Day 298 – Self Judgment – Is Comparison the root of all Evil?

What I have realized through excellent support within the series on eqafe, The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination – specifically in regards to walking through the dimensions of self judgment, and how in essence it is based on a point of bullying, punishing, and sabotage oneself through one’s own hand so to speak as thoughts, backchat, imaginations, pictures, and memories one participate in based on comparisons one has made and continues to exist within through out ones days and eventually one’s life. And so, I as self judgment through comparison define myself constantly and continuously through my external world through polarities based on my own self interest desires of wanting to be perfect for others, and so I stay trapped within the mind in abuse as there is no end to this because it’s impossible to fulfill as it is not real, it’s in my mind, and the mind and reality never match up.

Comparison is not a single event that one does and then just leaves from that moment to the next, it stays with you over time and through time, and you define and continue to redefine yourself from this external view of the mind as a comparison over and over and over again, seeming that it is a new scenario cause it is a new environment, but it’s the same pattern repeating in the mind.

Comparison is the root of all evil of self I found based on the nature of who one is within it, this for me has always been me against myself, not being satisfied with who I am in some parts and thus desiring to make these parts better through seeing what it look like and trying to change it to be that. But what is not realized within this on the surface is the amount of self judgment, anger, jealousy, and resentment is built because within the physical aspect I do not like for instance, I can never change, I mean I can’t reconstitute my physical body to be different shaped, different look, different position, it’s impossible, so I am fighting the impossible basically not realizing that this fight is and will continue to go no where. But I continue because there is that time where I am more, I do have a comparison where I am better, so then I feel good again about myself. It’s like an unconscious sleep walking cycle I have been living in, seeing myself powerless to stop this based on not realizing that there was another way, that is where desteni has stepped in and stepped up to show me how to correct these points and stay committed to do this.

Within the mind of the human, we like to create that which isn’t actually there in reality, but more often then not I define myself and determine who I am based on this conclusion of the results of my mind imaginations, and thus based on desires and not common sense, I search for this impossibility as perfection within the ideal picture I have created in my mind of this. Now I realize that the physical can and will never match up with my mind because the mind doesn’t and can not take physical reality into consideration. The mind is creating itself from memories as thoughts that are stored within the physical body, and uses this database of memories to define self to it’s own optimum outcome not in consideration of me as the self in equality, but in the interest of itself as an energy generator. The mind is after energy, and me as self judgment within the constant dueling of this judgment through comparison through jealousy, superiority, inferiority, and a whole host of other emotions and feelings that are activated within these scenarios in my world are fueling the mind continuously  And so the mind is gaining a lot of energy for it’s own generation of itself within and as the physical body, and all the while I as the life force within the physical body am living in misery and instability.

I realize I am doing this to myself, I am the being within the mind and within my body accepting and allowingto be directed by energy and desires, and thus seeing what I am doing to myself as the abuse to my body mentally and physically, and the abuse to others as anger outburst, jealousy, and arrogance. I am here to take responsibility for this pattern once and for all of comparison and self judgment, and thus use the tool of comparison for what is best for all in practical physical considerations, stopping making it about me, and use it for what it’s purpose is, compare what is here and find what is best.

