Balancing the Yin and the Yang of Self - My Process - Day 593

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For me the expression of the yin and yang is the 'masculine' and 'feminine' expression of ourselves, this most would have a picture pop up of a male human being, maybe in a uniform or a business suit representing the 'masculine' word and for the 'feminine' word represented by a beautiful women in a sultry dress and ready for the town. And for me for many many years, this also was how I saw the words yin/yang, male/female, basic static pictures in my head.

Though once one start the process with self-forgiveness and living change that is best for all in self-honesty, which is the desten-i-process, one eventually will come to realize and see more within and as these natures, expressions, and living words of the masculine and feminine. So for me, I have realized these words are not just words but can be moved into expressions of oneself in a way of living in a new or refreshed way for instance. Like for me, I never much categorized myself as a feminine woman, yes I am a woman, but I did not see me as this picture in my mind of this beautiful, sultry woman and thus I believed then I am not a feminine woman. So it was an idea created in my mind of what I had to do to be a feminine women instead of understanding and realizing that it is not a picture i have to become to be feminine, but a way of existing, being that can incorporate the strengths and expression of the feminine design within this world and existence.

I found the masculine expression is similar to a blueprint or infrastructure, holding the placement for the feminine expression to merge and join in as the movement and flow of the creative expression that colors the blueprint infrastructure with creative ability. Through this with the support of each one holding the balance of who they are within and without, one get a balance of the expressions in a cohesive and ever-expanding way to give life and receive it equal and one.

I found within my own process, I as a female within my reality had to step up within myself in confidence, creative skill, stability, reason, logic, and truth and meet the male counterpart within me and within my reality on a balance equal level, where the male within this equation has to become humble to meet the female on an equal balance level, where he is able to interact and receive the creative expression of the female in her movements and flow.

So there is a meeting in the middle so to speak I have found within my own self as the masculine and feminine within me, the 'ego' of the mind/masculine within and the 'suppressed' expression of my own self worth and self-respect, and redefining and living my own self-expression within these two expressions, I have found I was able to come to a balanced medium within my living reality. Where now I am able to move from one to the other with ease and express or become stable in moments where I see fit to walk as such, so stepping up as the feminine expression within me as my passions, my expressions in living words, my flow as a river of life into the extended lands of the masculine structure and support networks to be creative and see and live with and as my creation in wonder and awe. And be a plus one as the building and leader of the future to come for all in what is best, standing more in the masculine expression as blueprint, planning, and building the 'new' world we would like to live in and have our children live in. The balance of the inner dance of the yin and yang, silenced in-breath and lived in what is best for all through one's self-responsible expression. 

Thanks for reading and please feel free to leave any comment or questions if you see fit.

www.lite.desteniiprocess.com - Beginner Course in Desteni I Process
http://www.eqafe.com - Library of Existence
www.destonians.com - Desteni Group Support Network
https://www.facebook.com/groups/DesteniUniverse/ - Desteni Group Facebook Page
https://www.facebook.com/WLthroughgarbseyes - My Personal DIP Sharing
http://www.desteni.org - Main Website
www.patreon.com/earthhaven - Life Community Building Network

The Child – Expression of Self as This - Series - Part 1

I am looking at within these next few blogs to explain how I see the structuring of the word child, adult, and family unit in a sense in a way that supports all involved and what is best for all in it’s outflow in times to come. I am walking this process currently within myself in many ways, and through this process of self understanding and self expansion in these words as me I have come to find some interesting expressions and realizations have come up in me that has supported me greatly. I have found an expression of gentleness, love, care, and for lack of a better word softness has started exuding out of me as my core self sharing I would say or like beingness expression as been described in many recordings at Eqafe.com is starting to be physically lived as I live my forgiveness and correction process of who I am as a life being. So I have found it important that these expressions of the feminine alignments has been explored and understood within me and so for me to develop along with the more masculine expressions I was more naturally aligned to as a child as structure, groundedness, and physical drive. So for myself, I have as of recent years been finding myself more feeling balanced and stable in these two balancing expressions within self as the masculine and feminine expressions and so this I am seeing has been supporting me to see this 'new' way of living the word child and adult to child and wise child.

Though, please be reminded that we all have within our self presence these two expressions in varying degrees, they are just laying dormant or over-exemplified in ways as one live in this world and through the mind consciousness system, I have found through walking the desteni process these two expressions of the masculine and feminine are coming more into balance and symbiosis and thus allowing me to stand in support of what is here as this physical living reality as my physical location point (for more on this understanding check out this interview on eqafe - https://eqafe.com/p/different-locations-reptilians-part-503). The expressions of the ying and yang can be explained and should be in other blogs, this though is not the point of this series of blogs I am writing out here, this series of blogs is based on looking at the word adult and child, but in blogs to come I will explore more these relationships of male/female and how I have integrated them more in my personal process with the desteni tools.

