Am I a Caring Person? Sf and Scs – Day 381

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Am I a Caring Person? – Day 380

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a caring person and desire to be caring but within myself only really desire to get this from others, the care and love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a superficial way towards others in desiring care and love from them because within myself I see that I don’t deserve it or am able to give it to myself because I see myself as unworthy of real love and care which is self acceptance and self confidence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a point of seeing myself unworthy of care and love and so seek it from others where I don’t have to face the point within myself that I see myself as inadequate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed within myself to exist in a point of uncaring ways towards others in an attempt to make myself feel better or feel more empowered only to realize it only compromise who I can be in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek out others to ensure I have what I need instead of giving it to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a fear to be alone and not get care and love, and so I will create superficial relationships with others based on fear of being alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone instead of existing here within and as myself in realizing that I am always here and never in fact alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the physical experience of sadness exist within me as a depression heaviness if I am rejected or others don’t give me the care and love I desire and expect.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek revenge  from others if they don’t give me what I expect within the way they treat me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed desires of  feelings of goodness and care to exist within me as energy feelings rather then becoming real care within who I am being within my physical actions towards others.

When and as I see I am going into a point of existing for a feeling of being cared or loved, I stop and breath, and realize that I am compromising who I can be in the physical in my actions in self awareness but rather limit me to others and the desires for energy which never lasts.

I commit myself to move through the desires for feelings of energy to feel love and care.

I commit to physically move myself in my living to act in care and loving ways as I would like for myself in treating others as how I would like to be treated.

I commit to move through the desire to gain something from others instead of giving as how I would like to receive as physical participation with others in reality.

I commit to stop the fear of living and simply live here and direct myself into alignment with self perfection in my living.

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Am I a Caring Person? – Day 380

Tonight I listened to a Reptilian interview on this question and I found it quite eye opening because I always wanted to be caring, but it’s this point of am I truly a caring person, do I care for my fellow beings, or am I really only interested in my own mind? I would say on a superficial level I care about others because most of the time I am in such a state within my mind, thinking, fearing, paying attention to myself, others, and analyzing things, that for most of my day I am distracted and preoccupied and so can't spend the time necessary to really get involved with others and truly give my care absolute. I am not for real here most of the day, at times things will happen that bring me here like a person asking me a question or calling my name, but for most of my day I am in my head considering myself only. I am also cycling through another realted point where others care for me, they love me, and they provided me with happy things and support, and so I do the same for others. But within this is this really care, am I truly giving of myself unconditionally, free of motives and reactions to the people that I most care about ?

That I can say no, there is always a condition, a condition that I will get this care back, I will get the nice fuzzy good feelings just how I gave them out, so it’s never really about the other, but it’s about ensuring in the future I will have my security and feelings of goodness within the relationships I build with others. This because I am afraid to stand alone, stand on my own, and become free of energy, living from what is here, and directing what is here in full self trust and awareness, which is where the true freedom is and where true care can exist within that is not based on conditions. So care for another has only existed within a point of self interest for me, not based on a giving of myself to another part of myself in the best interest of the well being and standing with them into eternity, but given within fear to not lose my security and my feelings of happiness and positivity and so I can be protected.

Limiting myself from moving beyond the boundaries of fear, of conditions of living that create conflict and separation, and not living in the expression of myself in each moment irrespective of fearing what will happen or what people will thing, just existing here and directing within the common sense of what is here in each moment that is my care for myself and others. This is the living I would like to exist within and the care I would like to give, beyond the mind, beyond conditions, but here in the moment of expression, direct, specific, and immediate in what is best for the other as how I would treat and care for myself.