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Day 98- Judgment is Stupid

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use judgment as a form of self sabotage because I don’t like myself and am not happy with the way I am within my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my physical human body into a point of separation and division that I have created based on the fact that I want more, I want to be better, and thus I want my desires of being perfect to manifest for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be perfect within my physical body as an idea when I am being ignorant to the fact that my human physical body supports and assists me unconditionally each time I take a breath and thus never once complained, fucked around, or did anything to the detriment of me as life as it is standing as the principle of who it is as life, and thus I realize and see that I am creating these ideas within my mind that I need to be better and be more because I have accepted and allowed my self to compare to others physical and thus am the creator of my own ailments and diseases as I am not living in ‘ease’ with the physical as I am in conflict with it as others as judgment and comparison.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my physical body as not good enough in comparison with other bodies that I see are more skinny and fit and thus have prettier features, and within this go into displeasure of my physical body because I am not seeing myself as equal to the others as I am only looking at pictures and thus within this fucking myself because I realize and see that I am not just pictures but all life that exist, and I am the one who is creating the separation as I am the one judging.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be within ignorance towards my physical body based on the fact that I am desiring more, not taking into consideration what my body doing within keeping me alive, and I just push it and judge it because I accept and allow these desires to be more then life itself, which is the epitome of stupidity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my physical body as not good enough and that I need to be more based on the fact that I want to be more then others physical and within this create unnecessary competition within myself because what is being created within me is separation, due to me not being a person who accepts who I am and is grateful for the life that I am given through my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use ignorance as a form of self interest so I can feed my desires and accept myself to be judgmental of others so I can eventually feel good about myself because there will be a point where I am ‘more’ then another and thus only live for this feeling of being more. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use desires and judgments for my own self interest because I am desiring even for a brief moment to be more then others through comparison and thus here feeding the addiction to be more as a perfect polarity play out to feed my ego, which is feeding my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my own self interest as desiring to get good feelings through winning, when in comparison with another and thus can get the little high that is created when this is reached.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself here from life as the physical in ignorance of the millions upon millions of unconditional acts alone that the physical human body walks through each day in full awareness in directive principle to keep me alive where in I have the opportunity to birth myself as life as the physical human body one and equal. I realize that this opportunity will only come once in life and thus to accept and allow myself to go into judgment towards another or any point of life for that matter is stupid in the sense that I am ruining my opportunity to be life and for what, a feeling, a moment of energy surge, a picture, a desire? I realize that to judge life is a stupid act as it is squandering the opportunity I have of life and for all life to live here in this physical within our physical bodies as our physical bodies in harmony and equality so that we can create a world here that is best for all.

I commit myself to stop the judgment of myself and accept who I am as one and equal with life giving myself the opportunity to realize that its not about judging what I am doing as a personal ‘attack’ but to realize that it is a point that needs correction and thus walk the correction to what ever has formed the living that is not in equilibrium with equality and oneness with the environment I am in and simply walk the correction in common sense and awareness of all life as myself.

I commit myself to stop the judgments of my human physical body as I realize that all bodies are physical life and thus this is who I am as life, we are all one and thus there are multi-dimensions at work and nothing can be judged on face value, but should always be looked at in it’s totality and from that point of full responsibility, the point can be corrected within self trust of considering all involved equal to oneself, which I see and realize is the natural flow of correction as life.

I commit myself to stop the idea in my mind to be perfect and thus live self perfection within who I am as a being equal and one with the life around me to create an environment that support all, and thus eventually will support all the world, as the example of self perfection for all who walk this will be a beacon for those who can hear and see to thus learn from and walk as well, so I commit to stop this idea of self perfection and walk livingself perfection not only for me, but for all life.

I commit myself to stop this point of comparison and thus then going into the polarity of pleasure/displeasure with others around me as I realize this is absolute deliberate separation and causing the inner conflict within myself as I am responsible for who I am within and without, thus I commit to make the decision each and every thought, feeling/emotion, or reaction that come up to stop this point of separation and walk the correction as self in self honesty in physical application to support what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop the point of ignorance where I am holding onto the ‘hope’ that I can be better as I realize hope is not real nor this idea of being better is real, thus I stop the ignorance of my beingness and walk in equality with others and thus also with myself in acceptance and appreciation for the life I am able to live and gain the opportunity to really be real and give freedom to self as all life as we walk thus process to self correction.

I commit myself to stop defining life by pictures and thus walk within and as real reality here as the physical in the self realization that I am one and equal with all here and that all life is to be honored and respected as such, as equals.

I commit myself to walk the process of self correction through daily self investigating every judgment I hold of another or reaction that come up, and walk self honesty within self forgiveness, and self corrective writing, so thus I can be who I am here as physical for real as I have walked the walk from my mind reality as judgments to the self real-i-zation of me as the physical here as breath and I move when I decide. 

