Day 102 - Desire for the Goods and Want for More

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be satisfied with myself due to comparing myself to other children and seeing myself as not as good because I didn’t have the proper clothes and toys and thus based on the toys and cloths that I saw as desirable and cool and wasn’t able to get them, I judged myself as not worthy, which I resented my parents for as well as myself being born into a family that could not give me as a child everything I desired.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a dissatisfaction towards my parents and myself due to this point of not being able to get everything I desired as a kid, and seeing my family as not worthy because I wasn’t able to get my desires met instantly like I saw the other kids getting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a judgment and dissatisfaction towards my parents based on them not being able to give me all the goods I wanted, I realize that I was just being a rotten child In the sense of only looking at instant gratification which is produced by the mcdonalds reality stimulated by consumerism, where we learn to just get, get, get, get to be happy, quickly, keep moving, satisfied for a moment, but within this one is never actually fulfilled or satisfied because life is being missed as this feeling of more and more wants and needs keeps coming back.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to chase a feeling of satisfaction through external goods, and thus within this create a self dissatisfaction with myself because I didn’t see myself as good then and thus created a judgment that I am unworthy because I am not able to get all the goods that will make me satisfied not realizing that the dissatisfaction is not coming from a need of goods but coming from a point of dissatisfaction with myself, a point I am trying to fulfill with goods, but it’s a point of not liking myself being not satisfied with who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a self hatred towards myself due to seeing myself as poor and rejecting myself and blaming who I am as this person in this family with not enough money to buy me everything I wanted, and thus I am unfulfilled and not worthy because I can’t get these goods that I desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a self-hatred due to money value and what I can get, and thus allowed anger and desires to direct me into abuse towards others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed blame and anger towards my parents direct me into being an angry person because I couldn’t get what I desired and thus I resented all those who I thought had more then me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into resentment and jealousy towards other children who had more then me and thus this eventually grew into a jealousy towards all those who I saw as better then me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a polarity playout with others due to what one had in their external environment and thus created an inferior/superior playout with those in my world and reality.

I commit myself to let go these memories as a child of being unworthy due to not having money and thus realize that the inequality of the economic system is immense, and also, I had more then my fair share of goods, so thus I stop the impulse for more and become equal with all by giving as I would like to receive in all ways.

I commit myself to let go of this unworthiness within this need to gain more and more stuff as I realize life is not about the accumulation of stuff but creating a world where all can have stuff and all have a life that is worthy equal and abundant for all through establishing and implementing the equal money system where all life is supported for what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop blame and anger towards others based on what I am creating and thus living within myself as separation in dishonesties as wants, needs, and desires, thus I commit myself to stop the wants, needs, and desires for things in my world, and thus create my reality where all is fulfilled by giving all what I would want for myself thus all is given and we are fulfilled.

I commit myself to stop jealousy and resentment towards others for comparisons that I am judging myself and others from thus I commit to stop judging and comparing myself to others in all facets of my life as I realize that to judge and compare is implying that I lack thus I will always search and never be fulfilled, thus I realize and commit to walk the path of self fulfillment by walking into the physical as life and giving all what I would want for me and help walk the path to create a world best for all through equality in all ways given to each one alive.

I commit myself to stop the polarity playout of inferior/superiority in relation to comparison and thus stop the comparison game as it is a game with no end and no actual self realization as I am in search for myself never actually getting anywHERE so thus I stop the comparison and inferior/superior stance by practically walking the physical and stopping my desires, wants, and needs as I realize all is able to be given but I must create the system as myself first in equality and oneness with what is here to live this living system into the external, as I realize the internal reality create the external reality, thus I walk my process to self realization as the physical here through walking my process of self investigation, self writing, self forgiveness, self correction in writing and thus self correction in living, until I am here and all is one as self.

