Weakening of the Physical through the Mind - Self Commitments to Live - Day 337

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Weakening the Physical through the MInd - Day 335

When and as I see myself go into a inflexibility and suppressing my expression, I stop myself and breath, and realize that in this moment that I am going into suppression, I am allowing the mind to take over my directive will and direct me into the polarity of inferior/superior play out through the cycle of happy/sad, and thus accept and allowing my external to influence who I am on the internal, realizing that i no longer have to live in this way because I realize who I am, I am life and am the directive principle of myself and realize that I can direct myself into all life ibeing equal and one in what is best for all. 

I commit myself to not accept myself to go into the mind when I see a fear come up of others and thus I commit to breath and continue to express myself and accept myself as equals within and as each moment as what is happening as I see within the moment to be expressed, pushing to see reality direct in what is actually happening.

I commit myself to move my physical to bring me back to the physical through breathing and looking around the room, become here within myself and aware ofmy body and not allow thoughts of suppression and compromise to accumulate.

I commit to stop my mind from directing me into self judgment and judgment of others by not allowing these thoughts to continue, and stopping them as soon as I see them come up.

When and as I see myself go into a fear of another or what others are thinking of me, I stop and breath, and realize that this is all in my head I am making these thoughts and fears up within me where I don't know what others are thinking and thus there is no need to fear, as I can direct myself within and as who I am, I don't need others to tell me who I am, I have to stand within myself and direct myself to be able to direct as the directive principle to create this who I am, self create me as life, I must walk my own self stability and stop being directed by the external world of who I am. 

I commit myself to breath and not accept myself to go into thoughts of what others are thinking as I realize it's completely illusionary and not relevant.

I commit myself to breath and stop fear as there is no need to fear, I face my fears and walk that which I fear walking to show I can walk it and that it is in fact all in my head, using common sense of course in terms of physical fear, (like not stepping in front of a car or moving bus).

When and as I see I am becoming inflexible within my movement and self direction, i stop and breath, and check what is gong on within me that i am suppressing and not expressing myself freely here as breath.

I commit to move myself through this inflexibility and remain steadfast to walk through all the points where i m still showing inflexibility and correct the patterns through writing the tools and living it and practice expressing freely here as breath in consideration of all as equals.

I commit myself to accept myself and accept my expression, and stop the judgment, and remain walking the perfection process of who I am and so be able to stand here alone and as all as one and equal.

I commit to walk the process of letting go of me as my personality, me as fear, me as the mind definition of limitation, me as a name, I commit myself to walk to the self that is here as a whole and individualized to ensure what is best is life and this is in fact so within self until it is done. 

When and as I see myself less then others and that I am weakened, I stop and breath, and realize this is my mind in self defeatism and self sabotage to not have to walk what I have to face, I realize that this is not who I accept myself to be and I must continue to persevere and face myself through accepting who I am and continuing on the path of correcting myself until I live equal and one to the physical as breath. 

I commit to stop compromising myself through judgments. 

I commit to stop competition with others as this is not real as I am competing with myself as we are equals here as the physical and thus all one.

I commit to stop comparing myself to others as its useless and irrelevant cause self is all that exist.

I commit to not accept the mind in separation as who I am, and walk the correction to stop the mind in seperation and align myself with life and direct myself in this way here as the breath in physical reality.

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Weakening the Physical through the MInd - Day 335

