As Within, So Without - War and the Desteni I Process - Day 538

Here speaking on the principle of as within, so without, in relation to the creation and proliferation of war within our world. How have I changed my view on war and myself within walking the tools of the desteni i process, and what have I learned about human's active participation in war and how it relates to ourselves very intimately. There is a part two to this as well, which will be posted tomorrow.

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Looking at the Word Precision – Day 475

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Please Reference my last blog for more context to this blog:

Precision of Self – Day 474

My goal for this word precision is to live it in a way that it supports with being more specific and exact within my every day activities, I know that I will not perfect this word in my living in a short period of time, though I do see that with consistency and movement within my self change this word has a huge potential for accelerating my living into the sphere of my utmost potential. So with that being said, I will have a look at where I stand within this word at the moment. Well first I will look at the definition from the dictionary of what this word means:

Precision: noun - the quality, condition, or fact of being exact and accurate

“Precision is similar to perfection in that both words suggest that something could not possibly be better. However, perfection describes something that's flawless, such as a beautiful sunset. Precision, on the other hand, is more about accuracy, like computing the exact second that the perfect sunset will occur.”

So I like the distinction that is made here within the words precision and perfection as they are very similar, but are not as they are not lived within the same contexts. Precision is more a form of movement within a mathematical equation, where perfection just is, meaning there is no movement within it, it is what it is wholly. So that is a cool understanding based on the belief that I had and I am sure many had of precision being something that is within perfection, but in actuality it is more relating to movement and mathematics. My partner sees life in many ways in terms of mathematics, and I am more and more finding it very fascinating as I have never looked at life in this way, but the more I look, the more I see all life is in fact mathematical. Perfection being the final result, where as precision is the movement to get to this final result of perfection. 

Precision within the way I have lived it has been something that I have always been fascinated by and enjoyed within different areas of study or activity that I have endeavored in, but there was an inherent belief within me that I did not have the ability to be precise, I was too clumsy, too impatient, too lazy to get to a point where I can express precision. Though, I have in moments expressed this specifically within my work or if I am in a physical activity such as writing up a proposal or cleaning something that is dirty, I will ensure I am precise within my movements as well as precise within the way in which I clean where I will calculate the size of the area, ensure I hit all areas calculated, and clean in a precision within the intensity as well as the veracity of my movements to ensure each layer is cleaned as precisely as the last.

This creates a point of perfection in a way where the cleanliness of the floor is satisfied for a amount of time to my liking, which also can create a precision within the efficiency of my movements within my cleaning schedule for instance and ensure my body is being used in it's most efficient capacity. Also, it creates a point of understanding that perfection is changing, meaning that when one reaches a perfection, through life there will always be a movement that will ensure that one keeps standing as this perfection as the floor will not stay perfect forever, but will have to be constantly moved into a perfection again and again as I consistently apply the actions of precision within cleaning it. So there is many factors to consider within this word of precision and there can surely be many benefits.

There is also a feeling of accomplishment within giving it my all within what I do and this is lived when I can execute a form of precision within what I do which will create the living of perfection, this not only benefiting myself but others as well. I find this action of being precise within what I do is done within a form of self determination and self satisfaction where I am not doing it for anyone else, but my own standards of living and existing for myself. So I have displayed precision within my living in ways that I am satisfied with, though my mind tends to tell me that I have not done it at all in a way that is satisfactory, and of course I realize there is always room for improvement.

I will do some self forgiveness and self correction to clear the word in my next blog and look at moving into the scenario I describe in my earlier blog of living precision as well as the support words to move through this possession point of self compromise I have been existing in for quite some time. This to ensure I change to stand in all I do with precision in the course of action I decide to walk in each moment to moment I am here. This course of living precise is for the end goal which is living what is best for all life and living in self honesty, which will create real living perfection as heaven brought to earth.

I will continue in my next blog. Thanks for reading.

