking together, and ensuring that life prevail and we create this world the best it possibly can be, heaven here on earth, and this only possible through living equal and one with all life as self. Living principled in always considering the whole rather then my own self interest in doing what is necessary to be done to create this world best for all.

There was so many words Bernard shared with me/those around me/in the group/in videos/blogs that spoke to me either directly or indirectly that caused an impact not just on this 'me', but the potential of who I can be as life fully realized, and in this time of knowing and working with Bernard I have become a being who will stand up for life no matter what needs to be done. Bernard inspired this within me through his selflessness, his determination and directive will, his insight into the depths of who I am, his service to others, I mean man he never stopped, he never quit, he never complained, he always no matter who or what the case was supported and assisted them in his very direct but gentle way, he walked whatever it took to give another a chance to self realize who they are as life, he was absolutely amazing to observe and learn from, he was the greatest teacher I have ever had. He showed me what it means to be here and be life, to live this through living breath by breath, his example inspired me to be in service of life in all it’s forms until life is equal and one here as a living principle on this earth because this is what I would want for myself. ‘I give so I can receive’, Bernard lived these words beyond death and made them life, and so showed me the way.

Bernard once said ‘I will be last’, and what he meant by this is that he will be last in the benefiting of the gift of life until all are one and equal in the physical, he was nothing but self less and shared himself unconditionally in ways that I would never have considered possible, he has done the impossible and made it real, and showed me and everyone he has met that we can do it to, we can do the impossible. This was his gift, he was life and he shared in all ways possible how to be life with each and every person he met and came into contact with. It seems impossible to be able to stop the mind, stop thoughts, have a 'nothingness' (as he often called it) inside self, live breath by breath, but Bernard is the evidence that it is indeed possible and thus will be the living example that stand through all time to be a benchmark for life 'potential' to live a life for real, and so no matter what - life will prevail.

Bernard was a man of life and lived this absolute, in which I am grateful and humbled, and honor him by committing myself to live this as well until it is done.

Some quotes By Bernard:

"I am not a leader, I am just a man, I am your equal and you are mine."

“You must become me as I am you, so that we can trust each other no matter where we are, no matter who we are.”

“Each one will first scare themselves shitless with doom and gloom, then bring it back to self, direct self and stand up. Each must go through this – that is the point of equality.”

"Free Choice as the choice that leaves all free and end all abuse is the Desteni way."

"See, it's really all about who you are in each relationship and how you see every other part in your Existence. You Decide. And thus, through that Decision - Create Reality and Relationships that Form the Experience."

"When you run out of things to forgive yourself for, a person may then have a right to condemn others their behavior but anyone who has looked at and forgiven every inch of themselves and vowed not to allow themselves the same mistakes again would not contain a heart capable of blame. A heart with that great of knowledge of themselves would live nothing but solutions."

"Feelings are Never Valid as an Integrity Assessment, Feelings are Always Dishonest because they are Done from the perspective of Enhancing one’s illusionary Reflections of the mind."

"Self as Eternal, as Real Does Not Exist until You are in fact Life and that is Evidenced in All of Everything that You are a part-of, where you completely Understand All Form, All Mechanisms, All Relationships – Until then, Self is just Potential and May Never Exist for Real – but in this Temporary Consciousness for a Moment, you’ll be Able to Look in a Mirror and Ask the Question “Mirror, Mirror on the Wall: What is the Self in it All?” and Unless that Stands Clear Eternally that This is Life: There will be No Self For Real."

"There is so much possible in the physical - unless one is just living like a zombie, hoping things will get better and using the mind as a mirror where you stare at your own image and try and improve it through your imagination. In you must exist nothing of 'you' in any picture-form. It must be a complete living expression as the functionality of every word...that makes a word alive."

"When a child is angry --one must communicate and help the child understand the energy they experience as feelings--this is done through helping the child to define the energy with words--you will for instance say--do you feel like you really do not like some one because they are better than you or get more than you? that is called jealousy--is that how you feel? So one will explore each possible feeling/emotion till the child can relate --then one discuss it and help the child make sense of it"

"If you are Life you will find a way to bring all to life as equals in a way that will always be best for all. If you are not life, you will react and have several insane stuttering giggles while you pretend you know better and can justify why life is not supposed to be equal."