Within my physical I had pain on my left knee as well within my left hip, and within the pain there was like a weakness, like I could feel the knee as well as the hip area where the pain resides as weakened or compromised. Within these two areas the hip and the knee, they are indicating my self expression in the hip and flexibility, showing that as I exist within the energy of self compromise in my expression and becoming inflexible within who I am in each moment, this pain will continue and become worse if I don't change. So here going to walk some self forgiveness on inflexibility and suppressing my expression with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base through fear, fearing others thoughts and judgments towards me and so suppressing my expression and becoming inflexible within what I will do and what not through believing if i fully express myself in that moment I will be vulnerable for abuse by others not realizing that I in fact judge and have secret thoughts about others that I don't want to face and stop based on the power it gives me that I can see and say 'i am better', this just showing the separation and inferiority I am existing within myself compromising my opportunity to be life for real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear others and thus fear expressing myself openly and freely.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself within my own mind create judgments of others when they do something or say something I see I can gain from instead of realizing that when I judge another I am condemning myself into self compromise based on the fact that I am really judging myself and creating a split within myself of polarity such as good or bad, where in reality this is not so, we are all here and we all have the ability to be and do what is best through equal opportunity and the divinity of all bring life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become inflexible within what I will do and not do due to fear of exposure and I realize that not going beyond my comfort zone and pushing my expression will only keep me trapped and caged into a limited version of myself and of my capabilities. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create a judgment against life not realizing that when I judge i judge myself and so I will always be compromised in what i do because I am not seeing what is real and what is here, and thus never will be able to direct the situation into what is best because I am in competition to reality wanting to be the winner in these judgment scenarios. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within this energy where it eat's away at my physical body and thus I am eating away at my ability to be free and fully expressive by compromising my ability to move myself in expression in the expansion that is possible in each moment letting go of fear and pushing my limits in every increasing ways forward to see who I really am in each moment stopping the trap of judging self.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others think of me and fear being expressive around others as I stop these judgments against others, I stand here with the self realization and an awareness that all life is me and that I need to embrace and accept life equal to me to realize that we will only live free when we accept each other and support each other to change as we support ourselves in equality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be weakened based on my past and how others have treated me, and thus realize that the past does not define me and that it is not for real in terms of what i am picturing in my head, i realize I have to let go of the past and bring myself to where i am here in what i am doing in each moment of breath, making each moment a new moment of self expression and making it count substantially for the betterment of life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take others words towards me personal and see myself in the eyes of others rather then who I am within and as the eyes of me and my physical, perfecting my own self living realizing that everyone else is in their process and thus must walk the same process as well, I must stand as a point of support and direct as I have realized myself and stop taking things personal because it's not personal we are just mind systems existing in illusion and this is not life, what is real is me as the physical and who I am in my living with and towards others and myself to create life for real through the actual living and movement of myself.

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Superficial – Self Forgiveness and Self Correction to Live – Day 316

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be an image that is seen by others as super, best, desired, and highlighted based on the fact that within and as who I am I have accepted and allowed to see myself as inferior to others image and thus stand to compete rather then be here in who we are for real equal as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as an image only and thus compare and compete against other images in my world not realizing and/or living the fact that all images are illusion of the mind created to separate in to more or less, and thus this is used by the ego to be best while others lose causing abuse. Life here do not abuse as life as self realize that all here is self thus one is only abusing oneself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only see images around me, based on desires and emotional attachments as energies of acceptance or feeling good because someone liked my image and thus am limited within the acceptance of others liking me rather then me giving this to myself and creating a real relationship with myself in creating what I enjoy and what I will accept and allow and what not as a self direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only limit myself and my environment to seeing images alone as pictures and emotional attachments in my mind missing the truth of what is real, that life is not images and thus life is not a feeling or emotions, but is simply here living and can be lived in common sense and equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself with images and desiring to be special within being a ‘super’ ‘face’ rather then seeing what is relevant and thus what needs changing through creating and ensuring the best life for all here on this planet, where images is not relevant as obviously life is more then images.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use distractions such as competition and comparison to get what I want through using this super face as this will only cause self compromise because I am not self willed and self directed, but directed by polarities through energy that will only seek this fulfillment as self interest and not reality based living to make sure the change necessary within me and thus the without of me as this world is sorted and all abuse ends.

When and as I see I am going into a point of desire in wanting my image looked at or changing myself in a point of self compromise for others to accept me, I stop and breath, and I realize that within this I am compromising myself because I am split and thus not self directed and so will easily be swayed by desires and the mind and others acceptance then what is best for life through standing within this point no matter what mind desires or points I face.