Interviews to support on Real Time Application:
Neediness: Living Words & Fulfilment - Atlanteans - Part 313
Why is it so Hard to Change? - Life Review
The Consciousness of the Turtle - Part 1

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Precision of Self – Day 474

I will open up the next series of blog with looking at the word precision. This word I resist within myself within just looking at it here based on my desire to want to have an err of leeway to slack off and not put my full attention into whatever it is that I must act with precision in. So obviously within the principle of what you resist will persist, I am now in my process here to face and realign my living to in fact walk precision within myself and what I live in all moments that it calls for. I am going to focus this word precision with some support words such as constant, unwavering, persistence, steadfast, breath, here, life, best for all that I will use as a support structure to walk this specific point I want to walk within this act of precision and so then the support words to live these words in all areas of my life. So all these words will have to be looked at and redefined, which I will do in blogs to come.

The point I will be walking and practicing the integration of these words in my living is with a form of energetic reaction I go into and have noticed still has power over me in moments. It’s specifically within a group setting, meaning it’s with people, where we are talking face to face, and I am being looked at directly in the eyes. Then eventually there will be a movement or a belief that’ll come up due to some or one of the other people’s making some sort of gesture of uncomfortability, be it not holding eye contact or rubbing there face or eyes. These specific motions from the other cause triggers inside of me where in I will go into an emotional experience of diminishment coming from my solar plexus area moving into my chest area, and feeling in a way like it is clenching into my limbs which creates a tightness and constriction within my entire physical body.

So I feel it physically when I become possessed by this experience as this depressive state of tension and constriction, but this is not were it starts, this reaction starts with a little movement inside my stomach area of a sinking feeling and then the thoughts start of like a ‘damn, I am being judged again, I am the one who is being seen as awkward’ and then this will stew subconsciously while I am trying to hold face and discuss what is being talked about. Then I will depending on the stimulation from the external environment, go into a panic type experience or stop it there and not allow it. This moment of decision is usually based on if I go into the energy reaction or not, and the most highly tense time for reaction is if I go into a bathroom or mirror and look at myself. Then you may say, ‘well don’t look in the mirror’, but this is something that is addictive in nature as well as having to be transcended anyway as I can not keep away from mirrors my whole life.

And if I do fall into that addiction pattern of looking in the mirror and going into the thoughts of ‘your so ugly’, ‘you are never going to be normal and part of the group’ ‘you are inferior to others with this ugly face’ ‘you are not as cool as these people’ ‘they see you as awkward’ ‘you are not going to be able to stand with these people’, ‘you are weird and strange’ ‘they are going to judge you as weird’ ‘look how you talked, see you aren’t good enough’ ‘look how you look in the mirror, see you are so not attractive to look at’ ‘see how they rubbed their eyes, you are so disgusting looking’. Those are an example of the type of thoughts that go through my head, I will next time I see this pattern come up, use precision as a point to get the exact thought words that come up and what exactly the energy is doing to my body in these moments. But for now, this is the basics of it and I will work with this for the next blogs to come.

So with the word precision, I would like to look at and redefine it in my next blog to use it as a support structure for me to walk through this energy reaction of self compromise firstly, and then specify and use it for my living application in all I do. And so do this same process for the support words I mentioned earlier in this blog as well.

Thanks for reading.

Interviews to support on Real Time Application:
Neediness: Living Words & Fulfilment - Atlanteans - Part 313
Why is it so Hard to Change? - Life Review
The Consciousness of the Turtle - Part 1

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What My Job has Shown Me about Myself? – Part 1 – Day 436

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Going to a job everyday in the same location, seeing the same people, it get’s to be a place where you can really see who you are as the environment never changes and things repeat more often then not. The environment meaning in close proximity to many different people pretty much all day long. And everyday or every cycle shall I call it I see myself going into the same types of thoughts, the same types of ‘moods’, and acting in the same or very similar ways in my behavior and speech. It becomes very repetitive the day in and day out at the same location and again with the same faces as well as the same self that I walk around with everyday.