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Constant States of Belief is Not Life - Day 352

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Existing within a Constant Belief – Why? – Day 351

Living in a constant belief about myself that I am inferior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a belief which is something not based on facts determine who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to engage in my mind as creating who I am through imaginations that are based in polarities of 'if this then that' scenarios, where in fact what is relevant is the reality in how and from which I am living in and supporting myself and what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus through these beliefs I hold of myself as less then others will create an energy of fear as it get's activated through the mind and effects the body in which I will react through anxiety and tension when I am in the presences of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear and anxiety to others based on believing that the energy I am feeling that is creating tension in my body is real and who I am, when I realize that it is being activated through the mind as thoughts that I am participating within such as 'I am so ugly today' or 'man, I am such an idiot for saying that', thus giving the permission or instruction of the mind which has pre-programmed these thoughts to come through and because I have accepted these thoughts as myself by participating in them, I have made them real and thus made the energy activation that is triggered like a machine mechanism through the thought in the system that is the mind, it activates the fear and anxiety energy which I believe is who I am, but it's not who I am, it's actually just different frequencies of energy and energy is not life as it dies or ends.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that energy as fear and anxiety and thoughts such as 'i am so ugly' and 'i am such an idiot for saying that' is who I am, as I realize that I am not defined in a moment of a spoken word or an image in the mirror or the frequency of energy, but am always here within my physical body always existing and thus can not be defined nor limited within these conditions as this is not what life is and because the physical is life as it is where I exist, I realize the physical is the trustworthy point and the mind is the illusion as thoughts, emotions, feelings, and imaginations and so is not trustworthy as it's not fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question these beliefs about myself or thoughts or ideas about myself that come up in my mind, when in reality this is not the case in many cases, that I am not limited to just one definition, but I am everything that exists, and so I realize what determines who I am is how I live my life not what I think in my mind or believe to be true, it is what in fact is true, what in fact I do in my life breath by breath, day after day, what will matter is my accumulation of my living word and action.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within beliefs, ideas, imaginations, and thoughts about myself or about others in this world based on the feelings I get for a moment of rushes and highs and ego boosts, but realizing that these are just a moment and they end, and if I really have a look at what these energies are doing to my physical body, it is quite painful and achy and feeling quite unnatural.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within my mind and not consider my physical body and what it is going through as energies that I am existing within and what these energies are actually doing to the physical body as pains and discomforts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe beliefs, ideas, thoughts, and emotions/feelings within my mind and thus activate it as permission given into my physical body and physical reality and have not stood up and said stop, no more for most of my existence.

When and as I go into a point of belief or idea or imagination about what is here, I stop and breath, and realize that this is the mind taking over and me allowing it, and so I realize I become powerless within this action as my living because I have given my power away to the mind by believing what it is telling me is real, when what is real is reality, life here as my physical body and through my physical word and action, and how I live my life in support of what is best for all.

I commit myself to slow down and get into the physical body through breathing and self awareness and support it in the best way as I would want for myself in common sense.

I commit myself to let go of all beliefs of myself and walk facts, reality, and what is best for all.

I commit myself to identify my self beliefs, and walk the correction through self forgiveness and living the correction.

I commit myself to let go of the desire for energy to feel good as it also creates the opposite and so I am not here but in energy games through the mind.

I commit to accept myself and accept all that is here as me and correct that which is not aligned with reality as facts and living for what is best for all.

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Existing within a Constant Belief – Why? – Day 351

Here, I would like to open up the point of being possessed about a belief that I have had within myself of being inferior to others due to the way I look for many, many years now. This belief being validated over and over again by my continuing it in my thoughts, words, and actions, but in reality this belief is not real because all life is in it's essence equal. Why is all life equal in fact, in it's essence, because we are all physical and the physical reality is what gives us life. Now, this belief, that I am inferior, really started to effect me during middle school where I started to desire to be 'pretty' because I saw how now I like boys, and my friends where talking about boys, so there was this awareness and competition starting to develop among the girls towards the guys in my grade.

Before middle school, in elementary and even younger, there was a form of freedom within my expression, I was not aware or considered the point beauty or wanting to look a certain way, I never really considered myself through others peoples eyes either in terms of being beautiful or ugly as the polarity play’s out within this pattern of the beauty system. I was quite wild actually as a child, often wanting to be like the boys in my neighborhood with my shirt off, short hair, climbing trees, playing in the dirt, and just wanting to enjoy myself.