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Day 101 - Fear of Abuse - Part 2 - Submission

Artwork By: Matthew Reed - "The Pursuer"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to submit to fear within a point of trusting feelings of unworthiness where in I believe that I am not in control and thus automatically go into the feeling as diminishment where in I become less then the feeling and allow the fear to direct me to retract into myself and thus suppress my expression in life as I allowed the fear to take over.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to submit to fear and thus allow it to take over and direct me into submission as I accepted a belief that the feeling of being less then and thus unable to move through the fear, I become ‘fearful’ and thus will not stand up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust feelings such as unworthiness as if they are who I am, but I realize that feelings are generated within the mind as they are not here direct as physical reality thus not substantial and thus I understand they are not to be trusted but investigated and let go of so thus I am not influenced by any point other then my own self directive will.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the abuse of others based on this belief that the feeling of unworthiness and less then is who I am and thus based on memories of giving my power away through comparison and self judgment I have accepted and allowed myself to become a submissive being who allows others to push me around based on the belief that I am not as good as them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe this feeling of unworthiness because when I was a child I decided based on being made fun of and named called, and thus didn’t have it in me to fight back and stand up for myself, I accepted myself to be less then and thus submitted to others and allowed others to abuse me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up in the face of obvious abuse by others because I learned within childhood that it is easier just to take it and suppress the pain then face the person and stand up to them as I feared conflict and thus the abuse that would come of that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the decision to compare myself with others and thus judge myself as less then those who were not being picked on and named called and thus I defined myself within a polarity play out with the others in a comparison of judgment based on looks as the name calling was based on the way I looked and acted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the memories of me being picked on and named called and thus go through life within a polarity play out of less then or greater then within the idea that I am more or less then another based on the way we look and thus constantly compare myself with others due to holding onto this memory as a child that I am less then those who don’t get picked on and thus equated the being picked on to my looks thus fearing those who were ‘better’ looking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those as ‘better’ looking as more then me because I equated them to those who where the abusers based on holding onto this memory of the abusers within a context of pictures, and thus feared those who are ‘better’ looking thus more then me because I believed that to be so and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear those who are ‘better’ looking because I feared being abused by them because I saw myself automatically less then them as I have equated myself through pictures and thus self judged myself based on the pictures I saw instead of realizing who I am as life and that pictures is not real as it is ideas generated in the mind, who we are as physical is equal and thus I realize I am the only one who can stop these ideas and thus walk the physical as life as who I am to stop being directed and controlled by this fear of abuse.

I commit myself to let go of feelings and stop participating in them by using my physical breath as a stability point and living withinequality with all my environment until I am not moved by the feeling of unworthiness any longer.

I commit myself to stop submitting to fear of abuse by others by stopping the feelings directing me and facing the fear when it arises in my environment and thus moving my physical to just live and stop reacting to feelings and emotions.

I commit myself to stop trusting feelings by stopping the belief that I am less then others.

I commit myself to stop the memories through walking a mind construct of the fear of others and the childhood memories of being made fun of and called names. (for more information on Mind Constructs see this link- this is a more specific and detailed process of self  forgiveness and self correction)

I commit myself to walk through all points of comparison and self judgment that arises within and as me and thus walk the self forgiveness and self correction to thus stop them from having power over me and stop the abuse to others based on these separation points I am accepting and allowing.

I commit myself to stop the fear of conflict and abuse and stand up for myself as life and what has to be done within bringing this world to a world that support and cares for all.

I commit myself to stop the point of submission and hiding as a form of easement as I realize this is self diminishment and thus I will stay a slave, thus I walk the resistances to stand up and push myself to face my fear and this world as abuse starting within and as myself as I stop the abuse of myself.

I commit myself to stop the judgment and comparison point based on pictures as I realize this is obvious separation and that I am here as self within and as all as all is life.

I commit myself to stop submitting to fear and take my power back through building self trust by facing my fears and walking self honesty, self forgiveness, and self correction through writing and my living.