Obviously as can be seen with the title of my blog, I am on a journey to birth myself as life, so I am now more and more becoming aware of my behaviors, my thoughts in relation to others and myself, the nature of these thoughts, the energy involved within these thoughts, the personalities I go into in when different environmental changes or stimulus coming in to play or leave. There is a lot going on within me, though again it is very cyclical in it’s nature meaning I see the same types of thoughts, energies, reactions coming up, and overall it is not to the benefit of myself nor others. So having said this, I am finding that there is this urge that has started to emerge within me after I have been walking this process for more then 5 years now. Although, I indeed have proven to myself I am able to change and that I have the capacity to change, I am finding at this stage I am now within walking the mind layers I am at, I am becoming more and more reactive at myself and my environment around me (which is mirroring me, so still seeing self) that I am not moving fast enough, I am not showing enough progress, I am not changing quick enough, my environment is not moving in the direction that I see it should, I am not who I think I am as a person that is leading my own process, self directed, and able to do any and all things.

Of course this is a idea of myself I have created and projected onto my reality and myself, and the frustration I am sensing and starting to more and more react within is due to this idea I have created about myself and my reality in moving a specific way and within that creating the experience within myself as lacking something, where I am not quick enough, I am not doing enough, and my environment is not stable enough. This causing blame and anger within me which I am pushing onto my outer world, this is causing more and more consequences as it continues to be done without direction or a solution.

I have realized that within walking this process there is no right or wrong way to do it as well as there is no specific idea or belief of how it should be or how I should be moving within it, I also see that what is stemming from this frustration and anger is the fear of not making it in this process, not changing myself in such a way that I will be satisfied with myself as well as stable in reality, I am afraid that I will waste my opportunity I have been given and miss out on the life that is to come. So within my self now, I am in this constant state of anxiety and imaginations that I need to be doing this and that, I need to have progressed in this sort of way, I need to prove this about who I am, ect. This showing that I was not really progressing or excelling in the way in which I created about myself otherwise I would not be reacting, I would be stable. I realize I have been in self interest, out to make myself look like I am excelling, look like I am progressing, but was I being self honest within this? I would have to say within this aspect, no, I was doing it for others, I was doing it for attention, I was doing it for self acceptance, I was doing it to experience myself as worthy, and so I have created this experience within me now that I am in a survival situation and this is not what walking this process is about.

So here further, I will walk the tools of self forgiveness and self correction on these points I have brought up here of how I have experienced myself lately in my process and how I will walk the correction process to find solutions for myself, and so help others who may see support in this sharing as well.

Thanks for reading.   

Interview Support on the topic of Work Politics and Not Being Enough:
Life Review - I'm not Good Enough
Behind the Scenes of Office Politics - Life Review
Nothing is Good Enough - Life Review
Always Feeling like 'I'm not doing Enough' - Life Review
Why Do I Feel Like I Can't Connect With My Partner?
Stop Your Thoughts, Change Yourself - Reptilians - Part 284
Self-Interest in Self-Honesty: How does that work? - Reptilians' Supp…

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Equal Life Foundation - Site

Day 124- What are they thinking? Part 2

So some self forgiveness on believing thoughts are real, and defining myself by who I have created myself as through my thinking.