But once I become more aware of myself and others in relation to the relationship between money, popularity, looks, skills, and the underlying competition brewing within me towards other females, I can see now how the human being starts to devolve from this innocence’s as a child, care-free, self accepting, and open to an adult who judges, fears, and becomes quite ruthless through competitive behaviors to survive. So I would say was more of an easy target for the stronger kids around me because I was more shy and reserved, and when I was picked on, I didn't fight back. I found that once you allow someone to abuse you and you don’t take responsibility to stand up and defend yourself, and say ‘No, I don’t allow you to abuse me' and thus stop the abuse through common sense, you are in a way accepting and thus allowing the abuse, and so it’s like an invite for those prone to abuse, to thus abuse.

The abusers as well, they are also being ‘abused’ in a way because they are having no resistance to realizing what they are doing and the effect they are having on others, and so they are just doing what they ‘where taught’ or ‘know how to do’ or 'observed' and so following their minds completely, being lost within ego or superiority, not seeing the harm in reality that they are in fact doing. If you have a look at how your mind thinks, it's based on imaginations, future or past events, and so when in reality, we are never really here, but in our minds in someplace existing within whatever preferenced way of living the person is believing themselves to exist as, and for me it was a belief that I am just not as good as some people. 

This pattern of allowing abuse and so being abused, created this belief and so it was actually over and over again within my mind and within the way I lived was being validated that I am weak, I am inferior, I am less then others, I am these things that these kids are saying to me, but in reality none of these things are actually true. I am just ‘BELIEVING’ them to be true, and have a look, a belief is not in fact true because it’s not based on actual facts, it’s based on the perception of your interpretation of the facts that you are viewing and computing through your mind because you are not directing each and every thought in full awareness, but allowing things that pop up into the mind such as a picture or a memory or an thought as real when it's the mind actually creating it in that moment, and if we are not actually creating these mind components in awareness, how can we trust what is going through our mind and follow it so absolutely? 

So an important thing that I have noticed is to work with reality and reality can be assessed through seeing things physically, direct, and practically, you can look at words, and find the direct purposes of individual words, and so we can come to universal agreements on the meaning of words that is clear, understood, and practically direct to the physical purpose of what the word represents in reality. So this is a cool and interesting process to start to walk, seeing directly physically, what words actually mean in direct reality through practical assessment bypassing the mind interpretation, and the tools to support with this is found at DIP Lite.

Existing in this constant belief that I am less then others has created me to compromise my effectiveness in reality to be direct, to live practical, and to live in common sense because I am more in my mind then actually here in physical reality, and it's kind of strange to see it this way because we are in fact here. But if you start to become more aware of your thoughts, your emotions, the images in your mind, and how we follow them without question even in the face of abuse or suffering to another in reality, we still will follow it. I have started my process to live direct, to live physical as this blog shows, and you can to by investigate the links below to see how you really are and the potential that exist with human beings living in reality, direct, and in common sense.

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Day 250 – The Vengeful Character – Ownership – Self Corrections to Live

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Day 247 - The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Forgiveness
Day 248 – The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Commitments to Live
Day 249 – The Vengeful Character – Ownership

When and as I go into a possession point with stuff that is currently mine and become reactive if another takes or uses my things, I stop and breath, and realize that what I have or is mine is not only mine, but is something I am using within moments in my living, when I am not using them or another would like to use them, I can share this and thus if someone takes, then direct the person to ask first to make sure it is not already being used.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to possess my things and thus stop myself from going into reaction if another takes something that I am using.

I commit myself to not accept reactions within anger and irritation towards others if they happen to take something that is mine, and find out the why they took it and direct them into a solution that will work for both after I have stopped my reaction through breath I engage.

I commit myself to stop desiring to own my stuff and thus not allow others to use it without a reaction, so I commit to share my stuff when I am not using it or another requires it in all instances.