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Day 100 – Fear of Abuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear abuse, which I allow to direct me into points of submission where I will give up and give in based on this fear that exists within me towards others and allow abuse towards me without standing up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow a fear that does not exist within this physical reality, but only exist within the corridors of my mind where in I accept the fear completely as a point that takes over and thus I go into submission to this fear due to an emotion that is generated as a nausea feeling that physically generate where in I will submit as I don’t believe I can walk and stand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use a point of fear of abuse to not go into situations that I find cusp on the edge of this fear where in I don’t know the outcome and thus am out of control within what will happen to me and how I will be effected thus I will submit to the fear and accept myself to go into hiding or escapism where in I will not stand up for myself, but allow abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the physical indications of this fear that have been generated due to the acceptance of this fear within my mind and thus created the feeling of nausea that I believe is me and that this feeling and fear has more power then me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live into this fear as who I am by accepting and allowing myself to search and look for love in my world, as I realize that if love exist then the opposite of fear exist thus I am not in fact walking the path as courage where in I take on the fear and walk through it, but seek to replace it with another feeling of love which is just recycling the same pattern and thus the fear will continue.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use fear as a means to not have to face myself in what it will take as actual physical self movement, because I am accepting and allowing resistances as it’s too much and I don’t want to do this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not within each breath do what is necessary to be done as a breath and thus stop the point of overwhelmingness that in turn will turn into fear of I am going to fail.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse of overwhelmingness to not have to move myself and stay within this fear of abuse by allowing myself to give into the fear through manipulatingmyself with these thoughts that ‘it’s too much’ and ‘I don’t want to do face this fear of abuse’, to thus sabotage my opportunity to create change and live change for myself and stop the fear by walking the point out through facing the fear and walking what needs to be walked always.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my opportunity to live here in the physical by accepting the thoughts of ‘it’s too much’ and ‘I don’t want to do face this fear of abuse’ and thus create the sabotage of myself by following the thoughts and not facing the fear with others, and thus allow the fear to have power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have fear direct me within my standing here and thus allow the diminishment of me through not facing myself with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have thoughts of ‘It’s too much’ and ‘I don’t want to face this fear’ direct me into submission and self diminishment.

I commit to stop my submission to fear realizing that it is me who is creating the fear and thus I walk the memories through mind constructs to walk the path of deleting the memories that direct me within this fear.

I commit myself to let go of the fear and walk the physical by practicing daily my awareness of my breathing and stopping my thoughts that generate the fear.

I commit myself to accept myself within who I am as this moment, and release myself from this fear of abuse as I realize I can only be abused if I allow it thus I stand up and walk the point of self trust to stop allowing fear to take control.

I commit myself to stop the thoughts of manipulation within thoughts of diminishment as I realize this is me sabotaging myself and thus I can complete anything as long as I stay here and commit to do it, thus I walk this correction within walking to the solution.

I commit myself to walk the change and stop sabotaging myself through fears and realize they are not in fact real, I realize the physical is what is real, thus I walk through practice and patience’s of learning the physical as directive will until I am here and I stand.

I commit myself to stand here within and as my breath and allow the energy to flow through me and be earth back to the earth through my breathing as I am here.

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Day 99 – It’s Always About ME

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make everything about me and how I am feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not considered and/or recognize that there is countless other beings in this world beside myself and thus I am not the only point of consideration within and as my living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within self interest seek my own feelings and my own desires to be validated and fulfilled by only caring about how I am feeling, how I am getting along, and what I am going to get out of the points I go in to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust feelings and emotions in where I make these my god and thus seek out the positive feeling within myself as I am accepted and allowing the negative to direct me through giving these emotions and feelings power over me and thus seeking to fulfill a feeling which is separating myself from life as living life is not a feeling but a living here equal and one with all physically here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this point of is all about ME to validate the abuse and ignorance I have placed on many by using blame and pointing fingers to take responsibility away from me, but realizing within self honesty I am responsible for who I am within myself and that no other person is responsible for the way I am existing as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire others to give me answers when I do not go and give answer to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek answers instead of living my words and becoming the solution as myself stopping the point of desire to be shown and thus walk the solution within common sense as me, and thus ask for help if it is needed, but not expect the help automatically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give as I would like to receive and make all points about me and what I am not getting, what I did not receive, what I gave, and thus only make the point about my own self interest instead of equal giving as I would like to be given.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others due to trusting emotions as depression and feeling shitty, and thus move through these emotions and walk the physical as I realize is the solution as the mind will manipulate to have me give in to the emotions and thus I will miss life here as myself within the living day to day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust emotions and feelings over myself here as breath as the physical living of myself with all others in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the ‘it’s always about me’ even though I realize the consequence of this action is driving half the world to be disregarded and unsupported based on the fact that I/we as humanity are only looking out for ME and thus missing the reality that is here, a world that needs help.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only look at the self-interest of myself and allow a world that is suffering.