So back to child and wise child as child and adult redefinitions. Starting with the word Child, which if looked at it in the direct physical reality is the smaller, less experienced version of the adult in this world. We see no difference in terms of ability and reasoning skills in terms of growth and development as a life being between the two, one in essence is just further along in the journey we call life. So within this journey location point in the life cycle of the human in this current life we find ourselves in, the adult has more of a responsibility to stand and so support the child to be able to understand and so live the ‘laws’ of this planet earth. As there is indeed a natural order and balance that exist here in this physical world, if one need to understand this study more the circle of life in the natural world, nature and animal kingdoms how they function and exist within themselves and each other as species, an example would be trees and fungus's relationship.

Of course we also have the ‘current’ way the system operates with survival in place as the current functioning of how this system moves we have called 'human modern' civilization, this is what I call the ‘old’ way of walking the world system, this ‘old’ way will eventually be replaced with the ‘new’. The ‘new’ is where each one reading this comes in, we as the ‘new’ are in the process of creating that ‘new’ and one have to realize within this process of creating the ‘new’ you as the self have a responsibility to not only the children to come, but any and all children that come into your care in this current moment and the moments to come until you pass onto the next next chapter of your existence, and anyone for that matter you meet in your reality to support and assist them as best you are able to. This is the natural law and order of this reality as the life principles of what is actually governing and existing this world/life/physical existences, essentially ALL of us here. It is in service of all through and as self, giving and then receiving without want, this the 'extra-ordinary' of life I have found.

This understanding and alignment back into living self responsible being in relation to the natural physical order of this planet is what is being walked at ‘Desteni’ and ‘Eqafe’, there is much that is required in regards to educating self on this 'body' of existential material I have found in these sources, though this is a self journey and at the end of the day you have the tools of self forgiveness, self honesty, self investigation, self correction, and aligning self here in what is best for all as what is best for self in breath as all as one as equal.  And with anything the first step is all that is needed to get started, and yet the point of keeping up with the stepping after that is a will in self strength in who you are as life, and within that one will walk through the door and start your process, only you can do this, though there is many who will stand in your stead until you can do it for yourself, the journey to life is being walked here and the support networks you'll find within the desteni group and networks will always be here, so reach out, educate, and participate, it's all here for you to explore. And as with the children of this world, we learn to explore in pure enjoyment and innocence, this is key to remember as one delve in to the self correction process, don't forget to have fun, relax, and breathe ;)

This self journey of self purification (which is supported with Desteni I Process) is key in the redefining and living of the word child and adult in a way that is of support for self as one align and walk the words to support all life in what is best. This I have been looking at and working with as a point of self creation and how I would see and want to live these words for myself and for others to be one day manifest, this is my passion so to speak, what I am willing into this reality, if it is created I know it’ll be best for all as best I saw it in my journey at this moment in time. I am truth in this point for self and thus I am living my self honesty in what is best for all as best I am able to and so it'll be created as I am the creator, created, and creation. Same with the human life span, the creator as the adult, the created as the child, and the creation as the wise child. And thus a trinity is formed and a symbiotic relationship that restores order and balance to the physical and thus heaven on earth can manifest in this point lived.

So I suggest you check out the links below if you haven’t yet, and join me as I walk and explore the redefining and living words of the word child and adult into child and wise child in blogs to come!

Thanks for reading and please feel free to leave any comment or questions if you see fit.

www.lite.desteniiprocess.com - Beginner Course in Desteni I Process
http://www.eqafe.com - Library of Existence
www.destonians.com - Desteni Group Support Network

https://www.facebook.com/groups/DesteniUniverse/ -  Desteni Group Facebook Page

https://www.facebook.com/WLthroughgarbseyes - My Personal DIP Sharing
http://www.desteni.org - Main Website
www.patreon.com/earthhaven - Life Community Building Network

My Birthday and the Desteni I Process - Day 537

 

Here I discuss how my living of birthdays have changed since walking the desteni i process, and it might not be what is expected. Have a listen and see how I have changed birthdays to help me become a more effective human being. This in the process of becoming stewards of the earth and creating a world where all Life stands within dignity and what is best.

Check out the links for more on the process at desteni:

Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course - 

www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

Soul - School of Ultimate Living - Create yourself through Words!

www.schoolofultimateliving.com/

Self Supportive Material - 

www.Eqafe.com

Forum support: 

www.forum.desteni.org

Desteni Wiki: 

wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page

Eqafe Facebook Page: 

www.facebook.com/Eqafe-359136...

7 year journey to life Facebook group: 

www.facebook.com/groups/journ...

