Self Forgiveness (Day 4): The Elixir of the Mind/Separation - Day 582

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Here I am looking at the desires that come up within me during my day, there is always something looming within, like a thirst that can not be quenched, a movement that I am reaching for, but is just out of my reach, a churning in the pit of my stomach for a taste of this sweet sweet nectar of getting my desires fulfilled, and if it does not, I go into a state of conflict.

There is a fine line between expressing within words and living words that are here within specific indulgences I have for a long time had an addiction in, the words I live must be specific so I give myself the solid foundation I will need to be able to walk the path of self-honesty, and transcendence to be able to indeed direct myself and not have the mind as thoughts, feelings, and emotions direct me. I have walked this path many times from addiction to self-direction, though it always seems to continue to challenge me, going deeper into the addiction patterns, investigating who I am within it and how I will walk in honor of who I am as life and all life here. And man when the mind as self as the addiction of desire wants something, it almost becomes too overwhelming where one just completely go into it and give in and indulge.

Self Forgiveness on Indulgence and giving into desire:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to give in to my indulgences in such a way where i do it in a possession of believing that if i don't fulfill this desire i will collapse and become miserable and irritable, and so i must just get it because this is my savior.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that within what i do and who i am that i must be getting access to the things i want and cause me to pain if i don't have them such as the pain of desiring something and not getting it, and through this i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without the thing that i desire and cause suffering in the moment, if i don't get it i will be lost and suffer much.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe without fulfilling the desire that i am wanting that i will die and not be able to go on in my life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without giving myself pleasure within fulfilling the desire within me as the mind's quest for release within the energy that accumulates once the desire is fulfilled to make my god and so follow it as my savior in this life instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding i am doing harm to myself and my body as i am not in full consideration of all, but only seeking the high of the desire fulfilled which is the drug of the mind that i feed.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without the fulfillment of the desire that i won't have a good life and it will be filled with missed experiences.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in desires themselves and so become only interested in fulfilling my desire and thus becoming ignorant to my self responsibility to all life to do what is best as i would like for me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become selfish within my pursuits of my life in search of what is best for me, what makes me feel good, what gives me pleasure, while all the while ignoring how and who i am effecting within what i am doing in each moment i am here.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into thoughts and emotions and feelings when the desire constructs come up instead of moving into breath and living who i am as principles in what is best for all.

I commit myself to walk the path of breath, letting go of all desires and urges for self fulfillment in self interest through breathing and grounding myself as the energy with the earth in realizing that i exist within all and thus i am able to direct myself in what is best at all times.

I commit myself to consider my body equal and one within what i decide to live and express in and see where my body stands within what i do and why i do it, getting to know the body as me and waking up to the path that considers both self and the body and doing what is best for all.

I commit myself to release my desire flow of energy release through breath and in the moment direct myself to consider and so live what is best for all here, day by day, breath by breath.

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Day 249 – The Vengeful Character – Ownership

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For Further Perspective on the Vengeful Character, check out these Blogs:
Day 244 - How is Vengefulness Created within me? –Vengeful Character
Day 245 - I am An Addict - Opening Up More on Vengefulness
Day 246 - The Family Unit and the Vengeful Character
Day 247 - The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Forgiveness
Day 248 – The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Commitments to Live

