Am I a Caring Person? Sf and Scs – Day 381

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Am I a Caring Person? – Day 380

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a caring person and desire to be caring but within myself only really desire to get this from others, the care and love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a superficial way towards others in desiring care and love from them because within myself I see that I don’t deserve it or am able to give it to myself because I see myself as unworthy of real love and care which is self acceptance and self confidence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a point of seeing myself unworthy of care and love and so seek it from others where I don’t have to face the point within myself that I see myself as inadequate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed within myself to exist in a point of uncaring ways towards others in an attempt to make myself feel better or feel more empowered only to realize it only compromise who I can be in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek out others to ensure I have what I need instead of giving it to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a fear to be alone and not get care and love, and so I will create superficial relationships with others based on fear of being alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone instead of existing here within and as myself in realizing that I am always here and never in fact alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the physical experience of sadness exist within me as a depression heaviness if I am rejected or others don’t give me the care and love I desire and expect.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek revenge  from others if they don’t give me what I expect within the way they treat me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed desires of  feelings of goodness and care to exist within me as energy feelings rather then becoming real care within who I am being within my physical actions towards others.

When and as I see I am going into a point of existing for a feeling of being cared or loved, I stop and breath, and realize that I am compromising who I can be in the physical in my actions in self awareness but rather limit me to others and the desires for energy which never lasts.

I commit myself to move through the desires for feelings of energy to feel love and care.

I commit to physically move myself in my living to act in care and loving ways as I would like for myself in treating others as how I would like to be treated.

I commit to move through the desire to gain something from others instead of giving as how I would like to receive as physical participation with others in reality.

I commit to stop the fear of living and simply live here and direct myself into alignment with self perfection in my living.

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Am I a Caring Person? – Day 380

Tonight I listened to a Reptilian interview on this question and I found it quite eye opening because I always wanted to be caring, but it’s this point of am I truly a caring person, do I care for my fellow beings, or am I really only interested in my own mind? I would say on a superficial level I care about others because most of the time I am in such a state within my mind, thinking, fearing, paying attention to myself, others, and analyzing things, that for most of my day I am distracted and preoccupied and so can't spend the time necessary to really get involved with others and truly give my care absolute. I am not for real here most of the day, at times things will happen that bring me here like a person asking me a question or calling my name, but for most of my day I am in my head considering myself only. I am also cycling through another realted point where others care for me, they love me, and they provided me with happy things and support, and so I do the same for others. But within this is this really care, am I truly giving of myself unconditionally, free of motives and reactions to the people that I most care about ?

That I can say no, there is always a condition, a condition that I will get this care back, I will get the nice fuzzy good feelings just how I gave them out, so it’s never really about the other, but it’s about ensuring in the future I will have my security and feelings of goodness within the relationships I build with others. This because I am afraid to stand alone, stand on my own, and become free of energy, living from what is here, and directing what is here in full self trust and awareness, which is where the true freedom is and where true care can exist within that is not based on conditions. So care for another has only existed within a point of self interest for me, not based on a giving of myself to another part of myself in the best interest of the well being and standing with them into eternity, but given within fear to not lose my security and my feelings of happiness and positivity and so I can be protected.

Limiting myself from moving beyond the boundaries of fear, of conditions of living that create conflict and separation, and not living in the expression of myself in each moment irrespective of fearing what will happen or what people will thing, just existing here and directing within the common sense of what is here in each moment that is my care for myself and others. This is the living I would like to exist within and the care I would like to give, beyond the mind, beyond conditions, but here in the moment of expression, direct, specific, and immediate in what is best for the other as how I would treat and care for myself.

Sf and scs to follow, thanks for reading.