Have you Ever Felt Awkward? - Day 453

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Looking at this word, I have been noticing this coming up more and more with interactions I am experiencing during my day, it’s more in relation to new people or people I am acquainted with and so it’s in relation to people and how I experience myself around people I don’t really know. I have realized that based on the definition of the word awkward which states “lacking skill or dexterity, lacking grace or ease of movement, lacking social graces or manners”, I can relate to each of these definitions within the fear of being seen in this way and also within the opposite polarity where I desired to have all these things, so from a systematic perspective, I am creating this cycle to feed into one another and keep each alive. These are just purely mind based where I will judge different words or gestures or thoughts I have as truth of who I am and so remember this and judging myself again in similar moments. So it’s really a cycle of abuse because when I slow down and actually become aware of what I am doing/saying, I am more alert and more effective within who I am.

So this is showing me that awkward experience within myself accompanied by an experience of feeling frozen or constricted in my expression, I am showing to myself when I am in a point of desiring to be something in my reality like effective or considerate, but I am not actually living it because if I was expressing myself, I would be alert and moving naturally and so the experience of awkward would not be something I would be experiencing.

So I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see this awkward experience inside myself as a judgment against me like I am not good enough in that environment or that I am lacking in some way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief about myself when I go into a room and that everyone within the room will see I am awkward and so judge me as this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged as awkward from others and so within this create the experience of awkward within me cause in some way I have judged myself as less then and so create this as the who I am in this moment as that is what I am thinking about, how I am being judged by others as awkward when i am actually doing it to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I experience this emotional experience within me accompanied with the experience of awkwardness as a draining feeling of energy and feeling like I am deflated that this is in fact the acceptance of myself as this belief and as less then and so I am showing to myself in this moment by living it out with this emotional energetic experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself within a point of seeing this life of mine as a harsh world and that no one will ever care to stop and understand and get to know me so I will just be awkward and not have to face/deal with others whom I don’t care to get to know either.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in fact not care about others enough to walk with them and support them unconditionally and so I use the word awkward and the experience of myself within that as ‘drab’ ‘low’ and ‘not able to express’ as a way to categorize certain people I don’t want to get to know and use this experience to not have to face others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as less then me or more then me and so not want to face them as well as myself when i accept and allow the awkward experience to take over. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the experience of awkward where I don’t have to move myself beyond my limitations and express myself outside my comfort zone and beyond the experience I am having of feeling low and less then, but can stay in it where i am comfortable as i have done this plenty of times before.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become awkward in the sense of diminishing myself within the environment and so i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not yet stand within courage as a steadfast within who i am as i practice living this more and more through this desire to be awkward and so hide.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hide in fear rather then face the fear as face myself with others and walk the process of expansion and growth of self as i face and learn who i am. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use awkward as a means to not have to face myself with other people I found strange, odd, weird, and not wanting to see where I stand with them because I fear being all these words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being seen as odd, weird, strange, and not facing myself within these experiences to see who I am and where I stand within myself so I can learn and grow to be a better version of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself in a way separate to what is here and voice myself in ways that is not supportive in what is best for all and so myself.

I commit myself to move myself beyond my fears of facing myself nad who I am to stand within these moments and find out where I stand so I can learn and expand to be better/best.

I commit myself to see the experience of ‘low’ ‘drabb’ and ‘not expressive’ as a flagg point where I am moving to self compromise and so I commit myself to find the point I am avoiding and not wanting to face.

I commit myself to face myself in fear and what I am not comfortable in and move to solutions with myself and others in the environment so we can know each other and live as equals.

I commit myself to create myself as an equal within living environments to stand as myself in what is best for all.

So a redefinition of awkward process walking is where I desire a push within myself to move beyond the energy experiences and the thoughts of self judgment and find a common ground with my environment and the people in it, and come to a equality within me toward them.

Awkward as a direct definition is where I am requiring adjustment and specificity within my application to facilitate growth and expansion, there is something I am not facing and trying to avoid so I find solutions.