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I bought or was given by another is mine, and no other person has the right to touch it, take it, use it, or have it without my permission.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take it personal when someone takes what is mine in ownership of something I bought or was given to me without my permission, and accept emotions of anger and annoyance for them just taking without asking me first.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume that those who take my stuff without permission are doing it to be spiteful as I accept the backchat thought of ‘they are so inconsiderate and rude’ and then from this thought react in anger towards them and live this out by becoming short and harsh with them without giving them a chance to explain the facts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I have in my possession is mine not realizing that this ownership is also giving the object or possession ownership of me, where I have defined myself as ok or not if I have the possession or not, and thus am moved by the absence of this object and becoming emotional about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become emotional attached to an object within a point of fear of loss because I have defined myself in and through a feeling experience of completeness when having it, and thus when it is gone am not stable within myself and react in energy outburst because I believe I will not get it back.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put more value on objects that I have paid for or been given based on the money that was spent over the life that it is I am harming and becoming angry towards them based on believing I have lost something that is more valuable then the value of the life that I am abusing without even hereing the facts of the other persons side of the story.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place more value and care on my possessions based on making money more valuable then life within this example here that I abuse those when I think I am being put at a lose rather then being equal with them and giving them equal value as life as myself and allowing them to speak and share there story, and not judging them and becoming emotional for what they say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek revenge on another for taking my possessions based on accepting the backchat thought that they are inconsiderate and rude and then allow the anger to accumulate in my mind without me directing the point with the other, but become vengeful and nasty to them without any chance of reconciliation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make money more valuable then life itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with what is in my possession based on becoming addicted to the feeling experiences I get from them as completion for a moment and thus missing the reality that I am living within and harming as I am being blinded by these feelings and following my experiences of fear of lose rather then life here in reality in equal value among all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss reality due to being addicted to feelings and then becoming addicted to objects based on attaching these feelings to the object that has triggered these fears of lose when someone takes the object without asking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept these nice feelings to direct me when having something I like and overtake me into a possession of becoming vengeful to others if I lose this feeling and they were the reason for that, being in blame rather then bringing it back to myself and seeing where I missed or jumped to conclusions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with objects as more or less then other life rather then seeing all here in equality and give as how I would like to receive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my objects that are here in my world personal and believe these objects define me and how I will live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be define by external things rather then seeing all as an extension of myself and living from a point of giving rather then taking from others, were the giving will result in me always getting as well as you receive what you give eventually.

I forgive myself that I have accepted a need and desire for things in my world to define me through the feelings they give me as excitement and entertainment rather then defining myself by what is real through the way I live and treat others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take others actions personal and blame them for my own abdication in not sticking to breath and going about in equality and common sense the reasons for what occurred and coming to solutions that will be best for all.

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Day 248 – The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Commitments to Live

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Day 245 - I am An Addict - Opening Up More on Vengefulness
Day 246 - The Family Unit and the Vengeful Character
Day 247 - The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Forgiveness

When and as I go into a desire or a need of something within my external world through my mind, I stop and breath, and realize that this need or desire is there based on something within myself that I am not giving to myself or accepting about myself, and so within this I am seeking outside myself what I realize is already here within me, I just have to accept it as me and correct it into equality and oneness with life.

I commit myself to investigate this desire and/or need that arise within me to go and search for something outside myself, and find the origin to what it is I am searching for and why through my own self investigation so I can give it back to myself and stand as it to correct it into alignment with what is best for all and essentially what is best for me as all through me living this change in my self realizations in these points through writing and corrective change.

I commit myself to walk the necessary process it will take to let go of all desires and needs outside myself and live within and as my own self direction giving to myself what I desire or need within a practical sense, and investigating and correcting everything that comes from an energy movement.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to not want to see myself and what it is I don’t want to accept by breathing through this and embracing all of myself in the realization that this is needed for real change, all is here in equality and thus I am all that is here, so there is no need for any energy, but only understanding of myself in what is here in the moment and walking the corrections in the moments to come until I have corrected this point and I stable in not being directed by desires.

When and as I go into a possession of fear of loss or lack within me, I stop and breath, and I realize this is purely a mind possession as I am not taking responsibility for what it is that is creating this fear. I realize that I am creating everything that is going on within my world and my mind, and thus I am denying this point of myself in something that is not real as fear and so I realize I have to let go of the fear to therefore be able to investigate it and see it as myself in all it's facets and dimensions to a correction within a stability as myself is reached.

I commit myself to stop what I am doing within a possession of the mind in fear of loss or lack and cross reference with another what I am seeing/doing to get support.