I commit myself to stop and investigate each point I go into of self compromise where I am searching for something outside myself like a feeling or a acceptance, and thus stop participating in it until I am satisfied I can stand in this point.

I commit myself to stop the point of self compromising by checking through slowing down my starting point for doing things, and correct it if it's due to a point of acceptance outside myself.

I commit myself to give self care and self nurture through testing and developing this point for myself through becoming gentle with me but steadfast within my discipline to stop going into self interest/self compromise.

I commit myself to stop defying this point of self care and self acceptance by actually being consistent within it and stopping all the mind attachments within self interest/self compromise, and embrace self within and as all that is here and walking whatever is necessary to make sure I can stand no matter what and not be swayed by emotions or feelings as these are not real and thus I commit to stop participating in them and focus on physical reality, my breath, and living in and with my body as I move.

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Superficial – What’s in a Word – Day 315

So here within this word Superficial I am looking at what the word is saying as it’s purpose, so it’s saying the ‘Super’ ‘Face’ of myself, the image of who I want to be as the ego self, pushing to show face and thus be the super face to get the most attention from others. So here looking at the starting point of this particular point of my image, I have come to realize I am very much into the way my image is presented to others, and making sure before I go anywhere that I am looking the best I can. It has become a paranoia because I create this look I must achieve as the picture in my mind, and thus if I see at anytime, such as a glimpse in a mirror or in a window, and I am not up to par, then I will go into a reaction of fear and anxiety because I have judged myself as very unpleasant looking if I do not have the ‘approved’ look and thus the ‘super’ ‘face’ to present to my environment and thus get acceptance.

Now, for real, this is crazy living and self sabotage to the max as this scenario of trying to look perfect obviously is a point of self interest because who am I trying to look perfect for? Myself? No because when I am alone, I am quite content and ok with the way I am looking and really I don’t even bother with paying attention to it. But once someone else enters the scenario, then my paranoia kicks in of, ‘oh gosh, I must have my ‘super’ ‘face’ on, I must be presentable". This showing that I am only caring about others, what they think, how they perceive me, and this at the end of the day is due to self interest as there is a point I will not let go of, the definition and thus image of looking my best. Why do I have to look in this way? Who am I trying to impress? Obviously I am not accepting myself and thus will always be in fear due to always seeing myself less then, and thus having to become an image for others to be acceptable.

This obviously the product of my mind and what I have accepted and allowed in my mind through comparisons, judgments, and competition, and so live in this self created misery because I want to be something that is not in fact real and can never be achieved. I am chasing something that has no solution and thus why I have existed in my head in polarities for the the whole of my life, missing what is in fact real, missing myself in creating my living into self perfection, missing me understanding and building an equal relationship with me and others in my world, missing the existence for myself that I could create if I just stop the desires to be more, to be special, to be wanted, to be the best, it has to stop and thus it will only stop when I stop existing as the super face and start with the real self, as the face is part of the body which is part of everything here. And thus what is real is here as this world and thus who I am within it equal and one to who I create myself and direct myself as, there is in fact no separation here as all are physical and all are life, this separation in fact is existant only in my mind.

Life is not about being super, it’s about living in what is best for all, this has nothing to do with being special or more or better, but living to the best of my ability in my body in consideration of all equally and this is including myself. 

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Day 96- Anxiety

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be nervous because I believe I am going to make a fool of myself some how within what I am doing and thus look stupid in front of others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I will make a fool of myself when I do a task and that others are going to see me as stupid.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to actually judge myself as stupid and foolish when I do trip or am not flawless within a task where in I see myself as messing up.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself as stupid and foolish when I am not flawless within doing a task or if I trip or make a mistake.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to thus keep myself sabotaged to a fear of making a mistake.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself when I make a mistake and thus go into another dimension of self sabotage where I go into anxiety as I am judging myself in my mind before I even start where I will go into a thought of ‘I better not screw this up’.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into anxiety before I start a task as I accepted the backchat of ‘I better not screw this up.’

