Day 134 – Appearance Character – Fear Dimension Self Correction

 I commit myself to stop fear of survival and stop the desire to be the best in my appearance realizing this is based on self interest where I am trying to gain power over others, and not for what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop competition in appearance of self and so push myself to become more unconditional with others in understanding who they are and what they have been through, and let go of the idea that we have to compete to be somebody.

I commit myself to stop the competition of appearance and become more aware of who we are as physical beings, becoming more aware of my physical body, and so assist and support it rather then diminish it through desires to be the best.

I commit myself to stop the participation in thoughts and judgments about the appearance of myself and thus the appearance of others, and walk with others in the real issues that are relevant with helping change life from being about illusions of competition to living the best we can.

I commit myself to stop limiting myself based on accepting thoughts that there is a way to be the best, when I realize that the ‘best’ is not based on individual self interest to get ahead, but for all of this world, all life, and thus walk the solution as myself to live best for all life, by assisting life here to walk the implementation of an equal money system.

I commit myself to stop cycling within polarities of win/loss, and thus walk to practical solutions such as helping around the house, helping finish assignments, helping with projects, getting to know others that I react to and so I can walk the equality point within the physical, and stop existing within my head.

I commit myself to stop the thoughts, and thus the process of becoming abusive towards others, by walking the process of stopping comparisons between life through when a comparison pops up in my mind, speak ‘stop, delete’ and move my hands as I focus on the breath, to start to release and diminish the automatic reaction to go and participate in the thoughts.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to win and thus let go of all the material and system rewards one will attain for within self interest, such as fame, money, status, reward, and thus I commit to focus myself and all my resources to bringing about change in this world through and with the group supporting an equal money system.

I commit myself to stop fearing others, and thus stop taking things personally, where I walk the process to get to know myself and equalize myself by what’s here, to walk the living realization that all is me, and there is no need to go into a fear and creating an opinion about someone/something, as this is the mind, so stick with physical practical points with others, and if it turns abusive, stand up, practice getting comfortable with supporting myself with being directive and coming to solutions through common sense, using breathing and physical movements, to move through the thoughts and desires to react in these emotions.

I commit myself to face others and stop hiding through isolating myself.

I commit myself to stop the fear of change, and walk change in each moment, pushing this until it is a proven point within self trust, to thus show myself that I am more then the mind, and I can change to support all life.

I commit myself to stop fearing rejection from others, and thus investigate the points that I am reacting to in fear, so to see that part that I am not accepting of myself, and thus start to walk the process to equalize that point.

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Day 133 – Appearance Character – Thought Dimension

Looking here at the appearance character, and the thought dimension that activate and thus put me into character as this point of creating myself in such a way that I become possessed by the way I look and how others are seeing me.

The thoughts that activate this character are based on thoughts activating attention on my face, as it is not symmetrical, and thus not perfect, so the imperfection that are there, I have defined as less then other human beings because I have allowed this point of perfection to direct me in defining who I am and who others are to me. This is a point that is happening in my internal conversations and backchat, as it’s points that I would never tell anyone or allow anyone in on, as this I would see as a point of vulnerability, which was unacceptable to show as I was competing in thought because I was in compensation for the thoughts of inadequacy I was feeling based on the imperfection and not being able to match up in my appearance with others around me.

I realize though that I am the one who is creating this within myself, by allowing the thoughts of my face not being the perfect picture I have in my mind, realizing that this has been accentuated and really distorted over time in my head, where when I do not think, and just live, I am fine, I enjoy myself and I see myself as fine. So it’s the thinking that creates the anxiety and the judgment of myself and so towards others that creates the point of weakness within me where I will fall into suppression and limiting my self expression. The thought pattern is based on judging myself usually, and thus with those I see as more then me in their appearance, seeing this point of not being able to compete with them, and thus seeing myself as less then because of this.

This also is within the polarity where I will go into superiority of the same point, where I see that I am seeing myself as more then another based on the way our appearance look. This is initiated within the thoughts of particular points within the appearance look that I have determined as a ‘cool’ way to be, such as the clothes, shoes, hair, the whole look, so it’s like a scan that will happen and from the scan, I will make a general assessment of if I will be able to compete or not, if so, I will gain a high feeling. If I am not matched up, I will suppress myself and thus shut myself down, and if someone makes a comment towards me or I took a point as rude, I will further go into suppression and devolve into myself as a lowly fuck up.