I commit myself to let go of my desires for a certain outcome and thus create a fear that this will not pan out by embracing what is here and working with what is here in each moment rather then resisting it and going into fear as restriction.

I commit myself to embrace what is here as myself and find ways to solution with what it is I am facing through becoming self honest, open, and vulnerable with others, and using common sense to sort things out rather then go into a point of competition mentality and restriction in mind creations of taking tings personal.

When and as I see I am going into a point of desire to take from others what I believe I have lost or was taken from me, I stop and breath, and realize that if anything has gone missing or taken by another, it is not to go into a state of reaction in emotion and create an abuse towards this person in a form of revenge, but breath and let it go, look at the point in common sense and practical terms and direct it into a solution that is stable and able to be looked at by both parties equally in communication and understanding walking the talk of putting myself in the others shoes as I would want for myself.

I commit myself to not take personal anything that was taken or goes missing in my world realizing that I am not defined by these items and that if and as a solution open up, I must direct myself within it free of energy but in stability as a communication with the other considering them as equal and walking to an understanding in an agreement, if not able to in this moment, let it go and walk common sense to see a solution in replacing it or finding other means of getting it again if really necessary.

I commit to walk in stability with another as my equal as I am seeing this as a point of misunderstanding that needs feedback and solution through common sense and consideration in communication, letting go of the desire to abuse this through letting go of the personal attachment to what it is that is now not with me.

I commit to stop the desire to get even as I see this cause abuse and that the other is myself in a different moment in their living where they have not yet realized the point of give as you would like to receive.

I commit to give to all what I would like to receive until all here have what is necessary to live and all share what is necessary for enjoyment and thus all benefit equally in a stable and peaceful environment as what I am currently creating within self as this is what is best for all and will be best for me.

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Day 247 – The Vengeful Character – “Believing I Require Possessing” Self Forgiveness

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For Further Persepctive on the Vengeful Character, check out these Blogs:
Day 244 – How is Vengefulness Created within me? –Vengeful Character
Day 245- I am An Addict - Opening Up More on Vengefulness

Day 246 –The Family Unit and the Vengeful Character


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a need and desire for something/someone outside of myself and a belief of need of possession and ownership of that something or someone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see lack within me where I created this need and desire for fulfillment within myself of gaining back what I don’t think I have within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe who I am is lacking in anyway whatsoever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others in where I have created this belief that I lack and thus require to attain from another this lack that needs now fulfillment within self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that to fulfill myself I have to attain all the beliefs within my mind that I think I lack such as something or someone in my world that is now gone or been taken away.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself then to create a belief that through this lack I ammissing something and thus create an idea that someone else has what I need.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then create the desire to take from others what is I have now believed is mine and they have with no care of the what the truth is just a fulfillment of my need to have this lack now filled within me with what it is I think am not getting from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create anger towards others if I am not given what it is I believe is mine upon request.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into ego in taking it personally that what is not given to me by another that I feel is mine is done by insult.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take others act of not giving in to me personal and not realize that they are just reflecting me back to myself in showing who I am being within this idea that I/We lack and we need things from external forces (this excluding the physical needs required to live in this world like air, food, water, ect.)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then abuse the other within thought, word, and/or deed, and create a consequence within the other’s life as well as my life that is harmful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed abuse onto others for my idea that what’s mine is mine and that those who what give me what I want/believe I lack is a personal attack on me and thus I must fight back to get what I believe I must get and need to live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others taking things from me as a personal attack onto myself and thus I must defend myself and my stuff.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when taken things personal and go into defensive mode, go into a form of hardening within myself where I will not consider the other in anyway whats so ever but only look at making myself right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire my own self righteousness over the care and honor of all life that I am interacting with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the other or others as seeing from their shoes so to speak, and thus only defend my own self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose the mind as ego in self interest over the life of others here and the abuse I am causing onto others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed taking things personal instead of seeing what is here and creating solutions where all benefit using the equality equation 1+1=2.

Self Commitments to follow.

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