Here looking at the blame character that I use to justify my
actions of abuse and inconsideration for another based on the fact that I can
point fingers and name call, which I do within my own mind, to manipulate the
situation for myself to be right and thus make the other the problem. In an
interview today I listened to by Anu, he was discussing about how that we are
never in fact actually are hearing and living in physical reality, but we are perceiving
and interpreting physical reality through our own beliefs, ideas, assumptions,
emotions, feelings, none being real as it’s not physical in fact, and thus
instead of going and discussing the point with another to get the facts, I, as
an example, will go into a point of blame on another to not have to face myself
and change. Within this, I use the blame character to make it, essentially,
easier for myself to stay in self interest, not face myself as the
creator of
this character and the reactions that fueled this character, and not have to
change. So this point of using the mind to become the self righteous one and
bloat my ego, I cause physical harm to my body and spin myself more into my
mind in delusion and self victimization.
I will walk self forgiveness here on the blame character, here I go…..
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize, and understand that when I point a finger and go into blame
towards another being, this instantly is a red flag to take note of and not
participate in, as I realize and see that I am here within all that I am
creating thus I must take responsibility for myself and change the point of
blame to be a point of understanding where in I go into the facts of the matter
by discussion or seeing what is here, to resolve the issue that caused the
reaction in the first place and stop the separation as this is causing abuse to
life that is not acceptable.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize, and understand that when I go into a point of blame I only
access my mind where in I want to be right and make another wrong to make
myself be more then this being I am blaming, because within me I had reacted to
the being in a way where I felt threatened or uncomfortable, so thus I react in
fear instead of self honesty in stopping the reactions from directing me
through bringing the point that I reacted to back to myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
see, realize, and understand that when I go into blame towards another I am not
within the physical reality of what is here in fact, but go into my mind
dimension of interpretation and thus self interest, as blame indict that I
desire to have my self interest validated, and thus I will use others to
achieve this goal so I don’t have to change, but validating my ego in trying to
be seen as more and thus diminishing my
self integrity as I am not here as life
in integrity, but only diminishing myself as life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not take responsibility for myself when I see the reactions come up of another
and go into the mind and blame them for the reactions that I felt, but within
this I realize that I am the one who is having the reactions thus I am the one
creating these reactions, so I must stop these reactions from directing me so
thus I can take responsibility for them and direct them within a point of
stopping them and going into the physical within the situation to come to a
resolution for real with others rather then foster it and accumulate it in my
mind within my human physical body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
use the mind as a personal battle field where in I will go to battle with those
that I am blaming as such were in I will yell and take out my anger in a mind
reality as my secret mind and always making them the person who is ‘wrong’ to
thus get out my frustration and anger for not speaking up and changing the
abuse towards me or confronting it, but instead diminished the other because I
wanted to be the winner.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
diminish another that I am blaming within my mind so I can be the winner and
have the power back based on me being always the winner within these mind
battles, where I use illusion as assumptions and rough estimations of what I
‘think’ happened and why, instead of stopping the mind, and walking within the
physical by stopping the reactions, to see what is really here as the facts,
and sort out the situation in
common sense and what will be best for all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear speaking up in front of others and facing other within conflict as I see
that I allow fear to direct me, and within that I don’t stop the abuse towards
me or I take it personally, in where I will react, and not direct the situation
in common sense and to a resolution that will be able to be lived with by all,
stopping taking thins personally and stopping fear is what I realized I must
walk to correct this point of facing conflict.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
use others within a point of blame to make myself feel better and more then
because within that moment that I went into blame towards another I judged
myself as being less then form a point of polarity that I defined myself by and
saw another judged me as, but within reality not understanding or seeing the
full scope or perspective of another in fact nor realized all the facts, so
thus realizing to stop the mind as me from directing the point as blame to stop
and face the situation and direct it as equals.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
judge myself within a polarity of points where in I am one but not the other,
and thus see myself as either good or bad, where I cause a complete separation
of me here within my physical body, thus I stop as I realize that thought as
good or bad is not real, I am real here as the physical and thus walking here
as the physical is all that matters in equality with others, using common sense
as a basis for solution and conflict resolution.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself
from this point of separation as seeking the positivity, I will dishonor and
degrade another within my mind and eventually in living as, what you think –
you are, and thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
use the blame character to not take responsibility for this action of thought
and eventual deed to gain a self interested positive feeling for myself while
abusing another based on assumptions and illusionary reactions, so it’s to stop
the thoughts as reactions, and walk through them to thus see what is here as
the physical beyond
the mind, and breath, and do what best for the situation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
abuse life for my own self interest and accepted and allowed the blame
character to direct me within this life as myself where in I am not here in
fact, but in the mind as the separation that exist within and without, and so I
realize to correct this point I must change my living as starting point where
in I live from the physical as fact, and breath through the moments that I face
reaction realizing seeing and understanding this is the mind as energy and thus
I must let them go by stopping the participation in them.
Self commitment statements for the Blame Character to follow
tomorrow….thanks.
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