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to accept the backchat thought of ‘I better not screw this up’ and thus accept and allow fear as emotion to direct me within a physical response as nervousness as tightness in my stomach.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to self manipulate myself with a point of fear to thus sabotage what I do here in the physical when and as I do anything as I allow the backchat and thus participate in it through going into the emotion as anxiety as I have judged myself as stupid and fear others reactions.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to self manipulate myself before I do a task and sabotage myself here in breath to fear.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear making a mistake in front of others because I have judged others for making a mistake.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge others for making a mistake and thus judging myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge life when I realize and see that life is all that is here and is me one and equal thus it’s not to judge, but to support self it live the best way we can live.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge a task as a ‘mistake’ when there are no mistakes within a point of opinion as mind towards another so thus I realize if I am able to support the person in finding a solution or helping with a task if need be to support and assist the person as I would want for myself I direct myself immediately and do it. I also realize within this point when I do a task not to perfection within living, I stop the judgment of separation as I making a mistake and support myself by breathing and stabilizing myself so I can see the solution in common sense which is within a point of stability in the physical by stopping the backchat, fear, and self judgment within this I will stop the point of anxiety as there will be no reaction as I am stable within myself in finding a solution by giving myself direction in what would be best for all.

When and as I go into a point of judgment towards myself or others for making a mistake in any point within the day, I stop and breath, and I walk the point of correction through stopping participating in the backchat towards others as well as myself as a self judgment and continue to do the task that I am doing in the physical within the decision to stand and stop participating in the energy.  I realize and see that going into self-judgment or judging another in my mind is sabotaging myself into a cycle of fear, which is self-sabotage which I am stopping.

I commit myself to stop the point of backchat of ‘I better not screw this up’  to thus stop the point of self judgment when I make a ‘mistake’ within my living.

I commit myself to stop the point of judging others when another makes a mistake through not participating in the thoughts and immediately go support the being if I am able to.

I commit myself to stop the fear of others judgments of me by stopping the judgment of others through when I see that I am about to go into a thought or reaction of judgment towards another I stop and push myself to remain in the physical by breathing and delete the point by moving myself through the judgment and not participating in it remaining physical and supporting the being within physical participating that support what will be best for the situation always.

I commit myself to stop the point of anxiety by stopping the self sabotage through walking the correction of myself by supporting others as I would like to be supported in all points that come up that I see I can give support.

I commit myself to continue to apply self forgiveness, self corrective statements and thus push myself to stand up for life for all through stopping my day to day participating in my mind with this judgment point by using my breath and the decision to not accept it any longer.

I commit myself to stop fearing making mistakes as I realize mistakes are only points within self to understand that what is being done is not self perfected yet and thus I see it is actually a gift to show I need to change and thus gives me the opportunity to change and correct myself.

I commit myself to stand up here in breath in the physical to stop myself within participating in the mind and correct my living in the physical by physically moving myself to push through my fear and become the being of courage I am who stand up for life even in the face of death.

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Day 3 - Judgement of Self

When I watched back the video I made tonight I immediately went into reaction of seeing myself as ugly. Judging and comparing my physical face to memories of what I have looked like and approved of in the past, and thus seeing myself less then those pictures. Throughout my life, I have based people, my first impression of them, based on their look. Defining the being in whether I was going to like them or not due to if they where attractive or not, and this definition and initial judgment of another would create a separation which compromised my ability to be with them as equals and thus taint the meeting  to be only as ego within self interest to be on top, be the winner, and thus gain system approval and acceptance for myself.