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Day 38- My Face to Face

Judging my face/eyes based on the past and based on the desire to be beautiful, which has caused massive separation and turmoil within me over the years because I am holding onto this idea that I am and can be the most beautiful as within I see a ugly being.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge my face.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare my face to other faces in this world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to create the idea within my mind that my face has to be beautiful and thus go into comparison with others to see if I am beautiful or not.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare myself to others based on an idea that some are more then others within this I forgive myself for allowing and accepting the polarity of myself that I am more/less then other (me's)within what is here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge my eyes as messed up due to them not being symmetrically perfect and thus go into judgment of myself because I am not perfect symmetrically.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge my eyes due to the past of others judging them and making fun of them thus judging my face/eyes in a negative charge due to holding on to the belief that I am ugly.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to blame god/someone else for making me this way, when I have created and defined myself by myself and thus I have created the misery within all that I live by my self.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to blame a god/someone else for the way I am experiencing myself as less then when I realize and see it is I myself who have defined myself as less then and judged myself in this way by allowing comparison and competition to direct me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow comparison and competition to direct me when I realize this is not real as all that exist here is myself so thus I am comparing me to me and only competing with myself within illusions that I have made up like there are some who are better and some who are not so good = not real an illusion based on ego and my self interest to be special because I am not accepting me here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge my eyes/face based on memories of the past and hold onto them here within life and thus go into a point of self judgment when around others if their is any motion to their eyes where I will see my eyes as the problem and go into inferiority because I fear that the other is judging me in there head and thus I fear being seen as less then them.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to assume that someone else is judging me in their head based on my idea and belief that the motion made was in relation to me and thus make the whole point about me and how I am feeling/being treated/ being accepted instead standing in the physical equal and one and stopping the judgment, comparison, competition within myself to everyone I met. I realize I must stop the separation within me for it to stop within my world as myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being seen less then another because I am in competition and comparison to everyone here within the desire to be more and be the best and thus when I go into a possession point of seeing others as judging me I will go into inferiority and limit myself due to fear.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge others actions as a personal attack onto me when I realize and see it is me who is creating this idea that I am being judge when the real truth is that I am the one judging myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge my physical body and thus exist within this desire to be beautiful when I realize real beauty does not exist here, our physicals are our life source here and thus what gives me life here, why do I judge it and compare to other physicals because I desire to be more and be seen as special.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to be seen as more and special among beings I desire to like me or see me in a certain way because I want a relationship with them and thus I believe me being me will not be enough to impress them so thus I am judging myself and not seeing myself as good enough.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to impress others based on the way I look because I don't see them liking me any other way.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to sabotage myself to such an extent where I don't even feel the ability to be able to be liked by another within and as just being me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself through this point of self judgment and the judgment of life here I have created myself in such a way to only be living based on polarities and ego where I am not actually living among life here but only competing, comparing, and diminishing others to be on top because I am not accepting myself and seeing myself as worthy equal and one to all because I am not living this.

To be continued.....

When and as this point comes up where I desire to go into self judgment, comparison, competition about my face/eyes or physical in any way, I stop, breath, move my physical body, and stop the participation in the thoughts or ideas of judgment. I stop judgment of all life here as myself and thus focus on my self application, my living in and as walking self perfection, and stop the focus on how others are seeing me and who I am being here among others, but live and be physical.

I commit to stopping self judgement and the judgment of all beings here through breathing through the desires, wants, and needs and focusing on my physical one and equal with all here as we all are physical and that's it.

I commit to stop comparison to others and see life as me, putting myself in their shoes, and stopping my desire to be more.

I commit to stop trying to impress others and just live the acceptance of myself through living myself here in what I am doing, and only focus on self application of mySELF.

I commit to stop competition and the desire to be more/win as I am only competing with me and I thus will myself to live one and equal with all as I would want for myself in acceptance and real love.



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