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Day 148 – Stupid Character –Emotions and Thought Self Forgiveness – Part 7

Here is a list of blogs I recommend looking at for further reference:

Day 142- “Stupid” Character- Part 1 - Intro
Day 143- Stupid Character – Fear Dimension Self Forgiveness – Part 2
Day 144- Stupid Character – Survival and Competition Self Forgiveness – Part 3
Day 145- Stupid Character- Outcasted and Taking Things Personally Self Forgiveness – Part 4
Day 146- Stupid Character- Memory Dimension
Day 147- Stupid Character – Memory Dimension – Self Commitment Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be stupid based on the emotions of self disappointment and sadness that came up when being called stupid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thoughts that ‘I am stupid because I was called this’ and thus live into this as seeing myself in little moments of being stupid and accentuating the moments where I did not live to my best and so created proof within myself by overanalyzing the acts that were not done to my best to prove to myself that I am this and sabotage myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to over accentuate and over analyze actions in my living that were not lived to my best ability and thus justify my thought that ‘I am stupid because I was called this’ with these actions and thus allowing and accepting the self disappointment to grow within me as I have allowed myself to define myself by this point of living as ‘stupid’ so I could stay in this character and not have to face those that called me this, and my own feelings of fearing facing who I am within myself as judging myself in this way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing who I am within myself because I see that within this facing myself I will have to change this point of self disappointment where I will have to push my living to live in a more structured and prepared way to understand and thus correct my living that is not done in the best way possible I can live, and so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe this thought that ‘I am stupid’ based on hearing it from others and so live into this point of seeing myself in this way, where I didn’t push myself in living but hide and escaped within this idea of myself that I can’t do certain things like face others I see as better then me, and thus live into this self diminishment point, wasting time and my own capabilities to make something more of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what others say about me is so and thus believe the thoughts that I am these words spoken to me, and thus live in self diminishment as I have accepted myself to be this way by defining myself by my outside world instead of realizing who I am in my own self application and understanding as life in the physical and stopping my mind from directing me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste time and my own self development and growth due to fear of facing others and thus went more into my mind and diminished myself believing the thoughts of less then and believing the energies as self disappointment and sadness are who I am within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe thoughts as if they are real and believe feelings and emotions as if they define who I am, I realize I have to breath through these energies and thoughts to walk as the physical and be here as the physical, as life is the physical and the mind is not life it is energy which is not real.

I commit myself to stop and breath when I feel any reaction come up of sadness or disappointment when being called stupid or hear the word stupid as I realize it is a word and thus I am not defined by this word, and so use words for what they are, and let go of the words that have no purpose but to separate life.

I commit myself to breath through all energy reactions as sadness and disappointment and realize that I am not defined by emotions so walk here within the physical in what I am doing, and let go of the belief that I am the emotions I am feeling as I realize I am here as the physical, so breath and remain as the physical.

I commit myself to stop following thoughts and let go of the energies as emotions when I hear the word stupid by breathing to stabilize myself and realizing I am not defined by a word, I am equal to it thus I can direct it and use it for it’s purpose as is.

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Day 147- Stupid Character – Memory Dimension – Self Commitment Statements

Here is a list of blogs I recommend looking at for further reference:

Day 142- “Stupid” Character- Part 1 - Intro
Day 143- Stupid Character – Fear Dimension Self Forgiveness – Part 2
Day 144- Stupid Character – Survival and Competition Self Forgiveness – Part 3
Day 145- Stupid Character- Outcasted and Taking Things Personally Self Forgiveness – Part 4
Day 146- Stupid Character- Memory Dimension

I commit myself to let go of the memories of being called stupid in front of the class  and letting go of the charge of negativity as restrictions to the word stupid realizing that stupid is a word and so just see it for what it is not being defined by it by stopping the reactions to it.

I commit myself to stop the feelings of embarrassment and shame from directing me through breathing through it when I hear the word stupid, where in I don’t accept the memory to have power over me by realizing and remaining here in my breath, as the past nor the future are real, letting go of the energy charge that is attached to the memory and walking here as the physical.

I commit myself to breath through the desire to go into inferiority and submit into the belief that I am this stupid personality as I realize I am not the mind as these feelings and emotions, but here in the physical as the physical, thus breathing through the desire to go into the suppression and depression and remaining here as my breath and interacting with others to help remain here as the physical.

I commit myself to stop the point of movement within me when I here the word stupid and thus stop the point of re-creating the energy of feeling less then, walking as the physical and moving myself here in breath so thus I can let go of this desire to go into the suppression.

I commit myself to realize that when spoken of this word by another that this is a reflection of them and their own state of mind, so thus to understand this and not take the words personally as I walk who I am in equality and support to help others realize that speaking in separation of another is only diminishing oneself, walking as an example to show that that is not the way to live.

I commit myself to breath through the desire to go into restriction in my physical as I breath through the memory and the energy that is attached to it so thus I can stand no matter what word is spoken as I have realized it doesn’t define who I am.