So a key point of the thoughts within initiating the thinking of comparison and judgment of others and self will then bring me into the point of self victimization, where I find that I go into blame towards my body features, such as why do I have to be this way, why can’t I just be the way I like, and allow emotions of anger and irritation towards my physical because I am not happy with the way it is. This is absolute self abdication, as first I am allowing myself to be defined by the picture only of the physical and separate myself from what is here as life as the entirety of the the physical consist of within and as me and also within the world as a whole. Also, separating myself from my responsibility of what is here in terms of my physical body, I have created and thus manifested my body as is based on the way I live. Disease for instance is not created based on the body saying ‘hey man, I am going to fuck with myself here, and give myself a disease because I don’t like the being in this body.’ No, I am the being in the body as well as the physical that is manifested as the body as well as the mind that is infused and merged throughout the physical body, I am the one who is creating and directing the mind which is a parasitic entity within and as the physical as the physical body as myself, and thus through the thoughts, reactions, memories, personalities, that I am continually accepting over the years of the mind eating and storing itself in the physical itself, the disease and misalignments develops and accumulates, it’s a physical consequence that is created and manifested through my participation alone within the mind over time.

So the thoughts that I accept of blame and anger towards the physical body, is only pointing the finger at myself and showing that I am abdicating responsibility for my own self-creation as disease and misalignment in the body. I have to take responsibility for my thoughts, actions, memories, and all the other mind components, to align the physical body to perfection as I perfect my living equal and one to it, so the misalignment is showing me that I am not self perfected within my living and still allowing the mind to direct. For now, I have to walk my consequence and start accepting responsibility of myself for what is here, as a gift as the physical, which gives the path to birth life from it unconditionally even though it’s been abused by self for ages. Quite a point to consider for self, and stop the abuse of the physical for my own self abdication to living in the mind in illusion missing what is here in reality, life. 

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Day 132 – Appearance Character – Fear Dimension

Here looking at the fear dimension of the appearance character, where I go into fear based on not being accepted by others as I believe I have to be the ‘best’ within what I look like as my ‘appearance’ to be accepted by the this system, so it’s a form of survival based on defining myself and limiting myself really to the appearance of how I look. Within this fear, it is based on fear of being alone, not having resources to be able to move, and on a process level having to take responsibility of myself completely as I have allowed isolation as a way to escape to not have to face this accept of myself. So will walk some self forgiveness on these aspects of the fear dimension of keeping myself locked and limited into the appearance character as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a fear of not surviving due to my appearance picture not being accepted by others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my appearance character will not be able to compete with other’s so thus I will not be able to survive in this system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will not be able to compete in this system if I don’t have my appearance picture being able to compete and thus win against others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself based on survival and thus be directed by the mind as I instruct it to be defined by looks and looking the ‘best’ in picture as physical look, clothes, hair, make up, shoes, and thus define all other beings within these judgments of what is best, I separate myself from life as I have separated myself from myself through allowing the appearance of myself be more valued then life as me and all others around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a separation of myself as ‘I need to look best’ as the appearance character activate within and as me, and thus cause abuse within behavior and words as points such as jealousy and inferiority will activate as well as their polar opposites to thus separate me from life as what the characters of the mind where designed to do, because life is not valued based on what one look like or being the ‘best’ as this is not equality, life is equal and thus valued equal among all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my status as  the winner as within this there is the succulence of the mind energy that when one activate it, is quite addictive as the feelings of power, gaining system rewards such as fame, money, sex, and thus abdicate my right to life based on separating myself from life for these temptations that the system offer, but when one realize the limitations we have set upon ourselves, this process of self honesty and self forgiveness to change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into isolation as suppression within myself as I have created the fear of not being the best, and so thus created this as such an extreme within my emotions as feeling disappointed and jealous towards the other who I se as better then me, I will hide and not want to face myself with others, so to escape avoiding the thoughts in my head that I have allowed to direct me in thinking that life is about winning and to be the best in the appearance as self is the ultimate way to get the survival I fear losing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others who I see that are more then me as I have created a fear of abuse from them as I have held onto abuse from the past, and thus defined my future from my past, repeating the same patterns of fear and isolation to not have to face these fears and really change for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change in where I have to face the thoughts that I can’t do this and I can’t be that, and thus walk through them, and live a change that supports me and assist me to be comfortable with myself and come from a starting point of the physical here as breath, stopping the thoughts from directing me as this is the point that is separating me from life here as myself, and really enjoy living, so I see thinking is the activation point, and thus needs to cease to exist by me stopping it from directing me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear rejection from others and thus being alone and thus associated this rejection to my appearance, that if I am rejected or perceive that I was rejected that this is automatically based on me not looking ‘my best’ within my appearance and thus will go into the pattern of immediate self sabotage as I will go into thoughts of ‘I am ugly’, ‘I will never attain my desires’, which is self interest as I desire to be the best and gain the power of others attention on me.

Will do self corrective statements, and then follow with the next dimension of thoughts for the appearance character. 

