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Wednesday, August 12, 2020

Survival and Isolation Self Forgiveness - Day 598

#selfforgiveness

Survival and isolation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have my needs met, my life comfortable, my family safe, my friends cared for and welcomed, and not move beyond that into my family as the human race and everything that is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into an idea that I only have certain capacity to take care of myself and my reality in terms of my ‘world’ instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that the world as a whole and all and everything within it is my world and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in my capacity with what I can do on a day to day basis abdicate responsibility to do more, push more, and ensure I am self honest within my assessments of myself and my reality I am living in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to over extend myself to others to ensure I am doing something to help, not seeing, realizing, and understanding that I am deluding myself by believing that I am helping others when underneath that I am feeling lack inside myself because I have not done my utmost potential in my day to day living and know it, I am aware.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of self isolation so I have the least amount of stimulation from real life like interacting with people, where I face the truth of me, and thus isolate and distract myself with useless bullshit to waste time and in a way get a mcquick fix of energy as feeling good, while the world burn around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought that It’s just all too much, I can’t do it, it’s too tough, instead of getting real with myself in realizing that I am actually just not wanting to exert myself, not wanting to physically do it, and so I allow all sorts of excuses and justifications and time loops to play out, when in that time of complaint and wasting time, I could have just done something to support life as supporting myself in what is best for all life in a balanced and wholesome way for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a hero feeling when I do stand up within myself and do something that is best for all, allow the ego feelings of getting off on the point that I am proud of instead of recognizing the point of accomplishment in real time as an assessment of where I am at in my process to birthing life, and use the balance of myself in relaxation be the moments where I let go and enjoy for a moment or express in a more free flow way that cause no harm.

I commit myself to ensure I act when the moments are here to move myself in a way that supports life in what is best for all.

I commit myself to never judge myself or harm myself if i fall, make a miss-take, or miscalculate, but get up and keep moving into the principles of living what is best for all as best for self until it is done.

I commit myself to stand in the living words of equality and oneness where I see all life from within myself as myself as an equal and one part of myself, and thus stand in there shoes as I do it for myself, understand the point as myself, prove it in my reality as a solution, and then share to stand and be able to give real value as life and true peace and life as living in what is best can be manifest as me.

I commit to life here in what is best for all, making the seemingly impossible the I am possible.

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Tuesday, December 6, 2016

My Birthday and the Desteni I Process - Day 537

Here I discuss how my living of birthdays have changed since walking the desteni i process, and it might not be what is expected. Have a listen and see how I have changed birthdays to help me become a more effective human being. This in the process of becoming stewards of the earth and creating a world where all Life stands within dignity and what is best.

Check out the links for more on the process at desteni:

Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course -

www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

Soul - School of Ultimate Living - Create yourself through Words!

www.schoolofultimateliving.com/

Self Supportive Material -

www.Eqafe.com

Forum support:

www.forum.desteni.org

Desteni Wiki:

wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page

Eqafe Facebook Page:

www.facebook.com/Eqafe-359136...

7 year journey to life Facebook group:

www.facebook.com/groups/journ...

DIP Lite on Facebook:

www.facebook.com/DIPLite

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Consequence and Desteni-I-Process - Day 524

In this audio recording I describe what I have learned about how to walk consequence in a way that supports me to become more in control of my life, this through walking the desteni i process. The tools I have been supported with in this course has helped me walk my day to day through understanding what consequences are, stop my reactions to them, and how to change myself to live in more stability as I live my life.

Thanks for listening and please share any discussion points you may have.

More links to support:

Soul - School of Ultimate Living - Create yourself through Words!
http://www.schoolofultimateliving.com/

Self Supportive Material -
http://www.Eqafe.com

Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course -
http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

Forum support:
http://forum.desteni.org

Desteni Wiki:
http://wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page

Eqafe Facebook Page:
https://www.facebook.com/Eqafe-359136...

7 year journey to life Facebook group:
https://www.facebook.com/groups/journ...

DIP Lite on Facebook:
https://www.facebook.com/DIPLit e

Monday, September 2, 2013

Communication - Why do I Suck at it? - Part 1 - Day 342

Here I am looking at the gift of being able to sound words and communicate with others that we as human beings have. Within myself I have always taken this action (as well as many other actions of the physical) for granted, like I have always assumed that it's always going to be here and I will always be able to use this as needed. Unfortunately, this is not the case, I could at some point lose this ability to speak, and so it's important that I use this gift to the best of my ability while I am able to.

Now with speaking I have found that throughout my life I have been a person who has not been vocal meaning I was quite shy and did not often share myself with others, I actually was quite physical, so I more enjoyed actually physically moving and expressing myself through movement rather then speaking to people. So I have developed a sense of imbalance within myself because I have not effectively allowed myself to develop the proper time and understanding on how to communicate with others as I more was introverted and figured things out on my own through learning through myself and learning as I go, not necessarily wanting or needing others to get involved.

So an obvious dimension within the above mentioned is fear, I have feared judgment from others and feared being seen or thought of in a bad way, and so I would shelter myself from this and not become vulnerable within opening up and so communicating with others. I also found only recently through applying the desteni tools of actually how we mirror ourselves within all the people we communicate with, and how in fact I was judging other people and creating limitations for me in my communication because in my head I was critiquing everyone else. This also was exemplified when I was teased in school by others and so I had many memories and such attached of abuse from others that I took personally, which eventually created a resistance to people all together. So within the next blogs, I want to break down this character of being shy, fearing people/communicating, judging others/myself when speaking, and forgive all the dimensions within that I am able to and give myself some practical self corrective direction. This to practice to become an effective communicator and simply communicate as an equal here as the physical instead of in the mind within all sorts of energies and thought processes that comes up now when I speak.

I have recently experienced this point of having to speak in a group, and I noticed when it was my turn to speak, I had a backchat thought within me that said 'I may screw up my words or get stuck' (fear), so here a fear of having a point where I am not clear in my words and so fear that point of awkwardness coming up within others, and so fearing what they think of me. When I am speaking, I find if there is a moment where I am uncertain or have any kind of doubt in what I am saying, immediately at this moment a rush of energy comes up moving very fast coming from my lower abdomen all the way up into my head, like shoots up, and it's a specific energy feeling, it makes me feel chocked, like my throat and chest is closing up. When I feel this energy, I immediately associate through thoughts and memories of me being a screw up and being inferior to others and so through this have easily in the past given into this energy of a 'failure' feeling energy, and then let it get to me, and then manifest my fears as making the conversation awkward and being uncomfortable.

Also, another point that I found that recently I noticed effects me is my face will turn red, and this is also part of the energy that shoots up from my abdomen and I will become very hot and my face will then burn and I think 'oh shit now my face is red and these people know I am uncomfortable'. So caring what the other thinks of me. I found it will turn red depending on how uncertain I am within what I am saying, so this a cool indicator I have found to show that I am not actually speaking words I have lived and can share through experience, but am speaking mind stuff through trying to prove something or hide something or telling knowledge and information that I know little about. And thus I have to practice walking the words I speak, living them, and so being authentic in myself and my words to thus become a living being that is authentic and true as self in what I speak and live.

So there is many different points within this point of me and communication, that I will be opening up, and re-defining myself within and as, and so give myself direction on how to practically live these words in my life through clearing them and redefining them in what they mean in physical reality and how I am going to live them. So more to come for sure. Thanks for reading.