I commit myself to let go of self judgment when called this by another and stand in the face of any word spoken to me as I am the living word and thus can live all words as me in realization that I am equal to the word as it is and that the mind in separation will carry a charge, so thus realizing this, and not accepting the energy charge to direct me by breathing through it and letting it go. 

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Day 146- Stupid Character- Memory Dimension

Walking here on a portion of writing from an earlier blog, here is the list of blogs I recommend looking at for further reference:

Day 142- “Stupid” Character- Part 1 - Intro
Day 143- Stupid Character – Fear Dimension Self Forgiveness – Part 2
Day 144- Stupid Character – Survival and Competition Self Forgiveness – Part 3
Day 145- Stupid Character- Outcasted and Taking Things Personally Self Forgiveness – Part 4


So there is the fear of being outcasted due to the stigma or stereotype of being seen as a stupid person within this peer group, as I have memories of myself being called this, and thus what happened to me as being outcasted and alienated from my group of friends imprinted within me, and thus to this day I activate it as a fear of being alone/outcasted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the memories of being called stupid at school and thus when ever this word is spoken in my world, I will react in a restriction based on this memory of me being called this in front of my class at the chalkboard.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel diminished and restricted when I hear the word stupid or retard or dumbass even in a joking manner, where I will go into restrictions and diminishment within myself based on accessing this memory of being called this in school in front of my class mates, and thus define myself by the feelings that I felt when was called this in the memory of being embarrassed and ashamed and thus go into a point of depression within myself as if to say and pin me into this place of self inferiority where I remind myself that this is who I am, I am not equal with others, because I am holding onto these memories as reminders to let me know that I am ‘stupid’, so don’t even try and act as if I am not, as I believe who I am is defined by my past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lock myself into a personality suit as the stupid character in where I will become this within energy experiences as shame and becoming uncomfortable in my body where I will immediately see myself as less then others, and fall in line within this, where I will censor my thoughts, words, and actions, and so become like robotic and unnatural in my movements because it’s not a natural expression, but done in fear and uneasiness because I am having this memory come through that I am a fuck up and that others see me in this way so then living in this way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by a memory of being called stupid in front of the class and thus defining myself as someone less then others based on believing that being called out in this way has now put me in the character of being this in my life, but I realize that for this to be true for me then I must live into it, I was re-create it and i do this through recreating and participating in this memory of accessing shame and uncomfortableness through the trigger point as the word stupid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto this belief that who I am is defined by my past and how I was spoken to in these memories based on a perception I held that this is who I am if I was called this, not taking into consideration the state of mind of the boys in the room and who they were in relation to saying it to me, so to realize that when people speak words to me it’s to not go into the point of taking it personally, but to walk the understanding of the being saying it as to say this in an attempt to diminish another is based on a self acceptance of insecurity within oneself, so understanding this and walking the point in stbaliltiy to support and assit the person if I see that I can. I am not defined by words from another as I am the living word and define myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the feelings of embarrassment and shame when found that I was called stupid, and thus whenever this word is spoken access the energy as the memory, where I will go into a tension and restriction within myself as I have become embarrassed and ashamed again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to access energy within the memory of being called stupid as embarrassment and shame based on believing that I am inferior to those that called me this due to a self judgment I have placed on myself as less then and was activated through this word through the memory and thus the re-living of this feeling of being inferior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as inferior due to a word based on fearing what others think of me when called this and thus define myself by how others are seeing me, missing who I am and my own self respect and integrity in myself.

More to follow in tomorrows blog.

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Day 145- Stupid Character- Outcasted and Taking Things Personally Self Forgiveness – Part 4

Walking here on a portion of writing from an earlier blog, here is the list of blogs I recommend looking at for further reference:

Day 142- “Stupid” Character- Part 1 - Intro
Day 143- Stupid Character – Fear Dimension Self Forgiveness – Part 2
Day 144- Stupid Character – Survival and Competition Self Forgiveness – Part 3