DIP Lite on Facebook: 

www.facebook.com/DIPLite

Weakening of the Physical through the Mind - Self Commitments to Live - Day 337

In continuation of this blog:

Weakening the Physical through the MInd - Day 335

When and as I see myself go into a inflexibility and suppressing my expression, I stop myself and breath, and realize that in this moment that I am going into suppression, I am allowing the mind to take over my directive will and direct me into the polarity of inferior/superior play out through the cycle of happy/sad, and thus accept and allowing my external to influence who I am on the internal, realizing that i no longer have to live in this way because I realize who I am, I am life and am the directive principle of myself and realize that I can direct myself into all life ibeing equal and one in what is best for all. 

I commit myself to not accept myself to go into the mind when I see a fear come up of others and thus I commit to breath and continue to express myself and accept myself as equals within and as each moment as what is happening as I see within the moment to be expressed, pushing to see reality direct in what is actually happening.

I commit myself to move my physical to bring me back to the physical through breathing and looking around the room, become here within myself and aware ofmy body and not allow thoughts of suppression and compromise to accumulate.

I commit to stop my mind from directing me into self judgment and judgment of others by not allowing these thoughts to continue, and stopping them as soon as I see them come up.

When and as I see myself go into a fear of another or what others are thinking of me, I stop and breath, and realize that this is all in my head I am making these thoughts and fears up within me where I don't know what others are thinking and thus there is no need to fear, as I can direct myself within and as who I am, I don't need others to tell me who I am, I have to stand within myself and direct myself to be able to direct as the directive principle to create this who I am, self create me as life, I must walk my own self stability and stop being directed by the external world of who I am. 

I commit myself to breath and not accept myself to go into thoughts of what others are thinking as I realize it's completely illusionary and not relevant.

I commit myself to breath and stop fear as there is no need to fear, I face my fears and walk that which I fear walking to show I can walk it and that it is in fact all in my head, using common sense of course in terms of physical fear, (like not stepping in front of a car or moving bus).

When and as I see I am becoming inflexible within my movement and self direction, i stop and breath, and check what is gong on within me that i am suppressing and not expressing myself freely here as breath.

I commit to move myself through this inflexibility and remain steadfast to walk through all the points where i m still showing inflexibility and correct the patterns through writing the tools and living it and practice expressing freely here as breath in consideration of all as equals.

I commit myself to accept myself and accept my expression, and stop the judgment, and remain walking the perfection process of who I am and so be able to stand here alone and as all as one and equal.

I commit to walk the process of letting go of me as my personality, me as fear, me as the mind definition of limitation, me as a name, I commit myself to walk to the self that is here as a whole and individualized to ensure what is best is life and this is in fact so within self until it is done. 

When and as I see myself less then others and that I am weakened, I stop and breath, and realize this is my mind in self defeatism and self sabotage to not have to walk what I have to face, I realize that this is not who I accept myself to be and I must continue to persevere and face myself through accepting who I am and continuing on the path of correcting myself until I live equal and one to the physical as breath. 

I commit to stop compromising myself through judgments. 

I commit to stop competition with others as this is not real as I am competing with myself as we are equals here as the physical and thus all one.

I commit to stop comparing myself to others as its useless and irrelevant cause self is all that exist.

I commit to not accept the mind in separation as who I am, and walk the correction to stop the mind in seperation and align myself with life and direct myself in this way here as the breath in physical reality.

Other Blogs to Follow:
Creation's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to Life
Economist's Journey to Life
Activist's Journey to Life

Join Us:
Desteni I Process Lite - Free Course to Start your Journey to Life
Journey to Life Group - On Facebook
Desteni Forum - Share your Self with Other Destonians
Destonian Social Network
Eqafe - Self Perfection Support
Equal Life Foundation - Site
Living Income Garunteed Proposal - Site
Equal Money System - Site

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Weakening the Physical through the MInd - Day 335