This is from yesterday's blog, Day 123- “What are they thinking?”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what i think is who i am, when i realize and see that thoughts are not who i am, that i am here as the physical within the physical, and the mind which creates thoughts is using it for it's own benefit as survival in the determent as it consumes the physical itself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to follow thoughts and thus not push myself to stop them in the moment that they arise.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to live thoughts, and thus create abuse in my world towards others, in believing that the thoughts are real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe thoughts and make them real, when i realize they are not real but illusion as my indicate is the physical, and the physical is not in my head as a thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the thoughts of another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my own insecurities onto others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my own beliefs, ideas, and thoughts onto others and then go and define myself by this projection of how another is thinking about me when I realize the entire time it is my own thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and escape my own thoughts by projecting them onto others and making it about the other, when I realize it is really about myself and who I am within my thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the thoughts I have is how I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by my own thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by my thoughts and projections of my perception on how others are thinking about me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and escape the way I am thinking and feeling within myself towards myself onto others in blame and accusation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by the thoughts of projection I create in how others are thinking about me based on judging a facial gesture, body movement, a word spoken or not spoken and took that personally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take points from others living and make it personal and thus then go and judge myself by these assumpations just because I am not accepting myself and thus using others to define who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust feelings and emotions, and thus believe that the way I am feeling as a depression state or heaviness within the body is who I really am, when I realize and see that this is energy being created by the mind to separate me from life here as myself where in I can be the directive principle and walk in equality, not taking things personally but directing the situations to have an outcome that will benefit all, as I realize it’s not personal attacks, but who I am within it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create my thoughts and have them direct me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my thoughts, and live within abuse toward other in believing who i am is my thoughts.

I commit myself to walk the process of stopping my thoughts, and investigate the memories that are attached to the thoughts, to thus walk it's origin in correction, and let go of the attachement to the memory through letting go of the thought patterns.

I commit to stop defining myself by these thoughts and fears of how others are thinking about me, bring it back to myself as i realize it is me who is creating these thoughts, and thus walk the correction to stop the thoughts from directing me.

I commit myself to stop taking others living words, movements, actions personal and simply walk my process, become comfortable with myself, and thus assist those who i can in walking the process to equality and thus self comfortability as well.

I commit stop being directed by thoughts, and live here as the physical as breath.


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Day 123- “What are they thinking?”

Here looking at a thought within myself that I have brought up many times before, this thought of, "what are they thinking?" This particular thought implies that I am attaching and thus defining myself to how I am perceiving how others are thinking about me. When I ask myself this I am usually doing something that I have defined within me as not good or somehow not socially acceptable, and thus I will go into a self judgment of myself, and then go a step further to go and imagine what others had thought in that moment about me within the fuck up that i just did based on my own SELF judgment.

This point of judging myself I am in the process of stopping as I have walked the self forgiveness in various dimensions, and thus can see the correction that is needed to thus stop this point. But here looking at the further dimension of this point of me trying to figure out what others are thinking of me through my own perception, I realize I can never be in fact precise or accurate in just wondering or creating an idea in my mind of what I think another is thinking of me, unless, I go to them and ask them direct what were there thoughts about me in that moment, they then could still not give me an honest answer, and thus I never really know in fact, for real, what another being is thinking about me. And furthermore, does it matter what another is thinking? Why am I defining myself by my perception of others thoughts? Why am I insistant on knowing what others think about me? Some points to open up.

So is this worrying and imagining what others are thinking about me beneficial or will it help me become a better human being? No, it will not benefit me or make me a more effective being because it’s not real, there is no facts, and thus there is no validity in defining myself by what others are thinking as I don’t know in fact what it is they are thinking.

Thus I can deduce from this understanding that I am in fact the one who is creating my own ‘what are they thinking?' with the personalities that circulate in my own mind, judging and comparing to others, and going into assumptions and imaginations within my own ideas, my own beliefs, my own dishonesties, and so it is me that is the only relevant point of looking at this thought of ‘what are they thinking?” So to switch it to 'what am i thinking?' So I can stop as it's me creating this

From here, I realize that thinking is from the mind, so thus it is not real as it can’t be touched, smelled, felt, seen, but it’s illusionary and abstract, if I can't physically touch it with the my physical body, does that make something real? I can think it is real, but is it real in fact, a thought? No, it’s not real as real is this earth, is life, is what can be proven as fact as physical evidence, and a thought, although it comes up, it’s not real it's energy, and energy comes from the mind, which is not real, but in an alternate dimension. So some self forgiveness on believing thoughts are real, and defining myself by who I have created myself as through my thinking.

Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements to follow.

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