I commit to work out directions beforehand so the consequences are understood and thus live up to them as well.

When and as I go into a back chat thought when I find that another took my things without asking permission of ‘their so inconsiderate and rude’, I stop and breath, and realize that this is purely a point of blame to not have to face my responsibility of sharing my things and allowing others to freely use it without fear.

I commit myself to when this backchat thought comes up, stop it through breathing, and go to the person and find out what happen, and work out a point of solution or speak common sense so they understand the consequences of what they did and how to best go about getting things from me in the future so the point is cleared.

I commit myself to let go of fear within losing this item and give the item to those that need to use it and if something breaks, then find a solution and direct it with common sense such as have the other replace it or make a plan with the other who broke it to get another one, or let it go.

When and as I go into assumption and anger based on another taking my things and becoming spiteful towards them due to accepting this fear of loss of money that was spent, I stop and breath, and realize the item has equal value with the life I communicating with, and thus I realize I must stop money from dictating how I will react and thus live from a point of equality in hearing all sides and coming to a decision in stability within myself with and towards others.

I commit to let go of the fear of losing an object that is worth a lot of money, by realizing these things happen and either replacing it or buy something that is not so expensive.

I commit to use common sense within what I buy and not buy things based on the money worth of it, but practical reasons.

I commit to stop abusing others based on my fears of lose if they take or break something that was mine, I commit to to stop my fear of lose by thus giving as i would like to receive.

When and as I find that I am going into a possession within a feeling experience with an object and make it more valuable and important then the physical reality here I am living in, I stop and breath, and give up the item for a length of time and write about the point of why I am becoming so addicted to it, what am I not giving myself that I am getting within becoming obsessed with this item, and correct the point to align with life for real in the physical.

I commit myself to let go of the feeling of excitement and goodness when I am using an item I possess and enjoy through letting it go for a while until I am no more moved by feelings of possession.

I commit to walk the usage of the object based on it’s practical function, and not participate in energy experiences towards it through breathing,

I commit to stop defining myself by what I have and start living who I am here, seeing all here as extensions of myself and living among them in the best way possible, creating myself into the optimum I can be by using these objects as what they were designed for rather then using them to feel good and sharing with life as I would want for myself.

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Day 249 – The Vengeful Character – Ownership

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Day 248 – The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Commitments to Live

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I bought or was given by another is mine, and no other person has the right to touch it, take it, use it, or have it without my permission.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take it personal when someone takes what is mine in ownership of something I bought or was given to me without my permission, and accept emotions of anger and annoyance for them just taking without asking me first.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume that those who take my stuff without permission are doing it to be spiteful as I accept the backchat thought of ‘they are so inconsiderate and rude’ and then from this thought react in anger towards them and live this out by becoming short and harsh with them without giving them a chance to explain the facts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I have in my possession is mine not realizing that this ownership is also giving the object or possession ownership of me, where I have defined myself as ok or not if I have the possession or not, and thus am moved by the absence of this object and becoming emotional about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become emotional attached to an object within a point of fear of loss because I have defined myself in and through a feeling experience of completeness when having it, and thus when it is gone am not stable within myself and react in energy outburst because I believe I will not get it back.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put more value on objects that I have paid for or been given based on the money that was spent over the life that it is I am harming and becoming angry towards them based on believing I have lost something that is more valuable then the value of the life that I am abusing without even hereing the facts of the other persons side of the story.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place more value and care on my possessions based on making money more valuable then life within this example here that I abuse those when I think I am being put at a lose rather then being equal with them and giving them equal value as life as myself and allowing them to speak and share there story, and not judging them and becoming emotional for what they say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek revenge on another for taking my possessions based on accepting the backchat thought that they are inconsiderate and rude and then allow the anger to accumulate in my mind without me directing the point with the other, but become vengeful and nasty to them without any chance of reconciliation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make money more valuable then life itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with what is in my possession based on becoming addicted to the feeling experiences I get from them as completion for a moment and thus missing the reality that I am living within and harming as I am being blinded by these feelings and following my experiences of fear of lose rather then life here in reality in equal value among all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss reality due to being addicted to feelings and then becoming addicted to objects based on attaching these feelings to the object that has triggered these fears of lose when someone takes the object without asking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept these nice feelings to direct me when having something I like and overtake me into a possession of becoming vengeful to others if I lose this feeling and they were the reason for that, being in blame rather then bringing it back to myself and seeing where I missed or jumped to conclusions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with objects as more or less then other life rather then seeing all here in equality and give as how I would like to receive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my objects that are here in my world personal and believe these objects define me and how I will live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be define by external things rather then seeing all as an extension of myself and living from a point of giving rather then taking from others, were the giving will result in me always getting as well as you receive what you give eventually.