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Day 131- Appearance Character – Intro

Here looking at the appearance character that exist within and as me, directing and defining every moment that I breath as I have for a very long time, always looked to define myself and life by this unseen force as one of my characters I play as the appearance character, and in this created many dimensions of mind fucks that I will be walking through within the next coming blogs.

So I find one of the primary trigger points for the activation of this character, as the appearance character, is thinking. When I actually go and start thinking about the way I look and how others are perceiving me, then the thoughts accumulate and accumulate, and I go into suppression and self judgment based on accepting this belief that I am this character that has definitions, ideas, beliefs, and desires on how it is I should look, and what will be the perfect look to strive for. This belief is based on childhood and growing up with the media, friends, family, schooling, pushing consciously, subconsciously, or unconsciously, that we all are in competition with each other because we are in survival mode here to live, we have to be the best to have access to resources, to get what we need to eat, to get a job to make money, to get the guy/girl, it’s the inherent game of the survival of the fittest battle. So from birth we are bred to compete, to be the conquer, to be the dominant one, to be the smartest, to be the prettiest, to be the richest, so we can win, and thus be able to live another day and survive in this world. We have created this world were we aren’t free here, but slaves to the system as we have accepted ourselves to play into this fame with each other, and with ourselves as well.

So within this understanding, we as the beings in this survival mentality, walk within ourselves the separation of ourselves as life as equals, and compete and fight to get on top, cause if your on top, you are more guaranteed to survive, but is this really living. Obviously not, that is what the process at desteni is about, to stop ourselves from living in such a way. We are not slaves, we are not designed to compete and have to battle to survive, we don’t have to live into the seperations and comparisions that create such a hellish experience within us and without as this world DEMONstrates, there is another way. Walking the process of self honesty and self forgiveness, to stop the competition programming and the desires to be more, and simply live in the physical, as the physical within a breath movement, and correct ourselves into equality and oneness. This is not an easy path, but it’s the only way to stop the insanity of this system and the insanity that I see within myself.

So within my own expericing of this point of competition where in I activate my appearance character, I find that it is the primary points I use to judge my ‘compeition’ and judge myself to see if I stand up to the competition. In most cases, I do not stand up, so I have created many points of suppressions in my expression, self sabotage within my interactions with others, based on judging myself within who I am, and it’s subtle sabotage, where in I will see myself in a mirror, and instantly judge my hair not being as I desired it to and have created a picture in my mind as how it should be. So creating many points of self judgement on points I am finding are really irrelevant, but is necessary to walk through and stop as I change my living to be in equality with others in the physical, and not in separation from the mind’s view. 

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Day 130 – Justification Character – Self Commitment Statements

Continuing with the Day 129- Justification Character –Self Manipulation points with some self commitment statements, to change this pattern to support self as life in equality.

I commit myself to stop all forms of thoughts that diminish me or another, and breath where I see that I go into the justifying thoughts to thus remain here and be able to move myself in equality in the physical.

I commit myself to walk this point of self diminishing thoughts, by stopping the participation in the thoughts, and walking the point I am fearing facing by allowing the justifying thoughts to direct me.

I commit myself to walk through fear in seeing and realizing the points that are triggering the fear, and through time practically walk the points out that I am fearing by facing the fear, and when it is of the mind to go into suppression, I move through it and interact with the beings or physical that I don’t want to face.

I commit myself to face my fears and walk the points out no matter how long it takes, fear is not real, thus it I realize I am able to transcend them, so I push myself to face them and walk point by point.

I commit myself to push myself to see where I justify myself in my mind to not have to face the fears, and thus go the easy way were I will suppress myself and pretend I am cool, when I realize that I am avoiding points based on deliberately accepting the fear as too much.

I commit myself to stop the thoughts that the fear is too much and I can’t do it, and investigate why I fear it, what is holding me back, what am I afraid to face, and thus walk the process to face these points.

I commit myself to stop the point of self interest where I want protection for me and be secure, when this is only looking out for me while life suffer as I am living into the mind and not pushing myself to face it and stop participating in it, which I realize is the only way to free the life being to really live, thus I commit myself to walk the path to freedom for all life by facing my self as my mind within the force of self interest.

I commit myself to stop and investigate all points of self interest so I can practice and perfect the living action of change to align with life in what is best for all, and stop the abuse of life by separating myself into my own self interested desires.

I commit to stop all experiences of desire and want for more, and thus push myself to walk the physical as breath within pushing myself to be here as the physical in my day to day living.

I commit myself to not accept self diminishment within myself and self compromise, where when I see I go into these points of blame and justification, I breath, move myself, and accomplish the task I set in front of me, stopping the resistances from directing me and making it practical within my living to support self. 

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