I commit myself to walk the path of equalizing myself with this physical reality where in thus I only live from a starting point of equal consideration with all in my world and reality and thus always walk the path that is best for all.

I commit myself to walk the path to consideration of all life by supporting and putting all my efforts in to manifesting a world that is best for all through participating and pushing the equal money system and the principles in living of do unto another what you would want done to you.

I commit myself to stop feelings and emotions from directing me and thus stop them from having power over me by not participating in them and letting them go as I realize they only cause diminishment and me to go into the same time loops of an up and down emotional cycle, I commit to walk breath and physical living and stop my mind as energy.

I commit myself to stop the ignorance and blame onto others that I assume within wanting myself validated and my interest me, and thus take responsibility for who I am and have become and walk the path to change to thus be able to stand as equals with life and stop the abuse through self interest.

I commit myself to stand with self-sufficiency and thus be able to stand on my own and also be able to take advice and help from others in self-honesty, thus stop the abuse of getting and not giving.

I commit myself to give, as I would like to receive.

I commit myself to walk self-trust through living this as myself and thus practicing it until I am here as it.

I commit myself to walk the solution here as equality and oneness as a principle in living within and as myself until it is done. 

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Day 98- Judgment is Stupid

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use judgment as a form of self sabotage because I don’t like myself and am not happy with the way I am within my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my physical human body into a point of separation and division that I have created based on the fact that I want more, I want to be better, and thus I want my desires of being perfect to manifest for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be perfect within my physical body as an idea when I am being ignorant to the fact that my human physical body supports and assists me unconditionally each time I take a breath and thus never once complained, fucked around, or did anything to the detriment of me as life as it is standing as the principle of who it is as life, and thus I realize and see that I am creating these ideas within my mind that I need to be better and be more because I have accepted and allowed my self to compare to others physical and thus am the creator of my own ailments and diseases as I am not living in ‘ease’ with the physical as I am in conflict with it as others as judgment and comparison.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my physical body as not good enough in comparison with other bodies that I see are more skinny and fit and thus have prettier features, and within this go into displeasure of my physical body because I am not seeing myself as equal to the others as I am only looking at pictures and thus within this fucking myself because I realize and see that I am not just pictures but all life that exist, and I am the one who is creating the separation as I am the one judging.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be within ignorance towards my physical body based on the fact that I am desiring more, not taking into consideration what my body doing within keeping me alive, and I just push it and judge it because I accept and allow these desires to be more then life itself, which is the epitome of stupidity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my physical body as not good enough and that I need to be more based on the fact that I want to be more then others physical and within this create unnecessary competition within myself because what is being created within me is separation, due to me not being a person who accepts who I am and is grateful for the life that I am given through my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use ignorance as a form of self interest so I can feed my desires and accept myself to be judgmental of others so I can eventually feel good about myself because there will be a point where I am ‘more’ then another and thus only live for this feeling of being more. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use desires and judgments for my own self interest because I am desiring even for a brief moment to be more then others through comparison and thus here feeding the addiction to be more as a perfect polarity play out to feed my ego, which is feeding my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my own self interest as desiring to get good feelings through winning, when in comparison with another and thus can get the little high that is created when this is reached.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself here from life as the physical in ignorance of the millions upon millions of unconditional acts alone that the physical human body walks through each day in full awareness in directive principle to keep me alive where in I have the opportunity to birth myself as life as the physical human body one and equal. I realize that this opportunity will only come once in life and thus to accept and allow myself to go into judgment towards another or any point of life for that matter is stupid in the sense that I am ruining my opportunity to be life and for what, a feeling, a moment of energy surge, a picture, a desire? I realize that to judge life is a stupid act as it is squandering the opportunity I have of life and for all life to live here in this physical within our physical bodies as our physical bodies in harmony and equality so that we can create a world here that is best for all.