Within my physical I had pain on my left knee as well within my left hip, and within the pain there was like a weakness, like I could feel the knee as well as the hip area where the pain resides as weakened or compromised. Within these two areas the hip and the knee, they are indicating my self expression in the hip and flexibility, showing that as I exist within the energy of self compromise in my expression and becoming inflexible within who I am in each moment, this pain will continue and become worse if I don't change. So here going to walk some self forgiveness on inflexibility and suppressing my expression with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base through fear, fearing others thoughts and judgments towards me and so suppressing my expression and becoming inflexible within what I will do and what not through believing if i fully express myself in that moment I will be vulnerable for abuse by others not realizing that I in fact judge and have secret thoughts about others that I don't want to face and stop based on the power it gives me that I can see and say 'i am better', this just showing the separation and inferiority I am existing within myself compromising my opportunity to be life for real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear others and thus fear expressing myself openly and freely.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself within my own mind create judgments of others when they do something or say something I see I can gain from instead of realizing that when I judge another I am condemning myself into self compromise based on the fact that I am really judging myself and creating a split within myself of polarity such as good or bad, where in reality this is not so, we are all here and we all have the ability to be and do what is best through equal opportunity and the divinity of all bring life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become inflexible within what I will do and not do due to fear of exposure and I realize that not going beyond my comfort zone and pushing my expression will only keep me trapped and caged into a limited version of myself and of my capabilities. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create a judgment against life not realizing that when I judge i judge myself and so I will always be compromised in what i do because I am not seeing what is real and what is here, and thus never will be able to direct the situation into what is best because I am in competition to reality wanting to be the winner in these judgment scenarios. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within this energy where it eat's away at my physical body and thus I am eating away at my ability to be free and fully expressive by compromising my ability to move myself in expression in the expansion that is possible in each moment letting go of fear and pushing my limits in every increasing ways forward to see who I really am in each moment stopping the trap of judging self.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others think of me and fear being expressive around others as I stop these judgments against others, I stand here with the self realization and an awareness that all life is me and that I need to embrace and accept life equal to me to realize that we will only live free when we accept each other and support each other to change as we support ourselves in equality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be weakened based on my past and how others have treated me, and thus realize that the past does not define me and that it is not for real in terms of what i am picturing in my head, i realize I have to let go of the past and bring myself to where i am here in what i am doing in each moment of breath, making each moment a new moment of self expression and making it count substantially for the betterment of life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take others words towards me personal and see myself in the eyes of others rather then who I am within and as the eyes of me and my physical, perfecting my own self living realizing that everyone else is in their process and thus must walk the same process as well, I must stand as a point of support and direct as I have realized myself and stop taking things personal because it's not personal we are just mind systems existing in illusion and this is not life, what is real is me as the physical and who I am in my living with and towards others and myself to create life for real through the actual living and movement of myself.

Self commitments to follow. 

Other Blogs to Follow:
Creation's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to Life
Economist's Journey to Life
Activist's Journey to Life

Join Us:
Desteni I Process Lite - Free Course to Start your Journey to Life
Journey to Life Group - On Facebook
Desteni Forum - Share your Self with Other Destonians
Destonian Social Network
Eqafe - Self Perfection Support
Equal Life Foundation - Site
Living Income Garunteed Proposal - Site

Equal Money System - Site

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Day 129- Justification Character – Self Forgiveness

How do I justify myself is through accepting and allowing thoughts of self diminishment and self compromise, such as ‘you can’t do that, you’ll be seen as a fool’ or ‘your not smart enough, don’t even bother’ or ‘it’s too much, you won’t be able to handle the conflict that’ll arise’, so within the pattern of these thoughts, is justification and self diminishment, where I allow myself to fall back into the patterns and suppressions because I accept these thoughts as me, over and over again.

Here walking the self forgiveness on these points above, this is from the blog Day 129- Justification Character – Self Manipulation for reference.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the thought “you can’t do that, you’ll be seen as a fool” to direct me into a suppression state where in I justify this suppression state based on this thought and believing it, and thus living into this thought as if it is real and defines who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my own self suppression with a thought because I don’t want to stop the thought as this will mean I will have to face the point I am resisting by giving into this thought and thus suppressing my expression in living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a fear of being seen as a fool by others based on this fear of failure, and thus accept and allow fear to direct my living within my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself and thus diminish myself based on this belief that I can’t walk through my fears based on the fact that I allow them to direct me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my inaction in standing up to the fear, not accepting the fear, and thus moving through the fear to thus not push myself within my living, and walk what I realize must be walked to transcend these fears which is face them and see that they don’t direct me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my suppression with these beliefs that I can’t face these fears, they are too big, and they are too much to handle, and thus accept and allow myself to fall and give into justifying my abuse to life and to the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my abuse to life within accepting and allowing thoughts of self diminishment direct where in I don’t even live into the point to test it for myself and see what relevance and fact is there, but simply allow the mind as fear direct me into suppressing myself before I live at all in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my abuse to life within my own self interest were I don’t want to change, when I realize change is the only possible way forward, as the consequences of not changing is death in self in life, and this is not the way of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live into self interest as justifications where there is no justification to live and accept abuse within myself towards myself or any life that is here, as I realize the process to live here as the physical in what is best for all is in front of me, and I see the path that must be walked, so thus I stop the justification, and walk.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself within the point of blame that I can’t get past the points that I face, when this is absolute self deceptive within justifying my own lack of effort and movement, while in this moment many suffer and die based on the system that is created by the human based on this very construct of not moving and forcing change to what is here.

To be continued.

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