So there is the fear of being outcasted due to the stigma or stereotype of being seen as a stupid person within this peer group, as I have memories of myself being called this, and thus what happened to me as being outcasted and alienated from my group of friends imprinted within me, and thus to this day I activate it as a fear of being alone/outcasted. Thus within this being alone and being seen as the outcast, is what I fear the most, as the feelings of being outcasted were not cool and being called the stupid one, is a point I took personally and made it real. I believed within being called this that I was limiting my chances of getting what I desire as money, men, sex, good job, and a good life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined and influenced by others words towards me, where in I am defining myself by how others speak to me, and if it is not in the way of feeling good/positive, I go into depression/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus go into defining myself by the influence of how others see me, being trapped into the polarity playout of seeing myself within acceptance or not based on how others are speaking to me and their mannerism towards me when interaction, then going into my mind and calculating by past memories if it aligned with an acceptance or if I was being rejected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself based on the my mind as past memories of others acceptance of me or not through specific movements, words, and actions towards me and thus accept myself based on this being approved by me or disapproved by me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by how others see me based on holding onto a memory of being called stupid by my peers and thus imprinting in me the way I was seen and treated once I was labeled as this, and so started to change myself in accordance with this perception I gathered towards others in my world based on how they treated me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within a memory and thus define myself in each moment forward when I am with those in my age group based on the trigger points of how they speak to me or move around me, and thus will determine where I stand with others based on the perception of being seen within my own eyes as ‘accepted’ by them or ‘rejected’ by them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be accepted by others in my peer group based on a fear of being rejected, so thus I will change my behavior and mannerism to be more outgoing and fun, and thus if I assess any pint that I was rejected, I will go into a reclusion with others within even simple points of beings not answering a question I asked, and within me taking it personally, but later I found it was based on them not hearing me or a point that had no relevance to me. I realize within this point of taking things personally and defiling myself by others I will never be truly content and peaceful within myself because this is an impossible point as it’s based on the polarity of good/bad, there will always be both polarities at play in various dimensions and various times, so thus I will be creating a complete mind fuck for myself every time I am with others because I am not here with my physical, but in my mind trying to be someone I am not, a picture in my mind of how I think I am being perceived by others, instead of being here and walking the reality of who I am as I am living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being outcasted based on holding on to the memory of being outcasted by my friends in the past, and thus within myself lived into this point seeing myself as the outcast and thus became reclusive and quiet with those in this age group, so I wouldn’t be bothered and imposed on by others as I fear conflict and being called out again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take others words or movements towards me personally when in fact I did not know the thinking behind it or where the person is in their life and so I am only creating a consequence for myself of separating myself from others due to this point of feeling good/bad about what someone says or does towards me and thus defining who I am according to the perception I have made on how another sees/speaks to me. If I want to be free, I have to direct and define myself here and accept life as it is, so thus I can change it to be what is best for all and thus what is best for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be the person who has outcasted another in seeing myself superior to another and thus making them feel less then me because within myself I judged them within what they looked like or how they acted, and thus assessed within this judgment that I am better, so thus creating and accepting the outcasted point in my world and thus it was created as me as I have accepted it to be instead of standing equal to life and accepting all as self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself create a polarity of in and out where in I have created a point of separation through comparison and judgment and thus inequality within who I am, when I realize that we are all the same as life, and thus there is no point in comparison and judgment as it only separates me from others, and thus separates me from life as life is all and I am life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus play into the polarity of fearing not getting what I desired as I have only defined myself based on the approval of others and if they see me as worthy or not, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not getting what I want based on defining myself by others and thus linking my desires to others approval of me, which cause me to seek outside influence instead of being here as myself and walking my own self acceptance through understanding who I am in what I do and who I am with others stopping this point of living for others and thus live for self here one and equal with life as the physical.

I commit myself to stop the point of taking things personally by focusing on myself and breathing through the moments were I want to go into this point as I see that it will only create consequences for me of going into the polarity of better/worse, and so stand equal in what matters which is us as the physical and keep it simple with moving myself as others as life in the physical in solutions that will help life become better for all.

I commit myself to stop the fear of being outcasted by letting go of the memories of being called name and being outcasted by my group of friends as I realize that I am not defined by who I am with or who are my friends, but I define me here, and thus can be content with myself no matter where I am, that is true freedom by realizing that we are all here and thus just living this realization of equalizing myself with life and living this in my daily living.

I commit myself to stop all points of comparison and judgments within thoughts and walk the correction by stopping participation in them, realizing that life is equal in all its forms, to separate myself from this based on the judgments is not worth it as life is best in equality with all as this is what is real.

I commit myself to let go of all fear of being rejected as well as this desire to be accepted by others and thus walk my own self movement, my own physical process, where in I am not defined by any being but my own principles in my life in what is best for all life.

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Day 144- Stupid Character – Survival and Competition Self Forgiveness – Part 3

This is specific to my peers, as I see I can easily be with younger people or older people as I see them as relatively being equals in terms of there is no real competition at play with them. Within my peer group though, there is the survival trigger that is played out, as I am on an equal playing level with these people and so I will go into a point of survival mode where in I will have to be seen as the best as possible to be able to survive and stay within a relative sense of security, because If I don’t have this point of ‘friends’ as my peers then I’ll be alone, and I don’t want or enjoy being alone.