I commit myself to stop the judgment of myself and accept who I am as one and equal with life giving myself the opportunity to realize that its not about judging what I am doing as a personal ‘attack’ but to realize that it is a point that needs correction and thus walk the correction to what ever has formed the living that is not in equilibrium with equality and oneness with the environment I am in and simply walk the correction in common sense and awareness of all life as myself.

I commit myself to stop the judgments of my human physical body as I realize that all bodies are physical life and thus this is who I am as life, we are all one and thus there are multi-dimensions at work and nothing can be judged on face value, but should always be looked at in it’s totality and from that point of full responsibility, the point can be corrected within self trust of considering all involved equal to oneself, which I see and realize is the natural flow of correction as life.

I commit myself to stop the idea in my mind to be perfect and thus live self perfection within who I am as a being equal and one with the life around me to create an environment that support all, and thus eventually will support all the world, as the example of self perfection for all who walk this will be a beacon for those who can hear and see to thus learn from and walk as well, so I commit to stop this idea of self perfection and walk livingself perfection not only for me, but for all life.

I commit myself to stop this point of comparison and thus then going into the polarity of pleasure/displeasure with others around me as I realize this is absolute deliberate separation and causing the inner conflict within myself as I am responsible for who I am within and without, thus I commit to make the decision each and every thought, feeling/emotion, or reaction that come up to stop this point of separation and walk the correction as self in self honesty in physical application to support what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop the point of ignorance where I am holding onto the ‘hope’ that I can be better as I realize hope is not real nor this idea of being better is real, thus I stop the ignorance of my beingness and walk in equality with others and thus also with myself in acceptance and appreciation for the life I am able to live and gain the opportunity to really be real and give freedom to self as all life as we walk thus process to self correction.

I commit myself to stop defining life by pictures and thus walk within and as real reality here as the physical in the self realization that I am one and equal with all here and that all life is to be honored and respected as such, as equals.

I commit myself to walk the process of self correction through daily self investigating every judgment I hold of another or reaction that come up, and walk self honesty within self forgiveness, and self corrective writing, so thus I can be who I am here as physical for real as I have walked the walk from my mind reality as judgments to the self real-i-zation of me as the physical here as breath and I move when I decide. 

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Day 97 - I am a Loner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live into this character of being a loner where I avoid becoming intimate with others due to fear of vulnerability as I have formed a mistrust with all others in my world where I do not accept them to be close to me nor me be close to them because of fear of abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being abused by others because I am locked within the memories of being abused by others within and as my world and thus will not accept myself to become vulnerable as I have formed a mistrust within all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by the abuse in my past and thus form a mistrust within all life here showing and revealing that I don’t trust myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be an abuser where I abuse life in thought and make it so I am the top in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be on top due to seeing myself on the bottom and thus creating the polarity of top and bottom to exist for me instead of living who I am as equal with all from and as physical life that is here as we breath and live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to be on top based on this fear of survival as I have defined myself by survival because I am living as memory and thus missing me here, missing life, missing myself in the physical because of fear of abuse.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear living and becoming a being who can face all points within who I am because I have not made the decision to stand no matter what and become absolute within my self discipline in where I walk the physical in each breath.

When and as I find myself going to the thoughts of self sabotage as fear, I stop and breath, and thus move me physically within the physical actions I am doing meaning become aware of how I am moving within my physical, and make a decision each and every breath to stop the thoughts, I am not thoughts, thoughts are mind thus not real, I am the physical here so thus to be this I must create myself as this by becoming absolute in my stand and walking self discipline till it is me and I breath here.

I commit myself to walk the point of facing my fears of others where in I do not accept myself to go into this loner character where I avoid the conversation or sharing myself within and as breath and thus I go into the point in self honesty to thus catch all the points that I see that do not allow me to express here and create separation/mistrust.

I commit myself to walk self trust within applying myself within self forgiveness, self honesty, and self correction in action and thus will be able to trust myself with all others and not be defined by reactions or internal conversations as I have the points able to be walked through the application of the tools to self freedom.

I commit myself to walk self trust by getting to know myself, who I am within myself, and thus stopping the thoughts and reactions with others and breathing to become stable within my living.