This was fueled by seeing movies and tv shows were the people on there were always very attractive, I was very much into beauty, I enjoyed people who were very attractive looking, and this initially was not in a sexual way, but in a way to establish myself among 'friends' and basically size myself up to thus compete for the most attractive male in my later years. I did not accept myself because I desired to be perfect within my look this never being able to be satisfied within myself because I was always seeing myself in comparison with others which created a hell for myself and me with others as I constantly was in competition. Til here no further I stop the judgment of myself as well as others within pictures, we are more then pictures, we are here as life. Life is not limited to look, pictures, or definitions and I am not limited to competition and the mind as ego, I can transcend and walk as equals with all that exist as I realize all that is here is me, I must stop my mind and thus walk within and as the physical as what is real to live this in fact to align myself one and equal with all as this physical reality as the physical reality is what is life, what is real, what is 'god', what is self.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to judge myself based on images I am holding onto of what the perfect face should look like, what the perfect eyes should look like, what the perfect hair should look like, what the perfect style should look like and thus be constantly and continuously comparing myself to everyone I see, and thus define myself only by the outside looking in as I realize and see that who is on the outside is not who I have to be, I do not have to continue to define myself by the pictures that I hold onto as perfect and thus I can let go of this desire to be some image that is not real and not tangible to even consider never mind take up so much of my time in worry, thoughts, and attention as I simply made it up in my mind and made it real by allowing perfection as an idea to possess me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to judge another being based on this picture image I have in my head of the perfect look and thus within this perfect picture idea in my mind, size the being up and thus go into a conclusion that the being is then defined and figured out so to speak and thus I direct myself from this conclusion I made of him/her within ego as seeing myself in comparison to what I concluded as more or less within the other. I realize that within this type of separation of defining and judging a being within the idea of more/less and constantly and continually participating within this comparison as I meet new people and with all the people in my world I am creating my own hell as their is no fulfillment and joy in trying to attain a stance of superiority through other beings by diminishing them in my mind and really I realize only diminishing me as eventually I will sabotage the the other as my ego always looks to be on top and thus will abuse another to attain this goal of superiority.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to go into my ego and diminish others in an attempt to be superior to others as I am compensating for the inadequacy I see of myself through not accepting myself and judging myself within the polarity play out of better/worse as my image and what I believe is important as being perfect to be accepted. I realize and see that being perfect within the mind as ideas, images, and polarities is not real but only sabotaging myself to really live and walk self perfection through become self perfected in taking consideration of everyone that is here as myself and living equal and one to all that is here as I would want for myself. I see and understand real perfection is within and as life here in this physical reality through creating systems and solutions to better life for all and thus enjoy life as ourselves with each other in total acceptance and embracement of the joy of ourselves as life living.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to base my whole beingness on the image of who all of us are within an idea that beauty is valuable and those who are more beautiful are somehow more worthy then those who are not. I see and realize the cycle of torment I have created for myself by existing within this absolute abdication to who and what life is as one and equal with all that is here in this physical reality and defining life by pictures that the being has no control over and makes absolutely no difference to the relationship we hold here as one and equal with each other as we are all the other as all that remain here is self, nothing exist outside of self as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to play into the depression of myself when and as I came to points in my life where I would see myself as not as pretty as the other and really within myself define myself as less then that I somehow was not as worthy, privileged, and special as I saw those with the great beauty. I see and realize that this idea of beauty as something that is able to be valued and thus defined and categorized among beings is in complete separation by accepting my mind as ideas and pictures to have power over me and thus abuse the life around me as well as myself due to following these thoughts that to be someone here you had to be good looking based on following  my thoughts and ideas that I am the mind and I have to win to live.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to allow jealousy within and as myself when I see those who are in picture presentation that are the ideal image I would like to be of perfection in beauty and allow myself to go into spite towards the being as I see myself less then them but desire to have what they have as I believe there life is great as they have everything that I would want and that they have the perfect life because they look the part. I realize and see that what is here is not to be defined and placed in a box perfection as an idea placed into beauty, beauty is in the eye of the beholder and thus not relevant to what I am walking here as life in oneness and equality. Life is life and thus added value judgments of beauty is only limiting our expression and determining ourselves within images of the mind as ideas that need to be lived up to which is not necessary and cause division among beings if one accept and allow the ego to control self, so thus I realize best to stop limiting myself to ideas of beauty and perfection and live beauty as perfection of self here within all that exist in absolute specificity to the consideration of all parts of myself as the whole is unified and supported within the support system I am as life living with no ego as mind to hinder one's expression.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to be spiteful within my backchat towards another being I see as more then me as I am jealous that they have the perfect picture that I desire and believe I need to succeed here in this world, so to make myself feel better, I will be quick and try to manipulate them to get them to be on my level through finding flaws in them and making them see it.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to be spiteful towards others beings and be nasty within my backchat as trying to diminish them based on seeing them more then me. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting a depression state to ensue when I value myself less then other based on looks and thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting depression to exist within and as me as I see myself unworthy and useless if I don't stand at the top among the group I am with and be seen as the best among them.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to thus compensate within my athletics to make up for the lack I felt within my look so thus I could have some value among my peers and be seen as cool in a way that I saw others as cool, those who were good at sports.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to define myself and others as cool based on if we played sports or not and placing a value judgment on physical activity and motion instead of realizing and existing as me here comfortable and stable within myself as I discover and express myself within the enjoyment of physical movement with others and with myself as my human physical body.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to allow abuse onto others based on my jealousy towards them of being prettier or better in sports then me and thus find ways to manipulate and diminish them to make myself be more and be seen by those at the top of the group so I thus can impress and get myself closer to being at the top.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to diminish myself within the idea and living out this idea that i have to manipulate life and abuse life to get to the top in compete self abdication as myself as equal with all and go into ego to be seen by others within my acting in an abusive and self interested way to impress those I see as more then me so I can be accepted and seen as cool among the group as see as better then me. I realize and see that this is not who I am and thus I stop all forms of desiring to impress others to gain their approval to thus be seen by others as being in a certain group and thus go into self interest to try and be seen as more to thus boost my ego and be disillusioned that I am somebody because I am 'popular' but only living by the system of abuse through diminishing myself by abusing others for my own self interest desires and gains to be accepted by those I see as superior to me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to separate me from the life that is here within ego as jealousy and judgment as I realize and see that I am only diminishing me and creating a cycle of self abuse as I go from peak to lows in a never ending cycle of searching for who I am and trying to fit in with others all the while creating conflict and abuse in my world due to anger and jealousy because I don't see myself live up to my idea of perfection within my mind that i desired very much.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to define life by pictures and from the mind as ego within polarities of inferiority/superiority based on an idea that I need to be perfect to be accepted and thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to believe to make it in this life and succeed I have to be accepted and thus I had to be perfect within what I did and look like as I was in competition with all the others in my group which created allot of depression as I just could not live up to this expectation of myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to create an expectation of myself that I had to be perfect to succeed and be accepted instead of realizing and seeing that true success is when one live in peace and freedom with one self by accepting oneself for who one is and embracing all that is here as self in thus forgiving oneself for seeing themselves in a faulty way to thus change self to live here among all life equal and one.