I will be writing self-forgiveness on the above portion in relation to competition and survival with my peer group, suggest to read the following blogs for more context:

Day 142- “Stupid” Character- Part 1 - Intro
Day 143- Stupid Character – Fear Dimension Self Forgiveness – Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see those in my age group within a point of competition because I have judged this group as those that I have to go to battle with to survive in this world as I have learned through my friends, sisters, the media, that there is a struggle to gain status and get what you want as it is not just going to be given freely.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a negative polarity as self diminishment if I see that I am not able to compete and win, and thus create more self judgments of myself within the belief that this is why i am losing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be the best within the group I am interacting with and so within this desire create a point of separation as competition, as within this point, I am creating of desiring to be the best, their will be those who will lose, so creating the polarity in my world and thus the world at large to go into competition and thus drive the point of having to survive with those who are equal as life and equal within having to survive as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drive the point of competition based on my belief that if I don’t go into competition with those that I see in competition with me, such as my peer group, I will lose and not be able to get what I desire in this life. I realize however, that we can create a system where everyone wins, if I as this world, let go of this point to be the more then others and stand equal with all as how I would want for myself, this point of feeling that I need to survive will end because I am not competing any longer, there is no struggle as everything will be shared as we realize all need to live equally so thus share everything equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself within comparing myself to others, and thus creating a point where I go into that some beings are more then me and some beings are  less, and thus within this automatically creating a point of polarity as some are more and some are less, and that what is important is to be the more so I can survive and get what I want. I realize that within this initial judgment of myself, I am creating the separation of myself with others, and thus creating a lack within me, so it’s to stop this initial point of self judgment and walk the equality of myself with others by physically living it in my world through physical actions, speaking, not imposing, ect. So that I am not in a point of lack/gain, but here with all in equality to find what is best for everyone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus through this point of separation through lack, created a point of need from the outer world to fill that lack, so thus searching and driving to find that which I am looking for, which is my own self interested happiness, such as status and success within my peer group, so I can be seen as the strong one and I can eventually gain what I want as I have shown that I am more and thus those get what I want because in this system those who are the fittest will survive, but realizing this is not life, as when I am at the losing end, life suffers which is unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a point of fulfillment outside of myself based on not accepting myself within my own body, so thus I must stop the point of self judgment and comparison and defining myself by the outer, and walk the inner process of myself to stabilize myself and become equal in acceptance with who I am, so thus my living can equalize on the outer and their will be no need to seek fulfillment from anyone or anything outside myself as I have created self fulfillment within myself as myself within stopping the separation as my mind in thoughts, reactions, and multi-dimensions, bringing myself back to the physical here where life is.

I commit myself to stop and breath when I see I am going into a reaction of survival within a group by stopping the activating thoughts of self judgment and walking the physical through the breathing and moving myself physically in my hands to get me back to my body and thus walk the process of equalizing myself with the beings in the physical by stopping my mind as thoughts, reactions, emotions, and feelings.

I commit myself to stop all points of competition within my mind as thoughts and thus within the physical as actions to thus be able to stand as equals for real, and let go of the drive to be more through competing, as I realize it’s not necessary as we can all share what is here and live as who we are as equals, it’ll take physical action through my living correction in when I see I go into this point of competing, I breath and I stop.

I commit myself to stop the point of belief that if I don’t compete, I will not survive, so here will walk the point of creating systems, means, and actions in my world that will create an equality with those I am walking with, working with, living with, ect. So an equality and sharing can be developed and created within my world, where all win and all benefit, ending the drive for competition and survival as I have physically stopped participating in it. This to continue into the world system, as I walk and push my efforts with the group who are supporting the equal money system, so the survival drive will end in this world and world equality can be here among all life.

I commit myself to stop the polarity I live within seeing that I am lacking if I don’t compete, stopping the point of desire for more, and become satisfied with what I have, making important the life of all in equality and not my own self interest as entertainment and feeling good, if life is going to be lived for everyones enjoyment then it must start within me and my living.

I commit myself to walk the point of self fulfillment by walking my process of self forgiveness and self correction within accepting who I am and changing myself through my living by stopping the judgment and lack within me, and walking simply a process of correction in space time, that I understand will take time, so this can be done once and for all, embracing me and enjoying myself as life as this is a gift, and stopping the abuse within self interest and competition in stopping the belief that survival is life because it’s not life.

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