I commit myself to stop polarities within equalizing myself within my day to day living by stopping the thoughts and reactions to thus be able to live here in physical reality and walk as stability.

I commit to walk through my memories and apply self forgiveness to thus be able to walk through all points within what come up in my life so thus I always have a point of stability in which I can move and equalize myself with what is here.

I commit myself to walk within all points until I am here stable able to stand within all points that I will face by creating myself here new in a character that breath and live as physical only living what is best for all in absolute dedication to self here one and equal in self honesty and self corrective measures I realize is me.

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Day 96- Anxiety

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be nervous because I believe I am going to make a fool of myself some how within what I am doing and thus look stupid in front of others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I will make a fool of myself when I do a task and that others are going to see me as stupid.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to actually judge myself as stupid and foolish when I do trip or am not flawless within a task where in I see myself as messing up.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself as stupid and foolish when I am not flawless within doing a task or if I trip or make a mistake.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to thus keep myself sabotaged to a fear of making a mistake.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself when I make a mistake and thus go into another dimension of self sabotage where I go into anxiety as I am judging myself in my mind before I even start where I will go into a thought of ‘I better not screw this up’.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into anxiety before I start a task as I accepted the backchat of ‘I better not screw this up.’

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to accept the backchat thought of ‘I better not screw this up’ and thus accept and allow fear as emotion to direct me within a physical response as nervousness as tightness in my stomach.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to self manipulate myself with a point of fear to thus sabotage what I do here in the physical when and as I do anything as I allow the backchat and thus participate in it through going into the emotion as anxiety as I have judged myself as stupid and fear others reactions.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to self manipulate myself before I do a task and sabotage myself here in breath to fear.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear making a mistake in front of others because I have judged others for making a mistake.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge others for making a mistake and thus judging myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge life when I realize and see that life is all that is here and is me one and equal thus it’s not to judge, but to support self it live the best way we can live.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge a task as a ‘mistake’ when there are no mistakes within a point of opinion as mind towards another so thus I realize if I am able to support the person in finding a solution or helping with a task if need be to support and assist the person as I would want for myself I direct myself immediately and do it. I also realize within this point when I do a task not to perfection within living, I stop the judgment of separation as I making a mistake and support myself by breathing and stabilizing myself so I can see the solution in common sense which is within a point of stability in the physical by stopping the backchat, fear, and self judgment within this I will stop the point of anxiety as there will be no reaction as I am stable within myself in finding a solution by giving myself direction in what would be best for all.

When and as I go into a point of judgment towards myself or others for making a mistake in any point within the day, I stop and breath, and I walk the point of correction through stopping participating in the backchat towards others as well as myself as a self judgment and continue to do the task that I am doing in the physical within the decision to stand and stop participating in the energy.  I realize and see that going into self-judgment or judging another in my mind is sabotaging myself into a cycle of fear, which is self-sabotage which I am stopping.

I commit myself to stop the point of backchat of ‘I better not screw this up’  to thus stop the point of self judgment when I make a ‘mistake’ within my living.

I commit myself to stop the point of judging others when another makes a mistake through not participating in the thoughts and immediately go support the being if I am able to.

I commit myself to stop the fear of others judgments of me by stopping the judgment of others through when I see that I am about to go into a thought or reaction of judgment towards another I stop and push myself to remain in the physical by breathing and delete the point by moving myself through the judgment and not participating in it remaining physical and supporting the being within physical participating that support what will be best for the situation always.

I commit myself to stop the point of anxiety by stopping the self sabotage through walking the correction of myself by supporting others as I would like to be supported in all points that come up that I see I can give support.

I commit myself to continue to apply self forgiveness, self corrective statements and thus push myself to stand up for life for all through stopping my day to day participating in my mind with this judgment point by using my breath and the decision to not accept it any longer.

I commit myself to stop fearing making mistakes as I realize mistakes are only points within self to understand that what is being done is not self perfected yet and thus I see it is actually a gift to show I need to change and thus gives me the opportunity to change and correct myself.

I commit myself to stand up here in breath in the physical to stop myself within participating in the mind and correct my living in the physical by physically moving myself to push through my fear and become the being of courage I am who stand up for life even in the face of death.

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