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My Self Correction:

When and as I go into this point of beauty and trying to fulfill this perfect picture within my mind, I stop and speak 'no, til hear no further', where I realize and see that life is I as a life being am not defined nor limited to any point of deinition, thought, belief, idea that the mind makes up within the polarities that will play out through accepting the ego to direct. Thus I commit to stop my ego as these thoughts, beliefs, ideas, and definitions to thus let go of the ties of limitation and allow myself to breath and live as myself in all that exist here as I create myself within all that is here as we as life walk as equals together in oneness and live in this way as well.

I commit to stopping all thoughts, ideas, beliefs, and jealousy based on placing value on judgments within polarities in separation to what is here.

I commit to walk with all life as myself and accept all life without any point but here as breath as I align with the physical in my words and deeds to thus embrace the world as myself and all living beings within it so peace can be lived and I can live in peace within myself as I walk and align myself with the perfection of this physical reality within the principles of oneness and equality through living in self honesty and self forgiveness.

 I commit to accept myself as all as one as equal and stopping all ego to be more and thus stopping all points of self sabotage as I go into the polarities of separating me from mysel fas all life. I stop separation in all forms and bring all forms here as me in living with life one and equal with me.

I commit to stand equal to life and thus stop at nothing to see this world live in this way through and as my self living and birthing myself with perfection my every breath to align to what is best for all life.



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