I forgive myself that I have accepted a need and desire for things in my world to define me through the feelings they give me as excitement and entertainment rather then defining myself by what is real through the way I live and treat others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take others actions personal and blame them for my own abdication in not sticking to breath and going about in equality and common sense the reasons for what occurred and coming to solutions that will be best for all.

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Day 248 – The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Commitments to Live

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Day 247 - The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Forgiveness

When and as I go into a desire or a need of something within my external world through my mind, I stop and breath, and realize that this need or desire is there based on something within myself that I am not giving to myself or accepting about myself, and so within this I am seeking outside myself what I realize is already here within me, I just have to accept it as me and correct it into equality and oneness with life.

I commit myself to investigate this desire and/or need that arise within me to go and search for something outside myself, and find the origin to what it is I am searching for and why through my own self investigation so I can give it back to myself and stand as it to correct it into alignment with what is best for all and essentially what is best for me as all through me living this change in my self realizations in these points through writing and corrective change.

I commit myself to walk the necessary process it will take to let go of all desires and needs outside myself and live within and as my own self direction giving to myself what I desire or need within a practical sense, and investigating and correcting everything that comes from an energy movement.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to not want to see myself and what it is I don’t want to accept by breathing through this and embracing all of myself in the realization that this is needed for real change, all is here in equality and thus I am all that is here, so there is no need for any energy, but only understanding of myself in what is here in the moment and walking the corrections in the moments to come until I have corrected this point and I stable in not being directed by desires.

When and as I go into a possession of fear of loss or lack within me, I stop and breath, and I realize this is purely a mind possession as I am not taking responsibility for what it is that is creating this fear. I realize that I am creating everything that is going on within my world and my mind, and thus I am denying this point of myself in something that is not real as fear and so I realize I have to let go of the fear to therefore be able to investigate it and see it as myself in all it's facets and dimensions to a correction within a stability as myself is reached.

I commit myself to stop what I am doing within a possession of the mind in fear of loss or lack and cross reference with another what I am seeing/doing to get support.

I commit myself to let go of my desires for a certain outcome and thus create a fear that this will not pan out by embracing what is here and working with what is here in each moment rather then resisting it and going into fear as restriction.

I commit myself to embrace what is here as myself and find ways to solution with what it is I am facing through becoming self honest, open, and vulnerable with others, and using common sense to sort things out rather then go into a point of competition mentality and restriction in mind creations of taking tings personal.

When and as I see I am going into a point of desire to take from others what I believe I have lost or was taken from me, I stop and breath, and realize that if anything has gone missing or taken by another, it is not to go into a state of reaction in emotion and create an abuse towards this person in a form of revenge, but breath and let it go, look at the point in common sense and practical terms and direct it into a solution that is stable and able to be looked at by both parties equally in communication and understanding walking the talk of putting myself in the others shoes as I would want for myself.

I commit myself to not take personal anything that was taken or goes missing in my world realizing that I am not defined by these items and that if and as a solution open up, I must direct myself within it free of energy but in stability as a communication with the other considering them as equal and walking to an understanding in an agreement, if not able to in this moment, let it go and walk common sense to see a solution in replacing it or finding other means of getting it again if really necessary.

I commit to walk in stability with another as my equal as I am seeing this as a point of misunderstanding that needs feedback and solution through common sense and consideration in communication, letting go of the desire to abuse this through letting go of the personal attachment to what it is that is now not with me.

I commit to stop the desire to get even as I see this cause abuse and that the other is myself in a different moment in their living where they have not yet realized the point of give as you would like to receive.

I commit to give to all what I would like to receive until all here have what is necessary to live and all share what is necessary for enjoyment and thus all benefit equally in a stable and peaceful environment as what I am currently creating within self as this is what is best for all and will be best for me.

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Day 247 – The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Forgiveness

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Day 245- I am An Addict - Opening Up More on Vengefulness

Day 246 –The Family Unit and the Vengeful Character


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a need and desire for something/someone outside of myself and a belief of need of possession and ownership of that something or someone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see lack within me where I created this need and desire for fulfillment within myself of gaining back what I don’t think I have within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe who I am is lacking in anyway whatsoever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others in where I have created this belief that I lack and thus require to attain from another this lack that needs now fulfillment within self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that to fulfill myself I have to attain all the beliefs within my mind that I think I lack such as something or someone in my world that is now gone or been taken away.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself then to create a belief that through this lack I ammissing something and thus create an idea that someone else has what I need.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then create the desire to take from others what is I have now believed is mine and they have with no care of the what the truth is just a fulfillment of my need to have this lack now filled within me with what it is I think am not getting from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create anger towards others if I am not given what it is I believe is mine upon request.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into ego in taking it personally that what is not given to me by another that I feel is mine is done by insult.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take others act of not giving in to me personal and not realize that they are just reflecting me back to myself in showing who I am being within this idea that I/We lack and we need things from external forces (this excluding the physical needs required to live in this world like air, food, water, ect.)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then abuse the other within thought, word, and/or deed, and create a consequence within the other’s life as well as my life that is harmful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed abuse onto others for my idea that what’s mine is mine and that those who what give me what I want/believe I lack is a personal attack on me and thus I must fight back to get what I believe I must get and need to live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others taking things from me as a personal attack onto myself and thus I must defend myself and my stuff.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when taken things personal and go into defensive mode, go into a form of hardening within myself where I will not consider the other in anyway whats so ever but only look at making myself right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire my own self righteousness over the care and honor of all life that I am interacting with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the other or others as seeing from their shoes so to speak, and thus only defend my own self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose the mind as ego in self interest over the life of others here and the abuse I am causing onto others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed taking things personal instead of seeing what is here and creating solutions where all benefit using the equality equation 1+1=2.

Self Commitments to follow.

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Day 246 –The Family Unit and the Vengeful Character

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Looking here at my family unit and how much we are imbedded with this desire to have some sort of family unit around us for protection, care, and attention, but within this what is not realized and what is not ever spoken about is the separation of life and fear that really exist in what we know today as the family unit.

I myself within looking at this vengeful character can see how I change myself and become this person suited up in this energy of vengefulness towards others when myself or anyone I care about is threatened. I will immediately go and change to this person of anger, forcefulness, and seeking payback for or if any harm was done to anyone close to me, but within this what is this perpetuating in my life and this world at large. Is fear and separation among us, fear of those who are not in our famiLies, fear of the unknown, fear of what will happen if one is alone, and there is a divide among not only our borders, religions, ethnicities, cultures, but also our very communities, our land, our streets even where we live separated into little boxes with a certain few that we can supposedly trust that reside within closed off from the outside world and protected as a unit.

And with this trust we rely on within our families is also a fear as well in losing that apparent trust and companionship we have with those in our famiLies, when I allow myself to fear this lose of trust and companionship through others who are not part of my family, I activate vengefulness and will when uncontrolled say and do anything to get this trust protected and me feeling safe again. This is unfortunate as it doesn’t have to be this way, we are not separate from each other, we are all one family here as life in equal value here among all. I will start the self forgiveness process in the next blogs.

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